#i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha
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wip wednesday
tagged by @jesuisici33 @callaplums @daffi-990 @loserdiaz @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie 💖💖
made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷
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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.
“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.
“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out.
“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve.
“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.
“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.
“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.
“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired.
“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.
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#wip wednesday#sick eddie fic#eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao#this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha#buddie fic#buddie wip#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop#and this one isnt going so smoothly either#but im here and trying to work on it all!#ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it#i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope#thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol#this got venty lmao ignore me#i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha
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after reading your izuna tobi time travel rambles I can't help but think about them just crashing the middle of a council meeting 😭 everyone is shook, and absolutely flabbergasted and ngl they kind of just.. Want the two to stay? (Well, mostly Tobi's old subordinates/students because they feel partially sad and sentimental and OH MY GOD IS THAT FOURTEEN YEAR OLD TOBIRAMA?!?) And then the psycho Hashirama timeline is just amazinggg I can't stop thinking about it you're actually infecting my brain bro
NO BC IVE BEEN THINKING NONSTOP ABOUT THAT EXACT SCENARIO LATLEY MYSELF !! The brain worms are spreading...
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Every other time Tobirama and Izuna enter a world where it's modern Konoha, they start taking bets about which one of them died there. Funny bit where Izuna says smthn about how there quote, "aren't nearly enough crazy nightmare trees and brainwashed people for you to have died here" (bc 9 times out of 10 in worlds where Tobirama dies Hashirama loses it to a spectacular degree that leaves a VERY visable mark on Konoha)
Actually, taking that thought, it could be fun if they got dropped into a seemingly normal Konoha only to find out that hey Tobirama did die in this one, but it seems to be the 1 out of 10 that Hashi was able to stay sane
Only nope!! Surprise attack!! He's just really really good at pretending to be normal and when they try to leave he plays his hand, lots of fire and explosions ensue and they just barley escape
Izuna and Tobirama are SO tired of people trying to force them to stay in places, theyve had Madara do it they've had Hashirama do it, maybe they even had alternate versions of eachother do it. They !! Want !! To go !! Home !!!!
Also you can't tell me that seeing a young version of them specifically would hit Madara/Hashi harder than any revived adult version could. They're lowkey the "idealized" versions of their brothers, still small and in need of being protected, not consumed with anger and burdened by the things they've done and seen in the war. They're silly little guys!! And they're slamming on ALL the "Oh god I need to protect my little brother" buttons, it's sooo bad
Anyways, them crashing into a council meeting after quite a few different rounds of dimension hopping. Meaning they really don't give a shit ab destroying anything bc they've already come to the conclusion that it's too late to be worrying ab any potential side effects of fucking with possible time lines.
They're immediatley diving across the table making grabby hands at their friendly ball of interdimensional light as it floats off, trying to go for it as soon as they land before it wanders off and they're left having to hunt for it.
I need you to picture these 2 kids just DIVING across a table of important clan people shouting smthn ab DO NOT TOUCH THAT FUCKING LIGHT
They miss it and it dissapears through a wall rip
Maybe they end up slamming into it trying to catch it for comedy effect actually
Other than just sentimentality there's also definatley a tactical standpoint of trying to get them to stay
That's THE Senju Tobirama, second Hokage, white demon and inventor of a fuck ton of jutsus. And also Izuna, who is much less known here to his (by now used to it in these kinds of world) displeasure
All young and untrained and perfect for grooming into a loyal konoha shinobi, ready to grow into his prime by careful hands who knows exactly what he could become
How much more terrifying could he be, if trained specifically by someone who knows his talents, shown his own research to build off of and given all sorts of modern tools he never had before
And also Izuna is still there and he's so fucking sick of being underestimated rn guys what the fuck he's cool too
Anyways the second Tobirama and Izuna hear "hahaha maybe you should stay a little longer..." they're BOLTING
They've heard that song and dance like 20 times now they know the warning signs and you seem nice but they are NOT risking another 'secret yandere' situation again, goodbye.
Their only saving grace is that respect and sentimentality does win out here in letting them go without too much arguing, no matter how valuable they might be. Got lucky this time around, might not be so lucky the next
#birds fic talk#izuna uchiha#time travel#birds asks#senju tobirama#uchiha izuna#tobirama senju#tobirama#izuna#madara uchiha#hashirama senju#senju hashirama#uchiha madara#naruto#naruto founders#dimensiom travel#tobiizu#konoha
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As it is May 1st and I just got my period today, here’s your second request
What do you think skz would be like when your on maybe like the worst day of your period
Heavy flow, cramps on like level 9 and just pain in general. As well as random craving and drastic change of emotions, I totally didn’t have two breakdowns in one day hahaha I’m okay now 🥲, but yeah
Something soft and cute for rn 🥰🧡
LOVE YOU WIFEY (I need chocolate and cuddles now 😔)
- 🧡anon
haven’t gotten my period in 2 months I’m so silly goofy (I’m literally omw with chocolates rn ‼️‼️)
Chan: TOOOTAL FUCKING SWEETHEARTTTT he’s so attentive to your needs and somehow knows a trillion home remedies to help you feel better. Like you not even you would’ve known that apparently papaya extract is good for cramps but somehow Chan just does and ofc he’s there for you with chocolates and a heating pad and all your favorite movies. Literally the only thing you want to come home to when you have period cramps is a cuddle session w Chan like he’s peak comfort person
Minho: feels bad :( hates seeing you in pain & wants to do everything he can to help you, but feels defeated when you’re still in pain after hours of feeling like shit. I mentioned it to another anon on here but he def just sprawls his entire hand out over your tummy and lets you use it as a personal heating pad and it’s somehow the most romantic and tender thing ever even though you’re writhing in pain
Changin: does whatever he can to cheer you up. Makes you laugh, showers you in kisses, just very emotionally and physically affectionate. Though he obviously can’t help you with the pain, he’s definitely one to try and brighten the mood however he can! I feel like even if he had to go out and do something he’d make sure to call you and check in on you to make sure you’re doing okay. But other than that he’ll definitely try to be home in bed with you as long as he can so you’re not alone
Hyunjin: it kinda scares him seeing you in pain, but he’s willing to do whatever it takes so that you’re comfortable just like Changin does. Not really in a “making you laugh” sorta way, but like… bringing you a heating pad, making sure you have comfortable clothes, making you tea, etc. It’s kind of a learning process for him but he doesn’t want to feel useless when you’re suffering. When you’re finally comfortable and asleep, he’ll definitely get very clingy and want to read to you or cuddle with you :(
Jisung: Is full boyfriend mode. You know those memes that are like “what size pad do you wear”… that’s def him. Someone he equates you being on your period to needing a new stash of stuff every month, so he comes home with pads/tampons, snacks, plushies, and probably like the dumbest movie he could find in the dollar section. And he’ll just be super “do you need anything else??” The whole time. Doesn’t want you to think he’s scared of it or grossed out so he’ll keep reiterating that he can get you whatever you need and he’ll have bought you like 6 packs of pads and still ask if you need more 😭 he’s a lil lost but he’s got the spirit
Felix: he’s more scared of you being on your period than you are LMAO he’ll panic any time you vocalize that you’re in pain and be super ready to get you whatever you need. Very sweet and understanding about the whole thing though !!!! I feel like he’d have very good knowledge about how your periods usually go and he’ll know exactly what you need to feel better. Also kinda loves when you’re not in excruciating pain bc he’ll take any excuse he can get to cuddle you and smother you in kisses. He’s the biggest sweetheart
Seungmin: knows the drill very well. He’s more prepared than you are. Already has all your pads/tampons well-stocked, your fav snacks, drinks, etc. he literally preps for it so that he doesn’t have to leave your bed when the time comes around. He’s super nonchalant about it too, like “yeah we have your absolute favorite chocolates, second drawer to the left.” But it makes you melt because he’s so secretly attentive and it’s so endearing. He also loves spending weekends inside being lazy together so he’s honestly kinda thrilled if you have to end up canceling plans
Jeongin: he’s similar to Felix in the way that he’s scared when you’re in pain, but very attentive to your needs. He’s all about physical affection when you don’t feel good, so you’ll get to lie in his lap while he plays with your hair and it’s somehow more comforting than a heating pad even is. He also loves to cook for you so it’s a nice surprise when you wake up from a nap and he’s already got a gourmet meal ready for you !!!! Sometimes this means an excuse to just order takeout together too which he’ll never complain about
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was tagged by @muigiel ^^
nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name
1. why did you choose your url? i heard "ghost baby" could be a translation of wei ying (from mdzs) and i really loved that vibe
2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. @revengegarden which i use to put art inspiration in.
3. how long have you been on tumblr? i think i first joined when it was in beta in like 2009! i didnt really know how to use it though. i used it intermittently over the years to post silly poetry and save stuff from the internet i enjoyed. i never really interacted with anyone or understand how that worked. i made a new account in 2020 when i got interested in fandom stuff during pandemic lockdown times..
4. do you have a queue tag? no
5. why did you start your blog in the first place? well i answered that above kind of ... i've always sort of gotten weird obsessed with whatever i'm watching or reading, no one else i knew really had the same level and that i remember during the first weeks of lockdown searching stuff on what i was watching instead of bothering uninterested people about it and ended up on tumblr looking at fan art of zuko and sokka :P and all these people losing it over fictional characters i was like ... i think i'm home? so i got a tumblr to participate in it more.
6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? my name is from wei wuxian so i wanted a pic of him! he was sort of my main blorbo at the time making this account, and he truly captured my heart when he was all red-eyed insane with rage playing his demon flute
7. why did you choose your header? i don't know what my header is haha
8. what’s your post with the most notes? i'm not sure exactly, but i think the last 'annual stats' thing tumblr shared was a feverish cumplane head canon i posted. i also get notes every day on a recent post about wu ming fanon vs canon. but actually my looooong ranting meta about wei wuxian and lan wangji is probably the most notes. but reading that meta makes me want to hide under a rock encountering my past self
9. how many mutuals do you have? a couple
10. how many followers do you have? o.o
11. how many people do you follow? a few hundred i think?
