#and then to grieve properly
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Tbh? I don't like Paul. I don't want Paul. I understand that Paul serves an important narrative function and that Paul is the best possible ending for Camilla and Palamedes given their situation, personalities, and relationship. However what I really want is for Camilla and Palamedes to attend the ATN wedding as two individual humans and for Pal to be a lightweight who loses his tie in the garden fountain after three drinks and for Camilla to do exactly one shot with the group, keep Gideon from ripping the sleeves off her dress shirt, and absolutely kill it at lawn games during cocktail hour. Since this scenario is a wild tonal mismatch for the series and also Palamedes was already dead, this was unlikely to ever happen. However Paul is the final nail in the coffin for the theoretical existence of this scene and I can't help but resent them for that
#I don't think we as readers are supposed to welcome Paul. at least not without grieving Pal and Cam#Paul's existence is both a horror and a triumph#however my concerns are much more petty and involve Camilla winning at cornhole#I can't yet properly characterize Paul. would Paul lose their tie in the fountain??? would Paul win at cornhole??#or does everything that made Pal and Cam individually delightful cancel out into a person who is mostly competent and boring.#they balanced each other out you see!!! so what happens now that they're combined into one person!!!!#the locked tomb#nonasbirthday#nona the ninth spoilers#the locked tomb spoilers
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I think if I could scream without my throat closing up I would feel better.
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This image shocks me immensely because of:
a) the horror and determination engraved on Alicent’s face
b) Heleana watching her mother defending (and holding onto) Aemond in the background.
I think that the incident at Driftmark had a different potency on each of Alicent’s kids, but especially upon Heleana it must have impressed the idea that “a mother fights for her child no matter what” and that she doesn’t stay silent.
I can only imagine how Heleana feels after B&C, but the sense of being unable to protect and stand up for her son must be devastating.
And further than that, Heleana must be repelled by the idea of being coerced and finally having chosen to sacrifice one of her own kids. She probably feels that she has failed as a mother. That unlike Alicent, she has no right to demand justice for Jaehaerys’ murder because she herself chose him over Maelor. Maybe she blames herself for not doing enough to save him (even if she offered up her own life instead of her children’s), and possibly compares her efforts to defend her children with Alicent’s defense of Aemond. In essence, she probably tragically feels that she offered up one of her children herself instead.
In any case, this is such a heartbreaking and unsettling position to be in and it makes the emotional and psychological toll she consequently suffered all the more unbearable, because even if she drew courage and strength from and tried to imitate her mother’s actions, nothing could have ever prepared her for this.
#I wanna say I empathize with her but I can’t even imagine how that feels#she can’t even grieve her child properly#she is blaming herself#my girl did nothing wrong#justice for helaena targaryen#helaena targaryen#pro helaena targaryen#blood and cheese#b&c#alicent hightower#house of the dragon#hotd#hotd thoughts#hotd meta#hotd mothers#the greens#pro team green#team green#hotd s2#hotd driftmark#maelor targaryen#jaehaerys targaryen#jaehaera targaryen#aemond targaryen#greenqueenhightower#helaena the dreamer#queen helaena#hotd helaena#welighttheway
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I think you've mentioned before that after Machete's passing, Vasco would eventually find another partner that he'd live out the rest of his days with. Do you think he'd tell them about Machete at some point? Or would he feel it's safer/easier to keep the stories and memories to himself? If he did tell his partner I'd also understand if he chose to leave out certain details, such as Machete's job, whether it be for general safety or a sense to protect Machete's privacy and reputation even though he's gone
I think the partner Vasco lives the rest of his days with is most likely his platonic wife Ludovica, the one he was already married to at the time he reunited with Machete in their early thirties. I can see him eventually starting to try to see other men again, and he might love them too, but the whole process of trying to open up to other people (after all those years and the way things ended) would be kind of lonely, frustrating and painful for the most part. Chances are none of his subsequent relationships would last very long. He'd probably grow closer to Ludovica and she would do her best to support him. I'm not sure how much of his 10+ years with Machete he'd be able to share with anyone to be honest.
