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so uhhh happy valentine's day i suppose !!
shoves this in your face and runs away
so. uh. yyyyyeah. when i said i liked all interpretations of their dynamic equally i uh. i lied. and to be totally and completely and 100% honest with you it speaks volumes to the state of the internet that i have been legitimately afraid to say that like i've genuinely been debating and turning it over in my head and arguing with myself about it for days because i don't want people frickin' YELLING at me and telling me to off myself because i like a dadgum fictional ship but it's valentine's and my friend has been hyping up the crap outta me so i'm past the point of having a reasonable excuse to chicken out (and i know myself and if i don't do it today then i likely won't do it at all)
anyway words actually cannot express how obsessed i am with post-o66 aus in which they stay together (largely because i so completely refuse to believe they'd be willing to split up after THAT, ESPECIALLY that soon) so yeah shoutout to the softest fluffiest gut-punch-iest pair in the galaxy to whom everything bad has happened but who stay silly despite the horrors
#star wars#clone wars#star wars the clone wars#rexsoka#ahsoka tano#captain rex#clone wars ahsoka#clone wars rex#my art#crying screaming throwing up etc.#LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN WATCHING THE SIEGE OF MANDALORE FOR THE FIRST TIME CHANGES A PERSON OKAY I AM A SIMPLE GIRL#uploading both versions cause y'all seem to really like the simple gradient coloring apparently#i am such a sucker for these two it's actually kind of pathetic haha! i've been into them for years now ever since i first watched s7#but i am only recently devolving into like. neuvia levels of unhealthily obsessed. ouegh.#i'd just like for them to have the freedom to sit in a grassy field with a nice breeze and just Exist for a little while#iiiii've actually been working on an extensive post-o66 au of my own and i reaaaaaaaaaally wanna draw some stuff related to it. hehehe#if you don't like the ship that's totally fine but please just be nice about it or don't say anything at all#i do not have the energy to deal with people screaming at me and it's also just kind of insanely offensive so#i am so scared to put this up actually whoaa haha#also unrelated but looking at the cover for the ahsoka novel... how did y'all arrive at the conclusion that her shirt is blue#that. that looks brown to me. i am relatively sure that is brown#ALTERNATIVELY COME TO THINK OF IT IF THAT IS BLUE THEN HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MORE 501ST COLORS I LIKE IT#i drew this like two weeks ago but wanted to save it for today so i could finally get out of this rut of being too nervous to say anything#ughhh.#do y'all even still like them here...? seems like a lot of the rxsk-centric blogs just disappeared in recent years for some reason#hope it wasn't antis but it would not surprise me in the slightest#PUT THIS IN THE QUEUE AND GO TO BED YOU COWARD (<- talking to myself)
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an update on the sleep talking,
#for full transparency theyve told me about numerous sleeptalking instances since the last one i posted here#but apparently my volume ks getting louder.... im worried#im just gonna say its the stress getting to me 😭😭😔 this is goofy#literally what am i a badly written sitcom character??#who is writing this script? wise up please#its extra goofy bc whenever theres the sleeptalking trope in media#like character a witnesses character b saying something in their sleep and its all soft#deep down I've always been like 'psh thats dumb bc ppl dont just TALK'#i made myself the fool#dia talks
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me looking for new cherik content to talk about in the same seven movies i’ve talked about nonstop since august:
there’s nothing 😔
#i don’t like repeating myself so much but apparently i need too until mcu drops the new cmen movie#I’M WAITING#sighh i want to watch the og movies for cherik but there’s barely anything there#like i feel like x2 is the most they interact with eachother and even then 😒#gonna starting lying to myself and say there was a cherik mention in Logan#like when Charles was ‘talking’ to x24 he says something like “I miss Erik…”#or something idk I JUST NEED CRUMBS AT LEAST CMON#don’t tell me Charles forgot about Erik 🙁#i mean angst yum 😋 but still 😿#sighh#cherik#xmcu#xmen#wish does not shut up
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Everybody has voting power! I have my own preference, but I'm really curious what would you chose! Let me know in the poll and don't forget to share so we reach 40 bundles sales! We are not that far!! If anything is unclear just let me know <3 Also, I imagine the button pin would do great on a grocery bag, I think it would associate for me with the calendar bundle, and therefore remind me to take the grocery list (written on the Klance seasonal to-do lists XD) mmezzy.bigcartel.com
#klance#laith#talking about reminders and all#i always thought of myself as an organised person - not very aethetic kind or organization but i always thought of myself as diligent#but apparently my methods to remember are unusual like leaving a bag in the middle of the room#like forming one habit and then attaching things to that habit (ex closing doors so things i need with me land next to the keys so i see it#i leave hints for my brain that will make it go 'huh weird'#literally if id be scared to forget something id change my phone wallpaper or leave a open book on the counter#but it does not happen THAT often i am constantly reality checking anyway#i just like to be prepared
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Me: BRO. Can you imagine if Luffy activated Gear 5 2 years earlier at Marineford
AO3: Hey boo I gotchu
Me: AY-YO????
