#anyways rambles of a 4am

[hauntingofthelamb]

not 20 minutes ago i was crying but now im drawing some bats. the healing properties of a little guy are underestimated in todays society

[crystallizsch]

AGH happy (definitely-not-late) bday to mr jamil viper 💖🐍 and thank u harveston jamil for coming home as well as two of his bday cards 💖💥

[seri-tonin]

Something that's recently become a pet peeve of mine is when people mischaracterize Alhaitham and write him as someone who easily gets mad, especially with Kaveh. But in canon, I don't think he ever actually is shown to get really upset with him (or, for that matter, anyone other than azar iirc, and even then it was at least partially acting). A key part of his character is his ability to stay calm and rational in any situation. He never goes further than some pointed banter and teasing. Kaveh mentions in Alhaitham's trailer that he has a bad temper, but all other evidence shows it's the other way around

[bananasfosterparent]

An anti-AA account posted a comment akin to "I'm tired of the fandom being taken over by sex pests who are obsessed with abusive relationships" in response to the AA kisses being optimized for evil route roleplayers. They were implying that we "bullied" Larian into "changing the narrative they created". (which is a whole other rant post on its own lol). And some others agreed.

Is... is this really how they see us? lmao

I am just baffled because so many loud Anti-AA people are:

constantly going on and on about how it's supposed to be an abusive relationship

constantly reminding AA fans of all the abuse AA supposedly does

writing fanfiction and drawing comics showcasing AA as an abusive partner to Tav/Durge

making absolute statements that AA is locked out of healing and only able to treat Tav abusively

making absolute statements that everything good AA says is narcissistic lovebombing and only everything bad he says (after Tav insults him) is to be taken as truth

only ascending him to get AA romance scene screenshots (with an "I hate AA but..." disclaimer usually attached).

thirsting after AA's romance scenes in general while condemning actually playing/enjoying the ending as a whole because... *drum roll* abuse.

brigading Larian on their Discord with messages to "protect their narrative" to drown out AA fans just asking for rp-friendly animations.

AND YET....AA fans--who actively avoid and reject the abuse narrative headcanon and enjoy AA as a whole and not just for the sexiness--are apparently the sex pests, obsessed with abusive relationships. Out of all the AA stories, comics, and things I've consumed from AA fans, none of it ever seems to include the abuse narrative or glorifing him solely for sexual reasons.

Huh...

[momentomori24]

Just finished the new episodes of Season 2 and GOD I am living for the hypocrisy.

Here we have Topside, shocked and disgusted and angry at the death of a few powerful people on their side, yet completely indifferent to the deaths of hundreds caused by them in the undercity.

When it's the council--the same people that have maintained the suffering and the oppression of the people of Zaun-- that are killed, there's a grand memorial. There's tears of sorrow. There's calls for justice. When it's the innocent people underground that are killed, then it just is what it is.

When Jinx kills some topsiders and Caitlyn's mum, there are cries for her head. There's a need to deliver consequences. When it was enforcers that killed her parents and falsely imprisoned her sister, there were none.

When Jinx declares war on Piltover and kills people out of grief and revenge, she's labelled a terrorist. A monster. An irredeemable criminal that needs to die, stripped of the fact that she's a suffering, unstable child. When Caitlyn declares war on Zaun and kills people out of grief and revenge, she's labelled a hero. A poor girl who needs justice. She literally gets promoted too, given more power to do just that.

When Zaunites commit crimes and acts of terror against the people of Piltover once, they're called animals. They're seen as monsters. They're nothing more than savages. When Piltover systematically has oppressed and imprisoned and killed the people of the Underground for decades, they're still civil individuals with the moral high ground.

Jayce talks about hope and peace for everyone, but then installed something dangerous that could be cause a devastating explosion if overloaded underground where it wouldn't effect Topside, but would have severe consequences for the Undercity, despite the fact they're the ones who reap zero benefits from Hextech.

