#anyway!! i think about this a lot.
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in the tags of a recent post of yours you mentioned L having psychosis, and while ive seen people talk about him being very easily interpreted as neurodivergent, especially autistic, i havent seen anyone talking about psychosis in relation to him. would you mind elaborating? i love nd readings of characters, and a new perspective or idea is always fun
absolutely!! i’m always very happy to talk about this.
so this is based on a brief but very memorable line that was added into the anime. it’s from silence (L’s death episode) and it takes place in the rain. L mentions that the bells sound louder than usual on this particular day. we also get a few extra scenes of disjointed images from what is presumably Wammy’s house, with a bell ringing.
what’s literally being depicted on screen is that L is having and has apparently been having auditory hallucinations throughout the entire series.
this is almost certainly meant to be understood as a metaphor — L is “hearing” both his oncoming death, and the echoes of his past. in regards to this, i think it’s worth recognizing that there’s a really long history of using mental illness, especially but not exclusively psychosis, as symbols or metaphors for various things, including death and guilt and sin. this scene is very much playing into that framework.
imo it’s not unreasonable to just ignore the fact that L is, literally, psychotic. it’s clearly not the intention of the scene, and there’s absolutely no invocation of it before or since. at the same time, though, choosing to engage with it via analysis or invocation within fic/art/etc. without in any way acknowledging the backdrop against which it exists (ie the very troubling & dehumanizing history of reducing mental illness to metaphor) inevitably results in the replication and unintentional endorsement of that history. after all, if you choose to use it as a metaphor, you’re doing the exact same thing madhouse did. also, choosing to ignore it outright is (imo) genuinely a valid choice, but it’s not a choice without weight and context behind it.
more broadly, when it comes to potentially incorporating that psychosis into the rest of the story — i don’t have any particular on how it should be done, other than that it’s 100% possible and i think it would be really interesting to see people engage with it in an intentional way.
#my back of the book discussion questions would be:#how would the audience’s perception of L change if he were explicitly identifies as psychotic? how would light’s perception change?#would the task force trust him in the same way?#would the audience trust him in the same way? would they be more or less forgiving of his actions?#anyway!! i think about this a lot.#also this is a bit off topic & this is already very long but that post was re: a lecture i’d just watched about glitching & disability in#media#so i was also thinking about how the disjointed images of the wammy’s house were shown in a way very reminiscent of glitching#& how the silence as L dies is essentially an audio glitch#and also the lecture was talking about how glitching is often used to humanize characters and this is very much what’s happening in that ep#i would personally argue that the invocation of mental illness as metaphor is often used to humanize characters BUT the invocation of#literal mental illness tends to be used to dehumanize characters#also i dont have coherent thoughts on this but i do feel its worth mentioning also that the studio’s name is madhouse
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Physically? I am sitting in my bedroom. Mentally? Spiritually? I AM DEAD ON THE FLOOR!!!!! THESE TWO HAVE KILLED ME!!!!
(Another drawing! This was originally attempt #1 at drawing stan, and then fiddleford just showed up. Kinda feels like them five minutes after the above acting like nothing happened though, so it works sdjkgkjfshj)
#HEALED FIDDLEFORD HAS ME BOUNCING OFF THE FUCKING WALLS!!!!!!! GIVE THE MAN A BRIGHT HAPPY FUTURE!!! FUCK!!!!!#I don't know how i'm coming off right now#when i say that i've been super manic about them for the past week I really mean it#guys Idk but I think I might be fiddlestans number one fan#I liked this pairing before book of bill and after reading it it only solidified things#IT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN A CRACK SHIP TO ME!!!!!!!!#fiddlestan#gravity falls#anyway this is supposed to be them the next summer#stan is working the shack to tutor soos for tourist season#fiddleford has changed while the twins were on the stan o war#STAN DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL AT FIRST and they have a lot of shit to work through from their past before they can start making out dksjds#sketchbook#traditional art#pencil drawing#traditional drawing#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#gravity falls fanart
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don't be weepy sleepy puppies
#gravity falls#stanley pines#mabel pines#stan pines#had to redraw this#i rediscovered the frame and it grabbed me by the neck and choke slammed me to the ground#but it didn't even need to go and do all that because i would have redrawn it regardless#anyway.#cuddle bugs#mods art#mods draws#my art#also adventure time reference moment because i still think about that song a lot
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every time i think about how armand as rashid is a kind of visual echo of how he looked as amadeo i want to explode
like... his big brown eyes... all his little expressions... his hair...