12. have you ever made a shitpost? *looks up definition of shitpost* no
13. how often do you use tumblr each day? probably an hour a day just scrolling on my phone when i'm too tired to do anything else... i've had a job this summer that has been brutally long hours and tiring so i'm not in the mood to sit at my computer much
14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? sometimes haha. listen, sometimes people have takes that are so bad i have to say SOMEthing. then i get so terrified of being yelled at i delete everything or ignore tumblr for 2 weeks or ask @muigiel if people are being mean in my notes hahaha
15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts ummmmm
16. do you like tag games? it's nice to be tagged! atm i usually don't have time when i receive them and then the notification passes and i forget, this one i put in my drafts though
17. do you like ask games? love to be a part of one one day T.T idk maybe more people would send me asks if i turned on anon but a year or so ago i started getting all these terfs harassing me in my asks (must be doing something right?) so i turned off anon. one actually was mad enough to send me a death threat (?!) from their account so i was able to report them
18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? haha i don't have many, just all of us small fish swimming together.. but i think a lot of people in danmei fandoms really love what @baiwu-jinji posts :) although i think they're not super active rn or we're not on at the same times
19. do you have a crush on a mutual? no but if you're in love with me let me know! i wouldn't be opposed to a tumblr romance :P
20. what is the last song you listened to? hmmmm i think i was listening to a Grouper album last
21. what are you currently watching? i wanted to find something new to watch that had perfect gorgeous visuals of beautiful outside places and ended up watching Orlando last night
22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? all!
23. what is your current relationship status? single
24. what is your current obsession? tgcf, he xuan, yin yu, maurice (film & reading the book)
25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?
maurice soundtrack !!
80s dancey music bc my taste definitely gears towards lyricless and traditonal/folk music but i've been working with kids who all want to listen to justin bieber all the time so trying to get some fun pop music i can also enjoy (i just hate the sounds of contemp pop music sorry, somehow it feels so... digital? data-driven? written by AI?) - and actually have found madonna is soooo good.
and then relistening to old favourites... yesterday i was enjoying my rock n roll romance playlist which has david bowie, bauhaus, wanda jackson (tunnel of love), suicide (cheree), roy orbison, dead or alive
if you want to take a look inside my brain https://www.nts.live/shows/cantus-orbis
tag 9 people.. uhh. how about just @unfotp @marloviandevil @baiwu-jinji but no obligation!
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HI ELLIE OKAY I JUST FINISHED TTPD AND I AHVE OPINIONS 😭 first half of the album was ehh idk how to feel abt fortnight considering it’s the single for this album I think it was good not that good though it wasn’t amazing like lavender haze I really loved ttpd (the song) I think my boy only breaks his favorite toys were good but so long London was a HUGE disappointed I think we all hyped it up so much and we all ended up getting disappointed because it wasn’t what we wanted or expected but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED I also really liked fresh out of the slammer especially the kind banging sounds ik it wasn’t banging but bear w me 😭😭 guys English isn’t my language you can’t blame me fr 😂😂 who’s afraid of little old me WAS SO GOOOD and I can do it with a broken heart especially when she goes “I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday everyday Im so obsessed with him but he avoids me like plague” and the upbeat music makes it so much better the anothology was so much better then the normal version definitely really loved the black dog that song really stood out to me imgonnagetyouback WAS SO GOOD I saved that one I hate it here was also really good 😭 thanK you aIMee THE SHADE THROWN AT KIM ?? Taylor mother fucking swift did it AGAINNN 😭😭🤞🏻 she ate her up so bad if I was Kim I would be so embarrassed rn 😭☠️ Cassandra also stood out to me I think this was abt the kimye situation Robin was ehh I think it’s a grower for me honestly but the Bolter and the manuscript were pretty good as if noe I think I’ll probably enjoy the album way more if I just listen to it more a little disappointing but that’s fine cuz there were amazing tracks on here and tbh I am not mad at it now I just need to watch the fortnight music video but I’m too overwhelmed rn so I need a break a little 🥲 now I’m just probably gonna wait for Somone to break down the tracks and point out the hidden clues in the mv 😭😭☠️
hiii bb omg your opinions are pretty much exactly mine LOL <333
yeahh i agree w you, w midnights lavendar haze was likee....it set the TONE for the album yknow hahaha. i remember first listen for it n i was like aight im locking in after hearing that. but i heard fortnight n was like...ehhh i hope it gets better. i liked ttpd too i thought it was lyrically p good song plus the line ab the ring omg i was gagged. yea SLL was disappointtinggg i was rlly looking forward to that one ripping my heart out LOL but it...didn't
"but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED"
HELP SAME HAHAHA I WAS WATCHING A BUNCH OF TIKTOKS YESTERYDAY OF PPL REACTING TO THAT LYRIC AND IT'S SO FUNNY xD tbh when i first heard it it didn't really sink in for me so i was just vibin w it but then i was like damn. imagine if she announced to the world she was pregnant through a song like that ahhah i was shocked when i heard it again in second chorus. she was so insane for that
agghh idk 'who's afraid of little old me' and 'i can do it w a broken heart' were big time misses for me lol i haven't listened to them again since first listen but it's just cuz i don't really like those kinds of songs from her (specifically referring to the lyricism on these ones) but idkkk i could just be a hater LOL cuz my friends rly liked icdiwabh but it might grow on me, we'll see,, it's def catchy!! kinda silly but she kept it so real
YESSS i think the black dog is in my top three from album :'') i had it on repeat driving to work yesterday and i cried ??? w every listen ??? idk something ab the end of the bridge where she holds the note on "old habits die screaming" omg i sob. and i'mgonnagetyouback was also SO GOOD i think that song is the type of edgy ts lyricism i enjoy (as opposed to icdiwabh & who's afraid of lil old me)
THENK YOU AIMEE WAS WILDDD i think that's the song that had me the MOST GAGGED BC GAT DAYUM. the part where she alludes that kim's kids will be coming home from school singing songs that SHE WROTE that only the two of them know are throwing shade at kim plsss. that's wild n i'm so glad she had the balls to release that song hahah good for her
i also really liked clara bow, the part where she said "you look like taylor swift" alluding to how someday she too will be gone n only remembered for her legacy was wilddd n made me emotional ngl. also i lovedd peter too def in my top three too. also loml is probs my fave
sameee i haven't watched the new mv yet haha i think i might stream it on tv later tonight. sorryyy bb that' you're overwhelemd hope you're taking care of yurself n that your exams szn is going okay!! <33 ty for sharing your thoughts w me
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You might be a fast runner or a sharpshooter, but young girls aren’t known to fare well on the battlefield.
(But what if I had a 🗡️)
Obviously, you’re gorgeous
I’m blushing.
You rarely stop to mingle with Colleen
But but I need to know Colleen’s nail tech
His first interaction with you aside from your initial greeting, begins with a headache
lololol this is about me
Do you want Advil? I have some in my purse
YOU KNOW I always keep that thang on me or at least have a couple loosies
Hold out your hand unless you want me to feed them to you,” you say jokingly
!! Feed him !! Feed him !! Put your fingers in his mouth
“You’re a fuckin’ angel, you know that?”
Didn’t know I needed him to say that to me but now I’ll never rest
Depends on the underwear, he thinks
Heheheheh
Javi, stupidly, has forgotten that you're not privy to any of this, so you endure 25 minutes of conversation time before asking, "Who's Connie?"
I cackled at this hahahahah
"Okay, fine. I was not listening…”
He’s such a shitass I’m giggling weeeeee
Really, Javi's a mopey zoo lion if anything
HAHAHAH stop!!
there is a mutual knowledge and acceptance that Steve is cock-blocking Javi. It's for everyone's benefit.
Honestly cockblock!steve is such a real one, he’s always just curmudgeonly and self absorbed enough ya know? Hahaha
"We can still go out, right, Javi?" you ask
Me preparing to cry rn if he says no 🥺
It takes only one word to seal his fate, but he gives you five.
I love that line, it’s got me silly smilin’
so he can't put his arm around the back of your seat and you can't lean on him when you start to feel tipsy
☹️☹️ how does he know my fav moves, come over here and lemme leaaaaan on you bb
he keeps his hands – respectfully, protectively, friendly – on you. Just an arm around your shoulder, or your hand in his at most scandalous.
YEAH YEAH!! Yeah!!
You leave him with a kiss on the cheek, and he hopes that it means less to you than it does to him.
They are stronger than me 🫡 respect
Watching you get whisked away by the bartender, Javi sighs a little too loudly, prompting Murphy to inquire, “you jealous
AHHHH I LOVE WHEN THEY GET JEALOUS
I’m a simple lady ok
“No. I’m gonna go… mingle,” he says
NOOOOOO I HATE WHEN I GET JEALOUS
“Okay, I’ll be here when you’re ready to talk about it.”
+
“Fuck off. We agreed that I’m not sleeping with her – I did not take a vow of celibacy.”
I can picture these two and their attitudes perfectly heheheheh
“Tell him I left to fuck his wife.”
Hahahahah
You keep your eyes pointed at your feet and he keeps his hands by his sides. It feels like you’re strangers who happen to be walking at the same pace, to the same destination. There’s nothing more to say
Owww can you remove the dagger from my soft heart
“Oh, so we’re not good enough for you? I’m offended,” Javi says, sarcastically, but there’s a grain of truth deep down
—me when I flirt and expect someone to read between the lines then complain about miscommunication
Each outfit has a matching set of lingerie, so you have to see that too in order to accurately judge
OMG I LOVE HER
He has the tendency to get attached even in the most casual of situations, so he’d never dare make an occasion out of sex
We know he falls in love with everyone 💗
Javi is stupid enough to think that this means you'll skip the date
Me
“Yeah. How do you want me?” he asks
HO BOY LET ME GET MY LIST - unfurls comically long scroll 📜
He does the right thing the first time – he calls up Gabriela and fucks her like he hates her, tips her real well afterwards
Brb I gotta touch grass real quick
"I need to forget," you tell him, and he knows exactly what that means
💗💗💗💗💗
if you consider sex a party
Heheh why not
"I'm gonna cum."
