#and without asking or telling him give it to a random child i adopted
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were-wolverine · 11 months ago
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jason, coming back from the dead and seeing tim as robin: how could bruce replace me? how could he give robin to someone else?
dick, who created robin in honor of his dead parents and then had bruce take it away and give it to jason without even asking him:
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cassiebones · 3 months ago
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Agatha Harkness: Character Study
I'm gonna be real with you: I do not read Marvel comics. I have read some that others have bough for me (Miss Marvel, for instance, which I loved) but I'm not really into comics like that. So I do not know the lore surrounding Agatha. Everything I know is from WandaVision and Agatha All Along and everything I write will also be based on that.
That being said, let's begin.
Agatha is dramatic.
This bitch is the most dramatic person I have ever seen and I love that for her, to be completely honest. She also gives so few fucks sometimes. Like when she was naked in the middle of a residential street, her cheeks just in the wind. Beautiful. Love to see it.
Like every time she wants to make a dramatic exit, she deliberately swishes the tail of her coat as she walks away. Even when there's nobody there to see it. Just for the vibes. Love that.
And she loves deeply and sometimes without her permission. You can just tell. When she's under Wanda's spell, chasing teen down the alley and he gets hit by the car, she is immediately concerned for this random child's safety. She makes sure that he's okay before anything else. You can't tell me that now, in episode four, she doesn't care for this kid like he's her own son (even if he's not). She gives him her coat, leaving her without the ability to swish it dramatically; that's love, bitch.
And I think she has this deep-seated guilt inside her. Like she blames herself for Nicholas's death, which I do think she does. She couldn't save him from his fate, as hard as she tried. I think that a big part of her anger at Rio is directed at herself, as well. She let her son go, which she will never forgive herself for.
And she loves Rio. We can see that so clearly when they share that moment in the woods. She tries not to, of course, but she can't really resist for long. And I don't think it's just because of their sexual past, but their romantic one, as well. There's no doubt in my mind that they were married in their past life. That, despite legality, they probably had a big ceremony, probably with witnesses there. They declared their love and pledged to be with one another, til death, smiling because they know even death won't keep them apart (one of them is Death, after all).
I am not really sure if Agatha was with a man before and that's how she got Nicholas, or if she had somehow adopted him with Rio (???) idk. All I know is she loved her son and she did not give him up for the Darkhold. His death left a pretty sizeable gap in her heart for sure. I feel like, no matter how Nicholas came into their lives, Rio also considered him hers.
(Side note: I need there to be a fight where Agatha takes out all of her grief about Nicholas on Rio, blaming her for his death and reaping his soul and Rio just shouts back "he was my son, too!" Is that too much to ask?)
She loved Rio and Nicholas so much and she lost them both in one fell swoop. When she got her hands on the Darkhold and Nicholas was already gone and Rio was the one that took him completely away, she made herself disappear so that Rio couldn't find her until Wanda took away her magic. Because the second that magic was gone and no longer hiding her, Rio found Agatha, probably yearning for her for however long it had been (decades? centuries?) since she'd last laid eyes on her. I wonder if there were any other "shows" that Rio was a guest star in. Medical dramas? Sitcoms? Dark comedies? Mockumentaries (totally not picturing their Parks & Rec characters rn)? Did Rio come to her as soon as Wanda took her magic? Did she wait a bit, try to play it cool? She definitely did with the crime drama.
Also Agatha's relationship with each of the other coven witches is...interesting.
I feel like Lilia was somewhat of a mentor to her in her early years, when she was still a young child, just learning to do magic. Maybe she was a neighbor. Maybe Agatha's mother detested her, which is why Agatha was fascinated by her.
Then there's Jennifer Kale, who is probably a bit younger than Agatha, but still centuries old. Had they met prior? It feels like they had a situationship that soured quickly. Maybe Jennifer was once a member of one of Agatha's covens, but dipped out before she had her powers - and life - drained. She was bound anyway, but not by Agatha, at least. I feel like they've kissed at least once, anyway.
I don't think Agatha had met Alice before, but maybe she knew her mother. She probably was a fan of the cover (she knew it so well) and might've crossed paths with Lorna once or twice. Lorna, who was terrified of a generational curse that may have been placed on her daughter. I can imagine Agatha saying, a bit callously, "at least you have a child to worry over still." I love that she was the one that figured out the protection spell for Alice.
Agatha is smart. So smart. She has centuries of knowledge, but it's not just that. She also - despite her callousness - is pretty intuitive. She is able to sense when somebody is stressed or double-guessing themselves and say exactly what they need to hear. She shows kindness in those moments. True kindness. For her, I believe it takes effort to be seriously cruel. She might have to justify it to herself.
She's obviously not a saint. She was the villain (yes, villain) in WandaVision. One of them, anyway. The major one. But I really love antagonists like this: complicated, three-dimensional, not completely evil.
When Agatha Harkness cares, she does so deeply and sometimes against her will. I can't imagine she immediately fell in love with Rio Vidal. That was definitely a slow burn, but one that fully consumed her eventually until the only way to really get away from Rio was to shroud herself with dark magic so that Rio couldn't find her. I think she knew that, when and if Rio found her, she would be unable to resist for too long before falling back into her embrace.
I really love this character.
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argumentativeaxolotl · 1 year ago
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Random Human AU Cars headcanons that probably don’t make any sense before I go to bed bc I can.
Lightning McQueen:
- Has accidentally called Doc “dad” before
- Has accidentally called Strip “dad” as well
- Bro can literally not stop moving- like he will not sit still and he tries so hard
- He has the shortest attention span ever if it doesn’t have to do with his friends or racing
- He actually really enjoys American Football and plays a modified version with Mater sometimes
- He was an orphan growing up
- Bro would 100% go apeshit feral if he lost a game of Uno
- Loves carnivals
- Dog person
- Forgets he’s rich sometimes and he can make his own decisions about money
- His love language is hugs and gifts
- He bought the Hot Wheels of his car and continues to buy every variation
Chick Hicks:
- Bit other kids as a child
- Filled water guns with lemonade and shot at people’s eyes
- Daddy issues(actually this is canon isn’t it?)
- Cat person
- Frighteningly good at card games like Casino “house always wins” levels of good. Like bro will somehow know what your cards are without even looking at them
- He put rocks in snowballs
- Alcoholic
- Loves anything horror, gorey, and True Crime
- He’s notoriously bad at getting people gifts, like seriously bro is not allowed to buy anything for anyone for Christmas or their birthdays that’s how bad it is(someone usually gets it for him)
- He probably has a huge gambling problem
- His love language is giving gifts
- He gives gifts as a form of apology because he’s shit at words
- Literally the best mustache in all of cars- like he keeps that thing at top condition 101% of the time
- He never actually finished school because his dad forced him into racing as soon as he could
- Probably had rabies at one point and somehow survived
- If you somehow manage to become a good friend of his, he’ll actually be super chill w/ you
- Rich as FUCK
Strip Weathers:
- Legally adopted Cal after his parents passed away(or sumn idk)
- Has several scars on his arm from the crash during the tie-breaker race
- He, Tex, Lynda, and Cal were practically inseparable after the crash
- He and Tex are literally the bestest of buds like they are homies to the MAX
- He doesn’t hold any ill-will against Chick even if he should and is allowed to
- The “Boy Scout” of racing(think Superman or Captain America)
- He listens to “Old Town Road” by Lil Nas X while working with his horses. Cal cringes every time.
- He never swears unless he’s serious about something or is extremely upset or concerned
- He almost fainted when he met Doc for the first time, almost immediately asking for an autograph
- He has a ranch full of horses and enjoys horse racing as well as car racing
- Received an apology gift of both cologne and a miniature trophy from Chick
- He let Chick sign his cast after the crash
- He’s tried to teach Lightning and Bobby how to ride horses with Cal’s help. It did not go well
- He wanted to be a doctor for a little while before switching career paths
- Racing is literally in his blood(he comes from a very VERY long line of racers)
- Weirdly good at writing. Like for no reason.
- He heavily fanboyed over Doc when he was younger
Doc Hudson:
- He loves Lightning as his son
- He thinks of Sally as a surrogate daughter
- Unironically says “back in my day” whenever he’s telling a story
- He owns a shotgun and it’s hidden away in his house, far away from Lightning(who keeps trying to find it with no luck)
- He knows the most shit out of everyone and all their backstories. Bro hears the gossip and goes “nice”
- He loves watching fruit dissection videos on YouTube for some reason
- Bro is great at knitting. Like seriously. Give him ten seconds and you’ll have a whole ass sweater with a theme and everything
- He is an alcoholic(especially after his crash)
- Never got married or had children… until Lightning and Sally lmaooo
- He nearly started crying tears of joy when Lightning called him dad the first time
- He has several large burns and scars on his legs and lower back from the crash(like shit is really bad dude)
- His favorite movie is the original ghost busters
- He is a cat person
- He is a neat freak at heart yet gave up trying to clean out his garage because of all the bad memories
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nogenderbee · 4 months ago
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♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ 𝔾𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕣 𝕞𝕖𝕒𝕟𝕖𝕔𝕖 ₊˚ˑ༄
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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ @superstar-ethereal request: REQUESTS ARE OPEN LETS GOOOOOO
anywayss can i perhaps have wxs with an orange cat-like reader? (or to give a clearer descriptor: orange cats are stereotypically perceived as being energetic, airheaded, very friendly to everyone they meet, etc etc.) it's fine if not though! :D
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ YAYAYAYAS I love cats hehehehe
I also added some more characteristic hope you don't mind ^^ Just my own little experience with those damn ginger bastards cats~
Anyway! Hope you like it!!
