#anyway. i am mentally unwell
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to anyone trying to platinum yakuza 0 and/or aiming to win all climax battles in yakuza 0: Proving Grounds 8 will break you psychologically. sorry about that
#I HAD TO DO IT LIKE . NO EXAGGERATION PROBABLY 50 TIMES#and becuase im insane and unemployed most of that was in a row and I was fucking Losing it#I still have advice I could give but generally speaking a lot of it is just. getting lucky with the random styles you’re given#cause it’s that sort of fight where they keep randomly switching styles and in this case youre also#consistently losing hp for No Reason and gagasgsghhhhb IT SUCKS#I NEVER WANT TO DO THAT AGAIN#anyway. i am mentally unwell#rambling#y0
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my life had stood, a loaded gun
#can you tell i drafted this before starting route c?#i am mentally unwell#honestly#anyway#nier automata spoilers#can you spoil a seven-year-old game?#nier automata#2b#nier 2b#9s#nier 9s#nier
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Cosette is better than me because if my weirdo recluse father suddenly showed up with a massive, festering burn scar acting completely unconcerned and telling me to call a vet for him instead of a human doctor, I would have simply started killing.
#we talk about Valjean's saint-like qualities but what about Cosette man. that's a feat of mental strength.#also I'm reading the Donougher translation and I presume 'dog-doctor' means something like a vet? truly wild.#Valjean's wretched self-image strikes again#brick completion sprint#anyway Victor Hugo really set out to hurt me with the Jvj & Cosette dynamic in the chunk that I read today..#the bit abt why he hates Marius + the chain gang + the wound back to back to back?? evil. i am unwell.#cosette fauchelevent#jean valjean#les miserables
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me: we are Not going to worsen our life while in a minor depressive episode
the brain: :/
#two things i will now overshare about in the tags:#the number and severity of symptoms i am exhibiting that indicate uhhhhhh#an anxiety disorder that i Don't have. don't want to have please. i fear this.#anyway I'm getting outnumbered. but i am still convinced I'm making it up so anyway#2. bro when u catch a glimpse of ur friends on social media#and the lives they're living and their successes and accomplishments#and ur like damn. yall living out here ?#(and also like. damn. yall feel like u deserve to celebrate yourselves?)#(yall don't feel like a horrible dessicated corpse most of the time emotionally?)#yall is not part of my vernacular i feel the need to say this#hurgle says things#2024 was supposed to be my mentally well year. who the fuck is this#like my depression we are chill i know her. we talk we discuss. we're okay#this new beast though who has been festering in here. i want her to move out............#but i think she might have already set up all her furniture...... and I'm hiding in my room#do u get my metaphors#anyway I'm fine bc I'm used to living like this but i am. unwell.
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SUNWOO | VANGUARD: RIOT CONCEPT IMAGES
#sunwoo#the boyz#tbz#kim sunwoo#tbzinc#eritual#vivitual#ninqztual#tuserflora#useroro#lookwwill#001#henna edits!#i am mentally unwell i feel ill i feel sick i feel like i am in shambles#and i kinda don't wanna talk about it but i know what the mootsies are here for...#so first of all CAN HE STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT GO AWAY YOU DEMON#second of all ... the shoulder ... what's with this slutty behavior 😤 put him in jail#i've got murder on my mind .. the reason .. too much face#anyway hope you enjoy this edit i died and will now be haunting the iste building until they let them free
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kirbytober 2023 21 + 26 : fav characters + ship [ prev || next ]
putting this at the top because it's extremely important but i received a message implying that some folks headcanon these two as drastically different ages. you may headcanon whatever you like of course, but in my work i firmly think that they're both full adults who are at least 25+. this is abundantly clear in my work. i'm not interested in headcanoning any of them as literal children and i would never touch that shit. dni if you think that sort of ship would actually be okay. don't be a freak. thanks.
very typical to take your favs and then also shove them together but isn't that the point. anyway i have literally never seen anybody else ship them (if you're out there... hello... 😭) despite them both being very main characters and i don't know why?? they could be so cute i think...
they are both industrious adventurers, prolific hard-workers (team task doers), and a little cheekily competitive!
