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[rabble-dabble]

hi. i know it's been a while and i'm sorry for that.

i guess if you'd just like to know what's going on click the readmore?

if you don't wanna read that though, tldr is that i'm starting to draw hs characters for art practice, and that i'm doing this art "series" (i guess?) for myself to improve. oh, and that life is hard sometimes.

so this isn't really easy to say, and especially not to the internet with a buncha strangers following me (haha) but truthfully, i've been having a hard time both with art and with life lately.

i feel like i'm not keeping up with consistency or the expectations i set for myself with art both on this blog and off. i keep finding myself unsatisfied, disgusted, or just disappointed with how my art turns out, or the ending piece. i feel like i used to know where my art was going, and now i've somehow lost sight. i know the individual things i need improvement on (backgrounds, objects, animals, feet anatomy, colour techniques, body shapes, etc etc etc) but it all just feels like so much and if i get practice on one thing, i stop drawing for a while and i just lose the practice i learned.

so i kinda came up with a solution. draw all the hs characters again - interesting, right? (/s). but i'm not gonna do this for the blog (so, sorry followers). i'm gonna do it for me. no expectations, i don't have a set time limit so no stressing myself, and i just draw the characters as i'd like, trying to improve. this is also to just help myself with wanting to draw again - i draw IRL almost everyday, but nothing that i want or that's...well, artistic/creative. i want to create, like it's eating underneath me in my soul, but i can't find myself to do anything more than pencil sketches.

that kinda brings me to my other problem lately: real life. haha.

if you've been following me long enough, you know i don't really post about my IRL problems here, or especially not to this extent. yeah, i've had my one or two vent posts, but i try to keep it off here because a part of me knows its no benefit to have that kind of depressing, low-self esteem stuff on an art blog that i reblog minecraft and john/kat to.

but truthfully, i don't just wanna pretend it's sunshine and rainbows on here. i'm so tired, and i'm stressed, and i've been through the emotional woodchipper lately that i can barely keep my head on straight. yes, i'm trying to get help for all this (i have a doctors appointment soon, and i'm gonna try and get all my diagnosis in order and get therapy, etc) but i'm not coping well with everything that's been happening to me lately, and i can't keep trucking on the same way i have been like i'm more emotionally stable than i actually am.

i'm sorry if i've been acting more bitter, distant, or just different lately. i'm just exhausted, mentally, physically, and emotionally, and i'm starting to run out of energy to just function in my day-to-day. i actually cried at work the other day (for the first time!) for feeling so overwhelmed with everything i had to do (both in my job and outside of it, fuck retail btw it sucks). i have small support in friends and family, but they're not the type of support i genuinely need to function and keep myself healthy. and i can't rely on them in ways that aren't their responsibility, or that i truly need help with.

i'm not trying to air out ALL my dirty laundry here (hehehe) but i just felt like it was better to say i'm struggling emotionally then to just pretend i wasn't struggling at all. if i was a healthier person i probably wouldn't be venting here in the first place, but then again i probably wouldn't have all these problems hanging over me either, lol.

just...have patience with me, please. i just want life to be a little kind, or at least kind enough to get me to my first therapy appointment.

[pansy-picnics]

despite everything, it’s still you

[bumfuzzled-bee]

Lil birdie and his eldritch demon (build in friend) !!!

[aresonist]

the cutsies

[leisi-lilacdreams]

i'm joining in on the fun from tonight's CAS update

i need the chaos of these two

[kulai]

DAY 24: First Date

check this out on twt ! based on ch16 of "between the shadow and the soul" on ao3. ANOTHERR heavy recommendation!

[onwhatcaptain]

Good day. THIS is the energy I want to see from SNW.

This one goes out to all my fellow spirk fans in the trenches this week. This is obviously the canon reason the SNW writers couldn't introduce Jim Kirk to Spock until this episode had occurred.

[zephyrartz-owo]

Mental Health Tip! Don't skip meals lest you be fighting demons

[kranberry1006]

I drew Turtle Casey from Cass Apocalyptic Series by @somerandomdudelmao

Raphs Outfit Mikey

I might make another in the Raph outfit but I just watched Mutant Mayhem so it might have to wait until after I draw mutant mayhem.

I finished the Raph one and now that I've read the latest CAS update I plan on doing the mikey one next

finished mikeys, this is it unless Cass makes a Leo outfit

[shrimpchip123]

doodles of my friends' fic!!! first isn’t canon just pure self indulgence from yours truly LOL

[ivorns]

+ closeups under the cut

listen scott has consumed my soul i had to draw him again while i was home sick from school 😔 i love elves or elf like characters dearly

i dont got much time to draw due to aforementioned school so thisll probs be it for a tiny bit. i have to finish a fuckin cereal box project by TOMORROW!! love that for me

i know very little lore about empires scott. i know like the bare minimum of spoilers so yeah..

[milramemo]

Noelle wore her hair in a bun back when she was in the NCR, and I imagine it would floof out a lot when untied. This happened in Cole’s route as well so I still wanna share this art because I love her smile here.

[pansy-picnics]

i swear i have a healthy and normal attachment to this disney princess

check it out on my inprnt!! :3

[crystalliumdaisy]

server villain

[beanmochiii]

new hyperfixation time merry christmas

[hoolyelina]

starless night