#One Piece#SO GLAD I'm not the only one who got this idea holy shit#Apparently Gear 5 Marineford is a Thing that is actually relatively popular#LOVE that for him tbh. And Ace. Bc he saves Ace with it lmao#Extra angst with Luffy actually dying first before his devil fruit slaps him back to life is also quite brilliant#Luffy's devil fruit squeezing his heart like a squeaky toy: NOT TODAY BITCH#His entire crew suddenly gets a sixth sense and they KNOW#They KNOW something is wrong and that Luffy. Something happened to their captain#But before they can mourn for too long they hear it. The DRUMS BABYYYYYYY#Normally they'd all be too far to hear them but they can :) And everyone around them is like. Uhh#The Strawhats: I can hear them. The drums#Everyone else: ??? What are you talking about are you losing it. You're probably losing it#I need to hold myself back from reading all these fics bc I actually. Gotta finish Marineford first LOL#Don't wanna spoil myself TOO much#Shima speaks
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@ambientwitch made us Angel’s Laments and reader, I don’t need to drink it again. But I‘ll try anything once
#my brain really wanted it to be a root beer float#and did not want to accept the taste of guinness At All.#but everyone else seemed to like it#we don't need to talk about the abomination i created in an attempt to make it more palatable for myself#my real review? apparently I just don’t like Guinness
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It doesn’t really hit home how much I’ve screwed up at life until I realize I have literally no one I can call without hesitation about [problem]
#don’t talk to any high school friends anymore except for like a once a year text catch up with like 2 of them#don’t really talk to any college friends either even though it’s been less than a year????#and the last time I tried it did not help at all#the only friend I can think of who explicitly said I can call her whenever is really busy rn#and I tried to hash this out with her not too long ago so I don’t just wanna repeat myself#NOT comfy talking to family about this and anyway my brother reported another typical lack of communication skills moment that happened at#home today#hhhhhh#I never felt like I was doing anything wrong in the moment but apparently I am actually really bad at friends and relationships#and it’s not like anything bad has happened with friendships????#when it’s good it’s really good but no object permanence lmao#so anyways#I’m really glad the semester is about to start and I’ll be able to go to adoration and daily mass regularly again#feel like I am going INSANE#p
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Yearningly looking at the Warframe D&D Document bc Man I Wanna Play That
Which is really not as grave as ppl who go "I wish I had friends to play this with but alas :(" about TTRPG stuff in general bc 1) I have a group I play with! It's just Pathfinder 2e instead and 2) said group came together from the playtesters of the Warframe D&D Project. I Playtested For That Project. I Got To Play It Already
Unfortunately that also means that I have firsthand experience with how much it fucks and thus know exactly what I'm yearning for
#the amount of creativity and work that went into that thing goddamn#chatter tag#warframe#apparently theres talk about it elsewhere but ive not seen it on here yet#which is fair this community is comperatively small but Still#im taking this duty upon myself as your resident paladin who got fuckin eaten by grendel#the group i was in was all newbies to dnd 5e and i still find it hilarious#that we got taught a Really hard lesson of Do Not Clump#bc like. most monsters do not in fact have devastating cone abilities!#but a lot of warframes sure do!#we started out our dnd/ttrpg journey fighting nothing but bosses#shadow of the colossus but the sorcerer is setting everything on fire
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Every day, I wish I knew Japanese so that I could read Cyrano de Bergerac in Japanese
#Cyrano de Bergerac#Japanese#translation#the things that language does with 2nd person pronouns... *drools in linguist*#can we talk abt the tu/vous distinction in translation pls Mac I've been dying to talk abt the tu/vous distinction in translation all day#BIG L TO ENGLISH for losing that distinction!! yes it pushes translators to try out other tricks to convey the same register switch#BUT STILL. I WANT IT AS A TOOL IN MY KIT#but Japanese... oh this play in the hands of the right translator could be a DREAM#adding subtleties of changing register & address that Rostand couldn't have imagined#I was reading an article on the nuances of 'anata' & apparently will be thinking of little else for a while! :)#anyway. I'm mainly talking abt the collateral impact to pronouns due to Cyrano's being mad with love around this part:#'...je vous aime‚ j'étouffe‚ // Je t'aime‚ je suis fou‚ je n'en peux plus‚ c'est trop...'