#i cant formulate thoughts right now

[petricorah]

i feel sick

[electricpurrs]

sick, tired, with a covid fever, hallucinating: og my god.......sonic theh hjedgehog..........

[unreversedumbrella]

the way some people talk about princess bubblegum is insane. watching this youtube video Princess Bubblegum: adventure time's secret villain? and in just the first 8 minutes everything the guy has said was either incredibly exagerated or just plain wrong

the thing is. this sort of analysis demands that we believe PB has an hidden evil nature. that she's hidding things from us. things the series never elaborates upon. this sort of analysis demands us to believe that PB is a real person with real toughts in her head and hot take: she isn't. she's a character in a kids show. 90% of what she says is supposed to be taken as truth

[delightfuldevin]

Simultaneously having Mario brain and squid brain and freaking out about it

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

Hey but Devereaux (the character) in this ^ line praying to their grandfather and being met with silence vs at the end the lines directed from their parents/the rest of their religious group saying THIS

FUCKED UP.

[miiyoshi]

slurred

iwaizumi x reader -- cw: drinking, bar environment, iwa is quite drunk wc: 695// an: feeling cutsey today! wrote another fluff :)

iwaizumi takes another sip out of his drink as the atmosphere around him is the most vibrant it’s been all night. in the cracks of the city there sits a bar, not too big and not too small. it’s more of a shared secret between you and the seijoh four, a common meet up location when all five schedules finally align once in a full moon.

the lights are dim enough that you have to turn your screen brightness lower than before you entered, a general buzz of sound due to the ongoing conversations, and a very sweet tight knit staff who know you and your friends by name at this point.

oikawa’s taking photos with makki in the shared booth you’re all situated in, mattsun at the bar chatting with the bartender as he prepares your group with a new round of drinks, and you sitting at the edge with iwaizumi to your left.

“you doing okay?” you turn to iwa as you see him swish his beer in the bottle with his right hand

“mhm” he hums back “feelin’ good, s’a good time. you?” you know he’s far gone when he slurs his words like this

“i’m good as well! think i’m done drinking for the night though, i have an early day tomorrow”

“s’okay!” iwa insists loudly, throwing his arm over your shoulder and pulling you close. his voice little too loud that oikawa and makki turn to him for a moment and you miss a sly grin creeping up on oikawa’s face when he sees the scene in front of him

“let’s do one more round of drinks together,” iwazumi continues

“maybe another time iwa,” you return with a smile

you can see the gears turning in his head just by looking at his face deep in thought and you give iwaizumi a few moments to formulate his words.

he mumbles your name quiet enough so that the others don’t hear. “need to say something..need to tell you something but you can’t tell anyone, ok?” his face is so close to yours, you can’t help but hold your breath in anticipation. he’s close enough that you smell his refreshing cologne, you’re able to see the way his muscles stretch the sleeves of his shirt (he needs to size up), and the way his hair looks spikier than usual now that he’s been sweating throughout the evening.

“of course iwa, what is it?”

“but you cant tell, you promise? you have to promise”

“yes, i promise!” you giggle

“m’gonna make you mine one day.”

now the gears are turning in your head as you try to process his words

“i’m sorry? what was that?”

“shhh but don’t tell okay???” iwaizumi brings his index finger to your mouth, gesturing a shushing motion.

“i told oikawa this already, and i told him to not tell. he says i need to confess to you first, like obviously that dumbass, but yeah m’ gonna make you mine”

you try your best to hold back a laugh from oikawa’s name being brought up, “did oikawa encourage you to tell me this?” you tease him, but iwaizumi doesn’t quite pick up your tone in this state.

“exactly!” iwaizumi nods, once again dragging out his words, “how’d you know?”

of course he did. and you knew it had something to do with oikawa’s antics because that’s what he’s been telling you this entire time as well. oikawa was always one to tease you about your crush on iwaizumi, always encouraging you to just confess already! and it’s evident now that he’s been telling iwaizumi the exact same thing this entire time.

except for iwaizumi in his buzzed state, he actually does end up listening to his friend’s advice and exposes himself.

