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This is so fucked up.
That $150 an hour job? Its using fucking chatgpt or midjourney:
$150 an hour. For stealing other peoples work. For knowing how to use a tool that steals other people's work. This is the type of revenue pro-AIbros are protecting. They don't care about art. They don't care about creativity or honing their skills. They care about how they can write a fucking prompt (which isn't hard, there's so many tutorials online. Its like, the easiest type of programming ever if I can even call it that) $150 an hour. For MAYBE some photoshop skills to make the image not wonky (but tbh they probably outsource that work for cheap knowing them).
Artists are getting hugely fucked over not just morally, but financially.
However this does show something major:
These companies COULD be paying artists. They are WILLING to pay AIbros $150 fucking dollars an hour for the easiest job in the world. This should anger every worker, not just the artists who've been stolen from. These generators need to be shut down or at least scrubbed of stolen work.
#wrenfea.article#i got reccomended this article and was like wtf $150 side hustle#and when i got to this part i felt sick#all my artists friends refuse to charge the equivalent of working $15 an hour#and then these fucks come in and charge $150 an hour for that#ai art#ai#chatgpt#midjourney
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#mine#doctor who#dwedit#david tennant#freema agyeman#haven't giffed this part in a while!#when i was driving home today i felt so exhausted#and i have a feeling i'm gonna come down with a cold later this week ;__;#last year i think i lasted until november before i got sick sighhh#i'm listening to gallifrey war room 2 though!!! absolutely loving it#i also finished the once and future story with ten and missy and the paternoster gang#i loved it!!! ten and missy were a delight together!!!!#ok bye good night friends
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I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :
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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )
#tumblr polls#hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today#still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual#They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully#it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec#fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since#I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm#ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos#or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things#I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming#over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY#I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb#e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about#different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see#stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I#can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud..#but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone#said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects#the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm
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Hey pssst hey. Have you ever considered: Montada?
I hate it, and it nearly killed my hyperfixation
But I understand my opinion on this may affect others, and many may be hurting from this episode soooooooooo
Art requests open
#nevermore webtoon#i debated on posting this response when you sent it because 1) spoilers but 2) i swear i neededa fucking warning for this shit#“jessie and james vibes” my ass#monty has been giving off major r@pist vibes since his introduction#and while this makes sense as a good angsty plot point for ada. i dint think it should be endgame for a plethora of reasons#the past month ive known about this ive been waiting for the community divide that will probably occur ocer this#and i dont want people to fight#nevermore has been there for me for well over a year. helping me through the days since 11th grade. when i was 16. and im graduated now. 18#the community has been an absolute blast. even if im not as active on maincord anymore. with life getting busy and just too much to backrea#and im scared of losing that#but hey i got some art coming up in the next few days and I'm about to go to a wedding and you bet your ass im bringing my sketchbook#pls give me requests ive been in idea art block#and i dont think you guys want me making a bunch or horror movie aus cause that may end up in me drawing slight gore eventually#sorry to the other patrons for lying how i felt about this ship#i did truly feel neutral when i first saw it but now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth#it makes me feel sick#a good part of my feelings towards it is due to how it got talked about in the Patreon streams and how uncomfortable it made me and others
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#i dont think i will ever be able to tell if im bi or gay or or#shucks mannnn compulsory heterosexuality makes me immediately sick#and in the literal sense too#like i was at my friend's wedding and brought a guy (a friend of mine or acquaintance more like. i just thought he is a good fit for#wedding party. and he was)#but all my friends were immediately like. as soon as he went to the bathroom. they were going ' you should 100% date him'#'he is a good husband material' 'we could finally go on double dates🤠'#right after i felt so sick i thought i was gonna throw up#i mean it might be the alcohol kicking in but i just find it funny that i felt it after they said all that#two of my friends wanted to speak in private with me and were like 'is he..? are u considering him AT LEAST?'#i know they had no bad intentions. quite the opposite but years after years i still get sad (understatement tbh) abt it..#another part of me knows that this is my fault bc i should've just communicated that i am not comfortable about such comments and#that i (surprise surprise) might not be straight! and that this isnt any default sexuality#buuuuuut how do i tell them this when i honestly dont feel like telling them so that i am able to figure things out on my own terms. i mean#one of my friends kind of knows and i never ever said anything to confirm nor deny anything xjhstwfy why is it so hard#on the other hand. yesterday for the first time i kind of got the feeling that it doesnt matter and that either way i will find happiness#SOME DAY maybe and i dont have to say anything and i can just not take their ~advice seriously and go on about my life#mine
