#anyway just crying about humans
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Just thinking about how storytellers are all linked together in a chain of ingesting the stories, themes, metaphors, concepts, ideas, subjects, etc of beloved predecessors and peers and finding what touches you, inspires you, moves you, what you also want to communicate and then- making something of your own, something that will touch someone next, change them a little (or a lot) in a beautiful way and they’ll make something too, maybe with a little bit of you in it.
And we’ve been doing that in an unbroken link since language began.
#it’s a run on because it should be#anyway just crying about humans#we make big mistakes but by god we are beautiful#i don’t believe in that kind of god but the emphasis was necessary#anyway storytellers includes non-writers#dancers do this#singers#painters sculptors actors#etc#i have a lot of FEELINGS about it#human stuff
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can i come over and pretend to be a normal human being except neither of us know what a normal human being is meant to look like
#my art#<- doodle whatevs#anyway i have a lot to say about the caption#i think mog does want to be perceived as “normal” in order to gain friends. since he lived on superflat with minimal human interaction#for years#then mumbo wants to be perceived as “normal” both for wanting friends and wanting to be unthreatening#however mumbo grew up on hermitcraft (surrounded by nonhumans)#and mog barely sees other people#and since in my. weird mc universe in my head everyones a shapeshifter to some degree#they just kinda.... guessed how to do it#anyway WOOOOO MUMBOSWAMP ON TOP (THEY HSVR NEVER INTERACTED ON CAMERa)#mumboswamp#first one in the tag baby#mumbo jumbo#mogswamp#might play arounf with designs later#also i have to say otherwise ill cry MUMBOS LONG ARMS IS ON PURPOSE#weird lanky freak guy. i luv him
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your art is beautiful im rly curious about your wc ocs as well!!! what happened to harpy?
Harpy’s injury was by an attempt to drown him on the day where he was supposed to become the leader, by the previous leader. (Leaders in greater way are known as crown holders.)
#my art#until it tastes like prey#harpy#screech#this story takes in a post apocalyptic world where humans have died out and everything is mutated but thst isn’t the focal point .#this story is about cats constantly discovering god but they do this to make sense of their place in the world#this story is about discovering about how infinitely small they all are…#anyway. harpy isn’t a main character. but he is important as he leads Greaterway’s clan.#one day I’ll get into detail! have you seen that post that tells you that math was constructed#by god just to show humanity how infinitely TINY they are compared to everything.. that math is so vast that it exists to act#as a complex form that reminds us that we are#fleshy disgusting tiny crying pissing puking digesting creatures that r inherently… just that#THATS WHAT THIS STORY IS I THINK… haha…#it’s post apocalyptic because these cats stare in the wake of the creations of humanity and it’s scary.#they can not make sense of it. and it’s really scary.#god.. waow.#greaterway#warriors oc
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all I knew going in was that the movie was called "Godzilla Minus One" and I was like "haha you mean there's no Godzilla in this? less than one Godzilla?" wrong, there was indeed a Godzilla. 11/10 movie
#no but actually the human plot was so compelling#I never thought I would cry in a Godzilla move but here we are!#both me and my sister cried and we never cry in movies#anyway go watch Godzilla Minus One wile it's still in theaters#*especially* if you liked the 1954 movie#I just AAAAAAA it's so good it clearly cares so much about its characters it's so refreshing and heart wrenching and aaaaaaa#Godzilla#godzilla minus one#godzilla minus 1#it's unironically one of my favorite movies of all time now#10 year old me was actually a huge Godzilla fan so it's a tradition for me my brother and my sister to watch any new godzilla movies#when we can get them in US theaters#VERY happy I got to see this one
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Calypso is not a character that I LIKE but she is a character that I want to study like a bug
#wren rambles#calypso#greek mythology#she is so.#just.#idk man.#the role of her in the Odyssey#like. she has so much power over Odysseus#the power dynamic is WILD. goddess calypso and ody crying on the beach#shes just so...yeah yknow#shes powerful and scary and a woman#and her speech to hermes about the gods' double standard makes me waaugh#anyway the more i reread the Odysseus and explore her character#the more beef i have with riorden-verse calypso#cos GOSH riorden did a pretty good job with most of the mythology adaptions#but making calypso a teenaged victim was a MISTAKE#she is POWERFUL and SCARY and CRUEL but shes a goddess so she doesnt have human morality andZ#she makes me fhfhfh#but also I Dislike Her#but as a piece of narrative?? waaaugh#the odyssey#and since its sparking these thoughts#epic the musical
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the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭
#twdg#i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment#i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying#anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that#them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school'#anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast#theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with#because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left#i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out#but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is#they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable#they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious#zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭#sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community#the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way#s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is#the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me#it speaks
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Getting REAL sick and tired of how omori TikTok views sunny.
