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reminem69 · 11 months ago

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God I wanna cry

#im so tired #i spent all day yesterday dizzy as hell because i didnt take my meds #and i took them last night #but apparently ive hit the 24 hour mark bc im getting dixzy again #and its so uncomfortable #and im getting hot flashes #and what if my meds stop working #what if this is a placebo #this is so exhausting and nauseating wnd its me tally painful #vut it feels so dtupid. i font wanna talk to a dr #they always talk circles around me #i cant do it man #im just ginna. keep taking my buspar until i run out wjt then beg the dr to help #or die. idk #remi rants

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deoidesign · 7 months ago

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I'll either succeed or I'll learn trying

#I wanna REMEMBER THIS!!!!!!!!#its helpful for me to keep in mind #not failing. learning #learning. learning makes failures into something worthwhile #grimacing as I repeat this to myself #text post #delete later #idk saying it cause it made me be like heh. nice #so idk might make someone else be like hm... nice #so LAMGOMSAGKLSAJGALKGJASLKGMSALKGJ #there is not much thought behind the things I post there's just not really much thought in general #honestly that is not true #I overthing everything. on account of the anxiety #but it's all good #speaking of the doc gave me an anti anxiety med on top of the adhd thing #so that's cool #seems to be working though..#she told me I could up the dose and I might do that in like a week if it feels like hrmm #I asked for all the instructions about starting stopping upping lowering or changing the time I take things #cause yknow. those things matter and I like to experiment to figure out whats best for me #this has nothing to do with the post #also they messed up my order again #i only got 180 books #bro theres 120 more #where are they #give me my books!!! please!!!!!!!1 #I'll wait til tomorrow #its possible they just didnt fit on the truck. thats completely reasonable

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naamahdarling · 4 months ago

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Augh

#fancy is really struggling #and the babies are lovely and just FASCINATING in how they developed around but not shaped by humans and i so very deeply enjoy them #but they are also a little ungovernable due to their age and general lack of caring about rules and they are bothersome and rowdy #and it is obviously so so hard on her and my heart is breaking because im afraid we wont be able to get her through this #and i will have to give the babies up #and...not have another cat #just one #i would be crushed #and added to all of that is that the babies are taking their time learning to be pets and that is fine and wonderful actually #but...i need surgery on at least one ankle and i won't be able to keep up with them if things haven't sorted themselves out by then #and they haven't become more manageable and fancy hasn't adjusted #so we are asking about meds for poor fancy and hoping that works #but she's really having a hard time guys and i am fighting so hard to cope in a household where i spend most of my time alone #with two animals who don't love me yet or interact with me like pets (i'm a source of three things: food and snuggles on demand and NO STOP #and one who is sad and not herself #and frankly it's terrible that i can't fix this #and i am trying not to lose my shit but this wasn't supposed to be so hard #and im afraid i may lose five cats and not three #and im already barely holding on #i don't know what to do and neither does my boyfriend #i don't want to turn around and have to tell you guys we can't keep the babies #i feel like i am failing at something i am supposed to be GOOD AT #i don't want to be in a house so empty #i can't live like that #having the babies is lovely #they're so alive and the boys were so sick by the end and the stress of the constant anxiety and grief as they faded away was crushing #even before they died #it's been so good to have them running about #i don't want to LOSE that #im so tired of LOSING things

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gideonisms · 7 days ago

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I'm so annoyed that despite my best efforts and years of trying hard to mature as a person I still will get into these situations where I am like hanging on by a thread and I am not so much concerned for MYSELF because I know how to recover from that but I am more worried that I won't be able to contain my frustration and will say something to someone else that I regret. Because STILL sometimes I will think I'm coping until I'm suddenly hugely angry with like half a second of warning

#or like what if i let out a scream where people can hear me. i used to do that and i thought i had managed to stop it from happening anymore #i'm not like Depressed about any of this i'm on meds and i have years of coping skills for the depression it's more #like. it just happens really fast after i've started to feel overwhelmed #the 10 hour shifts are really hard because at the end i'm just angry #no matter what i do i just get so angry i have to do box breathing #we are at making faces at my bosses and the other day my boss and i were in the bathroom together and at the sink it was like dead silence #they can definitely tell i want them to die and that is what i need to tamp down on #screaming along to no children in my car on the way to and from work can only do so much i'm struggling here #it's just like. even if they had said for the next two weeks we will be working x hours but it's always no warning #they don't ever honor promises of when they say we will leave #i'm not even asking don't make me work 60 hours a week like the amount of mail is intense i get it #it's the constant lying that gets to me. i'm like Autism Mad because they're so inconsistent and it just feels like they have 0 respect #for me or my time #WHICH IS THE TIP OF THE ICEBERG BTW

