#anyway sorry i needed to vent lol
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i hate official language exams cause what do you mean the only way to prove my level is to pass a listening done with some broken speakers and a dude whose voice i recognise from watching derry girls? like okay lets make an agreement, i show you my fanfics and you put a B on my formal letter essay
#aaaaaaaaaa#i love english i swear but uuuugh#like i know i cant go to the examiner and say hey last week i had a dream i was in the trojan war and achilles was talking to me in english#but i just know theres people out there who dont know what a verb is and meanwhile im here like “hmm yes word collocations”#anyway sorry i needed to vent lol#losver infodumps u without ur consent#ALSO the derry girls bit is true i swear i heard james' voice in my b2 exam and i was like sjjfjdjfjd bro i need to concentrate
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Don't feed the plants.
#the things i would do to this man it is insane he has a damn chokehold on me i never want him to let go#im sorry i am going nuts over him but he is my problematic babygirl#he is such a bitch in my head but i love brats#lmfao jfc sorry sorry ya'll i just needed to vent#anyways#osomatsu san#osomatsu-san#mr. osomatsu#Karamatsu#Karamatsu Matsuno#Akuma Karamatsu#Beelzebub Karamatsu#fan art#my art#little shop of horrors ref#anyone is free to go wild in the tags i love reading that shit lol#btw i am probably never gonna draw something this nuts ever again holy shit that took forever#worth it but daaamnn dude never again unless you pay me
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feeling very grateful for the cute barista today who clearly clocked a) my fontaines d.c. tote, and b) the fact i was stuck on a spectacularly bad date, and proceeded to play me an entire playlist of fontaines d.c. and sneak me extra vegan marshmallows with my hot chocolate
#an absolute GEM 💗#we need more people in the world like this#they restored my faith in humanity 🙏#unlike my date#who was… well. i’ve been on worse ones i guess#but he monologued at me for a two and a half hours#and on the rare times i actually managed to get a word in edge ways or voice an opinion#he just twisted it round to suit what he’d been saying#it REALLY annoyed me#the entire thing annoyed me actually#i am so sick and tired of going on dates with straight white men who feel the need to explain everything to you#as if you’re not a person with a mind and experiences of your own#also wtf is the point on going on a date with someone when you aren’t remotely interested in getting to know them???#the man asked me maybe two questions total the entire afternoon#i could write his entire fucking biography#also at the end he said how cool and mysterious i was#and i’m like ????#i’m only mysterious because you’d prefer me to be that than an actual person who you could have had a proper conversation with#*breathes out slowly*#phew okay i was angrier about this than i thought lol#the older i get the less tolerance i have for shit like this 🫠#anyway yeah sorry#vent over 😅#i’m just so annoyed because i have SUCH limited energy atm with my pain and fatigue etc and i just wasted it on him ffs#but then again#the cute barista and the fontaines d.c. and the marshmallows were most definitely not a waste of my energy#they totally saved my day honestly 🙏#fontaines d.c.#lulu posts
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life is hard when you don't care about the Male Side Character Extended Fanon
#see i respect some of them and not others#the difference between like. let's say submas vs radiant garden#is the pokemon franchise and fandom aren't rife with misogyny lol#so it's like fine if ppl obsess over those two dudes i respect it even if i personally can't get into it#most of it anyway. some of it is genuinely really cool#but until the women in kingdom hearts are treated well i will never bring myself to care about those shifty scientists#sorry. go develop empathy for the ladies#the more of rg character projection i see the less i can take it seriously#i like ienzo in theory i think it all just leaves a bad taste in my mouth now#rent lowering gunshot ig i don't care who follows me i just need to vent sometimes
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It's crazy to me that my doctors often criticize me for having "medical anxiety" but i never really had medical anxiety (to this extent at least) before I moved here and started seeing the doctors at this practice, where upon learning that I have a mental illness that has psychosis elements, would literally NEVER miss a chance to try to convince me that ALL my physical health issues are just a figment of my imagination, psychosis, or my apparent desire for attention ... (and like, not to mention they would oftentimes refuse to test or treat me unless i first "lost a bunch of weight"). My PCP once tried to convince me i must not be taking my mental health meds and that's why i "thought" i was having these health concerns... and like, belittling me to the point where I was told, point blank, to my face: "I'm not testing you for lyme Disease because it would be a waste of resources and you cannot possibly have it" (his exact words), despite my growing up and living in NEW ENGLAND, as well as one of the lyme disease capitols of the world, my dad being a deer hunter and having lyme disease himself, also having a bunch of symptoms that maybe could be other things too but were definitely in-line with lyme disease, but yeah, because I have a mental health disorder I must be just looking for attention 🙄 Now I avoid going to the doctor and when I do, I just downplay all my health concerns, even tho some are pretty serious and have a very negative impact on my day to day life.
