starjxsung

[starjxsung]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out 🤍

ALSO I CANT FIND THE COMMENT OF THEM SATING WERE GONNA END UP BLOCKING EACH OTHER 😭😭😭😭 (which will never happen cuz im actually in your walls and not leaving)

ALSO I MISS YOU TEXT MEEEEEE

(Also....1.look at this baby! 2. What if we got matching keychains?🥺🥺🥺🩷🩷🩷🩷)

I dmed you the comment but it was this LMFAOSOODODKDK LIKE HUHHHH WHO EVEN IS THIS 😭😭😭😭

ALSO I LOVE YOU SO BAD YES LETS GET MATCHING KEYCHAINDNFKFKD IM RUNNING TO YOU RN 🏃‍♀️💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

[starjxsung]

Have you heard anything recent about 🦝 anon I know she’s been mia because school has been stressing her but I’m worried her wife is worried me I’m the wife

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I HAVE NOT……. 🦝 ANON GET IN HERE WE MISS YOU ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ I panic so bad when my anons go mia you guys have to keep me updated every time you breathe okay I am emotionally attached to every single one of u

[starjxsung]

star!! han giving us a gift on his birthday. why am i so sad :((((

NO BC HIM RELEASING “ALIEN” AND NOW “HUMAN” ESPECIALLY AFTER THEM TALKING ABOUT HIS RECENT STRUGGLES AND SAYING HE’S FINALLY FOUND HIMSELF AGAIN :((( when I tell you I CRIED………………. He’s so poetic too w the lyrics I cannot WAITTTT to catch that hanji birthday live & hear what it’s about :( hanpop is going to be the thing that saves us all. I just know it ts on REPEATTTTT

[starjxsung]

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTFLxLdwA/

Another meme of star opening their phone to BRIGHT MODE

Poor hanji he’d die if he opened up ur phone 😭

- 🧡anon

LMFAOAOOAOSOSODODODIFKDODKFJFK this is exactly what I looked like opening this ask 5 minutes ago after a long nap in my dark ass room to my tumblr on light mode at FULL BRIGHTNESS….. you guys will never get me to switch to light mode I’m sorry it’s just never happening 🙂‍↔️ if I die from phone brightness then SO BE IT

[starjxsung]

Babe is such a universal thing, I think I’m going to start calling you honey! Honey is one of my personal favorites heheheh

I’m so sorry you went through so much star I hope you’re doing well and I can’t wait for you to be able to make that cake ahhh please send me pics! Also on the applying it’s best to stay in the job your in because it’s so true it’s hard to apply and see if you even get the job especially me as someone who’s still trying to apply and no luck ugh

What’s your love language??? Mine is words of affirmations I love telling people I care that i appreciate them so much

I don’t remember if someone had asked this before but has an anon actually tried to get with you like I know most of anons flirt with you a lot and you flirt with us and we made a mutual connection by even talking out of tumblr but like has an anon actually tried to take your flirting to the next level ie actually thought you were trying to get into a relationship????

A little life update on my end: anxiety really sucks, it’s making me lose sleep by waking up every hour and it’s messing with me a lot making me feel like my friendships are just one sided and that they rather be with other people than me. It’s not helping either that this anon on my tumblr has been saying mean things about me and criticizing the way I write ( it usually doesn’t affect me but rn with how I am mentally it kinda is) but it’s getting so bad that opening my phone and seeing notifications just makes me want to puke

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NO BC HONEY IS SOOO CUUUUUUTE it feels like marriage vibes frfr I love it 🤞🥹

I WILLLL POST PICS OF JILIX CAKE TOMORROW PROBABLY I actually bought one of those mini birthday cakes and it’s been sitting in my fridge for like 3 days so it probably tastes like shit now but it’s SOOOO CUTE IM SO EXCITED 💓 Ughhhhh I know exactly what you mean the job market sucks ASSSSSS rn I just know it’s gonna be an ordeal but I’m definitely still looking at what’s out there and seeing if there’s anything I can transition into that might be a little easier bc my work load right now is the fucking worst :(