#only amadeo was a lot more expressive and free in his movements i think#but i think you can see he's always itching to move much more than he does#pretty sure assad said something about consciously restraining his movements to play armand and hes really naturally fidgety#so imo that transfers really well to armand and how he controls himself#how he sometimes only briefly loses that control before trying to regain it#anyway...... losing my train of thought in the tags again#iwtv#armand
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dwarven brew
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#dungeon meshi#aj art#comic#Chilchuck backstory stuff#That’s my tag for these comics now#“Where’d his book go” he slid it onto his lap off screen let’s not talk about it anymore let’s ignore that it just disappears#He slid it into his lap that’s what happened no more questions thank you#Uhhhh#anyways ehdjjf. I finally drew Namari#I wanted to depict how I think they became friends#Bc I love their whole dynamic a lot#Also chillaios#Hhfgfgd#chilchuck#laios touden#namari
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i think everyone who's ever had migraines should be financially compensated forever btw
#camera talks#disability stuff#this is for my chronic migraine girlies (gn) <3#i think we should all get 1 million million dollars everyday actually#this is the worst fucking night of my life (everytime i have migraines) (specifically rn tho)#chronic pain#chronic migraine#migraines#chronically ill#disabled#disclaimer because idk I’ve got a lot of notes on this#I have diagnosed chronic migraines. I used to have them 5-6 times a week#now with medication on a good week I’ll only be affected 2-3 days#on bad weeks it’s much worse#anyways don’t doubt my condition I know what I’m talking about thx
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been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading
#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot#i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself#just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔#so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal#my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me.#chelldos#but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time#portal#chell#GlaDOS#GlaD0S#my art#og post#1k#5k#10k#20k#edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character.#because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place#and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing#i didn't think it would gain much attention#i was Wrong#anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline#EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you
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"I'll show you every day that choosing to live was worth it"
some of my favourite scenes from @hijinks-n-lowjinks' fic things i would miss from the other side . this fic tore my heart out fr but like in a good way and i wanted to pay it homage the only way i know how <3
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#itafushi#fushiita#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#I LOVE PLOTTING AND ALSO SCHEMING#listen i have a lot of feelings and i needed 2 process them and i do that by making art 2 target my mutuals directly#read my about it's there it's in the fineprint if we talk You Are Not Safe smile#i just . BITING BITING BITING this fic#the domesticity the grief the casual yet unfathomably deep soulmatism.......im ruined i tell u Ruined#so naturally i dropped everything#remember how i said lefts/rights r my enemy my beloathed my nemesis. MIRRORS MADE IT SO MUCH WORSE FHGDSAJFGJS I WANTED DEATH#i was like this is incorrect. no this is correct. flips them around in my head. no im wrong again actually#purgatory tbh but we got there (watch me be wrong again tho if i am wrong again i think i will Cry)#anyway!!! i don't have much else to say except pls read the fic and show jinx some love they 1000% deserve it this fic 1000% deserves it#i could only draw so many scenes but i would draw all of it if i could#fr i ws so paranoid abt accuracy lmao cut 2 footage of me looking up rice cooker models and wtf the colour 'carnelian' was#i hope i got everything right i hope i did it justice :'>#also if any1 mentions how megumi's arm in 3 is at an awkward angle. look me in the eye and tell me youve comfortably cuddled with someone#i will call u a liar
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IT WAS ERIC AFTER ALL!!!! I'm so glad we got to meet him (before Vil snaps him away with those Infinity Gauntlets) (can't wait to see what happens when we get the matching Infinity Tiara to go with them, there will be no survivors)
(sorry to be so slow/rough lately, just got a lot of stuff on the ol' brain at the moment! alas, if only I could spend all my time drawing incredibly stupid characters I mean I do but)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#tapis rouge#i know these are not my best but by god i needed to draw ~daddo venue~#he is a treat! can't wait for him to yell at us for screwing up a shoot or whatever the last-minute disaster will be#i am SO HAPPY it turned out to be about movies after all! ...i mean sort of anyway#i'll take what i can get (and i do enjoy twst trying to be all cute about snow whAHEM i mean beautiful queen) (i see you there twst)#(also to be fair it actually wasn't poisoned in historial-revisionism-twstland so i think we can trust this apple. a+ acting eric)#anyway we are still. very solidly in the 'stand around and talk about the wallpaper for three hours' part of the event.#but HEY we got to meet eric! i was not really expecting it to be him so i am VERY pleased#also god help me i did think the shopping montage as portrayed by a rhythmic where they literally SKIP down the street was hilarious#there's a lot of Choices that were made in this event and that was a good one
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Genuinely, and I mean this kindly, but learning to recognize bait and not engaging with it will change your fandom experience.
