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i'm going to die on the hill that apologizing or excusing lestat's abusive behavior undermines him as a character. it erases any chance he has to grow.
and lestat knows. paraphrasing some of these but:
i am cursed with my father's temper at times.
when i'm tired, i'm not so kind.
i did it to hurt him. and it did hurt him.
i broke him.
what is worse than that? to crush what you cannot own?
then from the books themselves, admitting that he might have done what claudia did himself, as reason for why he doesn't blame her. he is aware that he hurt the people around him — intentionally. in mennoch, he admits he doesn't like himself.
it does such a disservice to him, to louis, and to claudia to erase who he is. especially when so much is cyclical — the fear of being like his father and seeing his father within himself. not knowing how to stop it or why he is how he is bc he's never really confronted it.
he's so afraid of loneliness, afraid that anyone who loves him is somehow lying. love is conditional and he needs so much validation ( which isn't fair to anyone else in his life ). they have to perform emotional labor for insecurities that lestat can't open up about.
and when he's hurt or when he's afraid of being hurt, he lashes out.
#➤ headcanons ┊ lestat de lioncourt#bUT RECOGNIZING HIS FAULTS#also allows for room for him to grow#and to learn#and i think lestat does learn albeit slowly at times#it's not all linear#and it's not all positive#but lestat being able to learn from his mistakes#and to become something better#IS very important to me#and how i write him#I AM JUST THINKING A LOT ABOUT LESTAT RN
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Lex is Vlad reincarnated
So! Lex Luther, the greatest person to ever exist, had recently made a discovery.
A few weeks ago, a Cult of moronic simpletons had managed to kidnap him. Him! All for some stupid Demonic ritual where they sacrifice the wealthiest man they could find in return for something meaningless like "No More Poverty" or "No More Starvation".
He had survived, of course, and was unfortunately save by Supermoron.
But before the Man of Steel had busted in, he overheard something from the Cultists. Apparently they had chosen him for more than just his wealth, there was something more about his Soul that they were after. It felt "Divine", as if he had the soul of a God stuffed in a Mortal's body.
And obviously it must be correct. He was already the most intelligent man in the world, One of the wealthiest, and held more political power than any single man on the planet, so of course "God in disguise" was the next logical addition to that List.
Over the next few weeks he studied and prepared.
He needed to make sure that his efforts would be rewarded, that those Cultists had been correct about him despite their idiocy.
After buying up as many Magical Artifacts as he could related to Identity and Soul, he tested himself on Each and Every One. And Lo and Behold, he is truly a God.
Well, the Reincarnation of One. Apparently this was common in immortal beings such as himself, reincarnating themselves into mortal bodies as a sort of Vacation from their Duties. All he needed to do now was find a way to regain his Memories and Power without dying, and he would truly become a God On Earth.
A few more weeks of Preparation, and he was ready.
Apparently the Manchild of Steel had caught onto his plan in that time. His Ego probably couldn't bear another God living in the same City as himself, so he tried to stop Lex's plans of Ascension. Thankfully, in his research he had discovered his Rival's vulnerability to Magical Attacks, and set up countermeasures for him and his Breakfast Club should they attempt to interfere.
He stepped into the Ritual Circle, and began his Ascension to Godhood.
Try as they might, the League could not foil his plans this time. The Ritual Circle lit up with a sickly green light, and expanded to cover his entire body. The Ritual began to finally complete itself.
He had Won.
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Oh.
...
Vlad stood at the center of the circle for a few moments. He took in all his Memories of his most recent Life, and Facepalmed so hard he was sure The Badger heard it back in the Realms.
Ten Tousand Years of Therapy specifically to curb his egotistical tendencies, and That is how he decides to spend his most recent Life? Acting as a Billionare Supervillain attacking a well meaning Hero for nothing less than Ego?! He even Cloned them!? Had he learned NOTHING!?!?
"Careful Team, we don't know how powerful he is now." He heard his current Nemesis say.
Oh right...they were still there.
He didn't really feel like explaining everything to them, and he technically still had about 40 years left on his Vacation...
He simply turned his back to them, flew back to his Mansion, turned back into his Human Form, and set about his Day. Maybe he could right a few of the wrongs he had done on this life?
It would certainly throw his current Nemesis for a loop. And while he may not Hate him anymore, he definitely still liked to Mess with him.
Maybe this would be more entertaining than he thought?
