#also tell me if im being insane/reading into this too deeply

[introspectivememories]

one thing about me is that if im writing an avatar (2009) fic, the earth is not dying. im so sorry it's my least favorite plot point in the movies. why did cameron write that in????

[pinknightsinmymind]

【 abby anderson as a gf hc's 】

a/n: this is just super fluffy and cute <333 i wrote a lot so it's below the cut

first and foremost, lots of ppl make assumptions about abby and what she's like because of her appearance. she has somewhat of a rbf, and she's insanely buff, so many ppl are intimidated by her automatically.

that being said, abby looks to be understood and known at a deeper level, and wants to be treated like anyone else no matter what she looks like

i think she's the typical "intimidating but a huge softie" type like HEAR ME OUT

anyone can look at her and know that she's insanely strong and that she could easily take them out, and while true, underneath all that abby is extremely kind and caring

she may look scary, but she loves reading, she loves animals, she loves nature, she has a soft spot for lev, she's grown to understand the world outside of herself and that there is more than what meets the eye, she's learned from her mistakes, and she's deeply loyal

so while, yes, she is tough and strong, she is much more than that and wants to be seen for all parts of herself rather than the surface; she wants to be understood and she wants her partner to be someone who isn't intimidated by her and is willing to look beyond her exterior

so while everyone else avoids her and you willingly approach her despite what ppl say? and you treat her like a person—like she were anyone else? that immedately gets you on her good side and gains you her respect

you two begin to seek each other out more and more bc she enjoys your company and begins to open up to you

she lets you see every side of her, even the ones she typically wouldn't let others see

other ppl may be confused as to how you joke around with her so easily when they'd fear for their lives if they did, but that's simply bc you're close enough to her that you know how much of a huge softie she is

okay okay enough of my intimidating softie abby agenda and now time for more interesting stuff

im FULLY convinced that in a modern!au and college!au she'd be in pre-med studying to be a doctor or a surgeon; she'd do it bc she wants to help ppl but also bc she loves and admires her dad for his work

bc of this i also see her bragging to you all the time that she'll be your doctor wife who makes big money so she can spoil you

(and she lives up to that promise)

when she comes home late from work she's quick to make it up to you

ABBY IN SCRUBS

knowing her love of novels, i feel like she struggled to pick between pre-med and english as her major, but at the end of the day being a doctor called to her passions much more so she chose english as her minor

HOWEVER, i feel like her brain is so sexy especially when talking about novels she's read

like imagine her going on tangents about the book she's read and what she thinks the meaning is, then bringing up the story's historical context, and then interdisciplinary studies and just being like "omg she's so sexy i'm going to take my clothes off rn" bc of how smart she is

her book collection is HUGE and she lets you borrow whatever you want from her shelves, and you can see all the things she's scribbled in the margins, her silly annotations, small drawings in the corners, her cussing in her notes about the characters saying stuff like "what the fuck is wrong with you?" so seriously

she'll find poems she really likes and tell you about them especially the ones that remind her of you

i feel like she'd love emily dickinson and the bronte sisters idk i can see it

she's SO excited to introduce you to her dad

she's a huge family person and wants you to feel like a part of her family too

in a modern!au lev is probably a kid who lives next door to her that she babysits and tutors sometimes but she absolutely adores him and sees him as her brother

can you imagine how much of a hopeless romantic she is

she's probably so cheesy and loves romance and being cute with you where if it were anyone else it'd be cringy but its HER and she's just so sweet and so endearing how could you hate any of it?

asks you to be her valentine every year even if you're her gf bc she still feels the need to romance you

will make a spectacle of every holiday in order to treat you somehow

okay maybe gift giving would be a love language of hers too i can see it

but i feel like her top love languages are physical touch and acts of service tho

she's definitely the type to cherish any moment with you, and values being able to sit with you in silence in general but also while you do your own activities together (so parallel play basically)

.... i think she'd love to play video games to destress but not necessarily violent ones i think she'd play more calm games like animal crossing to relax or maybe minecraft where yall can build a world together and have a little farm bc she thinks its cute

teases you when you get lost or when you die in the games tho bc she's a bully (jokingly) like that

definitely the type to be like "only I can bully you"

very protective in general she wouldn't let anyone lay a hand on you and she'd take such good care of you

worries about your well-being (physical, emotional, mental) all the time and will do whatever it takes to make sure you're okay

if you need her at 3 am, she doesn't care she goes to your place right away

if you're sick she won't hesitate to buy you medicine, clean up your place, make you soup, whatever you want

when taking care of you while sick she calls you her number one patient and her favorite patient bc she's corny like that

there's nothing she wouldn't do for you bc when she's committed, she's committed

she's such a devoted and loyal person in general that when she cares about you, she cares about you, and there's no bluffing involved

just a very sincere and honest person who is willing to grow and learn, especially with her partner

i bet she's VERY open to communication and to talk things out with you she's the type to listen to you wholeheartedly and give you all the reassurance you need

she's the type of partner who's SO open to communication and good at it that you're like omg??? how are you so calm??? i'm screaming and crying and shitting my pants rn???

she's a huge softie and such a loving person who looks to be understood the way she understands others; she craves unconditional love and wants to give to others

she's just gf (and wife) material like come ON

[guardpupleo]

i dozed off for like an HOUR earlier tonight and got consumed by the most visceral and descriptive wet dream i have had in fucking AGES . a lot of it is lost on me now just by the nature of dreams but holy fucking shit i need to write this out because he needs to read this too . this is my favorite part because of how sheerly fucking insane it makes me and because i woke up right after because my dick was so hard .

cut for length obviously this is so fucking LONG

i pressed my hips harder against his, the knot of my strap grinding into him and i feel him shudder and whine and dig his nails harder into my back, his face bright red and with tears welled up in his eyes. the sight makes me growl down, pressing into him again, rolling my hips, teasing him with the knot. to my surprise, he rolls his hips back into me, managing to start to get the knot in.

of course, this gets such a reaction out of me, hearing the noises he makes and how his breathing quickens, and i just look at him and catch his gaze.

"wow, it looks like somebody's desperate to be treated like a puppy, huh? didn't think you'd be that eager to take my knot.." i coo at him, and this elicits the exact reaction i was hoping for; mumbled, barely cohesive words trying to justify himself while he pressed his hips into me, desperately trying to signal for me to keep grinding my knot into him.

"what, love? come on, im gonna need you to tell me to keep going.. it's a bit of a stretch and i don't want to hurt you, after all.." and as i speak, i gently roll my hips into him again. "but i do love feeling you bottomed out like this, on my cock, pretty boy.."

a sharper whine and he's almost panting for me now, and i wipe tears from his eyes so he can look at me clearer. all he can manage are half whispers of the word please, panting and blinking tears of pleasure away trying to keep his composure.

and with his affirmation, i snarl, holding his hips with both hands now to help guide him into me, and i deeply grind into him, every bit that the knot slipped in, bringing a higher pitched whine from him and his claws digging into me harder.

i move myself so i can tuck my face against his neck and collarbone, slowly and torturously fucking my knot into him, easing him up and also just working him up.

his claws dig into me harder, i know hard enough to raise lines on my back and i growl and hiss through my teeth, biting into his neck barely hard enough to leave a mark.

"come on, doll, i know you can do more damage than that. im not gonna let you take this whole thing until you can at least draw a little blood."

i draw back, and start just pumping into him again, letting my knot press against him but not into him, getting him to raise and roll his hips with pitiful little whimpers and barely audible pleas for more. but he complies once he fully realizes i meant it, and i start fucking into him faster.

i finally press my knot against him again, letting him do most of the work for me, but still rutting my hips in time with his. i snarl as i feel him absolutely slash down my back, feeling the sear of skin being broken and i nearly come undone right then and there, feeling my tdick throb violently against the base of the strap.

my hips start moving faster, and his breathing picks up, and i feel him start to tense up below me, and i lock eyes with him ever so briefly as i catch a glimpse of the mess he's made of his makeup with his tears, and i snarl and growl and feel him getting closer to taking the knot to the base.

"fuck, darling, you're really gonna take it.. i can't .. you're doing so good for me, know that?" i manage out, through gritted teeth, knowing im so damn close, each deep push against him as the knot nearly makes it in. i keep grinding into him, feeling him start to tremble and whine under me, and finally, finally, the rest of the knot slips in, and he really digs his claws into me.

i growl and can't even function enough as i feel him clench and shake and pant and whine and just press against his collarbone, rutting my hips into him just so he can feel the knot all the way in him, my hips jerking and my cock throbbing as my orgasm just fucking breaks me.

[hyewka]

List your favourite writers + why: Gooo!!! 💌

Been around since when you first started this blog and I can confidently say that every single writing you have put out is a piece from heaven. I really love your style of writing and choice of words. The way you write and plots always have me on the edge and thirsty for more. Thank you for always keeping me entertained! Been too shy to say anything before but you really deserve the love. ❤️❤️

Also can’t wait for the beomgyu series you’re coming out with.❣️

I’m sooooo genuinely flattered aww 😭😭 I’m happy you got to tell me eventually because I’m currently like…flying over clouds out of just pure appreciation, thank you baby for sticking around ❤️

When it comes to my favorite writers, I definitely like to look around here and there hehe I feel like I’m always reading something, and there’s always new writers popping up lol so it keeps it fresh. I’ll limit it to TXT smut writers to make it easier. I feel like this list will consist of me hyping up my mutuals and the people I follow so🥲

- @fairyofshampgyu

among my favorite writers because i was sooo into their fuck you series, and their writing in general is easy to follow and digest but its still not too simple to the point it detoriates the quality of their work, its a perfect balance of being complex and not being too confusing for me to follow after a long 12-hour shift. another point—characterization i feel is such a big part of fanfic and its always believable for me in nini’s fics! it makes it 10x more enjoyable.

- @koqabear

i looove long fics, and i’m always looking forward to whatever sol posts next. what i’m jealous most of her fics is just how the setting is built, its so immersive and insanely detailed. it makes the long read interactive and again, enjoyable making her easily one of my favorite writers. and the diversity of her masterlist? chefs kiss, they have a lot of range and its admirable because it shows skill.

- @itgirlhub / @itgirlgyu

i can practically feel anything qiwi writes sometimes it feels like i’m in a movie. i feel as readers, everyone loves that. her advanced vocabulary is also a favorite of mine, it feels like im learning a new word every now and then, which i deeply thank her for 🥲 but also her writing feels real, other than the topics she chooses to write about, i feel like whenever i sit down and just digest every word, i feel like im reading about real characters, and it gets me so incredibly invested. that is why i’ll be on the sidelines awaiting the day she writes a big FAT oneshot, i’d eat it up like an insane ravenous bitch.

