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It's another modern/non-demigod au, with Tattoo Artist! Annabeth, who is also a single mom working hard to coparent her five year-old. The story starts when she meets her friend/mentor's cousin, who's only just moved back the New York City after getting Ph.D. out in California.
Here's a bit of the draft. Not sure if this will ever actually be something I finish though.
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There were already a few people lined up on the sidewalk when Annabeth stepped through the door. Sundays were walk-in days at Electric Tattoo, but it was first come, first serve. She still had half an hour before she needed to serve anyone though.
Electric was a basic street shop that boasted artists who could probably work somewhere more impressive, but didn’t have the energy to deal with the Instagram of it all. Annabeth herself had a decent following, and her books were usually full, but she still appreciated the spontaneity of a walk-in. And Sunday’s were good money. Sophia spent the day with her father, and Annabeth spent the day sticking needles in strangers.
She’d built a pretty robust portfolio in the last few years; she could do just about anything. Geographic tattoos and linework were her favorite though; it was the closest she got to using the architecture degree she finished mostly out of spite in the end. But she’d always like the drafting process, even if she couldn't stand her internships or the industry in the end.
At least, as a tattoo artist, she got to stab the shitty men she dealt with with needles.
“I booked your six o’clock spot already,” Thalia said to her before anything else.
“Good morning,” Annabeth said back. “Who is it?”
“My cousin. I’d do it, but you know how I feel about doing family,” Thalia said. Annabeth didn’t know why she phrased it like that, but she wasn’t in the mood to tease her about it. “I’ve told you about him, I think? Percy? Lived out in Berkeley?”
Annabeth shrugged. “Probably, but I don’t remember,” she said as she walked over to their shitty coffee maker -- the machine and the coffee it produced were sub-par, but it would do.
“You’ll like him,” Thalia promised.
“Last time you set me up with someone you thought I’d really like, I didn’t fall in love, and I got pregnant,” Annabeth reminded her.
“I told you to abort the little crotch goblin,” Thalia teased.
Annabeth rolled her eyes. “That crotch goblin is your goddaughter.”
“And I love her very much,” Thalia promised.
Thalia had been her mentor through her tattoo apprenticeship, and then, a fast friend. And for all of her jokes, she was a reliable aunt and baby sitter for Annabeth’s now-five year-old.
Really, Annabeth needed the distraction of a Sunday walk-in day. Sophia spent Saturdays with her father, slept at his house, and didn’t get dropped off to her again until six thirty Sunday night. It wasn’t even a full forty-eight hours, but Annabeth spent just about every Saturday night missing her, whether she stayed home or went out.
She wiped down her station, got her ink, tools, and stencils ready. And then she checked her phone again. Nothing from Luke. Not that she was worried. He was a good and responsible father. But she appreciated a photo here and there, an update.
Annabeth decided to just text him instead: “I have a 6pm, bring her to electric”
Luke just thumbs up reacted.
Things between them had never been particularly romantic. A few okay dates, and some decent sex had really been the extent of it. Until Sophia made herself known to Annabeth a few weeks later.
Annabeth knew she didn’t exactly look like a mom, with arms and legs covered in tattoos, a piercing in her eyebrow, and an undercut (really, her hair was simply too thick to deal with in its entirety), but she had always wanted a baby. And this one was hers. She didn’t expect Luke to want to coparent or be around at all. He made things easier -- financially especially -- but …
Well, there wasn’t really a but. That was what annoyed her so deeply. They could be the perfect family. Mom and Dad just didn’t love each other. Luke had proposed to her when she told him. But Annabeth had just laughed and turned him down. It was more stable for Sophia this way. The less time they spent together, the less likely they were to hate each other in the end.
But Annabeth still looked forward to six thirty.
~
Thankfully, no one asked her to tattoo any genitals today. Closest she got was some side boob -- laurel wreaths, one on each tit. They came out pretty nice. She might have stolen the idea for herself if her tits still sat up like her client’s did. Breastfeeding had left her flatter than she was used to. But at least she could usually go braless these days.
Annabeth cleared off her bench, disinfecting the surfaces and the equipment as Thalia’s voice got louder and closer to her.
“I can have Hazel re-pierce your ear, if you want,” Thalia offered, tugging on some man’s ear.
“Ow,” he complained. Annabeth stood still and looked at him. He must have been the cousin. Percy, she remembered. He looked more like Thalia than her brother did -- dark hair, strong jaw, just a few inches taller than her, and devastating green eyes.
“This is Annabeth,” Thalia said, gesturing towards her. Annabeth gave a small wave. “She’ll be ruining your arm today.”
Annabeth laughed, insulted. “You taught me. If you think my work is that bad, it’s your fault.”
“It’s not about your work,” Thalia promised. “This idiot,” she pointed to the man, “lost a bet and now gets whatever dumb tattoo my brother picks out.”
“I’m hoping he’s kind to me,” Percy said.
Annabeth forced a smile and looked at Thalia. “I really don’t want to give you a tattoo you don’t want,” she said.
“Bets a bet,” Thalia said.
“It’s really no worries,” Percy said.
“Is it your first tattoo?” Annabeth asked.
“Nope,” he promised her. Then he rolled up his tee shirt sleeve to reveal his shoulder. It was covered in dark linework of waves, with a ship on the sea. The lines were incredibly clean, but for a moment, Annabeth panicked. It was shaded in with reds and purples that for a moment made her think it was painfully infected.