"I know. That's the goal.”
Stop!! (Don’t) the attitude is making my laugh like a looney, too good!!
He doesn't wait for an answer before lifting you over his shoulder
Pls lug me to your cave Javi 🙌🙌
The second time you say 'fuck' is when Javi tells you he'll go grab a condom from his wallet – which is in his jeans, which are somewhere near the front door – and you say 'fuck it'.
!! Chanting and shaking the bars of my enclosure
"Make me forget."
Yes yes yes
"I want you to hurt me."
I don't want to hurt you
AHHHH
Good" is the only word he says, though it's clearly not 'good' because Steve looks more pissed off than he's ever seen him
HEHEHEHEHEHH
Stay," you say, tugging him by the hand, so he falls back into bed
Yes yes yes yes
For him, it's deeper than that. You're deeper inside him than he ever was inside you.
Owwwww hurts so good
He wakes up beside you, feeling hungover despite not having any alcohol the night before. It's the vague sense of guilt and confusion, the way he feels more awake than the night before but less awake than he should after a full night's rest.
I can feel this SO viscerally
His eyes linger on you for too long while he fantasizes, long enough for you to notice – for you to begin to see him for who he is.
CAN you come over and hold my hand while I read this and scream with meee over all of it
You sleep together again, but you don't have sex
OOH not the infinitely more intimate version of sleeping together fr
I'd do anything for you
Same
You call periodically at first, but the calls get more sporadic until they disappear entirely
OWWWWWW
There are two open barstools, one on each side of a woman he can only see from the back. He chooses the one to her right. She looks like you, he thinks, just a slightly different haircut.
EEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
Yeah, I will be, once my boyfriend gets our bags
NOOOOO GIRL WHYYY IM ON MY KNEES
uhhhhh, that was fantastic and I had totally casual and normal responses while reading it. hurt me again pls bb
my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder
pairing: javi p x reader
cws/tags: angst, p in v, oral, idk? drinking? canon death mention? javi pov
summary: reader, a dea agent, arrives in medellin (season 2 time) and quickly forms a bond w javi. are they just friends or is it something more?
a/n: there is a part 2 which will give the full picture (hopefully)
wc: 8.6k
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There was Helena, and then, Gabriela, before that, Vanessa, and certainly some others here and there, but with all of them, Javi had his expectations set upfront. Or at least, he thought he did, he tried to, but he'd be lying if he said Helena only came to mind when he was lonely in the middle of the night, naked and unable to sleep.
Elisa was a mistake, an unfair mistake that was dropped off at his doorstep before he could tell himself that this doesn't mean anything. There must've been some self-preservation instincts in him that held him back from begging her for more, from moping around after she left. He risked a lot for her, but he would've risked more if she'd let him.
Prostitutes and wanted communists are one thing, but you are something else. Javi can't quite put his finger on what that something else is yet, and it’s too late once he figures it out.
In the beginning, Javi was skeptical of you, mostly because you came to Medellin with Messina and crew, and he falsely assumed that being her subordinate meant you would take her side if there were ever to be conflict between her and Javi – and there was from their very first conversation.
More than skeptical, he was intrigued. Being sent to Colombia to participate in the fight against Escobar was usually reserved for higher-ups with a much longer tenure, or fresh meat for the front-lines. As a newcomer, that meant that you were either a highly-skilled agent in the field of investigation or you volunteered yourself – likely unknowingly – to be slaughtered. You might be a fast runner or a sharpshooter, but young girls aren’t known to fare well on the battlefield.
Once he’s determined that you’re not a threat, you’re a coworker. You keep to yourself. You don’t seem shy, just focused, and for that Javi is grateful. Considering the fact that he’s forced to work with the people he deems to be ‘RIP’ and a fuckton of bureaucracy, you make his life easier.
Obviously, you’re gorgeous. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder or whatever but he sees the way others look at you. He notices because he is also looking. You walk with confidence, but not arrogance. You traverse the halls with purpose, but not urgency. You rarely stop to mingle with Colleen and only exchange cordial glances with men who would melt if you gave them any more attention than that.
His first interaction with you aside from your initial greeting, begins with a headache. It’s the phone ringing, then the keys clicking on the typewriter, even the tick of the clock gets to him. He groans - somewhat dramatically - and puts his head in his hands.
“Agent Peña,” you pipe up from beside him. “Are you okay?��
“Just a headache. I’ll recover.”
“Do you want Advil? I have some in my purse.”
“Yes, please.”
You dig through a sizable bag until you find a small bottle. You carefully shake two caplets out and pour the excess back inside their container, closing the cap tightly before putting it back in your purse.
“Hold out your hand unless you want me to feed them to you,” you say jokingly.
He opens his palm and takes the offering, greedily swallowing the pills dry.
“You should really take those with water,” you say.
“Does coffee work?” He presents the near-empty mug on his desk to you, swirling the contents.
“Here,” you say, giving up your water bottle.
“You’re a fuckin’ angel, you know that?” he says, before taking a gulp of your water, tasting the chapstick on the rim. Cherry. It leaves a pink stain that matches the color of your nails.
When he returns the bottle to you, you seem oddly flustered. He meant angel as in miracle worker not as in divinely gorgeous woman, though both could be used to describe you. You should know that, he thinks.
“Not really,” you say with a breathy laugh. “I’m just prepared for any surprise Aunt Flo could bring me.”
“Huh?” Javi’s a man without sisters, daughters, or a wife, he’s never heard the expression.
“My period.”
Honestly, he’s impressed at how plainly you say it, shameless as you should be.
“Ah.”
“She makes me more of a demon than anything, but it means I’ve got a whole pharmacy in here.”
“Got anything fun?”
“Not unless you find enjoyment in a handful of tampons and a spare pair of underwear.”
Depends on the underwear, he thinks. They’re probably modest, but you’d look good in fuckin’ granny panties. By the end of the day, he’s imagined you in just about everything.
At the time, Javi's not interested in flirting with you. It's not a conscious effort not to get involved, he's just so caught up in everything else that there's little time to think about romancing you.
Even the night he and Steve first invite you for drinks, it's sheerly for the sake of camaraderie. In fact, it was Steve's idea, not his. Murphy thought you looked lonely – in retrospect, Javi thinks it might've been projection. Javi agreed to invite you out of pure interest in what you'd be like outside of the office.
Nice. That's the best way he could describe it. Likable.
You all get drunk. Javi watches your professional facade slip as you’re swaying in your seat to the rhythm of the current hits on the radio. Your skin, dewy with summer sweat, makes you glow like an angel in the dim light of the bar.
It takes Steve a drink and a half to bring up his marriage problems. Javi, stupidly, has forgotten that you're not privy to any of this, so you endure 25 minutes of conversation time before asking, "Who's Connie?"
"Steve's wife," Javi says.
"Where is she?"
"Miami."
"I've never heard you talk about her before."
"Because he's in hot water," Javi, again, is the one to answer.
"I can answer for myself, thank you." Steve insists.
And so Javi lets Steve talk - he's probably heard it all before - and he lets himself have a break. Just a little break, no one will notice if he lets his mind wander for a second. Really, he's mostly listening, he thinks.
"Javi." Murphy's voice from across the table is oddly stern.
"What?" Javi mirrors his tone.
"What do you think I should do?"
"About what?"
"Connie."
"I don't know."
"Were you even listening?"
"Yeah, of course."
It takes one long stare to get him to break. "Okay, fine. I was not listening. Tell me one more time."
You excuse yourself from the table to use the restroom, and it feels like you've fed him to the wolves – rightfully so.
"You like her." It's not a question. It's a statement, whispered as if Murphy cares about the confidentiality of Javi's love life or lack thereof.
"It's not like that." But Javi can't meet his eyes.
"I know sleeping around usually works for you, but I don't want you to fuck this up. Not right now when we're so close."
What he means is: do not fuck her. It should be simple – and to Steve's credit, he's right. But the thing is that Javi doesn't just want to fuck you. It's not like that.
"What do you think I am? An animal?" Javi asks.
Yes, he absolutely does. To him, Javi is a tiger, waiting to pounce on whatever prey he can get his hands on. Really, Javi's a mopey zoo lion if anything.
When he notices you making your way across the room, he changes the subject. "Anyway, I think you should call Connie, and tell her how you feel. Just be honest."
"That's what I said," you beam with pride, as if you've gotten the answer right.
Looking into Murphy’s bloodshot eyes, he adds, "But you've gotta sober up first."
"I agree," you say, and Javi only notices now how you slur your words.
He convinces you both to go home with the promise of a second hangout next week. It's an empty promise – he just needs to get you home safe. He assumes you won't remember in the morning. But come next Friday, you approach him, and ask if you're going to the same bar you went to the weekend prior.
It was an empty promise, but one he decides to keep.
It becomes a weekly thing. The three of you. You all get along perfectly well, but if this were any other circumstance, if you were any other beautiful woman, Javi would've pulled Steve to the side and told him to pound sand. But there is a mutual knowledge and acceptance that Steve is cock-blocking Javi. It's for everyone's benefit.
Your group hangouts typically begin and end at the same bar down the street.
The friend group arrangement works until it doesn't. Until Murphy has plans.
"How the fuck do you have plans? Your wife is in another country," Javi asks bitterly.
"Unlike you, my life isn't centered around women I want to sleep with," Steve says with less bite because he knows he's won the conversation.
Fuck Murphy. Javi was tired of hearing him bitch about Connie anyway. But you. He could never get tired of you.
"We can still go out, right, Javi?" you ask, and he's fairly sure it's the first time you've ever called him by his first name.
He doesn't have time to find an excuse to say no when he's pushing away every knee-jerk flirtation in his mind.
"Yeah," he says, "of course we can."
It takes only one word to seal his fate, but he gives you five.
That evening he sits across from you rather than next to you, so he can't put his arm around the back of your seat and you can't lean on him when you start to feel tipsy. Instead, he has to try to pay attention while you're looking him in the eyes, smiling at him and no one else.
