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Every once in awhile I see something like this come around. Where it's acknowledged that shit is just fucking hard. And our brains are reacting to shit being hard! Being stressed and tired and sad happens when life sucks! That's not your brain malfunctioning! How many cases of anxiety and depression would be "magically" cured if we weren't all living in a queerphobic, sexist, racist, late-capitalist dystopian hellscape? I don't know, but I'd bet it's a lot of them.
you ever get tired of living but in a non-suicidal way
#mental health#depression#this is not to say depression caused by chemical imbalances isnt real#im very sure that it is#but i cant help but feel that we have so many cases of trying to medicate people#who just need to not be working themselves to death to survive#who need to have space and time to breath#and to be able to enjoy life#were animals in a zoo with no fucking enrichment#and the zookeepers wonder why we dont want to do anything
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I'm back in the Tigers cage again.
(You too can join in on throwing a Rat Of A Man into a Tiger cage by reading Tiger Tiger)
#non mdzs#Still need a sona tag name...#Tiger tiger#When I say 'I need to hunt him down for blood' what I really mean is:#'I really like this character and I enjoy how he's able to provoke emotion in the readers'.#Thank you Petra for being such an amazing writer!#The penultimate chapter of Tiger Tiger is underway! I'm so excited to see how things will conclude!#There is truly no better time to be getting into Tiger Tiger than right now! Don't wait!#More TIger's comics *are* on the horizon. So sorry for underfeeding you guys.#Life got busy and I ended up taking a break for 2 months but I am *back* and I won't be leaving any time soon.#I got a tad overwhelmed with the discord; it's a fun place to chat but very busy - I'll try and pop in more often.
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I like the idea of Sonic being just as heroic as he is selfish - cuz the core motivation for half of what he does when in regards to Eggman and the world or whatever is going on at the time is cuz he himself enjoys those adventures, and not because he feels some sort of selfless obligation over his natural abilities to do anything that he does.
#sonic the hedgehog#ahhh lots of things i could add to this so i will#but#i enjoy that aspect of his character#that he isn’t a typical hero who does things cuz ‘you should always use your powers for good and for the better and to help people’#cuz like yeah he does do that#and i know he very much so believes in people being able to live freely and do what they want#and i think that also stems from him enjoying his own freedom and not being able to imagine living a life where he couldn’t#be free to do whatever he wants.#but it also is like yeah he also does this stuff cuz he just enjoys adventures and using his skills to the fullest and just having fun
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lol arthur realizes with the other knights after watching merlin flirt and being hit with a wave of deja vu: holy shit you asked me out
merlin and the rest of the knights around a campfire after leaving a village bc lancelot and leon somehow started a brawl in the tavern: ???
arthur points at merlin: after valiant! you asked me to buy you a drink! you were asking me out!
merlin is busy cooking dinner and confused out of his fucking mind: what???…..valiant….oh the knight with the snakes.
gwaine who was slightly tipsy now stone cold sober and sitting up straight against a tree: wait. explain. what do you mean merlin asked you out??
arthur snaps his fingers as he recalls the memory: i apologized for sacking you and you said that if i bought you a drink we’d be even.
merlin now remembering how he had stumbled into camelot, picked a fight with a pigheaded bully which quickly turned homoerotic and flirtatious, and continued their teasing-flirting for days before merlin shot his shot and asked the prince out only to be rejected: oh yeah, i forgot i did that…..wait, you mean you didnt realize what i was asking?
arthur: no?? we argued everyday, how was i supposed to realize you were asking me out??
merlin now abandoning the dinner and staring across the camp at arthur while the rest of the knights watch their back and forth like a game of tennis: to you we were arguing, to me that was very much flirting. i thought you were flirting back so i decided to ask you. then you rejected me
arthur, mentally beating his past self up for fucking up their chance: i didn’t reject you!!! i just didn’t realize what you were asking me. how was i meant to? we fought every chance we got
leon, nudging elyan, glee and excitement riling through him: its happening!!! its finally happening!!! seven long, grueling years is finally paying off!!!
