#and then I got sick and NOPE
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I LIVE
#i'm ALivE#as you might have noticed by me answering a ton of asks dindiskfksojd thanks guys#I'm not a hundred percent better but I think I'm functional enough to be on here#it stills hurts to breathe but breathing is for the weak anyways#personal#anyways I'm back#remember when I was excited October was over so I could be here for November#and then I got sick and NOPE#hopefully December is better :)
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wip wednesday
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made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷
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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.
“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.
“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out.
“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve.
“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.
“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.
“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.
“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired.
“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.
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#wip wednesday#sick eddie fic#eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao#this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha#buddie fic#buddie wip#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop#and this one isnt going so smoothly either#but im here and trying to work on it all!#ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it#i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope#thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol#this got venty lmao ignore me#i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha
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#guess who got sick for 9 days on their 2 week break#also i totally didnt accidentally post this yesterday#haha nope#anyways#stimboard#garten of banban#banban stimboard#red stim#fur stim#transgender#pansexual#trans stim#pan stim#i wanna make out with him#banban's kindergarten#banban#tw food#food tw#flash tw#tw flashing#blinkies
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after watching your most recent post (which I love by the way you are SO talented!!)
I’ve been sucked into a hypothetical South Park musical au where they’re all apart of a musical they’re performing at school
I was wondering if you have any headcanons on who would go into each department (actors, dancers, backstage, costume, art/prop and backdrop making, etc.)
BRO the way I’ve been unconsciously waiting for this! I’m a film actor, majored in filmmaking and photography in college, deadass went to school to be a cam op before turning to acting. But in high school I WAS a theatre kid. And yes I have so hcs on that.
So yes what immediately comes to mind are both Bellwether’s “There’s a Reason Intimacy Is In A Fight Call” and “Acting On Impulse”. I ADORE Kenny as the set designer and Wendy as stage manager. Film wise I see Wendy as a 1st AD, easy. She IS the head bitch in charge and I have so much respect for the AD’s I’ve worked for. That is NOT an easy job.
Yeah a lot of the influence here is coming from those fics, but theatre wise i definitely see Bebe on costumes/props. Wendy as stage manager, Cartman as FOH and venue manager, Kenny as set designer and builder, Stan helping with that but also our leading man. Kyle either acting or handling lighting design. Butters is the choreographer. Craig I’d like to see directing, Tweek on sound design. Now granted, it’s been probably 7 years since I’ve done a stage production. I did not do theatre in college, and I do admit to having a good deal of trauma from high school theatre. In fact, I HATED musicals for a long time after that. Hadestown and The Lightning Thief were the musicals that got me to love them again. What can I say, I’m a hoe for Greek Mythology.
So yeah Hadestown is my favorite musical no question. Despite the fact that I’m a 25 year old woman my ULTIMATE goal roles are Mr Hermes, Hades, and Orpheus. Les Mis is another fave and I would HAPPILY play Javert. Phantom Of The Opera, give me Phantom, or Raul, no question there. I’m not a soprano, although I would DIE to wear Christine’s costumes. And I’ll be so fr, I used to be a much better singer in general. Depression, EDs, smoking, kinda killed that. But I’m singing again. I’d LOVE to work on a movie musical. At this moment my job is recovering from anorexia, and I’ve been focused on that for the past two months or so, but once I’m more steady, I’m SO going back to auditioning, because dude I fucking LOVE acting. I love telling people’s stories. I love telling stories in general and that’s why I write.
Thank you, SO MUCH for this ask
#south park#asks#PCE answers things#acting#my shit i guess#headcanons#tragically yes I’m an actor. is that going well for me? NOPE I left a scene in my last feature film unfinished bc an anorexic bitch#got too sick#yikes#nah fr I fucked my self UP but to be fair I’m doing better#I promise lads#checkup next Thursday and if I’m at my goal weight YALL best BELIEVE I’m celebrating#PCE tryin out here
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Behold: This spoiled-ass bird
He naps in the birdseed until I start to refill the pan he's sleeping in. I was worried when I first noticed him, so I've already had a specialist come out to look - she's a neighbor and could easily walk over and see him herself, so I never had to stress him by trying to trap him. All she had to say was that he's very young lesser goldfinch (he's still shedding his baby nestling down in some spots) and probably has spent his entire short life watching me refill the feeders, while using the path from the thicket to the seed pans as practice as he continues to get better at flying longer distances. The gunk in his mouth in the picture is literally just millet he'd been snacking on in the middle of getting this picture. His beak is otherwise always very healthy-looking with no strange buildup or signs of damage.
Since he's always skrunkly and has the brass balls of an ancient fey, I have dubbed him... Skrunklestiltskin.
