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my first shift!
so, i went to sleep at like 2 am. itâs really important to mention that during that day i felt worse when it comes to my mental health because of personal reasons.
for this whole day all iâve been thinking about is how badly i want to be with my s/o right now and generally in my dr. as i was going to sleep i decided that i am not going to try to shift tonight, i will simply imagine my s/o hugging me so i can comfortably fall asleep and feel safe. and i also had decided that i will be taking a break from shifting to focus on my mental health - a funny thing is that i thought to myself âwhat if i shift tonight? just like those people who go on a break and they shift unintentionally. that would be funnyâ
i went to sleep. i woke up during the night and i see that thereâs a peace of white fabric above my bed. and now, long story short - i decided that if i try to shift in a few days iâll first shift to my own room with a slight difference (my walls were supposed to be pink or i was supposed to have a white bed canopy). then iâll shift to my dr. so i wake up and i see this white peace of fabric above my bed right, my first thought was:
âno way that this is happening right now.â
and as i said that i sat on my bed and started to affirm that i am in my dr, that my s/o is right beside me. my head started spinning so much, i laid my head on my lap, i donât know how to explain it. everything was spinning to this point that i didnât know what was going on, i saw some bright lights (this is kinda weird because i would never think that i will feel symptoms as i kinda donât really believe in that but whatever). as i was affirming that my s/o is right beside me, iâve felt that someone is sitting on my bed. iâm assuming it was him. but well, i got scared! LMAOO and as i opened my eyes i saw that i am in my room.
dumb me didnât realize that i had shifted. i looked at my phone and saw that itâs exactly 3:20 am. i saw that my door was opened (i never leave it this way). it made me really anxious and i decided to go to my parents room to talk with them and calm myself down. as i stood up from bed i saw that there are a lot of push pins on my floor - white and light pink ones. in my cr room i have them on my walls, so i thought that they simply fell down on my floor. i put on some slippers (that i saw for the first time in my life) which were super small. it confuses me why i didnât realize that it was a shift tbh, maybe itâs because i was super tired and anxious and all i had in my head is to go to my parents? i donât know.
so as i am walking through the hallway i see that someone is standing behind the door to my house - i saw that because through peephole i could see that the lights outside were turned on. i walk towards the door and i see a person - i thought it was my friend who lives in front of my apartment. i thought that he was trying to find keys to his house but then he started walking towards my door. he knocked - silly me thought that it would be funny to knock back (âhaha he probably doesnât expect this at 3:20 am, iâm gonna scare himâ).
as i knocked back i realized that it wasnât my neighbor (he had his head down the whole time and just now i saw an unfamiliar face). he started knocking aggressively on my door and i saw that more men were climbing the stairs. it was so scary because suddenly more people were knocking on my door. just before i went to tell my parents, i made sure that the door was locked.
my mom woke up and she asked me whatâs going on. my dad came up to me. i told them that some weird people are just behind our door. as i towards the door with my parents i see that the door started to open. it made me panic because i thought that it was locked.
these men walked into our house and THEY TOOK OUT A STUN GUN? i reached my hand to take it away but this one guy tried to use it one me. i quickly put my hand back, my dad started to talk with those guys. as he was distracting them, i quickly grabbed the stun gun. i tried scaring them away but ALL OF THEM TOOK OUT NAILS? (you know, these metal things) i got so scared because i thought that if i use this stun gun on them then the nails will become electrified and they will hurt me or my parents.
and that was the last thing i saw. i guess i got so scared that i shifted back. tbh this doesnât really make sense but trust me: when i came back i was so confused why i am in my bed. my heart was beating. then it clicked: âomg. i shiftedâ. LIKE IT WAS SO REAL, SO SCARY I HAD TO GIVE MYSELF SOME TIME TO REALIZE WHAT JUST HAPPENED. I JUST WAS SO SURE THAT IT WAS A SHIFT, IT WAS SO REAL. also, when i came back it was 3:28 which is pretty interesting.
when i came back i was STRESSED. like truly LMAOO but now as i am thinking about it - a win is a win right. I SHIFTED YALLL to a scary place but whatever. i learnt so much from this shift, iâm so happy!! iâm assuming that it was a scary experience because while trying to shift from this âkind of a waiting roomâ to my dr i felt anxious, gotta work on that but also as i said iâm not feeling well mentally so yeah iâm not surprised
but what iâm surprised about is the fact that i didnât realize that i shifted. but like, it felt so real that i was SCARED FOR MY LIFE I THOUGHT I WAS IN MY CR. kinda sad cause if i had realized that i shifted i would have been able to shift to my dr from there but whatever! i learnt so much đđđŒ
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new yearâs kiss
ânote: hii guys!! ive decided to create a new account here after a small break so please dont go harsh on me đ english is not my first language but i tried my best so i really appreciate all of the support đ«¶
âwarnings: mentions of alcohol, drug use, swearning, cheating(?), smuttish but not really smut, fluff
you were high out of your mind, watching a film on your couch with peter (your current boyfriend) you honestly hated him, you hated the way he treated you and the way you basically became a drug addict because of him.
as you two were laying in your apartment that obviously you pay for because peter is broke. Your phone vibrates from underneath your back, you silently lift your back to see who texted you without peter looking into your phone. It was sarah, you best friend since kindergarten saying that she hosts a party on new yearâs eve and that you should totally come, you read the message quickly enough for Peter not to be able to and he immediately asks you âwho is texting you again?â âoh its just my mom asking if i would want to come to spend new yearâs with herâ âi want to go to a club babyâ he says giving you a small kiss on your forehead âill go alone thenâ as a response he just hums and goes back to watching the film
ââââ
You have decidedto wear your favourite black dress with black thighs and shiny heeles, obviously you changed in the car so you didnt have to worry about fighting with peter that you look like a slut, he hates we you look good and you know it, he thinks that you will chase him for tne rest of his life, he hasnât realised yet that you are so sick of him, his habits and just his entire personality, you want to kick him out of your place but you know that you dont have enough strength to do it alone.
âhey im here can you come out?â you stare at the text you sent and wait for sarah to respond or at least see the message but then you see her cherry red dyed hair running up to your car âgirl cmon youre still scared to come to my house alone?â she says laughing, âim very scared of your neighboursâ you respond to her looking over at the house thats right next to sarahâs
As you two were getting ready in sarahâs bathroom blasting music snd makeup just trashed everywhere you ask her âdo you have a list whoâs coming?â âyeah overhereâ sarah passes you her phone with peopleâs nameâs âwho tf are these random peopleâ âomg stop you literally know themâ you still look at the phone confused as you try to recognise any of them as you notice a familiar name âwhoâs oscar piastri?â âoh heâs my friendâs friend or something like that, i dont really know the guy. What is he cute?â âi mean..maybe a little?â you still scroll through his pictures curiously âwait arenât you with peter still?â âwe broke up but he still says he loves me and wants to stay at my place but he gives me free weed do i guess its fineâ trying to explain how you feel about peter is probably one of the hardest thing to do.
