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malkwin · 6 months ago

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2017 CUP INTERVIEW

#evgeni malkin #pittsburgh penguins #kirian.gif #nhl #geno #hiaanya #i apologise if the colouring looks a bit different gif to gif i had to recolour each scene separately because the lighting changed #dramatically 4 or 5 times within the video and god hates me #anyway his lips and nose in the first gif i am perceiving and staring and jesus wow

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mango-mya · 5 months ago

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Yes that's Shakespeare please leave me alone

#OKAY SO kitty and puss are both on there bc kitty heavily inspired her character traits and attitude #but puss inspired this identity crisis she has that i jave literally never talked about .... it's new since I'm remaking her lore GRRRR #but erm yeah she 100 percent had flamboyant and big heists n stuff to gain attention and validation from the kingdom she used to live in #on hwr home planet.... there's a kingdok there btw #and ofc she's wanted dead or alive by the royal army #BUT ANYWAY she uses that thrill of getting attention and stuff to compensate for how little she thinks of herself yay!!!!!!!!#The whole “If I'm not the fearless legend they see me as then what good am i?” thing going on with Puss is almost exactly like how Elora is #except she does NOT ❌🙅‍♀️ call herself a hero #so she has a tendency to push others away due to the fear that they'll see how she actually is BUT OF COURSE wanded and sylvia change that #WOW we got a yapper over here!!!!!!!#do NOT let her listen to Remember My Name by Mitski bro she'll drop to her knees and sob #um #and rouge and rarity inspired her sassiness and dramatics :3c

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lightbulb-warning · 4 months ago

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i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

#maiora garrulates #the maiora overthinks the process of writing dialogue saga continues!!!!!!!#im so tired. i have been overthinking this shit in circles i have not been making any progress in any which way lmao!#im bitching and moaning for funsies this is not that serious in the Grand Scheme Of Things i just wanna improve at my fav thing #and ❤️ Unfortunately ❤️ my favorite thing in the world involves learning MY MOST HATED *NEMESIS*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! verbal communication. ew #words are fun! i LOVE words! toys!!!!! im using words right now and i didn't combust!!!!! wow look at that!!!!!!!!!!!!!#putting words in SEQUENCE? multiple times?? filtering THOUGHTS into SENTENCES???? sentences that a character would or wouldn't SAY???#AND THEN THERE'S ANOTHER CHARACTER SOMETIMES???? AND THAT BITCH ALSO HAS THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS????? AND THEY ALL HAVE PERSONAL IDIOLECTS #AND TONES THAT S U P P O S E D L Y ARE IMPLICATED BY MANNERISMS AND VERBAL HABITS AND CIRCUMSTANCES (AND THERE'S WRONG ANSWERS! ALSO!!)#AND THEY'RE IN A CONTEXT!! AND THEY'RE INTERACTING WITH EACH OTHER AND INFLUENCING EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE CONVERSATION COULD VARY GIVEN ENERGY LEVELS WHETER OR NOT SOMEONE'S FOOT IS FALLING ASLEEP THE F U C K I N G WEATHER #“oh dialogue is easy just say it out loud to yourself until it 'sounds normal' ^^”#screaming crying throwing up NONE OF THIS IS INTUITIVE TO MEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....!#ok dramatics over its out of my system! for now!!!#this is all easily explained bc i just. draw a lot more than i talk to people. so like. OBVIOUSLY i have more practice drawing #so drawing comes natural! talking does not! subsequently dialogue is Hard! No FUCKING Shit Sherlock!!!!! (affectionate)#so yeah. im using y'all (the tumblr void) as practice! hi!!! words at you!!!!!!!!!!#so yeah thanks for baring with me while passing by my corner of the internet #i do love self indulgence this is fun check out my navel gazing actually no do not look at my belly button #anyway i just think this is mildly interesting. some of my writer buds have the same “not good enough” allergy towards visuals #but they use it to be mean2me >:( same bitch that “omg i cant i suck at drawing i can't do this-” does the “uhm. just write? lol.” 2 meeee #we could have peace and love on planet earth and a common experience and yet you KICK miette for being bad at words!!!1!!! </3 heartbreak!!#what the fuck was i talking about even #oh yeah. perfectionism within creatives i guess. LMAO JK i am talking about NOTHIN!!!!G i am just putting Words Out Here ehehehehehe #its practice >;)c #all this bc ive been doodling comics for myself again and im V!! PROUD OF THE ART!!!! wanna share- but DIALOGUE!*⚡sfx!!*....... so! options #a) leaving it blank. no there are NO microphones in the budget. b) leaving blank *balloons* so that the Rythm is there. implied convo!!!#c) ...doing it badly. (tragic)(heartwrenching)(teeny tiny bruise 2 the ego) *dramatic single tear cleches fists * its the only way.........#...we shall see! literally none of this is all that serious i am procrastinating!! <3 playing with my tuoys!!!!!!!! silly time!!!#/all lh! am reaching 30 tags so that is all for THIS episode of the maiora bitches about dialogue saga thank you for joining me!!okilyBuhBY