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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i wanna post my skip to loafer art but i cant do it knowing ppl are gonna put it on tiktok and pinterest bc itd be like. bringing an invasive species ykwim

#my meds just kicked in so im feeling talkative but truly idk how to explain it #its like. with anything else id be more than happy to introduce it to ppl like monkie kid and mp100. witch hat maybe but its personal to me #but skip to loafer is special to me. and i feel bad for saying this bc other ppl do deserve to watch smth they will enjoy #hell the reason i got into it was bc my friend was kind enough to lend me her copy and i got hooked #its so ironic im saying this esp given how insecure i am abt depicting characters wrong. but i really dont want to look thru the tags #and see them on a 'can i copy your homework' tier list. or ppl getting mad abt why egashira mitsumi and shima cant just be a throuple #its just!! i wont stop you if thats how you like to engage with the show or how you interpret it bc ill just ignore it and leave u alone!!#and theres no objective wrong way of doing it!! and i know that interacting with the work is what forms a community after all!!#but keeping it tight knit is just easier for me bc nobody has to worry abt making each other laugh and we can enjoy it for what it is #fully aware im saying this as someone whos drawn monkie kid art with text post memes and owl house draw the squad templates #but at the same time i just. dont want to explain myself or give ppl reasons why shima and mitsumi are ace coded just bc it 'feels right'#fandom is a communal thing and it feels so hypocritical thinking this. too many conflictng thoughts that idk what to act on #yapping

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ask-misfits-of-war · 15 days ago

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"Sure...likewise...? (is this some kind of trap..?)" "Did.. hold on were you following me through the bushes?—"

"Don't worry about it! Come 'nd sit, we can all chat!"

(Lodi is fascinated with this new stranger, Damascus has mixed feelings.)

#misfits of war #[Lodi either watches people without their knowledge or snipes them clean shot. Damascus is the strangest objecthead he's ever seen]#[Damascus IS strange for his even for his kind so that's fair tbh. Lodi really saw him and went 'I like this weird one having a crisis']#[The introverted sword is getting claimed by the extroverted apple. They are not even on the same side of the war]#[Not that that will stop Lodi; They do what they want regardless of the politics in any given area or who's side you come from]#[They don't discriminate much. This is both a good and a bad thing depending on the situation or their opinion. Or both]#[Damascus just had the daylights scared out of him and doesn't know how to feel about this fruitfolk; He's never seen or met one like Lodi]#[He'd seen and met a few in passing before the war but never knew any particularly well; He's never met one so...whatever Lodi has goin on]#[Damascus will become very concerned with them and their methods very quickly]#c.damascus parastin #c.lodi moros #art.post #comic.post #art #comic #Unrelated SORRY THIS TOOK LIKE. DAYS. Adhd is not kind 2 me #It took a while but not THAT long to do mannn. I had the script in my head sorted and the thing laid out in my brain #It was the Sitting Down And Doing It part that took forever #Managed to hype myself up n get it done. I should've just taken my Adhd meds that would've worked better but I forgot </3

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twptwp · 1 year ago

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I am somewhat tempted to write a fanfiction, not a romance one though as those things do not interest me so much. I wonder if anybody would read Noelle and Berdly being friends?

Furthermore, if there are any fanfictions already on this topic? I would love recommendations if so!

Whenever I try looking I just end up seeing lots of shipping stuff with all different characters, it's an oddly difficult search for me

#berdly #noelle holiday #deltarune #I use to enjoy romance shipping more #but my medications changed me HAHA #(I do not hate shipping but it's not what I look for when looking for Deltarune fanfictions)#nowadays I struggle to find much interest in romantic shipping. Sorry my krerdly followers #I always hear about how some of my past work made people enjoy krerdly #and while I still enjoy them being friends I don't think I am very capable of making shipping fanart anymore #that being said if I ever do make more fanart of them being friends I do not mind people seeing it as krerdly #I find it quite comedic how my meds are what made me stop shipping things and thus with it #krerdly #go to your local pharmacist to get your meds that stop krerdly shipping today!#(extremely lighthearted and joking)#(I still think that ship is fun and cwl if I had to choose a Deltarune ship as a favourite it would be thay one it's so entertaining)