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I want to take a bite out of someone's arm but I'm too shy
#it's ok to reblog this post and ignore the rant in the tags I don't mind at all /gen#hi guys#got another load of trauma from school#and I am not dealing with it well at all my legs have been shaking so badly for 4 hours now#had a panic attack so bad that my face went numb and the edges of my vision went black and my legs gave way#I hate my teacher she's horrible god I can't even go into it here there's so much#I'm tired of getting abused at school I've been to half a dozen schools and have not gotten traumatised at ONLY ONE OF THEM#I have no adults I can go to about this#whenever I try to talk with her and the head teacher about the situation and why I'm fucking terrified of her she acts so patient and kind#whenever I'm alone with her she will yell at me about everything I'm doing wrong and continue yelling even when I'm in tears#she will berate me and put me down and insult me directly#when she gives feedback she always puts effort into making it hurt#the language she uses for negative feedback is never what a teacher should say it's always personal and uses your weaknesses to hurt you#I get really bad intrusive thoughts about her hurting me physically because of how terrified I am of her#the worst part is she acts nice and sweet whenever she's not picking apart my weaknesses and being cruel about my disabilities#I felt so sick after that I haven't eaten since#vent tw#trauma tw#listen to my gibberish boy#ggod I hate this school
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… “damned if I do, damned if I don’t” it’s such a freeing realization, zomfg /gen /pos
#delete l8r#bleats#this isn’t even the most important part of her but I have to address this ASAP#her being a weird ass spoiled girl with a God Complex™️ is the most important thing BUT#the fucking entitlement#slight vent#identity policing#generally positive#bittersweet#a lot of things pushed me towards this thought#but this post is…#this is about something specific#I’m so tired of ‘walking on eggshells’ with MY oc 🙄#(pun UNintended holy fuck)#Anyways™️#I’m tired of ‘hiding’ my multiracial background out of fear of being labeled ‘antiblack’ 🙄#how are u gonna call me (insert whatever -ism here) for creating a self indulgent OC based on… ME™️#Dodie isn’t meant to represent all black girl experiences oh my fucking god#damn that felt good to get off my chest#it honestly shouldn’t even matter considering she’s based off Me#but I’m so sick of entitlement & identity policing#god I wish I didn’t have to say this#omfg like when I and several other black girls who got harassed some years back cus we were into cottagecore???#like DUDE - me sitting in a flowery meadow eating a basket of strawberries is politicized now???#holy fuck just let me live??#damned if i do damned if i dont
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hmm. just remembered how just until a few years ago I wouldn't consume any media with real life actors/too realistic of an art style, only toony or highly stylised animation and what most would consider "kids media"...
wondering what that says about my childhood/teen years and my mental health
#some day i just forced myself to watch/play stuff with real life actors/realistic style#now i can kinda stomach it but i still get squicked by it on occasion idk why#definitely something to look into when i have the time. find what exactly is squicking me out about it#and why i used to prefer cartoons/unrealistic looking animation way more#maybe it all ties into me never having felt human or like i belong with real life people#and seeing human actors/realistic characters is showing me something i should be something i should identify with#but it just doesn't click. doesn't fit. doesn't match#ever since i gained sentience and an understanding of human life and death around the age of 3 or 4 years old it's been like that...#just very bad very bleak very sick to my stomach type feelings i cannot put into words to this day... hmm#i just. never belonged anywhere and never felt part of the human experience ever since i became aware of it. :/#anyway. gotta get ready for bed. got errands for my mother to run before work#and i gotta buy stuff for work before work. ugh.
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#also this is a really niche post that is really only for me#and not to compare liam to this person#just to compare my feelings about everything#this feeling i have no really reminds me of when my rapist died#i felt such weird things that day#grief. sadness. lack of justice. anger.#i feel that all now as well#lack of justice for everyone involved. maya and others don’t get justice#and liam doesn’t get justice either because he never got lasting help#i feel so sick. numb. tired. dizzy#i’m sure maya feels now what i felt like when my rapist died#and i don’t know if any of you have had a similar experience#but it’s a weird feeling to grieve someone who did horrible things but was a huge part of your life story#even my rapist was a huge part of my story#i have that same eery feeling i had that day i found out#i really don’t know how to process this so i really can’t imagine what his family and friends and maya are going through#must be so conflicting and sad#my heart goes out to all survivors out there#this all sucks so bad#lp#grief tw#rape tw#death tw
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i need to talk about this because apparently i have been delusional ALL my life.
tonight, i joined a watch party where we watched rise of the guardians. i have only seen this movie once in my childhood, and no other times after that. all i remember is liking it, and a few twists. like jack frost being dead etc.
one of the twist i remember was the first twist of that kind id ever witnessed, and it broke me as a kid. it was with the sandman.