merlin, realizing the misunderstanding and acknowledging the fact that he wasn’t rejected, his flirtations just weren’t noticed - realizing he still has a chance: oh…oh i see. arthur, my dear, our fights were extremely flirtatious. need i remind you of what you said? “do you know how to walk on your knees? would you like me to teach you?” or “i could take you apart with one blow”
arthur, mental capabilities at an all time low: m…my dear….?????????
merlin grinning devilishly as he realizes that his flirtatious persona he had hidden away after falling head over heels for arthur can make a come back: that is what i called you. should i call you something else? say…mine?
percival gags in elyan’s ear: cheesy
elyan hides a laugh: at least they’re finally getting somewhere. better than the hopeless pining
arthur, flushed from head to toe: ah uh no um im uh
merlin thoroughly enjoying himself: oh come now, your majesty. use your words.
#meanwhile leon is praying his thanks to every god and goddess above for their mercy#his pain and suffering is so over#merlin is going IN on arthur who is red as fuck#gwaine is enjoying himself immensely#lancelot pulls out popcorn to watch the two idiots finally get their acts together#flirty merlin x flustered arthur#i think yes#listen. merlin lived in ealdor. a small village of maybe thirty people - four or five being his own age#he was thrilled to be in camelot and have new faces and people to meet#he was definitely the village tease or flirt or whatever#he was gonna be a rake in camelot but unfortunately managed to fall hopelessly in love with the prince of camelot#he burned his dreams of being a rake in exchange for arthur#the issue? arthur rejected his advances. next issue? merlin’s feelings remained and grew#so merlin is a lovesick puppy for a prince who doesnt feel the same and he cant find it in himself to look at anyone else bar a few cases#he and lancelot def slept together at least once. him and gwaine tumbled into bed a few times together#but his heart always belonged to arthur he just never imagined hed get a chance to let his affection be known#now that he knows arthur never knew of his intentions in the first place and was quick to deny he rejected him#merlin is more than happy to let that part of his personality come back and terrorize arthur is a way he hadnt been able to before#hes living his best life rn#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#merthur#knights of the round table#fanfiction ideas#prompts#headcanon
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✷ purest thoughts ✷
if this resonates with you, feel free to support this lil creacher living paycheck to paycheck! ► my ko-fi page ☕️
#illustration#aesthetic#plants#magic#esoteric#ecosystem#blue#pink#morning glory#stars#forget me not#flowers#magical#mental health#hey!! its been awhile. i hope you've been well <3#art ph#portfolio#art fart#prinsomnia#being an adult is hard. i miss the simpler days when i was younger when i was able to not worry so much abt my bills and surviving and just#keep drawing#i still have so much to figure out but i'll keep going#life has become kinder to me despite the hardships and i'm extremely grateful for that#so i'm sending you all the hugs and the support if u need it! i hope you enjoy this piece. :~)#thank you for viewing and supporting me!
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I think it’s safe to say Ranchers Win These
(In the silence between the last two panels, there is a 20 page comic in my head filled with flashbacks of every moment Scott teased, scolded, or dismissed Jimmy—and every moment where Tango was instead kind, patient, and proud)
#limited life smp#limlife#limited life#24lsmp#jimmy solidarity#Scott smajor#smajor#implied ranchers but I won’t tag it I suppose#Jimmy#solidaritygaming#solidarity gaming#Scott#art escapades#LISTEN I LOVE SCOTT SMAJOR TO DEATH NOTHING AGAINST HIM AND NOTHING AGAINST ANYONE WHO SHIPS FLOWER HUSBANDS#/gen!!! i honestly like flower husbands a lot#but I just think. that jimmy deserves someone who is kinder to him and that jimmy should be able to grow as a person and decide who he->#keeps in his life and who he moves on from#that’s all <3#nothing against any ship or anyone :]] i'm just being goofy and enjoy spinning things to my current preferences ehehe#please don't read any malicious intent! i have none! just being silly goofy and making art for a fun spin on this moment
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@praxinas warlock Harlow, for the very last day of Artfight 2023!