- @wildernessuntothemselves

i love morts blog to the core, just a week ago i went through her entire masterlist and honestly, i’d recommend each and every one. an insane writer with plots that totally hook in everybody. i was not a fan of hybrid smut until i caved and read one of theirs and god, now look at me. she also has so much range in her writing, its fun to read. though i feel almost all of her fics have messed up or sad endings 😂 they’re always fitting though so i don’t mind as a ride or die happy ending whore lol

- @beomsight / @gyuthmics

common theme here is that i love range even if some of it doesn’t appeal to my tastes, i just think it’s so cool when writers tackle random ideas they get in their head and go through with posting even if it might be peculiar for massive consumption. i don’t think what mj writes is ever not my taste. that’s how good i find their writing. even just a small thought, and i’m pumped, giddy, everything lol. and as a perv txt enthusiast, their blog is heaven sent. everyone say thank you for writing mj!

- @tyunkus

if i’m ever in a really terrible, downright nasty taehyun mood (i am a very big advocate for rough dominant taehyun) i go to their blog and search up the taehyun tag. but also other than providing some of the best taehyun writings to ever grace this site, they’re just a generally really good writer. their biggest strength i feel is imagery/description and of course dialogue. amazon wishlist was such a strong piece of writing because undeniably the smut lol but also the dialogue. it’s so real, and makes the characters that much more enjoyable to read. i love love dialogue, and tyunkus absolutely uses it to elevate their writing to untouchable levels. insanely good writer, i'm always psyched for anything new :)

- @pink-tea

its as simple as i love sub txt with all my heart and i love anybody who writes for them 😭 op is a master at it, especially their headcanons. i always end up discovering a new kink just because i havent been deep into the femdom black hole yet unfortunately 😂 their sub!hueningkai stuff is some of my favorite of all times as well.

I have a lot of writers I consider to have consistent hits with what they release (if the question was which writers i enjoy...this list would be very very long 😭) hence I thought of doing an honorable mentions section but keeping it short and simple I think is good. Sort of as to say that these are really my top favorites, like people who I just enjoy everything from no matter the said content even when I am normally a selective person. Hehe this was fun, again I really appreciate your support, it reaches me during a stale not so fun time lol

[chilapis]

hi i’m in love with genshin lapis can u tell me her lore can u tell me everything can i know i wanna know im so curious im sitting here w my notes eagerly awaiting ur response ✍️ i love u btw

hi, hello ! i love you too . also i read your tags & i think they absolutely can be friends. two of them (they’re going to beat people to death together)

do be warned that there is heavy projection because yeah ajax is like. with me-with me (real) (mentally ill) but also if i’m making a s/i to ship with him as well … tragically she will be suffering from the same deeply rooted character flaws as myself.

genshin lapis is . quite literally just a retired, immortal warlord who just wants a simple, domestic now.

beautiful woman who used to consider international peace a mere (unhelpful) suggestion is now trying to help people finalise their divorces and drafting contracts for business. she isn’t particularly affiliated with any region mostly because she isn’t, open about who she really is? so she’ll spend centuries in a nation, and then move to another every 60-70 years or so til she completes the rotation and then start all over; new name, new identity, new past, but the same face and the same profession. she loves liyue with all her heart but tends to stay there the least because one in every three people there are more than at-least 150 years old and she has gotten that “wait, don’t i fucking know you” look from a little too many people for her liking. she also avoids old people like the plague for this same reason because she doesn’t want to see the gears click in someone’s 90 year old grandma’s head.

except the thing is that she doesn’t need to be open because she makes it so painfully obvious. you know how most non-mortal or long-waiting characters in genshin will just shut up and entertain their mortal company’s false assumptions and beliefs? not her ! her pride is far too big for that. if you’re wrong she’ll tell you that you’re wrong and she knows because she was there (the realisation of what she said will hit her in exactly 10 minutes once her tangent is over. everyone who knows her falls into either one of two categories: either they think she is insane, or they think she is immortal. Both are correct.

i feel like despite being in the legal field she does not particularly. care about justice or law; in the sense that she doesn’t quite, believe in it existing anymore? she helps people out, don’t get me wrong; she’ll even do it pro-bono, free of charge, but her acts of kindness feel more like tossing a slab of meat to a caged animal than actually doing something nice, if that makes sense. there’s this, looming feeling of detachment from everyone and everything that she cannot shake off & she knows it’s because immortality has deeply affected her ability to relate to others or form connections but she’s helpless in the sense that she she doesn’t even know what a life beyond this would be like, and she’s not sure if she wants to. societies are moral-run now; there’s more rules, there are new concepts.

& then she meets ajax & ends up forming not only just an emotional attachment but one that is so intense and overwhelming that she doesn’t . know what the hell to do about it. she is freaking out because this is probably the first time she’s ever felt this way & he’s there & he’s talking to her & she doesn’t know what it is but she’s staring at him with such wide eyes. also gets super protective of him, even after finding out that he is literally the 11th harbinger. the relationship is what would get her back to her old spirits of um . killing and battling and conquering. except in the past she did it for the sake of it. she did it for the act itself. but now it’s for him — now she does it because she knows he wants power and honestly, she does too! she may have repressed it for a bit but she also wants to be on top of the food chain! just like how she used to before! & now they can do it together!

except there’s . one teeny tiny issue. she isn’t fond of the fatui; she didn’t mind before and even took on a few cases for some of them but after knowing ajax & loving ajax she will start kicking and screaming and unsheathing her sword the moment the tsaritsa is mentioned. she actually doesn’t even mind the harbingers all too much (except pulcinella) (she has beaten him up and will do so again DO NOT let this woman near a retirement house she is not afraid to fight senile white men) but the tsaritsa just . makes her blood boil for some reason. I think a part of her (her ego) might even lead her to wanting to play god herself but um. we’ll see about that

she LOVES a good spar though. chilapis love language (we fall deeper in love every time one of us backs the other into a corner). I feel like the first time she saw foul legacy, childe was expecting her to be afraid or nervous, and he thought she was because she kept looking away but no she was just un. Deeply flustered and appreciative of his form. after she finds out what a toll it takes on him though she refuses to ever let him use it when they're playfighting. ALSO SHE LOVES HIS FAMILY? she never had one herself so domestic comfort is such a new concept for her and it makes her so giddy. i feel like after meeting ajax she just tags along with him on his missions. her job? her affiliations? her home? who cares, she finally found what’s truly hers. she won't ever bring it up herself but if he told her to permanently move to shneznaya i think she would. in a heartbest. i feel like she’d be the first to bring up marriage though. childe may want to simply date at first, see how things pan out, but she’d be like dating …..? What is this “dating” you speak of ….. She is actually fully aware of modern concepts 60% of the time but she likes to play dumb. especially when he’s around.

[minevn]

first ramble of many: im feeling insane but hear me out. i’d just read this reddit story, in which OP’s bf would bully them online, anonymously, with different accounts and platforms, resulting in OP turning to the bf for comfort.

in irl circumstances, this is gross af, obviously, but i genuinely feel like kei is the type to do this same thing if he’s dating mc. you know, with his hackerman abilities and whatnot…..

he does hate seeing mc hurt in any capacity; mental, emotional, physical, etc. but he also takes a sick pleasure in being the cause of a certain pain that’ll make mc see him as a safe/comfort object, even tho he’s so deeply ashamed of his actions.

the less rational part of his mind tells him that he only wants to show you that he’s safe! that at the end of the day, he’s in control of all of this, so he can get as personal or distant with the insults coming from “pinkluvr26” or “madrabb1t” as he wants. these people can’t be kei, your wonderful, caring boyfriend who’s been nothing but supportive this whole ordeal. he’s there for you no matter what; even if your enemy is actually him.

even if you do find out, it’s not like he meant any of that stuff! he loves you! he loves you so much that he’d give or do anything to get you to love him back 💕

Your brain is absolutely massive, just huge. Mega mind literally cannot compete with you. Honestly, rn I'm not going to write a drabble for this cause my brain is fried and for some reason I just don't have any ideas, but I would eventually LOVE to write something with this concept. (I'm also sadly not the best story writer. Scripts I think I write fine, but I hate my writing whenever I write a drabble/story. Anyways I'll be working on this juicy story slowly in the background<3) For now lemme gush and brainstorm some ideas for this because I'm losing my MIND over this.

At first I really struggled to see it because it is a really shitty thing to do and I just couldn't imagine sweet baby Kei doing something like that. But the more I read this and thought about this, he ABSOLUTELY WOULD! (Bro manipulated ME even though he's my character?? like what?) Even better, he'd pin it on one of the other Li's since he knows you're already being stalked. Haruto would even be an easy target to blame for saying really personal thing, since he's known you since you were babies. And Yani and Kage are not THAT subtle with their stalking, he could easily pin it on them. Maybe even a Kage and Haruto two for one special, where Kei pins Kage saying the information, but Haruto was the one that gave it to them(He could do this with Jun and Aki as well). And the twins, the twins would be so easy to frame, they're already jerks to you anyways. Kei could say some of the most hate-filled and hurtful things to you and frame them for it. Minato might be a bit more tricky but maybe if you and Minato were friends, he could blame Haruto telling Minato your secrets or making up lies about you, after all, Haruto has been known to do that stuff in the past. He's great at mimicking their texting styles as well so it's just even more believable.

This is so devious and awful but I can really see Kei doing this, like I can't get this out of my head. Like I know I just read this, but like I'm gonna be thinking about this for the rest of my life. I'm feeling insane now too/pos. Dude, you're brain is literally on another level, this is like, one of the best things I've heard. I'm literally so in love with this concept. I do think Kei would be one of the most dangerous Li's, like mentally and emotionally, Yani is def the most dangerous when it come to physical strength(and using it. Hoshi and Minato would probably be able to beat them, but also if Yani is fighting for you then nothing can stop her)

Like especially if you have a pretty big following, I think he'd put out more personal information or spread lies that way you lose your following and get more hate that doesn't even come from him, and he'd try to use that to feel better about himself as well. Like "I may have started this, but I stopped a while ago and only said one thing." or "I didn't even say anything rude."(Because he wouldn't have to, he would just have to get the info out with proof)

He would 10000000% feel guilty, I think it would eat away at him and maybe even make him more sick and twisted. Like you said, he feels guilty, but he does get pleasure from it as well. It would just further his beliefs that you NEED him. Even if you found out it was him, who else would you turn to if he ruined your social status, no one else would want to talk to you. But it's okay, he'll ALWAYS love you. Even if he didn't mean any of that stuff, other people definitely think that stuff about you now, but he doesn't. And if you think he DOES feel that way, well, he'll work on making sure you know he loves you eventually, but for now, he uses it to his advantage a bit. You can think he feels that way about you, and he'll say things like "But I'm staying by your side, no matter what." or "I won't let you go through this alone." just to make you feel even more grateful towards him. Because everyone else has left you. Everyone but your sweet, caring boyfriend Kei.

Idk if anyone here knows what smau's are, but I would love to try a topic like this with smau. Just in case you don't know what smau's are, they're "a type of fanwork where fans create graphics that look like social media accounts for fictional or RPF characters" I've been really wanting to work with that but I wasn't sure with what, but I might have an idea relating to this concept if anyone is interested.