Love language HMMMM I think it’s words of affirmation for myself, and then for others I’m really partial to gift giving 💞 I loooove being the kind of person who just finds something cute online and sends it to someone or surprises them w it! I order my sister little desserts sometimes since she lives in another city or sometimes I get random shit for my parents or friends bc it reminds me of them I just love seeing people’s reactions to gifts 🥹

The anon question hahaha yesssss I was in a kinda long situationship type thing w an anon on here and it ended really badly. I truly wish her nothing but the best now and we’re no longer on talking terms, but I’m always grateful for the people I have the pleasure of being in romantic relationships/situationships with even if they end badly ! I hope she finds what she’s looking for eventually

Also I’m so sorry to hear about your anxiety :((( I’m kind of in the same boat rn (literally just picked up my antidepressants today slayyy) but holy fuck wym there’s an anon sending you hate?? Hello?????? That is so fucked up oh my god I’ve gotten my fair share of anon hate on here but please just delete any messages you get and don’t even give them the time of day. It’s so fucked up they’d stoop so low and hide behind an anonymous profile to send hate to random people. What have they even been saying to you? If you need to send me anything privately on discord pls feel free to do so :( I’m so sorry this is happening my love you don’t deserve this at all and it’s gross people would think to do that. I love you so so much please ignore those losers

[starjxsung]

Hi my precious little yummy scrummy cutie pie my baby boo snookums I just read ur life update and I am soooooo so so unbelievably proud of you for scheduling your appointment and getting help . I just wanna kiss you smooch you on the forehead MY PRECIOUS RAVIOLI SEWAGE POOKIE WOOKIE SNOOKUMS BOO BOO BEAR 💕🫶🏻🥹🫶🏻💕💕🥺🥺🩷🩷🥹💕💕❤️❤️ (ALSO LOOK AT THIS CUTE LIL SWITCH GAME WAHHHH) why're you so cute IMMA SEND MYSELF TO U IN A CARE PACKAGE)

I NEED A NINTENDO SWITCH SOOOO BADDDKDKDKCKDDKDKDMDIDK WHAT IS THIS GAME IT’S SO CUTE ????? 💔💔💔💔💔 I lose a year of my life every time I see a cute game that I can’t play bc I don’t have a switch (real)

I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCHHHFHFKDKDJIE MY RAVIOLI also did you see that random ass comment to the vid I tagged you in on Instagram saying we were gonna end up blocking each other LMFAOOSODKDJDKKERK HELLO I DIDNT EVEN RESPOND BC IT WAS SO RANDOM AND MEAN 😭 they hate to see us happy ig 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

ANYWAYS THIS IS LITERALLY US ALSO WE NEED ANOTHER SEUNGLIX LIVE SO BAD I MISS OUR DUMBASS MEN AND THEIR TERRIBLE COOKING LMFSOODKFKDKDKDJ I just know if we shared a kitchen it’d be exactly like that ❤️💕♥️💗💞💖💓 ALSO PLS MAIL YOURSELF OVER HERE

[starjxsung]

Hi Star!! Please don't apologize for being away! We all have life and I know you've been going through some health challenges and work has been hectic - I just hope you're doing well and taking care 💕 sounds like life is putting you through it a bit and I just wanna let you know we're here to listen (or at least I know I am 💗) and that we care so so so much about you!!! School is going well!! I'm actually so hyped for the term. Overall I enjoy my courses. Plant Biology and Forest Ecology my beloved - I LOVE plant ID. All the labs for Forest Ecology are outside in the forest at my uni and for our final lab exam we have to memorize how to ID 70 indicator plants and their latin names and soil moisture and soil nutrients just from their branches - it'll be a fun challenge! One of my profs is WORLD FAMOUS for her research and I freaked out when I found out she was my prof. I also have been keeping in touch with a couple of profs from last year and it's been so great chatting with them - they said I could maybe TA their courses next year 👀 I've also been making an effort to make more friends and introduce myself - I've found a lot of people I met last year we kinda were just class friends and not really friends friends which is fine because that happens - I just wanna get to know more people and make more friends and find those I really click with. So far a few from last year I've still found to have stuck around which is nice :) I've also met some really nice new friends and it makes me so happy (some not so nice but that's okay I just won't try talking to them anymore haha). TW: S3xual assault???