#birbs of tumblr#birb#skrunkly#skrunklestiltskin#lesser goldfinch#feeding birds#seriously i really did have an exotic animal expert come look at him#because i really have been worried he may be sick or injured#nope just a spoiled fat baby that knows where the food comes from#he also isn't around every day. sometimes he'll be gone for a week or more#then reappear snoozing in the pan like normal and flying away if it got busy with other birds#based on that the vet that looked at him said he's probably fine
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With PMMM resurfacing because of the new movie trailer, it gives me an excuse to post this madohomu sketch I did earlier this year, which is funny cuz I watched madomagi 2 years ago and this is actually my first time trying to draw them (and I only got the inspiration to draw them cuz I rewatched the show with my brother which is an awesome experience XD)
#madoka magica#puella magi madoka magica#madoka kaname#homura akemi#my art#traditional art#ignore the floating eyes. it's just a close up on the eye details#I also had mami & the others drawn but looking at it now I don't really like how it looks so I might redraw em and put it in another post#I wanna ramble on abt the movie trailer and my overall experience on watching pmmm for the first time but my brain is kinda empty rn#maybe in a reblog#also I kid you not I legit got sick after watching the trailer lol it just amuses me that the shock and excitement from the trailer...#...(which I waited in the live stream) gave me a fever. toootally not bc I haven't gotten enough sleep...#...and helping my parents with a buttload of chores on that day nope ahaha 👀����
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Me: yeah I'm a pretty chill person overall.
Me when a restaurant doesn't list all the stuff they put on a burger and I end up vomiting and nauseous for the next 36 hours:
#went to a restaurant last night to catch up with a friend who's rarely in town#they had a veggie burger i was really excited to try and was looking forward to all day#it listed a ton of ingredients including condiments so i JUST ASSUMED they would have mentioned all of the condiments#nope#got super fucking sick immediately#had to go home so missed out on time with my friend#couldn't get to sleep until one in the morning because i was so fucking nauseous#woke up at five still wanting to vomit#yaaay#i feel like such a whiny baby complaining about this#but man i feel fucking awful#i was excited to see my friend and eat this burger
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#tag talk#reasons I skedaddled from the relationship a a week after joining:#I only liked one out of two. I would have totally been friends with the one I liked. just not the other one. and you can't pick just one#the annoying one called sex “the horny” and I wanted to nope the hell out of there#I tried to build emotional distance by talking about how I was leaving at the end of the year and got told "#got told 'I'll still care about you even after you're gone' which like...#I react so so poorly to people who care so much they overstep my emotional boundaries#that's like. lowkey a trigger for me. I showed off my scars and they reacted with sympathy.#sympathy over my sick-ass scars that I'm proud of. I was like 'aren't these cool?' and they reacted with sympathy. no thanks#once again.. I like men. it was an experiment but I'm done. I wanted to see what it was like and I got my taste#they go on the list of people I've had sex with only once. because I usually do not go back for a second time with people#there was a chance I could have gotten one of them to play aoe with me that's the only potential benefit I could have gotten from them#otherwise nothing I wanted. they weren't good hiking pals. not good skating buddies. lame taste in movies.#the annoying one talked about wanting to be a sugar mommy which I should have seen as another un-vibe data point#cause I don't vibe with overly generous caring people either#tbh I'd rather be hated than simped over. I can't stand cloying overbearing kindness#people like that so often act as if their kindness entitles them to you and I just.. ugh. emotional blockages in place#it switched me back to L and now I'm he him pronouns again#and lowkey I think when we move I'm gonna cut our hair. I miss it short. we made a really cute guy.#being called miss and ma'am is fine and all but damn I miss being a cute boy#anyway. my life continues to be tumultuous and it's my own damn fault. I regret nothing but I will learn from this experience
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i really thought i was getting better. i see now that that was stupid of me
#.pdf#rd#sorry feel free to ignore the following whining about my health#few days back i started feeling like i had more energy than i had in weeks#so i was like oh good i can do stuff again and cleaned all my fishtanks (spent a couple hours hauling buckets of water back and forth)#and then followed that up with staying up too late AND a half day of being out and about because i “felt up for it”#unfortunately my suspected Feel Bad After Doing Stuff Disease made me feel bad. after doing stuff. and now i feel like an idiot#why did i think that i would suddenly be able to handle my previous levels of exertion again? i do not know.#i guess its just hard to like really internalize that this might be my life now and that i cant do too much of anything even if i want to#got used to being told that im just depressed or something. made me start to doubt if im actually sick. made me think i would be fine#nope. clearly still something wrong with me. sucks to be me i guess#i feel so weak and sick and cold. like the kind of deep untouchable cold you feel when your blood temp drops from being given iv fluids...#hate it. one of my least favorite symptoms for sure for sure
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i love being sick its my most favouritest thing ever (kill me now)
#just a load of garbage#tw illness#i cannot believe im sick aGAIN#actually yes the fuck i can#i did so much last week and i barely rested#like my rest was going to school#do you know how sad that is#also last week i broke my record for amounts of panic attacks in one day#we got to 7#only one during school tho#it was a bad one tho lmao#like i couldnt breathe for a good like 5 minutes#i was genuinely just sitting on the rehearsal room floor shaking while my teacher was like 'nope dont you dare' every time i tried to leave#i couldnt really stand up so yeah it was fair#anywho#dont mind me yall
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i cannot keep fucking doing this i thought this grief thing was supposed to get easier
#i feel like i got slightly better after 6 months and then just have been stuck for a year and a half since then#like fuck man is THIS the 'better' is this just it. i want my fucking life back i can't keep on like this.#avpost#every time i think ok that was probably the last full scale break down . nope here comes another one like clockwork#they aren't even getting farther apart or anything im so fucking sick of this how do people live like this#I WANT MY FUCKING LIFE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my entire fucking life has only gotten worse and im just stuck like this i am so sick of it this is fucking impossible.