“lucky guess,” you tease iwa with a wink.

in the morning, you know iwaizumi will forget everything that he said to you, you know that the two of you will go back to friends who keep teetering the edge of friends and lovers, but what you don’t know is iwaizumi has already thought of a way to ask you out soon; sober, this time.

[eggyeop]

love galore

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synopsis: you and toji were fwb, but it was until you caught feelings for him; when you sought for more than just partially his love-- when you disappeared out of his life.

themes: angst

based on love galore - sza.

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‘i came to your city looking for love n’ licky cause you promised to put it down..’

he showed up to your door again. after you had agreed to end your ‘special’ friendship, the one you sought out to fufill your needs.

“i need you.” he said. “uh, i need you so bad. my house feels so empty, i need you to be there with me.”

he wasn’t drunk this time either.

you wanted to invite him in. you wanted to kiss him again. but you knew what he was, how could you destroy your pride like that again?

‘all up in your city lookin for you, uh’

you were accumulating more feelings for him by the second. the way he treated you for that short time, it felt so much like love. too much like love.

‘searchin for you like, (love)’

you wanted to tell him. but the provocative words that would accumulate at the mention of his name, how could you even gain the courage to kiss him with love again? it was stupid of you to even try.

you wanted him to tell you right there how much he needed to be with you, how much he missed you.

‘only thing keeping me from, dropping you by now. (by now.)’

“you know i can’t…. i..” you couldn’t formulate your words. “we don’t know each other to love each other. you know that.”

“but,”

‘(love)’

“toji. tell me you love me.”

he pressed his lips together.

‘only thing keeping me by your side,’

“can we just work this out? please?”

“can you work this out?” you said bitterly.

this feeling was unfamiliar to him. your usual pining and non-hesitance to let him into your life had gave him someone to fall back on.

"only thing keeping me by your side now.”

he didn’t know if he loved you. he thought of you while he fucked around with other women.

he hadn’t talked to you for months now. he might've thought of you throughout those months.

a man will keep a woman around for when she's useful to him, they say.

but thats because she will always open her door to him.

but see, if you don't say something, speak up for yourself.

they think you stupid,

you know what i'm saying? ...

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an: i cant believe i forgot the entire quote for the end, i just know it had something to do with how a man will keep her around but she will always open the door for him or something like that i searched it on everything and it just gave me a bunch of articles about manners and opening the door for women im crying bruh. if yall want a more in depth part two ill do it i love angst but i also love me a happy ending i wish i could read this without knowing i wrote it lol. ill probably be updating this a lot if i see any errors or shit that doesnt make sense thumbs up !

i also couldn't find a good theme for this so just.. i dont knw. plz. im too lazy to theme my entire acc lmfao

listen to love galore while reading this that was the vibe of this i think

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[aeonophagic]

voidwelt thoughts ,,,, begging

i cant think when i have this mage in front of me… theyre so fucking moe… i love the doodle of them biting the star of Eden it reminds me of this. voidwelt IS a bit like hilson if you think about it.

Anyhow I’m not very good at formulating my thoughts BUT the voidwelt that rotates in my head right now is situated in Penacony… I like to think Void Archives is there because they’re interested in the inner workings of the Dreamscape, so when they see Welt around Golden Hour, they’re like oh shit oh fuck cause they’re not Yet ready to see him again… I like to think they left the Astral Express cause they couldn’t figure out what he made them feel and it drove them mad like an advanced form of cuteness aggression

[noyasaur]

hii!! i have a few shifting questions im a bit new lol

can you prove shifting is real? im trying to shift but i cant get over the fact that it might not be real and that im wasting my life yk?

do i have to script personalities or appearances to existing characters or will they jut be like they are in the show/game?

how can i be more motivated to shift?

sorry if this doesnt make sense! im a bit bad at english even though its my first language lol

anyways have a great day!!

₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

hihi anon ! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ i hope you're doing well and welcome! i hope your journey is going well so far! and don't worry, your questions made perfect sense! and i also apologise for taking so long to answer your questions, i spent a lot of time trying to formulate the right answers for your questions so i hope i'm able to help 😭 and sorry for the super long answer!

anyway, let's answer your questions~

🪐 CAN YOU PROVE SHIFTING IS REAL?

honestly, this is a tricky one. i want to be very honest with you and i, in no way want to demotivate you at all! right now, the only way of 'proving' shifting (at least, to my knowledge) is through experiencing shifting ourselves, or trusting other shifter's word as proof of reality shifting. regarding scientific research and proof behind reality shifting, to my knowledge, there are no studies that directly investigate reality shifting. i also feel like reality shifting would already be incredibly difficult to prove already on top of the existence of infinite realities/potentials, thus leading to an extension of an infinite amount of different variables.

reality shifting is a very personal experience and one's journey and experience will differ from person to person. unfortunately, in the current state of our reality, reality shifting has not been scientifically proven.. yet.

reality shifting is on of those experiences where you just have to form your own beliefs on it, and trust yourself and others. i like to think of it this way. take our own consciousness for example- we are all conscious right now, correct? we all know we have consciousness. it's a known fact. however, very little is known about our own consciousness, it's origins and it's power. but we all know that we have a consciousness, and we can't prove it to anyone yet but ourselves.

people thought lucid dreaming wasn't real many years ago and now people recognise it as a legitimate practice. same with astral projection, and out of body experiences.

and i know shifting is real because i have experienced parallel reality shifts (some intentional and some unintentional) and mini-shifts myself.

however, not all hope is lost! are there studies and theories on infinite universes, parallel realities and the multiverse? yep! are there studies on consciousness, quantum mechanics and biophotons? yes! there are plenty of studies, theories, and concepts that can be linked together and used to scientifically determine how reality shifting is even possible in the first place. yes, it's one of those things that isn't believed or accepted by the general public, but it exists. we may not know exactly how and we can only theorise, but there are connections that can be made.

now, i completely understand your worries on how reality shifting might not be real. that's totally valid! especially speaking since we've been conditioned out whole lives to think otherwise. that we only have one shot at life and we have to work hard to get our desires, but know we now that's the opposite? we can live an infinite amount of lives and have an infinite amount of parallel realities? we are the creators of our own reality and we have the power to shape what we experience?

however, this is where you come in. i highly recommend that to reassure your worries, find these answers out for yourself. determine what exactly reality shifting is for you and find how it is possible, instead of worrying about what if it's not possible. i'm not a fan of overconsumption of shifting information, however i think it's good to do a deep dive on shifting every now and then to help you open your mind to question what reality shifting is and how it's possible. then, when you've formed your own beliefs on shifting, it's easier to validate your belief and trust in shifting since you've discovered yourself how it's possible and what it is to you! that way, you won't need to worry about any external shaking your beliefs or making you worry about whether shifting is real or not because YOU have personally worked out how it's possible for you.

explore and read about other people's experiences, beliefs and theories on shifting. read scientific papers on concepts relating to shifting such as The Many Worlds Theory, multiverses, and parallel realities. read about the Law of Assumption and consciousness. read shifting success stories! just anything that relates to shifting. and don't worry, at the end of this post, i'll link some helpful resources at the end that have helped me explore deeper into how reality shifting is possible!

and if you're worried about wasting your life away on reality shifting, something that could help is to normalise reality shifting. what i mean by that is see reality shifting as something that is an everyday casual thing (which it is). think of it as a hobby, and not something you don't need to be heavily obsessed over. become content with the fact that, "oh, there's this super cool thing i can do! i can shift realities, i'll try it. oh, i didn't shift, that's okay i'll try again next time. oh, i shifted? cool!"

remember that reality shifting and your desired realities all exist in the now regardless, and they aren't going anywhere. reality shifting is not something super unattainable. i understand where you're worries are coming from and they are 100% valid.