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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just a few little bits from the past few days

#both the word count screenshots are from the same day - just different sections of the text. so that was like 4000 words in #one DAY.. huzzah!! (< making up for the fact that I did 0 words the 3 days before that lol.. so its not actually an accomplishment ghjjh)#In renpy I think you can have multiple separate texty cody whatever documents and still jump between them so long as they;re #labeled properly. Rather than like... having one extremely long 60.000 line file where in some places youre in a menu within a menu #within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu jhbhj #But that was the way I started doing it lke 5 years ago when I actually made the base of everything so I feel like it'd be too much #work to change it all that dramatically now. But that means I cant just get the word count for the whole document I just have #to jump around to the few sections I worked on and highlight them to get the word count for only that portion #.. the one tiny fraction of the whole monster text wall. Though it is of course spaced out and organized into #clearly labeled sections within that because otherwise I have trouble discerning text on a screen. still.#Resuming a project that's been basically abandoned for 4-5 ish years is just always finding weird stuff like.. why did I do this that way..#why did I write that... why did I organize that in this manner... what the hell am I referencing in this note... etc. lol #Anyway... also......................cat with plum on his head.#everyone point and laugh at mr. plum head boy..!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:3c #I've been obsessed with Calico Critters' social media presence from afar (like how I mentioned one of my possible dream jobs would #be to be the person that sets the scenes and arranges all the toy animals at a tiny little table and etc. to take the type of pictures they #post on their facebook page and stuff) and I see all their photos of them posing the rabbits as if they're in a swimming pool #or on a nature hike or etc. etc. BUT I have never really seen them in person. Recently I was at a store (in a KN95 mask and not staying #very long still of course. wastewater covid levels are still high where I live (and most of the US truly)) and it just crossed my mind #to actually go to the toy section and see if I could find any....wow.... Its like meeting a celebrity.. the Latte Cats....#Of course I didnt buy them because they're like... very expensive?? like $25 - $40 just for one little pack of a few critters like #what is shown. but.... I still got to see them................ my beloved.. I want their outfits... T o T #Oh and then lastly just a pot of purple clover looking things. I just think theyre neat lol #photo diary

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itspileofgoodthings · 4 months ago

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you know what I’ve realized lately? that’s really helped? the axiom: it just doesn’t really make that much of a difference. Or at least it doesn’t when you’re talking about good things and not, like, doing good vs. doing evil. Big choices, little choices, decisions, decisions —it’s not just that they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things—because they do! —but just. It won’t make that big of a difference. Life will continue to be wonderful AND difficult, fascinating AND hopelessly mundane, full of roses AND thorns and all the other cliches whether you walk down one road or another. And you’ll get used to the joys and sick of the sorrows whatever they are, and you’ll be ungrateful and bored and dissatisfied in some measure some of the time and you’ll have to work on all the things you have to work on anyways and just. Yeah! It doesn’t make that big of a difference! Even the biggest things!