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ fluff
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✧ there are times when Tsukasa has absolutely enough of your crazy ideas...
✧ in fact, he learned to yell "no" so loud your eardrums are ringing and you can't think straight anymore for next few seconds
"Hey what if I-"
"NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!"
"I'm deaf I think..."
✧ he still loves you tho. He just can't believe one person can store so many crazy ideas...
✧ sometimes this boy still has hopes that whenever he sees you waking up from daydreaming, you'll say something sweet and not something that'll make him question your sanity
✧ if he ever sees his locker, shoes, clothes or anything messed up, he'll immidietly call you, knowing damn well who's guilty for that
"... Y/N!!! WE NEED TO TALK!! Where is my- of course you're wearing it... C'mon, it's uniform. I need it or else I'll get detention..."
✧ despite you causing troubles constantly, he'll still get you out of those by either giving rational arguments to teacher or annoying them untill they have enough and let you out. Whatever happens, he still thinks it was the first one
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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @wholesaleboi @yulikesminori @alicewinterway18 @hakulivesformusic @sucodelaranja86 - come get your future star!
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✧ you get along with Emu pretty well~ She's most likely about to agree to your idea as long as you interpret it as a fun game
✧ you can literally offer most random thing and as long as you say it's "part of the game" she'll be excited to join you!
"Omg YES!!! It sounds so fun!! I'll be sure to win! Hehe~ Game... ON!" RUUUUN!!!"
✧ you two usually take the consequences together... if you won't talk your way out, she most likely won't succeed either...
✧ despite her whole family telling her you're "bad influence for her" she still won't stop hanging out with you and getting into some fun troubles!
✧ she's very social as well so she won't mind jumping around random people just to ask them few questions or even randomly adopt someone into your friend group you may be creating
"Target found!"
"Oh? That introvert? Let's go~"
"HaHaHa! Let's make a good and loud impression! Ready? WONDERHOY!!!"
✧ your dynamic is certainly one to be cherished~ You're definitely matching quite well!
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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @hayillaaaaaaa @miguelito-maruti-blog @ravenmoon903 - come get your smiley girl!
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✧ Nene sometimes wonders if she's more of a girlfriend or babysitter for you...
✧ whenever you wake up with sudden urge to cause chaos, she must be there to stop you before you ruin too many lives
"Don't do it! Leave the poor child alone!"
✧ she learned to just hold your hand so you wouldn't randomly run off without her noticing
✧ you also definitely made her socialize a bit more... since she usually comes with you on any hangouts just to make sure you'll come back home in one piece
✧ despite her trying to keep you away from troubles, she won't help you if you actually got yourself into ones... or so that's what she says...
✧ if you plead long enough, she may help you clean up but she's definitely NOT talking you out of consequences
"Nene!! Can you clean the floor at corridor for me?"
"Why?"
"I... ACCIDENTALLY spilled some chemicals..."
"You WHAT?!"
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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @bl4cktourmaline @ravenmoon903 - come get your shy gamer~
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✧ Rui would absolutely love how bratty you are! It all just adds onto the playfulness and he's up for all of it!
✧ he loves how you're "all against world" and wouldn't mind honestly joining you
"Us against the world! Isn't that right, darling?"
✧ if you actually like to knock down things randomly tho, it's gonna make his heart jump MANY times tho...
✧ he keeps an eye on you all the time since he never knows what idea you may get the next second
✧ he also is biggest fan of your random ideas! Whenever he sees you drifting off, he stays quiet just waiting for you to wake up and tell him what you thought of
"... What if you we made jetpacks for penguins?"
"Fufu~ We can try~"
✧ you both are biggest troublemaker duo and kamiyama high definitely fears your next move...
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@bleachtheidiot @akitosheart @yulikesminori @toyaswif3y @bl4cktourmaline @superstar-ethereal @stellas-starry-stories13 @alicewinterway18 @hakulivesformusic @sucodelaranja86 - come get your crazy inventor~
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bhpop · 1 year ago
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I wanna see more of the Twst cast to be nice/protective to Eyeless!Yuu. Imagine Trey giving them treats all the time and Vil trying to doll them up bc “even if you’re eyeless, you still are beautiful in other ways.” Malleus too, his fondness of Yuu grows even larger bc Yuu genuinely can’t judge him for his appearances and only appreciates who he is (Lilia would also like to adopt Yuu), same goes with Epel. Sebek lowering his voice around Yuu bc he doesn’t want their eyes to bleed due to nervousness. Leona threatens his dorm members to not do anything bad to Yuu, Kalim throwing parties to let them have fun even without their eyes and Adeuce, Jack and Epel being super overprotective.
OMG, this is so cute to think about and I 100% see this happening when it comes to the rest interacting with Eyeless-Yuu. Eyeless-Yuu would be surprised at how protective others will be with them for a bit {mainly since they never had a genuine interaction where they were cared for before their eyes were taken}.
Sebek lowering his voice around Eyeless-Yuu is a cute and good thing since Eyeless-Yuu can get nervous {sad/scared} easily when it comes to being {unintelligent in Sebek's case} yelled at by anyone {*cough* the noble *cough*}. Malleus would be grateful for Eyeless-Yuu willingly being around him even if they can't see him {so would Lilia and he'd probably tell stories about baby Malleus}, Silver and Eyeless-Yuu would definitely cuddle/sleep together in random spots
Vil doing Eyeless-Yuu's makeup is adorable to think about along with how Epel would be protective of Eyeless-Yuu {he'd probably carry them around to slightly show off his strength lol}, Rook would definitely complement Eyeless-Yuu or just silently roam around them daily.
I definitely see Leona placing down rules in his dorm when it comes to Eyeless-Yuu's safety, Ruggie would keep Leona updated about Eyeless-Yuu's treatment in the dorm along with Jack who's be their bodyguard of sorts unless Eyeless-Yuu asks him.
Ace and Deuce along with Grim are the main ones with Eyeless-Yuu 24/7 when possible {of course they give Yuu space when they need it or tell them to} and mainly just help them out in classes. {mainly PE since I like to think they'd have Eyeless-Yuu sit with them on their broom, Vargas maybe lets Eyeless-Yuu hang out with the others but not need to participate unless they want to}
Kalim would definitely throw parties or "small" celebrations when Eyeless-Yuu visits and just {nicely} drag them around the dorm or on the magic carpet. Jamil would keep them safe in case Kalim's slight recklessness gets them hurt and makes small treats/meals for them like Trey.
Azul would definitely have Jade and Floyd keep tabs on Eyeless-Yuu {he'd probably be a little thankful Eyeless-Yuu couldn't see his chubby child self from way back in and would definitely get embarrassed or flustered if someone were to describe the photo to them}
Riddle, Cater and Trey would be around Eyeless-Yuu the most when at the dorm and have Ace and Deuce keep them updated on them. Same with Ortho who'd keep their health or emotional state updated and probably have them hang them out with Idia to get him out of his room and socialize a bit.
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veryace-ficrecs · 10 months ago
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Tim Joins the BatFam Early Fic Recs
This list will include all ratings and tags, so read at your own discretion! :)
the butler's neighbor by deargalileo - Rated G
it starts with a baseball, thrown onto the wayne's property. it's alfred's job to deal with such happenings, of course. but over tea and galas, it turns into so much more.
after all, why should bruce be the only one allowed to adopt any child that he finds?
the capillaries in my eyes are bursting by Scarlet_Ribbons - Rated T
Bruce grunts, standing up. “Jenkins said the same. What about what you weren’t told?” And without dissembling, Jason says, “I think they fucked that kid up, B.” [Jack and Janet die. As things get weirder and weirder, it feels like Tim might be at the center of the unfolding conspiracy.]
An (almost) Foolproof Lie by HiddenDreamer67 - Rated T
“No, they don’t leave me totally alone.” Tim hurriedly explained. “My neighbor Bruce Wayne looks after me.” Batman stared at him for a long while. “Bruce Wayne.” He parroted slowly. (A young Tim Drake gets kidnapped by Falcone. When Batman rescues him, Tim tells Batman that Bruce Wayne is his temporary guardian. Oddly enough, Batman isn’t fooled by this perfect cover story.)
Anton Syndrome by Anonymous - Rated M
Tim's parents have been away for six months and counting—the longest he's ever been left alone at one time—and it's starting to have some unpleasant side effects. Luckily, he has a solution. OR, the one where Tim attempts prostitution to cure his touch starvation. His plan goes wrong pretty much from step one, but it all works out for the better.
I'll Stand By You by TaraLaurel - Rated T
"I'm not going to ask you why you're out here, kid," Jason nods. "That's your business and you don't know me or Dick to trust us." Not true. Tim trusts Jason Todd and Dick Grayson with his life. Just not with, the other stuff. "But," Jason continues, "if you want to tell me what got you here, or you just want to talk about anything, you can, with me. Dick too. He's an annoying ray of sunshine that won't ever shut up most of the time, but he is actually a good listener. I'd know." OR When Tim's parents find out Tim's secret, they kick him out. Now, on Thanksgiving, Tim is living on the streets and is thankful for the two strangers currently saving him from getting his face pounded into the pavement. Wait...those aren't strangers...
