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I'll listen to "if I didn't Belive in You" bc it's a good fucking song and I love Jeremy Jordan. But then it makes me so so scared of literally every relationship i have with literally everyone.
#no one can give you courage#no one can thicken your skin#i will not lose because you can not win#are all real things or near enough to what S actually said and I just think about it all the time#it's such a good song and J.Jordan does it SO FUCKING WELL#anyways made myself sob
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Had this Headcannon that when Multi-Lingual Dick and Jason get drunk they start singing Ballads in Spanish. Yeah some classical shit like Vicente Fernandez but also the most wild Selena you've ever heard.
#is this a post about Latinx Jason todd? Bitch it might be#Don't ask me about it tho cuz I'll deny it to my core#I imagine jason drunk off his ass belting No Me Queda Mas like he fuckin wrote the song#Dick's got Como la Flor Energy but he has ugly Sobbed NMQS too#they are so infamous for their drunk spanish ballads that they actually rub off on TIm#imagine young justice suprise when the whitest kid you've ever seen wasted on 7/11 liquor is hiccuping his way through a selena song#worst accent you've ever heard sounds like a dog from New Jersey learning to bark and yet the emotion is kinda on point#TIm denies it#refuses to believe he has ever done it#Dick and Jason get a copy of the video and someone edits a mash up of all three of them warble singing that banger#anyway this was a nothing post of nothing I made for myself#fr just for me#DC#Batman#Batfam#Jason todd#Tim drake#Dick Grayson
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I KNOW someone else has done this before and I cannot find that post for the life of me
This art is like a month old or something by now </3
#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#mabel pines#gravity falls mabel#dipper pines#gravity falls dipper#i dont know how to tag gravity falls fanart sobs and wails#anyway. forcing myself to post art because thats what i made this account for#OH SHIT I FORGOT TO TAG BILL#bill cipher#gravity falls bill#sock opera
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Im about to get controversial.
Out of chrollo, illumi and hisoka, hisoka is canonically the least likely to flirt to get anything he wants, if at all.
A lot of people think he's a natural flirt but I fear I couldn't have disagreed more. He only "flirted" a single time and that was solely to piss off machi, knowing she'd never agree. Hot take? He would've never asked if he knew she'd agree.
Also, bro's the biggest humanphobe in the anime. He keeps his distance from everyone. The only human physical contact he ever made was through fighting people. (If you're a person thats interested in seeing more evidence, I have an entire long thread about it on twitter that I do plan on posting here soon)
so u cannot give me 1 reason for hisoka to flirt with someone at a random bar but chrollo and illumi? i can think of a few.
chrollo, he already canonically flirts to get what he wants. straight up goes on dates gets a suit and shit. he has no reputation among the general public that hes concerned of that isnt the spider. Illumi? He's a manipulator. I HIGHLY doubt he never flirted to get something in his life from people who are too easy to win over. He's someone that wouldn't care what people think of him. He's also anonymous. People have no idea who tf he is anyways. If it affected the zoldyck reputation? Thats a different story.
Hisoka? he would fucking NEVER. Him specifically? HE HAS A REPUTATION. And whats that reputation? That hes an absolute disgusting freak that no one should dare to approach. He kills people. He fights live and makes sure the audience is always disgusted and weirded out by his actions and performances. You look at him and you should immediately look away and pray he hasn't seen you.
So riddle me this. If his entire shtick is making sure everyones afraid of him and avoids him, then why the hell would he get himself a reputation that makes him approachable????
Why would he get himself a reputation that makes you, as a person who only ever heard of him picking people up, want to approach him.
On top of that, I just.. don't see him picking random people up..??? random weaklings that dont even know nen????? he literally treats them like trash that inconveniences his time. You're saying he'd EVER give them the privilege of sleeping with him???
And then you'd say, oh so he'd sleep with strong people! HERES THE THING. Why would he sleep with them..... when he can fight them. Him getting off from fighting comes NOWHERE to actual sex. What people don't understand is that he gets off to killing people and seeing them crumble in front of him when they realize theyre going to die. Torturing people to death. What's... that got to do with like. yknow. actual sex bro 😭😭😭😭😭😭
this turned into a huge rant probably but do you know how genuinely depressing it is seeing a unique character like hisoka that gains lust through FIGHTING and KILLING reduced to. sex addict in fics. Like. be so fucking serious right now. He called himself a FIGHT ADDICT in the manga. Can I see more of him actually spending his time killing and fighting people instead of whatever the hell bros doing with a random npc.
