#and thats gonna get u all mad

[darknoonbitch]

Im trying so hard to not give my energy to people that don't deserve it but damn it's hard. I'd love to hear if I'm actually wrong for not wanting to pay someone $40 for 20 mins of his time.

I hired a guy over the weekend to scoop snow off my steps and in front of my door with a snowblower, I said I live in a downstairs apartment and that it was a drift as tall as me (around 5') that I had to climb to get over or walk around. I had to work when he was going to come so I left him $40 cash (I know it was stupid). He even sent me a pic but it was angled as to not show where my steps went down, and when I got home he had cleared up to the step. My front door area wasn't touched. Maybe a 5' square patch in front of our apartments mail boxes was all that he did. But my steps were still buried. I messaged him and he said it was a misunderstanding, he got the money off my door by walking around the building bc he thought I just wanted the common walkway done. He offered to make it right the next day.

The next day I'm at work again when he says he will stop by and fix it. I said ok thank you sorry for the misunderstanding. 10 mins later he says "it's more snow than I thought it would be another $50 to finish." So I told him I don't have more money thanks anyway. I asked how he found my door but didn't think I wanted to be able to walk to it and he didn't answer, so I made a post on the local fb page without naming him, saying I was disappointed that people would take advantage of someone for wanting snow removal. I posted a pic of the work that was done and what was left and people were agreeing that the small square he did was not what was asked. I still didn't name him. Like 3 different random ladies jumped in the comments saying I wasn't clear about how much snow it was (he offered to fix it after the misunderstanding) and that I should just scoop it myself (I broke a shovel trying to do it myself, hence why i wanted a snowblower) 😂 and that I was just being a brat because it wasn't done exactly how I wanted (I asked for steps and a front door, not an ice sculpture) and posted a pic of our convo where I said "ok thanks for doing what you can I thought I had said it was a 5 ft tall drift but I'll be clearer next time" but not earlier before he ever came to do the job and I had said it was in front of my door and was 5 ft tall.

Instead of going back and forth I just said "it's ok I got it finished myself and I hope you needed that cash more than I needed the work done" and they literally all blocked me except the og guy, who messaged me and let me know he didn't appreciate what I just did and he could just give back the money, then he blocked me. So far I haven't gotten any money back.

[parasitoidism]

More Persona 1 manga anthology scans

I finished scanning another one of my Persona 1 manga, "Megami Ibunroku Persona Comic Anthology: From the Sea of the Soul"! You can see it all in the google drive link. Enjoy!

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

[youngyoo-apologist]

OG Choi Han they could never make me hate you cause if some random rich boy was yelling at me and telling me my family deserved to die like a day after it happened and all I wanted was to know how I could get help I’d beat him up too

This plus the added fact that the Harris Village people were the first people to take Choi Han in and take care of him after years and years in the dark forest. Like he’s obviously not going to be mentally stable after all that, and he was so young when everything happened to him like I cannot blame him at all. I don’t think I can ever hate OG Choi Han like ever, he’s flawed, he has problems, but I love him dearly. He deserves the world. This kid who had to fight for his life, was taken away from his family, and in the process had to give up parts of his own humanity to survive, and like went to war two years later, they could never make me hate u OG Choi Han…

Like yeah violence is bad I guess but OG Cale had it coming(saying this as an OG Cale fan, I love him, but he was mean as hell when he was younger!)

If I’m honest, I think they were both in the wrong to an extent. Like OG Cale shouldn’t have said all that no matter the circumstances, and OG Choi Han shouldn’t have beaten him up so much. But u say mean shit and you get hit, that is how it will work when you’re talking to the guy who just saw his entire village get murdered like idkkkk man

I understand where OG Cale was coming from, but he had many issues and while he wasn’t an awful person, he was capable of doing bad things because of his own internalized pain and emotions that he never got to properly process because of his emotionally distant childhood and relationship with his father who should have been there for him more when he was younger.

Okay speaking of his childhood, Deruth isn’t the WORST father in the world but there are a lot of things he could have done better. I think a lot of Deruth’s flaws come from his fear of failure and messing up. He’s scared of doing the wrong thing, and so he sticks to doing what he knows and using what he knows best. That’s why he uses his money, that’s why gift giving is his way of showing affection, he knows that it is one thing he cannot mess up.