When you decide to call it a night, and you stumble on your way out the door, Javi grabs hold of your arm, steadying you.
"I'm gonna walk you home," he says. Not an offer, a statement of fact.
"I got it," you say, patting him on the chest in thanks.
"No, you don't." He sighs as he leads you against your will, trying not to let your stupid grin get to him.
As you walk past the lit-up buildings filled with young singles dancing with their bodies pressed up against each other covered in sweat and spilled drinks – the nightlife of Medellin, a song escapes one nightclub that you recognize, and you begin to sing along. Your tune isn't bad, but your lyrics are far from correct.
Javi laughs heartily, unable to hold it in.
"What? You don't like it?"
"No, I love it – it's original. I love the way you've completely changed the lyrics."
"You're so mean, Javier!" You playfully shove him – or attempt to, but you end up falling into his arms.
He takes your hands in his, holding you upright.
“It’s ‘hold me closer, tiny dancer’, not ‘hold me closer, Tony Danza’,” he says.
“Okay, fine,” you say, hands still clasped in his, swaying a bit, coaxing him into dancing with you slowly.
Halfway through the song, he’s leading you, step-by-step, twirling you like a ballerina because he loves the way you laugh when he does it.
Though you’re the one that needs help standing, you keep him on his toes too. The words are no longer ‘Tony Danza’, nor ‘tiny dancer’ - it becomes ‘hold me closer, Javi Peña’.
For the rest of the walk, he keeps his hands – respectfully, protectively, friendly – on you. Just an arm around your shoulder, or your hand in his at most scandalous.
It takes you a moment to unlock your door as you fiddle with the keys – their clinking metal being the only sound echoing through the halls of the apartment building. Anticipatory silence. He won't come into your apartment, he knows that. You're too drunk to consent to anything. You leave him with a kiss on the cheek, and he hopes that it means less to you than it does to him.
“It’s kinda like Cheers when you think of it,” you note off-handedly.
“In what way?” Javi asks like he’s challenging you.
“Well, we’re always at the same bar.”
“Oh yeah? ‘Where everybody knows your name’? The bartender still calls you ‘señorita’.”
“He calls me ‘gringo’,” Steve mumbles into his glass.
As it turns out, the bartender does know your name, and just as Sam Malone would, he makes out with you in a room marked ‘employee’s only’.
Watching you get whisked away by the bartender, Javi sighs a little too loudly, prompting Murphy to inquire, “you jealous?”
“No. I’m gonna go… mingle,” he says, turning towards the area that has become a dancefloor over the course of the night.
“Okay, I’ll be here when you’re ready to talk about it.”
“Fuck off. We agreed that I’m not sleeping with her – I did not take a vow of celibacy.”
Murphy doesn’t stay to watch Javi find an eligible woman to suck him off in the women’s room. Instead, he closes his tab and asks the bartender – the one not making his way from second to third base with you - to relay a message to Javi when he inevitably comes looking.
“What do you want me to tell him?” The man – unamused, but bored enough to entertain him - asks.
“Tell him I left to fuck his wife.”
The bartender seems to think it’s funny enough, especially when he already harbors certain negative feelings towards Javi for reasons that may or may not be justifiable, depending on who you ask.
Javi learns of this later when he closes out his own tab, but before he does so, he has a mission to see through.
Barely concealed by a stall door that could use a new coat of paint and some WD-40 on the hinges, Javi is about to tell this woman - whose name he’s already forgotten - not to leave any marks above his collar, but then, he remembers you, and says nothing, only groans when her teeth scrape the skin on his neck.
He brushes this need to ‘conquer’ off as a typical rivalry between friends. When your friend exits the room to go hook up with someone, it’s your duty as a man to find a mate of equal social stature to theirs, and engage in at least some heavy petting by the end of the night. Or at least, that’s how it worked back in college – which, come to think of it, was about a lifetime ago for Javi. Looking back, he realizes that those nights taught him the infinitely valuable skill of bullshitting his way in and out of situations.
Though, he tells you the absolute truth of who, what, where, and how it all went down for him that night on your walk home. He only omits the why.
“Are we going back to the same place next week?”
“I thought we already established that we go there every week, just like they do in Cheers,” he says.
“Can we go somewhere else next time?”
“Why? It seemed like you were having a good time back there,” Javi teases.
“I guess…” you mumble, kicking gravel aimlessly down the sidewalk. “But he wants to see me again.”
Javi hums as if he understands.
“I just don’t wanna get caught up in anything serious, you know?”
“Oh, but I’m the asshole when I say I’m not good at commitment?”
“That was Steve, not me, and to his credit, you said you left someone at the altar. You committed and then you backed out. You broke a promise – that’s why you’re an asshole.”
“Then, she dodged a bullet by not marrying an asshole like me.”
The rest of the walk home is silent. Tense, and not the good kind.
This is not the climax of the movie where Javi pushes you up against the wall next to your apartment door, and you engage in the steamiest makeout session allowed on cable television – the kind where you pull away panting, take one look into each other’s eyes and realize you’ve been in love all along.
You keep your eyes pointed at your feet and he keeps his hands by his sides. It feels like you’re strangers who happen to be walking at the same pace, to the same destination. There’s nothing more to say.
Until you reach your apartment, and when the two of you part ways, you say to him, “I’m sorry I called you an asshole.”
“It’s okay.” I’m used to it, he thinks. “People have said a lot worse about me.”
With Connie and Olivia back in Miami, Steve has a spacious apartment to himself, which is where the three of you decide to congregate after your little hook-up with the bartender the week prior.
Buying a case of beer from the convenience store is much more cost-efficient, and Steve can easily talk to his wife on the phone when he gets a little too drunk and misses her, leaving you and Javi in his living room together.
Briefly, you both listen to him murmur into the handset, cradling it like a baby. If it were someone else, you might gossip, at least speculate, but there’s nothing salacious about it, and despite the fact that Steve will one day return home to his loving wife, beating all of the odds currently stacked against them, it’s not a tale of epic romance. Not that Javi knows anything about romance anyway.
You and Javi sit in the living room, chatting about nothing important, mostly bitching about work and how there’s never anything good on TV anymore. But then, out of nowhere, as if it’s nothing special, you mention a man – a colleague, but the DEA is a large organization, so Javi is unfamiliar with him.
“He asked me out.”
“Did you accept?”
“Yeah, I figured, why not? You know? I feel like I should get to know more people. I really only hang out with you and Murphy.”
“Oh, so we’re not good enough for you? I’m offended,” Javi says, sarcastically, but there’s a grain of truth deep down.
“You know you’ll always be my favorite, Javi.” You lean your head on him and he hadn’t realized how close you were sitting until now.
“Yeah, yeah.” Javi nudges you with his elbow, pushing you away despite himself. “Now, tell me about this guy you’re going out with.”
“He’s really sweet, and like super polite… a gentleman,” you decide.
“Oh, so you like a ‘nice guy’? Someone you can bring home, someone who holds the door open for you…”
“I guess. He’s pretty handsome, too. He’s got brown hair, and pretty brown eyes – kinda like yours.”
You smile, so he smiles. But, how can you say that with such levity?
Because he’s just a friend to you.
You've truly formed a bond with Javi by the time you step into the dating scene in Colombia. So much so that you ask Javi for his opinions on what you should wear for your third date – just as you did for your first and second.
"Either you're great with fashion advice or you're my good luck charm," you say. "So, I need you to tell me which looks best."
"Okay. Go put on outfit number one before I get bored and fall asleep on your couch."
"I'll be quick, I'll be quick. You can pour yourself a drink if it'll keep you awake."
He's never been one to turn down a drink, but what keeps him awake is your 'fashion show'.
"This is outfit number one," you say, smiling in your classic little black dress.
"Beautiful," he says honestly.
"And then," you say as you begin to unzip your dress.
"Whoa-"
"What?"
"Why are you getting undressed?"
For the first time, he's nervous to see a woman naked.
"Each outfit has a matching set of lingerie, so you have to see that too in order to accurately judge."
He gestures for you to continue and tries to keep his expression neutral. And his dick soft.
It's torturous to see you stress so much when he knows the guy doesn't deserve the sight of you like this. Neither does he, for that matter.
"You really like him?" He asks.
"I mean, yeah sure, he's nice, and he's good-looking"
"But you're not over the moon about him." He can hear it in your voice. You don't deserve to settle.
"No, but you can have sex with someone you're not over the moon about - you, especially would know that, Peña."
"Yeah, but I don't dress up all fancy just to have sex."
He has the tendency to get attached even in the most casual of situations, so he’d never dare make an occasion out of sex.
You sigh. "I guess I do, or else I wasted a shit ton of money on lingerie."
"Fuck the money. Do you actually wanna fuck this guy? 'Cause you know you don't have to. It's not a written rule."
Javi surprises himself with how much of his dedication to making sure you're making the right decision is out of genuine platonic care for you and not jealousy for the man who might get the chance to sleep with you.
"I know I don't have to, but I want to, and I want to look good for him because I want to make a good impression."
He shrugs, dissatisfied. You don't get it, you'll make a good impression no matter what you wear. Any guy would be lucky to get the opportunity to sleep with you, he could say, but it would come off wrong.
His silence allows you time for thought, for worry. Seemingly, apropos of nothing, you ask him if he's ever had sex with a woman who was 'bad in bed'.
"Sort of, not really. Nothing really bad, but I've had times where we're both pretty drunk and it's just… not great. One time I hit my head on the wall." He smiles at the stupidity and you laugh.
"Sorry. I'm sure it hurt."
"It hurt like hell, but it wasn't totally her fault. Another time, a girl's phone would not stop ringing, and she eventually picked it up and it was her mom telling her that her grandma died."
"Did she kick you out or did you stay to comfort her?"
"Depends on what you mean by 'comfort'."
"You did not continue fucking her."
"I did. But, as you can imagine, the mood was kind of ruined."
"Luckily both of my grandmas are already dead, so that won't be an issue."
"See? There you go. Just don't drink too much, make sure he doesn't hit his head and maybe take your phone off the hook."