[cumulonimbuns]

hi, yesterday i stumbled across the knights self-destruction and got so hooked i stayed up until it was three in the morning and my head hurt and i physically couldnt keep reading, and now ive caught all the way up. i am so obsessed with everything, im always a slut for angst and thats what i initially clicked for but my GOSH i am so digging the relationships between zelda and link and sidon and yona and yona and link especially. i am so so so overjoyed to see link and zeldas relationship portrayed in such a queerplatonic-feeling way, being in a qpr myself. this fic may have had a hand in making me realize me being some flavor of poly so thanks for that. i adore the zora worldbuilding youve done with the distinction between heart and treasure and how both of these are so deeply committed and emotional ways of feeling towards one another. and GOSH the angsty scenes were delicious. yona is a riot, and i am so in love with her portrayal. much like link i fucking need zelda to see this.

and just when i thought more bliss wasnt possible i find your blog and see your wonderful art of this story.

also the scene with link breaking down in yonas arms and him wresting with the gang have my heart even though my all time favorite is the sages reactions to links breakdown and his reaction to them seeing him. also link telling zelda about what clouds feel like. god im just HGN. i am never getting my brain back to normal from this. have a nice day.

I MEANT TO RESPOND TO THIS AGES AGO BUT GOT BUSY. SO SORRY BOUT THAT!

First of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! This made me very happy to read <3

I too am a slut for angst. I love to be hurt, but also need me that comfort. Which is why you all can take the solace in the fact that no story of mine will have an unhappy ending. SAD ENDINGS ARE FINE, I JUST CAN’T DO IT. I am not strong enough. I inflict much hurt but in the end it will be taken care of.

I’m glad the QPR vibes came across how I wanted them too!! I’ve always viewed/treated qpr’s with the same importance as romantic relationships bc they are!! So each pairing is as committed to one another as they would be to a romantic partner. It’s just how they express that love and some of the vibes are different. Another thing I’m so happy about is that you totally get where my brain was coming from with the ‘some flavor of poly’ bc in a way that’s exactly what’s happening. Like I said, qpr’s are just as valid and important as a romantic relationship, so there are some poly negotiations that goes down with all that. Making sure everyone is on the same page, comfortable, and agreeing.

It’s a bit hilarious how obsessed I’ve become with Yona. Nintendo barely gave us anything for this woman so I decided to run wild. Now I am completely insane with the amount of love I have for her, and it literally all stems from the fact I’ve turned her into my own character with all the random hc i threw on her at this point lmao. And I too need Zelda and Yona to meet.

And thank you so much for stopping by my blog to say hi and compliment my writing/art! It’s rlly made me smile. (And don’t worry, my brain is never returning to normalcy after this lmao, TOTK fan fiction/art has changed me as a person)

Here’s a lil doodle for you to show my appreciation (and a sorry for taking so long to respond fdhfhf, i know you probably don’t care, but I do)

<3<3<3<3 HOPE YOU HAVE A LOVELY DAY OR NIGHT!!! <3<3<3<3

[strawberry-selfships]

okay. im gonna explain it all. Why Do I Love Niles Caulder So Much?

contains spoilers for the general plot of doom patrol (not of one specific dp media)

put this under a cut because it is EXTREMELY long. (1.1k words) but hopefully I'll be able to post all my fics and stuff after I have this all explained. to whoever reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so. LETS GOOO

I'll start off with the disclaimer of saying I do not agree with or support what he did. (not something I should have to say but some people think being in love with an antagonist means agreeing with them and their actions) I am most familiar with the grant morrison doom patrol comic run, so that's the main one I'll be referring to. I have seen a little bit of the show too. not very much of it, but still episodes that I'll also refer to once or twice (particularly, last ep I saw was Jane Patrol)

ok! now that that's over with, onto the real meat of this. I'll start this off with a bang, with the absolute biggest reason that niles lives in my heart so strongly! reason #1: he is genuinely caring, accepting, and accommodating I spend a lot of time thinking about this. if you want a specific example, I think a lot about how niles interacts with baby doll. actually I have a gif here (that I made myself!) that I can include

like genuinely no matter what, you tell him something deep or odd about yourself or ask him to refer to you in some way or literally anything, and he'll be so goddamn accepting about it. even if he doesn't like you personally, I feel like he'd still respect who or what you are and it's just something that is so so so deeply personal to me. as someone who's genderfluid, shapeshifter otherkin, fictionkin, asexual, xenogender, and uses neopronouns, the knowledge that niles would take the time to understand all these facets of me and love me just the same means EVERYTHING.

actually now that I've mentioned me being otherkin, I do want to mention why I've been so secretive about my selfship with him. my self insert is a reflection of my otherkin-ness like no other. I am nonhuman. non-anthro nonhuman. I am a shapeshifter. being deadly serious here. so I decided to make my doom patrol self insert a shapeshifter too. human being included as one of the species, of course. all of the selfship art I've posted with niles is just of him with me, not with my self insert, because I didn't want people getting upset with me over misunderstanding who my self insert is.

with that confession over with, here's reason number two :3

reason #2: he's genuinely really interesting as a character it's a complicated answer on whether niles is a villain or not. I've only seen his plan executed in the grant morrison comic so that's the one I'll be referring to here. he had such a terrible (humanely) way of executing his plan, and yet there was an odd sense of heart into it? like, his ultimate goal was to bring people together after putting them each in a drastic traumatic situation, where the only people who can help them cope are each other. it's?? so??? and after all that is said and done, he is shown to genuinely care for them. and accommodate them and support them. it's just so damn interesting??? like obviously it's terrible but it's just so interesting that he did this with the goal of unification and acceptance amongst people. and it's all out of scientific interest too. for knowledge. scientific pursuit. that's his reasoning. his main motivation for all that. it's insane. he's insane. he has every disease. there's so much wrong with him. he has such an odd heart. I love him. I love him I love him and I love how uncomparable he is to any other character.

reason #3: his absolute insane amount of intelligence he!!! is!!! so smart!!! think about how insane his invention of the Think Tank is!!! also I don't think he's an actual psychologist but he's clearly really skilled in understanding the minds of others. his scientific method is so . you can tell he's so . it's . yeah . it's so freaking impressive to me and I love it so much rahhh!!! there's a really deep comfort I have from him in this regard. I am really picky and really sensitive to textures, feelings, sounds, flavors, etc., so knowing that niles would understand and remember all of these is so nice. with the added comfort of knowing he would accommodate me and not judge me and not mind it and not think me a burden for having to work around them is just so special!!! I want to be understood, and he would take the time to understand me. there's a special intimacy in being understood so acutely. a type of intimacy that I hold so, so dear. something that can only be given by niles. plus, he loves me and cares for me, he wants to understand me and know the most efficient way to care for me and make me smile and make me happy and comfort me after a bad day and understand what makes me ticked off and what makes me giggle and so on and so forth. the intimacy of being understood. <3

reason #4: I think his fondness for chocolate is really great ;w; this is something in both the comic and the show that I'm really happy they included in both!! it's my favorite little trait of his I think it's really cute aahauee!! I've heard the canonical reason is that he's managing his blood sugar, but it's a personal headcanon of mine that he's got a big sweet tooth for the stuff. particularly milk chocolate.

it's genuinely one of my favorite things to see, to glance over at him in a comic panel and he's in the corner nibbling on a chocolate bar. particularly hershey's. gosh it's another cute detail that he's got a favorite particular brand. he likes his milk chocolate bars!!!! and it's so wonderful and it makes me smile every time i see it!!!

bonus reason! reason #5 - ngl he's really silly when he's just a head

look at these pics and tell me u dont get at least a little bit of whimsical joy from this!! he's in a kitty tray, drinking a chocolate shake, not even to feel full because it's clearly leaking out of him and he knows this, but because he just likes the taste of chocolate. it's jsut something that makes me smile and makes me giddy whenever I remember it !!! silly silly

thank you sooooo much for reading all this insane amount of blorbo gushing!!! <3 chances are, I'm probably forgetting some stuff since I wrote this all in one sitting in like the span of one hour, but I got my main reasons down. so yeah hopefully I'll be able to have the confidence start posting all the selfship fics I've written of him and my self insert now that I've hopefully gotten any kind of confusion or misunderstanding out of the way. (also dear reader this is your reminder to eat or drink water if you've forgotten either of those.) <3

[weebsinstash]

More drama and deets about Heart of A Lycan King because it's the newest story I'm listening to and binging lol:

(Also, uh, I didn't realize this until now because i just listen, i dont read along as well: if you're hard of hearing and REQUIRE reading, I actually do not recommend DreameFM/Wehear at all, for any story. Apparently the transcriptions are done differently than whomever submits, like, the voice work, i think it might actually be auto generated, and I have been noticing for a while now that all of the stories are transcribed basically only half correct. There is, um, HORRIBLE PUNCTUATION? You'll literally have a paragraph that instantly transitions from speech, to whom is speaking, to back to speech with not a single " mark)

There are actually two different people speaking in this highlighted portion ("Aaron, I-" is Natasha, being cut off as her wolf continues). awful grammar and accessibility. Also pretty sure her wolf's name is Erin but whatever

-you know how before I said I wished Natasha would speak up about Mateo not deserving her? She did say after the Mateo ass beating that she accepted his rejection because she didn't want him and also legit spits on his face albeit it causes a misunderstanding. Natasha goes from Aiden to Mateo who is wounded on the ground and Aiden loses his temper thinking she's comforting and going back to him and he picks her up and puts her kicking and screaming in his car, but it turned out she had spit on his face and was about to tell him to go fuck himself before she planned to go willingly

-as someone who doesn't know a lot about African culture, I really like the level of representation in this story, and also of just POC in general, like for example Natasha meets Aiden's mother who serves her staple African foods that she hasn't gotten to eat since her parents died like kubewa and tuwon alkama (WHICH I HAD TO GOOGLE AFTER HEARING BY EAR BECAUSE THE HORRIBLE TRANSCRIPTI0NS DIDNT EVEN SPELL THEM RIGHT) and also talking about her traditional clothing, her ankara and bobo gown, and I had to, again, look it up by ear, but Natasha greets Mama with "Ina quanah" which is Hausa for "good morning"

- Natasha knowing Hausa turns out to be incredibly important. Her mother is from the same tribe as Aiden's mother which means Natasha is not the full blood of her wolf pack, the Malakarians (I think that's how it's spelled, the subtitles literally say "the Koreans" 🤦‍♀️). The reason this is good is apparently, Natasha's pack has some dark myth surrounding it that literally everyone else but them knows and apparently in the past there was some huge issue when a Malakarian mated with a Lycan? Like Aidens father instantly orders him to reject her?

-Aiden deadass says he will give up the throne before he gives up Natasha. Oh my god we must protect these two.

