#anyway. yeagh

[chaos-has-theories]

I swear that every single episode of this show is more bafflingly bisexual than the last

[just-miru]

y'all look at this

[saltlickmp3]

personally i kinda of enjoy it even though i dont use they/them because it kinda implies someone has looked at me and assumed i'm not cis lol. and at least in my social circle it's more polite to go with they/them if you aren't sure

please reblog for sample size :] its research

[lollyde]

youre definitely not alone with that for me it's a much more pronounced issue with irl people, though its not a non-issue with online friendships. i can count the number of friends i met irl first that i truly care about on one hand :v it makes it really difficult to make connections in new environments, which im really feeling yet again now that im at uni again. I did attend all the new students events that were meant to get to know people, but i find it incredibly difficult to engage with people i dont already know. it truly feels like it takes only a second for new people to get categorized as "acquantaince, i guess", and to me its somehow really difficult to change that categorization??? and that, in turn, makes the friendly interactions i have with "acquaintance, i guess" people feel like it's filtered through several masks, which makes it even harder to start to categorize them as friends.

and it's a really weird feeling! because i *want* to care about people i know! i *want* to be friends! but i really, really struggle with combining the general, vague feeling of "want friend" with the specific, actual people i interact with!

doesnt help that i have stupidly strong npc energy irl

I struggle to find friends IRL and the major thing I have a hurdle with is like....connecting? Genuinely feeling something? Obviously this doesnt apply to everyone and there are people i feel comnected to but for vast majority i just feel like its surface level social etiquette.

I will go through the motions of comforting someone, of lending a hand, paying for lunch or getting them drinks, but I don't feel any emotional connection. I enjoy my time out, and I want them to like me, but somehow it just doesn't find a place to stick around within me. I move away and I don't feel any desire to talk to them again, even if I spent a significant amount of time together. I struggle with finding FRIENDS because most relationships have felt empty, even though I've always had "friends", they just feel space filler and I don't know why, because I earnestly try to connect with them, and do the things a friend would do, but it's just the motions. I don't feel anything by doing those things. I don't feel anything from their reaction, and it makes me feel horrible just even saying that lowkey.

I been thinking of how to bring this up to my psych because it's a major contributing factor to my loneliness but I also don't know how to word it.

[corantus]

ur my rock star 💚💘

[verflares]

🌩️ oooh girl..... you shock me like an electric eel....... bapygirl........ 🌩️

[artuurle]

Okay so about those headcanons-

I believe ascending to god-hood in Great God Grove is heavily Tied to a persons mental health, whole post is under read-more for the sake of everyone, poorly written ramblings by someone that struggles to write out thoughts below with some doodles (obviously spoilers too!) :

Aka dumb idiots who girl-rot (/silly) and don't handle their internal issues end up ascended in the realms hours to DAYS after the event instead of immediately after like in the case of King. In my headcanon this is because a gods new form is tied to who they are, and if you hate yourself, don't know who you are, or think you're nothing, it'll effect how you turn out, fighting with other aspects of how you see yourself for dominance. The harder the struggle to create a form, the more of a recoup period for said god to actually start being able to do things- think about it like recovering from exertion or from being sick.

This of course can lead to some problems for the said gods with more problems than others, like Inspekta:

He fears being nobody, dying, leaving nothing behind, and being forgotten- and when he ascended he quite literally lost his whole torso and his tail popped off! hands possibly representin' the others that propped him up! Finally waking up after ascending I'd take it he took his form rather poorly and actually needed extra time to recover *emotionally* before anything on top of the time needed to pop into full existence as a god. I believe when the other gods saw his entrance into the realm, it was quite literally him dropping in from a long ways up with a thud for the jacket and his head bouncing away (really silly, like a ball). while being able to put it together for the other gods he ended up really struggling about what he'd become in private.

Another god i believe may have had issues with ascending is not surprisingly, Click Clack. A god i feel in his human life spent making himself palatable and burying editing out how he felt about things and being unnoticed. Also wouldn't be surprising some of the burying editing came in during the time between him and Thespius ascended, his lover was above them now, after all! I actually drew how i envisioned his entrance to the god realm, because i'm biased.

like a sudden ink spill appeared after a while and he crawled out, exhausted.

anyway i've rambled incoherently enough hope u enjoyed my nonsense and the doodles [explodes]

[chaos-has-theories]

IT IS. TO ME

Trans girl septimus. Is that anything

[bugsinshoes]

teeny tiny fiddauthor doodle.......... for the night. as a treat

[halflifebutawesome]

movie night

[bbq-potato-chip]

thinking about saiura

[em-bandaid-boy]

N TRANS REAL?

I thought I was the only one with that head canon

hiii fellow transmasc >:D

This is canon lol

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

No one is more deserving of a rest

[mechanicalinfection]

we would all be cool with whimpering springtrap. lowkey want. want. really want. please. pretty please. ple

Fuck you all actually

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

[lynxfrost13]

In my heart of hearts I think replikas should be able to have a little bit of visible aging. As a treat.