Anyways this is also why I hc him as asexual/demisexual NEXTTTT
#When a fic is so good but they make a hisoka a sex god instead of a murderer. like dear god. Ya Allah. Mercy on me.#can i please get more fics where he absolutely fucking murders people in deranged ways like god (Togashi) intended instead of....#(checks notes) .....sex???#sorry to me this is 1 fanon characterization that i just gag from i cannot physically stomach that shit anymore.#also the way he never touched a single human and is not a touchy person yet the musical made disgustingly touchy with everyone including go#i saw red when i saw that one scene.#thats not fucking hisoka morow thats hekosa pedoro#if togashi wanted him to sleep around he would've so simply and easily made him mention that. Like even leorio said he jacks off.#yet togashi didnt. because HE DOESNT.#HISOKA GET BEHIND ME#anyways asexual hisoka morow canon goodnight everyone#also trans hisoka can we get a little more content of that i know its completely unrelated but pls im starving#i would put the “ill do it myself meme” WHICH I DO I HAVE A DEMI HISOILLU FIC but im so slow at writing fics sobs and throws up#hisoillu#hisoka x illumi#illumi#illumi zoldyck#hisoka#hisoka morow#chrollo#chrollo lucilfer#hxh#hunter x hunter#my post#my analysis
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aspen can have my affection, but not my eel 🙂↔️
(apologies for the messy parts, you made him so cute and I just had to make this as soon as I got the chance🤍)
oh my goooooooooooooooooood this is so good!!?!?!?! Talented so talented fr fr i love your art style its so pleasing to look at and you made Aspen look so cuuuute!!! I love my jelly squid boy and I'm so happy you kept his rectangular pupils! I wasn't sure that they'd translate over with how I drew him AND HIS LIL FRECKLACES AAAAAAA
#mochi's submissions#luxiviious#twst#twisted wonderland#twst oc#twisted wonderland oc#aspen albamar#OH MY GOD???????#BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK#FOAMING AT THE MOUTH#CRYING SOBBING#CURLED INTO MYSELF#HES SO BEAUTIFUL YOU MADE HIM LOOK SO GOOD#ASPEN MY DARLING#yall dont even know how motivating it is to get comments and art of your fics#makes me really wanna get the next chapter out asap#IM TRYINGGG its like a bit more than halfway done#anyways ty ty love this is soooo gooood
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eulogy
#i was fully going to just wrangle my way through life for another 39 years when my friend said to me:#you are gay and we want you to submit art for the pride art show. but i hasn’t drawn at all since last year so i made a new comic from scr#i was also having one of the worst times of my life all of the past week but every night after sobbing into a friends shoulder or wtv#i’d sit down and draw. and then today i locked myself in the basement for 5#hours and now he is finished. trans allegory or whatever#happy pride#world is horrible so hold the people you love close#i am trying . succeeding? not really but definitely trying#i have gone now through the 5 stages of grief. 1) eat food 2) eat food 3) hit rock 4) hit rock 5) give up#i Give Up. i give up by living my life without giving a fuck#which is like. actually giving down. or taking away down#idk anyway#i hope you’re well i’m HANGING ON BY A THREAD. BUT A GOOD THREAD#and to my lgbsbfk homies: i love you#my art
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HI GUYS 😋😋😋😋 I haven't been active (when it comes to posting) but but but I finished moriarty the patriot and and and ahehabwuabwhahsuqhwuwwhwhwhw I love him sososo dearly I'm gonna go insane.... louis my beloved <33
#SCREAMS AND BASHES HEAD AGAINST WALL...LOUIS I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY IM KILLING MYSELF 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#GUYS....GRIPS YALLS SHOULDERS#GUYS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i saw him and instantly knew i was gonna yume him but also its been 3 days since i started mtp and i already made so much art#anyways chat i am so in love with him#sobs#if only he had more screentime :((#💌 louis j. moriarty#🌈 my art#self shipping#moriarty the patriot#self insert
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i was in a really dark place before clancy came out in may... now i can genuinely say that i'm so fucking grateful for everything that happened ever since
#this album truly changed my life#i am still having bad days like all of us#but honestly#i'm different now#all those people who started listening to them because of me#my best friend going to clancy tour with me because they are everything to her now#losing my mind over tour pics with my tumblr friends and being excited for their shows as well#all those small interactions#all those friends i made here#i am so fucking grateful for all of this and all of you#i just hope you guys know that#i love you and i appreciate you and i could never thank you enough#this morning was so chaotic but i am so full of love now i don't know what to do with myself#i am living for this#you guys have no idea but i was giggling like a stupid clown when i realized you were waiting for me to wake up#this means the world to me and i am sobbing now i feel so happy#anyway#just wanted to thank you#you know who you are ❤️#i say whatever and whatever that i want*
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you should totally draw skateshot with boombox watching from a distance
You are on THIN ice there anon. /lh