Like, they view any scene of him being emotionally vulnerable, affectionate, or even just making an expression outside of just being completely neutral as “mischaracterised”. He’s not some cool, stoic, unwavering badass, he is a traumatised teenager. Don’t cry whenever he dares to give his friend a hug or (god forbid) be SAD about something??? Isn’t like. Part of the point of his development about him allowing himself to break down the repressive walls he built when he shut himself in? And being able to rely on his real friends instead of imaginary versions? And isn’t the game like. Meant to SHOW that he still cares about them despite isolating himself?
It’s really stupid to get mad at a character like that showing emotion or affection personally, especially since he’s not used to expressing it properly after so long. But that’s just me
#this isn’t even solely about the manga though it inspired me to make this post#any piece of official art in which sunny dares to show an emotion is shunned as ooc and I’m sick of it#he only appears ‘neutral’ throughout the GAME’s narrative because he HAS NO FACE SPRITES#because he’s the protagonist and has no actual dialogue#therefore he only makes a few expressions the entire game#obviously manga sunny is a good bit more expressive than canon sunny but#it’s REALLY not as bad as TikTok is making it out to be#I’m so TIRED of this character being viewed as nothing but a rock that ONLY has personality before and the game’s events#not allows to emote at all because ‘he didn’t do that in the game!!’#because he is restricted to ONE face sprite the entire time outside of the battles#omori is a DIFFERENT case and I can admit that manga omori is a good bit more expressive than he should be but#he’s still VERY stoic especially compared to sunny#which is what is should be#sunny should be quite closed off but in contrast to omori so much more human#that’s like. a massive part of their dynamic I feel#anyway this is such a long rant but god im so angry#I’ve seen one too many people cry ‘mischaracterised’ at a teenager expressing feelings#PLEASE stop it#also this is not to say you can’t critique manga sunny’s portrayal#because there are a few issues I believe#which are honestly really hard to dance around considering the factors I mentioned before#about having one expression most of the game and two lines of dialogue the entire time#and honestly? I think they did a pretty okay job!#he’s still a silent protagonist but seeing him emote so often helps us see into his mind and know how he’s thinking much easier#both portrayals have their pros and cons and ultimately I prefer the game’s portrayal#but that’s not to say this version of sunny is terrible and ooc like people have been saying#and that’s definitely not to say that any moment of emotional vulnerability he has is terrible and inaccurate#because that’s. just terrible and untrue#omori#omori sunny
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one time my mom was talking about something, I don’t remember what, and she said “have you ever known the poverty of having nothing to say?” and when I say nothing has ever punctured my heart quite like that statement
#I don’t even fully know why. also I don’t think she even meant it how I took it#but there is just some part of me that does believe that that is the greatest poverty#when there are no words in your mind or heart. no phrases—nothing to rely on or fall back on#and you just have to struggle with the human condition and be able to express none of it#and I know that not everyone uses words like I do or relies on them that way but people need some words. they need something#this is why a) I never make fun of those Instagram accounts that are all cheesy inspirational quotes or whatever because people are trying#they are REACHING#also b) that’s why villains who are wordlessly violently destructive make me cry#because it’s just like—-yeah I can understand turning to violence if I didn’t have expression#if I couldn’t get anything out#also also this is not related but I watched some movie or tv show the other day (and I cannot for the life of me remember which one it was)#but there was this couple on a date and the girl asks him to complete all these proverbs after she gives him the first half#because ‘a man who knows his proverbs can’t be all bad’ and it shook. Me. To. My. CORE.#also also!! this is why I teach! it’s the heart of it for me!! And why I make them memorize poetry. like.#and put quotes on the board every day. like. You will have words and images in your mind and your heart from my class if I have anything#to say about it#anyway sometimes my mom says things and casually devastates me#and I think (I think) she was just talking about the poverty of having no news because nothing is going on#and so you have nothing to share with someone. and she was talking about my Grandma and how sometimes she was just so sullen and quiet#but it’s just because there was nothing to say#anyway anyway anyway that is also why the one time on the phone my grandma said who has known the mind of the Lord —shook me so much#because she never really said anything. words were not her thing and she never quoted anything#and suddenly her saying this line of scripture that said more than any words I’d ever said —one of the defining moments of my life#tbh. anyway this is very long I’m sorry. I have woken up this morning crying about this. idk.