i think that bandee is no stranger to a wide variety of close and intense relationships; he's beloved by many and loves them all equally but distinctly in turn. magolor on the other hand has been sooo isolated and lonely for such a long-ass time, he barely knows how to be friends let alone really care for someone. bandee is smart enough to be suitably wary but kind enough to give him a chance despite that, which i think would knock him off his non-existent feet instantly. in reply, magolor could give him something unique by loving and prioritising him utterly singularly, in a way bandee wouldn't even have realised he was missing
in awtdy (pictured in the sketch page; if you see a tattered looking magolor in my art it's probably this au) in particular they are both thrown into the angst soup together and come out insanely trauma bonded at the hip. their friendship/relationship is central to the plotline; together they're working on a solution to the timeline anomaly, while also hiding that they even really know each other the whole time
#kirbtober#kirbytober#bandana waddle dee#magolor#my art#my hcs#awtdy au#yelling 'hello' into the void like the voyager probe hoping to reach another living creature who speaks the bandeemagolor language#i tend to ship in a kind of qpp way just for clarification. i kinda just don't think amatonormative romance exists the same on popstar#that said they are like... utterly unwell about each other. insane. i just am not sure they are “Dating” yknow? i dunno how to explain this#but if you are arospec and you Get What I Mean then you can say that they're in love and stuff. if you get it yknow?? yknow.#mental illnesses shaped like each other.#i know bandee is 'the normal guy' but i think he can be a little mentally unwell sometimes too; as a treat#anyway.... that's it that's the rarepair. maybe its up to me to make this a thing. do you wanna be sold on this pair?? i can do it probably#they *don't even have a tag name* but i will make up one so that people can filter it out if they want to mute it:#bandee x magolor#🍎
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MOM THE FUCKING DEMON POSSESSED ME AGAIN AND IT DIDN'T WANNA WORK ON ANIMATRONICS BANGS HEAD
Singles under the cut!
#anyways hi yes i dont CARE if you dont know dragonball you are GOING to peep my babies#dragonball ocs#these are. very specifically for db xenoverse 2 do you understand how mentally unwell i am about that game#and how ANGUISHED i am that APPARENTLY THERE'S BEEN FUCKING. STORY SHIT HAPPENING AND I NEVER KNEW!!!!!!!!!!#anyways hi these are my sillies that have gone through So Many fucking redesigns oh my god#kallabash used to be a girl. not anymore [transgenderfication beam be upon ye] /hj#jericho oh my god sweet baby i've been fighting for my life#BUT NOT AS MUCH AS RAINE OH MY GOD HE'S GONE THROUGH THE MOST ITERATIONS FOR FUCKS SAKE#anywhoooo something something if you know the gist of the xenoverse games- these guys are a big team!#kallabash jericho and blizzard are heavy hitters#whilst keyta and lulu provide support and then there's raine who actually is a talented inventor bc#i think we can have more of that as a treat#i've been. thinking about these fuckers on and off for a few months now and the fucking#shenanigans these idiots have/would get into#heart emojis <33#they're gonna be on artfight and. now excuse me while i fight with lesbians and the tumblr sexyman (apparently)#dbxv2 ocs#dbxv2 oc#xenoverse 2 oc#xenoverse 2 ocs#namekian oc#majin oc#saiyan oc#icejin oc
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maybe in another life
The Gospel According to Jesus Christ, Jose Saramago / Obbligato, Ensemble Stars, translated by @hyenahunt / Hopscotch, Julio Cortazar / The Kiss of Judas, Ignazio Jacometti / Almost Heaven, Jeremiah Lloyd Harmon
#shay speaks#web weaving#enstars#ensemble stars#tatsumi kazehaya#kaname tojou#tatsukana#this is a tatsukana themed web weaving bc i am so mentally unwell. but anyway#spent too long trying to figure out a title#everything has alt text and exact sources for each in that as well....#first attempt at web weaving pls be gentle.
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jem and tessa’s love story will always hit different to me because it was so sweet when they were young, but so tragic. two kids fighting against time and terrible circumstances. and then it took one hundred and thirty years for them to have a second chance: during which jem feels himself losing the human heart he had, and tessa fights so hard to keep him alive because she can’t lose him too, not after they both lost will. catarina, he cannot die. he cannot die.
in 2008 tessa says — in a way, this is our wedding night. she picks a dress the colour of an orchid, jem’s favourite flower, to remind him of what they were, to remind him of what she wanted to be for him when she thought they’d have a future together. and jem responds with the number of days he’s counted since they last kissed: says you don’t need to remind me, says “you were my first love, and you will be my last one.”
these two characters, two of the kindest and gentlest, who endured for so long. the period between will’s death and before 2008 especially is just devastating…when jem believed he was getting less and less human and both he and tessa could only hold on to the hope of someday, maybe. it kills me all the time
#who hurt me? *points at cassandra clare*#thinking about ghosts of the shadow market made me write this#also after the bridge#just like. all that waiting#and years of loneliness#on both sides.#tessa wanting to stay with jem for them to mourn together and help each other#jem saying being what i am how can i?#girl i can’tttttt#i am mentally Unwell :)#anyway.!!#happy tuesday :)#gotsm#jem carstairs#tid#jessa#jem x tessa#tessa gray
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Bleed for God
Grovel at the altar, spill blood
Pray a little louder, come now
Make a sacrifice for – the God
Cry a little louder, come now
Hand in hand, fingers intertwined
Pulled away, they await breakage
A presence, that can’t not be loved
Pulled away, it can’t not damage
Grovel at the altar, spill blood
I’d pray louder if... I knew how
Make a sacrifice for – my God
Cry a little louder, come now
Your lips, such a sweet remedy
Ripped away, unsealing the wound
Healed by your voice’s melody
Ripped away, by its absence doomed
Grovel at your altar, spill blood
I’d pray louder if... I knew how
I sacrifice for – my one God
Lose myself in sobs, as I bow
Your touch, my one point, goal in life
Without it, what’s my direction?