urgh south africa guy. guess what! hasn't messaged me since my last update abt him. so like. welp. I'm actually happy that he hasnt now. like at the time i was like :((( . but now im like good fcking riddance bro. blocked! basically i went back and analysed things and realized yeah he was taking advantage of me and emotionally manipulating me. literally conditioned me to have sex with him??? like in conversations we had literally before we were anything. literally wanna throw up everytime i think about any ounce of time i spent with him even if it was just standing there. like. idk i finally talked it all out with a friend who was on the south africa trip too (she had her own situation with another dude on the trip - he fucking followed her to prague??? whole other messed up story.......) anyways, i realizsed that the whole situation was fcked up and he didn't care abt me at all and was prolly also just keeping me around cause he fetishizes asian women!! yay!!! idk i feel very physically used. which feels gross. tryna decide if I feel like this is borederline SA idk processing it all cause guess who has trauma and repressed it the whole time and was thinking everything was fine!! I could bring up a lot more sht that happened but im not really feeling like typing it out or thinking about it. I just. i cant help but feel its my fault for being stupid and naive :( even tho many people have told me its not. its just hard not to :( anyways, on a brighter note i forgot if i mentioned this in my europe update but so like i made friends with another kid on the norway tour thing. he was a fun kid to hang out with and mess around with. hes like 5 years younger than me tho. tbh was very mature tho. anyways, thought we wouldnt talk each other ever again after. but we had exchanged discords so we could message during the trip abt like when to go to the pool n sht. anyways, we ended up messaging little by little. and then like having convos. and turns out we are like almost identical people. just . living thousands of km apart and in different countries and like 5 year age difference. like i have two youngers brothers. and hes the same age as my youngest brother. and he feels like another younger brother to me now its so adorable. he'll share stuff with me and like its so easy to converse and hes so sweet??? anyways, literally makes my days better. adorable kid. i could tell you all the ways hes become my third brother but it's a lot lol. Love you lots Star 💕 make sure you're taking breaks! I don't want your eyes to die trying to work on fics and things!! xoxo 🌱

HI MY LOVE…… I missed you so much and I missed getting your little updates !! When I tell you I got SO EXCITED getting this one fkfickjdkdkfkfkdkd there’s so much to unpack I’m so stoked !! I’m doing okay (just hating everything related to my job) but I’m pulling thru and I think in a few weeks I’ll feel a little more like myself again :’)

Okay your classes sound SO COOL???? I can’t tell you that be able to memorize the Latin names of any plants bc that sounds hard as hell but THAT’S SO COOL….. also your professor being world famous is literally the coolest thing ever???? Isn’t it SO exciting when you have a well known professor 😭 I had a professor who was the man behind the “little baby ice cream” commercials (that rly weird one of the guy eating ice cream off his head…. It’s kinda scary??) and when I tell you I FLIPPEDDDDD WHEN HE TOLD ME….. like I had so much to ask him and pick his brain about kjsjckdkdjdkfjfj also I’m so glad you’re making so many friends! It’s somehow so much harder to make friends in college than you’d think bc people are so focused on their studies & just keeping to themselves. But when you find people you really click with it’s truly the best feeling :’) side note if we met in a class I just know we’d be besties like in another universe I just know we’re in a plant class together and we get in trouble for talking too much LMFAOOO