People stared coming to sarahâs house around 8pm and it was just a regular house party with people drinking, smoking or doing other stuff, you were looking out to see if the oscar guy that caught your attention was already here but you could not find him anywhere, after a while you just gave up, not having any hopes about seeing him, you came up to a random guy that was rolling joints and asked to borrow one he agreed after some negotiations and you went to the garden to smoke it in peace, you were sitting beside the pool smoking while a guy comes up to you and sits next to you, you were honestly shocked because wtf is he doing?? and then you notice the similarities between him and the guy that you were stalking on instagram âoh uh you want some?â you ask him shyly not confident at all like you planned in your head to be âyeah sureâ he smiles and takes the joint from your hand. Youâve made the small talk while you were sharing the weed and you can already feeling it mess with your head and you can feel your mouth getting dryer by the second. âwhat your feeling it already?â said oscar laughing a little. âyeahâ you said giggling âcmon lets go insideâ oscar said standing up and reaching his hand to take yours to help you stand up, you stood up groaning, not wanting to go near people, but as soon you walked into the room full of people dancing to house music you slowly started getting more comfortable and more high. Oscar was right next to you all the time dancing and laughing with you, your just dancing your legs out of any strength at this point you feel so tired as you puy or head on oscarâs chest humming something while people around you are still dancing âhey are you ok? wanna go lay downâ Oscar just see you nodding and takes you upstairs.
You were laying on Sarahâs bed in the only room that was left because people were probably having sex in all the other ones, but you werenât there alone, you were laying on oscarâs chest listening to his heartbeat and listening to his monologue which didnt maks any sense, he probably doesnât know whatâs hes saying either. You never felt so connected and locked with anyone, you could feel his hands on your hair braiding them, you put your head up to look at him and you see his red eyes looking almost closed, you didnt have to look in the mirror guessing that you probably look the same, now your just admiring him and noticing the little moles he has and dimples when hes smiling. In the very awkward moment that Sarah catches you two just shouting fo everyone upstairs to comedown the stairs to watch the fireworks.
âHow much do you want to stand up and go downstairsâ oscar asks quietly âi have like zero strength left in my body so you would literally have to drag me thereâ âoh okay so..wanna stay here?â he asks smiling at you âyeah that would be niceâ you said giving the smile back.
As you remember that you have something called a phone in your pocket that peter probably has been trying to get an answer for the last couple hours! he thinks your at your moms, you turned off your location so theres no way heâll find you, you think âwhatever all check laterâ
Oscar and you stood up to sit netxt to eachother while listening to people countdown seconds till new year, you take one more look at oscar and now he had probably noticed you admiring him for so long but he doesnât do or wants to do anything about it
âhappy new yearâ oscar says to you as he turns his head to you immediately catching eye contact
âhappy new year oscarâ you say back to him visibly flushed, you close your eyes as you feel his hand on your cheek pulling your lips into his, your tongue immediately started a battle with his fighting for dominance, you have really put all of your left strength into the battle but still lost to Oscar. At this point you two were out of breath and both broke contact, just for him to catch his breath and go back for even more. He picked you up from the bed, you wrap your legs around his hips while he carries you to the bathroom and puts you on the sink that you were getting ready in a few hours ago. Oscar stared to zip off your dress and you were left in your matching lacy underwear immediately teasing you, âyou are so gorgeous babyâ oscar whispered to your ear sending shivers down your spine while you responded with a moan. âWe cant oscarâŠim sorryâ you said quietly but loud enough for him to hear, âhuh? why notâ he reacted quickly, âpeter would kill me if he found out, like literallyâ âis he your boyfriend or what?â âno, not really, were not together, but he says he doesnât want to break up and now wont move out, hes like fucking insaneâ âwhat the fuck is wrong with the guy, i could never huty youâ said oscar gently fixing your hair.
You and Oscar exchanged numbers and you told sarah everything, when you finally checked your phone you saw over 50 missed calles from peter trying to reach you without success, thank god you never gave him your mothers number even though he deemed that many times. you responded to him after few hours saying that you left your phone in the car and thought you lost it, he somehow believed it.
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[Not so Quiet Boy] Sunghoon x fem!reader
summary: your friend tries to set you up with an old acquaintance of yours in hopes to get him a girlfriend by the end of his senior year
genre: crush to friends, friends to lovers, crush to lovers, high school romance, after school and outside of school hangouts, mixed signals, friends playing cupid, friends not saying everything, obvious flirting but protagonist doesn't see,
warning: profanity
author's note: all of this is from true experience and none of them were altered besides names.
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Part 1: Disney
A few months into the next school year, there was a trip for the performing arts branch of the school to go to Disney California Adventure for a workshop. You had a workshop at 3pm till 6pm so you had planned the rest of the day to enjoy the park. Initially planned to go with your friend, Winter but as you were waiting for her at the park entrance, she messaged you she had swimming practice that day and would be arriving by lunch time.
You sighed as you saw the message, someone screamed your name. âYn!â You looked up to see another friend of yours.
âEli!â You said as she went towards you.
You and Elisa go back since freshman year when you were by yourself in the dance room during office hours.
You had no other place to go for office hours so you decided to stay at dance room. There were a handful of people there but it was somewhat quiet. Everyone had a group of friends quietly working on their dances while you were at the corner by yourself until you heard people very noisy come in. You quietly looked up to see a girl and a guy chatting as they put their bags down. As time passed, you noticed that they were learning a dance together but in the middle, the guy needed to go somewhere and left. Thats when she noticed you at the side of the room by yourself.
"Hi!" She went up to you as you stood up to greet her back. It ended up you both had a lot in common so you decided to keep in touch every now and then knowing she was a grade older than you.
"Who were you with just now? He's the only guy that went in here besides the teacher next door." You asked her out of curiosity as you quickly get used to her presence. "Oh that's Sunghoon. He's the only guy who dances here. I knew him from tech theater... But why so curious?" She playfully raised an eyebrow and nudged you a bit as you two laughed it off.
âAre you waiting for someone?â Elisa asked you, making you remember your alone at Disney situation.
âWinter was going to be with me today but she has swim practice this morning. How about you, are you going around with someone?â You explain while asking the same thing back to her.
âOh yeah Iâm looking for Jennie and Sunghoon and they said theyâre already here but I canât see them.â She said as she looked at her phone, waiting for a notification, then looked back to you.
âOh yeah and wait! My mom said to show her proof of life. Can we take a selfie to send to my mom?â You remembered as she looked down at her phone as you explained to her your momâs words this morning.
âI got you!â As we both posed for the selfie, Wynâs phone started ringing so you took a quick shot and made her answer the call.