#once you realize : oh theyre just trying to rile me up and i dont care to give them a response#everything is less stressful#i keep seeing the same arguments rehashed every six or so months#i know a lot of people are new and dont know but the trolls youre arguing with do#theyre trying to burn yall out and send you packing#also i do think there is something very funny about someone spending all that time color coding a bait post#and no one engages with it like wow you tried#i understand the passion people feel AND at some point you gotta let it go#anyway i do feel like the best way to sustain longevity is to just block the tags/people who enrage you
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small town buzz
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#artists on tumblr#animated illustration#illustration#backgrounds#animated gifs#cozy rooms#background illustration#animation#myillust#hellooo! just wanted to share this artwork i made! this is totally fresh from the oven phew#ive always adored the idea of living/being in a low-density flat in a small town#it's such a niche thing LOL but i think about it a lot kfnjdndf#this is really more of a self-indulgent artwork i suppose#anyways!! i do hope you'll like it! :3 and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead!
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Happy 1 year anniversary to Mr Sherlock Holmes! Here's a litttleee celebratory comic from me
#sherlock & co#sherlock and co#writing these tags on the 29th of september#which is when john and sherlock ACTUALLY met <3#so there you go#uh once again shout out to candy for letting me talk through some of my processes#it helps immensely and i really wanted to be sure i was getting across what i wanted to with this one#speaking of which - usually i yap a lot in the tags of these bcus i love talking about art#for this one...im not sure i want to comment too much#because i'll be here forever and i think most things can speak for themself#but let me say this one thing#for the first five pages i was drawing john on paper and sherlock on the computer exclusively#and then bringing them together..#uh it really made me think of paul and harry. recording on opposite sides of the world. brought together by the power of editing#its not a particularly emotional scene but i hope ive infused it with. something.#anyway thats it from me#if u want to ask about any particular aspect i would love to yap about the process but i'll just leave it here for now or i'll never shut u#happy 1 year podpals#patsart#oh yeah i will say i did have to take quite a bit of liberty with the audio in order to do what i wanted. forgive me#or dont idc
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to whom do i surrender my heart?
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Edwin after the confession is a menace
Bonus Charles being normal about it:
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Something something that one couples meme where you have to guess which outfit belongs to which (except its huntlow and they share a closet actually)
#my art#toh#the owl house#toh hunter#toh willow#willow park#huntlow#toh huntlow#ive realized theres a lot of huntlow are i forgot to post here so#lets fix that#anyway they share clothes dont think too hard about sizes#just enjoy them being goofy silly little guys#happy oct 1st
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Nico referring to his mom as "Mama" implies he most likely at least used to refer to Hades as "Papa" and i 100% headcanon he still does but mostly in the manner of him having the entire Underworld wrapped around his finger for being the baby of the family
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#headcanon#my art#nico flexing youngest child privilages by pulling out the most pitiful expression he can manage#anyways i find it fun to explore character word choices#cause yknow no two characters are going to select their words the same way#or even necessarily think about it to the same degree#i like to think Nico thinks about his word choice a lot#so of course every time he uses ''papa'' he fully knows he's pulling the Baby Of The Family card#Hades definitely knows this too but falls for it every time anyways#cause Nico hasnt called him ''papa'' regularly since getting his memory wiped - just detached ''father'' or at best ''dad''#so it just reminds Hades of How Much He Just Wants His Children To Be Happy Like The Old Days#and how much poor Nico has been through and he's just the baby of the family and-#cue Nico smugly staring at the camera cause he knows how much power he holds#also i say Nico is Hades' only son cause mythologically even when Zagreus *is* Hades' son (rarely) he's. dead.#a major part of Zagreus' mythology is that he died#and im p sure every other deity said to be Hades' children are all goddesses and also are like 50% of the time not his#theres also only like 3 of them. and as far as we know in riordanverse canon one of them is implied to not be his daughter#so Nico is Hades' only son and also youngest in the family (cause Hazel is older by a month chronologically or 1 year biologically)#(and everybody else is a deity if children of hades at all)
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