#answered#anonymous#death#cw death#Vaschete lore#it's not like he's doomed to be alone and never know love again#but Machete's untimely passing left a massive hole in him and he might not be able to fill it in any meaningful way#even if he tried and lived to an advanced age#I think the most unbearable thing would be the banality of it all#they tried so hard to make things work and keep each other safe and their whole co-existence was shadowed by secrecy#and then everything just ends and world keeps going around him#he can't share his pain with anyone or grieve properly because so few people knew of them and it has to remain that way
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I am once again thinking about Zack's death scene in the og.
No heroic last stand, no parting words. Just a couple dozen bullets at point blank. How long it takes Cloud to drag himself over to Zack's body. The deafening silence and the camera panning up to reveal that Midgar was literally right there, right in front of them. They were so fucking close to safety. All of that hope, ripped out from under them unceremoniously.
Idk man. Crisis Core's version of the scene is iconic, but it'll never be as gutwrenching and brutal as the original.
#dare i say it's even more upsetting than that. um. other scene. iykyk.#the game just spent the past five minutes hyping zack up as the sweetest goofiest badass optimist best friend of all time bucket of sunshine#only to rip him to fucking shreds.#no music. no sound. no time to properly grieve. and suddenly everything about cloud makes sense. why he is the way he is.#:(#ffvii#uh.#ffvii spoilers#?#zack fair
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thinking about the ring thing and the hat thing and the grief and the things people we love leave behind as reminders of the absence of their presence etc etc. sigh
#ask to tag#snoobgoobles#apprentice danny#the disrupt in the routine... the... urggghh... the reminder#the things they loved and did every day are your burdens to bear now. do you get me. screams#and especially someone who valued his possessions like Danny had had a very distinct presence#the rings he wore every day. the dents from his chewing habit#the hat he wore every shift that wasnt part of the uniform but he insisted it made him feel more professional#the uniqueness of him. gone. you know#fun fact about me i am always grieving idk if you can tell#Julian... holding it close to his heart. because his beloved apprentice died who he held so dearly#Asra holding the ring far away. Danny had always been a mystery to them. he feels like he never got to know him properly#ughm...... not to be dramatic
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persona 2 doodles
#im playing innocent sin again girl help#if you're wondering abt the massive amount of joker. it's simple. hes very fun to draw#persona#smt#p2#the last two are older but i figured i never posted them here#the image with a very funnily faced NiGHTS was a style swap with. well. NiGHTS bc i realised they're both jesters nd i can do what i want#idk what it is abt joker but i always draw him more unhinged than he actually is like hes jun in his most grieving and angry nd revengeful-#-state. but bc of his mask find it hard to take him seriously when drawing him myself. sorry jun i'll draw you properly one day. i promise#it's what happens when you have the most tragic plot important antagonist dress like a clown i suppose...#persona 2 spoilers#for good measure#realising i draw characters facing left entirely too often
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petition to give ruin a hug say i
#birdcage rambles#sun and moon show#sams#tsams#the sun and moon show#tsams ruin#hes so fucking tragic i love him so much#i need to see him cry and properly grieve#bc hes done so many things and hes probably so close to the edge of breaking#and we can see him slowly losing it with jack#but hes forcing himself to keep going bc wut other choice does he have?#if he stops now wut will he do with himself?#wut *can* he do with himself?
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Oh yeah sure Bruce made a glass case with his dead son’s clothing in it and that was weird and all. But what about when his next son copied him and made FOUR glass cases, one for each person he was trying to resurrect and/or clone? That. that was weird.
Teen Titans (2003) #43
Teen Titans (2003) #44
#STOP looking at Bruce to learn coping mechanisms!!! bad idea!!!!#tim drake#kon el#stephanie brown#bruce wayne#tim that was so weird. it’s weirder when it’s just regular clothing not even a dramatic vigilante outfit#all those fanfics about Tim stealing Kon’s t shirt to WEAR and comics Tim is out there stealing Kon’s t shirt to put on DISPLAY?#and fandom wonders why dick’s first thought was ‘Tim is grieving very badly’ when Tim said Bruce was alive.#makes me wish even more that Bart was back to normal at this time so he could properly go apeshit too. that would’ve been so fun :(#jack drake#janet drake#bat mental health#batfam#teen titans (2003)#heroesriseandfall#guy who got this job by reprimanding Bruce for his bad morning skills: who should I learn how to mourn my loved ones from…Bruce. yeah.