#Nice try#like. Actually#Really nice try LMAO#I had to literally sit myself down and debate on if I wanted to draw this or not since i thought it was funny#But I decided this would be a funnier answer#Anyways this thing may’ve actually cured my artblock SOB so thank you in a way question mark????? LMFAO#I have no clue so far but lmao I hope this is a good answer for ya this ask legitimately made me snicker#Also yes that is the grammerly emote#I have zero regrets#art#artists on tumblr#phighting!#phighting fanart#phighting#digital art#roblox phighting#phighting roblox#phighting art#phighting boombox#boombox#shitpost art#shitpost
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"bad decisions, that's alright; look, i'm still alive"
#&juliet#if you saw the old version of this... no you didn't#anyway. &j posting now... made this into what i like to call a public transport wip#in which painting on phone with fingers commences! usually it happens to doodles that get coloured and i want to clean up#idk about the colours here though... that said it's a livable error#smth smth reminders to not feel so scared... many many paths.#be less afraid of messing up? just live life? many many paths#one of my key takeaways from this show was along those lines#sobs.. if that isn't the premise of the musical huh? juliet is so young and has her whole life ahead to live...#still so much ahead of her- so what if she Didn't kill herself?#<holds tightly> many routes. many routes. i am young and have my life yet to be lived.#also this comes from the joint bit near the end where angelique sings to juliet#!! also just realised that the nurse and juliet's hairstyles parallel each other... such a cute detail..#// sometimes the stuff i make is really just because the themes resonate at this specific point in life..#i think it's getting more self-specific! tbh every time i catch myself creating for Myself specifically i go <333
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creds to @epiimetheux !!!
i kept coming back to this beautiful artwork and i got inspired by it so here you go...
(disclaimer: i haven't completed a fic in forever, let alone published one, so i'm very anxious about this, i apologise if it's a mess •~•♡ love you guys)
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tom watches from the side as his husband steps forward to his coffin. pete's head is bowed, but he can see the trembling of his lips and the coiled muscles in his jaw.
oh my love.
what i'd give to embrace you one more time.
he knew he couldn't reach his husband anymore. his time had passed.
that didn't keep tom from standing next to pete's side. keeping watch. protecting his wingman, as they'd promised to each other years ago on that fateful day.
when repressed feelings and pretentious rivalry finally made way for the unconditional love thay had never wavered once.
partnership that had lasted 33 years.
tom watched as pete took the wings off his uniform, laying them onto the smooth oak.
the gun salutes were no more than background noise, tom's sole focus lying on the man in front of him.
the moment he saw pete punching the wings into the coffin he felt an incredible warmth spread through his chest.
such a feeling had been limited to very few moments in his life.
in the cockpit of his plane, soaring above the clouds with ron at his back and pete right by his side.
the return from the layton mission.
aching and sweaty and all kinds of shaken up but alive, thriving on adrenaline and pent up energy.
they had only seen each other then.
not iceman and maverick, but tom and pete, right there on the deck, what ron had later jokingly called their "confession".
their wedding. finally being allowed to slip a ring onto pete's finger while surrounded by all their loved ones. to call him his husband for everyone to see and hear without having to fear anymore. forever and always - the ending of both of their vows.
when their son had come back to them.
pete, bradley and himself crying with relief in their kitchen as they embraced for the first time in years. pete almost losing it as bradley started called him 'dad' again, and tom almost following suit when 'pops' returned back to daily use.
in that hospital bed, when he'd kissed his husband for the last time. he had wiped the tears on pete's cheeks with trembling hands, mapping that gorgeous face he knew better than the back of his own hand.
hushed i love you's in the quiet of the room, both signed and said out loud as they held each other.
the last words he felt pressed against his forehead being 'forever and always', before he slipped away into neverland.
tom looked over his shoulder just as pete stepped back from the coffin.
the wings on his back were strikingly white. glossy and strong feathers fluttered softly in the wind, and tom couldn't help the smile that spread on his face.
i will protect you, my heart.
my wingman.
my everything.
carefully he guided his wings around pete's sides. shielding him for just a moment. providing the endless support he couldn't give in person anymore.
pete looked up towards the sky, just like the rest of the crowd, watching as the missing man formation flew by.
everyone watched the sky, but tom couldn't tear his eyes away from his husband. how the dusking sun reflected in those tender green eyes. the curve of his nose, and the sweet lips he'd kissed so very often, now being worried at between pearly teeth.
i love you, forever and always.
as if he heard him, pete echoed his words.