Just a Typical Monday Morning by Writer_loves_tropes - Rated T
There are three things in life that Timothy Drake knows for sure. One, Tim is the greatest retro Guitar Hero player in the world (even if the wonderful people at the Guinness Book of World Records won’t rightfully acknowledge this fact). Two, Tim is allergic to walnuts. He’s convinced his parents that he’s allergic to spinach too because he hates it. He’s pretty sure when his parents find out, they’re going to make him eat spinach casserole for dinner for a whole week as punishment. And the third thing Tim knows for sure? He’s sure that on this typical Monday morning, the entire Gotham High School thinks Timothy Jackson Drake is Robin, Batman’s vigilante sidekick. A random locker check and the real Robin stashing his suit in Tim’s locker is all it took to turn Tim’s typical Monday morning into one of the craziest Mondays of his life.
Brother Wanted by Vamillepudding - Rated G
Well-behaved boy (10) is looking for big brother (11-15). Must meet up with me three times a week, for at least two hours each. Overall duties include helping me with homework, playing videogames with me, and showing me how to play catch. 10$ per hour. Tim, lonely and in desperate need of company, decides that if his parents are not going to give him a sibling, he's going to hire one instead. Luckily, Jason Todd-Wayne shows up in the nick of time.
Holy security breach, Batman! by destiny919 - Rated G
Janet finally shoos him away towards the hors d'oeuvres or drinks table with the tacit understanding that she doesn't want to see him again until the end of the gala. And probably not even then, it wouldn't be the first time the Drakes forgot to take him home with them and Tim had to discreetly call an Uber before the host noticed and made Tim embarrass his parents. For this gala, however, he almost hopes they forget him again, because tonight Tim has a plan. They're at Wayne Manor, and Tim is going to find the Batcave.
wrong number by adelfie - Rated G
There’s a few rings, then the phone picks up. “Wayne Residence.” That’s funny, Tim thinks, Mrs. Mac doesn’t sound like herself. -- On a hot July evening while home alone, eight-year-old Tim gets a fever. He means to ask Mrs. Mac for help — but ends up accidentally calling Alfred Pennyworth. Somehow, even in sickness, he wins all the hearts of the Wayne family in one fell swoop.
assaulting existence with improbability by destiny919 - Rated T
"Where's Batman?" the kid demands. "We need to show him." Jason decides to go with the easy question. "Show him what?" The kid gives him an incredulous look. "Proof you didn't kill Garzonas, what else?"
5 Times Tim Spends the Night at Wayne Manor + 1 Time He Comes Home by motleyfam - Rated T
Tim is good at galas.
No, scratch that—Tim is great at galas. He’s been attending them ever since the age of three, when his parents first stuffed him into his little Gymboree tuxedo and gave him a stern lecture about ‘sitting quietly’ and ‘speaking when spoken to.’ He knows all the rules: what to wear, how to stand, when to smile, what to say, what not to say. He knows how to come across as polite and intelligent and charming, and on absolutely any other day, he would be rocking this.
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itslouisan · 6 months ago
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Time to have C!Techno headcannons!!!
Heyo, seems like finally I reached my 2nd favorite cc ever! I think techno's character is REALLY interesting, with great writing and details and I can definitely add some hc of my own in there, so without further ado, let's go!
(btw @syndicatedsystem you might like some of my headcannons involving Jschlatt and Techno I talk about here so yeah! Also feel free to discuss em' with me or make asks abt it, hell your blog inspires me a lot)
(I lost the name of the artist if anyone knows please tell me)
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• Techno has some braids in his hair, the longer, the more he values the person
Longest: Philza, it's braided with gold details
2nd longest: Ranboo, has a amethyst crystal for purple
Mid-term: Wilbur, he braided it in consideration of a battle friend and some good times with Will, he doesn't hate or likes Wilbur, but still can't deny they do have a connection
Shortest: Tommy.
• Techno prepared a space in the cabin for Tommy in case some day, his demons and the hell he was looking for, finally was found, he'd welcome Tommy with open arms, since he'd view that the kid suffered enough and had the time to change and face any consequences he'd need to face, the space is safe, always available, but, he'd never tell Tommy that, he keeps it hidden, he's not ready to be vulnerable to the demon child again and openly say Tommy could count on him, not until Tommy makes the first step.
• Keeps the pickaxe that blinded Quackity as a trophy, this and keeps all weapons from powerful enemies with him as a reminder of a great battle he won once again
• Likes to write poetry about people and events, he'd never give them to the person, but keep it in a dusty small box in his room in the attic of the cabin
• OKAY, LET'S ALL AGREE TECHNO IS ARO/ACE? GOOD.
• Techno was friends with Jschlatt before everything went to hell, they liked to talk about random bs while watching the fire crack at night and drink some cheap booze for Jschlatt and coffee for Techno
• I view Techno also having some boar traits, so yeah territorial as FUCK don't mess with his stuff or house, also he chases pray like crazy and can eat almost anything without a problem due to that
• Doesn't CARE for alcohol, just doesn't like the idea of having a hangover afterwards since he'd be unable to fight the next day
• Would gossip with Jschlatt, Tommy and the syndicate like, ABOUT EVERYTHING, I imagine him and Jschlatt favorite hobby is shit talking people they hate
• Techno being aro/ace also means if you flirt with him, he'll just stare at your soul and bully the shit out of you, sometimes calls Phil and/or Jschlatt to roast the shit out of the person, also WILL defend himself from any creeps and defend his friends from ANY strange people since for him touch is STRICTLY a death sentence and something that takes time
• Techno smokes when stressed or in the syndicate room, making Phil always carry an extra lighter for him just in case, the 2 used to be smoking buddies before Phil quit when he adopted Chayanne and Tallulah
• Techno in the QSMP is an entity, a god watching above everyone but never leaving Phil side and the eggs side, sometimes he'd talk to Tallulah directly, or influence Phil like a voice in his head to do the right thing in his vision or appear to Chayanne in his dreams to have a chat
• Can and will drink blood from the enemies
• Loves to talk about skulls and anatomy of the body in general, a dark fact, due to respect to Jschlatt, after he died (not considering revival, I view revival as either the decomposed body coming back to life in a LESS but STILL fucked up state or a kind of new body that is the users body in the afterlife coming to the alive realm, if you guys want, I can make a post about this) picked and kept Jschlatt sheep skull, with horns and everything
(art by sadist)
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• Would talk about historical wars and battles with his own analysis and commentaries on it, making a great history teacher
• totally collects greek mythology stuff, books, items, anything.
• Has a couple of tattoos but one that is pretty badass is a wither skull with red smoke on his ribs in the right, a tattoo of a emerald in the inside of his left wrist, a tattoo of a squid with a fork on it's head in reference to the potato war on his right wrist really tiny and "everything starts with blood" and "the voices demand blood" written in his tights
• My boy 100% has piercings due to piglin culture, around 75% of them being made of gold
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dirtytransmasc · 2 years ago
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What’s a Spider au you have that you feel is underrated and always wanted to talk about more?
my tsu'tey adopts spider au, it didn't take to my page as well as I would have liked it to. (I'm just gonna jot down whatever I think about, with little to no organization, just thoughts)
I just love it so much cause its the unlikely, grumpy, human-hating dad and his very human, ball of sunshine, son. plus, I'm disabled, I made tsu'tey disabled, and its just satisfying writing him, this man consumed by his own grief and self hatred coming around to the fact that the world is still turning, the suns still glowing, life isn't pointless, all because of this little child he can't get rid of. I see tsu'tey, had he survived, becoming a cruel recluse, not wanting to interact with anyone, wanting to hole up somewhere with his self pity as he wished he had just died, but instead he was stripped of everything and allowed to live. but now he has this little kid who loves him and couldn't live without him, who drags him out of his shell with his tiny little hands, forcing him to live after years of just barely surviving.
first tsu'tey just barely allows him around, not having the energy to push him away, but then he realizes he's one of the few people who gives the child any attention, and even in his prick state, can't cast the child aside to be alone. then he becomes a sort of mentor, teaching spider to be one with his spirit, his na'vi spirit bottled up in a human body. he was the one who taught spider the ways of eywa and The People, how to shoot a bow, how to hunt, how to sing and partake in the village's customs, how to fight. spider becomes a little tsu'tey, and tsu'tey becomes a whole new version of himself. tsu'tey himself finds he is much less burdened by hate and anger once he truly takes to spider, he's happier, he has a purpose again.
both are able to act almost in unison, knowing each other's habits, spider practically copying his dad, tsu'tey leaning into spider's personal spins on said copying. both are creatures of spontaneous habit, they do just about the same thing every day, might mix it up here and there, but not by much. they end up spending more time quietly enjoying one another's company, finishing each other's tasks, sentences when they do talk. its almost uncanny how similar they are, throwing other's off around them.
its not like they don't talk, its just that basic things go unsaid, tsu'tey doesn't need to ask for spider to pass his bow when they go out hunting or to stand behind him during conflict around the village. spider doesn't need tsu'tey to praise him, the look in his eyes is more than enough (though he always does), he doesn't need to ask his dad for a hug, he just knows, he doesn't need to tell him which way to go when he's tracking, they just read each other's bodies and went with the flow. that's truly what makes them so odd to be around, the perfect ebb and flow of either person, especially one na'vi and one human.