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i forgor it was autism day yesterday so i'd like to wish a very happy autism month and late autism day to data from star trek specifically :)
#star trek#star trek tng#star trek the next generation#star trek next gen#data soong#data#commander data#data tng#autism#autism acceptance day#autism acceptance month#actually autistic#autistic#data's so autism it has to be canon#like#he doesn't get social cues or humour#he mirrors the actions of his human friends (especially geordi)#he has a flat effect#he has a special interest (sherlock holmes)#he can't process his emotions in a ''human'' way and doesn't quite get facial expressions#and even when he does get the emotion chip installed he still exhibits literally every other autism trait#that's what i love about data post generations. the emotion chip didn't suddenly make him human-#-or neurotypical. he's still good ol' autistic data he just knows how to laugh and cry now :)#that what i was afraid of when i first watched the movie because i thought they'd just do a whole 180 with his character-#-as soon as geordi installed the chip but luckily they did not and i'm very happy about it#anyway shoutout to data!! i love him very much <3
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THE KISS ON TOP OF THE HEAD OH I AM UNWELL ‼️
#except her response to that would probably be a sad little yeah cause she thinks it’s both her biggest strength and flaw#cause it allows people to trample all over her and she just…. lets it 😔 my sweet sweet bbg needs therapy so bad#and a nice cup of tea & a hug#that’s why it’s good she’s paired with morgan — she learns to start standing up for herself#but ultimately being with morgan gives her the confidence to heartbreakingly choose to not turn because she does not want immortality#she wants a human life full of love and happiness and then ….. she wants to go meet her dad#anyways crying thinking about them and this conversation to be had 😭😭😭#m book4 is absolutely gonna annihilate me#and i can’t wait <33#twc m#the wayhaven chronicles#twc book 4 demo#morgan x naaz
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Even More Meat Marionette Au
But a lil drabble <3 Because my ADHD snatched this au and isn't letting go.
There were tunnels under Gotham.
Everyone knew about them, even if they were rarely spoken of. There were tales about them, some whispered in hushed voices from mother to child, others creeping across withered pages stained with age. Stories of creatures, of living shadows, of men going mad, wailing about the things beneath.
No one went into the tunnels.
Not purposely at least.
For one Bruce Wayne, he had fallen the first time- slipped into a well after a night of rain and into those dark caves with stone as black as night and just as stained with blood as the rest of the city.
No one had gone down for a long time, and no one should have gone down for longer still, but the rain had made the crumbling stones slick, the child reaching just a hint too far, and so down he went, nails scrabbling against unyielding rock and blood dripping from soft skin.
The child did not scream, even if his terror was sweet in the air as his blood mixed with the water soaking his clothes. He did not stay, just like the others before him, but the caves remembered the sweetness of the fear he brought.
No one went into the tunnels, not anymore.
Yet the child did.
Oh he wasn’t a child anymore, not to humans, but to the ancient caves, he was still but an infant. He’d eventually leave, and they’d still be there. They had been there long before, and they’d be long after even when the city turned to dust in the sands of time.
And yet…
And yet.
Yet he kept returning, night after night and day after day, running a hand along the stone that should have chilled him to the bone. His fear was still ever so sweet in the air, even if it was lessening over the time. It was… curious.
There was still the scent of fear, of terror coming from the human, but it also wasn’t. It was coming from him, but it wasn’t his own fear.