âYo Sunghoon where your asses are at?!â She screamed to the phone as she answered it.
âOh okâ She suddenly spoke calmly as she nodded and placed the phone down.
âTheyâre already inside. Are you going to be going inside anytime soon?â She asked you as she was looking at you worriedly.
âI was planning to go in by myself but now that I think of it, can I join you guys? Winter wonât be here till 12.â You said while scratching the back of your neck in embarrassment.
âYeah of course! Iâll just tell them you're joining us when we get inside.â Elisa said as we both headed to the entrance.
As we both went in, we could see Sunghoon and Jennie going to us. I waved to both of them as Jennie waved back and Sunghoon just gave us a small nod of recognition.
âCan Yn tag along? She was going to join Winter but sheâs not going to be here till 12." She explained the rest of the group.
"Yeah of course!" Jennie said as they all nodded in agreement while looking at each other.
"What ride should we go on first?" Elisa asked openly.
"Let's go to the Guardians of the Galaxy one!" Sunghoon finally had said something.
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Alright it was asked on ao3 to make 3 other parts for 'You got a friend in me'. And it was to have both the reader and Melissa's birthday and for them to move in together. Sooo, here's part 4 with the reader's birthday! Not edited in the slightest and I hope you like it!
You Got A Friend In Me - Part 4
Warning: Just a lot of fluff with Mel and Alison
Words: 4k
âFinish eating up your breakfast.â Melissa tells Alison while she braids her hair.
âBut Iâm too excited to eat. Itâs Friday and itâs my momâs birthday party tomorrow.â Alison says as she gets up from her chair and starts to walk away.
âWhere are you going?â Melissa asks.
âTo school, to get the day over with.âÂ
âSit back down, you havenât finished eating and I didnât finish braiding your hair.â Melissa says and Alison pouts. âSit.â Melissa says sternly and Alison goes to sit back in the chair.
âI regret wanting you to be around more.â Alison says as Melissa starts the second braid.
âSo you donât like spending time at my house?â Melissa asks and Alison sighs.
âI do.â Alison says in defeat and then you come down the stairs.
âMorning my two girls.â You say and then sit down across from Alison.
âMorning mom.âÂ
âMorning hon.â Melissa says as she finishes Alisonâs braids.
âWhat cute braids you gave her.â You say as you eat the eggs and toast Melissa made for everyone.Â
âDid you enjoy sleeping in a bit?â Melissa asks you and you nod while taking a bite of toast.
âI did, thanks for offering it last night. I donât remember the last time I slept past 6:30.â You say and she smiles.Â
âAlison, I told you to finish eating and then we can leave.â Melissa says as Alison goes to get her school bag. âSheâs so excited to finish today.â Melissa tells you.Â
Melissa then goes to get hers and Alisonâs lunch out of the fridge. She puts hers in her purse and gives the other to Alison. Alison takes her piece of toast and eats it while packing her lunch in her bag.
âOk Iâm done, can we go now?â She asks and Melissa shakes her head with a smile.
âAlright we can go now.â Melissa says and gives you a kiss before leaving. âBye hon, I love you.â
âI love you too.â You tell her and you give Alison a hug.
âSo my mom isnât staying over but I am?â Alison asks in the car.
âYep, I need my little helper to help decorate.â Melissa says.
âAnd my mom has no idea about the party?â
âNope. I just offered to take care of you for the night and sheâs coming at 2. I told everybody to arrive no later than 1:30.â She says and Alison nods.
âWhenâs your birthday?â Alison asks.
âAugust 3.â Melissa says, knowing that Alison has asked before. âI wanted to ask you something.â Melissa says and Alison looks at her.
âI wanted to ask your mom if you two would move in with me after school is done. What do you think of that?â Melissa asks.
âI love that! Iâve been wanting to move in with you for a while.â Alison says and Melissa smiles.
âPerfect, I want to ask her tomorrow and if she says yes then you can move in with me in July.â Melissa explains as she pulls into the parking lot of the school. âAlright, letâs go start the day.â Melissa says and helps Alison out of the car. Alison holds Melissaâs hand while they cross the parking lot and Melissa carries Alisonâs bag over her shoulder.
âNice pink bag.â Barb says from behind her.
âItâs mine Ms. Howard.â Alison says with a smile.
âItâs so nice of Melissa to carry your bag.â Barb tells Alison.Â
âAre you going to be at my momâs birthday party tomorrow?â Alison asks her and Barb nods.
âYep, Gerald and I will be there at 12pm.â Barb tells Alison and Alison starts jumping excitedly. They go inside the school and Melissa hands Alison her school bag and then Alison goes to her friends. âNervous about tomorrow?â Barb asks her.
âI am, I have a small idea what her thoughts on moving in with me are? I know Alison has been wanting that for a couple months though.â Melissa says with a sigh. âWeâve talked about it once and she wanted to get Alison used to the idea of living together more, which is why theyâve been staying at my house all week.â Melissa says as they reach the break room.Â
âMelissa I canât wait for tomorrow, are you sure you donât want me to bring anything else? Like food.â Janine asks with a big smile.
âIâm terrified of your cooking skills and donât need anything store bought. So just bring the decorations.â Melissa tells her and Janine nods.
âWho else is going to be there?â Jacob asks.
âSome of her friends from work, some other friends of hers, and her parents.â
âHave you met her parents yet?â Jacob asks and Melissa nods.
âI first met them at Christmas. Iâve met them a few times but they live an hour away.â Melissa says.
âWeâll be there at 12.â Janine says and Melissa nods. Just then they all hear a knock at the door and Alison is there with a couple of tears on her face and one of her friends is there with her. Melissa immediately gets up and walks over to her.
âAlison, hon, whatâs wrong?â
âI fell and my knee really hurts.â Alison explains and wipes her eyes.
âOh hon, come here.â Melissa says and Alison gives her a hug. Her friend leaves at that point as she was just helping Alison get her to Melissa. âCome sit on the couch and Iâll take a look at your knee.â Melissa says and Alison nods and goes to the couch. Melissa rolls her pant leg up and sees that itâs bleeding a bit. âAlright, thereâs a small cut but we can stop at the nurse quickly and she can patch you up.â Melissa tells her and Alison nods with a sniffle. âJanine, do you mind unlocking my classroom if I donât make it back before the bell?â Melissa asks as she takes off her classroom key. Janine nods and takes the key before Melissa grabs Alisonâs hand and goes to the nurse.Â
âAlright, itâs cleaned and stopped bleeding, the only thing left is picking out what bandaid you want.â The nurse tells Alison.
âDo you have Scooby Doo?â Alison asks.