But you continue to spiral through worries, telling Javi each and every one of them while he sits at the foot of your bed.
Will you bring your date back here? Is the only worry in his own mind.
Eventually, he asks you, "do you like him? Yes or no. And I mean really like."
"Yes."
"Do you trust him?"
"I don't not trust him."
"That's not the question I asked."
"It's hard to make a blanket statement saying that I trust someone. Trust him with what? To save my place in line, a briefcase holding a million dollars, my life?"
"Let me ask you this way then, who do you trust?"
"My mom, my sister, Murphy, you…"
"When you say you trust me, what does that mean for you?"
"I've trusted you with my life many times before and I'd do it again. But in our jobs we have to put our lives on the line."
"If he had my job would you trust him like you trust me?"
"Not as much as I trust you."
And somehow Javi is stupid enough to think that this means you'll skip the date, maybe even schedule one with him, but you go as you planned to – if he were able to look at you dressed in lingerie and keep his opinions completely detached and as objective as possible, he would say you should go with the red set because it looked the best. But he hopes, selfishly, that you saved it for his eyes only.
As most relationships do, that one ends. The man - whose name Javi rid his mind of - breaks up with you. You lament over it for about a week and then move on.
Javi lets you cry it out with your face buried in his t-shirt, staining the fabric with mascara tears. It was his favorite, but he rubs your back and holds you closer instead of telling you to stop using him as a tissue.
“It’s his loss,” he says along with all the typical phrases one expects to hear after a devastating breakup.
But what makes you feel better is when Javi suggests you watch the episode of Cheers he’d taped earlier that week.
“Can I lie down while we watch?” you ask.
“Yeah. How do you want me?” he asks because the couch is the only piece of furniture facing the TV, which means you’ll have to share it.
“You wanna lie down behind me? You could be the big spoon.”
He nods, lying down on his side, leaving space for you to curl up beside him.
He wraps his arm around you lazily, resisting the urge to run his hands down the side of your body, to touch you everywhere.
“Can you see from back there?” you ask.
“Mm-hmm,” he lies. He’s already seen the episode, he’d much rather fall asleep with his body pressed up against yours. It’s the closest he’s ever been to you.
Javi has practiced the art of keeping himself hidden. It's a useful trait as both an agent and a reluctant hopeless romantic. He never gets too drunk, not like you and Steve. He never reveals what lies below the facade of a grouchy, sometimes disobedient but wholly dedicated agent on your Friday night hangouts. He disguises himself as a womanizer, an asshole, until he can't anymore.
You find him in desperation. Post-tragedy, a traumatic incident that he can't quite shake. It makes him vulnerable. He does the right thing the first time – he calls up Gabriela and fucks her like he hates her, tips her real well afterwards. The second time is when he makes the mistake of seeing you, not just looking at you when you cross paths, but seeing you.
He knew things were bad after seeing Murphy teary-eyed for the first time. It brought the first incident to the forefront of his mind again. A cigarette and some fresh air would help, he thought. But when he steps outside, he finds you.
"It's late," he says.
"Why are you out here?"
"I can't sleep."
"Me neither."
You won't look at him. Why won't you look at him?
"I heard what happened today."
"I don't wanna talk about it."
"I'm not asking you to talk about it. What I'm saying is, I know what you're feeling."
"No, you don't."
"Yes, I do, and you know it. We were both there when-"
"I don't wanna talk about that either."
"Good. I don't either. We should go inside. It's not safe for you to be out here right now."
"I'm not a fucking baby."
"You know what I mean. I'm trying to help you, okay?"
You ask him to stay with you – that's what will help, you say. He shouldn't, but he's too weak to say 'no'. You make him weaker.
"I need to forget," you tell him, and he knows exactly what that means.
It means sex. It means throwing away the future he could've had with you. Not the romantic kind – that was already gone, that's been gone since before you came into his life. He won't have a white-picket-fence-two-and-a-half-kids-in-the-suburbs kind of future with anyone. But he could've had a friendship, he could've gotten the gift of existing near you without any tension, something light and untouched even if it meant keeping himself at a distance.
But, you need this. You're begging him to fuck you, and if he chooses not to, it'll only make things worse – you'd withdraw from him entirely in embarrassment from his rejection because there's no way he can tell you that it's not because he doesn't want to have sex with you. God, no – he wants to have sex with you. In his ideal scenario, you get drunk once – on a business trip, at Steve and Connie's house, at the celebration of Escobar's demise – and you make the "stupid mistake" of sleeping with each other, and it becomes an inside joke between the two of you.
In his dreams, you get married on the beach or at city hall or even at a church if that's what you wanted. But dreams are dreams for a reason. They're distinctly different from reality. They don't come true.
In reality, Javi says the best thing he can, which is "okay", and he lets his lips collide with yours.
When your frantic hands begin to strip him of his clothes, he wants to tell you "it's okay, we have all night" because he wants to take it slow. He knows he won't last long when he gets inside you.
He tries to balance eagerness with gentleness when he takes off your clothes. He wants to be close to you.
"Let's go to your bedroom," he mumbles into the crook of your neck.
You don't bother to pick up your clothes, which are strewn near the doorway, so Javi doesn't either. He can tell you're impressed when he undoes your bra with one hand, and it makes him laugh, a little proud too, despite the fact that it's no more than a party trick (if you consider sex a party).
But his need to be the best you've ever had has him dropping to his knees in the hallway, and it's milliseconds before his hands are gripping your thighs and his nose meets the fabric of your panties.
He looks up, and asks, "can I take these off?"
"Yeah," you say, assisting him by slipping them down your own thighs.
With how quiet you are in the office, he expected you to be the same in the bedroom but you're not. The moan you let out when his tongue meets your clit is loud and unashamed – his favorite kind. It spurs him on.
"Javi, Javi, Javi - wait - I'm - hold on-"
So, he stops. "What's wrong?" He massages your thighs while he speaks, soft and sweet.
"I'm gonna cum."
"I know. That's the goal."
"But I'm gonna fall over."
"You're not, baby. I'm gonna hold onto you. But, if you want, we can finish this in bed." He doesn't wait for an answer before lifting you over his shoulder.
It makes you gasp, just like his lips did moments ago, but this time it makes him laugh. Only you could make him smile on a night like this one.
He doesn't tease you, he dives back in, lapping at your folds, more desperate for your orgasm than you are. If Javi is one thing, it's dedicated, and the bedroom is no exception.
You're still panting when you ask him to fuck you. It might be the first time you've said 'fuck' in front of him. "Fuck me" is Javi's line.
Utterly captivated by the sight of you disheveled beneath him, he agrees.
The second time you say 'fuck' is when Javi tells you he'll go grab a condom from his wallet – which is in his jeans, which are somewhere near the front door – and you say 'fuck it'.
And, utterly captivated by the sight of you, he agrees.
"How do you want me?" he asks.
"Rough," you say. "Make me forget."
You say it with such conviction that he sighs and says, "Okay. Turn over."
He buries himself to the hilt in a single thrust and since Javi can't see your face, he can't tell if the moan you let out is pleasure or pain, so he leans in and whispers into your ear, "Tell me if I'm hurting you."
"I want you to hurt me."
I don't want to hurt you.
Something holds him back from saying it. He's not one to disappoint, especially in this facet of life. So, he saves the kiss he wants to place on your cheek for later. Instead, he drags his teeth along your soft skin and bites the flesh.
He fucks you hard, the way you want him to – holding onto the headboard, hips slamming into yours from the back at a merciless pace, and maybe if you weren't you, he'd feel different about this. But, instead of staring into your eyes and trying to cover up the immense fondness he feels for you, he looks at the pictures that hang on your wall, held up by clothespins on a string–you're smiling with your friends, blowing out birthday candles, laying on a beach towel in a bikini. He is in none of these photos. Why would he be? You've never taken a photo together. He's not a part of your life like that.
All the while, he keeps an iron grip on your hips and keeps a steady rhythm. Your moans turn into sobs, and he doesn't know how much longer he can take. Both because hearing your cries makes him feel conflicted about everything and because your walls are so tight around him, you're soaking wet and your legs are trembling. It's not long before he feels your pussy spasms and your whole body jolts – you have the sense to scream into your pillow, but he can still hear it.
Finally, he pulls out and jerks himself off, letting his release spill onto your ass, and once he's let go of you, you promptly flop down fully onto the mattress.
With the room finally quieter, you hear banging on the front door. You're about to get up but Javi stops you. "Stay there. I'll deal with it."
He slips on his boxers and flings open the door, and it's the person he least wants to see. Steve. Not because he hates Steve, but because Steve will bring this up.
He doesn't even have to say anything.
"Sorry. We'll keep it down," Javi says.
"Good" is the only word he says, though it's clearly not 'good' because Steve looks more pissed off than he's ever seen him.
He tells you it was a neighbor, but doesn't specify which one. He cleans you up, and prepares himself to leave. That's how this goes, right?
"Stay," you say, tugging him by the hand, so he falls back into bed.
He falls asleep with his bare skin flush against yours but this time it's gentle. He gives you a kiss on the temple before you turn out the light. You're silent but you smile.
The hurt comes the next morning. For you, it's physical, but can you really complain? For him, it's deeper than that. You're deeper inside him than he ever was inside you.
He wakes up beside you, feeling hungover despite not having any alcohol the night before. It's the vague sense of guilt and confusion, the way he feels more awake than the night before but less awake than he should after a full night's rest.
He retracts his hand from your body, hoping he can slip away before you notice but you turn to him, fully-awake.
If life were different – kinder, he would smile at you and you would try to kiss him.
"Mm-mm. I have morning breath," he'd say.
"I don't care," you'd say, grabbing his cheeks and pulling him towards you.
He'd pull back, just to argue because he likes the way you pout and the way he falls for it every time. You'd settle for a kiss on the forehead with the promise for something more after Javi brushes his teeth.
The quest for better breath would all be for nothing since he'd have coffee and a cigarette for breakfast (you'd tell him to eat more, of course), but you'd kiss him anyway.