#as Maria once said to me iconically: marry the guy don’t marry the guy #life is hard and it sucks and it’s also great and little treats exist #and we have to practice patience and virtue and penance regardless of any other circumstances #and God loves us no matter the path we take #like I just. I am reflecting #you know what also made this click for me recently? the limits that can be reached with doing little things to improve your life #like YES. I need to get some exercise and eat some food that is not totally terrible for me and clean my space #but you know the fuck WHAT #(I’m so sorry for swearing)#it doesn’t !!! actually !!!!! dramatically alter my life if I do one thing or another or in a certain order #I could become a fanatical hiker (for some reason I have been seized by the vision of this lately)#and it’s just like. well. yes you could. and you know what it would keep raining sometimes and my anxiety would still exist #and people would still be irritating and laughter would still be real!#anyway I don’t mean to be dismissive over the ways choices can deeply affect our lives #but when the choices are good and the options are good it just doesn’t matter that much #I also realized this with makeup lol. like I reached the point where I was like I could spend more time and effort and money #to achieve a higher level quality of appearance and literally for WHAT #people would still not pay attention to me in the grocery store (lol)#and they don’t need to!!!!! and it’s fine they don’t!!!!!!!#but I just. that voice in my head that’s like if you do X you will experience happiness you have never known #and things will all work out and everyone will be in love you #to that voice I say: well no.#wow this is long but you know what I mean????? it all just sort of matters less in the sense that nothing WE do is going to really #change our lives? I know that’s insane #because people are so insistent that the opposite is true. but like. actually no the most life changing opportunities usually happen #without our control or our scheming or our planning #so of the stuff within our control it’s not that big of a deal!! do good avoid evil enjoy your lunch call your mom!!! but that’s all gonna #keep being the same on the other side of so many many different choices we can make #so yeah

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auditioheros · 5 months ago

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i am truly baffled by the behavior of a supposedly grown adult

#sry guys i’m new to the fandom and like #very overwhelmed over all this #i’m sorry to my friends who really do not deserve to be going through this #know that i am sending the best vibes #i hate that people can be ridiculous and dramatic and downright the embodiment of yikes #anyway that is all i have to say cause #phew wow what on earth is wrong w them #tbd.#negative /

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blujayonthewing · 2 months ago

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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude

#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically #where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time #and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time #are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol #christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him #AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun #anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good #after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign #the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters #so we weren't acting on it #and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY #but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics #he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly #he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary #so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao #this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!

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peachyist · 3 months ago

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god dropping out of university was the best idea of my life

#kris.txt #like. wow im doing so much better #i have an enjoyable job that keeps me up & funds my art #while I dont have energy for All of my hobbies but I can still do them #also my art has improved DRAMATICALLY more since leaving uni & doing my own studies #i picked up resin & im a dice master now #ive been doing 3d printer art too #sorry ive just been feeling rlly rlly good about where i am in life #i have a steady friendgroup both online n off that i see regularly #im a senior at my workplace now with an impressive resume #im normal burnt out instead of university burnt out where it sucks the life out of me #im just so ... wow .... if i could tell 2019 me that in a few handle of years #youll have everything you wanted #man. anyways. sorry again just feeling happy :]

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago

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I feel like at least several times a month, I have a random insane revitalization of my love for The Smiths. Not that I ever stop loving them, but I'll listen to some song and then suddenly fall into this pit of just deep, intense love for their music again where I can't stop listening to their music on repeat and watching live performances and looking at pics like AAAAAHHHHHH WHY IS THEIR MUSIC SO GOOOD?????? WHY IS IT PERFECT?????? WHY WERE THEY SO GENDER???????

