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#was about to be like#do y’all ever get like. not sad but not happy either and just sort of stagnant?#and then remembered depression lol#bitch the way i forget i have that after ONE consistently good day 💀#bffr#anyway#i’m FINE just feeling weird and a little off#like fine but to the left y’know#idk#gonna just try to write n carve my lino print maybe crochet if i’m rly just not feeling anything else#we’ll see#rowyn rambles
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Broke: "Dick Grayson was upset at a new kid taking over his mantle because he doesn't think Jason will be good enough as Robin"
Woke: "Dick is upset at Jason, not because he's suddenly taking over the mantle he created, but because Jason isn't nearly feral enough of a child to drive Bruce insane in Dick's place"
Dick: You wanna be my successor? Go swing from that chandelier right now.
Jason:
Dick: As a matter of fact, I need to see you crawling all over the walls. Make a ruckus, break some furniture
Jason: But Bruce-
Dick: SCREW Bruce. Your job as my new brother is to make his life HELL. Why are you so polite? Why are you so calm? Where's your DRIVE, your PASSION, huh? You may be worthy of the title of Robin, but are you WORTHY of being my disaster brother?
Jason, a little scared: I dont-
Dick, scoffing: The youth these days just don't rebel like they used to.
#Bruce watching Dick take Jason out on a lil hangout day: Im sure everything will be fine :)#Alfred: You have no idea what youve done.#Dick: do you at least have any hobbies#Jason: i read#Dick: (in tears) i got such a BORING brother#[jason coming back as gotham's new uprising crime lord]#dick: see THATS what im talking about FINALLY a worthy successor#dick: remember littlewing when u turn 16 u gotta up the angsty teen performance tenfold just to REALLY make B's life difficult#jason a few years later: *dies in the most horrifying way possible leaving Bruce an anguished depressed mess*#dick: Wow ok I did NOT think he'd outdo me like this#this is how they bonded as brothers :)#this is kinda a continuation on a prev post abt Robin Jason being the polite kid lol#jason todd#dick grayson#nightwing#robin!jason#red hood#bruce wayne#batman#batfamily#batfam#batdad#batkids#batbros#dc#crack#incorrect quotes#fanatical posting
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zenos, but he's getting spammed by his weirdly tech savvy great-grandfather.
#sketch#wip#ffxiv#zenos yae galvus#garlean communicators but some of them are just really sturdy flip phones#man's just trying to train in peace before his phone starts exploding#this is also spawned from me remembering how tech savvy zenos himself is implied to be lol#he can probably drive- he can pilot- and we've seen him fix/salvage one of the machines before-- im giving him a phone#but it's also just one of those “zenos is a self made prodigy” kind of things that I really enjoy#which makes the decision of dropping the old model of the garlean reaper in Ala Mhigo kinda funny to me#we really mightve just stolen this man's depression fixer-upper#(but also a little sad because it makes me think that he's tried --a lot-- of things trying to make himself happy and it just never worked)#theres probably a lot of things he knows how to do but just doesnt bother with them anymore
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There's a lot of validity in the idea that older Bakugo is a traumatized pro-hero with major PTSD... but you know what's kinda fucked up to think about? The fact that Bakugo is also a 22-year-old pro-hero with major PTSD even before that, too.
It's almost easy to imagine that things are actually better when he's older (the therapy finally a routine, the trauma long set and on the path to being healed)... and that it's his whole 20s that are spent as a pool of disaster trying to recover from the war(s).
He looks back and barely even remembers being twenty, much less twenty-five or twenty-seven. Barely remembers how little he slept, not at the hands of trying to balance hero work and getting a degree at the same time, but just out of the pure insomnia that came from trying to move on and every nightmare attached.
Hardly ever showering, never shaving (not that he ever grew much of a beard, but the facial hair was definitely there. There's pictures of him on the news with an awkward, grown out haircut and patches on facial hair that make him look positively... immature), barely even eating more than a few protein bars or an energy jelly drink-a day. It's a blur, and his friends are hardly there to pick him up out of it because they're all going through it, too. Somewhat.
It's definitely weird if you meet him during this period. He's not all there, at least, not all of the time. He doesn't really register your interactions, the friendship you extend to him (a younger, or ever older, version of him would've shown you that deep seeded ferocity in response, tried to bite the hand that fed him, even if it were love... but 20s Bakugo... doesn't seem to notice). Even though only one of his eyes is clouded over, the good one never seems to brighten up.
There's definitely moments when the old him shines through: when he's with Deku, when he's in the midst of battle, when he finds out that Todoroki still does a shitty job at chopping scallions. But it's a long time before he's even close to the same, able to step out from underneath the fog of simply surviving and into the sunshine of recovering.
But I think sticking through it with him is worth it.