-you know how I said when I heard the love interests name was Aiden and I expected him to be white. Well, Aiden is actually his middle name that he uses to uh, im assuming combat racism and colorism unfortunately. His true first name is Amari but he prefers Aiden apparently? Like it's very casually glossed over that his name isn't actually Aiden, his mom briefly refers to him by his full name and Natasha does not react

-I was a little harsh on Natasha in my last post, she very obviously has been deeply affected by the years of abuse and trauma. She's the kind of person who will smile in your face and say "why would I be mad, as a lowly omega isn't it your right to XYZ to me" even if she's burning with rage inside, being submissive to avoid pain. Aiden is having to be insanely patient with her and even her wolf has to kind of mediate. I was also wrong on her wolf too. You wanna know why her wolf barely ever spoke to her? Her wolf wanted to protect her and just poured all her energy into healing her wounds and since Natasha was just constantly hurt and abused and even self harmed, Erin/Aaron could barely speak, and she was also just insanely hella depressed before Aiden came around and she gave herself a pep talk

-dude someone's been on some fuckery and I'm pretty sure it's either Mateo or, you know what actually, I bet it's Aiden's mom (who even tells Natasha to call her Mama). Know why? Natasha randomly goes into heat without being marked or anything, and Aiden is just "this is actually really not normal, someone literally had to induce this, you should not be in heat" and like. It's actually so hella uncomfortable. She is literally in physical pain, and eventually kinda flirty and delirious and is acting a complete 180 different for being horny (which tbh is kinda how i see heats in ABO but, another time lol). Like one minute she is literally crying saying she's in pain and begging him to touch her and the next she's "if I sit here obediently like you asked me to, what's my reward ;3" But as the green flag king he is, Aiden stands his ground "no this isn't right, you aren't in your right mind, you can't consent, someone did this to you" and like, he BRIEFLY touches "her button" as they call it but he stops and he only did it cause she was, you know, howling in pain. Actually you know what I fucking bet it was Mama because the only other answer is that Mateo drugged her and why would he. Mama literally brought her food. I got my eye on you, sneaky bitch

-Aiden literally pours boiling water on the penis of a man who tried to rape an omega and was completely unrepetant about it and refused to apologize. Goddamn dude. I'm all for it but also OUCH. And when Natasha sees Aiden with the Omega, she gets instantly jealous (even though he was bringing the Omega to see the same therapist as Natasha)

-Natasha is described as having the scent of "ice and wildflowers" while Aiden is "pinewood mixed with cedarwood" so, I guess this is one of those "you have hyper specific scents per person" kinda deals, like ABO writers do sometimes

-Mama acknowledges and agrees Natasha should have therapy to help with their relationship so I don't think she's the one that drugged Natasha. Sorry Mama my heart is weak and easily swayed by suspicion 😞

-Leo, Aiden's wolf, used some pretty colorful language while Natasha was in heat btw,, something something "my sack is about to burst, I could give her at least TEN pups" like goddamn dude she's actually still a virgin, chill out, but also lowkey hot lmao. He and Aiden just kind of constantly rib on each other. That seems to be a common theme, the wolves going "let ME talk to her and do this so you don't fuck it up, dork" kinda behavior, like a sibling maybe

-Aiden gets fucking possessive and tells Leo he can't call Natasha 'Nala' and to get his own nickname and Leo deadass responds, I'm gonna do this WORD FOR WORD:

He scoffed.

"Very poor, Aiden, very poor! You think Nala is a fitting name for her? You've GOT to be kidding me. I was merely helping you say the name so you can confirm the absurdity. Let me make myself clear: you are not allowed to call her MINE when you hear it, because, jokes on you, she'll love mine more than yours."

"In your dreams," I mutter under my breath.

"Just wait until she sees me in all my full glory and hear me call her with a name like no other. Then you'll see."

LIKE YOU FUCKING DWEEB ASS WOLF 😂 he's speaking with this fucking old man syntax and having the attitude of a child. "You said I can't call her your nickname? W-well I didn't wanna anyways, in fact, I'm gonna make a new one and it's gonna be better and she's gonna wanna hug and kiss me forever" 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 this is definitely a nice change of pace from The Silent Alpha having Jack just straight up becoming a serial killing body snatcher. I can't wait to actually hear this nickname and it probably be the most roastable, goofy, basic bitch shit--

[kierreras]

The pates really listened to the jiara hype over “That door is locked” the kitty hawk episode how many references knocked me on the floor I was not expecting that many.

1. “Give me the keys”

2. jj jumping into the Twinkie - pope”that door opens bro”

3. jj entering the kitty hawk office can’t shut the damn door

4. Breaking open the reflection cabin lockAND THEN THE BEST OF ALL

5. Picking the lock in cabin six

6. Opening the door to the car for her

I honestly think I died and then was bought back to life from their kiss. I can only thank the pates for all of this in one episode they were insane for it. I cannot wait for season 4, I think they really do understand jiara and their fans 🥲

yeeees, it’s amazing how many door references were in that episode! i don’t know how pates really pulled it through and added so many of those, it’s just so thoughtful. you can really see how deeply they do care about the show and fans. and how even small detail like «that door is locked» matter for the narration

also, i want to see how the writers meeting for kitty hawk episode went, cause i imagine pates coming with «we need as many door references as possible in this episode».

and also another small detail that the door reference in the first episode started with jj saying that door is locked for him to john b specifically. in kitty hawk episode it’s john b who jj asks for keys. so it could be a way to illuminate that jj was the one who encouraged john b to try with kie, so john b should have the key to that door.

«that door opens bro» – it’s what pope tells. so yeah after john b it’s pope who jj encouraged to try something with kie. and pope also knows something about “that door”. once again, i don’t know if i’m clowning myself or those are another small details?

the door in kitty hawk office opening up and jj trying to shut it could be a reference to their talk on their way back from barbados or their fight near maybank’s house. push and pull thing, you know.? the first time when he realized that the door could be opened, so he freaks out and nervously closes it. it keeps opening still – kie was trying to show him how that the door is opened, don’t try to walk away.

him breaking the door lock in reflection cabin is jj being in his self-destructive mood. the aftermath of their fight kicking in.

finally gently picking the lock in cabin six could be interpreted as jj finally accepting that love, realizing that his destructive behavior could make him lose the best thing in his life – kie. and all this «nothing to lose» talk is just a huge bullshit cause he has everything to lose here. so he acts gently, with care.

before the car scene, there was actually another door scene. i even rewatched the kiss scene to be completely sure. however, there is also a glimpse of jj opening the cabin six door and letting kie run through it first and him running after her.

and him opening a car door for her is them navigating through that damn door together. like they are on the same page, they are going into that brand new world of «no closed doors» together.

again, i think for the most part im clowning myself with these details, but a girl can dream, right? 🤡

me too, i also have so much faith in them for season four! like imagine them reading all of our theories here and be like «yeaaah, that’s a great theory for season four, let’s do it»

[bartonbones]

🤍🤲

(not on the list but if you write in one sitting how long are you sitting? insane that u can churn out like 4k words in a singular sit!!)

🤍what’s one fic of yours you think people didn’t “get”?

ooooh this was a really hard one to answer!! i think i'm not so controversial or like edgy that there's anything for people to not get exactly, but there were a few reactions to a ted lasso fic, more years than you can bear that made me nervous becuase it was never my intention with that fic to demonize roy in any way or unfairly characterize him re: his violence towards jamie !! most of their fighting was mutual, i don't think roy exactly has to directly take more responsibility for it than jamie in a moralistic sense, but i do think the right arc for roy is one where he eventually reckons with the part of himself that does get so angry and would want to kind of rise above that instinct for his own personal growth and not becuase we ought to point fingers at him if that makes any sense

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

in regards to publishing i get COMMENTS which are my FAVORITE things next to good grades like one comment will literally make my day it will turn a bad day good in an instant but those are secondary to the fact that mainly i just get to write the fics i want to read. i don't understand people who say they don't reread their own writing bc im not being egotistical like i don't think it's the best fic out there however it is fic that is exactly catered to my taste like of course i'm reading my own fic i'm who i wrote it for??? on a serious note though, esp with the bear and carmy's grief being so close to my own, i get a lot of catharsis and emotional validation through fic writing. i like it when people tell me that they relate to my work becuase obviously i relate to it too, and there's a real human sense to that which i really like honor and respect and cherish if that makes any sense

also LMAO yes 4k is probably my limit but it's definintly like my preferred writing style otherwise i forget what i'm saying!! but 4k will usually take me all evening like 9-12 or 1am on a late night...it's not every time esp with more sectioned fics but a lot of my one shots in that length range were definintly written in one siting because i am a deeply crazy person

ask meme

[just-some-random-blogger]

While I am all for making the best experience for yourself and would never force anyone to do anything I will be that person

The like reblog n comment ratio of this is fucking ATROCIOUS I would reblog this 1000x if I could but alas I am just a girl

this fandom does not deserve you but I humbly present my offerings of insanity for the absolutely delicious food you have cooked for those who practice gwaynism

Also I want to say I really didn't want to read this cos of the incest like I'm desensitized to targcest but msjdjjd guess what I was like it's an old timey fic and they used to marry their cousins and suddenly I was fine HAAHHAAHHA AND IM GLAD I DID COS WHAT THE FUCK DELICIOUS

He's as handsome as you remember, with his auburn hair, pale blue eyes, and the faint freckles that dust his face. How you wished you could map kisses along those freckles, connecting them with a trail of where your lips had been.

Girl she's down BAD 😭 that's not-

He steps closer to you, tucking a stray hair behind your ear tenderly. "You have your mother's beauty, but your father's features," [...]

NO CUZ I WAS SO FUCKING OFFENDED ME PERSONALLY YOU TRYNA TELL ME I LOOK LIKE VISERYSSSS???? 🙄✋ NO SHADE NO TEA I LOVE PADDY BUT FUCKING VISERYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS to quote the walking corpse himself WHY DO YOU CUT ME SO DEEPLY

[...] he hums, tweaking your nose playfully before wrapping you in a firm hug.

YOUR HONOR HES SO CUTE WHAT THE FUCK

"It's not like I can sit in on a council meeting, and mother refuses to let me on my dragon. She seems perfectly content in keeping me idle and useless," you remark with a tone of annoyance, one that draws a low laugh from your uncle.

I actually don't accept alicent slander. Tell me why that's so wrong of her 🤨 tell me now

"Your mother means well, sweet niece. You're better suited here, getting favor from the gods as opposed to being in the midst of battle. Believe me, it is a bloody, nasty affair, and you are far too delicate to join in," he grips your chin in between his forefinger and his thumb, keeping your lilac gaze trained on his ocean-blue eyes.

SEE YOUR UNCLE GETS IT. also

TOUCHING HER TOUCHING ME???

You cannot even think of a response to his dismissing words, as you are too busy trying to push away the familiar ache you get between your thighs.

GRILL BARBECUE URSELF

[...] but Gwayne knows. He always knows.

DAFAQ DO YOU MEAN HE KNOWS WHAT THE FUXK

You expect your uncle to kneel beside you, or just leave the sept all together, so you are quite surprised when you feel him loom behind you.