The emotion clung to him, but it wasn’t his. It was others’ fear, others’ fear he was bringing down to the cavernous tunnels. Others’ fear he was feeding It, unknowing or not. A gift, a meal, something for It and It alone.
It was only polite to return the favor, to gift the little human something to fight and terrify. As much as the spilled blood pleased It, the tunnels understood that it would be far better for Its little human to stay healthy, to be able to bring blood not his own.
The city was always full of corpses and the tunnels stretched far longer than humans realized after all, It could reach any who fell. Purposeful deaths, accidental, it made no difference to the bloodstained stone beneath.
It would call to Its little human soon enough, Its gift was nearly complete after all. Something to fly without the creaking metal or suits of wires. Something new, something It hadn’t formed before.
After all, what use would It have for a living body? What use did flesh and stone need to move? It had been here for a long time, and It would be here longer still, but perhaps, perhaps just this once another would last past the crumbling of life and bones turning to dust.
A gift, from the tunnels to him.
For one Bruce Wayne, who had returned to them with sacrifices of flesh and blood and fear each night. For one child who had fallen and returned to the depths of the tunnels, for one child that was Its.
This is a combo of my Au & @phoenixcatch7's and you need to check out their Possessed Doll Au because it's amazing <3<3
#writing wip#meat marionette au#batman au#batman#bruce wayne#lovecraftian vibes#The tunnels under Gotham: He's just our funny lil guy <3#Gothamites: *Screaming crying vomiting*#The tunnels: We love him <3#Bruce: *Crying & clinging to his exposure therapy bat plush*#The tunnels: he's such an adorable lil mortal boi <3#He's baby to them even if they're distinctly not human in their thinking#Someone turned up the heat in the house and my brain is melting or else I'd be writing from bruce's pov#about when he first gets his meat puppet body & literally wakes up in it#but it's like 80 degrees because my mom has a medical condition that is the opposite of me easily overheating :/#Anyway have a drabble and I hope yall like it#Writing wip#wip#drabble#gotham#this is like not edited at all so it might not be clear lol
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for these past couple of days since the news came out i've been thinking and there are quite a few things that mean the world to me - shadowhunters, teen wolf, DC shows (supergirl, the flash, the legends of tomorrow, arrow), the maze runner - mainly because they're such a huge part of my entire childhood and middle school life that i'm still so nostalgic about.
HOWEVER, one direction has always been a lot more special than the others, simply because my entire fangirl life started with and because of them yk?? the very first fanfiction i read was one direction one, the very first fanfiction i wrote myself was one direction one, the reason why i created my very first twitter fan account (which then led me to finding quite a lot important people in my life later on, including my best friend) back in 2020 account was because of one direction. basically everything you need to do at first to consider yourself a fangirl, in my experience, was because of one direction. and they, all five of them, have meant and always will mean a lot to me.
#and sure i know that maybe he wasn't that good of a human being#but he still was one ykwim??#maybe i'm looking at this entire situation from a too religious point of view#and a point of view of a someone who witnessed last year what it's like for a mother to find out that her son is gone#and how sudden and horrible death can be#so sure i didn't know him personally but that doesn't change the fact that he was a huge part of my childhood along with other four#AND that he was still someone's son and a brother and a friend and a father#so making idiotic comments and stupid jokes about a real person's death is insensitive as FUCK#anyways idk where this rant came from but idk#ever since the last year and all that death & grief my own family went through#i tend to look at someone losing a loved one from my own perspective and how horrible it was to go through it myself#and sometimes i get a feeling that social media has caused people to lose the feeling of sympathy towards other human beings#AND ESPECIALLY towards a family that just lost its member#crys' rambling#one direction
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the way this is a response to one of the members being injured after being overworked for MONTHS and going on an extended encore tour that truly did not need to happen is CRAZY... enhypen are genuinely doing just fine they have a lot of fans internationally and a lot of people support their music it's their stupid company that wants to make us believe that they are on the brink of flopping when that's not the case at all and you people fall for it that you sound like a company ceo with this talk about "market competition" like you don't care about the group you supposedly love YOU TRULY DON'T. it doesn't even matter if it was "with their consent" when you don't exactly know that anyways but even if it was, it was because they were pressured to accept having to do inhumane schedules and having comebacks and going on tour right after for years atp. i am so mad you people don't deserve the groups that you supposedly stan and love and care about the "caring" and the "loving" is all a farse