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dcxdp#Dc x dp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Vlad is Lex#Vlad reincarnated as Lex#He is absolutely embarrassed at how egotistical he was in this life#He is still just as Dramatic as Lex#But now he is doing it for good reasons#He likes to mess with Superman a lot because he still has some time on his Vacation#He pays for a Statue to commemorate Superman#He has an Interview where he fully supports Superman with his favorite Journalist Clark Kent#He even starts sending Child Support to Superman#He basically just goes back to living as Lex but without the Massive Ego#Also better morals but just barely#Superman is tearing his hair out trying to figure out his Angle#He succeeded in becoming a God#And then he just went back fo life as normal but less Evil?#The Lex he knew would never do that#He must be planning something#Maybe#Surely he must be right?
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being an mcr fan is like fuck i need to become a better artist. i need to become a better artist. i need to become a better artist. i need to b
#i need to become a better artist#if i were a real person i would make art that means something mark my words
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I kind of don't like how a lot of people forget that despite all the angst and the drama around Dean and Cas they are fundamentaly best friends.
How many times did Dean say it throught the entire show? Bobby in season 6 saying "Well, you just lost the best friend you ever had."
For Bobby to say that, knowing Dean better than even Sam in some regards, how many times had Dean been sitting with Castiel on the couch in his living room?
Cas doesn't sleep, and rarely does Dean, with the Apocalypse looming right behind him.
So all they had left, in those quiet nights were each other. And they were okay with it, because they liked each other's company.
#your honor they are in love#destiel rant#destiel#castiel#cas and dean#dean winchester#spn#supernatural#deancas#castiel novak#dean and castiel's profound bond#they are besties#we could get into detail about how their entire relationship fundamentally changed the second cas took on the leviathans#how castiel believed he could ever become something he was happy with and destroyed himself and murdered most of the other angels#and lost all form of self reflection and actualization in order to hate himself#and yes he magically got better after taking on sams memories but he was never alright ever again#and dean tried to go along with it#refused to see that there was anything wrong#ugh anyway#i digress
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I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#he’s so wonderful frfr#my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES#what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling#and he loses himself a little along the way#because the world is TERRIFYING now#if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come#and Raph CARES too much to let it happen#even at the expense of his own happiness and youth#and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him#and he finally lets himself be a kid again#he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths#I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af#headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph#but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely#with raph being no exception!!#amazing big brother and character#there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!!#hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader-#-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION#bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that#APRIL can as well 100%#doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed#they just need ~communication~#one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide*#I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too#and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector
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Okay so what if Danny was the first clone of Superman instead of Connor? I see it going like this:
Danny gets reincarnated and immediately wakes up in a pod. Once his brain catches up to what's going on around him, he quickly nopes out of his pod and takes a little tour around the facility he found himself in. Along the way he discovers some major incriminating evidence but more importantly, he discovers who his donor dad is! Hooray! So Danny takes his freshly alive little butt and that incriminating evidence all the way to his donor dad's house.
Enter Clark, who is very unsure how to feel when a boy shows up at his door, claiming to be his clone and with evidence to boot! On one hand he's glad this clone doesn't appear to hurt or anything but on the other hand, his dna was taken without his permission to make an entirely new person!? He knows none of this is his fault but at the same time, why is this suddenly Clark's responsibility? But the kid just escaped a dangerous facility on his own. But what if the kid was brainwashed to believe he escaped but is really a spy after all? Is Clark supposed to take care of regardless? After all he didn't even want kids! At least not that soon but then again....
Danny takes one hard look at Clark's wishy washy bs and just goes "Yeah no bud, that's not how this works. Neither of us asked to be in this situation but we're in it now so you're just gonna have to deal." Basically, he shames Clark into taking care of him. Especially when the Justice League and the Kents find out and now he can tattle to other adults about how Clark's mistreating him. Danny doesn't ever hesitate to bring up what kind of hypocritical monster Clark and therefore Superman would be if he claimed to stand for truth justice and the American way while also leaving his own clone out in the cold.
And you know what? This actually works. Clark starts taking care of Danny to get everyone off his ass but then comes to find out this kid is actually kind of a riot to be around? And single fatherhood is kinda fun actually?
Basically by the time Kon comes around, Clark has settled nicely into his clone dad era and is willing to strangle anyone who would not only steal his DNA, but also dare to use his precious clone babies for evil gain. Because seriously how dare they?