their lack of need to communicate basic things, leaves room for all sorts of conversation. stories, philosophy, songs, random info dumping from spider, lessons from tsu'tey. they love to debate the meaning of eywa's stories, the intention she has for the people, the state of the village and its leaders. not only are they warriors, but they are shit talkers, ex-olo'eyktan and ex-'son' of the now-chief, its a potent mix. spider picks up tsu'tey's love/hate relationship with just about everything that has to do with the village; he loves its dearly, would die for it, for jake and neytiri and the kids, but their is this shield of animosity, of deserved distaste, if only ever so mild. he has his qualms, but they never outweigh the love in his heart. in short, they are both a massive pain in the ass for jake, always yelling at him or critiquing how he does things, generally just being annoying. (jake needs them to go on a hunting trip or something, cause the level of criticism he gets is ridiculous, and he needs a break)
spider is still friends with the sully kids, but he is much more deeply ingrained in the village, as the unofficial son of the unofficial right-hand man of the chief. kiri is still his person, lo'ak is still his best friend, tuk is his partner in crime and unofficial little sister, neteyam is still like an older brother figure watching over him when he is with the sully kids. but spider is friends with most of the village kids, particularly tarsem, tsu'tey's younger brother.
the two grew up next to one another, tsu'tey introduced them shortly after spider wormed his way into the older mans heart, as he needed someone to tire the little one out when he couldn't keep. tarsem took to the little thing quickly, dubbing him his little brother, that is until he saw how tsu'tey looked at the boy with pride, then he started calling him his nephew.
within a year or two of taking spider under his wing he started taking the kid up to the lab himself, instead of meeting the scientist halfway. he would tuck the kid in, tell him stories, make sure he was soundly asleep and even then he would sit and watch, running big blue fingers through his whispy blonde hair, finding a smile on his face when the kid latches to his hand. norm has had to make sure he's wearing his mask on more than one occasion because the warrior has fallen asleep with the boy curled up in his side. he basically takes up all care of the boy, managing his curfew, meals, training, most of his education, and whatever else norm and max squabble to him about. its not hard, spider eats anything you put in front of him, takes pride in his lessons and training (cause who wouldn't want to be trained by tsu'tey, he holds it above all his friends heads), he loves when just about anyone messes with his hair, and overall he just likes being with his dad, so he never has much of an argument to anything he says. so spider is almost completely independent from the other humans at hellsgate or even the sully family.
spider is still blessed (by eywa, basically, pandora snow white), child of eywa (she nags him, like a mom, constantly), and hella fucking strong (cause boys gotta keep up). so tsu'tey is always caught marveling at the boy; watching him pull back a bow the size of himself, watching him romp and play with the most ferocious of creatures, have close-knit bonds with the giants of the forest, so divinely connected to eywa, speaking of her as if she was truly his mother, connecting to her in ways he had never seen before. spider was his special boy through and through, and he thanked eywa for him each and every day; that boy is the reason he lived, the reason he kept waking up each day, the reason he smiled again, the reason he continued in believing in the goodwill of the Great Mother again.
spider worries for tsu'tey a lot, despite how strong he is, he's still forever scarred by the injuries he sustained in battle. his dad is almost always in some amount of pain, his lungs are forever weak, his ability to bond and connect with his pali and ikran greatly diminished by the pain and fog that plagued him. the first few years, especially before he started to truly take care of himself, he would often collapse, coughing up blood, as his body protested being pushed past its limit. even as tsu'tey accepted his limits, doing his best to stay in good shape for spider's well-being, he still worried. he always tries to support his dad, taking up lots of village chores and insisting on cutting back on hunts or training when he's having a bad day, making up poor excuses when tsu'tey asks why. as he got older he accepted that this was just how life was going to be for his dad, how it would most likely not get any better, but as a young child he softened feared he was going to lose him. he would sleep with his ear to his dads chest, listening to the strong beat of his heart, assuring himself he was still there. he would beg him through tears not to leave him too, making tsu'tey's heart ache. now that he's older he is far less worried about him dying, much more worried about losing him to his own mind, again. tsu'tey isn't unaware of his child worry, but no matter how hard he tries, what he says or does, spider won't let him lift that burden from his shoulders. they're both stubborn, sometimes he loves that about his boys, and other times it's quite the opposite.
when tsu'tey is having a bad night, particularly with his lungs, spider will drag him up to hells gate, so he's forced to use his respirator, and have movie nights with him. its just an excused to pile all the blankets and pillows he can find onto the shitty matress in the media room and sleep in his dads arms, knowing that if anything happens, norm and max are only a shout away. plus, its kinda funny watching tsu'tey get all teary-eyed over earth films.
tsu'tey visits sylwanin a lot, and he always dresses spider as if he is their son, the son they never got to have. once spider finds a way to connect with The Great Mother, through her roots, he visits her as well. spider begins to treat her as his mom and she treats him like her son. they're a little family, even if separated by the veil between life and death.
I can't think of anything else about them, at the moment, but i would totally take asks for this au if anyone wants to know anything else.
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eliazspaceart · 6 months ago
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Routine
[Before the MC]
Derek's routines were always the same, only varying by person, event, and actions. It was a really stressful life because, if I remember correctly, his father still abused and pressured him a lot, which also stressed and angered him.
On his father's recommendation, he sent Derek to the auction and his desert vacation to vent all that stress on someone else without ruining his image directly. His father also gave him a house just to ensure he wouldn't ruin anything out of anger.
So yes, he was alone, angry, alone, with money, alone, with influence, but still alone. Derek simply forgot the true quality of life, living a draining routine that consumed him, and then going to the desert just to feel "free." At first, it worked; he felt good, it was liberating, but subtly he started to feel bad (not for the victims), a bit inferior, but he ignored that and continued with his killings.
[At the auction]
He was excited, another worthless piece of meat to be sold, another person, another victim, another target for his uncontrollable anger.
But no, it wasn't that. It was just a scared and confused child, trying to be a good kid by doing what those people said. He wanted to just get up and leave and tell everyone to go to hell like he always did.
But he didn't. He was a sadistic bastard who always killed people once a year, so why should he care about this random kid? But he did. In a strange way, he felt empathy for that child. Maybe because he simply felt bad for him. It was really confusing for him, but for now, his goal was to take care of that child.
The auction started, and the child was obedient, responding kindly and softly. This really caught Celia's attention, so she placed the first bid. After that, Derek doubled Celia's price, and there was a five-minute bidding war. In the end, the auctioneer let the child choose on their own.
The child chose Derek, which made Derek happy for his ego. He won.
He won.
"...I won..."
[Journey to the house]
In the luxurious limousine, Derek was looking at the child beside him. The child was wearing a seatbelt and had a blanket over them, still anesthetized. Did he just adopt? No, of course not. He simply bought the child out of pity, maybe to not feel...
alone?
Maybe.
In the car, he canceled his vacation and decided to focus on the child, making them comfortable and ensuring they wouldn't feel scared when they regained consciousness. That was what Derek thought.
[At the house]
Derek carried the child in his arms and took them to an empty room, about two doors down from Derek's room. He laid the child on the bed and left.
He called a maid and informed her that there was a child in that room, asking her to watch over and calm the child when they woke up. He also mentioned to give the child something to eat and drink.
Derek went to his room, sat on the edge of his bed, and looked at his hands. What the hell was he going to do now? He had never taken care of a child, nor had he thought about it. He didn't have an exact guide, and it's not like he had the best father in the world as an example. He only took the child to inflate his fleeting ego, just to...
win.
He won.
Derek sighed heavily and put his hands over his face. He had to spend a lot of money and create a believable story... and try not to get killed by his father in the process.
Everything he did was just to...
win.
He won.
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And as always, thank you for reading this. It really makes me happy that you like the things I write.💙
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blue-razzslushie · 6 months ago
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Hogwart Legacy AU: Prof.Sharp
Hey chat, how would you feel if I said I forgot I was doing the deep dive of characters with my MC? I was busy dragging myself out of art block but HERE WE GO!!! (I picked this one via a spin wheel, this one is longer then the others ones I've done because firstly my MC is closer with this John Wick wannabe then the others I've done so there's more to write, and secondly because I may or may not be making a fanfic for these two losers, so I have more ideas etc ^^
First Impression:
Sharp:
✭He's heard a lot about the new student even before entering his class, Survived a Dragon attack and first day of classes saving Hogsmeade from Trolls?? Impressive sure but. . . Problem child much??
✭Pretty skilled with potions for a first timer, Not to mention the fact that they managed to stay on task even after Mr.Weasleys attempt at persuasion. Yet again Impressive, and impressing this man is like taking a Dungbog.
Rory:
✭Honestly didn't understand the constant talk about the professor once actually meeting him. They've heard him get called Intimidating, which is true, then again they've faced a troll and an enchanted armor. However, he isn't purposely cruel like they've heard. . . He's just blunt. Just like them fr!
✭Almost immediately one of their favorite professors, straight to the point. That's how they liked it. They liked potions anyway, its like baking in a way. . . They like baking :]
Overall Dynamic/Relationship:
✭ah yes, the classic and never old trope of a grumpy ass man taking a traumatized child under his wing. Starts off as a Mentor and Apprentice Duo, changes into a Adoptive father child duo. [Which they both PROFUSELY DENY for as long as possible] Y'all know it, you love it, it's great. Don't lie you know it's great
✭Mfs are literally same person different font prove me wrong. Sarcastic, Grumpy asf, Straight to the point, PAINFULLY blunt. Like come on man! They give Joel and Ellie or like Batman and Nightwing istg prove me wrong it's impossible.