âI believe I do.â She says and goes to check. âYouâre in luck, I have one left.â She says and puts it on the cut. Just then the bell rings and Alison looks at Melissa.Â
âWe gotta go to class hon.â Melissa says and Alison hops down and takes Melissaâs hand. âThank you.â Melissa tells the nurse before leaving.Â
At the end of the day Melissa takes Alison back to her house and gets dinner ready.Â
âI was going to bake the cake tonight and was wondering if youâll help me?â Melissa asks Alison and Alison immediately nods.
âChocolate?â Alison asks with a smile and Melissa nods.
âOf course, you and your mom both share your love of chocolate.â Melissa says as she whips up something quickly. âAlright letâs go eat.â She says and brings 2 plates to the table.Â
Her and Alison eat and digest a bit before starting to make the cake.
âAlright now mix it very well.â Melissa says and hands Alison a whisk. Alison smushes the eggs with the whisk before mixing. Melissa preheats the oven and gets the pans ready for the cake. âAlright Iâll finish mixing and you spray the pans. Make sure you cover every inch.â She tells Alison and Alison nods before she starts spraying the pans.
âWhy are there 2 pans?â Alison asks.
âBecause itâs gonna be two layers hon.â She tells her.
âThatâs a lot of chocolate.â Alison says with a smile and Melissa chuckles.
âAnd we still have to make the chocolate frosting while the cake is baking.â Melissa tells her.
âDone spraying the pans!â Alison says and Melissa inspects it before pouring the mix in the pans.Â
âAlright, and letâs set the timer for an hour.â Melissa says as she sets the timer on the stove. âNow letâs go make that frosting!â Melissa says and Alison jumps excitedly.
*An hour later*
âAlright, weâll put the frosting and the cake in the fridge and let it cool overnight and finish it tomorrow.â Melissa tells Alison who nods.
âAre we making anything else?â Alison asks and Melissa nods.
âIâm making my famous lasagna tomorrow morning.â Alison smiles at that as itâs her favourite. âBarb is bringing a couple of things as well as your grandma. And Iâm making Brioche con Gelato.â She says and sees Alisonâs confused face. âItâs brioche buns and you put ice cream in the middle. Itâs like an ice cream burger. And yes I have chocolate ice cream.â Melissa says and Alison smiles.
âYou had me at chocolate ice cream.â Alison exclaims and Melissa shakes her head with a smile.
âAlright, letâs get to bed so then we can finish making everything before everyone comes to decorate.â Melissa tells Alison and then they both get ready for bed. âI will love you forever.â Melissa finishes reading Alison a bedtime story.
âWhy do you sometimes wait to read the next line or pause between words?â Alison asks with a yawn.
âThatâs because I have dyslexia hon. Itâs a disorder that makes the words look all weird.â Melissa explains. âNow get some sleep and Iâll see you in the morning.â Melissa tells her and then gives her a kiss on the forehead. âHave a good night kiddo.â
âGood night Mama.â Alison says and then falls asleep as soon as Melissa closes the door.
Melissa wakes up the next morning to a knock on her door. She looks at the time and sees itâs 7:02 and there could be only one person knocking. She gets out of bed and opens the door and sees Alison there holding her teddy bear.
âWhatâs up kiddo?â
âIâm hungry and the sun woke me up.â She says and Melissa smiles.
âAlright, give me a few minutes and Iâll make us something to eat.â Melissa tells her and Alison nods. Melissa comes down and sees Alison watching Scooby Doo and Melissa goes to the kitchen to make breakfast.
âSo I just spread it all over?â Alison asks Melissa as sheâs about to apply the frosting.
âYep, go crazy with it.â Melissa says and Alison does the frosting while Melissa starts making the lasagna. âAlright now that youâre done with the first layer, weâll add the second one and you can use the rest of the frosting.â Melissa explains and Alison nods while Melissa adds the second layer. âAlright go crazy again and Iâll finish the lasagna.â
âIâm done.â Alison says after 20 minutes.
âAlright letâs see how youâve done.â Melissa says and inspects Alisonâs work. âWow, you did a great job. Are you sure youâve never decorated a cake before? I think youâre lying.â Melissa says and Alison is beaming at the compliment. âAlright I gotta write happy birthday on here, so how about you start setting the table thatâs in the living room. Put all the plastic utensils and paper plates on it.â Melissa tells her and goes to finish decorating the cake. Melissa finishes decorating the cake and puts it in the fridge and she goes out to the living room to see Alison finishing putting the plates on the table. âAlright, thatâs good for now, we gotta get ready.â Melissa tells her and they both head upstairs.Â
They both have a shower and Melissa is in a robe and picking out her outfit when Alison knocks on her door. Melissa goes to open it and sees Alison there and sheâs holding the box with all her hair supplies.
âWould you be able to help me with my hair?â Alison asks her.
âOf course kiddo, but you gotta get dressed first. Go get dressed and then come back here alright?â Melissa tells her and Alison nods before going to get dressed. 10 minutes later and Melissa is brushing and drying Alisonâs hair while Melissa has curlers in her own hair. âAlright what do you want to do?â Melissa asks.
âCan you do a half up hairstyle and then clip this pink clip to the elastic?â Alison asks and hands her the clip.
âOf course, I think youâll look adorable.â Melissa says and brushes half her hair into a ponytail. After the second attempt, she attaches the clip to the elastic to finish her hair. âAlright, and youâre done, what do you think?âÂ
âI like it! When is everyone going to arrive?â Alison asks and Melissa looks at the time.
âItâs 11:30 now so in about half an hour. How about you go watch an episode of Scooby Doo while I finish getting ready? Oh and donât answer the door if Iâm not downstairs ok.â Melissa says and Alison nods and then she goes downstairs. Melissa does all her makeup and then she finishes by taking the curlers out and makes sure her hair is perfect and then she hears the doorbell. She makes her way downstairs and sees Alison watching the tv and she goes to answer the door and sees that Barb and Gerald are there. âYou two are early.â Melissa says as itâs only 11:45.
âWell you know how we like to be early.â Barb says and enters the house. âHello Alison dear.â Barb says as she sees her on the couch and Alison gets up.
âMs. Howard, how do you like my new dress? Mama got it for me!â Alison says with a big smile and Barb looks at it.
âOh itâs lovely and very pink.â Barb says and looks at Melissa whoâs smiling at Alison.
âYou know I like pink, and apparently so does Alison.â Melissa says.
âAnd itâs a miracle that you convince people that youâre tough with your pink obsession.â Barb teases her and then hands her some containers. âSo we brought a few things.â Barb says and Melissa looks at what she brought.
âOh this is perfect, thank you.â Melissa tells her.
âWant me to put them on the table?â Alison asks and Melissa hands her one container while she brings the other 3. âWhen is the ice cream burgers going to be made?â
âThat gets made and served with the cake.â Melissa tells her and Alison nods while they get the table set up. Thereâs a knock at the door and Gerald opens it as heâs the closest.
âDecorations are here!â Janine exclaims and Jacob and Gregory are behind her.