#dp x dc#dc x dp#dpxdc#dcxdp#winter's tales#bonus if clark becomes one of those 'my precious angel can do no wrong' parents#danny sets fire to something?#“he's technically only a year old he didn't know any better.”
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Miscommunication.
#the fanfic writing is going great boys.#RIP Narinder. he tried to do something nice for the Lamb for once and horribly misinterpreted the phrasing of the request involved#EDIT: Probably should tag this AU because it's becoming a massive thing in my hyperfixated brain huh?#Better the Wool AU#cult of the lamb#narilamb#cotl narilamb#narinder x lamb#lamb x narinder#cult of the lamb narilamb#cult of the lamb narinder#cotl#cotl narinder#cotl lamb#cotl fanart#cotl meme#cotl au#stuff by sofie
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taehyung x on/black swan performances for @raplinenthusiasts [ cr: 0613data ]
#btsedit#btsgif#taehyungedit#dailybts#usersky#userpat#taehyunghobi#userines#heygingko#userdimple#usersevn#raplineuser#uservans#annietrack#rjshope#usermaggie#usermizuoka#taehyung#*mine#tw flashing#hi i know we're both on a break from here atm#but i needed something to commemorate him becoming an official bias wrecker#and what better way than through a comp of two of your fave title tracks#although this is lowkey for my other tae girlies too (ashley pat kayla & apryl i'm looking at you lol)#i hope you're doing well love#take care and this will be waiting for you when you come back <3
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Be honest, what are your thoughts on appledash? Do you hate it or its more of not a big deal
Not a big deal to me. I like it, I see all the appeals, I just personally like Rarijack more.
#ask me#anon#if you wanna know why i like rarijack more i just think they're a healthier depiction of a domestic and longterm relationship#appledash gives me the vibes of gfs that'll eventually break up#because from s1 to s8 their relationship and communication with each other on serious things never really matures or grows#they were competitive and petty in s1 and they were competitive and petty in s8#arguably worse cuz in that s8 episode their dynamic becomes so toxic they almost cause a student under their care to drown#both of them have a superiority complex that's constantly conflicting with each other and it never really gets resolved#but with rarijack there's a very clear arc of development you can follow in their character#and multiple episodes show how they'll argue and eventually come back together and apologize and communicate and work to better things#you can watch them grow to like and understand each other. in s1 aj scoffs and makes fun of rarity's work in fashion#but in a later season (after some conflict) aj says that she doesn't understand fashion but she knows it means a lot to rarity so it means#a lot to her too. and that's what love is to me. “it didn't mean anything to me until it meant something to you”#it's genuinely really sweet and i'd argue rarijack /feels/ the most romantic out of all the main 6 ships. through arguing they grow closer#which is how it's supposed to be in relationships that last! you argue to work out your interpersonal problems and understand each other#(which is why it's genuinely kinda baffling to me that appledash ended up being canonically married because they never gave me those vibes)#but it really doesn't matter. they're cartoon horses! have fun with them
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Child Actors Aqua and Kana on the occasion of season 2.
I imagine that if everything didn't go downhill with Ai, Aqua and Kana would have been able to act in more films together and maybe be paired together in more projects. And an actual childhood friend relationship would be real nice.
#The moon and stars because I always liked the symbolism of Aqua being associated with the stars and Kana with the moon#I know I say this a lot but characters growing up healthy? I'd like to see that please#Aqua and Kana being casted in many dramas together and slowly get to know each other better in the process you know#Then Ai slowly becomes something similar to a mother figure to Kana too maaaybe?#(guys but what if they filmed the bell pepper dance together)#hoshino aqua#arima kana#oshi no ko#onk#aquakana#aqua x kana#aqukana#illustration#aquamarine hoshino#onk fanart#oshi no ko fanart#oshinoko
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Art collab with DantesHiding on twitter!1!!
#click for better quality#Hazbin Hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#Hazbin Hotel Alastor#Hazbin Hotel Lucifer#Alastor#Lucifer Morningstar#RadioApple#Alastor my beloved#sooo proud of how he turned out#i need those two to become enemies to friends#to maybe something else...#leaf art#fixed it a bit more
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"The Titans were gentle beings, knowing neither fear nor pain. For all their power, it was the Primes who cared for them, guarding their innocent sparks." - Thundercracker, Speaker of Trypticon.
A lil bit of lore below the cut.