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dp x dc prompt #41
When Danny allowed Nocturn to put him to sleep for a while to adjust to his new kingly power without damaging his surroundings or family, he was under the impression that it would take a ‘couple years’. He said goodbye to his friends and family with the promise that he would be back as soon as his powers were stabilized.
None of them stopped to wonder how an ancient’s idea of a ‘couple years’ could differ from their own.
Centuries after King Phantom entered his slumber, a mad Vlad Plasmius rampages across the US after his major scheme to bring back the ones he loved falls through. The JL are sent from place to place to talk with the powers that be that could stop Plasmius, and are eventually shuffled to Nocturn, who decides that it’s finally time to wake the Slumbering King.
For Danny, it only feels like he’s been asleep for two months.
#dp x dc#danny phantom#danny fenton#dc x dp#crossover#dc universe#dp x dc crossover#writing prompt#writing#justice leauge dark#justice league#nocturn has no idea what a couple years entails#especially for a human#the jl now has to deal with a teenage king with unfathomable power who just lost everything overnight#poor danny#imagine waking up one morning and everything you know and love is gone#and then finding out that you’re arch nemesis has gone mad with grief and has to be dealt with before you can even grieve properly#danny’s about to be (kidnapped) adopted by heroes#why do i keep traumatizing the boy#:’)
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reminder as easter approaches to not give rabbits or ducks as gifts
both are animals that require special care (no, not all animals are just different shapes of cats or dogs) and can live up to 10 years if well cared for
they're not toys, they're living creatures that require love, care, special diets, time, and modifications to your home to keep them safe
they are also not creatures that can just be released into the countryside and be expected to survive. They're domestic animals and will not survive. Please don't impulse buy any animal as a gift, but at least have the basic humanity to rehome them or surrender them to a shelter/rescue and not leave them on the side of the road or in a box in a dumpster
Kind of like Christmas time, there's an influx of impulse/gift adoptions around Easter time that are then immediately surrendered or abandoned within a month. Consider finding a local rescue in your area and donating money, supplies, or your time via volunteering to help! Many also run foster programs, or need help with driving the animals in their care to vet appointments and so on.
k PSA over thanks ✌🐇🦆
#txt it#also tbh as someone that was cruelly gifted a rabbit after Oreo died#i did not bond properly with Mallow because I was both so entrenched in grieving Oreo (it was only 1 month after he died)#but i was also driving between states at the time and could only visit her every 2 months#and it both absolutely fucked up her socialization#and tbh!!!! i do not have a strong emotional bond with her!!!!!#it's a super fucked situation that I'm now trapped in for the next 7 YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!#instead of it being MY choice to get a new pet#what KIND of pet I might want next#or when or from where#that decision was taken from me#i would've loved to have adopted a dog or another rabbit from a local shelter#i see them all the time - litters that are found under cars or in dumpsters bc people just. throw them out.#please do not do that and please do not force that kind of thing on someone else or an animal#if you love animals so much then consider volunteering instead!! :)))#k i'm done for real sorry
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i hate it when people draw older men who're in their thirties as young twinks, like damn, give that man his white hairs and wrinkles back.
#this is mainly directed at miguel artists who make him look like some anime guy#that man is NOT the hard dom daddy you think he is#he is a tired middle aged man who hasn't properly grieved yet#and then there's the cod fandom and the rdr fandom tbh#the rdr are actually pretty good at depicting the guys as their appropriate age but sometimes i see them get twinkified#and the cod fandom#well#it's as problematic as the military themselves#anyways
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#exquisite#i can't grieve properly right now maybe because I still didn't fully accept he's not here anymore#it's so unreal.. I still watch B-T videos from one month ago and his presence is so strong#atsushi sakurai#sakurai atsushi#buck-tick#addedbyme
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Let her grieve
#since we've been uh. deconstructing prism's mental state..have some sad ship art.#it's been a hot minute since I last properly did digital art but i have found my drawing tablet pen and.....oh it's good to be back#sigh i just. i don't think i want prism to grieve alone she deserves better than that#her bobots are gone...phoenix go hug her...please ..#i originally had her crying but idk..the pose changed by the time I finished the sketch she looked more exhausted#and i was like yeah i'll roll with that and she probably just calmed down or something#also um! never drawn two human characters ineract before (properly/intimately) so! obligatory it might look a little off#and directional lighting. god im not used to doing it outside realism#i digress... i love they#ieytd#i expect you to die#[agent moose's art]#agent phoenix#roxana prism#roxanix#creator and me
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I think JJK going on break after the last chapter is a bit cruel. This is nerve-wracking. We still have 3 chapters left and so many things can happen there. 268 feels too good to be true and the title is weird.