After all the suffering and death Piltover had enabled and caused, once there's an attack against them, all of a sudden they're the victims. They've given the Zaunites soooo many chances. Their (very reluctant and way too late) decision for "peace" was a kindness, a privilege, a gracious gift and not the bare fucking minimum.

The way Piltover reacted to Jinx attack on the council and the death of Caitlyn's mother vs how they reacted to the horrors they themselves have inflicted on Zaun is so, so revealing of just how deep their classism and prejudices actually run. It's so uncomfortably and deeply realistic to how these things go in the real world and in history and it makes me fucking seethe.

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Hey guys are you allowed to have two fursonas cuz I'm really attached to being a bat but I just had the idea to make a cockatiel sona and I adore that so much 😭

[kuromi-hoemie]

when you ask a restaurant for spicy food and instead of cooking it in a way that makes the end result hotter they just obliterate all the flavor by dumping heaps of sriracha all over it after the fact

[sideblogdotjpeg]

i have said it before. favouritest thing about sol bufo is that he cares so deeply about his friends and he wants to take care of them !!!! SO BAD!!!! and when hes actively trying he is successful maybe half of the time. he cooks for his friends even though he is self admittedly not a good cook and never really learned how. he makes poorly advised knitted socks and hammer-covers for them. reassuring shoulder squeeze that hurts because he did it too hard. telling albin he was soo good at stabbing him when he was brainwashed..... and i think ... as much as sol cares he also has a ... limited amount of social intelligence and ability to read people (if i remember right caldwell mentioned sols low charisma was repped as him being kind of s cluelessly rude frog?) . IDK. theres something so silly and sad and endearing about this frog who cares SO much about people and wants to take look after them but still hasnt really figured out how to do it right yet.

[why-the-heck-not]

woke up at 4am to be productive but u know what the thing about calm quiet mornings is? It’s too calm. how am I supposed to get anything done if I’m not 5 seconds away from a stress induced heart attack???

[swiftmitsu]

bored so here are some questions ! 1-When did you get into utmv? What got you into it [idk if i should have split these lol] 2- best seating position ? 3- Do you have any utmv headcanons? 4- Song reccomendations? 5- You get to choose any fantasy weapon [or normal weapon], what are you choosing? [[unless you also have a broken sleep schedule, you'd be seeing this in the morning so good morning!]]

QUESTIONSS YIIPPPEEEEE

1- okayokay so. i TECHNICALLY first got into it in 2017, after watching Glitchtale, the YouTube Algorithm TM recommended me more UTMV stuff and from there i went down a rabbit hole--

i fell out of it in 2018 BUT THEN I FOUND WATCHED UNDERVERSE IN MAY OF 2023 AND--

yeah. sucked right back in. and its hitting HARD.

2- ooooo ok wait lemme just find my pen--

this also applies when i am sitting on floor. my legs MUST be propped upwards.

3- OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I HAVE A LOOOOOT.

my NUMBER 1 HEADCANON. is that Killer is asexual. (sex neutral to be specific--)

i like romantic Killer more eheheh

speaking of which.

I SEE HIM AS SUPER DENSE LMAO

like, he flirts like a desperate rat. sure. BUT WHEN SOMEONE DOES IT TO HIM??

it mostly flies right over his head. :') OR he gets super duper extremely flustered >:))))))

(i could go on but i will spare you 😭💥)

4- EHEHEHe okauy. As a Fellow Killer Enthusiast. I associate Killer with Killer by The Ready Set (NO NOT BECAUSE OF THE NAME.) the lyrics feed into my perception of romantic Killerokay aslkADLKJ💥

5- ehEJEHHEHE BOW. ALWAYS. SPECIFICALLY WITH MAGIC ARROWS.

because. i like the long distance, you get to attack in the shadows,

and ALSO I DON'T WANT TO CARRY AROUND 6000 AND HAVE TO CONSTANTLY RESTOCK RAAAHSJSLK (flashbacks to Maplestory. PAIN.💥)

i could go on about fantasy worlds and stuff omg. it is RRRIGHT UP MY ALLEY MWWAHAHHA