Over the storyline [Also Fanfic lore!!]:
I don't really mind spoiling parts of the thing I'm writing, if anything it'll help people understand the relationship more!! So here on out I'm gonna talk about my AU so there will be interactions out of game!! It isn't apart of canon!! [Theses events begin to take place after the first trial]
✭One of the most important things Sharp was well known for, his miraculous perception and observance skills. Over the first half of the semester, the Potions Professor clearly noticed things the other staff didn't
✭The new 5th year always seemed to be running in and out of school, Barely making it to classes and at times not attending them at all. Every time, Fig always somehow had a alibi or excuse for them. Not to mention they somehow always have bruises or other random marks on them.
✭Nobody was that clumsy, especially them, he's seen them before and they are in no way a clutz who rams into things as they claim to be.
✭Let me tell you, His spidey senses were TINGLING.
✭Something was going on here, something behind the lines. He was going to find out what, that's for damn sure. If a student is in danger, he'll get to the bottom of it. Damn firm sense of justice
✭First thing he tried to do was ask the Fig about it, as he seems to be knowing more then he's letting on. Especially with his odd request for the potions master to try and find out whatever he could about the Goblins for Merlin's sake
✭Professor sharp MAY have implyed either Fig is purposely putting the student in danger or he didn't care about them all too much. As you would expect, that didn't settle so well, tense conversation turned to a heated argument. Ending it with a slam of a door and getting absolutely no where in his investigation.
✭He could ask the student directly, but judging by how stubborn they are. He doubts he would get a straight answer. . . If one at all. Not like he could tell the headmaster without any proper proof then a suspicious feeling, as if the irritating man would listen.
✭He was at a standstill, deciding to take a walk to thing. . .when he paused at seeing a disillusioned student walking around the main hall. . .wait a minute is that
✭It was Rory, speak of the devil. As he would with any other student he confronted them, after all this hadn't been the first time they've been caught by staff sneaking around at the dead of night. He ultimately decided a weeks worth of detention was suitable, he was in a mood okay give him a break
✭Rory of course was NOT pleased by this news, they had things to do. Ancient magic to discover, trials to prepare for, Demiguise statues to find!! They didn't have the time to scrub cauldrons!! Nevertheless they had to go, despite Figs protests to sharp which fell on dead ears
✭The detentions were. . .not as horrible as expected to say the least. Instead of scrubbing cauldrons the entire time, it became more of a extra class. Sharp, in his downtime brewed potions for the hospital wing and. . . Another project for the headmaster. He always did it himself but since they were here, why not get the kid to help him out a bit? Get ingredients for him, mince them, juice horklumps etc,,,
✭Sharp, for some unknown reason sort of enjoyed the students presence. They were helpful, but not a pushover. Respectful, but also seemed to have a sense of humor judging by the few sarcastic back and forths. They seemed to actually like to learn, being a fast learner at that. A wonderful quality when he began to actually sort of Mentor them with things other then Potions
✭Rory sorta felt the same way, it was a simpler thing to do that week, something that while not being optional was still enjoyable. Turns out the professor has a LOT of story's about His Auror days he surprisingly seems fond of speaking of. While he does emphasize the dangers and tribulations of the job, he doesn't seem to have hated it. If anything it still seems like just as much of a passion as it was when he was an Auror. Maybe they could be an Auror someday. . .
✭After the weeks detentions were over, It was almost a silent agreement that Rory could still return to help and learn a few tips. That was until around winter [aka, after the third trial]. They seemed to act a bit different, More anxious and jumpy. Slowly beginning to not return as much to the classroom. The Professor didn't mind, Whatever, they have their own things to do. However don't think Sharp forgot about the odd behavior from earlier this year, he still knew something was going on. Still kept a good eye on them
✭Rory after the confrontation with Ranrok and the Loss of Lodgok, unfortunately ran out of wiggenwelds and was in no shape to get to the ROR. So It wasn't until they walked into the potions classroom at 3 in the morning under the impression that the Potions Professor was already gone, drenched in blood did all hell broke loose
✭WHAT. WHEN. HOW. IS THAT A ENTIRE CHUNK OUT OF THEIR ARM MISSING???? WHY ARE THEY MORE CONCERNED ABOUT HIM BEING MAD????Safe to say the Professor wasn't pleased to see the student on their deathbed. After getting a few potions in them, it was the quickest this man has moved towards the nearest floo flame to the Hospital Wing
✭Next morning Sharp DEMANDED answers. They tried to pass it off as a wrong place but come on he isn't that daft!! Same time he was trying to push answers out of them, fig came to visit! That made his mood somehow sour more. How was this man so calm? This kid almost died!?
✭The Professors got into a squabble like schoolchildren until Rory had to break it up, promising the professor answers later. Nurse Blainey shooing him out of hospital Wing for "trying to interrogate a patient at 8AM". Sharp was pissed, but decided to be patient. He swears to Merlin if he gets another blatant lie he is going to throw a FIT.
✭He got answers. . . But it wasn't anything he was expecting. Ancient magic? Goblins?? Ranrok?? He had to sit down for a moment istg. This kid was single handedly trying to save the wizarding world while SOMEHOW KEEPING IT UNDER WRAPS? If he wasn't so damn worried and downright flabbergasted he would be genuinely proud.
✭He was asked to keep it on the downlow for now, by both Fig and the student. He honestly didn't know what to do, so he just vowed to help as much as he could. Much to Figs dismay of course. . .
✭He got radio silence from both the kid and their mentor for the next day. Seemingly to vanish off the face of the bloody earth. It wasn't until Professor Weasley was pounding on his door yelling about an attack on the school did things become more tense. Of course Rory had something to do with this. . . Didn't they?
✭Rest of the battle of hogwarts goes as usual, wasn't until the goblins began to actually fall back did the professor set his mind on the kid again. Attempting to find them, and eventually he did!! Yay!! He found them in the slowly but surely collapsing cavern, more distraught and upset then he had ever seen. Oh. . . Not yay
✭Fig was dead, they were in the middle of having a blown panic attack. This wasn't what he was hoping to come back to. He tried to help as much as possible, wasn't too much help tho. He was never good with emotions
✭Rory felt dizzy, fuzzy. . .like really fuzzy. It was like they weren't in control of their own body. After a moment if struggle passing out themself. Which the potions professor. . .absolutely wigged out. Eventually the other professors showed up just in time. . . Well not really
Aftermath/Future:
✭Rory was apparently in a small coma, damage to the head, body over exhausted, not to mention a concussion and several other severe wounds. They were inthe hospital Wing for a good few days
✭To say the professor was worried was a rather huge understatement. Besides Professor Weasley he was up in the Hospital Wing the most. Killed his leg, but that wasn't on his mind. As much as he knows he liked the kid, it felt odd to feel this worried about someone. Ever since his partner died (who aka in my Au was a brother to him) , he's never really felt so concerned, He hid it under a scowl tho
✭Once Rory woke up, they got their ear chewed off for not coming to him with this sooner, not being careful, giving him a heart attack. And also they unfortunately got the harsh demand of a full explanation, nothing left out. They agreed (thank Merlin he did NOT have the patience to fight with them on it anymore)
✭The next week or two they did not leave this man's sight. It only got worse after they managed to sneak out of the castle with Mrs.Onai and defeat Harlow. He was totally correct in his first assumption they were a problem child. If they tried to get out if the castle, "And just where do you think you're running off to?".
✭After the school year ended, and the MANY meetings with the ministry were over. Sharp was officially given the role of Rory's new mentor to help catch then up over the Summer. Not that neither of them had a problem with that of course. . . He did have a few more stories to share after all
I AM SO SORRY THIS IS SO LONG, I HAVE BEEN HYPER FIXATING ON THEM SO BAD AND LIKE GUH. Curse my cringe ass Parental issues. But anyway, Probably going to start writing the fic I mentioned now that this is gonna be posted. I have an outline for what I'm writing so it'll be nice! Still expect a few drawings here and there dw!!
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angst-king · 4 months ago
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A man by many names Pt 10
(Can't believe we've made it to chp 10 ^-^ hope you like it so far) (CW mentions vomit, description of panic attack, bullying/torture) There was something familiar about you and your name, to Katsuki. It was clear you weren’t Izuku’s biological child, but why would he adopt a random kid? Why did your name sound like he’d heard it before?
“Hey Katsuki you wanted to look into the latest missing child case, right? Here” A small stack of papers was set beside him letting him know a file had been sent to his computer as well. He checked it out. They needed him to unscramble the photos used for the missing child poster. As he worked he watched the pieces come together, each set of pixels was like puzzle pieces being connected. Slowly with time the image became clearer, he furrowed his brows in disbelief. Now he knew why you looked familiar. But that didn’t answer why you were with Izuku, why would he take a child? Then he remembered the broadcast, he was the villain, and Izuku was Devour! He said that you had come to him after being kicked out, but could Katsuki truly believe that? Why would he take an interest in you all because you ran up to him for help? Why go through all this trouble for you?
It was a late night on patrol, and Katsuki wanted answers, he god damn it he was gonna get’em! He remembered Izuku’s route, and this time came on a less busy patrol time in hopes that would lure Izuku to him. He didn’t know much about Izuku’s villainy, he kept himself pretty low profile until now. No one had true reports of his appearance or witnesses of what he had done before all of this! He had heard around the area rumors about him or what might be him. Many locals said there was a person leaving mangled body parts. Very few reports spoke of seeing a tall figure hovered over a body. All he’d have to do is wait!