His eyes linger on you for too long while he fantasizes, long enough for you to notice – for you to begin to see him for who he is.
Murphy brings it up at work when you're out of the room. Javi can see it in his eyes before he says anything.
"Sorry for keeping you up," Javi mutters, straight-faced and honest.
"Nothin' else to say?" Murphy probes. He seems more curious than angry.
"Nope. Is there something you think I should say?"
"You fucked her," he whispers.
"Yes," Javi whispers back.
"How? Did it just happen? Or have you guys been a thing for awhile now and I just haven't noticed?"
"We're not a thing."
"You're not not a thing."
Javi doesn't have to admit to Steve that he's right because you walk into the room.
He is forced to silently admit what you are to him when he fails to hold back a rare smile upon seeing your face.
He sees Gabriela again, and though he's slept with her more times than he's slept with you, it still feels like he's cheating.
"What are you thinking about?" she asks while he stands by the window with a cigarette hanging from his lips.
"Work."
"Bullshit." She exhales a breathy laugh.
"Yeah."
"It's not something, it's someone. Isn't it?"
He turns, silently.
"I could tell you were thinking about her when you were fucking me - I thought it was just a sexual fantasy, but you're still fantasizing… and we're not fucking anymore."
"You'd be a great shrink, you know? In case this doesn't work out for you."
"It's working out fine." She flashes him the wad of cash he handed her before they got in bed together.
"Right."
"Maybe I'm supposed to be offended, but you were sweet this time - gentle. If you keep fucking me like that, I don't give a fuck who're you're thinking about."
"You liked it?" He asks with a flirtatious glint in his eye, opting for indulgence as distraction.
"I did. In fact, I think you could get a second round. On the house."
His cock springs to life and he slips out of his jeans. He fucks her slow, pressing kisses down her spine. She cums twice and he feels like a god.
But not like a lover, not like her lover.
You sleep together again, but you don't have sex. You're tipsy off whiskey in his apartment one night, trying to shake off the past week.
The DEA, being of the USA, only knows violence as conflict resolution, so you and Javi aren't trained to solve any problem that comes after the fighting is over. Distraction is the best you can do and alcohol is often one of the greatest methods.
"I wish we had something stronger than whiskey," Javi remarks.
"When in Medellin…" you say, swiping a finger under your nose.
"I think the amount of coffee I've had today is probably equal to a gram."
Doubtful, considering Javi is dozing off in his chair.
"Javi," you say, snapping your fingers to get his attention.
Startled, his body jolts awake. "What?" he asks, frantically.
"Nothing. You're just falling asleep."
"Sorry. I didn't sleep well last night."
"I figured. Everyday for the past week, you've looked like you're going to keel over. Are you okay?"
He takes a deep breath. Shakes the magic eight ball in his mind. Try again later. "I've just been having a lot of nightmares recently. It hasn't been like this since I was a kid."
"Well, how'd you get them to stop back then?"
"My mom used to sleep in my room with me."
He smiles at the thought of his mother. He doesn't often think of her because the funeral comes to mind. But sometimes, when he's lucky, she'll come back to him in memory - now, he sees her through a childlike lens, her face bright despite the bags under her eyes. The love he felt for her was so simple and pure.
His love for you is the most complicated kind.
"I'm not your mom, but if you want, I can sleep over."
"You'd do that for me?"
"Of course. I'd do anything for you."
You say it so flippantly that Javi barely has time to process it. It's better that way.
Finally, he gets a good night's sleep. But that only makes him need you more.
You both go on pretending things are the same until Carrillo dies. He was always the catalyst.
"I don't do funerals," Javi tells you.
You nod, pursed lips, accepting his decision. Giving in easily, which is unlike you.
"I'm thinking about leaving," you announce abruptly.
"You should go home, get some rest, especially if you're going tomorrow." To the funeral. Javi can't stand the word either.
"No, I'm thinking about leaving."
"Leaving where?" He already knows.
"Colombia."
"Are they reassigning you?"
"No, I'm quitting."
"Have you told Messina?"
"No. You're the first person I've told."
He nods and takes a deep breath. "Is that what you want to do? Quit?"
"I don't know. I wanted your advice."
"It's your choice, not mine." I'll miss you.
"I just can't do it anymore." You reveal yourself. You shatter.
"Hey." He places a hand on your shoulder, but you fall into his arms. "That's not true. You're strong. You know that you're strong."
I need you, he means.
So, you stay.
There is something about the grief that fuels you both to fight harder. You're no longer just fighting for justice, you're fighting for vengeance. It makes you both colder, more numb to the cruelty.
But physically, neither of you are much stronger. You overestimate yourselves, run through the streets with handguns after blood-hungry sicarios.
In his pursuit of one of the men, Javi fails to see a shooter on the roof with a gun aimed right at him. You see it, and shove Javi out of the way.
The bullet only grazes you, and Javi leaves with a few scrapes and dirty clothes. And guilt.
A shopkeeper who seems all too used to crisis situations grabs a first aid kit while Javi sits with you.
"You're not gonna call for backup?" you ask.
"No use. They got away. Let's just focus on this right now, okay?"
"This" means the wound on your side.
"It's not a big deal," you say, though you're clearly on the verge of tears.
"You got shot. The number one priority is making sure you're safe."
"Didn't you say that we can't focus on the casualties? That Escobar wins if we waste time mourning our dead?"
"Neither of us are dead."
You'll need more than the basic first aid that Javi can give you, nevertheless, he uses an antiseptic to clean the wound.
You break down in tears at the burning sensation.
"You're doing so well," he tells you, "I'll be done in just a moment."
When the ambulance arrives, he insists on accompanying you to the hospital.
They ask him who he is and he flashes his DEA badge, knowing that "friend" doesn't mean anything in this case.
Friend isn't enough.
You don't need surgery, just stitches – and some pretty decent pain pills. The kind that makes you sleepy.
Once the two of you are alone, after the doctors have finished with you, Javi tells you - finally, "Thank you, by the way, for saving my life."
"Who's to say it would've been a fatal shot?"
"Still." He leans down and kisses you on the cheek in lieu of saying anything else, knowing how badly he could fuck this up if he lets himself say everything he's really thinking – if there are even words for his feelings.
Luckily, there might not be.
"Javi," you whisper.
"Yes, hermosa?"
He rarely calls you nicknames, so it seems to fluster you a bit.
"Can you kiss me for real?"
"How much of those drugs did they give you?"
You look like you're holding back a batch of giggles and Javi can't help his stupid grin.
Before his cheeks hurt from smiling the most he has in a while, he leans in and kisses you – for real.
Breathless, you pull back and ask him, "do you think we could get away with doing it here?"
"Are you serious?" There's no way you are, he thinks, and yet he considers the option. "No, cariño, we shouldn't risk it."
He does take you home with him, but again, you don't have sex.
In the morning, you tell him confidently, "I'm leaving."
And he knows you don't just mean his apartment.
"I just can't do this anymore – the constant fear of dying was bad enough, but now…" you point to the bandages covering your stitches.
"I know." It doesn't matter what he says. You're going to leave anyway.
And, he feels guilty for convincing you to stay anyway. You should've left before this, but he was selfish and wanted to keep you a little longer.
He doesn't say goodbye in the way he wants to. He lets you go with a kiss on the forehead after waiting with you until you're called to board.
"Goodbye, Javier," you say.
He can't say anything back or he'll cry. The kiss is all he can give.
You call periodically at first, but the calls get more sporadic until they disappear entirely.
Javier is used to falling in love. So much so that he expects to feel the same way about the next woman he sleeps with. He gets attached to one woman, and then moves onto the next, loving her the same way as the last. The process of forgetting involves ending up in the same mess, feeling the same thing for someone who is blonde instead of brunette, or brown-eyed instead of blue, maybe a cup size larger in the bust. Something old, something new. There is more to the phrase, but the idea of commitment began and ended with Lorraine back in Texas.
Texas. After all is said and done in Colombia, he goes home. Like you, he can't do it anymore. His mind is already rattled with nightmares and his body is worn out.
There's an airport in Laredo, but he can't get a flight there until Monday, so he decides San Antonio is close enough.
The airport bars tend to be filled with people waiting to depart, not passengers who have already arrived. But, Javi decides to have a drink before calling a cab. There isn't any rhyme or reason to it. His feet lead him there, not his brain.
There are two open barstools, one on each side of a woman he can only see from the back. He chooses the one to her right. She looks like you, he thinks, just a slightly different haircut.
He barely glances at you before trying to wave down the bartender.
"Javier?" It's your voice from next to him.
He turns his head so quickly he swears he might've given himself whiplash. He's speechless, but smiling.
"What are you doing here?"
"On my way home. To Laredo."
"You left Colombia?"
"Yeah, I quit."
"And you didn't tell me?"
"I didn't know you wanted me to."
It's been years since we talked, he thinks. The last conversation was about you leaving.
"Are you on your way home or…?"
"Yeah, I will be, once my boyfriend gets our bags."
Boyfriend. Boyfriend who gets her bags. Boyfriend who sits next to her on the plane. Boyfriend whose spot is beside her.
"Oh."
"I feel like I've been sitting here forever."
"It's hectic down at baggage claim."
"Yeah, there's a million suitcases and none of them are mine. I really hope it's not lost. My favorite necklace was in there."
"The gold one… with the pearl?"
"Yeah, that one." You grin, excited yet surprised. "You remember that?"
I remember seeing it on your bedside table. I remember you taking it off with everything else. The one thing you didn't tear off, the one moment you slowed down.
"Yeah, you wore it all the time."
"And you stared at my tits a lot, so…" You wink, sipping your drink.
"I did not… not all the time."
A man walks up behind you, lugging two suitcases.
"Hey, babe," he says, kissing your cheek.
"Oh!" You beam at him. "This is Javier. My coworker from back when I worked at the DEA."
Coworker. Not even friend.
'Eric' – as he introduces himself, extends his hand to shake Javi's, and it feels like he's making a deal with the devil. Promising your love – something he doesn't even have – to this man for nothing in exchange.