*THROUGH A WHISPER, LOUDLY* HE WHAT❓❓❓❓

"Well, go on then, sweet one. Pray for me," he whispers, and you can feel his breath fanning against the shell of your ear.

HE WHAT

Of course, it is wrong for him to want to take you in the lewdest positions, to have you scream his name so everyone knows who is fucking you so good, but he has restrained himself all this time.

HE FUCKING WHAT

"M-Mother Above, have mercy on us all. I beg you for your protection, and for you to-" you cut yourself off with a gasp as your uncle buries his face into the crook of your neck, and gently nips at the soft skin there. He begins pressing himself against your ass, making your cheeks flush even more.

IN FRONT OF THE MOTHER

Noticing your sudden pause, he pulls back to look at your blushing face with a devilish smirk. "Well? Go on, don't mind me,"

HES IN FUCKING SANE ACTUALLY

Your prayers only falter as you feel something hard poking against your backside, prodding and bumping against you relentlessly.

"Shh, enough with that. It isn't wrong, not in the slightest. It's not wrong, not when you're meant for me. Surely even the gods will understand," he mumbles against the softness of your lips.

ITS FINE I PROMISE

You are thankful the sept is empty today. If word of what you do now reached your mother, of the depravity you partake in with her own brother, you're sure she'd have you sent far away to become a septa.

AND AS SHE SHOULD TBH NSKSKSKSMMSKSKSKKSKSKSKSKSK WITH HER BROTHER??????????????? HE OLDER BROTHER

"Up you go, princess," he mumbles, before picking you up with ease and setting you to sit on the edge of the altar.

ON THE ALTAR OH HELL NAH THEYRE AINT NO WAY IN SEVEN HELLS NO ONE DIDNT SEE THEY WATCHED THAT SHIT AND ENJOYED IT OH HELLL NAHHH

"Well well, I never thought I'd see the day where my own niece was begging for me like a whore." he teases, making you frown at the crude and cruel word.

HES SO FUCKING raHHHHH YOUR HONOR PLEASE

A cruel word indeed, and you feel the familiar sensation of your eyes watering, and your nose instinctively sniffling. Gwayne's smirk falters for a moment as he watches little tears spill from your eyes, but only for a moment.

NO CUZ SAME IF I WOULD CRY TO I WOULD CRY ALL THE TIME I REALLY WOULD

"Aw, come now sweet girl, don't take offense. It was all in good fun, yes?" he coos to you, and you feel him begin to lick your tears away, catching the salty evidence of your crying on his tongue.

YOUR HONOR I WANT HIM TO SPIT ON MY FACE TOO

"But oh, darling one, how pretty you look when you cry. Are you gonna cry more with what I do to you, little princess?" he asks with a mocking little pout, before kissing back down your neck.

DO IT AGAIN

"My my, little niece, aren't you quite the sensitive one? Is your cunny as sensitive as your heart, hm?" he teases, as he continues to lick and suckle you.

I WOULD APOLOGIZE FOR REQUOTING YOUR WHOLE FIC BACK TO YOU BUT NO REGRETS NAUR RAGRATS ITS JUST SO YUMMY

The little pain you yanking his hair brings him makes him groan against your puffy folds, adding only to the stimulation you feel. "Yeah? Feels good? Oh, baby, you have no idea..." he murmurs, leaving you a little confused at his choice of words.

I would let him destroy me

His mouth moves to focus only on your sensitive bud, sucking on it gently while he introduces two fingers to your wet folds. His fingers dance along your slit, dragging up and down in a slow, almost torturous manner.

No cuz at list point I screamed so much that my throat hurt thx so much I'm fine

Once your peak washes over you, you slump against the base of the statue of the Mother. Gwayne promptly stands, his mouth and chin dripping with your juices. "You're the sweetest thing I've ever tasted. Perhaps I should have you every night instead of wine." he smiles, before thumbing stray tears that rest on your flushed cheeks away.

AND THEN HE JUST LEFT WITH A FUCKING BONER SIR I COULD HAVE HELPED WHAT THE FUCK

Thank you for your service you can have one of my lungs if you want this was incredibly well writing you are a dream you did us all a service I wish you more comments and reblogs amen

Pray for me

Pairing ✵ Gwayne Hightower/Niece!reader

Warnings ✵ Hotd season 2 spoilers, incest, littleee bit of crybaby!reader, smut (frottage, oral F receiving, fingering, and slight dacryphilia), and religious themes

Word count ✵ 2.5k

Summary ✵ Your uncle Gwayne arrives from Oldtown at your brother's call, and pays a visit to you while you pray.

"Your mother told me I might find you in here,"

You whipped your head around to see the source of the voice that disturbed you from your prayers and saw none other than your uncle, Ser Gwayne Hightower. He had finally come from Oldtown, answering your brother's call for assistance in his war.

"It is the seventh day, I thought I ought to pray. Especially now..." You explain with a small smile. You stood from your kneeling position on the cold, unyielding sept floor so you may look upon him. Your face twists into a cringe as you feel the bruises from kneeling for so long begin to form on your knees, and you are sure they'll be an ugly purple color later. Relaxing your features, you finally turn on your heel to face your uncle. It has been so long since you've seen him.

Too long.

He's as handsome as you remember, with his auburn hair, pale blue eyes, and the faint freckles that dust his face. How you wished you could map kisses along those freckles, connecting them with a trail of where your lips had been. But your faith and virtue prevent you from giving in to the desire. Besides, you are sure that if he ever found out you ever thought such things, he'd look at you with such revulsion that you'd crumble to the floor in shame.

He steps closer to you, tucking a stray hair behind your ear tenderly. "You have your mother's beauty, but your father's features," he hums, tweaking your nose playfully before wrapping you in a firm hug. It is not lost on you the slight curt tone his voice took on at the mention of your late father, but you dismiss it.

"And tell me, how have you been fairing during these trying times, hm? Don't tell me you hole yourself up in this sept all day." He teases, bringing a feeling of embarrassment over you for he had guessed correctly. Recently, you do spend the brunt of your days at the sept, praying to almost every facet of the Seven for mercy, strength, wisdom, and safety. Today, you were praying at the statue of the Mother, and after you lit a candle for her altar, you prayed for mercy and protection for your family members. It is one of the few things that brings you comfort nowadays, your faith in the Seven who are One.

"Well, there isn't much I can do," you shrug, letting a small frown tug at your lips. "It's not like I can sit in on a council meeting, and mother refuses to let me on my dragon. She seems perfectly content in keeping me idle and useless," you remark with a tone of annoyance, one that draws a low laugh from your uncle.

"Your mother means well, sweet niece. You're better suited here, getting favor from the gods as opposed to being in the midst of battle. Believe me, it is a bloody, nasty affair, and you are far too delicate to join in," he grips your chin in between his forefinger and his thumb, keeping your lilac gaze trained on his ocean-blue eyes.

You cannot even think of a response to his dismissing words, as you are too busy trying to push away the familiar ache you get between your thighs. It always comes at the most inconvenient of times, like when you watch the men in the training yard move, sweaty and shirtless, or when you spy on your brother coupling with a serving girl. All you know is that it persists for ages, and no amount of praying stops it.

But you can only try.

"S-Shall we pray, uncle? So that the Mother may grant us safety, of course," you propose, shifting nervously on your feet. Perhaps it is the light flush that has appeared on your face, or how you try to discreetly press your thighs together for some form of relief, but Gwayne knows. He always knows.

To save yourself some embarrassment, you resume your kneeling position before the statue and altar of the Mother, clasping your hands together in the standard praying position. You expect your uncle to kneel beside you, or just leave the sept all together, so you are quite surprised when you feel him loom behind you.

His firm chest swiftly presses against your back, and his larger and calloused hands come to rest over your softer ones, and you find yourself trapped in this embrace. Whether it is to your delight or misfortune, you cannot decide. You squeeze your eyes shut and silently beg for forgiveness for the unseemly thoughts that run through your brain at his actions. 'Who thinks such perverse things in a holy place?' you think, mentally chastising yourself.

"Well, go on then, sweet one. Pray for me," he whispers, and you can feel his breath fanning against the shell of your ear. Gwayne is enjoying this, enjoying this little game of denial you two play. Of course, it is wrong for him to want to take you in the lewdest positions, to have you scream his name so everyone knows who is fucking you so good, but he has restrained himself all this time. Patience is a great virtue, yes, but he wishes to reap his reward for remaining ever so patient now.

"M-Mother Above, have mercy on us all. I beg you for your protection, and for you to-" you cut yourself off with a gasp as your uncle buries his face into the crook of your neck, and gently nips at the soft skin there. He begins pressing himself against your ass, making your cheeks flush even more.

Noticing your sudden pause, he pulls back to look at your blushing face with a devilish smirk. "Well? Go on, don't mind me," he says before going right back to nipping and sucking at your neck. It is impossible for you to stay concentrated on your prayers as he continues, and you resign to praying in your head as your words fail you.

Your prayers only falter as you feel something hard poking against your backside, prodding and bumping against you relentlessly. Gwayne begins peppering kisses from your neck and to your jawline before tugging your head back gently, and letting his lips brush against yours. He only pauses as you tilt your head a little bit away in reluctance.

"U-Uncle, this is wrong. N-Not here, we cannot do this-"

"Shh, enough with that. It isn't wrong, not in the slightest. It's not wrong, not when you're meant for me. Surely even the gods will understand," he mumbles against the softness of your lips. You feel in that little moment of pause that his are a bit chapped, most likely from days of riding on horseback and camping in the wilderness. But it matters little then.

Once his lips are on yours, you cannot help the cascade of little moans that leaves you. His mouth is overwhelming and easily overpowers your rather inexperienced one, and you feel his hands move from their position over yours. One hand moves to your neck, and the other to your breast, fondling it through your dress as he continues humping you from behind.

You are thankful the sept is empty today. If word of what you do now reached your mother, of the depravity you partake in with her own brother, you're sure she'd have you sent far away to become a septa.

With a final peck to your lips, your uncle stands. He drinks in the sight of you like this; cheeks flushed, hair a bit messy, clothes rumpled, and swollen lips, all from him, of course. He swears then and there he's never seen a more beautiful sight.

"Up you go, princess," he mumbles, before picking you up with ease and setting you to sit on the edge of the altar. He messily pushes away the candles and various offerings left there to make room for you, and you cringe at the disrespect, disrespect born from lust and hastiness.

The new position allows for you to be relatively level with his face, and he soon hikes your dress up and stands between your parted thighs. As he begins to rub his erection against your clothed cunt, you grab onto his forearms to ground yourself.

His erection rubs against your dampened smallclothes, brushing against your bud and your folds. With each grind of his hips, you feel something like a fire burning through your bones. But with your clothes acting like a barrier, and the slightly awkward angle, it's not enough for you. Even with your unfamiliarity to such actions, you still know it is not enough.