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don't purposely fixate on shit that upset you
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hey, as a chronically ill person, i am not comfortable with submissions of characters who are doomed specifically because of their chronic illness. i and other chronically ill people are not doomed. we are not a tragedy. it is really really fucking unfortunate that we're treated like we are. if you are submitting a character specifically because they died because of their chronic illness, please don't actually. we are more than just the fact that we're going to die.
#this isn't actually in reference to the latest submissions of viktor arcane sorry bad timing on my part for this post ILASUDHSUIAH#i'm going through all the submissions that got entered since last night and there's a couple that are. hm.#'isn't it tragic that they got sick and died' nope. next question#i am hesitant on the viktor arcane submissions tho. don't get me wrong i fucking love him#but he kind of walks the line between 'chronically ill character that's doomed for unrelated reasons' and#'chronically ill character that's doomed because they're chronically ill'#for him specifically not sure what to do there. i'll think about it#but if you are putting him or other characters in specifically for their chronic illness. hey. shut the fuck up actually#doomed by the narrative showdown
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welp, i tested positive for covid this morning, lmao. i had to cancel class tomorrow.
hopefully i can gather the energy to record a little lecture or something so that students get some of the background they're hoping for (basically this week was the "how to read middle english" primer/refresher course). overall it's fairly mild, so as long as i don't have a fever on friday, i'm going to go to class (masked, of course) and we can talk about the poems i'm having them read. i'm gonna struggle to be heard through the mask, but alas. we'll have to make do.
other than that, i have two students from my summer course who didn't submit their work by the extended deadline (last friday), which was the very last day i'm technically allowed to accept late work. one of them might?? maybe???? be submitting something by tonight?? she emailed at like 3 in the morning on saturday asking for a couple of extra days. i answered yesterday telling her that if she got something to me by 10pm tonight, then i would make it work (grades are due tomorrow lol), but if not, then she would have to file a petition for a term work extension with the registrar. the other one is... i think?? in the process of submitting such a petition.
i'm just here sitting on my couch surrounded by tissues and trying to get some of my shit together, lol.
#read more post#personal#pedagogy#whine whine complain complain#i was really hoping this was just a cold but nope#although it pretty much feels like a mild cold#or at least what i remember colds feeling like?#idk i'm never sick#last time i was sick was the other time i got covid in june 2022#before that it had been years (i'm talking years before the pandemic even)#anyway i'm gonna take another dose of benylin and maybe put on a silly show and do some crochet#actually before that i'm going to wipe down the bathroom sink & vanity#then i'll crochet in front of the tv#oh damn i should also fold the laundry 😔#i still can't believe i have to cancel the THIRD CLASS#we're off to a banner start
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the month ive been at this university has really made me confront the fact that it really is the people who are the most bourgeoisie who hate the bourgeoisie the most. like foucault is the archetype for this but reading kropotkin's speech at his trial in 1883 and then seeing his father was a royal officer who owned serfs in multiple provinces, descended from a grand princess, his mother was the daughter of an extremely prominent general and descendant of multiple noble families. and then u try to get to your bus stop and the guy with a vivienne westwood necklace and designer sweater from the revolutionary communist party is trying to get u to scan a qr code from his iphone 15 or whichever it is now to donate For The Cause. i never really fully understood why it's the raised catholic, wealthy, etc. people who hate the catholic, wealthy, etc. people so much but i suppose it is some mentality where you were raised so well behaved and privileged that it's the first instinct to rebel against it. and obviously like if you're recognising you come from an incredibly wealthy background and are using said wealth and said circumstances to advance your cause whatever it may be then have at it obviously but so many of these types (foucault ..... side eye....) try their best to hide it and never mention it
#also i really never realised how “poor” these people could consider me until i said i felt sick about spending 25 eur this month already on#eating out but the sudden weather change has made me very prone to getting a quiche on my way from school when it's dark and cold#and my italian friend said oh wtf that's nothing and showed me she spent TWO THOUSAND euros last month#like hey now. maybe i will let you buy me this coffee...#my other eastern european friend as well he bought a new jacket bc it got cold and i was like you cant just borrow one from your family?#nope. he came down with a new levi's fur-lined denim jacket. like alright#side note anyhow they;ve got to stop counting the iphones eventually and get more creative. like iphone 23 doesn't sound good. none of them#do except iphone 5 .
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twrptwt has once again reminded me why I never use Twitter.
#i always think about joining cuz the fandom spaces are pretty strong there#nope. never.#insufferable#twrp: yeah we find m&g awkward and we kept getting sick so we dont like doing them anymore#dumbfucks in the replies: so you hate me specifically?#yup you got it genius. nail on the head there /sar
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