"I'll see you around," you say.
And he thinks it's just politeness, an everyday lie, but you call.
You invite him to your housewarming party.
“Eric and I just got our own place,” you tell him.
Javi congratulates you, and it’s an empty platitude. He says it because he has to – why else would he be here if not to celebrate you and your new home? He knows why.
He shouldn’t have come at all, but he had no excuse that he could give you. The reason why wants to see you and the reason why he shouldn’t see you coincide, but after years of knowing you, and years being apart, he still can’t admit that reason.
You were right to call him a coworker – it’s an undeniable truth. You might have been friends too at some point back in Colombia. To make the best out of the situation, Javi brings a bottle of wine – that’s what a friend would do. It’s a nice red blend, something too expensive for Javi to buy for himself. He managed to save money by not buying you a bouquet of roses. It’d be too romantic a gesture coming from a friend, let alone a coworker.
The party is an intimate affair. Everyone he speaks to is friendly, even your boyfriend, and while he wants to be happy for you, he can’t help the fact that it irritates him more than anything else. He is no better than this man – in fact, he’s worse.
Over the course of the evening, he meets coworkers and friends of yours. “I love you all,” you tell them, “but Javi’s my favorite.”
Everyone tells him he’s a hero for taking down Escobar, including you. He feels like a fraud, but accepts their thanks humbly because it’s easier not to talk about it.
He’s happy when the attention is taken off of him. Eric makes a toast. It’s to you, to your future.
A wave of nausea hits Javi as he watches your boyfriend become your fiance.
He shouldn’t drink anymore, so he goes outside for a cigarette. You appear by his side and the sweetness of your voice pains him.
“I thought I lost you,” you say.
“You could never lose me,” he lies.
When you show him the ring, he takes your hand in his, gently, pretending to care deeply about the shiny new diamond, but it’s just a rock, an obstruction, something hard covering your soft skin.
It’s beautiful, it suits you.
You linger on the balcony with him. You show him the ring, you let him touch it.
You must know that the goodbye hug you give him will be the last time you’ll touch him.
Despite the ring on your finger, you kiss Javi on the cheek one final time. Your fiance won’t mind. Because it doesn’t mean anything.
Javi doesn’t kiss you on the cheek. Because kissing you would mean something. It always has.
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DRDT FAN LET'S GOOOOOO
Ahem,
1. Thoughts on the drdt fandom's popular ships?
2. Any theories for Ch2?
Omg you guys feed me so much. Putting this under a read more bc I'm starting to feel bad for rambling + DESPAIR TIME SPOILERS!??!!
hmmhmmhmhmhmmm trying to remember popular ships off the top of my head .... Sorry if I missed any, I'm not up to date with my fandom lore T_T Will probably edit this later for ship names I forgot, since I'm too lazy to look em up rn lole
Obviously Verturo #1 forever I will spout my Verturo propaganda until I DIE. No thoughts only rotating them in my mind. I sincerely hope they have another movie night and Veronika gets to kill someone and Arturo either feels heartbroken for having fallen for her previously or is impressed and finally admittedly likes her afterwards. Don't know whatcha got til it's gone. Haha. Hehe. Either way. I obviously have hesitations and fears regarding Arturo's character and where it'll take him, so I really can't feel you can get into it too much until he's become less one-note but AUUGHGH I'm impatient and insane,,, Verturo call me back,,,,,, Veronika should ask him to vivisect her for fun I mean-What If They Killed Someone Together #Slay
Teruko/Min is sooooo<333 UGH!!! Tragic lesbians,,, love their interactions before the trial too! Need to think about them more, honestly
Unsure if it's still popular--all things considered--but I still think Xander/Teruko is very interesting; even/especially in canon. But alas, I await to learn more lore about their situation, particularly Xander's.......
Charwhit is super cute! No matter the context of the dynamic, romantic/platonic/qp whatever, I love em they are so sweet 😭😭 Charles deserves someone kind, but not a pushover yesman, ykno!
Xanvid has potential for sure,, buuuut I feel like the reasons I like it are wayyy different than the reasons it's popular LOL, so I don't see much or any content for it that aligns with the interpretation I like? 🤔 Still fun ig
Ace/Levi is a no from me but I get it...
I don't thhhhink it's popular..? but HI where's the Xanwhit representation. I'm not huge on them but they just make me smile sometimes :) <-- like this
Finally, but unfortunately, I can't exactly say I have any chapter 2 predictions, honestly! All I've been thinking about is how the hell Teruko is gonna come back from this one, in terms of ykno,,, interacting with her classmates again, considering what a hasty rift she's already dug into the game and between everyone and herself. Although, I suppose it would be good timing for everyone else to trauma bond together with Teruko left out? Bc I just imagine she's isolating herself, she had quite a nasty breakdown after all HAHA. But I dunno... I haven't thought about it too hard, and don't have a full grasp on Teruko's character yet, we'll just have to wait and see 👁️👁️
And I haven't personally read any fantheories (or try to avoid em) because sometimes theories for any media in general make too much sense I don't wanna spoil it for me if they end up true/accurate HAHAHA silly brain
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its ur bf write me rengoku porn rn before i kiss you in electrical- u know what i want 😩 ——————————————————————————- a/n : !!!!!! anything for u babe!!!!! a request from my bf,,,,,,,how special,,,,especially when haven’t written on here in forever,,,,,, warnings ; mugen train spoilers!!!!!!!!!! s o m a n y!!!!!! mentions of rengoku/akaza fight, alternate universe where rengoku lives it’s what we all want anyway, pre-established relationship/rengoku is your husband, breeding/pregnancy kink, rengoku living and dying (figuratively) between your legs, “dirty” talk but rengoku is such a loving man i don’t think it should even be called that here, uhhhh body worship but with his eyes? its very vague but it is there, boy just loves you okay, also none of this is proof read or anything if that matters word count ; 2,728
I’m Home
When you first hear about it, of course, like his fellow pillars, you’re terrified-thankful, naturally, that your husband at least hasn’t died, but the crow sent to inform you of the events of his mission, of his injuries, doesn’t exactly try to sugar coat anything, not even for you, his spouse.
Skull fractures from dodging the punch that would have smashed his eye completely, broken ribs from dodging yet another hit that, if he hadn’t moved back fast enough, would have gone through him and killed him-the details were gruesome, they were bone-chilling, it wasn’t as if you or anyone particularly enjoyed hearing about it, but one thing was for certain-you were relieved not to have lost him to this, to have lost anyone. Tanjiro and the others were so strong, so hard-working, and they were so young, with so much to live for-you couldn’t imagine how you’d feel if anything had happened to them, either.
There’s so much about it that pains you-not being able to have your husband home with you after he’d already been so busy with this mission and the ones before it, knowing how injured he was and how long it’d take him to recover at the Butterfly Estate, it was all… Torture. Not that you couldn’t go see him, of course-but Shinobu urged you to stay home and relax, you wouldn’t want to see him in the state that he was in, she promised you that much. Her crow did come by to personally update you on his condition every day or so, though-that was at least some amount of relief.
… Or, it would have been. You hadn’t seen any crow come by in a week or so, to the day-and yes, you kept track, because of course you did, you were an anxious wreck, and it’d already been months of your husband steadily recovering, or so you thought. Had he died from his injuries? Did something happen to the estate, were more people hurt? … Well. You supposed that was a silly thought, she lived so close to the Master’s own residence-no demon could get close enough to hurt them, with all the wisteria around both places.
You were so used to having your husband around to calm you when you thought about the worst things, like this-your heart hurt with anxiety and worry. What could you do but stand outside by the door, every day, for hours, just waiting for some sign, of a crow, of Shinobu herself, of anything?
It was another day that had gone by just like that-your feet and legs ached from keeping yourself up for so long, dried tear trails staining the sides of your face-you knew it was silly of you, you knew you should have tried to be at least a little stronger, for him if no one else, but… You just couldn’t help it. You hated this. You just wanted your husband back.
A dejected sigh leaves you as you watch the sun set for just one more moment before turning to go back inside, tears stinging at the corners of your eyes again-maybe tomorrow you’ll go up to Shinobu’s estate yourself. You couldn’t stand this for another–
“Hahaha! Now isn’t this strange! You’re running away from me!”
Your heart stops, and you freeze in place. What?
You feel him before you can turn to see him-chest pressed against your back, though soon you’re spun around and pulled up into a crushing hug anyway, and it’s all you can do to immediately start sobbing into your husband’s brightly-colored hair as you’re held.
“… Hello, my sweet,” His voice is no longer booming and jovial like it was a moment ago, but soft, gentle and meant only for you, as he squeezes you to him-you want to worry about the injuries he was supposed to be recovering from still, but you don’t want this to end, either. You suppose, he must have just been coming around the corner and through the gate when you turned to go inside-not that it mattered, all that did matter was that he was… Here, holding you.
“You must have missed me terribly!” All hearty, he laughs with you again, even if all you can do is cry in his arms while he rubs soothingly at your back, “But of course I missed you terribly too! I tried many times to sneak out and come home to you, but Shinobu or one of the other girls always caught me-”
You missed his voice dearly, you did-and you were still crying, but you couldn’t help but lean up and kiss him. It was something you usually did to quiet him, for sure, but right now you just… Needed him. And he didn’t seem to mind, hands happily and readily sliding down to hoist you up into his arms, never breaking from you as he carried you into your home.
“… Such a beautiful shouldn’t have quite so many tears upon it, you know,”He mumbles gently against your lips, and you sniffle as you finally reach up to start wiping at them, “I-I just missed you so much, Kyojuro, I was so scared-you were almost-you could have-”
“But I didn’t, and I won’t.” He interrupts you sweetly, but firmly nonetheless, shaking his head at you, “I am fine. I am healed, my love. I am still here to fulfill my duties-and I always will be. That includes my duties to you as your husband.”
“I…” It doesn’t feel like you should believe it-after what you’d heard of his battle, knowing he’d even just encountered an Upper Moon demon, this felt too good to be real or true, and yet… There’s such certainty and finality blazing in his eyes as he stares at you, all you can do is nod.