🪐 DO I HAVE TO SCRIPT CHARACTER'S PERSONALITIES OR APPEARANCES, OR WILL THEY JUST BE LIKE HOW THEY ARE IN THE GAME/SHOW?

now, you don't have to script character's entire personalities and appearances (if you don't want to!). you can, but it's also not necessary. it's entirely up to you :)

with scripting, you don't have to script everything down to the tee. you aren't specifically creating any reality out of thin air, more like visually and physically specifying your intentions of what reality you want to shift to/experience. in fact, some people don't even have scripts!

scripting essentially has no power. scripting is just a physical, visual outline of the desired reality where you intend to shift to. to sort out your thoughts and intentions. your subconscious mind already holds everything in that script and whatever else you intend to experience. your subconscious knows what you want and it'll fill in all the gaps for you, so don't stress!

there is no requirement or criteria for how much, or how little you need to script. you can script as little as you like, or as much as you like! thus, if you don't script anything about a character's personality or appearance, but you intend for them to act like how they would in their respective game/show, then they will act how you expect them to. you can even add that in your script if you want as well: "this character will have the same personality/appearance as they do in ___." it's all up to your assumptions and intentions.

however, if you feel like you want to script their appearance or personality, then go for it! do whatever makes you feel best and most comfortable.

🪐 HOW CAN I BE MORE MOTIVATED TO SHIFT?

oh gosh, there are so many different ways to help keep you motivated to shift! i'll try not to ramble :)

honestly, just thinking about the concept of reality shifting and the possibilities can be motivating enough. like how there are infinite realities and infinite possibilities? you can literally experience anything and be anyone you want to be.

you can consume any kind of content relating to your desired reality, watch videos, create pinterest boards (e.g. your outfits in your dr, dr locations, etc.), write letters to people in your desired reality, or think/make a list of things you're excited to experience in your desired reality.

or even just think about your desired reality and get yourself excited! what are you excited to experience? who are you excited to meet? what are you scared about? where do you want to visit? things like that.

however, while i am a big advocate for being able to seek motivation from yourself, it's also good to watch videos and read about other people's shifting experiences to motivate yourself! find other people who have the same/similar desired realities as you, or read shifting stories.

however, it's good to learn how to motivate yourself and not rely on other's so much for validation on shifting, it's existence and motivation. however, it doesn't hurt to consume shifting stories and tips from shifters too, just don't rely too much on it as your main source of validation/motivation.

additionally, it's completely okay to feel demotivated with shifting. it's okay to be drained. and it's also okay to take breaks when you need it. stay at your own pace and don't rush yourself into anything. you don't need to be trying to shift every single day of the year if you don't feel like it. reality shifting isn't going anywhere and your desired realities are always going to exist. so please don't stress and don't feel like you need to rush! you can always shift to your desired reality whenever you want, and however you want!

alright, i hope i answered your questions well and i hope this helped! and i apologise if i rambled a little bit, i just had so much to say (especially for the first question dhjkds).

have an amazing day and good luck on your shifting journey! you got this! ʚɞ ⁺˖

- saturn ♡

🪐 HELPFUL RESOURCES! (these are just some that have helped me!)

REALITYSHIFTING101 - i found this user through amino and their posts have been so, so informative in the in-depth science behind reality shifting and how it's possible. honestly one of the only shifters i've seen who's done such an in-depth analysis on reality shifting and the objective science behind it.

blog: https://realityshifting.medium.com/ amino: https://aminoapps.com/c/desired/page/user/realityshifting101/5w64_MWUYf81pj0qoYwJY00P5JdG5ZxmQHY ULTIMATE RESOURCE: Total Shifting Science (amino): https://aminoapps.com/c/desired/page/blog/ultimate-resource-total-shifting-science/xLkq_62t2u6DWEXn3x55w5rgL5z5vZkKmm

LOVE - an amino user who's been shifting for quite some time and visited many different realities. provided some very interesting information and perspectives on the reality shifting, the multiverse, other realities, and some interesting terminology and concepts.

amino profile: https://aminoapps.com/c/desired/page/user/nill-l/vPMG_2qu2f6eoEGbvBBwwP7kK2Y1qepw32sX

OTHER RESOURCES - here is are some other uncategorised links of good shifting resources!

reddit post (shifting + other shifting related resources): https://www.reddit.com/r/shiftingrealities/comments/ow7n7y/recommended_reliable_resources/ yennieshifts shifting carrd: https://yennieshifts.carrd.co/https://yennieshifts.carrd.co/

[godfistgonnalive]

please ramble as hard as you can about pruita I need to hear what you have to say about them

grabs you by the shoulders very roughly.

ok. my favorite flavor of pruita is utterly unrequited. cuz its very funny to me. my fav thing to do is listen to music and think about unrequited pruita like L imagine 😹😹but also its kind of sad and i like how its sad but also funny

like think about the prussia cleaning game like omg.... he loves him.... its so silly.......