It didn’t take long for her to realize it wasn’t infected at all. It was a very well-healed image of --
“The wine dark sea?” She guessed.
“Yeah!” Percy said. “Thalia told me you were smart.”
“She went to Harvard,” Thalia offered for her.
“Smart enough not to bet on a tattoo,” Annabeth said to him. Well, anymore.
Thalia walked back to her station, leaving Annabeth and Percy relatively alone. Frank had a man on his bench next to her, but they weren’t talking.
“It’s really okay,” Percy promised her. “I knew I was going to lose.”
“What was the bet?” She asked, inviting Percy to sit on the bench while they waited for Jason to make up his mind.
“I’m working on my first book, he just finished his dissertation. Race to the finish. He was way ahead of me, though, just needed a final push to finish before his funding ran out. So, I figured I could sacrifice my forearm to keep him on track,” Percy explained.
Annabeth asked a few more questions and Percy offered answers. He and his cousin were both classicists, he was Greek, Jason was Roman. Jason was at NYU, Percy had been out at UCLA, but then did a postdoc at UC Berkeley. But he’d finally gotten a job at Hunter College. He’d only just moved last week.
“Are you from California?” Annabeth asked. Jason had finally made up his mind, they’d gotten the paperwork signed, and now Annabeth was applying the stencil. SPQR. Easy enough.
“No, no, from New York, although,” he pointed to the New York Yankees logo she’d tattooed on herself just above the knee, “a Mets fan.”
“I really don’t have strong allegiances. I just did this to piss off my Bostonian family more,” Annabeth said.
“Rebellious,” Percy teased. “Thalia told me you’re from San Francisco?”
Annabeth nodded. “Well, sort of. The family is from Boston, but my dad is also a professor. I grew up near West Point, then we moved to Berkeley when I was thirteen.” She pulled the stencil paper away. It looked straight. “There, check out if you like the placement.”
Percy examined it in the mirror, twisting his arm in different positions to make sure he liked it.
“Yeah, looks great!” He said, laying back down. “So, wait, your dad teaches at Berkeley?”
Annabeth nodded. “History department. Twentieth century military stuff, though, you probably wouldn’t have --”
“Is your dad Fred Chase?”
Annabeth pressed her lips together to hold back a sigh before saying, “the one and only.”
“He’s a …” Percy paused, studying her face to see what he should say about him, “very boring man,” Percy said. Annabeth laughed.
“Yeah, yeah, all research, no fun,” Annabeth confirmed.
Percy was looking at her in a new way, like he was trying to piece something together. “You’re his only daughter?”
“Yep,” Annabeth confirmed. His eyes glanced at her chest, and Annabeth knew he figured it out. Her daughter’s name, the first three letters at least, poked through the V neck of her black tee shirt. “He’s mentioned me?” She asked.
“Oh yeah. I mean, I haven’t talked to him a lot, but I mentioned I was from New York. He said he had a daughter and grandkid in the city.”
Annabeth nodded. “Sophia.”
“Where is Sophia today?” Percy asked.
“With her father,” Annabeth said, trying to communicate through tone that Sophia’s father was not someone Annabeth was romantically attached to. “He’ll bring her around later,” and then for good measure, “he gets her on weekends.”
Percy nodded, and then got comfortable, offering her his arm. “He gets her all weekend? Nights too?”
Annabeth turned on the tattoo gun and picked up some ink. “Yeah, why?”
“Just … if you’re single --” the needle made contact and shut him up.
“You’ll still need to pay for the tattoo even if you ask me out,” she said with a teasing smile.
Percy relaxed a bit as he got used to the sensation. Annabeth had it on good authority that she was a very gentle tattooer, actually. Men were just babies.
“Yeah, I assumed,” Percy assured her. “Do you date? I mean, are you single?”
“Am single, and I guess I date.” Truth be told, she didn’t date often. But she wasn’t opposed. Her arrangement with Luke would easily allow for a date here and there, she just … hadn’t dated much. Even before Sophia. Thirty in one month, she wasn’t exactly itching to join dating apps.
“Cool,” Percy said as she finished the first pass on the S. “Are you free next weekend?”
Annabeth smiled. “Let me finish this tattoo and then you can decide if you ever want to see me again,” she said.
~
As always, her linework was clean, and the tattoo sat straight on his forearm.
“How much?” Percy asked, after it was sanitized and wrapped.
“One hundred,” Annabeth said. It should have been closer to $120, but she’d give him a friends and family discount. Percy handed her his card.
Annabeth turned to the register.
“So your daughter --” Percy started. Annabeth didn’t look up from what she was doing, worried about what he might say or what her face might reveal. “She’s what? Five?”
“Yeah, she turned five in April.”
“Blonde?”
“So, so blonde,” Annabeth said with a faint smile.
“Big fan of Beauty and the Beast?”
Annabeth looked at him. “Did my dad talk about her that much or are you psychic?” She asked.
Percy just pointed to the window. Six thirty.
Luke was holding their daughter as Sophia waved her arms around, trying to get Annabeth’s attention. She was in a new Belle dress up dress. Annabeth had to appreciate that Luke doted on their daughter, but it was hard not to resent him. He got to be the fun gift-giving weekend parent, while Annabeth was stuck with the bath time, nap time, daycare, chores parent. Sophia was starting Kindergarten in the fall. Soon Annabeth would be the homework parent too.