“… Alright.”
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… Really, all you had intended to do this evening, now that you had your husband home with you, was cook him his favorite meal and go to sleep with him, in his arms, for the first time in who knew how long, at this point. Truthfully, that had been your only goal. You wanted him to rest, no matter how many times he told you just how fully recovered he was through the mouthfuls of sweet potato you so lovingly prepared for him-and yet… And yet…
Well, you suppose you simply didn’t account for him wanting… Dessert.
“It’s been so long,” The words are mumbled around you, your flesh, as he greedily, really voraciously eats and licks you up from between your legs-you’d already known him to be feral when presented with the sweet treat only you could provide him with, but this was something else entirely, “-it’s been too long, my love, don’t you understand how very hungry I am?”
You don’t, but by no means are you going to let that stop either of you. You missed his mouth just as much as he missed your taste.
“K-Kyojuro-Kyojuro, I’m-Kyo–”
… He’s never been one to tease or deny you. And yet just as you’re about to cum, so close to the edge you could have tasted it yourself, he’s pulling away from you. His lips and chin and… Well, his face, in general, are so shiny with you-you easily forget your frustration and get lost in the blissful look in his eyes as he cleans himself with his tongue. “While you certainly are the most delicious thing in this world, my sweet,” He crawls up the length of your body so quickly, so desperate to smash his lips to your own, “-as I’ve told you, it’s been far too long. I want to feel you cum around my cock this evening. But I’m sure you have no complaint either way?” Any other day, you’d want to hit him, to get that cheeky look off of his face, but… You also can’t say you don’t want that. Maybe you really don’t have any complaints either way. “… You’re awful,” You huff up at him, but you nod, “… But alright.” … And yet he stays still. It would be so easy-you’re properly soaked, and the pair of you are completely naked, and yet your infuriating husband is just… Sitting there, hovering over you with a smile on his face. It’s a soft, loving smile-but you’ve known him so long, you don’t miss the mischief in his eyes. “… Can I not admire you, my beautiful spouse? Even for a moment, after I’ve been gone from you for so very long?” It’s not a crime for him to stare at you so adoringly-really, you’d love it if you weren’t as damn horny as you were. But... It has been a long time. He’s teasing, but as much as that’s true, you know he’s being earnest, too-his eyes flicker all over your form so carefully, meticulously re-memorizing every tiny detail about you. “... Even more beautiful then before I left you, dear one,” The way he murmurs it, so absently, it’s almost more like he’s saying it to himself, but his eyes raised to bore back into yours after a minute-clearly, he wants you to hear every word of what he’s saying, absent or not. “... Would you like to know something I thought about while I was away?” His love renders you breathless, speechless-it’s all you can do to nod up at him. “During the brief hours of respite I would get, I would think to myself... What would it be like to come back to you, our home... How would it feel, the joy of it all... And then, another thought had started to occur to me,” A sharp gasp tears through you as you feel a few fingers suddenly and swiftly beginning their work at stretching you out-sneaky man, he’d distracted you from his hands with his voice, and even then, he kept talking like he hadn’t done anything, “... What would it be like if I could come home to the sight of you all swollen and glowing with our child...?” Those words rob you of whatever meager amount of breath you had managed to regain. With your child...? “... Oh, my love, you squeezed my fingers so nicely just now,” He marvels at the sight, the feeling of you, worrying his lip between his teeth-you’re so pretty like this, is what he wants to say, but his mind is suddenly consumed by the thought he’d put into both your heads a moment ago. You, glowing with the product of your love in your stomach. You don’t fail to notice the twitching of his cock where it hangs all hard between his legs. “Do you like the sound of that, then...? Do you want to carry my children, our children, my dear one? I’ll give it to you if you just say the word-after all, what poor excuse of a husband would I be if I didn’t?” His fingers move in and out of you faster, frantic and eager to prepare you for him, now, as he almost rambles on like that-his words set your body, your insides, on fire. You do want it, you realize-it’s not something you’d given much thought to before, but here, like this, right now after spending so much time worrying about losing him? You really do want nothing more. “P-p-please, please Kyojuro, I want-please give me your children, I want it, I want you, please make me pregnant, my husband, please-” It’s not meant to egg him on, truly it isn’t-you just can’t help but beg with how badly you want it yourself. But that doesn’t mean you don’t delight in the way he seems to snap, just the slightest bit, above you, quickly removing his fingers from you to replace them with his cock-what you’d been waiting for since he laid you down in bed earlier. That felt like an eternity ago right now, though. The stretch isn’t an uncomfortable one, with the care he’d still taken to prepare you-you missed it, if anything, you missed him. And it’s clear that he feels the same-he’s gone so tense above you, arms trembling on either side of you with the restraint it takes not to move. Somehow, he still manages to keep up that bright smile of his, too. “Do tell me when I can move, my love. This is a bit unbearable with how lovely you feel!” ... As hazy as your mind was with pleasure, you couldn’t help but giggle. Even now, your husband was so... Endearing. So cute. Your bring your hands up to hold his face as you nod your head eagerly, over and over, “Please, Kyojuro-please, I want it,” You can see that he wants to worry about you, wants to ask you again to make sure-but he can’t, his body betrays him, his hips instantly slotting themselves against your own, pulling back only to quickly bring themselves back down, his cock pressing and rubbing against every bit of your insides as it moves in and out of you, over and over and over, so fast-and your husband hardly even breaks a sweat. ... His being a demon slayer, and a pillar, at that, had its perks, you supposed. His stamina was one of them. But he seemed to already be losing his composure, too, with just how long it’d been since you’d gotten to be so close. “This-this is embarrassing, haha-I feel like I could burst at any moment already-just-just thinking about how-utterly perfect you’d look, ah-” His hips stutter, and he stills for a second, to keep his own pleasure at bay for a moment-though he makes up for it with the hand that shoots down to rub and stroke at what his cock isn’t already touching, “-goodness gracious-how perfect you’d look, pregnant, my love-” As if you aren’t ready to burst, yourself. Did he suddenly forget about denying you mere minutes ago...? “M-my husband-my husband, Kyojuro, please, m-me too, just go ahead, please-please give me your child, give it to me, please-” “You’re really as difficult as you are beautiful!” The very wind is knocked out of you as you find your legs suddenly on either side of your head, as he fucks into you with a very renewed, fittingly fiery sense of vigor and passion, grunting freely every time he feels you wrap around him again and again, “I truly did want to take my time with you this evening, my sweet-how irresistible you are like this-I’ll have to savor you another time-” This position, the wildness in his eyes, the feeling and the sight of him-yes, the sight of him, you’d be lying if you said you didn’t see the bulge appearing and disappearing from your stomach-fucking into you desperately, all of it is far too much for you, far too overwhelming, but of course he revels above you in the way you clamp down on him and make a sudden, abrupt mess all over the pair of you, not to mention the futon underneath you. “So beautiful-so beautiful like this, my love-I-just the sight of you, you’re going to make me-goodness-” He leans over you and folds you in half even further, nose brushing against your neck, “I-I’m going to-I’m going to give it to you now, alright? I swear it, my love, my dear one, I’ll-I’ll get you pregnant, I promise, I promise, I--” It’s so intense, he almost roars as it washes over him, as he fills you up so completely it leaks out of you, with how long its been since either of you had any form of... Release. Your legs are released, and they flop numbly down against the plush futon beneath you-your husband can barely keep himself up, but he at least tries to be careful as he collapses against you, chuckling so happily against your shoulder while you can hardly keep your eyes open, let alone say anything. You wish you had the sense what was apparently so... Funny, right now. “... I love you, _____.” The biggest wave of tranquility falls over you, hearing those words. You can’t quite say much of anything still, but he knows-he sees it in your eyes when he looks up at your face. You love him too. Right now, that’s all he needs. “I really am so happy to be home, dear one.”
#demon slayer kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#demon slayer imagines#rengoku kyojuro#rengoku x reader#rengoku smut#demon slayer smut#submission
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*Sprinting to your asks like a harried executive assistant* Mr. Lover! I desperately need to know if there is a possibility in the quick and the dead for Pat, Cap and Thomas to all go on a lovely trip to the sea. Whether it's to see Heather's house, and they stop by some cliffside thing, or a straight up coastal journey. I want to know how Thomas feels seeing such a big body of water after decades of a single pond. Also I want the Captain to cry in general. Catharsis and all that.
Mr. Lover! Now that's a new one! How fantastic😅
I have to say, I had never even considered that as a possibility and you know what, fuck it! I am fully prepared to rewrite some things for sure oh my god literally as i'm typing this im seeing how it's gonna fit in already hahahahaha this is brilliant!! consider it done mate oh m god adding it to my google doc rn thank youuuuuu
(funnily enough I'm also writing a general story for fun that ends that exact way, and yet I didn't think to do it for this one?? i marvel at my silly lil brain sometimes)
anyway!! THis is why I love when people engage with my fics! Thank you so much! it's like a group project now lol
(hahaha you want Cap to cry? you want our poor little vampire man to cry? already done, chapter 9 and 10 just need some tidying up, but you'll get what you want, though it's not exactly cathartic, rather than just, uhhh sad)
on to the things I'm imagining already about the seaside visit:
cap and pat giving thomas driving lessons round button house so they can all take the driving in shifts.
thomas and [redacted] sit in the front to do driving and music during the day, [redacted] and Cap sit in the back to avoid the sun, and then drive at night
picnics at the beach (blood in flasks) oh god they're gonna have to take a cooler aren't they?
[redacted] scared of the sea or really into it, unsure rn
someone's gonna fight a shark/seal/fish/buoy
Cap dislikes sand, it's coarse and rough and irritating and it gets everywhere
thomas just staring in awe at the sea and being like oh fuck man this is where i belong and just flinging himself off a cliff. honestly doubt he'd go back to button house if he saw the sea.
god honestly you've started something now, i can't bloody wait to get started on this
#this is the best thing ever and i feel very hyped up about this fic right now thank you so much!!#tqatd#the quick and the dead#patcap#bbc ghosts#anon#ask
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