In my little continuity, the Primes were indeed Primus's firstborn, but they were made from the suffering of their maker as he fought to survive. The Titans though? They were born to give life, made to spread Primus's gifts to all creation. As such, they are naturally gentle and inherently incapable of violence.
They will not fight back if attacked, nor will they rise to the defense of their citizens (although they will provide weaponry and protection in the form of walls and the like). They cannot even comprehend why one would hurt another outside of the natural order of things. It is to the point where those who care for the remaining Titans have labeled them as having the cognitive capabilities of newbuilds. For all their age and wisdom, Titans are, at their core, the only entities in the universe to maintain a sense of innocence all throughout their lives. They hold no anger, no bitterness, and no grudges. Everything, in their optics, will play out as it should.
As such, the Titans have always had guardians to protect them from a reality that would seek to crush them into dust. During the first age, the Primes filled this role. In the modern era, seekers of Vos have taken on the mantle, guarding and speaking on the behalf of the three remaining Titans on Cybertron.
#shhh ignore the watermark this was originally going on my art blog before i thought better of it#transformers#maccadam#alternate universe#fractured stars au#solus prime#metroplex#digital art#cybertronian worldbuilding#I know I make a lot of aus but this one is special#its something that I don't really intend to make into a solid fic yet#it just is and I enjoy playing with concepts without worrying about adhering to a specific continuity#who knows? I might leave this thing to rot like I have many of my ideas#or it might stick around and become interesting#whatever the case if nothing else you lot will have some ideas to chew on
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linocuts from recently :^)
#my art#linocut#printmaking#monster art#cat#sorry i will post more art i was working on an undisclosed contest. that may or may not have something to do with pocket monsters#also i was trying to think of how to open commissions#again. i will be opening commissions NEXT WEEK i'm forcing myself to it's ridiculous how long i've put it off!!#anyway i love linocut. im trying to be more adventurous by doing whole scenes like with the unicorn#i will get better....i will become a professional artist....amen
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one thing I really really appreciate abt riz gukgak as a character is that he is un-self-aware to the max. he inhabits his body so completely. the arc that would usually be run as "I'm different and unable to connect with my friends in this way that everyone seems to be able to do and so something's wrong with me and I don't like myself" when it comes to riz is actually like no! I have literally no problems or praises for myself personally. I don't stand outside of my own self and judge it. it's phrased as "other people will eventually find someone more important to them than you" rather than centering it on his self-perception. he doesn't know why he doesn't have the best social life on earth even though he's not afraid at all to talk to other people. every time he sees himself in someone else's actions or behaviour he gets startled by it. his latest epilogue is realizing seemingly for the first time that he's not just an agent of causes but an actual character. he's my hero and I want to be him when I grow up
#not art#fantasy high#this trait with him is kinda why I don't really ascribe any prominent trans narrative to him. even though hes very gender#I think I said once like bc he didn't just walk into the girls bathroom I don't think he finds himself on that axis in general#bc if he's any less attached to his gender he would 100% have done it lmao#and the great thing is the more he gets comfortable with his friends the less self aware he becomes#saying shit like ''chop his head off so he doesn't revive'' fully uncaring for the optics. I love him#its honestly great esp. with the Living While Goblin stuff going on too. no inner conflict with that dude#he's fully great! he's awesome he's all gucci. the world is just fucked and that's why shit sucks for him#(this makes me doing something model-minority-adjacent for bard!riz a bit harrowing shdjsh I dont wanna lose this)#(he's dictated by fear but it doesn't mean he reflects those fears back onto himself as a person lol. at least kid got better)
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Publishing has always been a fucking nightmare, but now it’s a layer of hell. It’s not enough that writers be good at what they do. Writers have to maintain an active social media presence and cultivate a following. Be available.
They have to be conventionally attractive enough to look good enough to see on a screen, aesthetically pleasing, kind, funny, up-to-date on trends, socially aware but not so controversial that they turn off a brand from California from slapping their discount code on a video promoting a book.
They have to do all of this with no media training, with little help from the companies that are supposed to be doing this for them.
Of course, a lot of this isn't possible for say, the 40-something mother of two who teaches English at a school and writes on the side. She’s boxed out of an already complex industry that already has enough walls.
On some level, I think authors have always marketed themselves a little, but we’ve reached such a crazy point where we’re demanding the author become the influencer. Accessibility in publishing has narrowed from an inch to a sliver. And that inch was hard enough to get in as is.