I'm not sure what is the right translation and I don't have access to raws. Right now, it's 268 title is "Finale" or "Conclusion" but I heard from someone that it can be also be read as "Curtains".
If it can be read as "Curtains", then it could be a reference to "final curtains". The problem is JJK has its own version of "Curtains", right? Idk what to think.
Gosh I wish it was “Curtains”. The chapter title is 決着 (Kecchaku) which means settlement/conclusion/end.
For example, at the end of an extremely brutal fight in Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, Jolyne screams “Kechakuuuuuuu!” (決着ゥゥーーーッ!!) (It's actually a small Jojo meme in the JP fandom.) This got translated as "Game set!"
I love the localization they used for this since that entire battle was like struggling in arcade mode for a fighting game.
Anyways, in the context of JJK, especially since this has been a literal Sukuna Gauntlet and the previous chapter had the “Ringing the bell on a long fight.” editor’s comment, I don’t think there’s an ambiguous way to read Kecchaku. The Curtain/Veil kanji in JJK is 帳 (Tobari). (Though if there’s some fancy wordplay I’m missing please let me know.)
However…I would kneel before Gege if this was an elaborate trick by Sukuna—him giving Yuji delusions of a happy ending only to yank it away last second. It’s very hard to make characters feel familiar but slightly off on purpose for misdirection. That kind of tonal control is something I praise Umineko for. (Dungeon Meshi does it excellently for the shapeshifter scene.)
But that is pure copium I think. Sometimes otherwise good media just fumbles the endings. (Not an example of good media, but I was around for the Secret BBC Sherlock Season 4 Ending meltdown so I’m not too hopeful about a turnaround.) I personally blame the JP work culture/crunch since a lot of modern mangas have rushed endings due to burnout/unfair contracts.
I think the most heartbreaking examples of this phenomenon for me are The Owl House and Moral Orel. Those shows still stick the landing imo, but the creators are very open about how studio interference forced them to condense everything. You can feel that suffocation in the final episodes. Everything is just slightly off and you know it would be better if the creators were allowed their breathing room.
#Things that shouldn’t have activated my Jojo sleeper knowledge.#Moral Orel is really good btw. If you were raised Protestant it will come for your throat.#I never thought a little white boy would have my exact religious trauma.#But yeah. Everything is too happy right now. After getting through something that traumatic you don’t just bounce back instantly.#None of these kids were taught how to grieve properly. So them acting like the fight did nothing to them is…not something I like.#The tone should be more bittersweet not. ''Our sensei died violently for our sake lmao!''#This is something Yuji would feel guilty for. Both him and Nobara would cry a bit. Megumi would be trying to bottle it up.#I can say that with confidence because that's how they've handled previous deaths.#Yuji cried over transfigured humans ffs. Like why aren't these deaths upsetting him? (It would make sense if Gojo+Higu were alive though.)#The light novels did a much better job of the trio trying to be goofy through the pain.#You can tell they’re struggling but they still chase joy.#That’s a reason why JJK connects so well with me. Despite all the trauma they can still strive for a different kind of happiness.#This current tone is more like. ''Look you can just quickly get over it with the right mindset and go back to the way things were!''#Which completely contradicts the themes/characterization. And the massive tonal dissonance that creates... It has to be a fake out.#Or it’s just what happens when you crunch a creator. Guess we’ll see.#jjk 268#jjk spoilers#asks#jujutsu kaisen#jjk asks
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crying and weeping and pounding cement with my fists when I think about how edelgard not only went through something so unimaginably horrific at a young age but was also kept under the thumb of the people who did it to her after. just constantly abused and belittled by them on top of having her entire bodily autonomy taken from her. and she had every right and reason to become callous and cynical but instead became passionate and caring towards others and focused on wanting to push for the change that would save other people from fates like her own. kicks my legs until they break
#she has been thru so much she deserves so much love and a vacation and to heal properly...#she never got time to grieve.............#edelgard dying makes me SICK sick i tell you
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