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uncanny-tranny · 10 months ago

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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them!#i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all..#...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in...#...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air...#...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life...#...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with...#...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it...#...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

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july-19th-club · 2 years ago

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seriously have been thinking about this all night long. call me autistic but the fact that 90% of workplaces the point is not to get your work done and then be done doing it but to instead perform an elaborate social dance in which you find something to do even when you're done doing everything you need to do in order to show your fellow workers that you, too, are Working . because you are at Work . disgusting why cant we all agree that if there is no work immediately to be done. we just dont do anything

#i personally like to not be doing things constantly at all times. it stresses me out #i know there are ppl who thrive on cosntant activity #but me i like to chill out.#and the problem then becomes that i only ACTIVELY remember to do work and Find More Work To Do when im stressed #at the thought that others might want to see me working #if im ever relaxed i just dont look for stuff to do #catch 22 of modern work culture which permeates even ostensibly noncapitalist structures like public libraries #for instance: will it really kill anybody if the books get shelved by me now after a very busy day?#or shelved tomorrow morning by. well probably me since i'll be the one at the desk #not in the slightest #but it was work that wasnt being immediately done by me. therefore it was incorrect behavior #that i failed to identify because my instinct is to relax when not immediately presented with a Situation #this got me labeled as 'having no initiative' by my dad from a very early age #and even as an adult i still feel like im a child with no initiative

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yak-leather-whips · 10 months ago

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Guys, its not some fucking “bad luck devil” or whatever. It’s clearly this fucking time gargler or whatever the fuck that’s behind all this nonsense. Aguefort literally lays it out for us that the quangle makes things happen out of order. Things like, say…Zelda and Gorgug being broken up even though we know from the Seven that they’re still together in Junior year, or Aelwyn suddenly moving out and going from a snarky 19 year old whose never had a job or gone to college to a middle school teacher with 5 cats in the course of 3 months, or the sophomore album being 10 months late even though Fig only finished her debut a little over 16 months ago AND they were in the middle of the tour, or Hallariel and Gilear getting engaged after like a year when 3 months ago Gilear wasn’t even allowed to sleep in her bed, and Sklonda defending one of the organizers of this folk festival when the festival hasn’t even happened yet, or Figs birthday suddenly moving from Christmas to July.

#honestly the fact that we started en media res could even be construed as part of it #that feeling we had of being thrown into something all out of order #like. i think the fact that the team are such good improvisors is being used to hide whats happening from them #they’re so used to yes anding everything that the inconsistencies don’t pop out #anybody interested is welcome to come and join the church of quanglicanism #quanglicanism #time quangle #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fhjy theory

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lucabyte · 4 months ago

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On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

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#a homestuck walks into an antechamber and asks #hey is anybody going to make this dynamic wholly deterministic and thus dubiously consensual by its very nature #ANYWAY bigger ramble below. scroll down like usual #isat spoilers #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #THATS RIGHT WE'RE STILL SHIP TAGGING IT BABYYYY #in stars and time #in stars and time fanart #lucabyteart #RAMBLE START: anyway i think loop is wrong here. they have it backwards. as-- in my opinion--#the main reason they could be called back into existence postcanon is because *their* wish for help is still not complete #they still need help. siffrin still needs help. neither of them will ever stop needing help.#they will thus uphold the wish until the end of siffrin's natural lifespan.#that said. what does it mean that loop can be so wholly forced to abide by siffrin's wants?#(assuming the dagger cutscene posession is them being forced to uphold the 'help siffrin' wish via harsh universe logic)#[as opposed to something capricious and cruel the change god did. which feels out of character for the change god to me?]#much like how the island wish and duplicate objects are neutered by simply sliding off people's brains...#is loop subtly ushered toward their wish? obviously it's not a full override (see: the bossfight). but is there any interference?#and if so. so what? does it matter? if they don't notice? is it even real if they don't notice?#and even if they do notice. the universe leads we follow. how much do either of them value their free will in a belief system like that?#the whole game is dedicated to siffrin habitually NOT excersizing his free will. doing things the same Every Time.#Loop ESPECIALLY does this. predetermined predetermined predetermined even in the FACE OF CHANGE. REFUSING. ANY CHOICE.#Maybe they'd even be comforted by having a universe-ordained purpose even if it is subservient. even if its to Him.#(though. i can't see siffrin enjoying the idea that someone is subservient TO them... then all their suffering is his fault...)#loop got into this mess via WANTING too much. no more free will. can't be trusted with it. take it away from them.#but yeah. gets my greasy detective pony hands all over this. and everyone please do remember i like to make characters Outright Wrong A Lot

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phantompasta · 6 months ago

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more If you find a vigilante in a dumpster by @lunamugetsu art because I do not feel normal rn

The lady on the left is Lady Gotham btw that's kinda how I picture her until the author describes her current appearance

Lady gotham-less art after the cut in case she wasn't the evil mastermind behind that last chapter ending + a meme