The problem is that money and gifts is NOT what OG Cale needed. I think what that guy needed the most was a parent who wasn’t afraid to talk to him, to ask him questions. Not to say that Deruth gave up on OG Cale, but I think in a way he gave up on OG Cale by giving up on himself. Deruth didn’t trust himself to have the capabilities to talk to OG Cale, which is why he never did. It’s because that Deruth was scared, and didn’t trust himself, that he could never face OG Cale

If Deruth was able to trust himself a little more, and pull himself together, I don’t think OG Cale would have turned out the way he did. As a kid, he probably thought the only way he could help his family without relying on anyone(no doubt this whole ‘I have to do it myself’ thing came from the fact that he couldn’t rely on his father when his mom died, and instead was acting as a pillar of support for his father when it should have been the other way around) was to sabotage himself, the only heir. If he was shown to be unfit to be heir, then everyone else would have no choice but to direct their hatred towards him instead of his family.

If Deruth had talked to his son at least ONCE when he was a kid, asking him why he was upset or why he did the things he did, I think OG Cale would have told him. Why? Because he’s a kid!! A kid will obviously want to rely on his father, if he just had one sign telling him that he didn’t have to do it alone I’m 90% sure OG Cale would have said something.

Basically, while Deruth isn’t the worst father, he’s not really a great father either. I think he does do his best, but he has issues with communication lol

OG Cale and OG Choi Han are both complex characters and had their own reasons to behave the way they did. The thing is with people is that they’re complicated and have layers, so the situation with them would have layers behind it as well with multiple co-existing truths and stuff

[puppppppppy]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

[satorugojoswiife]

idk sometimes seeing all the hate gege gets makes me sad. :( like I know alot of it is jokes/memes, but there are some people that are very serious and weird about it

[tvheadfalls]

looking at websites about taxes (scary) wanna start doing commissions next year (for real this time) (even scarier) bc my mom doesnt have a job anymore either (we're fine rn but still. lots of scary things)

[cerealmonster15]

i was lookin at a few vids about the bg3 dream visitor romance [spoilers if anyone's still early game i guess lol] and like i was so shocked people were, like, so upset and betrayed when they discovered the dream visitor's true form fksdjgkdljf like okay i forgot not every corner of the internet has monsterfuckers and also i guess normies are playing this game. and ALSO it reminded me that the % of players that even have the steam achievement of sleeping w/the emperor at all is so low. 12.7%. why is everyone a coward. i'm not even a self proclaimed monsterfucker. i dont like sex and im mildly phobic of tentacles. WHY IS EVERYONE A COWARD!!!!!

tho to be fair probably a lot of ppl are also romancing a companion and wanna be faithful - ive only gotten to that scene in multiplayer where none of us were in companion romances so it was guilt free go for it see what happens, in the discord call all together LOL..... then we had a lover's spat after the raphael fight 😑

[lapdogchase]

im so fucking mad abt the therapy thing i cant even express it Im gonna make a zine abt it later i think

[unganseylike]

i hate when i get ghost baited by media. please let your ghost character be actually dead it was only cute when just like heaven did it 😭

[microwavestim]

what's the word for a best friend but like the kind that drains all your energy if you have to interact with them

[phagodyke]

hour and a half unpaid overtime I think that's a new record for me. on a day where I was supposed to have no overtime no less. funny how I only have 3 of those this month and the 2 so far I've had to work overtime anyway 👍

[jellyaibo]

*a horrifying green mist forms around me as i remember therewill definitely be a new wave of people saying loser is an asshole*

[confused-spood]

Where else am I gonna rant if not to a group of random strangers that barely know me, right? So ofc I'm gonna rant here cuz these people have no idea who tf I am.

....turns out I have no words to explain how I'm feeling right now so I offer this emoji instead: 😔

[itsalwaysdark]

i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

[princemick]

sometimes I talk to my dad abt controversial things and/or literally give my opinion and he responds and I'm just like 'yeah no you're why people dont like me'