#anxiety around letting go

[waywardstation]

I still browse the submas tag so regularly but after all these inactive periods I used to take, I’d fallen into this sort of self-conscious slump of being too shy to interact with posts and the fandom for a long time and I know it’s been like that for months. Trying to do better about that now instead of being so nervous about it ^^

[angelstrawbabie420]

any other extremely socially anxious bastards permanently stuck between being proud of yourself for overcoming it so often and also being incredibly pissed at yourself bc why the FUCK can you not just be NORMAL.

[i-may-be-an-emu]

I forgot to post this on tumblr too so here’s a ditch edit I made the other day :D

mild warning for bright colours/light

Audio credit: “Cassiopeia” by bears in trees

Video credit: @shootimpro (Improvised Play #30 - The Unrelenting Aubergine)

(Btw the empty sfth blog is because someone got the url and is saving it for if sfth ever want to join tumblr)

[riding-the-cyclone]

Just turned in my audition for Jane Doe. Trying not to lose my head haha

(I’m going to throw up I’m so nervous)

[lights-at-night]

gender euphoria moment ! rare morgan w

[agnisleftpec]

in light of lie detector tests irl being mostly bullshit, especially so for people with anxiety, combined with fandom shoving all their mental disorders onto their faves cuz projection is fun, i propose a much more chaotic take on zuko joining the gaang wherein toph can NOT get a fuckin read on this guy and kind of wants him to just sit down and breathe for a second thanks, your heartrate is giving her a headache

[mug-and-friends]

Ugh gotta do my presentation on shiny rates in urban venipede while full of cold. Mug didn't even eat the USB stick when I asked nicely! SMH. what's the point of a dog pokemon without them eating ur homework

Useless creature /j

[tricksteroftheheart]

forsaken is fun enough but the amount of people on there that are emoting on a dude with no killer wins and 9 surv wins is crazy

[heros-shade-fanclub]

💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌 <3 pea

hello sweetums. my favorite thing about you is actually just your puppydog sorry. yeah I only followed you for molly. show me her now 🫵🫵🫵

[breadwheathead]

gotta go harvest my celery or whatever I planted in tunnel town

[promithiae]

If one more person/article suggests I meditate or otherwise sit still when I'm anxiety spiraling I'm going to fucking scream. Sitting still makes it so much worse. I'm so happy I got my little walking pad so I can pace without having to worry about tripping over furniture/cats/stray electric cords

[somedaytakethetime]

I beg your pardon..

Excuse me?

[witchofthesouls]

Tarn really needs to find some brain cells. Does no one replace his data pads with info on interfacing ?

Tarn is Tarn. Even as a graduate of Nickel's masterclass on safe sex and Tesarus' online communities, Tarn will be Tarn.

This guy is walking, talking mess of contradictions that he doesn't even understand his own motivations outside of Megatron's vision. He's impulsive, obsessive, and has a tendency to self-sabotage/bury himself deep into the crafted persona so he doesn't have time to self-reflect.

He's so deep in that identity that he would need a GPS, a map, a compass, and someone yelling "MARCO!" in steady intervals to get out of it. Along with a smoke gun and a plane drawing arrows in the sky.

Look, this guy is a closeted romantic who can't even understand his own urges for closeness and acceptance from a hierarchy. Mix in a Camien carrier that's outside the structure (not personnel to hunt) and inside via technicalities (soothes need to comply Decepticon law and creed), and you got a hot mess overcompensating any inadequacies as a donor.

Because Tarn isn't going to think about his past, do any self-reflection, and ignore all of the screaming from the damaged Seekerkin-coding, he literally went to check out pleasure and sex mods because he found out that carriers typically get cuddly after a good frag, and since his the Camien runs away, he immediately went, "I have to correct this."

Not only does he want constant exposure to being a Good Tank, he also wants his cuddles.

[wonderstruck]

i have decided to treat my anxiety as an entity outside of my body rather than a piece of myself and so far the anxiety has taken on the role of like an annoying house cat or something bc everytime i feel an anxiety attack coming on i’ve just been shouting NO! NO! over and over as if i were talking to a pet that wasn’t behaving properly…..anyway so far so good

[in-tua-deep]

Another day another walk - challenged myself today to actually talk to and introduce myself to people and did so well that my walk took like,, an hour and forty five minutes oops but! Proud of myself for trying 💪

Also learned that small children are infinitely better at obeying “you can only pet her on top of her head” than older folk

[remyfire]

One of the more interesting parts about not figuring out you're autistic until you're in your thirties is every so often jolting awake and going, oh god, my enthusiasm has been annoying the hell out of everyone my whole life, huh?