Also, for so you can see Danny's drawings in the background

#the first fanart is based on the first fic the author posted prior to the full fic. which is so good #the second one looks like it could be anybody grabbing tbh. i didnt detail Jason very much. but ITS JASON TO ME #that was based by a video on youtube i saw. its was adorable. and kid danny is synonymous to adorable so it had to be done #I've wanted to draw Jazz so the trio could be all together but I feel I never get her right how I want #maybe in a distant future sadly..#pastaart #dpxdc #srry i rambled #dcxdp

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tanatola · 7 days ago

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pathologic 3 announcement made me return to the classic game and finally play it properly! i think my favorite part of the bachelor's route is when he talks to maria kaina (or whoever's in her body at the time) and they explain that their planned Utopia isn’t even supposed to be a 'perfect' place but instead 'the mystical manifestation of a world inscrutable and inaccessible to men' going back to the original meaning of the word irl and instead of despairing Daniil fervently agrees that this kind of unimaginable leap is worth it, no matter where it actually leads

#pathologic #the bachelor #daniil dankovsky #andrey stamatin #peter stamatin #maria kaina #nina kaina #recent interview with dybowski made me kind of apprehensive #because i love the idea of an emotional state as a fundamental game mechanic for the bachelor but #he was very focused on the idea of following the 'teacher' in Simon and in the process learning everything he was meant to learn #despite never really 'catching' the dead guy in his time loops #i feel that the head of the studio is just projecting again #and in a way that old version of the bachelor made back when he was a student in his twenties #could end up seeming more compelling in the end #but we'll SEE #i am still wildly hopeful and hype #my artwork #ALSO anybody who likes the bachelor and reads those rambling tags #you should totally check out blank monk by chekhov #its short

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clairedaring · 18 days ago

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He was your first love, but you are my first love. Since I was born, I've never felt affection for anyone, until I met you.

THE EMPRESS OF AYODHAYA (2024) dir. Sant Srikaewlaw

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honeyhobbs · 5 months ago

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Made a wallpaper of Gaz's new skin!

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demidevildonnie · 4 months ago

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i hate the summer time..

#my art #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #ken amada #shinjiro aragaki #persona 3 spoilers #p3 #p3r #kagerou project #kagerou daze #kagerou days #ive seen the song be called both and i dont remember which one is correct #im assuming its kagerou days #hey anybody else feel like kagepro has persona vibes

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melit0n · 11 months ago

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Some cryptid photos of Vessel (+ ii) that I've collected over the past week. The fact that almost all of them look like they came out of trail cam footage is absolutely sending me

#add a grainy overlay and the date and time text from an old camcorder and I think I could convince someone it *is* trail cam footage #the fact that this odd pose where he's got his arms out with his fingers spread is a common part of his dance routine makes me giggle a lot #like you go you funky music man #there are so many photos of ii out there where he legitimately just looks like he's either edited into the photo or ->#an actual creature of the night as well #this is just my favourite because he looks so insanely out of place #if anybody has an editions feel free to add! I'd love to get a good giggle out of some more crypid photos #sleep token #st #vessel #vessel sleep token #ii sleep token #mel's rambles #cryptid token #1k

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l3viat8an · 8 months ago

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Rooo *hands u a mic 🎤* what do the demon brothers camera rolls look like???

okay this was fun XD

Silly / sweet (mostly silly) hcs!!

Lucifer ↓

So many photos of Cerberus, everything from really good photos where Cerberus is behaving to blurry pics because he won’t sit still.

A few photos of his paperwork (he keeps them like backups)

Candid photos of you-

A few photos of the two of you out together, think like sweet / date night pics <3

Photos of flowers or just random things that remind him of you. Sometimes he’ll even send them to you, just to let you know he’s thinking about you even while you’re apart.

Photos and videos of his brothers, a few candids, a few blurry messes and a few more of his brothers and you together at dinner. (From Luci’s pov it’s perfect- everybody he loves enjoying a meal together.)

Mammon ↓

Pictures of you- you studying, hanging out with him, sleeping, shopping- Mammon has pictures of you doing basically everything.

Pics of himself ofc, tons of selfies too!!

Assorted memes.

Pics of stuff he’s trying to sell online.

Screenshots of price comparison for stuff he wants to buy online.

screen shots / pics of stuff he wants to buy for you!!

Random photos of his brothers; stuff like Belphie sleeping on the couch, Asmo in the middle of doing his makeup, etc- typical older sibling, slightly embarrassing photos lolol

Levi ↓

Anime memes!

Pictures of Henry 2.0 !!!

Pics of his gaming setup so he can brag about it online.

Screenshots of every time you texted him ‘I love you’ or something sweet.

Random game screen shots.

Pics of himself in cosplay!!!-

Tons of photos of him at cons! (with and without you)

Satan ↓

High quality cat photos.

More cat photos, but it’s feral / street cats running away from him so they’re super blurry.

Cat videos.

Cat memes.

Photos of books he wants to buy.

Screenshots / photos of random book quotes or spells he wants to remember.

A few candid photos of you ofc!

a photo of Lucifer asleep at his desk, and that one time Lucifer spilled coffee down his shirt- Satan always says he’s saving them for blackmail but for some reason never uses them.

Asmo ↓

Photos of himself- soooo many selfies and every-single-one of them is hot.