anyways I’m really sorry to hear about South Africa guy :( I was truly rooting for you guys and I’m so disappointed to hear he just seems like another loser who used you for sex. Honestly I was in a super similar situation with the first guy I ever “dated” and had a serious relationship with. We agreed to be a fwb arrangement but to still stay exclusive to each other bc otherwise it’d just feel icky. Which I knew deep down I didn’t want because I just wanted to be with him, but I feel like we’re really susceptible to just settling for any version of a man we can get, just so that we don’t lose them. Of course this turned into a full year of me being at his beck and call whenever he wanted a sexual favor, and sending like thousands of pics whenever he wanted them. He’d literally ask me to leave family functions and send pics/vids of myself no matter where I was. In hindsight it was fucking disgusting and I think it really fucked me up sexually & emotionally and I just wish I could go back and grab myself by the shoulders and YELLLL at fact that I ever agreed to be that with him 😭 you can’t blame yourself for this unfolding though, you did the best you could with what you were emotionally able to handle at the time, and unfortunately you both had different wants out of this relationship. He didn’t deserve you in the slightest and he’ll just do this to the next girl who shows him a modicum of attention. You are truly such a fantastic, beautiful, SMART, wonderful girl and you deserve so much better than the lousy cards these guys deal you. Take time to heal and make sure you’re ready to be in another relationship when you’re ready, but know what this isn’t the defining point of what you’re worth or meant for. There are only better things and experiences and people still waiting for you, and dumping that loser guy is just another step forward for you. I’m proud of you for understanding your worth and acknowledging this might just be a trauma response. You’re not a loser, you’re not naive, and you do NOTTTT deserve someone who’s just around to fetishize your existence. You only deserve the best, most unconditional love and attention 💓

I’m so glad you did get a friend out of the trip though !! That sounds like the plot of some coming of age film LOL I hope you guys continue to stay friends for a long time! Sometimes you find friendship where you least expect it 🫶

I love you so so so much my angel, please take it easy and be kind to yourself. What you’ve been through hasn’t been easy, but remember you’re also crushing it in college, you traveled the world and you’re an amazing artist. And no shitty man will ever take that away from you !!!! You deserve someone who matches your energy !!!!! Your aura is like +100000 at any given moment don’t ever forget it 🌱💓🫶 I LOVE U.

[starjxsung]

hewwo star~ i hope this is not a weird question haha. do you have any favorite pet names (for your characters... or maybe yourself :v)

btw, i'm the one who asked you how to write cover letters and i'm doing 100 job applications challenge this month! wish me luck :) <3

is this you trying to seduce me w pet names 😦 HMMMM….. I feel like the ones I prefer for characters and myself are usually shared! But here’s a comprehensive list of my preferred (and non preferred) pet names:

Pet names I like to be called:

• baby (my #1. never disappoints)

• honey (married era vibes)

• love

• babe (usually only by women though! I’m not too fond of a man calling me babe)

• sweetheart

• angel (I call everyone on here angel all the time it feels so natural idk)

• sunshine

Pet names I hate:

• bae (it’s so modern skfjckdkdjfkfj it feels like a netflix original show or some shit)

• princess (I’m just a little too masculine leaning to fit the term princess. but I’m not averse to calling someone else princess !)

• doll

• peach (it just makes me think of jaehyun??)

• anything that feels over-the-top like “honey boo” or some shit. I just get the ick

In terms of sexual context, I vastly prefer “baby” over any of the other pet names. I feel like it’s such a neutral feeling term of masculinity/femininity and it just feels like it makes sense to both call someone it and be called it. I also like random little pet names I can share with a partner that develop naturally! My ex boyfriend used to call me “mon petit chou”, which he said translates to “my little cabbage” and he initially began using it as a joke but I grew to kinda love it. During my last little fling with a girl, she was really partial to “angel”, but it’d also change week by week because we’d make some stupid inside joke that would stick for a little while. she did avoid using anything that didn’t feel gender neutral which usually felt best !