But her building resentments fled her for a moment. She put Percy’s card down and walked quickly towards the front door. Thalia had locked it at six after the last clients had come in for the day.
“Hello beautiful,” Annabeth said as Luke handed Sophia over. She was starting to get too big to be picked up, but Annabeth was still doing her best. “I’m just finishing up,” she said to both of them, letting them inside.
Percy and Luke seemed to recognize each other, and offered some warm words.
“It’s been a while,” Percy said, glancing at Sophia, then back at Luke.
“What? They don’t have Facebook out in California?” Luke asked him, as if to say this wasn’t a secret.
“You know I don’t bother with all that,” Percy said. But Annabeth thought he looked a bit guilty and apologetic for missing … all of this.
“Can I see your tattoo?” Sophia said, pulling on Percy’s shorts leg. Percy squatted down to her height and held out his arm. Sophia stared at it for a second before announcing: “That’s not a word!”
Percy just laughed as Annabeth told her daughter to be polite, before adding, “really good reading, though.” Sophia beamed.
“It’s Latin,” Percy explained, offering her the meaning in Latin then English. Sophia seemed genuinely inspired by the new information, and Annabeth wondered if she’d, despite it all, birthed a tiny scholar.
When he finished his explanation, though, there was a long awkward silence between the three adults as Sophia ran off to find Hazel.
Percy started to excuse himself, realizing that he was the odd man out now. He signed his name on the receipt, leaving Annabeth a more than generous tip. She watched him try to shield the receipt from Luke as he wrote his phone number for her. She hoped this wasn’t some bro code nonsense. Legally, Luke had partial custody of their daughter; he did not have authority over her Saturday nights.
“See you next Saturday?” Annabeth asked as Percy started to leave.
He looked sheepishly at her, but his smile betrayed him. “Yeah, let me know what works?” He said before leaving her alone with Luke.
“You’re going out with him?” Luke asked as he handed over Sophia’s bag.
“Maybe,” Annabeth said, tucking the receipt into her pocket.
“I mean, I’m fine with it. It just … he’s a college professor,” Luke said.
“What, you think I’m not smart enough for a college professor?”
“No, I think your dad is a college professor,” Luke said.
“Don’t be an asshole,” she warned. “How was she this weekend?”
“Great,” Luke said. “She read a bunch of books to me, we watched Beauty and the Beast twice, and we went to the park. No accidents, no injuries, no melt downs.”
That was her girl. She was a bit injury-prone, as she inherited some of Annabeth’s impulsive fearlessness, but otherwise she was a smart, well-behaved girl. She was more than Annabeth thought she deserved.
“Great, and the dress?” Annabeth asked.
“Couldn’t help it. It was too cute,” Luke said. “It makes her happy.”
“I’m not mad about it,” Annabeth promised. “Thank you. It’s sweet. I’ll be in touch about next week. Her Pre-K graduation is on Thursday, don’t forget,” Annabeth said.
“Don’t worry, we also practiced singing ‘God Bless America,’” Luke said. The Pre-K kids were all singing that during the ceremony.
“Well, I still need to clean up here. Feel free to hang out, or take off, whatever,” Annabeth said.
Luke said hi to Thalia, goodbye to Sophia, and goodbye to Annabeth and was gone within a few minutes. “I need to talk to you about something this week,” Luke said. “An idea I had. A surprise for Sophie.”
Annabeth nodded. “Alright, call me whenever,” she said, waving him off.
“Tell Percy I said hello,” were his last words to her before leaving the shop.
Annabeth found Sophia in the back with Hazel, who was marking where Sophia would get her ears pierced with a marker. Annabeth told her she had to be seven to get her ears pierced, but she still insisted on getting the little purple dots on her ears every time she saw Hazel.
“Ready to go, nugget?” Annabeth asked. Sophia nodded and got Hazel’s help getting out of the big chair. “Say thank you,” Annabeth reminded her.
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Bay Ridge was decently close to the shop, and not too far from Park Slope where Luke lived, but it was still a long way on the R train. Sophia spent the entire ride asking Annabeth a series of ear-piercing related questions that Annabeth answered honestly, logically, and with as little audible annoyance as she could manage.
But three stops from home, Annabeth suggested they play the quiet game. Her daughter was as competitive as she was smart, and stayed quiet the rest of the ride.
Annabeth’s first words were: “Come on,” when the subway pulled into their stop, and Sophia’s first words were a boastful: “Ha! I win!”
“Princesses don’t brag,” Annabeth said, taking her hand. That might have been a lie. She had no idea what princesses did or didn’t do.
When they finally got back home, Annabeth popped some chicken nuggets in the airfryer, got some steam-in-bag veggies out of the freezer, and wrestled a tiny human out of her new princess dress.
“Come on, you don’t want to get food on it,” Annabeth said as Sophia pouted.
After many chicken nuggets, and a reluctant forkful of vegetables came the bath. Then the bedtime story. Then tucking her in. And kissing her goodnight.
“Love you to the moon and back, sweetie,” Annabeth told her.
“Can I wear my Belle dress to school tomorrow?” Sophia asked.
“No, but I promise you can put it on as soon as you get home, okay?” Annabeth offered.
“Okay.”
“Good night,” Annabeth said.