I love the Eliksni armor from Season of Splicer and the aesthetic, just in general
#I love this piece of armor for warlock but apparently can't draw it to save my life :P#This last week was straight from the long week factory so I wasn't able to get all her details right but I tried!#Hope you enjoy!#destiny 2#It's supposed to be the big servitor from season of Splicer! Tried to photobash it together but it was rough lol#others oc#Pixel art#Pixel#Digital art#oc#artists on tumblr#cyberpunk#Eliksni#Servitor#Warlock
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but my heart is like a claw machine
#undescribed#bonk.png#great god grove#ggg#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#isttvg spoilers#she/her for hector on this post please n thank you#i had a bunch of tags attempting to explain this whole thing n post game transfem hector hc but the og post didnt show up in the tags#n its like 5:30 something n i was already having trouble explaining it bc ive had like four hours of sleep so i sadly cant talk about gender#stuff like i wanted to in full detail so something something sanding self down to be nonthreatening n palatable#something something the way players (myself included) falsely believed king was a man despite many of us being trans or otherwise queer#n pre endgame king only being referred to with they/them something something men as the default as problem solvers as leaders the heroes of#the story something something hector's envy of the way king is loved n admired n able to be heard as herself#hector's fear of death n irrelevance driving her to do the shit she did n the main theme of isttvg (aside from transgenderism) being fear of#death n how denying yourself will cause you to become irrelevant in ur own life disconnected from everything as the years fly by#theres still time.#enjoy the bullet points its almost six am im gonna pass out#wiat also fixation on youth in both how we view n associate feminity n what is normally explored n portrayed with transgendering
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"Dark Beginnings" brings up something that was likely implied before but I never considered, which is that Shadow didn't share Maria's fascination with Earth.
Maria would often tell Shadow about Earth's beauty but he never returned the enthusiasm, he only cared about curing his sister. Besides, the ARK was all he had ever known.
So of course Shadow's disinterest towards Earth turns into hatred after the GUN incident, and his revenge is only stopped thanks to Maria's memory. Even in the present, you could argue Shadow doesn't care for Earth very much.
#Shadow is so goal-oriented because he was literally made to achieve one specific goal#so he didn't care much about Earth. Saving Maria was the only thing that mattered#Maria was likely aware and tried to help distract Shadow and teach him to enjoy the beauty and other pleasures of life#But Shadow never changed in that regard. He just jumps from one mission to another and rarely deviates from it#only very one specific person is able to distract him#sonic the hedgehog#sonic x shadow generations#dark beginnings#sonic x shadow generations dark beginnings#dark beginnings spoilers#maria robotnik#shadow the hedgehog
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(BUT IT IS.)
versions with less & no text :)
#isat spoilers#in stars and time#mal du pays#siffrin#siffrin isat#siffrin in stars and time#mal du pays isat#mal du pays in stars and time#this game has changed my life and NOT for the better.#i havent been able to stop thinking about it#i barely post art here so enjoy this. goodbye
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fast sketch of ominis & fast intro to the ominis longfic I'm working on!! This is going to be the most self-indulgent pride and prejudice ripoff that ever existed, 100% based on the ominis of my oneshot💘
I am just OBSESSED with exploring the idea that he’s a natural legilimens & OBSESSED with the thought that he thinks too much for his own good🫶🫶🫶
Ominis Gaunt has always suspected he is cold-blooded.
It makes sense, really.
He always seems to be cold: frigid, long fingers that are often stiff and difficult to move; goosebumps raising the skin of his arms and the back of his neck any time he walks through the drafty halls of the dungeons; even his eyes, he has been told, are reminiscent of ice. They are apparently quite unsettling. The only time he feels comfortable in his body is when he basks in the heat of the sun.
His earliest memory is of the cold. It went like this: he was four years old: his older brother, Marvolo, had led him outside as a joke, he swore up and down that it was just a small joke, and how was he supposed to know that poor, blind Ominis would not be able to find his way back home? When his parents had finally found him, his frail mother sobbing and holding his tiny, blue, hypothermic body to her chest, Ominis remembers feeling quite perturbed at the disturbance. Couldn’t he just be left alone, in the silent soft snow?