Anyways this was so long LOL but yeah I hope this makes sense 😭 this was lowkey so fun to think about ALSO HELLO GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR JOB APPLICATIONS IM ROOTING FOR YOU SO HARD RAHHHHH GO GET EM 🫶🫶❤️❤️❤️❤️💯🧚‍♀️🤞

[starjxsung]

me when i disappear on my gf my wife my love my jisung my moon and stars

anyways hi baby i humbly request a life update

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HELLO MY ANGEL 👼💓 life updates below for those who care 🧍‍♀️

Work is so!!!! busy !!!!!!!!!! for me every single day holy shit I want to kms actually. I’m in that phase of wanting a new job but being so terrified because I would have to re-learn all my day to day tasks and have a whole new team AND unemployment is so bad so the interview process would be a pain in the ass. Pulling thru for now but I’m gonna start seeing what else is out there 🏃‍♀️

TW/ED: I’m almost one week clean from lax abuse !! going to celebrate with a little cake for Jilix birthday (I will post pics when I decorate it…cake decorator era….). It’s such a small feat but I’ve been abusing laxatives for a good amount of my life and it’s really not letting me eat normal meals anymore so I finally scheduled an endoscopy and I’m going back on meds (everyone booed !!!!) In my hotel room for Lolla I almost asked my sister to take me to the emergency room bc I ate nothing for like 2 days and then took so much saline I thought I was going to die of dehydration😭 anyways I have a doctors appointment tomorrow to ask for meds so hopefully she prescribes me something (pls pls pls)

I’ve also been hanging out w my parents every day that’s gang frfr 💯 yesterday my mom brought me a lil cake from crumbl and today I went to the art store with my dad and after my doctor’s appointment I’m going to the kpop store again for the first time in months bc I need so many new albums and it’s a lil congratulatory gift to myself (granted I stay clean for the remainder of the week lol) and there’s one of those idol photobooth thingies so I need pics with Taemin or I will simply pass away…….

Hmmm what else. Oh momo is doing so good she’s just annoying as hell and destroys everything in my room but she’s been sleeping w me every night bc she can somehow always tell when I’m not doing good. That’s also gang frfr 💯

ANYWAY HOW ARE YOU….. HOW’S LIFE GOING…. I love you so so much I hope the universe is being so good to you. hit the klaxon for me ❤️

here’s the moon today this afternoon and also Momo sleeping. I want to be her so bad

[starjxsung]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

Oooooooh this is so fitting bc I’ve been listening to music nonstop while I’m at work these days !! 👼 here are my songs/recs:

1. kool nuit- m83

2. maestro- onew

3. it’s real- real estate

4. orange seoul- nct 127

5. daydreaming- radiohead

(Love you so so so much my baby 💓💓💓)

[starjxsung]

Hello Star! It's been a while since my last message and I honestly don't remember what I wrote... I'm sure a lot of life has happened/changed since then! I hope you're doing well 💕 and I hope you've been feeling better and recovering! Can't wait to update you again once you get to my last update (which I swear was probably like a month ago) xoxo 🌱

My love!!!!!!!!! I’m so sorry it’s been so long! I responded to your last update but would absolutely LOVE another one so I can get up to speed with everything I’ve missed (I hope it’s all good stuff 🥹)

I hope you’re doing amazing!! I’ve been doing better slowly, I’m trying my hardest to make time for this blog again because I really miss interacting with you all and it really sucks to not be able to chat with you guys when everything else is so shitty 😭

I can’t wait to get more updates from you my angel!!! I hope you’re doing amazing and getting everything you deserve and more ���🫶❤️ take care of yourself for me please 👼🤞

[starjxsung]

AHHHHH OMG OMGOMGOMGOGMGOGMOGGMOGMY DID YOU SEE CHANS SOLO SONG PERFORMANCE?????! IM ACTUALLY GOING CRAZY 😶

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GUYS IM SO SCARED BC WHAT IF BANG CHAN IS REAL……….. 😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦 that solo stage had me BARKING, SWEATING, PRAYING, SHAKING. SCREAMING

HE’S UNREAL…. Also the handprints they added to his body??? HELLO??????? It was me yall sorry 😋🫶 BANG CHAN ONE CHANCE PLEASE.