"forever and always, sweetheart."
#your honour i love them#i made myself sad#sobbing#we will be back on the happily ever after train in a moment no worries#i still can't watch ice's funeral without crying#anyway#i hope you all like this#if you wanna see more gladly hit me up with some prompts#icemav is the most i write atm#so#but maybe i'll get to other stuff too#we'll see#those bouts of inspiration come very random oof#top gun#top gun maverick#tom iceman kazansky#pete maverick mitchell#icemav#ron slider kerner#bradley rooster bradshaw#old gay people have my heart
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hey have u guys read the fic bandit queens of the mont satiné shopping mall. (shaking through tears) i think u should. join me in my insanity <3
#butterfly soup#ppkm#pretend this is framed and colored really well it did not turn out exactly as i envisioned. also technically#i wanted to start the line earlier but . i didn't leave enough room on the paper! oops! so#you'll just have to read the fic! to find out what it was <3#I've read it so many times because uh. it makes me so insane (positive). this scene and . so many others#written in such a way that highlights what i love about the ppkm dynamic so much. i'm illiterate i can't describe it perfect but#I'd. i wanted to do more of the scene where they were actually on the carousel but i thought about drawing horse and was like. nope.#but it is so good. the. ouhhhhhhhh. ohhhhhhhhhhhh.#funny story i am terrible at reading (adhd) and when i get excited I skip lines on accident#and the first time around I missed the line where they get off the carousel so I imagined them having this intense conversation while#still on the carousel spinning around. made myself so dizzy. sob emoji#anyways this??? the confession???? illegal activity??!! queer activity????!!! gamestop?????!!!???? *explodes*#i duno what else to say I'm exploding . maybe i'll draw more who knows who knows . peepeeketchup man . chomping at the bars of my enclosure#wow not purple! (they drew the whole thing in purple originally and then decided it was not *the vibe* so he added 400 multiply layers)#roi draws
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one of the kiddos really loves rabbits and we're not able to really do much for Easter related activities irl so I thought I'd draw them with their favourite rabbit 'mon ... perhaps a gift from Guz,,,,,
#i keep going back and forth on whether i want to share system related drawings here but fhdksl this one's too cute to keep to myself#(i made sure everyone was okay w me posting this before this so djdkdl i got the go-ahead from the parts ''in charge'' so to speak)#its funny though bc i thought they'd like buneary the most but nope fjfkdl its scorbunny#when they were front a while back Sunny got them set up w a pinboard so they could save a bunch of cute pkmn art to it fhdkdl#and its mainly scorbunny and teddiursa dbdkdl very good choices tbh#anyways Guz would be SOOO good with them i just know it#it'd be very cute to watch them interact tbh fjdkdl he'd be so kind and gentle w them#also I'd love to watch him struggle to keep up with one of the other kiddos DBFHDKL he'd have to nap after being around her for long LMAO#OUGGHHHH he'd be such a good dad tbh but ... no children for me thanks DBDJDKL i got enough to deal with as is#but ... perhaps i can indulge a little and just make some more art of him interacting w the system kiddos... SOBS i love him sm#ANYWAYS IM A SAPPY FOOL. WAUGH. this is a weird post maybe but fhjdkl i think the art turned out so cutes :3#its not perfect but i also havent drawn any full body poses properly in... at least 2 weeks or smth#💜so good at being in trouble#💜a boy and his bug🪲#doodlebug.png#dandy.cmd
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well. i finished ch 17 of hi3. but at what cost
#avil plays hi3#tbf majority of me playing through hi3 just looks like This.#yes the acheron trailer made me get up and finish ch 17#i. :(#the fight between kiana and mei was so painful :(#ok also i suck ass in the combat and i was so scared of having to restart#BUT I THINK I HURT MORE THE FACT THAT KIANA JUST REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON MEI#BUT MEIS ALSO DOING THIS BECAUSE SHES TRYING TO SAVE KIANA#AND THEY WERE BOTH FIGHTING TO STOP AND TRY TO SAVE EACH OTHER#MEI YOU SAVED KIANA BUT LIKE..... DONT YOU WANT TO LIVE ALONGSIDE HER.... MEI PLEASE#tbh. the way i was going through ch 17 for hi3.