basically the sandman dies, they all mourn him for the whole movie, etc. towards the almost ending point of the movie jack goes to the main room with the globe and is seeing it failing. he then sees dust or something?? i don’t remember. and realizes that it’s the sandman. and the sandman appears behind him being revealed as a traitor and jack is all heartbroken etc, because his dead friend is alive, and tricked them the whole time.
the sandman talks basically about how like nobody gives a fuck about the sandman, and the bogeyman was right. etc. this was like the biggest plot twist to me as a child, it stuck with me so much the imagery, the scene, the sadness i felt. for like YEARS, i hated the sandman 🦧 i’d see him in promo and go, “oh yeah the dude that betrayed the other guy.”
i rewatched it tonight. THAT SCENE NEVER HAPPENED. THE SANDMAN NEVER BETRAYED ANYONE, I JUST MADE IT UP. i feel lied to by myself, like the memory is so vivid it’s odd 😭😭 like i hated this tiny sandman for actually years just for him to be a silly little guy 😭😭 what was up with that past megan.
#im convinced i watched it when i was sick and just dreamt that part up as a kid LMAO#the ending scene where he saves the kids and comes back to life i remember being his redemption#like???#the heartbreak i felt when he died and then the worse it got when i realized he was a traitor is such a core memory#i cannot believe i fabricated that for like 10+ years 🦧#i hope you know the whole watch party everyone was talking about how much they love him and i was like “😈” waiting for the nonexistent plot#twist to get them#if anyone actually read this ily#meg’s incoherent thoughts#<- truly a fitting tag this time#rise of the guardians
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Hello I’d like to ask about “SQ thing” “immune” and “whistle” if it’s not too much trouble. These all sound good, and I’m very excited to read them!
Hi!! Thank you for always being so nice and supportive :D
"SQ Thing" was honestly a gut reaction to this lovely thing by @cptnwynnie, and is about SQ and The Sister :>
"Immune" is actually an ironic title now that I think about it, and kind of a dumb concept. It's another SQ fic! But it's about him having an isolated/weak immune system from living on the island and so he just gets sick a lot.
(All of my inspiration for SQ stuff comes from the exquisite @sqenthusiast so please go read their fics!!!!)
"Whistle" is a Milligan fic that I'm actually kind of excited about! It's supposed to be like a series of vignettes or one of those "5 + 1" kind of fics, but it's giving me a real hard time at the moment, especially since I'm still not confident in writing the adults
#'Immune' is a lot of me projecting actually#Because I was homeschooled for a good long while (Which I loved)#But when I went back to traditional school I got sick a lot (Which I did not love)#And I went to a really small and quite clean school!!!#My immune system just wasn't used to being around people at all#So for about the first full school year I was pretty much constantly sick#Not debilitatingly so for the most part. But enough that I just felt bad all the time.#I got every. Single. Cold. Bug. Virus. Or flu. That it was possible to get.#For like sixth months.#Anyways that's enough complaining from me#I hope this is what you were looking for!#wip game
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#my roommate asked me to take her car and fill up her gas tank so she wouldn’t be late for classes#i did ofc because i enjoy helping others out#her car smelled of something familiar that i could not put my finger on#part of it was comforting but also made me nauseous at the same time#when i got back to the house i realized it was because she had black ice air fresheners in her car#i was shocked because there was a point in my life where all i used was black ice air fresheners because they reminded me of you#they were comforting to me back then#not anymore#i feel incredibly proud and happy that i no longer see you in the same light as i did back then#there was a time when I’d reach for you regardless of circumstances#now I’d rather cut off my fucking hand before ever reaching for you again#here’s to happier times and a happier life without you in it 🍻#my rambles#i love when i receive revelations that i really am over you bec there was a time when i thought i never would be#now the idea of you makes me sick to my stomach and if that isn’t confirmation idk what is#as my bestie once said: you are sooooo fucking far in my past that you will never be in my future#normally i wouldn’t post about something like this but i felt called to today#cheers to moving on 🥰♥️#i am feeling incredibly grateful to god for protecting me from you and removing you from my life indefinitely
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went to my first live metal show last night so here's a grimy venue bathroom selfie
shoutout to @madoimaru for the shirt!!!
#pidge face#hello i had so much fucking fun tho#i felt the music In My Ribcage And Heart and it was so fucking sick#i actually knew the person who set up the show bc they were friends w a previous housemate lmao#their performance was SICK#theyre doing a midwest tour soon too!!! so like thats cool as hell#the last band was ALSO sick and it turns out the teeny blonde girl who was fucking it UP in the pit?#was also part of the last band#i lost it when she got up on stage it was SO FUCKIN COOL#she gave us stickers and showed us her nails afterwards#she was so fucking sweet oh my god#also my friend made this shirt and i hastily cropped it in a panic while getting ready lmao#god tho it Awakened something in me#i need to learn bass#i need more tattoos and piercings#i need to split my tongue#i need to learn how to Properly Apply Eyeliner#i need to not wear a binder for 12 hours 😫#my friends partner was in the opening band too!!! it was their first show!