[starjxsung]

It is novaaaaa 💥💥

First of all, flowers for you 💐💐💐

Lowkey had no idea you came back until like 2 days ago ckqidjqhxms???? I missed you so so much ong, so glad to finally have you back. You were and still are one of my fav writers, so I basically stopped opening this app and, at one point, deleted it because I was missing your posts when you went on hiatus. Downloaded it two days ago, and boom, you're back 😭😭

Probably too late to ask, but how are youuuu ☹️ Do you still remember me?

Not much to say because I've been struggling with my own mental health for a while now. No song recs either cuz yeah 😭😭 but you can always check out this new song "tauba tauba" though I'm not sure you'll like it a whole lot, do tell your thoughts.

Stay safe bubs, there has been some serious stuff going on where I live, and to be honest, I'm very scared to go outside, oh god ☹️

SU SU SU SUPERNOVAAAAAA OH MY GOSHHH HI MY LOVE I missed you and your song recs!!!! Of COURSE I REMEMBER YOU How are you how have you been!!!!!! Flowers right back for you 🌻🌷🌺🌸🪻 now tell me everything I’ve missed in your life !!!!!

I’ve been taking periodic breaks from being on here unintentionally these days bc I’ve just been so busy with work, writing, and my health hasn’t been the greatest so I’ve been in such a slump. But I am indeed back and I have no plans for another hiatus or anything !!!! So there’s that !!! Thank you for waiting and being so patient with me, I’m so sorry I’m so bad at being regular on here 😭

I shall check out your song rec and tell you my thoughts asap! Also I’m so sorry things aren’t the safest where you are right now 💔 please take care of yourself as best as possible and let me know if there’s anything I can do to help. I’m always here to chat if you need to vent or anything at all!!! Sending you all the love in the world my sweet nova, you are such an angel and I hope you continue to stay safe and healthy always 💓🫶👼

[starjxsung]

hi bestie <3 how are you?

i finally got home on thursday night. i feel the same was about chicago tho. it was so so so pretty but so tiring. but i kinda wanna move there now bc i enjoyed it and it’s so different to what im used to here. my two extra days were super stressful but the weather was so nice and windy.

i’m so sorry that your flight was scary! i hate flying sm, mine had a lot of turbulence but i drink some ✨anxiety meds✨ and sleep through it all <3

it sucks so much that we couldn’t meet but fr skz was total insanity and im just glad to have survived it </3 lolla skz will live in my head rent free forever. skz being real was not in 2k24 bingo card and i also need tickets for their tour or i’ll cry. but the chicago trip was sooooo expensive for me bc i have no control and went to a kpop store and target and to museums and the aquarium 🙃 and my support system is the worst bc i was only going to buy the ate version and my bf was like “get i.n and changbin” and that’s how i ended up with i.n, changbin, han and felix (i have lino on the way too) and a maxed out credit card (: money comes back ig. and the worst part was literally that ateez performed in chicago this weekend and i didn’t even know like </333 i could’ve met teo sang my beloved if i had stayed for a few more days (delulu bc with what money?). my bf is all for ateez @ lolla ‘25 so we’ll see 🤞🏻

and the chappell crowd was insanely full (literally the biggest one in lolla history wtf) but not as crazy as skz tbh. i love her sm tho, she’s such a superstar. i’m so glad to have been able to see her too <3

and alas, my semester starts tomorrow (not ready at all, screaming & crying) so real world awaits and im so bedrotting rn bc why can’t i be beautiful and do ska’s makeup or something for a living </3

anyways ily angel, i hope all is so well. take care of yourself always!!