So he did, and it seemed like clockwork that he came around 1 am. A tall figure hopped from a roof and into the alleyway, the light jingle of the bag’s zippers echoed. The feet padded around until Katsuki turned on his flashlight. Yup even through the mask and hoodie he recognized those green eyes anywhere!
“Izuku?” Izuku froze and sneered, preparing to run in a moment’s notice, he put his guard ready to fight. Katsuki held his hands up defensively as he got closer.
“Ey ey I’m not gonna arrest you or whatever, I’ve just got questions.” Izuku backed towards the wall glaring daggers at Katsuki.
“No, i’m not answering shit” Then Katsuki grabbed him by the shoulder again to keep him from running and yanked in towards himself. He saw a look of fear flash in Izuku’s eyes, then a fist collided with his stomach. He let go before a set of teeth could come down on his wrist again.
“Shit that fucking hurts, what the fuck don’t bite me, you asshole!” “Don’t fucking grab me next time bitch.” Izuku spat and tried to get away again but this time Katsuki grabbed him by the bag swung him around into a corner and towered over him.
He grits his teeth in frustration, staring down at the green-haired man, and blocks his path.
“You either answer me or I arrest you.”
“Oh? For what?” Izuku asked snidely
“For withholding the missing child (y/n)” Izuku froze and looked up at him. He quickly tried to compose himself as anger coursed through him.
“And why do you think I have them?” “Because I fixed the photos they have of them, and they match the name and face of the child with you the other day.” With that information Izuku tried anything he could to get away, he didn’t want to tell Katsuki anything. He would probably have him arrested no matter what he told him. That bastard created years of his suffering, why in the hell would he cooperate now?
“Look I won't turn you in if you answer my questions, I won't say a damn word to anyone.” “And why should I trust you or give a damn?” Izuku asked bitterly being arrested in and of itself wasn’t the bad part. It was leaving you without anyone, of course, it had been set up that if anything happened then Dabi and Toga would look after you but. He knew neither of them could do it for very long.
“I want to help” Izuku ‘tch’ed and chuckled rolling his eyes at the blond’s proclamation.
“Yeah, you? Help? Don’t joke, you’re bad at them.” “I’m serious Izuku, I know you did the broadcast, and hearing just the confession from that sick fuck made me wanna vomit…How they could do something like that to a child.” “Yeah yeah, you’re real concerned, you’re still the same guy who tortured me for the majority of my childhood, so why would I trust you with that information? It seems like you haven’t changed either. Still a loud-mouth lunatic who has no respect for anyone.” Izuku squirmed and writhed beneath Katsuki, trying to find a weak spot to exploit so he could get away but Kasuki wouldn’t let him.
“Look I know I was horrible back then but, come on, its my job, and my kid’s friends with yours.” Izuku huffed, he knew Katsuki wouldn’t let him go until he answered him, just like in middle school.
“Fine.”
They sat down on the pavement to talk since Izuku refused to feel caged in.
“Alright, ask.” “Is it true (Y/n) came to you willingly?”
“Yeah, I didn’t kidnap them. The first time I found them outside wandering around in the dark, had to keep them safe. We kept meeting up every so often causes those shit bags kept kicking them out to party, so i kept watch.” “Why are you going after them, why not report them to the police?” “Because the police and detectives won't do shit and can be easily bought out with money.” Katsuki raised a brow, he could sense there was more to this answer than Izuku was giving.
“Didn’t think you had a soft spot for kids?” “I didn’t think you’d still be a hero but look where we are?” Izuku quipped folding his arms over his chest.
“You just didn't seem like the type to take in a random child and put yourself out there for one. I mean if you really are a villain, you must’ve been a quiet one, and now you’re in the spotlight anonymously or not. All for some kid” Izuku went quiet to him, you weren’t ‘some kid’, it sounded stupid but. You were his everything, his reason for living! You made him happy, you gave him purpose! He loved coming home to see the pictures you’ve drawn, or sitting on the couch and watching Bluey with you. He loved seeing you happy, hearing your feet pitter-pattering around when you got excited about something. Your big eyes lit up when he got you ice cream. He liked being the person to protect you, to show you the world didn’t have to be so horrible and scary.
“I…I like giving (Y/N) the chance at life and protection I never got. I strive to deliver the justice the adults around me failed to even try for.” He murmured while leaning back against the cold cement wall behind him. His eyes looked at the ground as a small smile crept onto his face behind the mask.
“Huh? Speak up dude, I’m going deaf” Izuku huffed and explained
“No one stood up for me, not my peers, not our teachers, principal, or my own mother. No one. I suffered that torture at the hands of them all. All they did was watch or turn away when I begged and pleaded for help as you treated me like nothing but a roach.” Katsuki knew what izuku meant, and remembered their school days. He wasn’t wrong, the teachers practically allowed it to happen, they punished Izuku for even speaking up at times!
“My mother was my only reason for living, I killed myself both mentally and physically numerous times but each time. She encouraged me to keep going, to find something, anything to hold onto. She may not have done anything when it came to justice but, she never belittled me or made me quit. As long as I didn’t lose myself, she would still love me.”
“Would she still love you if she knew you turned out to be a villain?” Katsuki asked, though he knew it came out rude, Izuku still replied.
“…..yes….at least the one I am now, I don’t think she would disapprove.”
He adjusted his mask and took glances at Katsuki who seemed to be taking in what he said.
“I was left for the wolves all my life, and I can’t stand by to watch another child go through anything similar if I can help it. When (Y/n) came to my house on the verge of unconsciousness burned and bloodied, I saw myself. I saw a small innocent being clinging on to life that people were trying to smash. I saw myself, I saw a child with who no one was bothering to reach out, they were turning a blind eye all over again. I couldn’t allow that.” As Izuku spoke he stammered and began to feel himself get choked up, tears welled his his eyes but he wouldn’t cry in front of Katsuki. He refused to do that long ago, he hated for anyone to see him like this.
Katsuki nodded along, it did sort of hurt to realize just how much he hurt Izuku back then, and how it lingered into his life now. He could feel the emotion even if Izuku tried to sound unbothered. He could still see everything he had done as he spoke. He could remember the countless days Izuku would come to school trembling in his uniform. He remembered Izuku’s screams, how he’d reach his hand out towards others for help, and they’d turn away from him with looks of disgust. As if he had a disease they didn’t want to catch. He remembered his muffled cries as he forced his head into the koi fish pond. Izuku’s arms and legs flailed as he drowned.
The days he came back to school bandaged up with dead tired eyes. Hell, he walked in on Izuku trying to slit his throat once and what did Katsuki do? Called him a worthless waste of space who wouldn’t even be able to kill himself correctly. It truly was a miracle Izuku was even alive and well, physically well that is, mentally it was obviously he wasn’t.
“I-i…..I’m…” Dammit Katsuki come on! Say it! You waited this fucking long, you may never get this chance ever again! Damn, his throat felt like it was closing up when he tried to apologize. The weight of realization was crushing him, the realization that nothing would be able to fix what they had.
“I-i’m sorry…Izuku.” It was hardly a whisper.
“Don’t waste your time or breath” Izuku said firmly, Katsuki looked at him with confusion. Didn’t he want an apology after all he did?
“Your words mean nothing, your actions say everything.” Well, Katsuki couldn’t argue with that sentiment, actions did speak louder than words. But how would he prove it to him.
“You keep our little secret and I wont kill you.” He wagered, Katsuki nodded in agreement. They sat in silence for a moment. It weighed over them like a blanket of snow before Izuku sent a side eye his way and asked.
“Are you done interrogating me?” Katsuki’s eyes darted to him and he sighed heavily.
“Yeah, yeah I am.” With that, Izuku stood up with a stretch, adjusted his backpack, and started to head for the roof.
“Ey, isn’t this your territory?” Izuku rolled his eyes at his question.
“I’m not hunting with the likes of you or your stupid lil friends around.” Damn, that was cold, but before Katsuki could say anything Izuku climbed back up the side of the building and onto the roof into the darkness.
Katsuki was now alone, alone with his thoughts. He couldn’t help the maul over everything. His childhood friend still saw him the same after all these years, what did he expect though? If Katsuki had been in his situation he’d probably do the same. What he did was practically torture! He brought Izuku to the point of suicide many times and now after years apart, he expects Izuku to just accept his apology? No! No. Izuku was right he was gonna half to prove it.
Sitting on the sidewalk Katsuki looked through pictures on his phone and found one of him and his child together.
“I’ll do better, I’ll prove it, I promise.”
He eventually continued on with the rest of his patrol until it was time to go home.
(pov change)
Izuku was glad to finally get away from him, he thought his heart was going to explode or abruptly stop altogether! When he got on the roof he collapsed to his knees clutching his chest and gasping for air! Fucking hell his anxiety was still just as horrible as ever! His chest felt heavy and tight as if someone were squeezing the air out of him. It hurt it hurt so much! He wasn’t even hungry for cannibal food or interested in hunting anymore. His entire body was tremoring, and his stomach sloshed nauseously until he found himself hunched over vomiting.
Just being around Katsuki made him ill, now he knew everything, or well everything pertaining to the situation with you and him. Not to mention he poured his feelings out to Katsuki, oh gods just remembering what he said made him wanna puke again. His vision was blurring and his mind started to become fuzzy. Shivering and shaking with tears down his face and sitting beside a puddle of his own sick. He hated this he hated this so damn much.
It took him a while to get off that rooftop, but he knew he had to get off before sunrise. He house-hopped until he found the convenience store. Grabbed himself an instant ramen pack and some meat on a stick, along with a soda. He ate his late-night dinner in an alleyway to calm himself down and give him the strength to get back home.