“Night night,” Sophia offered back.
Annabeth shut her door. It was only nine. A bit late for her bedtime, but Sophia wanted a few extra chapters of The Hobbit, and Annabeth did love that book.
Annabeth unpacked her weekend bag. Sophia’s favorite toys had already come out of it, and her favorite blanket. All that was left were the dirty clothes. One outfit was shoved in a plastic bag, covered in brown goo. Annabeth groaned.
“For fucks sake, Luke --” He’d told her no accidents. Sophia had never even had a poopy accident before. She barely had accidents at all. How long had he ignored her for her to --
Mud, it was mud, she realized when she opened the bag. Sophia had somehow gotten covered in mud. She took a deep breath and let her shoulders relax.
Annabeth took out her phone and texted him anyway.
Annabeth
You could have told me about the muddy clothes
Luke
Shit, sorry, I forgot.
Happened this morning.
She jumped off the swings and landed in a puddle
I keep telling her not to do that
She typed out: no reason to leave it for me to clean but deleted it, in no mood to start a fight.
Annabeth
I know, I keep telling her too.
Maybe we take swings away from her until she stops next time
Luke
I don’t want to be the bad guy
Annabeth
You think I do? I’m proposing a united effort here. I just need to know you’ll back me up.
Luke
Alright, I will.
She just went to the bathroom and dropped the dirty clothes in the shower and started to rinse them out. Her apartment had a washer and dryer, one of two blessings in her life (Sophia, of course, the first one), but she didn’t need it getting covered in Brooklyn mud. She let that wash down the drain.
With the clothes rinsed she started the wash, stripping off her own clothes from the day to throw in with them.
Her hand slipped into her pockets, checking to make sure she didn’t wash another pair of headphones. She found Percy's receipt. She smiled. She typed the phone number into her contacts, before putting the receipt in her bag. The shop would actually need that to charge him and make sure she got her tip.
Annabeth
Hey, it’s Annabeth
He’d texted back by the time she got out of the shower.
Percy
Hey!
Annabeth
I’ll be honest, I was hoping for a better pick up line
Percy
Shit, okay hold on let me think of one
How about: you are an SPQ-T?
Annabeth
It’ll do
They didn’t talk much. She asked about his tattoo; he confirmed their dinner plans. He asked about Sophia, if she had a good weekend, that sort of thing.
Percy
She’s adorable. Looks just like you
Except blank
Annabeth laughed.
Annabeth
She’s constantly in trouble at school for drawing on her arms and her friends’ arms.
Percy
She’ll be a great artist one day I’m sure
Annabeth
Her dream career is artist princess mommy
That’s exactly what she’ll tell you if you ask
Percy
Not a bad collection of jobs
Annabeth finally asked the question she did need an answer for before anything else went forward.
Annabeth
Do you like kids?
Percy
I love kids
Can’t wait for my own honestly
Annabeth
So you’re alright with me having a kid?
Percy
Yeah for sure
It’s not like she’s going anywhere anyway. Wouldn’t have asked you out if it wasn’t okay.
Annabeth
Were you and Luke close growing up?
Percy
Eh, he was always Thalia’s friend. He mostly tried to pressure me into stealing candy and shit.
Us going out wouldn’t be weird to me
Is it weird for him?
Annabeth
He hasn’t really said anything about it
Percy
Is it weird for you?
Annabeth
No
Percy
Good, that’s all that matters to me 😁
#percy jackson and the olympians#percy jackson#annabeth chase#luke castellan#percabeth#thalia grace#admittedly light on the percabeth#tattoo au#my writing
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#haha. ha. just got hit with the fact that because my family is so small#if my dad passes away in the next five or so years#my mom only has maybe another decade maximum of lucidity bc of her brain injury and the already accelerating memory loss and confusion#my Grandma’s health is going downhill scary fucking fast#and they’re all i have. that’s it.#my aunt that i was closest to is dead#my aunts and uncles on my dad’s side are spread out across the country and we don’t talk#and that’s the full extent of my family#three people#i know we all stand the risk of losing people at any time all the time#but it’s different to feel like everyone you love has an expiration date#and in ten years you might be totally alone#fuck this fucking sucks#personal
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so much Mayday stuff (& a smidgeon of Vinyl City worldbuilding) in my head. ooouugghh. wrote this at 12am last night and i'm not the best at articulating my thoughts so forgive me as this wooonnt be the most polished. this is likee a mini conglomeration of personal headcanons and a bit of analysis (reading too far into things) ... i just wanna talk about her REEEAALLL BAAADDDD
i've always thought of Mayday as someone so deeply intertwined with Vinyl City (specifically the working-class & lower-class areas; the 'little guys') that her dream of becoming a big famous rockstar also stems from a desire for agency/power. power to be able to do SOMETHING in the name of her communities after personally living through, like, 2 decades of neglect—condemned by NSR to live in the shadow of the more tourist-oriented/commercial/profitable parts of the city—even if it means rising to charterhood under the same stupid record label that's the source of all her problems in the first place ...
i also like to believe this, in tandem with her rumbustious nature, is why Mayday IMMEDIATELY switches to aggression (dare i call it a TV meltdown...?) following her & Zuke's flames being so harshly snuffed out during the Lights Up Audition.