His nudes + your nudes

Selfies of you and him!!!

Pics of random things, flowers, drinks, anything he thinks is pretty / cute and he can get a good pic of!!

Horrible pics / blurry videos of his brothers doing stupid shit. He uses them as blackmail :)

Beel ↓

Gym pics gym pic gym pics!!!-

But really he has some pics of himself in the gym and some videos so he can check his form.

Lots of food pics-

Screenshots of various menu's.

Videos of Belphie sleep talking.

Pics of you two out together, walking around town trying street food!

Belphie ↓

Pics of Beel working out pt.2 it’s supposed to be pics of Beel and Belphie working out- but Belphie always gives up after 1 rep.

Pics of You, Beel and Belphie cuddling in the attic!

Selfies that he usually sends to you to show off his horrible bed head-

Some blurry pics of the stars / the moon.

Pics / videos of you and him cuddling!!

Screenshots of pillows that he wants to buy-

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some-pers0n · 5 months ago

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Whenever I see people call ICIMI boring or the worst album this image flashes in my mind

#will wood #wee woo #“Oh it's so drawn out and boring” INCORRECT!!! FALLING UP ATTACK💥💥💥#God I love ICIMI so much man #Becoming the Lastnames is such a beautiful song and I feel it in my very soul #Falling Up (as previously mentioned) is SO GOOD #SAME WITH THAT'S ENOUGH LET'S GET YOU HOME #AUGHHHH THEY'RE SO GOOD #Anybody who slanders the middle section I don't trust those songs are great #Willard! and White Noise are great too #Like guys this album is so great #Like maybe listen to it again and you'll appreciate some of the songs more #wi wo #There are no worst Will Wood albums man not even CH&T #They're all great

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marsh-snail · 5 months ago

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~trauma buddies~

based on this meme

#I actually don't know who the og artist is for this meme is #so if anybody does know please tell me so i can credit them #but yeah I feel like this meme sums up the two relationship #I've been on that real sloop grind recently #I think about them a lot #also loop hard to draw wtf #in stars and time #isat #isat siffrin #isat loop #siffrin #loop #isat sloop #sloop

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months ago

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Cruel and Unusual Punishments (the PSA episode).

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #wen zhuliu #The pay off of the juicebox finally comes to fruition. Wen Zhuliu was diabetic and trying to mange his low blood sugar.#The theme of WWX's revenge kills is 'cruel and unusual punishments' which is very much what I'd consider this to be.#I know this is a funny jokes blog and a funny jokes comics but:#Hypoglycemia is a serious medical emergency. Do *not* prank anybody who relies on quick sugars by hiding their stuff.#I am lovingly skipping the other brutal torture scenes in this episode <3 They happened off screen but I'm not ready to draw that.#This is the end for Wen Zhuliu. Mr. Core melting hand more like...uh...Snore Smelting hand (got 'em)#He feels like such a dominating and threatening force - and he has a lasting impact within the story.#And yet he is so spineless. He really is just the attack dog at the heels of the Wen Clan.#For all the airs he gives off about not *really* being 100% down with everything going on - he still goes along with it.#It's the most pathetic kind of evil in this world.#Rest uneasy in your grave Wen Zhuliu. No peace for you.

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rationales · 1 month ago

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Chelsie Baham wins BB26 7-0, making history as the first unanimous female winner, the second black female winner, the third black winner, and the first black winner to play a perfect game!

#why yes i will list all her achievements out antiblacks trying to discredit her read it and choke 👋🏿#big brother #bb26 #chelsie baham #makensy manbeck #julie chen moonves #*#this has truly been the only season of this show i feel like black players have been able to play without stress #and also the only season i ain't been stressed because of the way black players been getting treated bb26 IS that girl! period!#black women dominating love island AND big brother? oh we keep winning #also don't y'all be pulling up queen tamar's name like we ain't talking about civilian seasons when listing taylor or chelsie's achievement #obviously she ran that shit before anybody else and we love her for it!! 🥰

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hyacinthsdiamonds · 3 months ago

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I'm sorry but James Vowles criticising how Red Bull has treated their drivers in the past, only to go and then treat Logan far worse while pulling the exact same shit Red Bull did, ie the exact behaviour he criticised and called them out for, is so freaking infuriating like the sheer hypocrisy -

#f1 #formula 1 #formula one #james vowles #logan sargeant #best of luck to logan in the future & to franco #but james its on sight #rooting for franco because he's being thrown straight into the deep end #like Singapore of all races will be his third f1 race #and as i said when it was announced daniel was leaving mclaren & oscar was getting the seat #it's never the drivers at fault for a teams shitty behaviour towards a driver #the hypocrisy from james is just leaving a very bad taste in my mouth #edit: also infuriating that of the latest batch of rookies oscar & yuki are the last ones standing #zhou currently has no confirmed seat #they're the only rookies of the past 4 years left #mick has no seat #nicolas latifi has gone back to business school which good for you nicky i hope you're doing well #sorry but i went back to university in 2023 too so i feel a kinship with him lmao #less said about that nameless haas driver the better #nyck is the endurance championship now i think #i dont think I'm missing anybody

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