#anxious but thrilled

[spontaneouslouis]

Okay.

So, I'm working on this project for the Nikon Film Festival. And I'm meeting one of the potential actors in like 30 minutes. I'm so stressed and anxious because it's kinda of the first time -well it is the first time- that I'm directing a short. But at the same time I'm thrilled that this is happening and so glad that I'm able to lead this project and do something creative. It's a bit fucked up.

Like, the mixture of feelings in me right now, is driving me crazy. One second I'm scared and think it's a terrible idea, because I'm being vulnerable making this short. But then I'm on top of the world because I do something I love.

[buckycap]

we haven't seen a dorian and orym who've confessed their feelings and have openly talked about how much they love and care about each other on the battlefield yet, dorian whose never felt this kind of love before but knows he has to protect it and orym who Has felt this kind of love before and has had it ripped away from him and is gonna do everything he possibly can to never have that love taken from him again and will hold onto it with a white knuckled grip

[jubileedeeznuts-posting]

easily a top three tetro character for me tsuno manami you are so dear to me

[kyoukorpse]

Hmm.!

So... I'm just gonna address these all in one go. cracks all my fingers.

First of all, ascended!Chirin is technically one of like... four solid different endings I've thought of for them in their AU. i think they're all fun to play with, but the first three I've thought of are definitely not so great in regards to them ever getting better or gaining back their full autonomy, or even a semblance of normalcy.

I'll try and answer the questions real quick before I mention the fourth and most recent ending my brain came up with.

"Does Chirin ever regain their mind?"

"Ascended"? No. in "Bliss"? Not really either. in "HttC" they do after their son usurps them but it's a really rough process that leaves them resentful and full of anger for a long time.

"What happens to their relationship with Narinder? How is he throughout this?"

In the endings where Chirin ascends and leaves the cult it obviously puts a somewhat loose split to their relationship. It doesn't formally end, but obviously their relationship can't continue with one of them being GONE lmao also the fact that as Chirin lost their mind they lost connection to their emotions as a mortal and their feelings withered regardless. Narinder doesn't fare too well through out this but in the endings where Chirin leaves they have a child that he's taking care of and his priorities are there. To me he doesn't have the spoons or skills to help Chirin and doesn't know what they need, but who would.

In "Bliss" their mind degrades a bit but only so much so they're able to live relatively "happy" as a family and with Chirin still around and leading, but it's iffy because it doesn't leave Chirin whole and there's progress and growth they'll never have because they more or less stagnate as a person. It's not the best ending to me because someone who can't move forward or move on in general doesn't really get the best ending. Life involves progress and there's none in this ending.

"What does Narinder think of the changes? Does he try to stop it?"

In "Ascended" and "HttC" it's one of those gradual changes that shows slight differences here and there over centuries and by the time he notices how far it's gone it's too late. It's also hard because Chirin has a savior complex and they do and say odd things that seem to come out of nowhere all the time. The little changes over time concern him and he takes note of them but the sudden changes happen so few and far between that they seem like isolated incidents until their overall altered personality is more than noticeable and by then there's not much that can be done, and what could be done, he isn't sure he wants to try and risk the consequences doing something that might backfire on Chirin and their psyche.

When he realizes Chirin is becoming a person he no longer recognizes it's gutting, but what can you do. How do you reverse such a thing?

"Would the bishops be alive during this period?"

Yes, they are alive through this in "Ascended" and "HttC" they decide to keep their golden skull necklaces to be with Narinder and Azriel after Chirin leaves. In "Bliss" they live a normal lifespan.

"Has his positions/duties changed over the years? How has his relationship with Chirin evolved?"

THIS question I won't answer right now, because I can actually answer this eventually with something I'm working on that I've started this week.

So... rubs my little hands together. The fourth and most recent ending I've come up with is actually what I would consider a good ending for them and everyone involved. I honestly didn't see a way out for Chirin for a while given the circumstances I gave them but, ykno... Rambling and talking headcanons with friends always gets the gears turning (:

So the good ending is what I'm working with on this new project that I'm actually having a lot of fun with already and am very excited to continue with for as long as I can. I genuinely want to see it through to the end, fingers crossed for hyperfixation brain.

With that in mind, keep an eye out!! Should have the first part up soon!! Maybe within the next week, or even this weekend!

[aiza-luna]

Watch Dogs Fandom Council... Send help.

I was on my way to write a mf fanfic, and I ended up giving Aiden kids... BIOLOGICAL KIDS.

I MADE OUR FOX DILF A LITERAL DAD, WHAT HAVE I DONE?! 😭

I'LL HAVE TO DEVELOP HIM AS A DAD??? AT THEM SAME TIME I LOVE THIS IDEA I FEAR I'LL RUIN HIS CHARACTER-

SEND HELP, I'M-

[ceramicbeetle]

I genuinely love the way Billie holds herself with my whole heart; more characters need to start doing it like her <3

[nmoroder]

YOUR SEPHIRAH BOXBOT AND HUMAN FORM FOR HOKMA IS AMAZING AHHHHHH! DO THE OTHER SEPHIRAHS HAVE SOMETHING SIMILAR TOO?!

Binah definitely does in Adam's version of events, i'd probably draw her in the post too but she just doesn't really wanna go meet him haha. Others are more or less boxey bcuz their meltdowns went through and by game mechanics you the manager were able to present their virtues to Abel and Abram; the final two are like, halfway through but since things are the way it is, it's how they're destined to remain. I like drawing Binah, perhaps later i'll make a similar reference page for her as well :]

[racingliners]

Happy to report that I am still part of the volunteer staff at my local football club so, we move!!!!

[walterdecourceys]

thinking deranged thoughts such as "i want to ride a roller coaster again"

[lordsardine]

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[hxroic-wxlls-fxrever]

( @muses-from-the-house-of-thrills )

“You still totally rock to me Miss Guitar Hero, I mean honestly you’re even cooler like this aren’t you? You’re so totally rock.”

But what if they’re actually friends? And My edgy former shut in thinks your scummy rocker is just the coolest adult in the world.

“ Well, I uh… “

“ I…don’t think I’m exactly better than how I was, before… But…thanks. Really, that means a lot… “

After all, while she wasn’t exactly all too confident in herself, going through a band breakup, becoming super depressed as a result, and falling into bad habits for 9 years doesn’t exactly help with that…

Still, she DID manage to somehow get her band back together, even if they’re clearly super rusty… Regardless, she’d much rather they start from scratch and suck, together, instead of being solo stars, again.

[rebuke-me]

me when I'm 57 of the deere fics on archive

[bluehairmisfit]

Help me I have problems

[izzysillyhandsy]

I really hope I'm not wrong about Izzy being this fascinating, complex character with a meaningful backstory and relatable motivations behind his sometimes questionable actions... which are going to be explored more deeply in season 2.

What if he was just a one-dimensional antagonist all along?

Naaaah, won't happen :)

[saaraahka]

Continuing to processing some of the thoughts and feelings after last weeks special sleep wear and experiences of a long suppressed part of kink.

[curiousscallop]

Robin Hobb has such a gift for tension… when my mom gave me the earthsea books she told me there was a Terrifying chase scene at the end of the first book, and I read the whole thing in mingled anticipation and dread for this extremely frightening scene, and when I got there I didn’t feel frightened at all. But throughout these books I’m reading the pursuit scenes with a hand clutching my shirt collar over my mouth and my heart racing. I wonder if I will feel the same when I inevitably reread sometime down the line