"M-More, more. Uncle, I need more." you whine, pulling him closer by the laces of his breeches, eliciting a sly smirk from him.

"Well well, I never thought I'd see the day where my own niece was begging for me like a whore." he teases, making you frown at the crude and cruel word.

A cruel word indeed, and you feel the familiar sensation of your eyes watering, and your nose instinctively sniffling. Gwayne's smirk falters for a moment as he watches little tears spill from your eyes, but only for a moment.

"Aw, come now sweet girl, don't take offense. It was all in good fun, yes?" he coos to you, and you feel him begin to lick your tears away, catching the salty evidence of your crying on his tongue. "But oh, darling one, how pretty you look when you cry. Are you gonna cry more with what I do to you, little princess?" he asks with a mocking little pout, before kissing back down your neck.

You've always been a bit of a sensitive girl, everyone knows this. The smallest hint of frustration or anger to you, or even words spoken to you all in jest send you easily into tears. What you were not expecting was for them to be met with something other than the typical annoyed shushing you are used to receiving when you begin to cry.

Soon, Gwayne is kneeling before you, and pulling your wet smallclothes down. His lips pepper light kisses along your soft inner thighs, teasing you once more. "So wet...all for me, little princess?" he asks before nudging his nose against your bud, making you jolt with pleasure. He inhales your sweet scent. 'The scent of a wet virgin', he thinks crudely to himself.

You keep yourself propped up with your arms, and you look down at him between your thighs. Both of your legs have been thrown over his shoulders, and the instinct to wiggle your core closer to him grows. With a knowing gaze, Gwayne looks up at you with a smirk, before his tongue darts out and he dives in.

He eats you like a starved man.

His tongue licks stripes along your core, lapping up your arousal hungrily. His mouth works expertly, and all you can do is sit there helplessly and moan. Your little squeals and high-pitched whines sound adorable to him, and he laughs against your cunt. The vibrations, of course, make you jump again.

"My my, little niece, aren't you quite the sensitive one? Is your cunny as sensitive as your heart, hm?" he teases, as he continues to lick and suckle you. You cannot respond, too incapacitated by the pleasure his mouth brings you. It is nothing like you've ever felt before. Even your pillow or your hands don't feel as good as this.

"U-Uncle, uncle Gwayne, it feels s'good," you practically babble out as the lewd sounds of him slurping against you echoes around the sept. Your hand comes down to grip at his auburn hair, tugging him closer to your cunt. You care not anymore if this depravity is sullying a holy place, or if the gods watch with disapproval. There's always time to repent, after all.

The little pain you yanking his hair brings him makes him groan against your puffy folds, adding only to the stimulation you feel. "Yeah? Feels good? Oh, baby, you have no idea..." he murmurs, leaving you a little confused at his choice of words.

But you soon find out what exactly he means.

His mouth moves to focus only on your sensitive bud, sucking on it gently while he introduces two fingers to your wet folds. His fingers dance along your slit, dragging up and down in a slow, almost torturous manner.

You cry and squirm against him, greedily pushing his face right against your cunt. He heeds your signal, and finally pushes his fingers inside your velvety walls.

The stretch and feeling of something penetrating you are new and utterly foreign, but with the added stimulation his mouth still gives, the uncomfortableness of it all soon washes away to make room for pleasure. He begins pumping his fingers in and out of you slowly, careful to not hurt you as he works you open.

Once he is sure you are ready, only then does he move his fingers faster. Your thighs squeeze around his head with the intensity of it all, and he has to wrench them back apart. "I can't move if you're trying to block me, sweetling," he chuckles, earning a sheepish "sorry" from you.

As he continues his ministrations, his fingers finally brush against and find that spongy sweet spot hidden up you. He begins to nudge against it with his fingertips, making you gush your arousal all over his face. You've never felt such an intense and yet wonderful feeling in your life, and soon you find it all beginning to build up and crescendo.

His free hand massages and strokes your hips gently, and rubs circles over your belly a little, just to soothe you. He can feel your walls tightening up, and how your thighs tremble and shake around his head. "You can do it, baby, you can do it. Go on, sweet niece," he coos, finally sending you over the edge.

With a loud cry, you tremble and feel such intense pleasure crashing over you like the waves during a tumultuous seastorm. You chant his name, worshipping him as if he were a god.

Once your peak washes over you, you slump against the base of the statue of the Mother. Gwayne promptly stands, his mouth and chin dripping with your juices. "You're the sweetest thing I've ever tasted. Perhaps I should have you every night instead of wine." he smiles, before thumbing stray tears that rest on your flushed cheeks away.

He wipes his mouth with his forearm, before kissing you once more. You can taste yourself on your tongue. "I have to go now, sweet one. Pray to the gods for me, will you? And when I come back, we can pray together again. Wouldn't you like that?" he grins, cupping your face in his hands.

A knowing smile forms on your kiss-swollen lips as you understand the insinuations of his words. As he rides off to fight your brother's war, you will remain praying in the sept, longing for the day he will return and come to pray with you again.

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We are back to our daily puck drop and intermission thoughts while waiting for ch4 to drop, so im writing this on two different days because I fell asleep during the second period-2AM puck drop is Brutal- so enjoy my different day commentary, I written this on three different days as this is probably the most cursed comment because I somehow managed to give myself food poisoning and then spent two days in the hospital because I couldn’t eat or drink without vominting but hey now im better and with a ch4 as a gift.

“I think you and Hischier have both lost your minds.” Quinn with the quote of the year because they both actually have lost it, I feel like jack feeling that it’s bigger than him and about him so true and he shouldn’t have to explain it because come on since when do emotions make sense?, “Put you in a good place,” if I was jack I wouldve smacked quinn because me and them are the same and putting them in a good place would lead to putting me under a good place- I know he doesn’t mean it like this but it irked me-, oh shit quinn retiring without telling jack hurts like yeah sure he doesn’t HAVE to tell him but it does feel like a betrayal, but knowing that my brother retired from him he knew about the news from the media; it feels in a way diminished jack to being the same as everyone else-I know that it doesn’t work like that but that’s your sibling so it must be different for him-, it feels weird reading that quinn decided to take the “easy” way by retiring than being dropped and in this season a million driver has been dropped like there is some funny side to quinn retiring 😂, I feel like quinn sees himself in jack that’s why he would tell him to not do the stuff he did; let people dedicate what he does and to not be so consumed by media he wants to protect his little brother from experiencing the same fate he got.

JACK VISTED NICO!! But this is getting repetitive but my god is nico hot; I feel like im betraying my Ferrari feelings by falling for nico but how can I not??, I need you to tell me about what nico thinks when he sends jack his room number knowing that he would inevitably come does he enjoy it?, nico really?? Like you have jack who came to your room to have sex and you decide to talk about his brother?? I wouldve walked out it wouldn’t have mattered if it was nico or someone else it’s such a turn off, nico is hot my goddess stop his hotness, jack thinking about how he wants to have his marks on nico as a revenge but I feel like nico would wear them with pride and would go without covering them, “But I know you miss it just as much.” BAD NICO BAD, they were so close to talking about what they’re doing but unfortunately they are cowards who want to fuck and not talk, also I need jack to stop being to unreliable because nico cannot be as cruel as jack thinks, jack knows why he is doing this but doesn’t want to think deeply because it would be too much for him to deal with is so on brand, “You’re so cute, Jack,” Nico says, stuck in the strange limbo between cruel and earnest that only Nico Hischier could create. “If you wanted to stop, then you’d stop showing up at my door.” Nico stop being hot challenge has FAILED like saying he can stop it any time he wants but also knowing that he will never do it is insane, omg those two need to talk about their Scenes like it’s borderline stupid to not be talking, but anyways nico clocking that jack likes go be called a good boy who is surprised? Not me that’s for sure, at this point nico would gift jack a collar without even talking about anything like boys come on, and the way jack feels like when he is with  nico the world slows down for a bit to let him take a mich needed breath like INASNE, also comparing nico to racing?? Nico has jack right where he wants him,  “Fuck, Jack, could you breathe?” Boys I have been YELLING for you to talk because of this exact scenario; but maybe this would make jack thinks about buying that damned heavy blanket, “You’re insane,” nico really? Like apart from the fact that you are doing whatever the fuck you are doing; you tace in cars that reach 350km/h for fun you HAVE to be insane to do it, nico liking jack more when he is plaint fork found in the kitchen etc etc, the Scene make me want to scream like it’s so well written im obsessed, “Pillow princess,” NICO!! Also come on you can’t be surprised that he is a pillow princess, and it takes Jack a second to realize it’s the hand that’s been covered in his fucking come. fucking insane behaviour from both oh my fucking god, nico feeling like jack is going to kill him because imagine someone you have been hooking up and you think that he is so gorgeous then he does this his tongue darts out of his mouth to catch some of the stray come around his lips. Btw this was the supposed puck drop and intermission but I have fallen asleep.

While reading the quali session I feel so nervous that I feel like throwing up but I have no idea if it’s because the poisoning is still there or because of the nervousness, ALSO FERRARI 1-2!! Yayyy, how are those two somehow are managing to not give themselves away? Like they try really hard to mention each other in their interviews and saying this stuff to interviewers “Nico’s starting in ninth?”, “Just don’t run me off the track at the start, man.” I’m tired I WILL cry when I read the dnf, omg I forgot about the tkachuk and grosjean I laughed and hurt my stomach my god indy is Something else like the way that there is at least four incidents that I could think of where two drivers have fought together is insane, trevor POLE!! Making me happy over a McLaren driver is sock behaviour, honestly still too tired but I feel like the matthew and grosjean fight happened irl but I can’t remember who was involved, oh no I have started the race and the dnf in near I don’t want to continue tears are already gathering in my eyes, “Still on Plan A?” I have trauma I flinched reading this,NOOOOOO I HAVE REACHED IT 💔💔 I was thinking that maybe it was a prank and that you changed but no it’s the reality, ARE THEY BOTH ALRIGHT? (PAUSE) I CAN SEE SAINZ OUT OF HIS CAR, BUT JACK ISN’T. IS HE OKAY? Insane behaviour as usual from both, reading jack’s in the media pen made me remember how much I hate when a driver crashes but he is expected to give an interview and be good in that interview, uh idk if it was on the radio or not but i’m at the corner where jack crashed and it sounded like he was screaming 22 France is something I will never forget watching it live and hearing that scream is haunting me even now, oh my fucking god jase is making me so MAD like I will end up somehow involving myself in the fic just so I can fight her, [RUSSELL]: CRIKEY. Please stop making me laugh it hurts 😂 I love russell’s Britishess it always sounds unreal.