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MY LOOOOOVE oh my gosh it’s been a minute since I’ve been on here properly!!! How are you!! How’s practicum!!!!! I was just talking about you earlier today bc my sister was complaining about her practicum and I offhandedly mentioned I knew someone else who was doing one and it just got me thinking about you and hoping everything was going well 🥹💓

Ugh the more time that passes, the more I miss Lolla 💔 it truly just felt so relaxing to be able to put everything behind me for a week and just be at a music festival and not have a care in the world except for skz. I totally feel you on wanting to move there too! I felt the exact same way after going to New York for the first time to see 3racha. It was just this gut feeling that I’m supposed to be here all the time and it felt so magical 😭 I can’t believe in a few weeks it’ll be a year since I saw 3racha in NY. Time passes by so quickly I hate it

GIRLLLL THE MONEYYY oh my god I was literally scared of how much money I spent after skz at lolla, I was fr buying so much kpop stuff when I came back and I’ve been collecting so many of Jisung’s pcs this era so I have to physically pry myself away from scrolling on Mercari 😭 I can’t help it he is just TOOOOO FINE…. Also not you just missing Ateez nooooo 💔💔 but now that you mention ateez at Lolla I can SO see that happening??? If they do headline and you get tickets we HAVEEE TO MEET 🤞👼 MANIFESTINGGGGG

I hope the semester’s been going well!!! I hope you haven’t been too stressed (although it seems like we’re all just going THRUUU IT 😭) I love you so so much and I’m sending you all the good vibes to make it through another semester. (Also side note Taemin & Onew new albums WHEWEEEEWKEKDKDKKD MY SHAWOL HEART IS SOOOO HAPPY)

[starjxsung]

🪐🌟Star🌟🪐

A little life update: I'm stressed and spiraling and fucking exhausted.

I have exams next month first week and I'm so scared, after failing consecutively for 3 attempts this is my last shot and I'm terrified. I invested my four years in this field and I really wanna continue too...I'm just scared. I make progress and still feel so unprepared. No amount of hours spent over my textbooks feel enough.

Also I feel so fatigued cuz of my stupid PCOS 😭😭😭 why does my body hate me fr TT

How's u sugar pop? Life update? 🥺👉🏼👈🏼💘

Love you honey bun.

If we had a dorm like skz, what would u name it?

We should live together, please kidnap me 😔🦋

xoxo,

-🦝

MY LOVE how are you??? Is everything okay? Are you eating enough? Drinking enough??? I’m so sorry exams are so stressful and are taking this much of a toll on you :( I’m manifesting so hard that your exams go swimmingly and you’re able to pass. As someone who failed courses in the past, TRUST I know how shitty it can be when you have to repeat. And the toll it takes on you to fail :( I’m sure you’re going to do absolutely AMAZING and I’m cheering for you every step of the way. You got this!!!!!! I believe in you!!!! Go get em !!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sorry your PCOS is causing so much fatigue too 💔 make sure you’re staying super hydrated and eating proper meals so that your body has the fuel it needs!! Also make sure you’re getting a good amount of sleep, I know it can be hard with exam season but it’s so important for your body to be able to recharge at night 🫶 my health has been absolute garbage too and I have a few medical tests coming up I’m terrified for 😭 but other than that, life is okay! Just vvvvv stressful and routine.

I love you my sugar plum fairy. If we had a dorm room together it would definitely be gayracha dorm because we are so gay. Also I am indeed kidnapping you 🏃‍♀️ where do you want to go???? I’m taking you there right now pack your stuff (this is a threat)

I love you sweet angel, I hope things continue to look up for you always 🥹���💓❤️ a million hugs and kisses

[starjxsung]

STARRRR I SAW ATEEZ A COUPLE DAYS AGO AND IT WAS SOOO GOOD.

i unfortunately can’t show my family any of the footage because 1, i was feral and 2, it was literally like a male strip show😀

downside, my bag got lost/stolen and it had my id and all my keys :(

-🪷

LIKE THEY’RE THE MOST INSANEEEEEE PERFORMERS I’M SO CONVINCED THEY AREN’T REAL………. also felt you on not being able to show anyone concert clips LOLLL I watched my LA clips on the flight home and I swear I think the people next to me thought I was watching a strip show or some shit 😭 I BLAME SAN AND SEONGHWA