(songs I am feeling intense brainrot over rn in case you're curious: "I Want The One I Can't Have(live)", "Stretch Out and Wait(live)", "You Just Haven't Earned It Yet Baby", "Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others(demo)", "What She Said", "The Boy With The Thorn in His Side(live)"(p.s. I Want The One I Can't Have is Martian-coded to me, pls listen)(also it reminds me of that movie I watched yesterday)

#i want the one i cant have is playing on repeat in my brain rn and i watched a live performance and i was tearing up. why am i like this #the live versions of their songs are just incredibly good like at an insane level to me #i know the guitar is very complicated bcs my brother is equally obsessed w the smiths and rants to me abt how hard their music is to play #so the fact that their live performances are equal if not better than their studio versions is crazy #and i love the way he sings in live versions AAAAHHHH like just so over the top and dramatic #i absolutely love singing along to music and their songs are perfect bcs i can be as dramatic and loud as i want #and that hes singing perfectly and dramatizing it so much also while dancing along to it on stage??????#their music has an energy to it in every single aspect that no other band will ever be able to reach for me #i spent so much of today just dancing along to their music and singing over the top. i just felt so joyful 🥹🥹🥹🥹#GAAAHHHH sorry i just am really in it rn hahaha #its just crazy to me ig that ive listened to these songs so many times and they still fill me with such emotion #my mom sings and dance along w me tho shes like 'wow youre so energetic today did you hit your head or smth' 😭😭😭#also was losing my mind looking at their pictures today and gahhhhhhhhb such gender envy their gender is unmatched to me #but its so funny every time i get gender envy over smiths era morrissey +#because theres some pics of my dad from that same period of time when he was younger where he literally looks exactly like morrissey #SIR WHY DID I NOT INHERIT YOUR LEVEL OF GENDER???????(my dad was a icon sjdkkd we look alike tbh)#anyways: i feel very joyful and energetic about their music. they just make me so happy and i want to dance around again 🥹#i think this recent lapse into the pit was bcs i listened to the demos/live versions on The Queen is Dead deluxe edition #and im like ....how the fuck are they this fucking good??????#hehehe tho my passion has affected others 🤭#my brother is learning some songs on guitar atm and waxes poetic abt their instrumentals #my dad always listens to their entire discography when he needs background music. and my mom sings and dances w me #sorry this is unhinged i just feel a lot of serotonin bcs their music and i need to infect other people LMAO #maybe i need to make another web weave #catie.rambling.txt

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cahootings · 1 year ago

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i love my no nonsense middle aged volleyball playing butch lesbian physical therapist

#she's so deadpan always but she's so supportive too???#today she told me I look 'dramatically better' than when she first saw me 🥹#and then said we should be video-ing my progress so I can actually see how much better i'm doing and believe it for myself #she is always telling me im being too hard on myself. which I guess I know I am. but still. nice to hear that from a professional #so i can actually believe it #anyway. wow. pretty cool to finally feel like I am actually on the right track I know i keep saying this but man was I feeling fucking stuc #ankleposting

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meadowlarkx · 2 years ago

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i like to doodle campaign-related stuff during dnd but i think this is thus far my most favorite dnd doodle of all🌷

#i was going for like that idk black and white photos of bandura players energy #my art #wow it's been like years since i used that tag here #my posts #anyway this last dnd was emotionally harrowing in terms of dramatic events so i am giving the doodling portion of the experience extra love #also don't judge me this was done at speed in pen while also plotting failed escape from strahd's castle 🥲

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daddyplasmius · 2 months ago

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it's so tempting to name my fics something really annoying & impossible to actually use in conversation & i was gonna say i won't do that for readers' sakes but actually i think i should make it worse instead

#i always make em so dramatic like Flying Over the Pit of Death & Hand On My Stupid Heart & shit like that #C:\users\Fenton\Projects\Backburner\WOLFWALKERS is so stupid & yet so fucking tempting BECAUSE it's stupid #the thing is that. i'd have to change a whole scene to make it make sense asdfghjkasdfghjkl #i'll fucking do it dude don't test me #if i find a name that clicks i'll probably just use that instead but i gotta name it something other than WWAU (pronounced: wow)#okay wait actually i'll probably change the scene anyways because i just came up with an idea that makes it make more sense #for simplicity's sake i'll just call it backburner i think. firefox what are you saying that's not a word. yes it is #apparently not. well. i'll make it one #uuuuugggggghhhhhh is it normal to be this obsessed with one's own fanfiction #i wanna draw a fucking trailer for this fic honestly that's how far gone i am

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horsetailcurlers2 · 8 months ago

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agoraphobia is one of the most embarrassing mental illnesses to have bc it’s like,,,,, just go outside. what’s the worst that could happen? and then the worst that can happen ends up being freaking out the whole time about what can go wrong and working yourself up to the point of physical illness. self fulfilling prophecy, babey.