âWe may have got too much.â Jacob says and Gregory is nodding his head in agreement.Â
â4 bags full.â Gregory says and Melissa chuckles
âWe got balloons, streamers, ribbon, a big happy birthday sign.â Janine explains as she puts the bags on the couch. âOoh Scooby Doo, I used to love that show.â She says as she sees the tv screen. Melissa turns the tv off and then goes through the bags.
âYou may have gotten too much but I love the enthusiasm.â Melissa says and gets the balloons out. âAlison, do you know how to blow up balloons?â Melissa asks her and Alison shakes her head. âCome here and Iâll show you.â Melissa tells her and Alison walks over and Melissa teaches her how.
The rest of the Abbott crew and Gerald set up the streamers and the big sign while Melissa and Alison do the balloons.Â
âThen we tie the ribbon on the end like this and we can tie these ones to the chair that your mom is gonna sit at.â Melissa explains to Alison. âThe other ones we can stick to the wall.â Melissa says and gets the tape out.
Half an hour goes by before the doorbell rings again and Alison goes to answer it while Melissa is putting tape on a balloon.
âGrandma! Grandpa!â Alison says excitedly and goes to hug them.
âHello Alison honey!â Her grandma says and immediately hugs her granddaughter. âHello Melissa, itâs good to see you again, and thank you for inviting us.â Your mom tells her and gives Melissa a hug.Â
âGrandma guess what, Mama taught me how to blow up balloons! See!â Alison says and blows up a balloon.
âOh thatâs amazing.âÂ
âEveryone, this is Heather and Eric. Y/nâs parents.â Melissa introduces them to the Abbott crew and they all say hello before going back to decorating.
âThe place looks great.â Heather says as she looks around and Eric nods his head. âI brought 2 of Y/nâs favourite dishes of mine. Although from what Iâve heard you seem to be her new favourite chef.â Kelly says without a hint of jealousy.
âI wouldnât feel bad about that.â Barb says. âIâm his wife and he will never shut up about Melissaâs lasagna.â She adds and everyone laughs.
âI was raised in an Italian household, what do youse expect?â Melissa says and then goes to place the other dishes on the table.
âIâm glad sheâs with someone whoâs as good as a professional chef. I love her but I definitely donât love her cooking.â Eric says and Melissa smiles.
âMy mom canât cook.â Alison says.
Everyone continues decorating until the doorbell rings half an hour later and Melissa answers it and sees itâs a couple of your friends from work that sheâs met a few times.
âHey Angela and Kristy.â Melissa says.
âHey Melissa, hope weâre not late. Couldnât remember if you said 1 or 2.â Kristy says.
âYouâre good, Y/n wonât be here until 2.â Melissa tells her and they come in.
âAlison, youâre getting so big! Last time I saw you I think you were 5 years old.â Angela says.
âIâm 9 and one quarter.â Alison says and holds up 9 fingers.
âWow, no wonder youâre so tall.â Kristy says. âWhere do presents go?â Kristy asks Melissa and Melissa takes them and places them on the coffee table.
Half an hour passes by and everyone else has arrived. Everyone is introducing themselves to everyone while Melissa is nervous about your arrival.
âYou look like youâre about to pass out.â Barb says to her.
âJust nervous about asking her to move in with me.â Melissa says and looks down.
âDonât be, Iâm sure sheâll say yes.â Barb says.
âItâs not just that.â Melissa says and looks at her. âYes Iâm nervous that she might say no but what if she says yes. We move in together and beâŠhappy?â Melissa says to her and Barb takes a breath.
âYouâre nervous about being happy?â
âThe only 2 people Iâve lived with are Joe and Gary, and we know how those worked out. A failed marriage and a failed proposal.â She says and Barb rubs her back.
âSheâs not them, for one sheâs a she.â Barb jokes and Melissa laughs. âAnother thing is she has a child who adores you and she said youâll always be in Alisonâs life no matter what. The last thing is you said you already mentioned the topic of marriage and she said that she doesnât have to get married.â
âI know, itâs just what if this works out?â
âThen youâll be happy, like how me and Gerald are.â Barb tells her and then she hugs Melissa when a tear rolls down her cheek.
20 minutes later and you all hear a car pull up and you all stop talking. A minute later thereâs a knock and Melissa goes to answer it.
âHey hon.â
âHey Melissa, thereâs a car parked on the street that looks exactly like my parentâs car.â You say and then Melissa lets you enter.
âHAPPY BIRTHDAY!â Everyone yells and you gasp and put a hand on your heart.
âOh my god.â You say and you have a huge smile on your face. You go and say hi to everyone and then you make your way to Melissa. âYou put this together for me?â You ask her and she nods.
âMe and Alison.â She says and you kiss her.
âThank you and Alisonâs new dress is adorable.â You tell her and she gives you a hug.
âHappy Birthday hon.â She tells you and you laugh.
You chat with everyone and then Alison announces itâs present time and you go sit on the couch and Melissa hands them to you one by one.
âAnd this one is from Melissa and Alison.â You say as you read the card. You then open the gift and see itâs a photo album.
âOpen it.â Alison says and you open it and see that thereâs pictures in it. The first picture is one of Alisonâs first ultrasound and a few of you when you were pregnant with her. You keep flipping through them and it goes right up to the picture that you took with Melissa and Alison 2 weeks ago. You look inside the box and see thereâs another photo album and you open it and see thereâs a note and you read it.
âThis album is for us to make much more memories together. Will you and Alison move in with me to help make those memories together?â You finish reading and you look up at Melissa and sheâs looking at you with a nervous smile. âAre you really asking for us to move in with you?â You ask her and she nods. You then look at Alison and sheâs looking at you with a smile. You then look back at Melissa and you nod. âWe would love to move in with you.â You tell her and then you hug her and give her a kiss. Melissa hugs you back and she has a huge smile on her face and you add Alison into the hug.
âHappy birthday dear Y/n, happy birthday to you!â Everyone sings off tune as Melissa brings out the cake.
âMake a wish.â Melissa tells you with a smile.Â
You close your eyes and you wish for more happy memories with Melissa and Alison then blow out all the candles on your first try and everyone claps.
You cut the cake and you serve it out to everyone and Melissa also serves the Brioche con Gelato with the cake to everyone.
âI remember you describing something like this.â You tell her as you try the brioche con gelato.
âItâs a Sicilian dessert that my Ma told me about.â She tells you and you hum.
âWell itâs perfect, this entire day is actually.â You tell her and she smiles at you. âI had a feeling you two were planning something with all the whispering and all the times you two stopped talking when I entered the room.â You say and she hums.
âI guess we werenât as sneaky as we thought.â She says and you both look at Alison whoâs talking to your parents and already has a chocolate mess on her face.
âI love you.â She says and you hold her hand.
âI love you too.â You tell her and then give her a kiss.