He does not know if he has ever felt warm since.
As he strides through the dungeons, the copious amount of warming charms he casts on himself do not seem to be enough, but he keeps casting them anyways and also: wrapping his wool scarf more tightly around his neck, quickening his pace in the hopes that blood flows more easily through his limbs, wishing that he had remembered his gloves. Winter is always a terrible time of year (this winter more terrible than usual), and every breath of warm air leaves his lips reluctantly. How he wishes that he could just hold on to it a bit longer and yet the warmth leaves him precisely fifteen traitorous times a minute, the frigid air gleefully entering and burning its way down his throat in response. Maybe it’s a punishment of some sort.
His whole life has been defined by punishments and sometimes he preoccupies himself with the thought that it is the only way he can view the world. Most of the punishments are manifested in curses inherited from his family. (His parents and Marvolo insist that they are gifts, but Ominis begs to differ.)
First, his blindness: the only true punishment-curse that even his family rejects: caused by inbreeding, no doubt. He did not cry after his birth and his mother cradled his tiny body in silent arms, lovingly whispering nonsense-evil-Parseltongue to him but when he opened his eyes and she saw a brilliant celestine blue with no iris, she screamed in horror and shattered the frigid peace of the room. His parents tried everything to fix him, make him whole, throwing money at various possible solutions to no avail. Magically induced disabilities are not, apparently, curable by magic.
Ominis is not sure that he hates being blind, although he suspects everyone thinks that he should. It is as much a part of him as his fifteen-breaths-per-minute, and he thinks that vision is not all it’s cracked up to be. He is always terrified at the thought that his tenuous hold on sanity is only due to the fact that he cannot see, until he realizes he shouldn’t be terrified of hypothetical situations that cannot come to pass. He consoles himself with the thought that maybe, if he has had to give up his vision for his sanity, it is a small price to pay. Although, he also thinks sometimes that it would be nice to live a life without any morality holding him back.
He is entirely too introspective, after all.
It is precisely this introspection that is his downfall in this moment (and his cold blood). Ominis is so busy casting warming charms on himself and thinking in circles that he cannot use his wand to help him sense his environment and so he should not be surprised when he crashes into her.
And yet he is. Terribly surprised.
Maybe if he were not so caught up in his own thoughts he could have paid more attention to his surroundings. Instead, he spent too much time ruminating on his reptilian heritage and has now barreled head first into his arch-nemesis.
Rosalie Harris.
The girl who has stolen his oldest friend from him.
The girl who is currently making angry noises as she clambers to her feet and is picking up the things that he has crashed everywhere. Even if he could see, Ominis is not sure he would help her. Helping her would be akin to betraying himself, after all.
“Hey! Watch where you’re - oh, hello, Ominis.”
“Rosalie,” he says shortly, nodding his head where he thinks she might be standing and stepping to the side. He tightens his grip around his wand, feeling the texture of the wood change from rough to smooth as he runs his thumb down it. Smooth where he always seems to worry it, rough where the wood refuses to yield to the brushes of his thumb.
He surreptitiously casts the spell - he has at least done it so many times he no longer needs to say it out loud - and his surroundings light up. Or, he supposes that is the most apt description, considering he cannot actually differentiate between light and dark. He senses Rosalie’s silhouette to his left - she is standing with her arms crossed and her foot taps impatiently as she waits for him.
Waiting for what? he thinks, slightly irritated. She never seems to leave him alone and he wracks his brain trying to think of something, anything he can say to get rid of her.
Maybe if he speaks in Parseltongue, she would finally be scared away for good. He does not really want that second reminder of his family’s curse, though.
His family preferred speaking in Parseltongue with each other, believing the ability made them morally superior to everyone else and Ominis had not even realized until he had arrived at Hogwarts that no, it was not normal. When his name had been called at the Sorting, furious whispers had erupted amongst all the students, and his every step (terrified, confused, unsure - he had still been getting used to using his wand to navigate his surroundings) to the stool at the front of the Great Hall was plagued with a susurration reminiscent of snakes. Except these whispers, sneaking their way into his mind, had been unkind and overwhelming.