#i did my hair and makeup and put on a cute outfit #and here i am in bed again #the post panic attack embarrassment is real bc it’s like wow i was so dramatic and for what #it’s even worse when the fear started out entirely rational but has shifted and compounded to the point that you know it’s irrational #anyways happy easter ignore this vent post i’ll prob delete later

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hecksupremechips · 8 months ago

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Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺

#dont wanna see family tomorrow and im sleeping saur bad lately i couldnt sleep last night and then had a typical fever dream #which gave me a really cute idea for a movie so im gonna keep it in my pocket #but it was one of those things where its like it says a whole lot about me and my trauma and its stressful #um um um and also im juggling all these different things like im sewing im trying to finally write im trying to draw again #while feeling like im failing at it all and then like i still gotta find fuckinnnnn job i neeeeeed money #this time of year is always really hard for me i hate when its warm again i hate easter and i hate knowing that summer is coming #aaghhhh rn im ticking and stimming really bad and im having trouble breathing hnnghhh #and im very sweaty lol i always get so sweaty when i dont sleep good i dont get it #also i think im just horrible like the one person i wanna talk to probably is getting tired of my constant life crisis and how needy i am #and theyre probably off being better without me there and im just a burden and then my therapist idk about him #i dont feel like hes really giving me anything like when i talk about how stressed and unsafe i am hes like you gotta find a way to cope #and he doesnt really tell me how exactly i should do that like mate thats why im here i need the help you cant just listen to me panic and #go ‘wow you need to fix that’ ughhhh and i think hes mad at me because i dont think he believes me anymore when i say im in an abusive #situation and that ive been controlled my whole life by everyone and i have never felt safe #and its just like ughhh like i feel like no one believes me anymore and theyre all fed up with my bullshit incompetence and constant #bellyaching and im a horrible friend and a liar and probably just being dramatic as fuck making myself believe im being abused when in #reality im the abuser the ungrateful brat who treats his family like shit and cant trust them even though they seem so perfect to everyone #and im so stupid and toxic for trying to run away and for being scared to death here #thats how its feeling anyway idk everyone is just. weird and im losing my grip on reality and cant tell whats real anymore

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kadhal · 1 year ago

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#i am back to overshare AGAIN if you think this is bad you should see the drafts #blog is not making me happy i feel like on top of a rebrand we need to RECONSTRUCT maybe move the whole place while we're at it #in an awkward place tbh bec i left it like i despised it and i come back and im like wow i treated this place like shit but then i remember #that my blog was literally a reflection of myself so essentially i treated myself like shit #wow i am not even talking about tumblr dot com anymore i am having a CRISIS atp #atp......... adenosine triphosphate....... where is arjun #anyways. REELING everything is so insane to me rn is life even like life - i am not living inside my body #GOODBYE IM SO DRAMATIC #august will be my month i said last month bec july was absolutely hell and now im saying SEPTEMBER will be my month #notes from adi #like is this a url change kinda thing or life change kinda thing.

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sealingknight · 1 year ago

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Just remembered Will looking out the window and trying to hide his crying after pouring his heart out now I am crying okay okay

#vol2 hurt me i wont forget those feelings #also I am being reminded bottling and suppressing emotions make you feel worse so. i think we both need a meltdown #sealingknight.txt.ramble #sealingknight.personal #liiiiiiike Will my dearest I love you that van scene better pay off💔#not to be dramatic but why did they meme him why did they do him like :(#aughhhhh anyways #i really need to figure out an outlet for my emotions 🙃 rough times #staying positive hard #<- not really about the show just an abundance of things in general #*do him like that wow I wish I could fix tags directly w/o erasing ones I wrote after. oh well #he's so selfless :( and people still hate him :( he's given up and lost so much :(

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