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Commission for @porcelainseashore’s Giovanni courier, Wynter, with Lucien and Lettow—the two halves of her whole.

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doing charms now ⏳

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commission for @porcelainseashore 💕

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Commission for one special girlie who wanted a Vi header 💖

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wip ✏️

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Drawing Twin Peaks from memory 🍃

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been trying out new things

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"Why in jail the sociopolitical implicat-"

They are in a war, Cait just proved that she was on her side and had let go of Jinx, Cait is about to go fight Ambessa, Vi is about to go try to save Jinx and fight God knows what, they can't waste time going to a pretty room, they might never see each other again and this was Vi's choice, you can literally see how shocked Cait is but she just goes with it. For all they know this is the last moment they might get together THAT is why.

"The dirt under her nails? The sociopolitical implicat-"

Now you're just sounding crazy, Vi's concept of a pickup line is "you're hot cupcake" she was literally just trying to say "you're not getting rid of me that easily" I think it's a pretty easy metaphor to understand when you're not hell bent on lesbians being miserable FOR ONCE

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a little redraw I did of an old drawing between commissions and other things 🌿

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i’m not a jayvik myself, but that was the most romantic shit i’ve seen in a while.

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I don't know I'm not done talking about it. It's insane that I can't just uninstall Edge or Copilot. That websites require my phone number to sign up. That people share their contacts to find their friends on social media.

I wouldn't use an adblocker if ads were just banners on the side funding a website I enjoy using and want to support. Ads pop up invasively and fill my whole screen, I misclick and get warped away to another page just for trying to read an article or get a recipe.

Every app shouldn't be like every other app. Instagram didn't need reels and a shop. TikTok doesn't need a store. Instagram doesn't need to be connected to Facebook. I don't want my apps to do everything, I want a hub for a specific thing, and I'll go to that place accordingly.

I love discord, but so much information gets lost to it. I don't want to join to view things. I want to lurk on forums. I want to be a user who can log in and join a conversation by replying to a thread, even if that conversation was two days ago. I know discord has threads, it's not the same. I don't want to have to verify my account with a phone number. I understand safety and digital concerns, but I'm concerned about information like that with leaks everywhere, even with password managers.

I shouldn't have to pay subscriptions to use services and get locked out of old versions. My old disk copy of photoshop should work. I should want to upgrade eventually because I like photoshop and supporting the business. Adobe is a whole other can of worms here.

Streaming is so splintered across everything. Shows release so fast. Things don't get physical releases. I can't stream a movie I own digitally to friends because the share-screen blocks it, even though I own two digital copies, even though I own a physical copy.

I have an iPod, and I had to install a third party OS to easily put my music on it without having to tangle with iTunes. Spotify bricked hardware I purchased because they were unwillingly to upkeep it. They don't pay their artists. iTunes isn't even iTunes anymore and Apple struggles to upkeep it.

My TV shows me ads on the home screen. My dad lost access to eBook he purchased because they were digital and got revoked by the company distributing them. Hitman 1-3 only runs online most of the time. Flash died and is staying alive because people love it and made efforts to keep it up.

I have to click "not now" and can't click "no". I don't just get emails, they want to text me to purchase things online too. My windows start search bar searches online, not just my computer. Everything is blindly called an app now. Everything wants me to upload to the cloud. These are good tools! But why am I forced to use them! Why am I not allowed to own or control them?

No more!!!!! I love my iPod with so much storage and FLAC files. I love having all my fics on my harddrive. I love having USBs and backups. I love running scripts to gut suck stuff out of my Windows computer I don't want that spies on me. I love having forums. I love sending letters. I love neocities and webpages and webrings. I will not be scanning QR codes. Please hand me a physical menu. If I didn't need a smartphone for work I'd get a "dumb" phone so fast. I want things to have buttons. I want to use a mouse. I want replaceable batteries. I want the right to repair. I grew up online and I won't forget how it was!

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so Vi really did call Cait cupcake and made her knees so woobly she decided to quit fascism then and there. good stuff.

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thank youuuu, and no worries 💕 it was fun, I’m looking forwards to doing another challenge next year!

slowtember days 7-9 / waiting 🌧️

actually my favorite of the bunch so far :)

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one very late ✨wish✨ for days 28-30 of slowtember

life has been life-ing lately and I totally forgot to post this on the date :’)

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slowtember days 25-27 / rain 🌧️

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slowtember days 16-18 / picnic 🧺

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My favourite trope has to be:

I sacrificed myself to save you. I didn't plan to survive. I burnt all the bridges. I intended to break your heart with my death, but that would be all right, because I wouldn't be around to see you. I pretended that you'll mourn me for a while and move on. I convinced myself I was going down in the blaze of glory. That my deed was appreciated. That everything was going to be all right afterwards, and I didn't need to be there to see it.

But I survived. And now I have to look you in the eye. I have to pick up the pieces of the life I shattered and figure out how to put it back together. If it can be done at all.