(He had not realized in that moment that he was also hearing their thoughts.)
Maybe now, with Rosalie standing in front of him and just annoyingly waiting for Merlin-knows-what, Ominis should use his Legilimency to find out what Rosalie wants. (He hates it, though.) It would not be difficult. (The thought makes him shiver in horror because he doesn’t want to abuse the ability.) He can feel the edges of her mind, her magic, and all he has to do is reach out - she is right there, and -
“Ominis?”
Her arms are crossed, he hears an impatient huff.
Why hasn’t she left him alone yet?
Hadn’t the Hogwarts Express already left the station, bringing all of the students home for the winter holiday? Ominis had thought he would be one of the only students left in the castle, and if he is being honest with himself, he had been looking quite forward to having the place to himself.
Ominis’s winter has just gotten infinitely worse.
Going to Gaunt Manor for the holidays is out of the question (he will not think about the nightmares that have been plaguing him ever since he received the owl demanding he go home), and Ominis does not want to be more of a burden to the Sallows. They already do enough for him over the summer, and Sebastian and Anne have convinced him to go to Hogsmeade with them at least twice over the next two weeks. Besides, with Anne’s curse progressing, Ominis does not want to be in the way.
“Why are you still here?” Ominis asks. He knows his voice comes across as cold as his blood, blunt, but he cannot help himself. Ever since Rosalie arrived - her entrance to Hogwarts also causing quite the stir - Ominis has been intensely annoyed by her presence. She is too happy. Too carefree. Too…well, everything he is not.
And, she does not seem to leave him alone.
Rosalie is always there, always hanging around Sebastian. (Taking Sebastian away.) He even showed her the Undercroft, which had almost caused a rift in their relationship. Ominis could not believe that Sebastian would be so careless, showing someone who for all intents and purposes is crashing her way into their lives, forcing them to pay attention to her. They barely even knew her, and yet Sebastian thought it was a good idea to show her such a sacred place?
(It does not help that she is intelligent, and Ominis has caught himself on more than one occasion about to ask her about her opinion on something before he catches himself.)
“I was looking for you.”
Ominis tilts his head at that and fiddles with his ring. He considers walking away, leaving -
“I mean…Sebastian said that you were also going to be here over the holidays and since everyone else just left I thought -”
“Thought what?” Internally, Ominis winces at the biting tone to his voice. It came out harsher than he intended, his voice loud and echoing through his mind, bouncing off the cold, stone walls surrounding them.
#the girl’s name and gender tbh is subject to change#I’m having a lot of fun writing this up but it was all just written up on a whim#idk when I’ll FULLY be able to commit to this#but I always have so much fun writing his POV#SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY!!! & forgive the messy sketch😆#honestly most of this is subject to be edited and/or changed#bc you are getting my writing before any editing whatsoever here😳#I just love the idea of Ominis being so full of conflicting pride and shame and lots of confusion#and the love interest to be so annoying and bratty and headstrong#basically an Elizabeth Bennet you know…she always thinks she’s right (she isn’t) and her first impressions are the law#I’m actually reading Mansfield Park now…Jane Austen please bless me as I write tonight😌🙏#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#ominis gaunt fanfiction#ominis#ominis x mc#hogwarts legacy ominis#ominis gaunt#ominis gaunt fanart#also I have WAY MORE WRITTEN!!! mostly just unconnected ramblings from his pov about how he thinks about life#& snapshots of his first year at Hogwarts 🥺🥺🥺#I really am an Ominis girl…#hogwarts legacy fanfic
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Not beating the allegations.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jiang cheng#su she#lan qiren#(I oscillated between writing a funny or a serious final comic for season 2 so hard I did both. Enjoy the funny bonus!)#Woah hey! Two characters we have not seen in a long time!#Su She hasn't been seen in 100 comics! Unfortunately LWJ has a taste for his blood. He has only moments left to live.#I honestly thought LQR died (adaption memory blur) and I did *not* expect him to show up here.#That said it does act as a way more personal blow to LWJ's reputation for LQR to be there.#By staying on WWX's side he's not only throwing his reputation to the wind but also facing familial judgment.#It hits so much harder when the choice isn't an easy one to make.#Choosing to stand at someone's side when they *have* actually messed up - when they do have faults and flaws - that's love.#Love is hard work! Love is not low maintenance and good days every day.#Love is being able to say 'I am choosing to bear your weight when things are heavy.' Love is doing that reciprocally.#Which is 100% a real life lesson I am passing on#And also a plea for why it is so important we give credit to WWX's atrocities.#He *did* do some of that shit. He isn't fully innocent and it gives LWJ's choice so much more weight.