Mayday was probably warned beforehand by the adults around her about the EDM bias. i think she ignored/dismissed every warning/dissuasion because she believed in herself and her ability and her principles too unshakably for her own good. and then for the judges (particularly Tatiana) to unanimously strike her dream down like that, thus proving their warnings right & her hard work (and ignorance) in vain... FURY!!!! (Mayday is NOT the best at taking losses with grace)
and then the banning of Rock from the Lights Up Audition happens. and then the subsequent blackout and diversion of energy happens. and seeing the extent of what happens across the city with her own eyes from atop the ledge (after being limited to her own ground-level experiences on the outside, looking inward) is what finally tips her over the edge and into the vat of a full-blown revolution.
semi-related, but i also view Mayday's hatred towards EDM as. like. a general prejudice. it goes a bit deeper than just Not liking the sound/style; she associates it with NSR, and therefore links it with everything wrong with Vinyl City. rock music, a dying art in the era being upheld by her tightly-knit community, untouched by NSR, to her is authenticity.
she also loathes the "Order leads to progress in Vinyl City." slogan because, to her, order means complacency... and complacency has done shit all for anyone she knows. ("If chaos is what is needed to get things done around here, so be it!")
i know i'm kind of bouncing back to the second paragraph but. like. there's just something so dear to me about the idea of a Mayday whose a roving city girl from off the streets... armed with her guitar, her passion, and her support system, doing everything she can to prevent rock—her home—from becoming irrelevant. always chasing a fantasy about being something bigger than herself. even if the odds are stacked against her. even if Mayday's own impetuosity is a double-edged sword that impedes her just as much as it enables her.
to me she's. like. a melting pot of ambition and stubbornness and righteousness and naievite. Mayday girl i love you SOOOOOO SOOOOOOOOO MUCH ideally i would put this all into a legitimate form of writing like a backstory fic or something but gah i don't even know where to START
#no straight roads#'you into mayday?' Don't even joke lad.#even what i typed here isn't the full extent of it duuude#and this isn't even HALF of everything#i have yet to discuss my many haphazard thoughts concerning her family.#and my thoughts regarding how growing up in her circumstances has affected her for the better and for the worse#and my thoughts regarding how the theory of nsr taking place in 2006 is so PERFECT#and my thoughts regarding her relationship with kul fyra#and my thoughts regarding h#YOU GET MY POINT#DONT EVEN JOKE LAD#nsr mayday#nettsy rambling#i hope my interpretation of her makes sense#kind of thankful mayday is canonically a blank slate#other than her grandmama & the implications that she grew up in vinyl city#cuz it allows us to literally do whatever
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i'm gonna be honest i believe that jin ling's postcanon opinion of jiang cheng eventually shifts to "you're my family, you raised me and i love you, but you're exhausting to deal with"
#keri chats#jin ling#jin rulan#mo dao zu shi#like... JL isn't at all the type of person who'd go no contact estranging himself from JC but i do think he'll take after jiang yanli#in appreciating wwx as a family member. prob not to the extent of considering him a blood relative like his mom did but still#the more he learns abt wwx & realizes he was clearly Not Told The Full Truth and the more he sees his uncle's own culpability#(which JL already shows understanding of in the novel) the more he matures. and in the same vein he realizes many adults he knows are#childish and spoiled in their privilege; not only from their prolonged bitterness over the past but from the way they only ever consider#their own feelings. that too in the lens of transactional gains and losses; debts and repayments; me me me maybe my clan and nobody else#wwx himself gets so distressed dealing with jc he bled from the 7 apertures & qi deviated at lotus pier the night before guanyin temple#wwx thinks jiang cheng is exhausting to deal with! and while jin ling will absolutely never be in wwx's position#i think postcanon (especially if jiang cheng doesn't truly change in spite of everything) he'd come to understand that exhaustion.#mdzs#danmei
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Spoilers for Sinsmas/Sinsmas ramble
So I had Sinsmas paused on my browser to do life stuff as usual, I Will Be Okay was in my head, and I walked back to my computer after life stuff and realized the frame I had it paused on was
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Do you see what I'm seeing
Their positions aren't just similar, they're reversed. In "I Will Be Okay", Via is on the floor and Stolas's shadow is standing up, looking down on her and reaching a hand to her from above, which she swats away. At the end of Sinsmas, Stolas is kneeling on the floor, with Via looking down at him from above, and her hand resting on Stolas's, which she pulls away from.
AND THE PARALLELS AND REVERSALS DON'T END THERE
From what I could see, it seems like there's only one instance where the parallel doesn't totally apply.
This.