Once again he climbed in through the window and went to go and check on you. When he saw you fast asleep in your bed he smiled, you had struggled with sleeping on your own for a while. Often sleeping in his bed when you felt scared, tonight must have been an easy night for you. Izuku brushed your hair out of your face and pulled the blankets over you with a soft look in his eyes. He then went to get himself ready for bed now that he was coming down from his anxiety.
He took a nice long hot shower, washing off the blood from previous kills. Brushed his teeth to get the sourness out of his mouth, and changed into some comfortable clothes before climbing into bed. Damn, he loved his bed why did he ever leave it? Closing his eyes he was ready to let sleep take him.
But it didn’t his mind was still racing. He wanted to know whether Katsuki was genuine with his apology, he wanted to know why he truly wanted to get involved. Why did he care? Why did he bother to listen to his spiel? Was he going to tell everyone about this? What would this mean for them? Would you be safe now? Would the heroes come looking for you? Katsuki had now given them a clear photo of what you looked like so they would start looking for you. Was he planning an ambush? Would you and him have to move? He hoped not he needed to be able to continue his plan, but he also wanted to keep you safe!
Oh fucking hell just go to sleep, Izuku!
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the weirdest fucking thing just happened - a storytime on tumblr
OKAY. SO. HERE WE GO. THIS WAS... SOMETHING.
so pretty much my father is the co-owner of a small little cafe(since his brother, and my uncle was the owner and they're super close) that's named after the name of my grandfather, so lets just call it... Cup's. [[ REDACTED ]]. i like to help the both of them cook things(despite often setting things on fire.) and take some orders. HERE'S WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING.
very few of the customers know i'm the adopted kid of the co-owner of the place, who i'll call Salmon. him, the co-owner, works there as an employee as well. one day, on a weekend, this random Karen and her bratty kid walk in. now, as it was a weekend, it was a bit busy. i'm usually just a waiter on these kinds of days, since i'm no good under pressure, especially with food. i walk over to the Karen's table, with this usual dumb, big smile, and receive there order. now, i don't exactly remember what she ordered, probably a sandwich or something, and i went to the kitchen to give her order. i was standing next to the register with this nice dude who worked there, looking for people that needed anything, and then i spot the kid, running around, screaming, stepping on people's feat, touching, eating, and knocking over people's food. the mother didin't seem to care, and was now very annoyed by this, and i put my hand on the kid's shoulder while he was running. and just stared at him, and told him not to run around in the best voice i could muster, and he started crying and ran back to his mother.
(guys i'm notorious for making 5 year olds cry in a Walmart with my neutral expression that looks like a death glare don't judge me)
his mother was fuming because of this, and came to me stomping, and this is how the conversation went down. the entitled mother said, "How dare you stop my child?" Me: "He was running around and was annoying other people, didn't you see? He was touching their food!" Entitled Mother: "He's a child! He can do whatever he wants to do!" Me: "Well, yea, but not unless under supervision." Entitled Mother: "Do you even KNOW WHO I AM?" Me Thinking: "Ah, sh*t, here we go again. I've seen enough of this to know how *THIS* is gonna go." I knew what was gonna happen, so i thought of playing along. Me: "No, ma'am, i don't." Entitled Mother: "Well then you should know i am the WIFE OF THE OWNER OF THIS RESTURANT! And you have made a HUGE mistake and i will make sure your face will NEVER be seen here again, because you're getting fired!" Me, thinking in my head: "HUH?! I thought she'd go for a sister or friend but she went for a wife, and now we're gonna have some fun." "Ma'am, I don't think you even know his-" (imma call my dad by 'salmon') Entitled Mother: "HIS NAME IS SALMON!" i was kinda shocked that she knows my dad's name. very few people knew that anyway. Me: "Ma'am, i'm very sorry i acted rude towards your son, but please, don't get me fired." Entitled Mother: "Well, you should have thought about that before you stopped my son from having fun." Me: "B-But ma'am, he was anno-" Entitled Mother: "SHUT UP!!" i don't do very well against someone yelling at me, so i was literally about to just cry right then and there..... she goes to the register and asks for the manager. my dad came out and talked to her about what happened since my uncle was out sick. Entitled Mother: "Your employee has been harassing my son! I want him fired NOW!" Salmon looked at me and said, My Dad/Salmon: "I'm sorry for the inconvenience, but i can't just fire them without any reason." Entitled Mother: "Do you even know who you're talking to? I'm the wife of the owner of Cup's! And i can't stand the employee here." my dad got the biggest grin on his face and started laughing. Entitled Mother: "WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING?" My Dad/Salmon: "I'm sorry, i'm telling you, again, i'm sorry for the inconvenience caused, would you like to have a refund?" the entitled mother went into total rage mode. Entitled Mother: "You know what?! I'm calling my husband, and complaining about you and your employee, i will get BOTH of you FIRED!" now the way that she got my dad's phone number is because we had it on a board outside as we gave home deliveries so that people would order on call and you would get it dropped off. so she called that phone number, and my dad's phone rang. Karen, the E.M., was shocked. he picked up the phone, and with this smug Hat Kid smile, said, My Dad/Salmon: "Yello, this is the co-owner of Cup's, how can i help you?" Karen's face went from red to complete white. like if blood was drained from her. he then said, My Dad/Salmon: "Yes, I'm the co-owner and the manager of Cup's, and you, are in no way me or my brother's wife, and the employee you want to be fired is my child." she looked at me, and i just could not hold back my laughter anymore. and just then, her order was ready. but until then, she was already embarrassed enough with the whole time, her kid crying in the background. she dragged her kid crying by the arm, and didin't even take the order. i got to eat her order after that while sitting outside. :)
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graysonshmayson · 1 year ago
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summary - basically dick has a secret reddit account where he vagues in the AITA forum about his family issues. inspired by tim's reddit chronicles by @batposts but they deleted their account :( RIP i'll love u forever, spleen guy
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a/n- very little editing but fun i promise. check out the whole thing on ao3! or read it on here. i guess.
AITA for resenting my little brother?
So first, a little background. I (M19) was taken in (not ever legally adopted, but that's another story) when I was 9 by my dad (M38) after my parents died. His parents also died when he was a kid, so he was able to help me a lot with my anger issues after it happened and find my place in the world. One of the main ways he did that was by letting me help with the family business. He initially didn’t want me involved because I was too young, but I was stubborn and made a whole position for myself that I worked really hard for. I’d like to think that eventually, he saw me not just as a son, but as a partner. But by the time I was 18, I felt like he was far too controlling and still saw me as a kid. I felt that I wasn’t respected as an equal, and it started to cause a bunch of fights until eventually I had enough and left. I moved in with some friends and we started our own business. I completely reinvented myself just to stop getting associated with him and make a name for my own. 
We didn’t talk for a long time, until I finally caved and started helping out with family stuff here and there, but it's still tense. Then, not even a YEAR after I left, I went back to the house and found a random child in the home. He adopted another kid (who literally looks like me too?) without asking or even telling me. I know it's not like I need to give him permission to adopt a child, but I wish he’d at least talked to me about it, you know? But by the time I met the kid, J (M10), the paperwork had already been finalized and I had a little brother. The real kicker is that he had taken my position in the family business. The one that I made myself to help mourn the loss of my murdered parents? Anyway, so my dad, who has the emotional intelligence of packing peanuts, barely said anything about my new brother. No apologies for replacing him in my position or anything. He just explained J’s background which is, admittedly, rough. And I really feel bad for not liking him because he’s a good kid and he really does look up to me and wants to spend time with me as brothers, but every time I see him I can’t help but be reminded by how my dad replaced me in business and in his life. I was even told that my dad almost gave him my old room (we’re very well off and have plenty of extra rooms). I’m not exactly mad at the kid, but so many of his little comments about what my dad does with him that he didn’t want to do with me hurts. Am I the asshole?
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etherealnoir · 1 year ago
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Found Ep. 7 Thoughts
Spoiler Warning!
So this wasn't my favorite episode. While I did like the show bringing attention to Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls (sort of...it would've been nice for them to add an info card or something at the end of the episode, but ok), the episode itself left a lot to be desired.
TL;DR: The highlight of this episode was learning more about Hugh's abandonment triggers, because I feel like it added a ton of context to his behavior in the past and in this episode. Everything else was a chop. I feel like they spent too much time on some things (Trent), not enough on others (Lacey), and overlooked a lot of things as well (Gabi being held accountable).
I wrote a lot, but please feel free to skip to whatever part you care the most about lol
1. The Story
It felt weirdly disjointed and all over the place. The natal doctor being the culprit at the end, despite there being NO previous indicators, kind of annoyed me. It was lazy to have it be this random man we barely saw, with a motivation we learned about in the last 5 minutes. They could've EASILY introduced that he worked with many indigenous/marginalized people early in the episode and also mentioned that he lost his own child.
It would've made more sense if he was a part of a ring of people taking babies of color and putting them up for adoption--because that's a thing that actually happens. I feel like they were originally going to have the culprit be the neighbor whose brother lost his baby and blamed it on Aida. As sort of like an eye-for-an-eye thing. But then they realized it'd probably look bad if a bunch of Non-Indigenous people demonized an Indigenous woman like that, so they changed it at the last minute.