People who rewatch crashes are insane like how can you rewatch someone’s crash even when you know everyone who was involved is okay, it’s fate or nico being a stalker that they ended up in the same club, but my god I know it’s America and f1 isn’t as famous but really boys touching each other like this in PUBLIC??, “Hope you and your boyfriend have a good night.” OH MY GOD even this stranger thinks that they are boyfriends, jack assuming the worst who is surprised because it definitely not me, “Why not someone from Ferrari? Sainz, maybe?” Nico even me who has Ferrari winning the wcc and wdc is not this delusional to think even if they won they would go out together, taking an uber together insane behaviour-it’s getting repetitive like how much more insane behaviour they will do?-, jack egocentric strikes again like love him will die for him and I know he will win it all but he is so egocentric it’s funny sometimes, THOSE TWO WTF??? Nico dragging jack to his room because he isnt done with talking like????, “I can’t let you go to bed angry.” Nico I have questions how in love are you and do you realise that you are in love or are you doing the jack way in burying every emotion?, take a shot every time jack says fuck you and you will have alcohol poisoning at the end, those two need to talk before they have sex again because it’s borderline safe word necessary, I want to be good for something. I want someone to say I’m not just a failure who threw everything away. I want someone to say I’m more than all of that. I want you to say I’m more than all of that. I want to forget about what happened on the circuit and leave this city forever. I want to not think. I want to never think again. I want— I want— oh jack my love💔 his inner thoughts always hurt me because they are always stuff that everyone deserves to have, jack I don’t know how to tell you this but nico thinking you are pathetic is impossible, and we are back again with my nico is hot thoughts; a Ferrari driver and a Ferrari fan falling for a Redbull driver more likely to happen than you think, their Scenes are so good like wow if you heard me talking to my friends you would lose you mind but I fear that both of us are going to be banned if I let my thoughts, “Stop being fucking gentle with me!” As usual insane behaviour from both, jack feeling jealous about the pretty boy in nico’s bee when nico meant him is so funny to me, “You know what you’re doing.” No he has no fucking clue about what is he doing nico I hate to break it to you, Behind him, Nico laughs. It’s awful and cruel. Jack stop being so unreliable because I know that he didn’t laugh cruelly, oh my god jack what the fuck??? Like the condom probably was the only sane thing you have done and now you decided to fucking throw it away?, “Underneath me. Always underneath me, even here.” NICO???? The headache is from me being sick or from those two I have no clue.

We have finally finished the chapter even when the world was trying to stop me but we have imola next my favourite like one chapter that is only imola I love that for me.

hello anon i hope you're feeling better!! you said you were better here and now this ask is a couple days old lol so i hope you are feeling Even better. i banned myself from answering these until i finished my finals and i turned my list one in today #yippee so now i can do whatever i want with my spare time for the rest of the year. wonderful times

quinn is so real. jack and nico have both lost their minds. and yeah i will be totally honest about the interview scene where jack contradicts himself i didn't realize he had blatantly contradicted himself until after i finished writing it? but all of it was real so i left it in. he's allowed to contradict himself. as he said himself, nothing that he said was untrue!

the quinn-jack relationship is a wee bit complicated i guess? i could go on about it for maybe ever. i will very briefly. quinn is all aboard the Jack Can You Please Have Some Self-Confidence train due in part to the fact that yes he does see himself in jack, and he doesn't want jack to end up in the same place as he did. aka retiring but fake-retiring but also retire-quitting but also getting backed into a corner it is a very complicated narrative that keeps unraveling itself without my permission i don't know -- i mentioned it in ch4 that quinn also used to do the whole searching his own name thing after races when he was still in NASCAR even though he knew people were saying mean things about him, so he hates that jack does it because he knows what it feels like to be there. and it sucks. and he wishes jack would Not do that and would just like. Not Care. but alas. maybe it's genetic

nico is hot and you should say it. even if jack Will Not. i've implied that he thinks so like twice or something but he always cuts himself off before the thought properly manifests

heehhehehe. hehe. he. on nico sending jack his room number. it is a bit complicated! and this is actually what i was rambling to myself about while i was htmling ch4 -- it helps me to speak it into the universe sometimes, then i end up drawing a bunch of crazy conclusions lol -- and most of it will remain Secret for now. i intend to have nico tell jack what he was thinking at some point in the fic (i haven't decided exactly when yet, but at some point) so i don't want to spoil the truth. and there is a scene i've written for monaco that pokes the idea very gently with a stick only to let it stay asleep

also nico is stupid. next question

no talking for these idiots... only doing sex and ignoring everything that surrounds it... very complicated times... in my html self-yap session i did manage to pinpoint a more exact motivation for nico which will also remain a secret i'm just being mean and alluding to thoughts in my brain because i'm Evil but i don't know. if he was the narrator character he would probably also be unreliable. even if he thinks he knows what he wants. i don't think jack thinks he knows what he wants because he's too busy pretending he doesn't want anything at all. they are both my wonderful idiots and i care them

nico is not as cruel as jack thinks he is. though. i will give you that

they're both insane. have i already posted the scene where jack essentially says the same thing? about how they all have to be insane to drive race cars? i think he was talking to quinn. who knows. i've reached the point with this fic where you could bring up a scene from an earlier chapter to me and i would have No idea what you're on about because i've written too much nonsense since then. and i've written a bunch of other scenes in my head. which makes it all very confusing. but hey i did that to myself

NICO'S STARTING IN NINTH? totally not a reference to the miami grand prix of whatever the fuck. 23? sure. the one where mr max verstappen ran it to first from ninth. nico did not run it to first but i totally stole that entire qualifying incident just for fun. and then i crashed jack's entire car. oops!

indy my beloved that type of stuff definitely happens a lot over there but i was thinking of an incident that was i think will power and scott dixon? from 2023 also iirc. i don't remember what track it was at but dixon wiped power off the circuit and he gave him the double bird. also that season (icr if it was the same race) somebody (maybe also will power?) straight up told the media they were going to punch grosjean or something which is objectively hilarious. i love indycar. so of course i had to include some good old-fashioned indycar fights, and trevor is The Window into the indycar world as far as being in jack's pov is concerned. but the entire indycar subplot is a massive exercise in self-indulgence. like this entire fic isn't just that anyways...

yeah more blatant references i remember watching that race lmao RIP to the french grand prix 💔 what a way to go out

i love making george say british things. crikey! blimey! he's a cartoon character sorry

it's fate. probably. in my head nico was there first. and he was out with some red bull guys (in my head it's like mechanic guys nico is friendly with), and then he just kind of up and disappeared. i like to imagine they were all very confused (even though nico said they wouldn't notice/care) and they all bugged him about it afterwards. and nico was like. haha. yeah. i felt. sick? but they all think he picked up because his face is like bright red. more nonsense scenes that only exist in my head

i could not resist the Stranger Boyfriend Clock. a wonderous trope. it's what they get for being STUPID! i did make jack say fuck you a lot. he was in a mood. that is a drinking game that will surely end in alcohol poisoning though. this scene is one of the ones that i spent a stupid amount of time fiddling around with in my head before i started writing it, and the fuck youisms were around since the first iteration. in all their redundancy, i could not part with them... and i know all the shit they're doing is some in real life would require a conversation type shit but i am just fucking around. maybe i need to make a note in the fic notes or something idk fanfiction is fanfiction is fanfiction they are for sure being unsafe but also narrative-wise i think jack would lose his shit if nico tried to have a real conversation about it with him. would kind of throw a wrench in his whole This Isn't Happening schtick. uhhh i think it's imola but some of nico's dialogue implies that he thinks they should talk about it but he never Really tries to start the conversation (for reasons that spoil his Super Secret motivations) but he has resigned to attempting to read jack's body language since he tried to be nice about it in miami and jack like lost his shit about it. moral of the story is they are both Dumb and Do Not be them unsafe sex up the wazoo. bro threw a whole entire condom ON THE FLOOR! which was in fact crazy work but now that i have dug that grave i must lie in it

ANYWAYS. great tangent. hope you enjoyed. what a time to be alive i hope you enjoy/ed imola the craziness only continues to get crazier

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more cuddling hcs bc i think it would fix them. also tell me if i'm bothering you but i may be insane so just. remember you can stop me from plaguing your askbox anytime

es: the most avoidant of physical contact, yet the most needy. again, they'll avoid it like the plague but give them a hug and they start crying haha this has never happened before trust oh wait. they would protest against everything but nnot try to break free bc. well. haha es my favorite touch-starved 15 year old ever. I think it would be interesting if their hands are freezing cold to be like. inhuman or something. that would be cool.

mu: the most giving of physical contact (to es, mostly, though. she's scared of kotoko before discovering how pathetic she is as well). es lost their hat to kotoko? oh boy they're getting headpats. kotoko looking off guard? a shoulder tap and a teasing remark. es having an identity crisis? try to give them a hug or some sort of push. haha this has never happened x2 OH WAIT. i think it would be cute if she tried to play with kotoko's or es' hair but then it's too short so she convinces es to grow out their hair (and it's symbolistic to their people pleasing thingy)

kotoko: would give to es, would be neutral to mu. bc she IS a sinner, but also... a weakling. She would enjoy having them lean on her shoulder, maybe a head in the lap, just leaning ON her in general bc symbolism. but, she wouldn't appreciate receiving affection, just giving yk yk

unrelated but you should also tag in your pinned post 000410 so you can Let The People Know.

no worries, i love reading others thoughts.

absolutely, absolutely. es is clearly very affected by. well. affection. they cried when mahiru told them they were doing a good job. they almost relented to kotoko when she hugged them. i like them being inhuman and being naturally cold and this freaks them out... they seek out warmth kind of like yuno.

muus idea of friendship is giving people things and people listening to her and showing her affection. so shes frustrated when es and kotoko arent enthusiastic with her. of course if she can get es on the same page as her (we are Not talking about clone theory right now) then she can be happy.

we all already know about kotoko and es. kotoko is also very touchstarved because of her self admitted isolation. muu and kotoko... im not sure. i am so so into the idea of muu becoming kotokos new Weakling To Save (before muus bday tl made the girls fight but im not giving up) so i think muu could get kotokos affection if she tried hard enough. now that theyre both so deeply in "i never did anything wrong trust me" headspace i think it could happen.

(that is a good idea i should edit that image to put muu in it)

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Oh which Giana darling books have you read? I’ve only read her anti-heroes in love duet which I did actually really like but I did read it when I was craving a mafia romance. Elena is a true ice queen nd just their chemistry and tension and was insane! They were both really each other’s match too 🥹 and the smut was good 😂

Have you read her fallen men series? I keep wanting to try it but it’s such a big series that it seems intimidating.

But “hmm this is not very good but i'm still enjoying it” makes so much sense! I’ve felt that way about some books I’ve read too and even given some of them 5 stars if I’m being real. But could definitely see that being the vibe with Giana Darling books too so I get it

So this is going to be not the response you expected, but really just a Treatise:tm: on romance books and my relationship with them. doing a read more bc i am verbose

When I read a romance book that I really enjoy, it will never be my favorite book. I can love it, but I know both intellectually and emotionally that it is not something that will stick with me through time. Even books that do attempt to tackle more serious issues simply do not have enough time to do that justice in tandem with a typical romance plotline.