#there are SO MANY DIMENSIONS OF IDENTITY to play with in Cyrano & Roxane's relationship!#the class/nobility aspect. the distance (respectful) aspect. the distance (yearning) aspect.#the friendly intimacy aspect. the silly playfulness due to having grown up as childhood friends aspect. the familial aspect.#I can't imagine this translation bc idk Japanese#but I know enough ABOUT Japanese to imagine myself imagining it & I'M GOING CRAZY. EXPLODES#the things he says! or means to say! or slips up on! or hides! or reveals! simply in the way he addresses others!!!#the Le Bret tutoyer free pass! the 'ouais ! 🙄😒' to Christian! the respect vs teasing towards the nuns!#the moment where he interacts w a waitress & the stage directions say he treats her like a princess! aaaaaaaaah!
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love how i, as a grown ass adult, am still fucking terrified of groups of teenagers 🙃
#i had to go past a lot of them while out for my run this morning#and i kept telling myself it's fine but it made me so so anxious i wanted to turn around and just go back home#like. apparently i really will always be that bullied little girl deep down huh#and part of me finds it comforting. the thought that we carry these people we used to be with us#but i hate feeling like this in my fucking 30s because it makes me feel so silly#and i KNOW it's not. i know this shit affects you sometimes for the rest of your life but. ugh#i remember my therapist at some point saying 'i think a lot of your anxiety developed due to you getting bullied'#like it was some massive revelation dldgjkd#and i was like yeah no shit#she was a great therapist but duh lmao#anyway idk why i'm even talking about this#eena.txt#tbd
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i admit that i find it a little bit frustrating how Wildly Astonished other antizionist jews act when i tell them my israeli jewish family have lived in the region since [some unknown length of time before 1800 when there start being records about it]
#and then they're like ''ohhh they're mizrahi!'' [connotation nonwhite‚ virtuously indigenous]#and i have to be like. no. it's just that‚ as palestine was in fact ottoman-administered greater syria for most of the last 600 years‚#you could get there from other parts of the ottoman empire. such as the part of now-ukraine your ashkenazi family is also from.#it wasn't actually a hermetically sealed arab-only ethnostate that evaporated immigrants on sight. it was a pretty decent place to live as#a jew by at least some accounts. or better than the front of the hapsburg-ottoman war anyway which is where they were coming from.#i'm not sure who you think it's serving exactly to believe that there were literally no ashkenazim in the middle east before the 1st aliyah#however there were some. and this information does not actually threaten a modern anti-state of israel position like at all.#but since apparently you've constructed your new Diaspora-Centric Identity around the idea that 'palestine' and 'diaspora'#are the two mutually exclusive nonoverlapping regions and the former is ontologically a no-european-jews-allowed zone#i guess i can give you a minute to try to figure it out.#ugh sorry this is nothing it isn't anything. for one thing it's fantastically unimportant#and for another thing i don't know how to like talk about it in a way that doesn't make me sound at least kind of like im trying to justify#myself as being somehow less complicit or something. i mean i think my complicity as an american dwarfs the rest of it honestly but.#i just feel really insanely alienated where the rhetoric of my theoretically most closely politically aligned group is not really built to#like. accommodate the facts of my family history.#sorry. i have honestly no idea why im so obsessed with articulating this concept ive just been chewing on it pointlessly for days#box opener
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questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.#i hate it here!#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk#but at the same time i. want to be loved.#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?#i don't know. i don't know!#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.#but i don't know how to stop it.#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are#queer stuff tag#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever#care for me#now im rambling. sorry
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THE NEW PVPCIV EPISODE UUUUSUWUDUUW1122