Your touch, my sacrificial knife
Without it, I have no option
Grovel at altars, spilling blood
Chanting all the right words to say
Sacrificing for – every God
Why can’t you love me the same way?
#this could have turned out better#I got recovered from my brief bout of mental unwellness too quickly I am afraid#ah self-sacrifice#what does it mean really to self sacrifice if you dont give yourself worth#Because no matter how much you give#You will never feel as though you have given enough#you give away all you have yet dont view yourself as having something to give#anyway#blood and sacrifice and gods#who'd have thought i'd write about that amiright#writing#poetry#poem#original poem#poets on tumblr#writers on tumblr#poemblr#spilled words#spilled poem#spilled poetry#spilled ink#poetic#signed; fa
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has anyone ever done a comparison post on the scene where the captain says 'i shan't miss him' about adam and the captain telling havers 'i shall miss you'
something about the captain having been here before. admiring a man with a pretty face in army green who takes charge and understands the value of a schedule and routine around 80 years after he last admired a man with a pretty face in army green who takes charge and understands the value of a schedule and routine. and not being able to do anything about it. again.
the captain tries to be a part of adam's world but is inherently shut out. the captain tries to be a part of havers' world, and is.........not in the way he wants to, but it's enough.
no, the captain won't miss adam, because even though there are echoes from his life in him, adam is not havers and he never will be. how can he miss adam for being a cheap imitation of havers, who he does miss, who was part of his world, and saw him for who he was. he knows he won't miss adam because he knows what it truly feels like to miss someone with everything of your being
#bbc ghosts#capvers#does this make sense#anyway#yes i am overthinking abt capvers still in the year of our lord 2024#it's called having fun and being mentally unwell#effie rambles
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Me after seeing the Ashoka teaser:
#I AM MENTALLY UNWELL#I don't even watch star wars all that much nowadays#but Rebels?? damn shit bro that's the One Thing I care about from this series#anyway oH MY GOD GHOST CREW IS BACK#I AM EATING WELL TONIGHT#REBELS FANS KEEP WINNING#first Zeb now this?? we are eating like kings#THEY LOOK WONDERFUL IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM#Hera!! Chopper!! Sabine!!! EZRA#MY BLUEBERRY SON IS GONNA BE BACK#AND THRAWN!!! THAT SON OF A BITCH IS GONNA BE BACK#I can't wait to start caring about star wars again#star wars#ashoka trailer#ashoka spoilers#ashoka teaser#ezra bridger#hera syndulla#chopper#sabine wren#ashoka tano#star wars rebels#star wars ashoka#they better bring up Kanan or I swear im gonna kill a man#or break down and cry. one of those two#or even both who knows#the fire burns#thrawn#ashoka
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I’m so sick but every time I think that sentence I immediately also think ‘hi so sick, I’m dad’
#Dad autocorrected to sad and honestly that’s true too#I am unwell in terms of mental condition emotional condition and physical condition#Anyway I haven’t eaten anything all day besides like three cheese sticks and maybe 15 saltine crackers#Also I got maybe 5-6 hours of sleep last night if I was lucky
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i literally have had so little time to draw. i have several. illustrations and comics I want to draw and yet. here is what I have to offer. assorted ships in extremely fast and messy doodles
#butterfly soup 2#butterfly soup#butterfly soup 2 spoilers#um idk what are all the ship tags. i mean#ppkm#diyamin#diyelle#minkarsha#damn#i mean i think the tag damn likely is not exclusive to buttsoup. help#honestly? i was being silly goofy but i'm a little impressed with the perspective in that first one. not amazing but it like . it reads. ?#um anyways I think they should all kiss#literally I am SOO mentally unwell today I was fighting for my life to get work done today. i love autism#sketchbook#roi draws
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I told myself when I got back from reserves I’d stop smoking but I’ve just replaced that with wine and I don’t know what’s worse at this point 🥴 Anyway I’m still awake and will probably just forego sleep at this point because I need to be up in a few hours. How’s everyone doing?
#lainey things#let a girl kvetch#or whatever this is#I am BORED#and mentally unwell because I did not know returning to ✨normal✨ would be this unnerving#anyway
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(part 1)
#doctor who#first doctor#second doctor#fifth doctor#seventh doctor#eighth doctor#big finish give me the forbidden better promo photos I had to misuse that shot from survival and the charley one is atrocious#anyway. I am mentally unwell!!#'tegan's departure wasn't that sad' it was TO ME AT TWELVE YEARS OLD#I was DEVASTATED
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