Merry Sinsmas, Helluva Boss fandom :D
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#helluva boss#sinsmas#hb spoilers#rambles#ramble#hi fandom this is my first time in these parts please be nice haha ^^'#i love parallels guys#hb storyboard artists you MASTERMINDS /aff#as someone who at most just looks at the analysis videos and has absorbed the goings-on through internet osmosis#the emotions still hit very hard for this episode#which is also the first one i watched in full as opposed to just going to certain clips to see what the fandom is frothing in the mouth ove#hot take: via has the right to be mad at stolas. but stolas also deserves to (and SHOULD) have a moment to explain to her everything#now stolas in mastermind put himself on the chopping block after confessing which is the most blatant “yes i am ditching my life for an imp#and is very much breaking the promise he made to her in loo loo land the instant it was tested#so yes via has every right to be mad in this regard#but#she's also very deliberately being kept out of the loop with everything going on with her family and it's biting her in the ass#she probably knows her parents hate each other but does she know that stella hires hitmen to kill stolas like on every day ending in y?#does she know that the reason they got together in the first place was just because they needed a precautionary goetia heir?#does she know that their wedding anniversaries are “not divorced” anniversaries in every sense of the word?#does she know that stella never plans on having her fulfill her purpose as a goetia#because she and andre want stolas's power like flies want shit and are going to hog that power for all it's worth?#probably not#stella wouldn't bother telling her about it because she doesn't really care for her much (just the perks of having her on her side)#(i mean c'mon “the egg that came out of me” and “his daughter”?)#and stolas didn't want to tell her the full extent of what he had to go through because he wanted via to have a normal childhood#meaning he wanted to fill the role of the ordinary loving father with no issues and no happy pill abduction whatsoever hahahahaaawhosaidtha#so he didn't want to worry her with his issues when she is still growing and that shit is too much for a little child to process#but with via's eighteenth birthday coming soon and stella and andre being even less subtle about their.... their EVERYTHING#maybe via will begin to get a peek into everything underneath the surface and maybe understand a bit of what stolas had to deal with
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just a reminder to the people that there's no way haymitch wasn't majorly affected by the injury he sustained in the arena at the hand of the d1 girlies’ axe. i did mention before that it hinders with his eating habits as obviously. abdominal and digestive trauma but i'd like to assume that he did have a stoma bag when recovering from said injury. shrug shrug. intestines = major major digestive organ. the capitol probably didn't have the same high tech as they did come the 74th, and so the healing was possibly way more grueling/longer. all this to say yes i believe he has a large scar from the initial injury. yes i also believe that he's got a stoma scar in the hypothetical idea of him needing one in the first place.
↑ girl who is not a medical professional nor has had a stoma bag before. i'm just considering the fact that he definitely had to deal with a lot of rebounds and this could be one of the resulting factors! i'm literally a teen who likes to look up medical conditions/treatments as part of my special interest. this might not be totally spot on but i wanted to apply my small parts of knowledge.
#cause why is it so common to believe that the full body polish just absolutely iradicates an injury#scar or no scar he'd still have to deal with internal consequences#i personally. have issues with the existence of the full body polish#reads as somewhat ableist/rids people of any disabilities/bodily imperfections#winnie's headcanons#haymitch abernathy#the hunger games#thg#the hunger games trilogy#inspired by my mutual bringing up fandom & book ableism#love these convos anyhow but i've had this in my mind for ages#also maintaining that it was a VERY close call in his case#like a vital organ/organs were outside of his body for a certain period of time. the possible infections the extent!!!!!!!#i also connect that in my hc BECAUSE haymitch was healing for so long (2+ weeks in the hospital)#it gave snow more time to figure out how to kill his family while haymitch wasn't. actively in 12/in the picture#unrelated anywho.
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So in my universe Silas and the vault 76 overseer are cousins (who have more of a sibling bond cause they grew up together.) Anyway when she finds out about the whole MODUS thing, she's absolutely all 'Hey, what the fuck?' and Silas is like 'You can't judge me, you have Davenport.' 'Davenport is different, he's vault tec suppli--' 'Vault tec supplied you a beau? That's kind of embarrassing, May.' (She calls Silas an impossible moron and proceeds to ignore him for a week, but then comes back with 'Actually my initial point still stands and by that I mean what the fuck, Silas??')
#She and MO' never interact b/c she decides that actually she doesn't want to know the full extent#'I'd like to keep the last of my sanity for the important matters -- just don't blow us all up alright?'#(That and the fact that MO' would in no way be interested in family matters like that anyway)#Lozz blah blah#Silas blah blah
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Something kind of funny I never anticipated about crocheting with longer hair was pulling out a piece of my own hair out of my project that I somehow crocheted into it
#art#fiber art#crochet#most likely that strand fell out mid-stitch and i just... crocheted it in#love in every stitch? no. HAIR in every stitch#also i'm watching a video about knitting (war-time knitting specifically) and it's sparking memories#i forgot the sheer effort that was getting women to knit for soldiers (understandably because i wasn't alive during those wars but still)#molly was my favourite american girl book and i think that's where i first learned about that as a kid????#but those books weren't mine they were just family books and i LOVED reading fiction back then#and i really liked the historical aspect to those books in the sense that they were about girls in specific historical periods#and they incorporated actual history in it - to the full extent i'm not sure because i haven't read them in close to ten years (idk)#and it's interesting to see just how many people - not even just women! - knit for soldiers#i'm learning now from this video the sheer number of other people who started in knitting#anyway this is why i'm begging men to also do fiber arts (watching a reel of a guy crochet a blanket and HELL YEAH BROTHER)
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Watching Stampede with my family made me realize how genuinely insane I have turned thanks to it
Like wow the actual physical EFFORT it took me to not randomly start explaining the composition of a scene, the color choice, the framing, the voice directing and the choreographies of certain scenes, as well as some of the lore behind it I should not explain because spoilers.
No, sorry. I lied on my résumé . I can’t like anything a normal amount. I’ve liked this for less than 4 months and I’m very deep into the trenches. And it will unfortunately become everyone else’s problem as well, because this one will stick around for a long time.