Oh, the irony of being belittled by doctors for having "medical anxiety" when they were the ones who gave me medical anxiety in the first place lol
#funky's personal tag#delete later#sorry just venting lol#I need to go to dr to get some stuff checked out but i'm STRESSING#because I'm so used to these doctors literally trying to convince me i'm 'crazy' lol#anyway. I think it's high time i switch to another practice...#I just hate that whole process lol#also: All the medical practices in my local area talk to each other#so I'm scared nothing will really change even if I DO change practices -.-#anywayyyyyyy such is life#anyway. sorry for getting personal on the tolkien blog lol#just venting to the void
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I’m a trans man that recently got diagnosed with hyper mobile eds, so now seeing Steve makes me extra happy, because cool disabled ftm rep. Thanks for making the radical dude bro, he’s funky.
same disability (waving hand emoji)
Always extremely fulfilling to know my work makes people happy in some small way, it means a lot. Thank you for sharing with me
#I dont talk about having eds cause its not specifically really relevant to my work#been diagnosed with it since 17. woag 10 years next april...#anyways. yeah idk I like the blog to be about my art and I'm used to people asking me a LOT of questions about EDS or disability or canes#just a lot of stuff unrelated to my art. I'm happy to talk about it but I don't want it to be the focus of my blog!#So I've p much chosen to mostly just. not talk about it. even though I'm literally fine talking about it#it's just rarely relevant and no one needs to know LOL#but. I also know that EDS can feel very lonely#and that it's really nice to know other people out there have it#so. hi anon you're not alone#also just in case. literally don't feel bad about anything in the tags here LOL#mostly just like 'please people do not start sending me asks about whether or not you should go to the doctor'#or asks about ableist family members#or venting about pain...#just a lot of invasive and boundary crossing asks the more I talk about it hahahah#but I don't mind sharing at all.#sorry I think I lost the plot on this one#good luck on your journey. starting to accomodate yourself does wonders#and really just extremely happy my work could reach you in this way#sending you love#asks#anon
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A comic about doing the dishes
#polly draws#vent art#comic#seal fursona#which I guess I have now. lol#anyway sorry about the emo art lately but in my defense my therapist says its a good outlet so#Cleaning makes me spiral a bit but I NEED TO GET BACK TO IT BLURGH#man.
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GOD people in the cr fandom piss me off sometimes.
#jfc y’all#i just think some people need to realize the inherent difference dnd has as a medium from other pieces of media#‘ohh this story is missing well-written plot points and character interactions’#which first of all is wrong#but also. IT’S FUCKING IMPROV.#OF COURSE IT DOESN’T PLAY OUT AS SMOOTHLY AS A TV SHOW THAT’S PRE WRITTEN AND REHEARSED FOR MONTHS OR YEARS BEFORE WE SEE THE FINAL PRODUCT#anyways. tell me you’ve never played dnd without telling me you’ve never played dnd.#sorry i’ll shut up now i know i complain a lot there’s just a lot of things to complain about lol#vent#eli.posts
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Pedri: Gavi is a perfect cinnamon roll who’s never done anything wrong in his entire life!
Robert: Never done anything wrong?! He set a city block on FIRE!