(It's a weird moment, a happy moment, the first time you realize that Bakugo has changed. That the pouring rain outside hasn't bothered him since he showed up at your apartment. He forgot his umbrella, he's been quite careless ever since the war—wet and shaggy hair frizzed up, cheeks red from cold—but he doesn't seem to mind, with his bare feet up on your coffee table, his eyes gazing out the window. You hand his tea, and instead of gulping it down in one go, letting it burn in his throat, he winces at the heat.
"Tastes like shit," he says, and you laugh because it always does. Just this time, he noticed.)
#bakugou x reader#bakugo#this is what crocheting a baby hat does to u#no im jk i was just thinking abt bakugo being like 22 and awkward as h*ck bc he still hasnt recovered from the war#i wanna talk abt what he's like more but this is what came out instead LOL#like i think he's really stubborn abt ... coping with after effects of dying#and then before he knows it he has major depression LMFAOO#and he can like go to work get his degree do all he needs to do as a 20-something year guy#but he's not like. *there*. you know#and you meet him and he's a binch but he's not hard to get along with#and u just sorta take him in and drag him places like idk#your school's halloween night.. or even just a night out with ur friend (he doesn't even know how to order a drink)#and he doesnt even process it all until one day he's like 'dang it feels like ive been asleep for years'#and he kinda was#but he knows youre the one who helped him and now he wants to fix himself for you bc he remembers u being there for him#but he's so funny im imagining him with like. frat boy facial hair and a really outgrown ugly mullet type haircut#and lowkey with like. greasy skin (ik he's perfect but he's in a bad state and it shows) and he eats instant noodles ever day#and only watches japanese top gear#and goes on patrols where he beats the crap outta ppl and then doesnt remember it#DREAM BOY#and then he's big hero later#anyway#caitie post#gen
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dragon age: the veilguard | lucanis dellamorte 2/?
#lucanis dellamorte#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#datv#dav#not a huge fan of the lighting in your little depression cave bud#i can't remember if he adds any more lights as time goes on? but right now it's mostly overwhelmingly orange lol#lucanis#da4#da#i made this
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It has been. A Day (tm).
#my characters#oops i fell in love#brent but dnd but also i remembered the one time i drew him as a wolf based on acnh inspo#so i gave him the ears again lol#also i just like how dark he is and how dark he dresses but he has such a bright blue speech bubble color#which is the blue in his ears#which i already forget if i mentioned it in the tags on yesterdays art#but the red blue and pink on the three characters is actually just their speech bubble color#i like brents blue a lot lmao#i wish i used it in his dnd outfit but i used a slightly different blue#anyway hi he has like no charisma and all depression but hes here to help and support karen so hes a bard#i had so many OTHER things i wanted to draw today but i sat down and was like yeah no#i do not have the energy for any of it#so i just went with my lazy bust shots and nearly called it b/w no color#but i forced myself to color bc i wanted that blue in his ears THAT BAD
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being so emotionally attached to a fictional character is crazy because whatever happens to them could literally makes your life better or worse....
It's weird lol like these people are not real yet they affect your life so much...to the point that if they died it feels like an actual relative or a close friend died...and ur like gonna feel really really down for months or years
especially if u relate to the character so much that you feel like you know what they're feeling and thinking.....like it's really weird
#no i am not okay#ha ha no cieric stop it your parasocial relationship with wanda is showing ha ha#i relate to wanda maximoff so much i almost follow her into the afterlife lol#like my life already sucks back then and she's the only thing that's keeping me intact and she died too..#like i am genuinely so depressed when wanda died...like I remember feeling like i am losing weight because i can't eat#Wanda Maximoff#marvel#scarlet witch#parasocial relationships#is this parasocial?#google tell that whatever i have with wanda is not normal lol#txt post
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This Christmas is starting to feel like the Moral Orel Christmas Special.