#being a lil mentally ill again guys#that’s right. finally managed to make the third rewatch with my binge watcher family in one night#I call it having fun at the expense of my mental integrity#to be fair Trigun is *gestures the air* right there for me to delve into deep analysis for no real reason#other than I’m obsessed with media that explores morally and ethically challenging topics#and the cool ass designs and badass weapons and super great characters#and I mean Trigun is just made to be loved tbh head full or head empty is so enjoyable either way and I think that’s a great charm it has#though at one point itll force you to THINK and I LOVE THAT#I want to scream with someone about Trigun and I do with my friends but it’s not the same when they haven’t watched it yet#and since I’m that.one.friend that looks to much into it because HAHA STORY CREATOR BUT#yeah. I want to talk about Trigun so bad…it’s…it’s a little embarrassing. but I obviously don’t fucking care the enough#because if I did that one person I didn’t know wouldn’t have said the ‘ah the Trigun girl’#somehow I became a synonymous to it. and I couldn’t be prouder.#trigun#trigun stampede#vash the stampede#lenssi rambles#trigun maximum#in my defense. I have adhd. which doesn’t really make up for much but at least it explains some extent of it
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Trying to truly shed the toxic parts of myself before i move to nyc. Did a real good job last night that felt like it broke some kinda generational curse. Now comes sober February to really seal the deal :)
#diary#young adult#girl life#nyc#pa#girl#moving#girl talk#feel so much better#trying to take accountability#unfortunately#i am selfish at my core#but just because i want to be famous so i can actually do my craft to it’s full extent#and that’s ultimately so me and my friends and family can live lavishly making cool as projects and business forever !
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Wine stains on porcelain
(Alternatively: @katkastrofa and I have created 5 OCs in 3 days and I suffer from chronic “I wanna draw the little guysssssss” disease)
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original characters#I have not figured out a tag system yet so for now this is all they’re getting#their names are liba and abyan and I’m very much obsessed :)#they’re the children of two of our other newest OCs. Himman and Summiya#the latter of whom just happens to be Zaheer’s older sister#but he ran away from home years before these two were born so he most likely isn’t even aware of their existence#I mean. I’m sure he suspects his sisters had children. but that’s the extent of what he knows#anyway#quite a few headcanons came to mind as I was drawing so I’m gonna type them out while I can still function#(haven’t slept for two nights in a row. I’m starting to doubt whether I’m actually alive or not)#Liba is older by about a year but once they grow up a little it’s barely noticeable and people assume they’re twins#over time they stop bothering to correct them because really. they’re so close they might as well be#they were both burn with port wine stain birthmarks on their faces. much to their mother’s dismay#she has a whole perfectionism complex and needed her children to reflect that to maintain the family image#thus they were taught how to hide the marks early on. but the powder makes them constantly sneeze#liba is very self conscious about it bc of what her mother put in her head. Abyan less so bc while he’s expected to be perfect#his future doesn’t depend on his looks. he always tries to comfort his sister whenever she spirals too deep. no matter that she’s older#when no one is around to hear he calls her Lili <3 it annoyed her at first so she dubbed him Yanyan in retaliation#but over time they both grew to love the nicknames and now use them unironically#they’re the ultimate partners in crime. their goal? gaining as much freedom from their mother as possible#and sooner or later they will manage to do so permanently. which will make Summiya fall apart. but that is currently Kat’s domain#speaking of. hi Kat. I know you’ve already seen this in pencil but look! I coloured them!!#the birthmarks were both kinda annoying and rather fun to do. maybe I’ll change them later. I was too tired to look at refs so I improvised#and there’s no detail in clothing since again. 0 energy whatsoever. but once I refine their full body designs I shall go all out#that reminds me I need to go collect my new sketchbook. might do it on the way home from the store#okay I’m getting distracted. is this my very unsubtle way of trying to influence Kat to write that Summiya fic?#maybe. maybe not. you can’t prove anything 😁
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tfw u finally go to make urself a dinner plate and some nasty ass man walks into the kitchen, picks up the entire serving bowl of creamed corn and puts his filthy mouth on the bowl like it’s a giant cup and tilts it straight in. multiple times. 🙃
#could you not wait long enough to get a fucking spoon and your own bowl like a civilized human respectful of other people#Seven’s Public Diary#vent#vent post#food mention#yeah no it’s cool it’s fine it’s not like i wanted to eat some too or anything#it’s not like that’s one of the only vegan dishes here that i can therefore eat haha no it’s fine#i guess a normal person wouldn’t let it bother them but my OCD is having none of it. that corn is Tainted with your Mouth Germs now#oh what you want one of the last rolls that i was gonna eat? yeah no that’s cool man that’s fine eat as much as you want! :)#i hate the holidays more and more every year. nothing but stress and for what. i don’t even like these people#but whatever i guess i shouldn’t bitch about it when i choose to remain here#as if everyone with a shitty family has the power and ability to just Leave. i don’t think you realize the extent of my disability#but fucking whatever#someone put dirty plates in the cabinet with the clean ones#someone put the turkey in with a sink full of dishes#someone put the mashed potatoes in the bread box#i’m not even exaggerating#ahhh the joys of being the only sober person here. man what the actual hell. what level of intoxication must one reach to do this shit#whatever it’s fine i just have to learn to stop giving a fuck. let them be stupid and live with the consequences.#it’s late and i’m getting a stress headache. time to go brave the kitchen once more and actually get food this time#then i can be miserable in bed. but with food :) and eat myself sick as a shitty form of self-soothing#but it’s fine today bc it’s literally Eat Too Much day in the US so for once it’s kinda normal#then be too tired and depressed to make myself brush my teeth. and therefore contribute to my dental issues. two birds and all that#am i even making sense anymore. im so tired. of being a person. and like. existing#but im grateful to have food and running water and electricity and a place to sleep and everything else i take for granted#so i should just focus on that and try to ignore all the bad#ough i feel sick. okay Food Time fr this time. let’s hope no one’s in the kitchen now