PRUSSIA STROKED IN HAPPINESS! WHAT THE FUCK! GAY!

and he literally was imaginging them like together on some sort of boat idk what its called like ugh

and the fucking BLOG. ive already posted these before but. my god.

he likes him so much....... its unbelievable........

like are you serious. he so very obviously has a crush on him THERES SO MUCH PROOF OF IT AND [im trying to restrain myself here from being salty about prucan shippers so i will stop myself here.]

ok im racking my brain to try and think of what to say rn cuz as much as i say i wanna talk about my ships i know deep down in my heart i dont have much to say that i can turn into coherent thoughts.

back to my thoughts and not canon content. unrequited pruita. like ok you know that hetalia itself is just gerita fanfiction. like i love gerita. who doesnt. and thats where it comes in in my version of pruita. like prussia is so in love with italy and italys like omggg germanyyyy :3 like. oh my gfod can i talk about the songs i associate with them. the answer is yes i cant be stopped.

ok puppy princess by hot freaks. fucking UGH. unrequited big fat crush ANTHEM right here.

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS. prussia is the goofy friend... prussia loves italy...... and italy loves germany........ my goodness.........

NO OTHER HEART BY MAC DEMARCO. THIS IS LITERALLY PRUITA.

i love gerita truth pruita so much but not in the love triangle way like i mean thats what it sounds like but its more like a fucked up triangle like

it doesnt connect all the way... cuz in love triangles dont they usually like compete!>>! like prussia loves italy but in my pruita brain he wouldnt like.. actually really try to get with italy while he knew that germany was trying to get with him.... you know.... he wouldnt do that to his brother..... so he just keeps his crush to himself.... rip.... and thats the fun of it ! ! ! he yearns but he'll never have him... love that

LOVERS ROCK. BY TV GIRL. THIS ONE LYRIC. JESUS CHRIST.

TRYING TO SELL YOU SOMETHING THAT YOU ALREADY HAVE. UGH.

AND LOOKING OUT FOR YOU BY JOY AGAIN. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.

IM GONNA GO CRAZY!

and peach scone. by hobo johnson.

ltierally every time... prussia calls italy cute.... god......

now. onto requited pruita.

i think theyre silly cute so much so much :3 :3 :3 hold on gotta check pixiv so i can formulate thoughts. ok like i mostly think about prussia's side of things when it comes to required pruita but in my opinion prussia is CRAZY about that man. jesus christ. and italy thinks hes super silly and loves him 🫶🫶🫶 HOLD ON I SHOULD FILL OUT ONE OF THOSE UNDERSTAND NMY SHIP THINGS HOLD ONNNNNN

got a little lazy but you understand.

i think thats all i have to say . i feel like i didnt really say much just put images and then said something along the lines of "jesus christ" or "what the fuck" but i think you undestand. thank you for asking. PEACE AND LOVE!

ALSO WAIT I HAVE MORE. i LOVE gerita marriage. they are so married. and i love thinking about prussia watching the boy hes had a big fat crush on for god knows how long get married to his brother. LMAO! and hes like crying like hes happy for his brother,... but oh man........ LMAOOOOO

i love prussia so much. make him suffer now

ok thanks for reading :heart:

edit:i just realized onm the height thing onm the ship chart i forgot to put 6 CM and instead put 6 M. oops

[seongminiz]

omgmmfmggnng yes. “in a very fucked up possessive way” i’m nodding my head so hard rn 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

ummm yes i’m completely on board with the fish eggs thing tho.PLS don’t be embarrassed cuz im right there with u tbh that sounds 🤤🤤🤤 so yeah i like the idea of his cock🤭 like opening up once he’s inside u and about to cum.. looks pretty normal (big🤤 maybe some.. squishy scales? idk like ribbed lmfaoo) but yeah when he releases.. instead of cum.. it’s like.. spherical fish eggs the size of chicken eggs 🥚 and probably a lot of fluid too but likeee ok not to be weird now but like what happens after that in ur mind or are we just not worrying about it. like sirens and humans can’t mate right? so do they dissolve.. idk it doesn’t matter that much im just thinking…

that’s really hot though. pls. juyeon keeping u as his pet too.. pls.. like i’m thinking about how he’d keep u breathing cuz you literally need his spit and i’m trying to think of a not too gross like in a not hot way to think of that.. unless like.. he has something that has oxygen in it for u maybe i’m thinking into this the wrong way idfk😓😓