In general, the prose used in contemporary romance is very run-of-the-mill. There are no lines that make me stop in my tracks because of the beauty of them (like i've read in many a romance fanfic). It is to be easily consumed and appreciated. I love romance books so much, I read them nightly. But goodness, the prose runs the gamut from "oh wow this is really bad but im still enjoying it" to "wow, this writer does pacing very well, has some funny lines, and has made efforts to explore some emotional depth". It never hits "I need to share this quote with everyone I know because it struck me to my core."

Good (and even bad) romance is more about dialogue vs setting, about the moment of falling instead of an intricate plot, and about two people coming together vs. deeply examining each of them on their own. It is about page turning oh my GODDDDD the tension is unreaaaaaaaal vs holy shit that was such a well-written story and im blown away

That being said, we all have the tropes and character archetypes we love. To actually bring it around to your ask, Darling writes pretty good alpha males (though I prefer JT Geissinger's, if you're looking for pseudo-mafia romances) and that's why I enjoyed her books. In fic and books, I am a sucker for things i would not accept in a million years in a real human guy lmao. Many people do not get past the student/teacher aspect of the first fallen man book, but that's a trope i somehow devour despite it being anathema irl. You can frankly read them out of order (@accidental-rambler will tell you no way lmao. yes kate, i still think of you when i think about reading things out of order XD).

So that's what i mean. published romance is for tropey goodness, for light and frothy reading. If i want more emotional depth from my romance, then i will most likely find it in fanfic, because the established nature of the characters allows for far more indepth examinations of feelings, of how the past we've seen in canon affects them emotionally, of these thoughts and feelings that really...matter to me. In fanfic, Ive also been with the character more and have the deep connection already there, and it allows me to dive into their headspace with ease so fics just have a cheat built in lol. Romance books just dont have the time to do that and still tell their story. Also, sometimes I just am not looking for plot in a romance???? I'm just looking for feelings or smut, and the plot is actually in the way lol. Published romance authors can't quite win with me.

In summary, I love romance, but I struggle with my perception of it and perspective because it just doesn't feel deep enough. It's something I continue to work through. Thanks for letting me partially do it here.

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snape asks :)

1. hot take i kind of don’t. i don’t like snily romantically and i Hate snape/any of the m*rauders. the closest would be snucius? only if i’m looking at it from a certain angle narrative wise. i’d say snape and mulciber but ive read like two things about them and it was just that quote about snape wanting lily but wanting mulciber too so. idk

2. green :) especially after he got hired on and became head of slytherin. it makes him happy to wear it to quidditch matches and see it fill the house cup counter. and he’s probably never given a shit about a color, so i think it would become his automatic response after a while

3. i have no idea. i wanna say elsa but im also not an expert so

4. i……….. dont know. prayer circle our guy got some before he croaked 🙏

5. idk about the romance but i think he loved charity and trelawney (if im allowed to spread my agenda as such) as his friends

6. latin. nerd to nerd, he learned latin. his ability to read and pronounce and understand the scientific names of the plants he uses skyrocketed and he could invent spells easier

7. trelawney

8. i mean he screams slytherin but if he were in a different one, ravenclaw

9. i have so many. i think he’s the classic intersection of victim of neglect and being really autistic so he’ll eat anything set in front of him as long as he doesn’t think about it too hard. and eating at hogwarts is easier because he doesn’t have to grocery shop, make decisions, or cook, or remember to eat. at home it’s a lot of premade things with frozen vegetables begrudgingly thrown in, protein shakes, and smoothies and it’s a miracle if he remembers to eat before seven pm. i think he really loves ice cream, and the kitchen makes sure to have it most of the time for him

10. if i’m honest, not really. i am a fucked up little blorbo apologist and will find the most miserable bitches known to humankind and adopt them as my dads and be like look at them 🥹🤲🏻 like it’s a full time job. he’s not the first and he certainly won’t be the last. i will say some other characters i like now feel very vanilla, if that makes sense, so there’s that

11. i would have to upload a 56gb gif stim board of all my favorite movie bits and i have so many book parts that have suddenly left my brain so i guess that’s a secret i’ll never tell

12. luna lovegood. i think her carefree and kind approach to the things she’s experienced that are similar to his would be good for him to experience

13. absolutely. the way he played him, the advocacy he did- it does something to my brain. and watching him start fidgeting makes me giddy

14. draught of peace LMFAO

15. reading. i think he’d like crocheting too. and a low stress cozy video game if we’re ignoring time periods

16. i have been a snape stannie since i read the books at like the age of 10. my entire family thought i was insane and weird but baby i was fucking free.

17. i think he’s just a deeply, viscerally unhappy person period, and probably moreso after joining the DEs. and i also hc that he didn’t want to join but was groomed into it, probably by lucius and narcissa. but that’s an unhinged meta post for another day

18. eyes hehehe

19. man… letting* people walk all over him. i think he should’ve been worse. i will not elaborate

20. he’s just like me in the most insane ways possible. like some things are different but to my core i feel so seen and so heard it’s unreal. also he’s fucking cool

21. i think the one where he got to show her she was a witch/he’s also magical and she’s not a freak probably. or getting his hogwarts acceptance letter

22. no. homegirl left him for “better” people and laughed when he got assaulted and said he should be grateful and- i could go on.

23. idk??? i just mentally imagine him in a barista™️ outfit like black turtleneck black jeans and then has his robes over that but that’s just me

24. i think his dad did enough of that for him <3 love and light. serious addendum, i think his taking on the spy position and letting everyone treat him how they wanted (see also: like shit) etc were probably forms of self harm

25. the doctor has been my SpIn since the age of three and snape is getting scarily close to being solidified in the hall of fame with them. i think if i start imagining snape in the tardis with twelve in particular it will send me into a spiral but i think once they worked past the overlying asshole to asshole head butting they’d be besties

26. gothic lit babyyyyy

27. no. maybe up until a certain age until he realized she was just the inactive abuser to his fathers active one.

28. YES. GOD. and not to be deluded but i think he’d appreciate my barista engrained meticulousness and mentally ill need to be clean so we’d have at least an understanding.

29. simple and dark and cozy.

30. stop letting people walk all over you. be worse

31. anxiety, depression, probably a personality disorder like bpd. you don’t go through trauma like his unscathed. not necessarily mental illness but i am so convinced he’s autistic.

32. i have no idea but i HATE the fact that his middle name is tobias. hate it. burn it with fire. i think he should just throw the whole damn thing away and not have a middle name

33. not songs but i think he’d LOVE jeff buckley, the smiths, and radiohead

34. i HATE the m*rauders ships with him. remus would be the absolute closest and it’s still a hard no. also any of the kids? y’all are fucking insane for those

35. lucius?

36. i think that he feels like shit all the time and his body lets him off the hook by never making him sick sick. like he can have three migraines a week and feel like his joints are going to fall off at any given moment but he hasn’t had the flu in a decade

37. skin, probably. the mindlessness of a five step skincare routine and it helps him relax before bed and he gets nice looking skin out of it? say less. i also think he’d like doing his nails

38. overcast and chilly but not freezing. nothing bright, nothing too extreme

39. i can’t. i can’t

40. dumbledore

41. i think he’s a huge nerd and if he gets excited about something he starts stuttering and getting really autistic about it. but he’s a fucking masterclass in masking so that’s locked away and brought out once a year like a grandmothers finest china but only for himself.

42. i don’t see how he couldn’t, man. he must’ve cried daily.

43. my favorites are that he’s trans and autistic. i love them so much. i have so many songs that remind me of him it’s… insane

44. i really love the black cloud thing he does and that suits him the best, but out of the “normal ones” i think apparating would. he’s good at sneaking, it’s nearly instantaneous, and he doesn’t have to talk to pre-travel

45. that’s a bisexual if i’ve ever seen one

46. dude none of them??? maybe remus if remus wasn’t remus

47. the points system confuses me because they go from 1 to 10 to 50 for the most random shit. although i love entertaining the headcanon that one year out of spite he just started awarding insane amounts of points to every house but gryffindor because of dumbledore’s tendency for surprise points at the end of the year

48. i don’t think i did and i don’t think i cared if he was or not 💀

49. short snape. i frothed at the mouth for an hour after finding out he’s canonically 5’9 the other day and framed it and hung it in my trans headcanon gallery

50. hell no. i frankly am surprised he didn’t quit way before but if he survived (if you listen closely you can hear me grumbling about it still) he would’ve dipped immediately without hesitation. rip severus snape you would’ve loved the “fuck them kids and fuck you too” meme

Snape asks

Do you have a snOTP? What is it?

What do you think is Snape's favourite colour and why?

Which Disney character, according to you is most like Snape?

Do you think Snape remained a virgin?

Do you think Snape ever loved anyone other than Lily, romantically or platonically?

If Snape learnt another language, which would he choose?

Which staff member do you think gets along well with Snape?

If you had to assign Snape to a house, which one would it be?

What are your personal headcanons on Snape's diet and favourite foods?

Do you think Snape's character has changed the way you think/feel about others?

Your favourite scenes with book/movie!Snape?

If you had to chose a Golden trio era student to be Snape's friend, who would it be and why?

Do you think Alan Rickman contributed to your love for Snape?

What do you think is Snape's favourite potion to prepare?

If Snape had any free time, how do you think he would spend it?

Were you ever a Snater? How and when did you become a Snover?

Do you think Snape was unhappy even after joining the DEs?

Your favourite physical feature of Snape?

According to you, what is Snape's biggest flaw?

Why do you love Snape so much?

What particular memory do you think Snape used to conjure his patronus?

Do you think Lily was a good friend to Severus?

What do you think Snape wore under his robes?

Do you think Snape ever self-harmed?

Is there any other character you love as much as Snape? Do you think they'll get along?

What genre do you think Snape preferred to read?

Do you think Snape was close to his mother?

Do you think you'd like being taught by Snape?

How do you headcanon Snape's bedroom would look like?

If you could give young Snape any advice, what would it be?

Do you think Snape had any mental illnesses? Which ones and why?

If you could change Snape's middle name to be something other than Tobias what would you choose?

Top 3 songs you think will show up in Snape's most played?

Do you have any Snape NOTPs?

Snapey BROTPs?

Did Snape get sick often? Your headcanons for when he was sick?

Snape didn't pay attention to his physical appearance, but if you had to choose a part he would take care of, which would it be?

Which type of weather does Snape prefer?

How do you think Snape spent his early childhood days?

Other than Lily, who do you think impacted Snape's life the most?

Is there a side to Snape that he hasn't let anyone see? What do you headcanon this "secret personality" to be like?

Do you think Snape cried often?

What's your favourite headcanon about Snape? Is there a movie/song/book that reminds you of Snape?

What mode of magical travel would suit Snape the best?

Your opinion on Snape's sexuality?

Which of the Marauders do you think Snape could have gotten along with?

How many points do you think Snape would've awarded during his career?

Did you feel Snape was the "good guy" even before the reveal?

Do you prefer tall!Snape or short!Snape?

Had Snape lived, would he continue teaching at Hogwarts?

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