2. Lacey
Lacey is always severely underutilized, but this time it felt just sadly egregious. They emphasized that Lacey was uncomfortable with being in the area because of the kidnapping, but...that was about it. It would've been a good opportunity to show a flashback of Lacey and Gabi together as children, or even a great chance to show Gabi and Lacey connecting over their shared experience in adulthood. Better yet, it would've been the perfect time to explore how the kidnapping has affected Lacey in adulthood, because it's clear it presents as a fear more intense than Gabi's.
Also her randomly kicking in the door and rushing into the house was odd, no matter how much they said in-show that it was ooc. Sometimes it feels like scenes are cut out that would add clarity to the scenes they leave in.
3. Trent x Gabi
As much as I love them together, I get really REALLY tired of watching Gabi use Trent and his network without any repercussions or hard pushback. I know that Gabi agreed to work closely with the police to make sure the people who committed the crimes face punishment, but I can only suspend disbelief BUT SO MUCH. Like what do you mean Gabi and Dhan can threaten a potential suspect into confessing? What do you mean they can just find things about people in less than a day, whenever they ask for it? WHY are they able to break rules with impunity, when doing so would absolutely cause the case to get thrown out in court????
As much as I know that Trent cares about Gabi and is willing to risk his job for her, I'm failing to understand why. What has she done for him that has made him want to give up his job for her? Because, from what we've seen so far, she hasn't really...done...much? We know they slept together at least once, that he has feelings for her, and that she relies on him a lot. But I feel like this show is constantly telling us that Gabi is worth sacrifice without illustrating why.
If this show is going to improve, they REALLY need to stop trying to make us believe that Gabi can do whatever she wants because reasons. It's starting to feel very Mary Sue-ish, and I don't want that to happen to her.
I at least hope that she takes accountability for taking the thumbdrive.
4. Hughbert "Sir" Evans
The one thing I did like about this episode is that we learned a lot about who Hugh is, and what his triggers are. If they choose to stay consistent anyway. Because they said in one episode that one of his triggers was mess/dirt, and then it was never brought up again lol.
In this episode, we learned that Hugh has abandonment issues. I believe that Hugh suffered from Parental Neglect as a child, which ties into this quest he had to "save" Gabi from her own perceived neglect. Hugh illustrates all the traits of someone who grew up not feeling heard or paid attention to: forcing Gabi to debate with him, him lecturing at her when she's eating, him having a meltdown when she ignores him or walks away. He threw a temper tantrum when he suspected that someone else might be taking attention away from him, because he finds comfort in knowing that it's always just him and Gabi in that house, and that she's consciously aware that he's there.
Obviously his traumatic past doesn't excuse the shit he's done. But it does add a ton of context.
These are a lot of thoughts, sorry lol This episode just bugged me. I feel like the writers room doesn't have their shit together. Maybe in S2 (if they get one), they'll find a rhythm that works. They need to. Because I shouldn't be able to tell a better story than these people who were PAID to do so.
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maeofthenoldor · 2 years ago
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Lotr character hc's, GO!
You have given me too much power....
*pulls out my 50 page google doc*
warning: These are my less serious list, and are completely random but I think these are the most entertaining :D
-before the quest, sam would leave flowers at Frodo's door and he never knew who it was so he would press them in a book. He only found out after the quest and he used a few pages of the flower book into the red book of the westmarch
-Aragorn likes to collect rocks when he was a kid to show eleond and he was always like "Thats nice awww" and all that. He is 87 and he still does this.
-Arwen is a split image of her ancestor luthien, but Elrond says that she looks a lot like maglor with her hair.
- The children of the shire would play pretend with Bilbo's adventure, often led by Frodo and the tooks. Sam was old enough to start playing with them before they grew too old, and Frodo let him play Thorin one time, and him as course as Bilbo. This memory sticks with Sam too this day.
-Boromir is Aromantic
-Pippin convinced boromir to wear a skirt with him (It was Legolas's skirt) and he did not admit that he actually liked it.
-Pippin wears more fem clothing which really confused Denethor
-Legolas and Gimli eloped on the quest (Aragorn was their officiator)
-Eowyn starts a program in Rohan where she teaches young girl to sword fight & protect themselves.
-Frodo is a good artist and used to draw portraits of Sam, Pippin and Merry. After the quest, he stopped drawing people and focused on sketching out the landscapes that they passed by on the journey. Yet they were always creepy, and slightly distorted in an uncanny way. Elanor finds his old sketchbook one time and gets nightmares of weeks after.
-Arwen taught Eowyn how to embroider tapestries
-Frodo would love to climb the oak tree that bilbo grew in his garden. he never knew where it came from...
-Boromir and Aragorn would argue on who would give the hobbits piggy back rides
-Legolas is rebellious by mirkwood elven standards because he refuses to drink. It causes quite a scandal that thrandruil, the king and biggest drinker, has a child that does not even want to get even a little typsy.
-Bilbo would tell merry and pippin how to do pranks because it reminded him of fili and kili-
-Legolas is nonbinary and uses (they/he) pronouns
-Merry had a big crush on Eowyn, and never knew that the feeling were mutual
-Aragorn talks to trees because he is a gremelin, while legolas actually speaks the languages of the trees. This is how they become best friends
-gandalf big naturals
-Gandalf spent those 15 years between bilbos 111th birhtday and the quest going to village to village tran-sing peoples gender
-Faramir is trans and gandalf was able to give him the right treatment and binders when he was kid before denethor found out. Boromir was happy to have a brother.
-Merry learns how to knit so he can make baby Elanor hats.
-Gimli is the hottest dwarf of Erebor by dwarven standards
-Sam makes Frodo fried mushrooms because he knows its his favorite.
-Lobelia and bilbo have wlw and mlm rivalry
-Merry and Pippin love really weird food combos. Mushrooms and honey? delish. Cherries and salt? yummy. Vinegar cake? even better.
They force every one of the fellowship to try one of these combinations. Aragorn doesn't notice anything bad, Sam eats it because he is polite, Frodo doesn't mind the mushrooms and honey, Boromir throws up, Gimli tells him he should add more meat and Legolas never felt more betrayed in his life.
-Rosie cotton met Goldberry once and they had a sort of relationship where they kissed. She never saw her again, and she thinks it was a dream.
-Tom Bombadil and Goldberry are qpr
-Elladan and Elorhir wanted to adopt merry and pippin until they realized they were ADULTS.
Thats all I have for now! Theres so much more but these are the only ones I can think of without getting into a whole essay on what means what and all that. Thank you smm for the ask anon!!
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6knotty6thotty6 · 2 years ago
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Wake Me Up When December Ends
CW: Death, Abuse, Suicide
December is a strange month for me. December 28th, in particular, is the anniversary of my step-father's burial. He was 48 years old. For those who've read my coming out story, you know that he wasn't a good person. I won't be going into everything he's done to me, but needless to say, what was in my story was a drop. That being said, I'm not particularly happy that he's dead. I'm happy that I don't have to constantly walk on egg shells around my own house and not be berated and belittled for "asking stupid questions." I'm happy that my mom can retire before she turns 60 (he had terrible spending habits and was a drug addict/alcoholic.) I'm happy that I finally feel comfortable with my body, gender identity, and sexual orientation.
My mom and step-father can best be described as a reverse Cinderella. Ha came from a poor abusive family in the rural south. Her family was also poor and abusive, but she was intelligent enough to attend a good college and get a job away from her hometown. He wasn't so lucky. He's made it clear multiple times that if it wasn't for her, he wouldn't have made it 30. What frustrated me about him was every time my mom tried to help him, he'd push back and relapse into his old ways. My step-father has shown that he wanted to change. He acknowledged that his childhood was traumatizing and his parents were horrible. He even tried to get therapy to unpack the PTSD he got from the 10 years he spent in prison. Yet, he still continued to indulge in self-destructive behaviors that lead to his death. Part of the reason why I wasn't sad when he died was because his death was so preventable. He died from high blood pressure and diabetes. He never took his medicine, drank sugary beer like it was water, and he never exercised outside of getting into fights with strangers. As for his mental issues, I wanted him to get treatment for that more than anything. He wasn't also the mentally abusive person who almost ruined my life. He and I used to be best friends. We'd always wrestle, got out on midnight snack ribs, played video games (and by that, I mean I'd watch him), and I'd tell him all my secrets. Then when I became a teenager, things started changing. My mom was alwasy the primary breadwinner, but he used to have a job just so he could buy his own stuff. Then when she kept getting promotions and higher paying jobs, he started to become lazier and lazier and started drinking more. My mom and I also suspected that he also had undiagnosed bipolar disorder. He'd have severe mood swings and would rant to me about random frustrations he had for 3 hours straight (without my consent, of course). She tried to get him into therapy and group counseling. She had more an enough money to get him the best therapist and medication in the world. Despite everything she did for him, he never got better and essentially committed a slow suicide. It's sad because I wanted to have the father that compelled my mom to marry him after getting her heart broken by my biological father. I wanted the father that made all my friends envious. I wanted the father that would proudly give me away at my wedding (if I ever got married). I wanted the father who would be the cool grandfather (if I ever adopted a child). Most of all, I wanted my best friend back.
On the 28th, my mom and I visited the Lock-Lock Bridge in Amsterdam. She placed a lock on the bridge with his and her initials with the dates that they've been married. She told me that doing that was a great form of closure. In a way, it was closure for me as well. I don't forgive my step father for what he did nor do I mourn for him. I mourn the potential future we could've had as a family. I mourn all the happy memories that have been lost to time. More than anything, I mourn my first best friend.
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