Also I am so sorry about your bag??? Holy fuck???? Were you able to get it back or trace it back to whoever stole it? FUCK stupid ass people who steal at shows that is so so so beyond messed up :( I’m so sorry you had to deal with that and I hope you were able to get everything replaced. Ughhh it just breaks my heart that people can even do something like that at an event that’s supposed to be fun and exciting :( I’m so sorry my love

[starjxsung]

starrrrr 💕💕💕 I missed youuu

school is literally starting up again I'm so over it already 😭 senior year guys let's goo

HEY I TURNED 20??? LIKE IT FEELS WEIRD TO SAY IM TWENTY YEARS OLD NOW. buttt it also just feels the same lmao

but I have bigger things to worry about, like trying to get SKZ tickets when they release the US dates. i just hope I get good seats 😭 honestly I hope I get any seat bc this would be my first time seeing them live IM SO EXCITED... it feels crazy to think that I've been a stay for over two years now... i remember just getting into them as they closed off oddinary era, and my first comeback with them was maxident. it literally feels like a couple months ago, and I feel like time is flying by so fast now, literally every year just goes by quicker and quicker 😭

yk maybe that's a good thing bc my surgery is scheduled (as of now) for October 31st, which I don't remember if I told you the date or not but yeah. I'm glad I could get on the books pretty quick, but it also feels a little too quick, yk?? i just feel like there's so much to think about especially bc I've never had anything remotely like this before... the only time I've had anything down was stitches on my lip when I was like five 😭 (I banged into a clock, don't ask...) but it's kind of overwhelming even for me. but at the same time I still feel a bit iffy about it, I just want to get it done and see if it works.

but yeah anyways I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU AND I WANT TO KISS YOU STAR BB!!!! feel free to write an essay for me to read about your life and literally everything you're doing bc I need to distract myself from starting senior year 😔😔

miley says hello and that she loves you 💕💕

MY LOOOOOVEEEEEEE OH MY GOD. IM SO SORRY THIS IS SO LATE. HOW’VE YOU BEEN????

Also HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY???? 20 YEARS OLD!!!!!!! FUCKKKKK THAT’S SUCH A FUN AGE I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT SO MUCH RAHHHH did you do anything to celebrate???? Dinner? Cake?????? HAPPY FRICKIN BIRTHDAYYYYY LIVE IT UP SO HARD 20 IS GOING TO BE AMAZING TO YOU 🎉🫶🎊

Also FELTTTTTT on the skz tickets part oh my god 😭 even just seeing the start of the tour and seeing all the clips has me PANICKING…… like if I don’t get to see Bang Chan solo stage with that shirt off…… hell nah. I can’t believe how fast time is going by too???? Like wym we’re already past ate promotions and the Korean shows are finished????? That doesn’t sound real 😭 TIME ISNT REAL YALL

Also I am SO GLAD you were able to get your surgery on the books!!! I know it seems really scary but at least once you’re finished with all the prepping and everything, it’ll just be like one big long nap and then you’ll be finished 🥹 sending you so much love and good vibes and manifesting the surgery goes smoothly and that you’ll feel so much better after it. I’ll be thinking of you all Halloween!!! I’m so proud of you I promise everything is going to be okay and you’re so strong and capable of getting through it! ❤️

I love you so so so much I hope the start to senior year has been nothing short of amazing!!!! My life has been the boring same usual shit but I’m insanely busy with work (I really should be sleeping rn bc I have a 7am meeting tomorrow lollll) but !!!! I’m excited for fall and everything’s fine! I just need to take the world’s longest nap tbh

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY ANGEL a million hugs and kisses for you as always ALSO THANK U FOR MY DAILY DOSE OF MILEY I LOVE HER SO MUCH…. I offer you a momo in exchange (she loves you too !!!!)