#sorry about the hiatus again lol (small vent at the end of the tags because i need to scream into the void)#source: perchance generator#incorrect football quotes#incorrect soccer quotes#incorrrect quotes#barça#barca#barcelona#fc barcelona#fc barça#fc barca#fcb#pedri#pedri gonzalez#pedro gonzález lópez#gavi#pablo gavi#pablo gavira#gavi/pedri#pedri/gavi#robert lewandowski#lewandowski#vent time! bro high school fucking sucks#two weeks in and im so stressed i got sick#failed two of my ap stats quizzes because he doesnt fucking teach and he didnt like my explanations even though they were right#ive already had 4 tests and an essay and ive got part two of my stats test tomorrow#i just really want a break man#anyway ill try to post more quotes now that ive kind of gotten back into the groove of things
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what if I change my major again,,,,,
#a bit of a vent im sorry#who likes computer science anyway?#uhhh im having another crisis I think LOL#have I ever explained my full School Situation here before ??#idk#TLDR im was majoring in psychology. had an oh shit I don't wonna do 90% of psych things moment#already had 90% credits needed to graduate by end of year two. might as well tack on another major then#and instead of like... sociology. business. human development family services. I fucking chose computer science.#and im on my computer 99% of the time anyway..#whyyyy#fuck me I hate cs#head in hands#but idk what I want to do thats the issue#and I don't wonna get shoehorned into something I hate#but I feel like im not particularly Good At Anything anymore#like I spread myself too thin instead of committing to Just One Thing#ugh#:(#IDK it just made sense like. it was something I could do to get money#I just think I need to have a proper breakdown over this and get it out of my system
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today is such a stark contrast to yesterday in how much i fucking hate today (vent/rant in tags bc i forgor to do it on my vent one)
#[🔮] rambles ~#lmfao you speak up in this household? WRONG. MISTAKE. HOW DARE YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH.#expressing your thoughts? fucking blasphemy#“oh you do know you can tell me anything anytime right? ” what a joke#gods#fuck this shit#you know what i need to learn properly? keeping my mouth fucking shut. keeping my thoughts to myself.#why do i even bother#I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING#just you know spoke the truth which is apparently forbidden or smth#its not my fault shes a hypocrite????? cant accept the truth thats her fucking problem#honestly i genuinely cant think of an adult around me who isnt a hypocrite but im sure there hopefully is#and then she comes again all sweet sickly smiles expecting me to shower her with love the next moment after being fucking scolded like hell#for saying ome single fucking line of my thoughts that she so encourages me to “express”#as if everything is my fucking fault#atp i hate myself as much too bc why do i let myself get affected i should have grown used to this shit years ago#i should know better than to let her get to me yet look at me being a sentimental lil bitch#god i just wanna get out of here please#anyways shit this didnt go to my vent blog fuck im sorry yall had to read that guys please feel free to ignore lmao#but yk i had to get my feelings out somewhere bc wwll i bottle up enough already lol#tw vent
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AAAARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#im so annoyed rn#Rant incoming im sorry i apparently needed to vent#HOW TF I ABSOLUTELY SUCK AT ONE OF MY FAVORITE CLASSES#like i really really find this interesting. i love to study it. i love to do the work sheets (not so much rn bc im failing it miserably)#SO HOW AM I NOT ABLE TO DO A SINGLE PROBLEM!?!?!? like this is getting ridiculous#like.... this is so sad#i actually like this. and tbh in my whole college journey there weren't that many classes i loved like this#idk this really makes me sad to be honest. bc it's one of those classes that i did try#<- it's the class that im retaking bc i failed it last year btw.#like last year i was so fucking depressed and hated my degree sm and this was the first class to make me feel the *joy of learning*TM again#and i failed it#but like miserably#and now im studying it again and im failing the easiest problems... from the first chapter#anyways dw about me - at least this is smth i actually enjoy and i want to know so it's not as painful to study#it just pains me that im naturally good at many stuff and this is not one of that stuff#arghh. gotta go watch a little bit of masterchef and go back to studying ig#aj rambles#<- lol forgot this tag
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current editing moodboard, please send help