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cowboygideon · 3 months ago

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so i stopped taking my meds for a while (because i was convinced they weren't working) and today I decided fuck it I'll just take them and wouldn't you know it i actually had energy to do stuff and im cleaning my room for the first time in months ? Crazy, I know, but I'm still kind of convinced they weren't working and this is just some kind of placebo effect and I KNOW that makes me sound like an idiot but for some reason I can't convince myself otherwise

#what flavor of mentally ill is this what is wrong with me #my therapist and psychologist diagnosed me with depression and adhd #so they gave me meds to treat depression and adhd #and i was actually feeling good for a couple months (while takinh them)#and then i stop and i feel like shit and cant do anything #SO WHY DONT I BELIEVE THEYRE WORKING #this is usually something youd talk to a therapist about but i stopped doing therapy Ha Ha #sorry this is so stupid and definitely TMI im just having issues rationalizing so i figured id shout into the void

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mashmouths · 4 months ago

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does anyone remember "some nights" by fun.

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#i think i forgot to take my meds this morning and then i got 3 hours of sleep followed by 9 hours of work and the my period started </3 #i fear i may have :3'd too close to the sun #a post #but literally what do i stand for. what do i stand for most nights..... i don't know......... anymoooorreeeee oh woah oh oh woah oh ohoh et #physically cannot stop listening to this song by putting my phone speaker right against my ear despite the fact that i once again have work #in the morning -_- but! at least tomorrow i can wake up at 5:15 instead of 4:15. so that's something #i guess.#it's only 4 hours but pray for me folks i also have 6 hours straight of rehearsals tomorrow a bit afterwards and. so much fucking reading.#tee hee #honey i am smooching your brain forever this image ingrained itself into my dna it's in every one of my cells <3

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tj-crochets · 9 months ago

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So it turns out if I make this pattern with actual canvas instead of what I thought was canvas (it’s duck cloth) it’s a softer, more “reusable grocery bag” kind of bag and less of a tote?

This one is for my grandma! I think I’m making them for pretty much everyone on my list for the holidays this year

#sewing #handmade #reusable shopping bag #I am very early for the holidays but you gotta hop on the inspiration train while you have inspiration #I think im going to make three or four more of these in the next week #hopefully all this weekend? but we’ll see #I have Monday off work #and then I’ll make myself either finish the quilt for my grandma’s dog or do an auction fill #I might not do the auction this year? my new meds are great but oh not #*oh boy the executive function issues are sooo much worse #I suspect it’s just the ‘oh I actually have extra energy again’ problem because this is very much what it was like for me before I got sick #but I should stop accepting commissions it’ll take me forever to finish #well not commissions. auction fills

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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I adore reading your rambling tags, don't stop posting things there 😩

Don't you worry. I think I might be incapable of stopping idk what happened I never used to tag ramble

#asks #anon #i do really love talking. clearly LOL #but ive also been working on listening the past few years #and thays pretty cool too #i had to learn how to think before i speak. like legitimately im not hearing the words I say #im thinking about my next sentence while i say the current one #its exhausting and i never remember what I've said HWJJJSDJEJ #but people tell me im direct and deliberate and clear so idk...#but listening is also really hard...#conversation in general is really hard #i stll love it of course #its just very tiring for me #which is PART of why I like to do this when i cant sleep cause of nightmares or whatever #tires me out haha and also is a great distraction #and is good practice! for me #so idk i just like it. and its nice to know its not annoying #i wouldn't post hardly any words at all without the safety of the tags #they're not rebloggable so thats a relief #you have to opt in to read them #the space is limited. etc etc #so. im glad it is wn option and im glad its a welcome one!#no intention to stop #thank you for the reassurance on it #delete later #maybe. I'm so tired i need to check later to see if i wnt to delete it #anxiety meds working yay i can sleep bye

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ressq · 5 months ago

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man i sure wish i had the energy to do anything at all!

okay well it's not entirely true that i haven't been doing anything. i'm cooking. trust.