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thinking about replaying all the danganronpa games and reading more of the novels and spin offs n stuff…
#I’m always thinking about komahina and komaeda but it’s been a while since I was actively into danganronpa itself… I’m feeling the urge now#honestly I never finished dr3 anime because I didn’t like it 😭😭😭I know everything that happens in it I just never finished the last 4 episo#bc I got ultra depression and couldn’t watch anything for a while when I was 15#I did actually like most of dr3 but there were like just a few things I didn’t like#I don’t remember why so I’m curious if I’ll feel differently about it now. I also didn’t like some of komaedas characterization#I liked most of komaedas characterization but I also felt like they used him for fan service too much. not talking about the shower scene#that was just funny and awesome. I love komaeda sexualization#I remember not liking him blowing the gym up or whatever bc I felt like it was more fan service than anything. but that’s just my opinion#and it’s been so long so maybe when I rewatch it I’ll feel differently who knows#I just felt like thag part was kind of silly and didn’t make much sense. it felt like just fanswrbeice like here’s Komaeda blowing somethin#up like ok thanks. I guess. like it’s not even completely out of character really I just didn’t like it#also honestly I got so into komaeda at some point that seeing him made me feel ill I can’t explain it. like I got sick seeing people talk#about him or make videos about him or mention him… it was crazy#even now I still get stressed out to an unreasonable degree when people from my pov mischaracterize him or stray too far from my specific#headcanons like it’s not super healthy LOL but I think I’m allowed to be super insane about at least one gay anime boy ok#I’m better at recognizing when I’m being unreasonable now though… I respect some different interpretations… sometimes#damn this ramble paragraph might be proof that i should not get actively back into danganronpa itself
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catching covid after my 3 year no-covid streak feels kinda bad ngl
#I thought it was some type of flu for the past few days but nope#tbf I’ve been sick three other times these past three years and one time was sus as hell but I’ll never know what that was all about…#yeah not catching covid felt like a Highscore streak. yeah I do think about everything in my life in terms of gamification u_u#when the new chapter released I was like: oh there is so much going on maybe I’ll manage to be more active again and then I was just out#it’s a bit better now at least but I’m also finally catching on that it has the worst timing#my family was meant to visit me next week but I’ll still be contagious so don’t think that’s gonna happen#also in 5 1/2 weeks I’ll need to finish a substantial part of my bachelor project…#things are happening but I had a horrible creative slump right before falling sick so that kinda sucks#at least my vis dev part of the project is mostly over now so maybe I’ll get back to some casual fanart again soon… I miss it :(#when I was younger everytime I got sick I just started grinding out fanart. dunno where that energy went because now I can’t even move#my pinky when I’m sick#sina’s rambling
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It's astounding how one thing can ruin your entire day and destroy your entire emotional state.
#every single fucking time i try to apply for something i get ghosted or rejected#like i fucking get it i have no value or place in society you can stop throwing it in my face already#and every single time my whole family is just all ''you just have to keep looking you'll find something it'll be fine''#fuck right off with that shit#it's gotten to the point that I'm sobbing in my bedroom because I got rejected by the fucking aldis down the street from my house#and for a fucking part time position at that. I get it. i didn't work until college then only worked on campus. and went to school for music#but i have too much anxiety to be a teacher and am just not that kind of person. i have no skills or experience so fuck even trying for#anything even remotely halfway decent#I haven't worked in over a year since I graduated and the longer it gets the harder it is to get back into working yknow?#your value just decreases every fucking second so no one will give me the time of fucking day#i kinda had a job for like a fucking week last month that I didn't even want I was pushed into it and I hated it and cried so much#every day I actually almkst made myself sick from the crying and intense anxiety and then a week in they were like hey we like you and all#you're a good person and a very nice girl you're just no right for here so we're firing you essentially. so now I'm even more fucked#I've never felt more lost and more like the universe had no place for me anymore#and being in singing in the rain at my community theater was the only good thing I had in my life where I felt I had a place again#but the show's over now so I'm back to having nothing and nowhere and just don’t know what to do anymore#no wonder I can't fucking write anymore I'm just too sad all the time#abby's self deprication hour#abby's serious corner#I did make some progress in the mario crossover the other day when I felt pretty good actually though so that's something right?#I'm trying I really am
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