#perfectionism is really kicking my butt rn#that and the fact i had like a week away from writing properly bc chronic pain and now i can’t get back into the headspace#so yeah#perfectionism and brain fog#the inimitable duo#and i know i just need to be patient because it’ll get in the end there like it always does#but rn i’ve spent two nights in a row trying to polish up the last bits of this chapter#and i still just feel so detached from it all i want to pitch my laptop out the window#but i can’t afford a new laptop each time i want to defenestrate it#so this little rant will have to do instead#UGH#it’s so annoying because i am actually so so proud of this chapter and have loved writing it and can’t wait to share it#it’s just this last little bit that i seem to be hitting a brick wall with#anyway sorry#four walls readers don't worry i go through this just about every chapter lol#i'm just feeling it particularly this time because it's a particularly big chapter (both in terms of length and content)#and sometimes venting in the tags and creating an alex moodboard is very therapeutic#writing stuff#alex turner#writer's block#lulu posts
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Considering waiting until 2026 to apply for my masters and just working once i graduate bc I'm like I should give myself time to create my writing sample, get recommendation letters, save money so i can go to a program out of state but tbh i don't know if i wanna wait
#i feel i should just get my masters here#but idk#i really need to talk to a teacher bout this lmaoooooo#if i do decide to wait until 2026 i will get credentials/permits to be a sub#thats always an option#anyway sorry for the way i been vent posting lately i have no where else to go lol#me#personal
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i will genuinely never understand my dad!!! and i feel guilty for being confused and angered by him!!!! i don't know what he wants and i doubt i ever will
i guess he's known that he's had cancer for over a month now but never told me. and i dont know if it's because he wanted me to reach out/pay attention to him, as he's done in the past or if he just didn't think to, or if it's some other third mysterious reason that i can't think up
we aren't close since he was rarely in my life but i feel like that's something you tell your kid.
and the only reason i found out is because i went to go check and see why he hadn't replied to my message about asking if he wanted to hang out for the thousandth time without getting a response
#[static]#he tells me 'kid im gonna change i miss you i love you we need to hang out more im sorry that i wasnt around'#and then when we try and make plans it's like pulling teeth to get him to follow through#and sure there's been a couple of times in my life where ive had to back out of plans with him but like .....#we're talking less times than i have fingers on one hand in 30 years lol meanwhile he disappears for years without a word regularly#i thought we got somewhere last year when i decided to reach out after i stopped talking to him#we're both adults and we're busy but i somehow manage to have regular scheduled dnd games with 4 other adults twice a month#and i cant get my biological father who claims to want to know me reply to a message#and i know i know i know he's got his own demons and battles but i s2g it's just Frustrating because i dont know what he wants from me#i dont fuck with indecision and i dont like not knowing where i stand with someone#i know that he wont reach out to people in hopes they 'care enough' about him to do it#but like dude .......... SHOW THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME TOO WTF#i want to be unendingly compassionate to him since he's gotta figure out what he's gonna do regarding his throat cancer#but like ..... what am i supposed to do with this lmao he saw my message and didn't reply and maybe he's busy#but he also didnt reply to any of my other messages asking to make time to see each other#but then he called me this summer to see if i was in town when he was there (and i wasn't and it was out of the blue)#he also posted a lowkey transphobic comedy sketch on his page which is weird because that's not really his politics but also he's old#and i can just hear exactly what he'd say about it if i tried to even bring it up to him ever#idk what he wants from me but i sometimes think even he doesn't know#i think we missed our time to mend things into something that makes sense#anyways sorry for the vent into the void i just got new information and dealing with stuff about my dad is always difficult#i have rarely felt wanted by him and have never felt seen for who i am either
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You ever miss your childhood self? How innocent you used to be? Miss how you would make so many little doodles and the cringiest Marry Sue OCs without ever worrying what other people what them to be? Miss how much better you were? How funny you were? How happy you were? Miss before the world broke you? Wonder what happened to that little kid? Wonder how the world broke them so easily, and yet blames you for that little kid being gone? For you being a disappointment? Wonder what the hell that little kid did to deserve becoming you?
Wonder why the world forces you to hate that little girl? But you still love her. And you hate that's she's gone. You just want her to come back. You want to listen to her ramblings. You want her to show you her toothy smile again. You want her to be happy again.
But she's never coming back. She's dead. All so you could take her place. And sit here crying over what you did to her.
#xinnimon talks (lol)#tw vent#vent#vent post#Also sorry that I changed the pronouns midway through. I was trying to make it relatable but then I realized...#I needed to mourn her#...#ANYWAYS expect another II wedding soon hehe :)
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