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new siren au chapter is up!
#charthur#hello life has been hitting me hard but not hard enough not to write mpreg aus#enjoy!#sorry this took so long i haven't been able to breathe lmaooo#siren au#my fic#rdr2#fanart by me#arthur morgan#charles smith
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Y’know what would be nice?
If that the series ended off with Knuckles returning home to Sonic, Tails and Maddie, and (after the rapid fire of questions and scolding for running away which is most likely prone to happen lol) begins to tell them about how he realised he isn’t living with them just to fulfil a vow of protecting the M.E anymore, but rather because he finally found his home
He explains how he finally understands the definition of “home” and what makes one
And if it’s anywhere he is most at home (since losing his tribe), it’s in the small town of Green Hills, with the Wachowski family, because with them is where his place of belonging lies…they are his home, and always were from the moment they took him in
Yeah, I think that would be nice
#*cue wholesome family moment*#sorry if this sounds corny I’m terrible at putting my thoughts into words ;—;#I just thought that since the loss of his tribe he lost his sense of belonging#he lost his home#and for him to finally figure out where his new home lies#which turns out to be the place where he said he only stayed just to guard a shiny magical rock#idk it’s touching to me#and I think that now he knows he’s able to enjoy life in new ways#sez says#knuckles#knuckles 2024#knuckles series#knuckles tv show#knuckles series spoilers#knuckles spoilers#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#knuckles the echidna#sonic wachowski#tails wachowski#knuckles wachowski#maddie wachowski#wachowski family#sth#sonic movie#movie sonic#movie tails#movie knuckles#scu#sonic cinematic universe
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The WALL-E au no one asked for
#i can't even watch an animated film without finding a way to shove those stupid homo pilots in it#anyways i was thinking for this au it follows the same premise/story as wall-e where the human race has left earth due to uninhabitable#conditions but instead of robots it's select groups of people chosen to stay behind to “clean up”#by clean up i mean they're actually being left for dead because the ones being left have rendered lawless by upper command#or troublesome/rebellious etc etc#but the groups they're able to live for a few generations with the resources and stuff they have. hence mav#mav is out scouting or doing whatever solo when the ship lands and out comes one (1) iceman kazansky#looking for some sort of proof of life (those among the space vessel assuming everyone/everything has perished by this point)#shenanigans ensue#they fall in love and bring the ship back to earth yadda yadda#idk it's too late to form coherent sentences#hope you enjoy my silly word vomit#top gun#top gun au#tom iceman kazansky#pete maverick mitchell#icemav#wall-e! au#top gun art#top gun fanart#frozen's art tag#tw blood#< just in case
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i feel sick
#i know fearmongering doesn't help but i can't stop shaking#i feel like on top of the very real danger for anyone who's not white/straight/cis/male#we're going to have a magor cleansing of the online content i love#my brain cant even wrap around how to begin to be normal right now#i have fucking work today#i feel like life was supposed to be starting and now its over#and i know. life prevails#but i want a good life. i want the people i care about to be safe. i want to be able to have a partner one day.#i want to enjoy queer content online#i cant formulate thoughts right now#and im aorry for adding to what's certainly just doom typing#but im struggling to see any way this is not goong to destroy every part of my life i hold dear
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