#kiana and mei remind me a lot of oz and gil's relationship back in pandora hearts but#now it makes me want to hit my head on a brick wall because#'wow. i really just gravitate tO THE SAME FUCKING MEDIA EVERY DAMN TIME AVIL STOP IT FFS'#also idk i was thinking about it too#mei tried earlier to use the herrschers powers to try and protect kiana but it wasnt enough. she failed that time#and with no other option to save her she just HAD to and it makes me HURT that this was her only option#IN HER HEAD. I BELIEVE IN YOU MEI I THINK THERE COULDVE BEEN ANOTHER OPTION HERE (IDK WHAT BUT I AM SOBBING)#sprawls on the ground#at least i can have an emotional break for a little bit.... hsr update so i can chill w that#and then when i finish catching up w that. then i go back to being hi3's punching bag#can i get off this train now? why'd i sign myself up for this (welt yang doomed me and then i got fucked over by everything else)#idk also the way that both mei AND kiana resorted to using their herrscher powers to stop the other. two stubborn people....#but its done because they just... they just care so much and want to save the other#okay yeah we did beat each other up about it bUT STILL#MEI I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND 😭😭😭😭😭#anyways. glad i did. i have the worst stomach ache rn so i was Going through it#but my brain hit a reset so i feel normal now. save for the crying
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Love posting my Spotify receipts for the month bc you can always tell when I’ve had smth big to write for one of my classes bc the one Jash song (Dream (Outro from Calamity)) will make the receipt. I did not end up a Jashinator but I do like having a song I can rely on to make me write things.
#rian’s slay compilation#the first time I heard the song I was in a mood all da time so I really identified it w what splitting felt like#idk it doesn’t hit as much now bc I’ve undergone a different sort of mental illness lately (more tired than actively harmful to myself)#^it’s the way it picks up in intensity. that’s what it feels like when you try to communicate how smth feels but they don’t listen and then#go have fun at a concert and you feel so nauseous that you have to leave a shared group chat while you sob your eyes out for several hours.#y’know? anyway June/July was fun. I need four hours of build daily to keep me occupied (tired). it does actually do me wonders.#I’m so big and strong now. idk how big you are my lovely mutuals but I could lift the smaller ones I reckon.#right now I could pick up (not for long) anyone around or under 150 pounds. also preferably not super taller than me but I think it’d work.#it’s a start! I should start lifting. makes me feel big and strong. I wanna pick my friends up.#^sorry to derail this in the tags but I typed that up and was like ‘that’s such a King statement’. it’s bc someone liked a post where I#talked about feeling all overgrown and how King being half a foot shorter than me but still picking me up like a brides made me feel Not#Overgrown#I don’t worry about feeling overgrown so much anymore but I do kinda miss the bride lifting. it was nice every once in a while#it’s small things like that.#side note I think I could pick King up now bc they’re roughly my weight and as we established I can lift ppl about my weight very briefly#it’s the build. it makes me big and strong. it’s all the wood holding and platform throwing
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I have to conduct young woman's today in church but I don't want to.... I never fit in with any of the girls and I feel like most of them don't like me. it doesn't help that I moved here at the beginning of junior high when everyone already had their cliques and I was the "weird kid" (always was and always will be). My interests are so different from theirs that it's really hard to find common ground between us to talk about. Most of the girls are into sports and boys and talk about nothing else, meanwhile I'm into cosplay and writing (also boys, but I like girls, too and bringing that up with the church is not a great idea). The one other girl who no one was really friends with is my best friend in this neighborhood and she's in relief society and leaving for a mission in a few years
#it kind of got away from me#vent#vent post#personal#personal post#bleh#lds church#young woman's#also i'm not a woman#and only one person knows in my church#so I know i'm going to be misgesndered#it's not a huge deal but it's not a lot of fun#I don't want to stop going to church#I love church#also one of the leaders told me that trans people don't exist#and they're an “expert” because they listen to Christian/LDS podcasts about the LGBTQ+ community#and that's made it a bit harder to go to church#like. I love the gospel and I'm figuring out how to accept myself within said gospel#but she told me that as a youth group we can't bring up any LGBTQ+ related topics because we don't want to “give the younger girls ideas”#like ma'am#anyways I left early and my mom held me while I sobbed and I still have no idea how to deal with that situation#so I've never brought it up again#also the leaders daughter is like. the one girl who will actively hang out with me and has really nice views on loving people no matter wha#anyways#might delete later#idk
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