- 🧁 anon

aaaa im glad u didnt think it was too weird 🩷

omhshdjbf yes siren!juyo's dick has soft scales all over it for sure n yea they r soft but they still give some 'texture' to it n it feels so good when hes fucking u ☆_☆

n yeaaaa ,,, fluids ,,, eheh :3 like at the end of the day hes literally going to push his eggs in u n ig before that there can be some kind of ?? kinda precum but it works as extra lube (+ also has the same aphrodisiac properties as his spit ? maybe ?? eheheh) so the whole process is less painful >///<

tbh i was abt to elaborate more on the 'aftermath' but anything involving like .. pregnancy n stuff freaks me out so bad i was like uhhhh nvm lets not think abt it 😁 so yeah me personally i'd just go the dissolving route so we dont have to worry abt it 👍🏻

honestly idk how that would go !! like yea thats probably the only reason he isnt keeping u confined in whatever place he lives (im thinking like ? underwater cave or something ?) , he needs to figure out a way to keep u alive n breathing underwater first !!! bc as hot as needing to make our with him every .. idk 3 minutes or something is , thats too impractical !! idk im thinking maybe sirens have other ways to make humans breathe underwater but hes never thought abt it that much bc kissing was fine enough for him , n before u he never brought a human underwater unless it was one of his preys , but maybe he'll have to do some research n find a way bc everytime he has to bring u back to the beach u met at a small part of him dies a little bc what if u dont come back ? how is he going to find u ?? but even then , if u left n never came back he'd somehow find a way to go on earth n .. look for u in a totally normal not stalkerish at all way :3

(if this made no sense again im sorry 🫠 i fr cant formulate a coherent sentence today its tragic)

[astraydestiny]

Often times it just so happens to be that no matter how hard you try, words just simply cannot make their way onto the paper in front of you. Maybe it’s you thats holding yourself back, maybe it’s life or school.

But that doesn’t matter to you, does it? The only thing that matters is your inability to act. You didn’t do what makes you, you. Your entire purpose, career, life, all revolves around creating- and you cant even do that.

But can you really blame yourself? Its not your fault, really it isnt. It cant be. Your mind cant formulate normal sentences anymore, your not as articulate as you once was, the muscles in your fingers have grown weak. That isnt your fault! Surely it isnt, if it was, you would have acted on them by now, wouldnt you have?

…

Forget it. Even that word looks odd. The r is out of place. R’s symbolize regal strength. Strength in aesthetic, strength in propriety. There is nothing strong about being forgotten. But then again, foget doesn’t sound right either. It’s like somethings missing, but I can’t wrap my head around what it is. It sounds so incomplete. Without strength, being forgotten is undefined, abstract, a sort of remembrance malleable to everyone but yourself. However with strength, with all those values upheld, with that false image sustained relentlessly for all that time, being forgotten is disappointing; egregious, a reminder that our fate lies not in our hands but in the threads that weave their way through our hearts.

Was it a consequence of my own self-loathing that I feel this way? An inability to concentrate, to focus on the things that truly matter to me? I reach out to that distant guiding light, but I receive nothing but the path deeper into the interstice of which I am trapped.

What is the purpose of creativity without substance? What is the beauty behind scattered thoughts with no clear direction? Questions with no answer.

Objective fact versus subjective feeling, which one will seize the throne of priority?

Who am I if I cannot be who I am?

All rhetorical anyway. Is my presence really that frightening to you? Rest assured, I do not recognize that man staring back at her through the mirror as well. We are the same in that we have been left with no meaning, no hope, and nothing left to work for in a life as cruel as ours.

No words can describe the pain of humanity at its zenith, brought on by the nadir of our own morality.