#meds make it so i can't really strongly differentiate between depressive episodes and regular depression #it's moreso a constant depression with random spurts of energy in between long periods of doing nothing but sleeping and working #but the art i HAVE managed to produce has gone pretty hard ngl.#i think it's also the current political climate here in america. it's hostile and i'm drifting away from my family because of it #and that's been pretty rough #it's been a gradual drift away that started in high school and has just intensified through adulthood #but i love my friends and my favs and cats and music #i think coming to terms with being disabled has been a punch to the gut since now my options SHOULD be open. but there's SO MUCH i can't do #things are looking up for me in the general sense. i'm in a good spot in my life right now but that doesn't stop the perpetual brainfog #nothing will ever really stop this everpresent depression but i'm generally stable and healthy so it is what it is #it feels good to love and be loved and that's what keeps me going #if i'm sad? sleep it off. go to work then sleep for 16 hrs a day on my days off. then work again. easy #the life of a productive little worker bee is great!#ress thinks #okay rant over. i'm not in a bad place rn dw! i just like to yap

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wizardnuke · 7 months ago

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the lord is testing me so hard rn. holy fuck. give me a break

#hbbbbbb spent what i built up after the semester on the mortgage i'm tired i have a full shift tomorrow and now the powers out and #i need a charger block for my phone cause i need to wake up tomorrow. wanted a shower. mom was gonna make a quiche i don't want wendy's lmao #i also do not want to start crying in front of her i am just. grumpy. and it is fine. but i need to not be tearing up when i get to the #pharmacy because my friend works there and will ask what's wrong and im not crying in cvs. so. hough. okay.#stop tearing up. get meds. get shitty stupid dinner i'm so sick of chicken holy fuck. go home. mom is also extremely overwhelmed i don't #want to get upset in front of her idk how to not do that. hhhgh. sucks. it sucks and it's bad and i'm tired

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minnieposting · 23 days ago

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oh my goddd why . every single night i start feeling so bad!

#the Thoughts started. i am noting it is 10 pm #why is this a thing #minnie post #idek what im doing wrong #ive been working out #ive been eating ok...i think #i saw wicked the other day. i saw my aunt #i played games with my sisters #i have two beautiful bjds im obsessed with #my dog . my family #but nothings enough for my brain #i stopped taking my meds. and i dont want to continue #but is that an unmedicated thought #i dont. want to go thru the process again #its been long enough im sure id feel the terrible side effects again #but ist hat just anxiety IDK #accidentally started rambling in my tags

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okcoolthanks · 3 months ago

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Fuckikkkkkkkk thursday tomorrowwwwww

#mannnnnnnnnn I don’t wanna gooooooooooo #I’m tired and cold and I wanna sleep and hang out under my blankets with my cats #my mom would be mad if I asked to stay home tho so I can’t do that #fuck thought about childhoodfriend everything sucks forever #I just got extremely tired I can’t do this man #I need to work on the jacket and the animation and I just want to sleep and I don’t want to depend on my phone all the time for comfort #just constantly fucking tired and I’m getting sick of it but I never have time and when I do I just want to rest cause I’m fucking exhauste #and I can’t tell if it’s a health issue thing or if it’s cause I’m depressed or because of the irregular amounts of meds I’ve been taken or #what. I don’t know I don’t know I just want to be okay I just want to stop being tired and lonely and sad #I should shower

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luna-the-cretar · 3 hours ago

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How do people with executive dysfunction take pills at a consistent time every day? I can have my phone scream at me that I need to take my pills, and my body will still be like “but…no…”

#I mean they’re just vitamins and allergy meds #so it’s not like i have to take prescription pills or anything #but still. it’s an issue.#especially since one of the pills tells me to take with food #(and I know from experience that it’ll make me sick if I don’t eat enough with it)#so my brain is just like ‘you’re telling me I have to eat AND take this stupid pill? fuck this.’#and I proceed to rot in bed for the next 3 hours #all the while my brain is also chastising me bc I have to take my vitamins and I have to do laundry and I really need to work on the #oneshots I said I’d do and haven’t done #like. it’s consistently caused issues in the past and now. and idk what I can do to just. force myself to do the thing #like how the fuck can I tell my mom that ‘hey I know I didn’t get laundry done but in my defense my body literally said no’#when I know she’ll say shit like ‘oh stop being lazy. just try harder. blah blah blah’#like!!!! I’m trying!!! but it’s like trying to catch the dog whenever she gets out. it’s extremely difficult for no fucking reason and I #hate it.#and I can’t even see a medical professional about it bc i unfortunately live in the us and can’t fucking afford to eat on my own let alone #pay a fucking medical bill like that.#sorry. just. sorry. I’ll shut up now. just. ignore me.

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