âEw! Why do you two have to keep kissing?â Alison complains and you both look to see her face full of chocolate.
âAnd your face is covered in chocolate.â Melissa says and then grabs a napkin and wipes Alisonâs face.
âMama! Really?â Alison complains as she tries to get away from the napkin but Melissa holds her chin.
âYes, really, little missy.â Melissa says and gets most of the chocolate off. âAnd there she is.â Melissa says and then gives Alison a kiss on the cheek.
âSo when are me and Alison moving in with you?â You ask her.
âHow does July 1st sound?â She asks and you think about it.
âConsidering it's in a month, youâll have to help with packing.â You tell her.
âObviously Iâll help, and I know a group of younglings who will be happy to help too.â She says and you look at the Abbott crew before looking back at her and you smile.
âLetâs start making some new memories.â You tell her and seal it with another kiss.
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Girl of my Dreams(Sara DoorsounXReader Feat Fletcher)
Warning: swearing, mentions of s*xual content
You and Sara have been dating for around 8 months now. Basically since you transfered from Wolfsburg to Frankfurt. Originally you have been from New York City. Your dad is American while your Mom is from germany.
The brunette was so excited to go to a Fletcher Concert with you. You did manage to hide the fact that you weren't looking forward to that at all. Not because her music was bad because it wasn't, but more because quite a few Songs were about you. The two of you used to date when you and her were like 17 years old.
So the fact that you two were invited to Go backstage because Sara talked about your ex on social Media and said how much she enjoyed her music made you feel sick. Somewhat in your mind you were hoping cari wouldn't make it known that you knew one another when you would go to her concert but of course that was most likely wishful thinking.
The two of you won't be going alone though. No Laura & Stina would be going with you. This was probably gonna make it even more awkward. But you just couldn't get yourself to admit that the songs your girlfriend liked so much were partly about you. Like 'S*x with my ex' or 'wasted youth' yeah those for example.
A little while later that day the four of you were having some lunch at a little Café close to the venue in Cologne where the Concert would be. Turned out luck really was never on your side because sure as hell Cari (Fletcher) walked in with her best friend Alex and her band. Even worse for you, both Cari & Alex noticed you right away walking over to you. "Y/n! Long time no see!" Alex spoke up. "Yeah it's has been quite the few years!" You replied. "You still look like a fucking dream!" Cari told you. What you also noticed was the eyes of Stina, Laura and Sara, your girlfriend were on the two of you. "Wait you call her Cari? And she said you STILL look like a dream? Do you know her personally?" Sara wanted to know. Alex was too quick to answer so you couldn't slowly let your girlfriend in on this. "They know every Inch of one another." She told your girlfriend and your friends. "Alex!" You and Cari spat out at the same time. "We were a couple, in high school." You explained. "And hooked up a few times when we were like 19. After that we didn't really communicate much. Just a Message whenever one of us had a Birthday." You explained "Some Songs are about me but Babe i promise that it doesn't mean anything. I only love you!" You were really stressed out about this. And for sure did regret not telling your girlfriend about it. Stina & Laura just stared back and forth between you, sara and cari. "You didn't think mentioning that the Artist i like happens to be someone you slept with?! And some Songs are about you?! Babe that's not cool!"Sara answered. At least she still called you babe so things were still fixable. Good for you! "I know Babe! I am so sorry! I didn't want to make a big deal out of it!" You tell her and take her hand. "Can we talk? In private?" You wanted to know and she nodded her head, standing up as you lead her to the restroom.
Leaving Cari, Alex, Stina and Laura behind. You lock the door behind the two of you. "Please Sara don't break up with me! I know i messed up by not telling you! I just didn't want to make it awkward. Didn't work that well, did it?" You stammer out. Sara let out a small chuckle. Taking your hands in hers. "Love, i sure not happy about you not telling me and i hope you will be honest with me from now on but it's not like you cheated on me and i am not gonna lie i find it kind of hot that i am with you while she clearly still has a thing for you! Yet i am the one you kiss and sleep with!" She answered. There was this mischievous grin on her lips and you knew what that meant. So you grinned as well now. "Honesty from now on!" You whisper out as she pushed you against the Wall of the restroom, biting your earlobe gently ,which resulted in you covering your mouth with your hand moaning into it. Things got alot more heated and let's just say you left the bathroom with shaking knees and Hickeys in different places of your body. Life was great at the moment.
When you two got back to your table Stina & Laura were alone. Cari, Alex and the Crew were gone. By the way the two of you looked when you returned both could tell what you did in the bathroom. "Had fun, talking?" Laura asked teasingly. You blushed and sara chuckled softly. "We did! Thanks for asking, Laura!" She replied and slapped your butt playfully. Which made you giggle shyly. Was a bit embarrassing but oh well. "That is wild! Even for you Guys!" Stina answered and laughed. "If you are curious they left a while ago and said the look forward to seeing us later at the concert!" Laura informed you.
After you ate and talked some more you went to the Concert & went Backstage to talk to Cari. She actually ended up being quite happy for you two and said she would sing at yours and saras wedding. For free of course. All of you ended up at a bar somehow and you just all enyjoyed eachothers company. You and sara always stayed close to one another . One of the most fun but also weirdest days in your lifes.
#womens soccer#woso#woso x reader#soccer#dfb frauen#sara doorsoun#sara DoorsounXReader#stina johannes#laura freigang#cari fletcher#eintracht frankfurt women
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Against the Kitchen Floor (Will Wood)
And I swear! I will die trying!/I'm still in the process, but I'm making progress; I promise I honestly wanna prove improvement's possible, I swear!/I'm so fucking sorry! I'm not a good person, I'm barely a person at all, But someday I'll be perfect, and I'll make up for it all!
Less rare than scarce, less diamond then rough/Unlikely to be more than just the coal you failed to crush
I'm catatonic in your arms, crying, "How did I cause so much harm?"/I'm down pounding my head against the kitchen floor/Apologizing for my life and ever entering yours
The vertex of my redemption arc/Iâm searching on that virgin heart
"The raw emotion! And I strongly relate to desperately wanting to improve for someone you love. I belt out this song when I feel really hopeless"
"my one OC. also me. also it's just a really good song. one of will's best imo. screaminbg"
"Literally hits almost all of my self-esteem issues. Feeling like people only care about you for your body? Check. Not understanding why anyone would want you? Check. Thinking that all you do is hurt people? Check. I don't cry very often but this song DEFINITELY made me teary"
"one of those if u arenât paying attention to the lyrics ur like this is nice but once u hear them its an OW holy OW and guilt and Iâm sorry feelings"
"Just. Loving someone but not feeling like youâre good enough and trying to improve."
"Not only does this song have lyrics that are deeply relatable to me, but this song also feels very deeply personal to the artist and I feel that anyone who listens to it for the first time has that same feeling of getting punched in the gut. Just the lyrics and the melody and Will Woodâs vocals make this song an absolute masterpiece and I cry every time I hear it."