We enter an age filled with tyranny, hopelessness, apathy, and ignorance.

Or rather, we as in me.

[rivilu]

Cant formulate this vampire thought I just had properly right now But. You know that thing when it snows and it looks like the middle of the day all night long? Yeah.

[windblume]

i cant even formulate thoughts right now im just clutching the sides of my head thinking about kazuha

[domjaehyun]

omg i was notttt prepared for smut in the first quarter and yet we're spiTTINGGG????? haechan u freak (me too i guess)

tbim making me feel so many things likeee it's all such a mess (which i love does that make me a masochist idk) and i feel so bad for every fucking character like yn is confused and haechan is a dick (in every sense) and winter is pretty self explanatory and then there's jeno who got dragged into it poor boy. and all of their friends myyyy god if i was one of them i would be torrrnn any decision they decide make regarding yn and hyuck it's like basically picking sides and i would feel so fucking bad if i had to

and i just want to add a tier of my fav your work of yours and idc if udc

1.pussy fiend (been here since it came out literally never leaving)

2.tangerine love (weirdly a very comforting fic likeeee what's wrong with meeee)

3.the boy is mine (new entry might even rank up based on the ending have so much hope for this one)

and i wanted the patreon contents sooooo bad but i live on the other side of the world and when the currency is converted its craaaazyyy im so sorry ill just have to imagine shit myself and support u morally ig if i am any help

OMG HEHEHE HI HI

yeah we’re spitting IN MY DEFENSE THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE LONG FIC I DIDNT MEAN TO COME OUT THE GATE SWINGING WITH SPITTING IN THE FIRST SCENE OF PART 5 😭 yeah me too that’s hot hehe

I’M SO HAPPY YOU SAID THAT that means im doing something right :D I DONT THINK IT MAKES YOU A MASOCHIST it makes you human. it makes you curious. feeling emotions is what makes life worth living (and hopefully the good emotions are powerful enough to make you stick through the bad ones) so wanting to read complex situations with a myriad of emotions makes total sense! it’s more realistic than, like, i am…… bc ideally i would never have angst ever ever ever only happy thoughts at all times :D and yeah they’re all going through it EVEN HAECHAN GIVE HIM A BIT OF GRACE!!!!

OF COURSE I CARE I LOVE KNOWING WHAT PEOPLE LOVED MOST OUT OF MY WORKS !!!!! now im going down 1 by 1:

1. pussy fiend — this is fair i love pussy fiend it’s perfect perverted lovesick haechan like what is wrong with that boy and can he date me

2. TANGERINE LOVE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I ADORE IT HE’S SO . FJKGLDSJKGFJKLDKJ I CANT EVEN FORMULATE WORDS something abt that specific haechan is so dreamy. its one of the first times i considered like . him just knowing she likes him from the get go like in pussy fiend he figures it out at the end but in tangerine love he can tell like from the beginning and theres no playing around with her emotions, he’s just very earnest while still being hot and flirtatious and playful and i love that so much

3. HEHEHE well i hope it ranks up but i would understand if it stayed in the same place bc i am not sure how you want the ending to go,,,,, but i hope it goes the way you wanted!!!!!!!!! :D

AND i was thinking about this earlier but if you wanted to like . paypal/venmo/cashapp me the $6, i could share the tbim patreon content with you!!! like if you can’t do a monthly subscription i totally get it bc we’ve all got stuff going on !!!! i’ve already done it for one person and i wouldn’t mind doing it again!! if you’re interested u could come off anon and i could work something out w you? up to you though no pressure 💖 THANK YOU SO MUCH DARLING THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY have a great day ily 🫂

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i have a lot of thoughts on what this means for harutos character that i cant fully formulate right now but what i can say right now is that it hurts so bad to see that haruto very clearly doesnt see himself as being a source of hope where it matters most, no matter how many people hes saved and no matter how much hope he brings to his friends theres still the lingering ache of knowing he fucked up and wasnt able to take that mistake back. in his mind this one lost dream negates all the good hes ever done and that breaks my heart. like man no wonder haruto pushes himself so hard, from the very beginning hes been thinking about the friend whos hope he feels like he stole