#THIS PISSED ME OFF#i've been gathering my thoughts for hours#but at today's concert jay was injured he did participate anyways#but he did cry at the concert bc he felt like he was disappointing fans#and then this loser comes out with a tweet like this#and i know a lot of people think like this#i know because i see this every day from different fandoms i am in#you don't care about them as humans#you only care about them if they give 'content' and entertainment#and that's all there is#because the moment we try to discuss a world where they go on break#or do a boycott because things are getting too much#you people act so offended and say they will disband#and it will be bad like no#IT'S ALREADY BAD RIGHT NOW#they are getting injured and sick because they don't stop working#just because you boycott an album or wtv it is it doesn't mean they will overwork the idols#they are already overworking them RIGHT NOW#it's bad RIGHT NOW#so fucking do something if you actually gaf#tris.txt
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Not to get deep here or anything but i really think i dont want to have a relationship with my sister anymore and ive been reflecting on that a lot. like sure she didnt abuse me or really do anything to directly traumatize me, but she voted against me having human rights because im queer, as well as voting for a party that wants to harm first nations people despite both of us being first nations i just.... i dont think i can forgive her for that. weve had laughs and good times together but i find myself unable to forgive her for her politics. i wouldn't tolerate bigotry from anyone else, i shouldnt tolerate it from someone just cause theyre family.
#can anyone provide me guidance on this? ill bring it up with my therapist but i dont see her for another week#anyways im making myself cry late at night whats new lol ive been processing a lot this week#ok eta: and theyll always make you feel bad for this!!!!!#theyll be like ''ok so everyone has to bend to your commie regime to have a relationship with you 🙄''#like yeah actually you do#if you really loved me like you claim to you wouldnt be FUCKING VOTING FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO TAKE MY RIGHTS AWAY#yes you do have to respect my rights if you want to have a relationship with me that is completely reasonable#whats ACTUALLY unreasonable is you asking me to ''just get over'' the fact that yall support people who think i shouldnt have human rights#right wingers will try to gaslight you into believing basic human decency is an unattainable and torturous request#then when you get upset theyll be like ''god the left is so emotional 🙄''#like yeah. i am. and you should be emotional too about human rights violations. the fact that youre not is pure evil.#anyways ill go cry myself to sleep like a faggot now#it just breaks my heart that i dont have any immediate family members who dont blatantly hate me for being queer/first nations
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There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.
#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz#ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and#then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc.#Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific#cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or#etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as#you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on#accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have#as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence#of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate#versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a#neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest#ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling#and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for#documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like#sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I#can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If#I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my#ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ??#Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be#accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor#focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it#were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan#that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is#some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my#kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means#i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m#in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in#one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability#& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER
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always so funky to be reminded that your parents might love you but they don’t actually like you very much
#wasn’t i supposed to leave that feeling behind with puberty?#anyway mama decided i have no christmas wish#the sad little guy who can’t get nice things for themself also doesn’t get to ask for them now during the ‘ask for things’ time of the year#it’s not about christmas it’s not about material things it’s about looking me in the glassy eyes and asserting ‘you have no wish’#when wishing is all i ever do you just never create a space safe enough for me to voice them#blah#not st#i’m so so sorry that whining is all i ever do anymore and i shouldn’t be so sad about this over and over again#i’m just. so small. tiny. and insignificant. i might not have been there all day and 99% of the conversations would have happened the same#i wanna stop feeling this way but i think in order to stop feeling this way i need to stop wanting to be loved and seen and listened to#by my mom. and i don’t think it’s entirely human or possible to stop wanting that. so oh well#i don’t know if i give them reason to like me. maybe i don’t. this might all be on me actually.#if she knew i’m crying about this she’d roll her eyes and say ‘you know how i am. sorry you misunderstood me’#why do the blows keep coming? when’s it my turn to rest?
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