"One reason I'm attached to this song is because my friend sent it to me and said "I'm kin assigning you this song" and ruined my life (/j) It messed me up because I've always had a hard time in my life figuring myself out and dealing with my emotions, and for what feels like the first time, this song has been able to near perfectly describe how I feel about myself and my impact on other people, and it always just meant so much to me that my friend who sent it to me knows me better than I know myself and shared the song with me and I love them dearly."
Fast Car (Tracy Chapman)
You got a fast car, I want a ticket to anywhere/Maybe we make a deal, maybe together we can get somewhere/Any place is better, starting from zero got nothing to lose/Maybe we'll make something, me myself I got nothing to prove
So I remember when we were driving, driving in your car/Speed so fast, I felt like I was drunk/City lights lay out before us/ And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder/And I-I, had a feeling that I belonged
You got a fast car/Is it fast enough so we can fly away?/We gotta make a decision/Leave tonight or live and die this way
"I know it's an obvious one but YOU try playing it without crying I dare you"
"I cant explain the yearning but this makes me howl"
"OH GOD the longing!! The yearning in the recurring central image of the narrator and her lover on the highway, feeling this sense of limitless possibility and incredible hope!!! And then the verses take us with brutal efficiency through the collapse of their marriage, the way that the cycle of poverty stomps down on their hopes, and how with nothing left, the narrator does what her mom did and leaves!! Leaving the kids to experience the same thing she did growing up!! But itâs all punctuated and bookended by these callbacks to that central iconic memory of hope!!!!! But by the end we realize that the last line âleave tonight or live and die this wayâ offers only the illusion of a choice: when the narrator first runs away and later when she leaves her husband and kids, sheâs still fulfilling her role in this cyclical generational story. God!!"
Against the Kitchen Floor submitted by @pixopolis + others
Fast Car submitted by @smallboyonherbike + @uchihasasukeofficial + @all-our-exploring
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Hi :)))
Considering how much I've pestered you (and other fanblogs) about Philza and their cubito I should start my own lmao (also ignore that this is my second ask of the day I am bored as hell at work)
Anyways onto todayâs Yap session about Philza and Jimmy, well actually Philzaâs kids and Jimmy.
See Philza not only has two canonical partners (Kristin and Missa) but has two canonical kids, Chayanne and Lullah. For the sake of my sanity (and any other qsmpers who happen to see this, lets assume that said kids are not missing and are living happily with their dads and mom)
Jimmy absolutely ADORES Chayanne and Lullah. When he first heard about them through letters from Phil, he immediately dropped everything to go visit.
He babysits for Phil whenever the guy asks and spoils his niece and nephew rotten. This has the unfortunate side effect of Jimmy disappearing from his friends for concerning amounts of time.
All his friends are worried about him, not knowing what the heck is going on and worried because Jimmy isn't answering anyoneâs texts or calls.
Cut to Grian, Joel, Lizzie, and Martyn having lunch together when they see Jimmy eating ice cream with Chayanne and Tallulah. They rush over because the man has been missing for a week. Jimmy is explaining that yes, he is ok. He's just been watching the kids.
Martyn then interrupts with the wonderful comment, âyou didnt tell me you were a dad.â Grian, Joel, and Lizzie all make similar comments, congratulating Jimmy on the adoption and whatnot. Jimmy stares at them before picking up his niece and nephew and walking away, yelling back something about never seeing any of them again.
Needless to say Jimmy made sure that he was with Grian, Joel, Martyn, and Lizzie when Phil came to pick up his kids.
PFTT- I could see them trying to tease him so hard for this. Especially the fact that he's kinda had a child in the past (Tiny Tom...)
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shout out to the employee at costco who complimented my soda tab earring and when they saw i was visibly excited asked me questions about it. i may not know you but i love you
#they asked what soda it was and i said bubly. because thats the only soda i like (its not even soda its just sparkling water)#and then i explained my moms friend made it for me#and then they asked what flavor it was and i said my favorite flavors were blackberry and raspberry (because they are). i have one earring o#-f each of those but today i was wearing the blackberry one#why dont more people ask me about my earrings. anywah thank you to costco guy. if you see this coscto guy i love you#jamie talks#<- had to invent a tag bc i think this is my first time making an actual post lmao
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Seraphinaâs Nightmare
A dream sequence looking at Seraphinaâs headspace after the season 1 finale.
There is no audio, itâs not broken.
I made this for a project in my film class because I simply couldnât think about anything other than UnOrdinary. It was going to be about twice this length but I ran out of time before my deadline.
#unordinary#seraphina unordinary#My project was the best in the class#everyone else just had a slideshow#except for one guy who wrote an essay#i mean#i had a slideshow too#but this was on the second slide so yk#first slide is just a title slide that I doodled flowers on#I had that slide up while I was presenting because my class needed some context#basically: âThis is Seraphina and she just found out her best friend John was lying to her about something major.â#Then the rest of the slides were just explaining choices I made and why.#But there was no text at all#just pictures#the explaining is done by me out loud#No point in putting text on a slide when Iâm gonna go up and speak#I just need pictures to point at#This was animated at 5 fps lolol#but most frames are held for way longer#I sent it to my mom and she was very shocked to find out that Seraâs hair extensions arenât her real hair#like gurl you read the series how did you not know this#animation#Drawing in my diary again
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some men are textbook villains fr
#tw religion?#kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on#some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago#liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not#tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much#i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different#things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how#id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet#but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that#and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on#you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding#things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc#life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam#me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you'#AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you'#even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that'#and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone#(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it)#(nothing even ever started you bitchass)#also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it#mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal..#but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared#my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN#'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean#i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective#but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back#and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever#anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol#def gonna delete later#but ty for reading if u did <3
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My ass is NOT used to genuine words despite how much/how many times I receive them
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nervo yaps ]#like okok I might tag this as venting#but like yes I get stuff like âI'm here for youâ from my family and stuff#but it just feels so different and sm more meaningful for me to hear it from my friends#but even then it's like EXTREMELY complex and hard to explain#like it means the fucking world to me when a friend offhandedly affirms me#or like they indulge in my stupid rambles#with my family it just feels like the âlove your family unconditionallyâ kind of thing if that makes sense#it takes out the genuine part for me for some reason idk#and my mom and sister call me Ajax or masculine terms as a way to get my attention or like fun at me and it doesn't even happen often#and my dad just straight up pokes fun at me#no jokes to be made#like again they rarely even acknowledge my identity as a trans man#they occasionally acknowledge me being bi#but rlly only my mom does#my dad just nods along kinda#like he agrees but he seems indifferent to the point where he just does not care#and not in a good way#It's also when a friend says âyou deserve itâ (looking at devil rn) I get all giddy#that's smth I don't hear often at ALL#and it's abt smth I hold dear?#like fr???#Idk. someone put me to bed I cannot be having these thoughts at almost 4 am
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not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....