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I wish we had gotten to see a scenario where gwen thought ben was dead in OS era like how ben thought gwen was dead in SOTO so bad. I know about doom dimension (which I'm still obsessed with) but that's in UAF era, I'm talking OS when they're just then starting to bond and get along and realize they really care about eachother
#ben thinking his selfishness killed gwen in soto burned down my house and killed my family#but id love to see a scenario where 10yo gwen goes through that too#every other scenario like it weve seen was either off screen when ben got kidnapped in bens perfect day#or in DAA when all they knew was that he was missing and fell from orbit to earth and stuck as an alien#but in that scenario she was barely worried about him just once again working to fix it and scoffing knowing hes messing up somehow#im talking like full on believe he died and have to experience grief for a little while like ben did in soto#itd be so interesting bc gwen never got to see the extent of how ben reacted towards her death#just the aftermath where he hugs her in a moment of vulnerability#in gwens scenario ben could get to see the full extent of her reaction#pandas.txt#pandas talks#ben#gwen
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Watching The Borgias from the beggining and lol its episode 2 and Cesare's already murdered like... 4 people? All indirectly through Micheletto's hands so far but like... even Rodrigo is like "murder is a step too far, u won't do it right Cesare?" at this point, and then Cesare's like "I will, actually. Thank you tho :)"
#like oml i didn't remember he was this dark from the beggining#but my boy was actually ready to murder from the get go#not even rodrigo knows the full extent of what he's up to#cesare rlly was the one keeping the borgia family on top (of bodies) all along#the borgias
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jesus my mom said "hey if you're into murder mysteries, jk rowling has some really good ones" and i said "no i don't read her anymore" and she said "oh yeah because of the stuff she's said?" no it's not just because of vague transphobia. mom she has actively donated to anti-trans lawmakers and wants people like me gone mom please
#whiskey yelling into the void#my entire family is still potterheads and i can't tell them to stop without seeming like an asshole#bc They Don't Know the full extent of it and i can't explain it to them because even i don't know the full extent of what she's done either#agh
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little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3
#while yes yes this post technically does apply to the simp bros i wanna cry about my own bro in the tags so you have been warned~?#so to start off my monthly existential crisis rant i just wanna say that… i’m so so soo envious of my bro. like to a really unhealthy extent#he’s tall enough to reach the top shelves. i can barely touch them if i jump. he has so many friends and even a gf. i have 0 irl friends.#he is able to sit in one spot and focus on his studies. i can’t even sit down for a full half hour to *eat* without getting up to take a nap#he’s learning how to drive. i can’t. he was admitted into university. i wasn’t. he’s able to find what he likes and stick to it. i can’t.#like mannn. he thrived in the course he chose in tertiary education while i lost my passion for it in the middle of my first year.#he’s good at picking up everything he tries (puzzle cubes; bball; you name it he’s good at it) while i’m just. bad at everything i try lol#he’s very good at his studies (aside from languages) and sports. i’m not good at anything at all.#he gets told that he has a great sense of humour. i’m just. boring and annoying. lolllll#he’s super sociable and he has good relations with pretty much every single family member (sans me). i’m not in contsct with most of the fam#heck he was pretty much the favourite from the moment he was born. his baby pics still get brought up from time to time bc of how cute he is#(granted it’s bc he looks like a bby m*ch*l*n man (like the tire company mascot) and he’s super cute in them but still)#and he’s also a guy and content with being a guy which is just… not fair y’knowwww~~~ asian family boy biases and all (cries)#our father pretty much cast me aside once my bro was old enough to hang with him. and even before then the bias was as clear as day. >:(((((#i make the dude mad? i get screamed at and whaccced. bro gets the dude mad? he gets a lesson on how to throw punches instead!!! like wow!!!!#he’s the only one who got to escape any direct physical harm from the guy and yet!!!! he was the 1st one to be singled out for trauma focus#idk if it’s bc of his age back then or whattttt but i can’t believe i had to friggin’ ask my therapist back then for a trauma assessment :(#2015 was a different time… my bro managed to succeed in school while i was rejected from the drama club for being too depressed :((((#but i’m sure my bro has his own share of struggles… and i’m glad that he has a few groups of friends to chill with. really.#but i just can’t help feeling extremely envious of him. i could never tell him any of this though we hardly talk at home lol#and he pretends not to know me when i approach him in public lmfaoooo. i don’t blame him though; i’d do the same if i were to approach me#so yeah. if you read this i’m sorry for being cringefail and bad at everything~~ am i still allowed to pollute your dash~? <3#and also. idk if i’ll be able to continue sischange over this week bc i’ll be handling 2 workstations by meself :( and idk how tired i’ll be#but we’ll see ok~? sorry for having zero time management skills am i still qualified to be a legit adult~?#sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂
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