#tehshelaroxx#themuseabides#babbling into the void#ironically this is one adult swim show that HURT#so underappreciated in its prime#the christmas special was extra depressing lol#moral orel#adult swim#the real ones remember
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an oddball, a freak, a madman, a nutcase, and a wackadoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#never done these big catchlights before i like them#depression time means i am obsessively playing the arkham games for the 1000th time#i 100%'d another asylum save in like. 2 days? i think i know all the riddles from pure muscle memory at this point#(ok 100% to ME is everything but the challenge maps)#i'm about halfway done with city and then it's TIME for my favorite YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#remember when it would have been controversial to say knight is your favorite. lmao. remember when the popular opinion was it's bad. lol.#people came around real fast when g*tham kn*ghts came out huh. oh NOW you like knight ok. ok. fine. FINE.#i was on this side from the beginning it's ok i forgive you#ts4#the sims 4#ts4 cas
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Boueibu + text posts 1 | 2 | 3 | 4
#boueibu#io naruko#ryuu zaou#en yufuin#mangan tawarayama#yumoto hakone#my stuff#text post meme#hello darkness my old friend#i've come to talk with you again#i saw someone headcanon en as having depression ONCE and remembered the ONE time he said he wanted to die (not serious)#and it never left my head#'boueibu' more like ioryuu and en LOL
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update from my mxtx renaissance is that I somehow never read the Shang Qinghua extra from SVSSS and i just finished it and
#it just balled up a fist and punched me DIRECTLY in the stomach as a author/porn author/with issues with sexuality/#having suffered years and years of depression so intense it was just background noise/was Not A Nice Person partly because of that/#self rejection issues/unhappy family background that made you into a rage ball with a peacemaking fawn response/#you view your main redeeming trait being a damage sponge because at least then you're useful lol/#these are all issues i have gotten way better about sdlijfi dw just.#Why Is Shang Qinghua Me. I'm Me etc#i should have known that the vague boring impression i'd gotten from fandom (and his and MBJ's usual designs i... do Not like)#would not be true to canon#but i was not prepared to go from 'oh i remember his character being fun and Mobei-jun was... fine like there's not much of him'#to 'this is one of my top favorite mxtx pairings and the last ending that made me happy-tearful like this was frickin. Bridge of Birds'#scum villain
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#I remembered how to blend lol#Dark Choco is so emo (and depressed)#the hands look weird help#idk how to do shadows either btw#oh god this is a mess#dark choco cookie#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#rachelfloof art
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Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again
#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining#once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol#like idk how to be friends#i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely#and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have#actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality#i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again#because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it#pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic#how do i start living again#how does one live anyway#im just in my head all the time#this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness#im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself#im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself#but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go#idk how to be a person anymore#i’m just sad#thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol
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i have moved!!!
#i made it!!!#thankfully and finally#no longer in the apartment that was the manifestation of a year long depressive episode (slay)#i even managed to sneak off to pride on saturday too :'^)#now that ive moved ive got the labor intensive task of reorganizing my entire life and getting all the little storage solutions i need :'''#new dresser and bed frame too lol#new mattress is comfy#i cannot remember who recommended the brand silk and snow for that but i went with their hybrid and it is (so far) LOVELY!!#i still feel out of sorts and disorganized but#slowly but surely#we r getting there gamers#lore loops
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It's crazy being 30 and still filled with closeted preteen levels of homosexual shame and dread at even the thought of having one of those pretty straight women washing my hair but we move
#this is so mega depressing sorry but as a kid I hated my body so much I refused all touch because I didn't want other people#to have to deal with the surely disgusting act of touching me lol. so anything where I would have to be touched too much felt really#mentally & physically unbearable to me. but Livia was sooo beautiful 🥺 hair down to her ass and wide hips and sad brown eyes#and she'd complain about her boyfriend Giovanni to me while I sat there quiet and ashamed & I remember how it felt when she'd lean forward#to cut the front of my hair and her chest would be close to my face and I could feel the heat of her against my knee!#I've talked about her before but such core memories truly. I liked her so much I let her cut off all my hair for donation#But no other hairdresser has made the ordeal worth it...I always sit there like one of those horribly neglected matted dogs as they say#'you're gonna feel sooo much better' and style me heterosexually 😑
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YAYYYY oc posting :) anyone remember old fnaf fandom days? handing you heavily revamped and redesigned ocs of Vincent and who TECHNICALLY counts as Henry before Henry was even revealed??? >_<
ik the pride flags are a little "modern" for 1998 but idgaf this is for fun and sillies. yapfest in tags my bad
#carn1eposting#art#fnaf art#fnaf ocs#fnaf oc#fnaf vincent#it feels criminal to tag that oml#i wasnt really on tumblr during og fnaf fandom days i was on dA instead. i miss you old dA. i miss you FuzzFoxy rp chatroom#this also counts as an au sort of? vincent is william's nephew in this au and also has a younger brother around michael's age (10-12 diff)#i had originally split vincent and xander (the brother) into like#so xander is kinda more the flirty sexy fanon pg and vincent's more the laid back/depressed “heh... you can't *smirk*” fanon pg#so ig i should add these tags#fnaf au#fnaf fanart#fnaf#fnaf redesign#other oc is almost fully original and doesn't TECHNICALLY belong to me. im more like his foster parent HAHA#his name is gary my bestie at the time (we're still close :3c) made him just bc we wanted to be silly and also we were in like 5th grade#his name is funny. bc i remember it was originally just “Gary Guy”. which was supposed to be a joke calling him “Gay Guy”. he's gay. idk#he was created before the name william was revealed and before henry emily was sort of a existing character in people's minds at the time#we had a separate oc for “phone guy” and it wasn't gary#whoahhhh lore i love lore i used to think about these guys all the time oml LOL#if i hear shit about gary being gay and vincent being a she/they nby and blah blah IDC suck my peanits it literally doesnt matter blow up
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