[aeligsido]

okay but Sirius who has a blind spot the size of Russia for Regulus. Like, guys it's not his fault if he's supporting Voldemort, it's our family's. It's not his fault if he's turning into a Death Eater, it's because of who he's hanging out with. It's not his fault if he's getting sucked into a blood purist cult, it's because he's too soft, too kind, too naive, too stupid to push back against what they've been taught. He's a good person at heart, Sirius swears, and makes excuses.

But also, Regulus having an equally Russia-sized blind spot for Sirius. It's not his fault if he's getting distant, it's because he's alone in Gryffindor without support. It's not his fault if he's questioning everything they know is true, it's because of his so-called friends. It's not his fault if he's becoming a blood traitor, it's because of the mudbloods and the half-breeds and the blood traitors and fucking Potter. Regulus arguing with his parents for the first time because they can't disown Sirius it's just letting them win and we can't let them keep Sirius.

Sirius distancing himself more and more from his family the more hateful Regulus gets (look at what they're doing to his brother!) and Regulus growing into more and more of a blood purist the more Sirius distance himself (they're stealing his brother, they need to get rid of them!).

And neither of them realizes it either.

[bizlybebo]

it’s only 8pm but what if i jusy laid down for a little snooze…. lil nap….

[just-slightly-chayotic]

Thinking about Kim meeting Chay. Kim, who hasn't known affection, who hasn't been touched (aside from stylists and hairdressers and makeup artists) without violence or ulterior motives since the day his mother died, meeting a boy who touches him without any other reason than the fact that he wants to.

[bidokja]

i've seen a few comments before (not on here, just in the past on other sites) frustrated and confused about why the oldest dream never talked to yoo joonghyuk. or anyone for that matter. why couldn't he just say something, anything at all? did he feel nothing as they suffered? couldn't he have helped somehow?

and there's a lot i could say about this and a lot of various layers and details and perspectives. but in the end it all comes down to this:

not a single one of us can talk to the characters in a book we're reading.

that's just how it works.

[madokasoratsugu]

thinking about xeno having to settle down with the kingdom of science for a bit...him being eerily out of place and everyone being on edge until it dawns upon someone (gen probably, but i like to think of it as kohaku as well) that he simply doesnt understand what its like to give without taking. how much has to be taken from you to view everything as a transaction, until you must have something to hold over someone to feel safe? xeno takes advantage of everything and deems everything he does as taken for granted; speaking japanese, synthesising compounds, being an unfailing beacon of rocket science. of course he can do this, why would you think he couldn't?

the fact that the coolness heats only when stanley is mentioned or involved, and the questions adds on; how important is this person, that you expect everything from and will give everything to, and how is it that you have survived this long as just you two? is there anything that can replace him? if there isn't, what can you do? what will you do?

suika asks xeno one night if he wants to go to sleep with her. xeno blinks, stupefied, as suika looks at him, steady and understanding in a way that perhaps a 18 year old shouldn't, still a child yet as she should be. as he should have been too, at 10, but look at where he is now. suika says, the only thing she wanted at 12 was a warm body next to hers when she woke up. suika says, she knows it isn't her he wants to see when he opens his eyes, but she's someone, and someone is better than no one.

at 12, staring at the university's dorm ceiling, xeno had wanted to go home. then stanley had snuck into his dorms the very same night, and his houston childhood home's ceiling no longer felt as appealing.

at 30, xeno chuckles, pats suika's elbow and tells her to go ahead without him. but he goes to bed early, and does not stare at the patch on his ceiling waiting for a knock on his window that will not come as he shuts his eyes.

the next morning, he thanks suika for a good night's rest. suika smiles, confused but pleased. and when xeno smiles in return, it is a thing not as complicated as before to decipher.

[crystal-verse]

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