REAL REAL REAL seawatt going through a mass extinction is apparently a canon event every version of evboverse!seawatt gotta go through i guess LMAO
#wait. WAIT A DAMN SECOND#BITCH JUST DROPPED A NEW ONE?????#I THOUGHT U WERE TALKING ABOUT THE BOW ONE. TF U MEAN THERE'S ONE ABOUT THE AXES ALREADY 😭😭😭#i need u to understand. i apparently dont have notifications on for his channel#I ONLY REALIZED BC I DECIDED TO GO CHECK THE CHANNEL “JUST IN CASE”#JUST IN CASE EL GÜEBO MÍO NOJODA IM DUMB AF#anyway#the demon council speaks™#expect a liveblogging thread to start spawning like the weird green things in the moon from the april fools minecraft update that allowed u#-to vote the moment i post this <3#pvp civilization#“oh lemme go check the channel just in case!” el güebo mío carajo...#this reminds me of that time i realized that whitepine ep3 dropped bc i just so happened to be looking at the wiki and spoiled myself about#-clown being a veteran + reddoons' character 😭😭😭#broother i cant catch a break
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#I've found myself blocked by a lot of random people since I made that alt text rickroll post#like even people I have talked to were apparently really offended by my disrespectful misuse of alt text#like... first of all it was meant as a silly goofy joke for MY MUTUALS ONLY and then it got away from me#second of all it was someone else's idea first I was just copying off of another post#and thirdly I deleted it once I realized that people were upset about it!!! it isn't even on my blog anymore!!#I wasn't making fun of visually impaired people holy shit. I AM a visually impaired person#I was making use of Tumblr features to make a joke for MY MUTUALS.#and now I can't interact with half of this website because of it#like yeah it was inconsiderate of me THAT'S WHY I DELETED THE FRICKING POST GUYS
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thanks for the tags @dwarvenagenda & @pricegouge !! 💓
it was fun to check my stats for this year :3
funny to compare how i started my year vs how its ending (fandoms im writing for, fic length range, themes and tropes i’m preferring, etc).
i’ve found that although ive maybe written less and had less interaction in general from readers this year i’ve truly found some amazing people that i consider good friends on here now :’) and i wouldn’t swap that for anything!!
blank copy below and npt: @pricetagged @ohlawdthebirds @sentientcave @syoddeye @gloard @wraithdance @buttdumplin @luvrodite @mikichko @lewistoferrari @disgustingtwitches
#very ironic that my top fic is inspired by the same tv show that my top spotify song came from too#like it truly took over my year apparently…#i’m trying not to push myself to suddenly go on a writing rampage bc i really wanted to hit 200k by the end of the year BUT#it’s meant to be fun not about hitting goals so this is teaching me restraint lmao#i know i’ll have written a lil bit more that’s just not posted on ao3 but not enough to make a difference#plus i had suuuuper bad writers block and a major confidence crisis mid year and i haven’t had that in a while before#i think having a community helps and is lovely in a way i’ve never experienced but it also made me feel like i had to compete (totally my#own feelings and anxiety at play. not at all anyone else putting on that pressure)#but it’s been a learning curve for me to try and just enjoy it and not focus on stats and churning out content - previously i’ve only ever#interacted with people through comments so i had quite a skewed view of ‘if i want to talk to people about this then i have to create to#get their attention.’ which isn’t true or healthy! but i know that now and im going my best not to fall back into bad habits#tag games#tag game
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#hate how there’s no way to talk about (ie complain sorry) having a large following without sounding like a Bitch w a humongous head#like I can’t say anything about how I don’t like it without sounding ungrateful (?) or sounding self important#like who tf am I to think anything I do or say matters to anyone one a broader scale just bc I have some followers on a silly website?#I myself agree b*tch I’m just some girl!!!! but another faction of my followers think I’m incredibly important somehow#and they go thru everything I say/rb with a fine toothed comb. or read a lot into what I DONT say but apparently should have..?#it’s exhausting I’m sorry lmfao I can’t imagine how draining it would be if I had anon on still#it’s even big headed to acknowledge I have a large following. like yeah I do. it just kinda happened sorry#I don’t REGRET it in fact I like it quite often but just in little spurts#but idk what I’m saying is there’s a feeling of pressure to make public my thoughts and feelings that I hate
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