#This is about traditional publishing but there’s pretty privilege and ageism in self publishing too#I can’t think of the last time I saw an up and coming author recording videos who was over thirty#And frankly that’s a shame#It could be that I’m not looking hard enough#but it’s more likely that algorithms are trained the way they are#truly I don’t think they should have to do any of that at all#And forgive me but (and I know it’s rich because I’m an artist on a platform) but art shouldn’t be at the mercy of an algorithm#Now there’s also something to be said about self publishing becoming easier and easier to achieve success in#And doors opening because of influencer status is real and makes publishing wider in a way#But that doesn’t mean it’s accessible#I’m not gonna plaster my health issues over the wall but that life is certainly not accessible to me!#are you healthy enough to write and make sure people on social media still want to like your stuff#are you mentally well enough to be your own pr#I’m sure people who have studied this have more to say and have said it better but this is what I’ve observed#writing#publishing#publishing industry
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PSA for TF2 Fanartists
(And... really for everyone on the creative side of the fandom, but artists are the ones hurt by this the most.)
I've been seeing some really concerning stuff here that is going unnoticed. Granted, I don't think this is any artist's fault--if anything, the artists are the victims here. But that's why I want to make you guys aware of this, so you can protect yourself from this sort of thing.
"This sort of thing" being a little something called fetish mining.
Fetish mining is when someone with a specific fetish attempts to trick someone else into providing them with content for their fetish... without letting them know that's what they're asking for. Outside of fandom spaces, this can look like someone with a foot fetish approaching someone who is selling socks, and asking them to "model" the socks for them--they're not actually interested in buying the socks, they just want to see pictures of feet.
Within fandom spaces, however, they often take the form of someone repeatedly requesting something featuring a very specific body part of a character, or repeatedly requesting art of a character performing a weirdly specific action. (The repeated part is important here--someone could just say "oh hey could you draw this character shirtless?" once, and that would probably be fine. There's a chance it could be a fetish thing, sure, but it's significantly less likely. Same with a really random request--someone could request something really specific, but if they only do so once, it's significantly less likely to be a fetish mining request.) They might also provide an excuse like, "oh, I think this would be really funny! :)" or "this is a joke request! but it would be hilarious if you drew it"
So what are some examples of this?
Well... they might look a little something like this:
[ID: Two screenshots of two different anonymous asks. The first one reads "HEAVY TF2 TUMMY" with multiple red exclamation points afterward, and the second reads "Sniper tf2 teeth" followed by multiple red exclamation points. /end ID]
(I was going to feature another but then realized it wasn't anonymous, and I'm not comfortable putting an actual blog on blast.)
If these were just one-off asks, that would be one thing, but if you look up these things, you'll see dozens of these asks.
As well, there's nothing wrong with drawing Heavy shirtless, or drawing Sniper baring his teeth. Having fetishes for stomachs or teeth is not wrong, either, nor is specifically requesting fetish art (so long as the artist is okay with such requests)!
The problem is that the specificness of these asks, combined with how frequently these asks get sent, are signs of fetish mining.
(Though another problem is that... this isn't always a 100%-for-sure sign of fetish mining. Some people have special interests that might not be a typical thing like a fandom or hobby or branch of science, but could just be something oddly specific like stomachs or teeth. These things are okay and are not bad! But requests relating to these things can, unfortunately, look identical to fetish mining.)
And again, fetish mining is a person sneakily asking for someone else to provide them with something that is fetish material for them--something that is sexual for them--without letting that person know that's what it's for.
This makes it a form of sexual harassment.
I feel like a lot of the fandom is... not really aware of what's going on, here, and it's distressing. These are very likely bad actors trying to take advantage of people and get away with sexually harassing others (including minors). This is not okay. No part of that is okay.
The best thing to do when faced with a request that seems oddly specific is to look it up, and, if there seem to be multiple requests of this nature, to ignore it--do not fulfill the request. Do not encourage this behavior. (Unless you're okay with drawing that kind of content, but like... if that's the case, then tag your work appropriately.)
Don't feel bad if you've fulfilled some of these requests in the past--you didn't know, and being tricked is not your fault. But now that you do know, you can hopefully better protect yourself from this kind of thing.
#team fortress 2#tf2#tf2 heavy#tf2 sniper#I have had Anxiety about posting this because I'm not trying to start something#I am just concerned because I've encountered this stuff in other fandoms before#but it's been like... way better recognized there#I don't know why more people aren't noticing it here#or why it's become so weirdly accepted
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