#mom wanted to rewatch the movies so we've been going thru them <3#talk about a movie thats just like. grief. i turn into the jamie lee curtis halloween trauma supercut#SORRY..... the visuals are peak like that IS the hp vibe to ME and i am BLOWN AWAY this movie was made in 2004 it feels ahead of its time#the first two are so whimsical and magical enrapturing and this movie is like. a well worn cardigan. this feels 2011 cozycore to me#sorry but the introduction of lupin becoming a comforting trusted guardian type of figure AND the dementors representing hollow depression#this 13 yr old whos been kept in the dark on so many things being extra vulnerable prey to them bc of the severe trauma#but getting lessons on how to withstand that creeping dread.. through happy memories... still bonding w lupin increasngly ouagh...#the grief between them both over james and lily. also btw ofc defense against the dark arts being fighting yr fears through laughter. aaaaaa#and then sirius. black. im. i know we meme on the twelve years of it! in azkaban! but as a bitch whos now closer to those characters in age#and can appreciate and understand them obv more than i could when i was. a tween. that just hits like ok shit. VALID#so valid and real to see the child of your friends you knew at that age but who DIED and then see the friend who betrayed them#to see like the best of BOTH of them mirrored and living on in him and be like yknow what???? you WILL be protected frm that same fate#hoooo the briefest moment where harry might hope things will turn out okay. w sirius' name being cleared and peter having to explain himself#and sirius being like hey i get it if you want to stay w your family that is fine but. if you wanna move in w me...#(harry relaying this to hermione later as well. dreaming of a place fr just the two of them somewhere in the countryside#somewhere..... sirius might see the sky..... bc he thinks he would like that after all those years locked up do not even touch me rn.......)#only fr everything to turn to shit two friends fighting w deadly force. the chance to set this right slipping off into the night.#a million dementors descending relentlessly until utter exhaustion and certain death. some strange salvation? fight for a second chance?#but then still havign to say goodbye when they only just GOT this. and everything still being so. god. and lupin having to leave as well.#the thought of sirius also WANTING that guardian type connection but being forced to live in 1. a cave barely living more freely than before#2. then being confined to the stuffy somber abusive home he ran away from as a teen w that portrait still up there and everything.. bitch...#oh man the way i KNOW when we get to ootp (my favourite) its gonna leave me blasted into a million little pieces#the way i know shit like the knowing wink the entirety of the wall tapestry room scene and of course nice one james is gonna DESTROY me..#dont even talk to me abt that dark turn at the end of gof and how everything after gets soooo. god. w everything just getting destroyed and.#i cant even think abt it i cant even talk about it. wah#i dont care btw that they aged those guys up undermining how insanely young these people died. perfect casting fr the remaining marauders ok
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I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao
#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now#because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now#and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day#we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME???#also it's such a waste of fucking water....#idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off#but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up#and this is also something that happens multiple times a day#like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god#but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach#'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit#and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good#his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before#also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career#opportunities for him here (which is true)#and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here'#like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here???#but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc#and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now#i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma#and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own#it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down#about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life#and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done#and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this#that has been made PAINFULLY clear#ugh this is so fucking horrendous#what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person#who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life#like explain it to me jfc
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girl help
#the only two girls I actually honestly get along with and enjoy hanging out with#are two girls who both have parents who go to our church but they're like in their early 20s#and are kind of rebelling and not sticking to their faith super well at this point in their lives#which like I can UNDERSTAND even if I don't APPROVE of. I'm the most faithful of the three of us tbh :/#like they've both made some (imo not SUPER damaging. I've seen plenty of young women come back from stuff like this) mistakes#and despite that I like them and like to chat with them and stuff. but my mom has said that she's proud of me for NOT#hanging out with them because they're not the kind of people I should be friends with#so how do I explain to her that like. people make mistakes. even bad ones sometimes. and they still have a pretty solid#foundation in both of their sets of parents and I don't see any actual huge issue with being friends with them#like.... these are the ONLY girls my age who have actively invited me to be friends. I would LIKE to be friends#I just ran into one of them and she asked if I wanted to go to the farmer's market together this weekend. how do I tell my mom#without her Disapproving because of this girl's current issues in keeping with her faith???#how do *I* make up my mind if it's even ok to be friends with these girls. idk how it works!!!!
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Neighbors have yet another new dog they let get loose outside and can't catch đ
#apparently one of the teens' friends is staying with them and brought it#its like a chihuahua-terrier mix I think#what REALLY gets me is it got loose while the actual owner was gone#and they spent a few minutes trying to catch it and couldnt and then GAVE UP?#like just left this dog that isn't theirs out in the front yard totally by itself. unsupervised. dude if that was my dog id be PISSED that#they just gave up#at first i didnt know that part and finally got fed up with the dog being out there and texted their mom to ask if it was theirs or a stray#bc if it was a stray i wouldve tried to catch it myself#but after that she explained it and made the daughter go back outside to actually catch it
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Me looking at my own mood boards like âoh yeah this guy gets itâ
#đ#đ#I love you friendship and midnight gospel and Kaluah and I love listening and hearing stories and laughing so hard and being full of joy and#and and like questions and sadness and grief and fear and all these things that are I usually deal with with isolation on codependence w my#mom like now I feel like Iâm given the space to be a person and to be around someone who truly listens and lives and Iâm realizing places#(stuck point.comma.therapy term) where I am finding myself uncomfortable with the way I handle a conversation specifically how I listen to#people I care about and listening to understand instead of listening to respond (not usually an issue with ppl I like) or listening to#relate I struggle a lot with that I tend to use immediate interrupting with my own thing to show I get it and that can quickly be overdone#and Iâm starting to notice when I do it and Iâm learning how to balance that with also learning to shut my mouth for a second and like give#people (Levi) (but also people in IOP actually) space to talk and feel and finish a thought and trying to validate (ew therapy term) and#fully listen and understand in ways that arenât from my own perspective bc thatâs a thing I struggle with but I am also comforted by the#fact that Levi will not punish me or be harsh to me if I mess up in the moments when I notice Iâm doing it and maybe when I find myself#doing it I could say it out loud and apologize or like ask if there was more to say like idk I want to work on my listening#and not to use an excuse or whatever but I feel like I have been so isolated for so long like four years ish and I have not fully gained the#skill of listening to people at this stage of my life when Iâm not in a direct classroom setting where you are almost allowed to interrupt#in order to add to a conversation but thatâs not how all conversations are made to be and obviously (well maybe not obvious) but friends#can âunderstand and discuss boundaries and feel comfortable over talking and speaking up when there was something you wanted to say and#having me wait a second idk idk how to explain it
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