#and post their literal shit takes in there. literally started blocking every single person who liked that post

[melia-an2fa]

Christ on a cracker, no one seems to be able to act normal about this SaveAFox shit. I remember even back a couple years ago, I'd heard some criticisms of how she handled things, simply agreed "Yeah that sounds a bit concerning, I won't be watching her stuff," and then moved on, maybe on occasion gave friends a heads up if they posted her stuff, but otherwise, just... moving on.

I remember getting agitated when what started as very mild criticisms started to evolve into post after post into dedicated tag for her into Google Doc Callout Post™ and just feeling deeply annoyed by this being a constant cycle, and unfollowed some folks because of it. People who remember my old blog probably remember my post talking about people on Animalblr (? is that the word) I found annoying, this was part of why.

And in a way, it's a bit... cathartic? That may not be the right word for it. The irony of it all, is that the people who were most vocal about this, I could say the same thing for them that I would've said about Mikayla, which is that they were well-intended (caring about animal welfare and having real concerns) but still irresponsible (documenting literally every thing the woman did in dedicated tags; this was bound to attract bad faith actors and concern trolls!)

I honestly hadn't thought about Mikayla for a long time until this happened today, because, again, my response was simply "Well I won't watch those videos" then moving on. I didn't keep a dedicated tag to documenting everything she did. Hearing the news was honestly devastating, because I don't care what a person did, they don't deserve to die. I never even thought of Mikayla as a bad person, just well-intended but irresponsible, even if she were a "bad person" I wouldn't think she deserved to die.

So, fuck you if you sincerely consider this a "win," if you have no regrets about anything you did. I personally now have regrets trusting the word of some of these individuals, seeing as it has now escalated to this point. And sure, Ethan said it was because of people she knew and other sanctuaries, but let's not pretend rumors don't spread. I remember when I saw the doc in particular, I was disgusted that her having an OnlyFans even came up, it just ruined the credibility of the entire doc, no matter what legitimate concerns you may have had about Mikayla's animal welfare, because her having an OF... has nothing to do with her welfare! But that being information other sanctuaries could've found out about could've still ruined her credibility with them regardless, since, y'know, people fucking hate women who have a sexuality?

I will also say, I do think some of her defenders are going way too far, and I do not approve of this. I think it's kinda ridiculous to accuse every single person who's ever mildly criticized her, especially if it was years ago, and/or came from a person who's been inactive on Tumblr for half a year, of being "murderers." I've seen people hurling slurs (mostly the R-slur), being transphobic (because Owlvid in particular is trans), making threats about doxxing people and/or raping them and their family members... what the hell is wrong with you? There is no childish "But they did it first-" here, you are engaging in the exact kind of behavior that lead to Mikayla's death, and that's disgusting, what we're learning from this shouldn't be "Let's keep up this cycle of vengeance!" or "Let's document everything someone we don't like does!" No, do not entertain the idea of the "callout post." That's how we get here in the first place. Block. Move on. Curate. That's what the people who didn't like her content should've done, too.

May Mikayla rest in peace, my heart goes out to her family, I hope Ethan can get the funds that he needs in order to take care of his daughter, and I hope the animals can, at least, be rehomed to other sanctuaries, should Ethan not receive proper funding.

There's been a lot of recent events making me rethink how quickly I and others jump the gun when it comes to animal welfare concerns, and this is one of them.

[kisakis-boyfriend]

I lowkey feel like a weirdo just reading and interacting with your posts without actually sending anything in the ask box LMAO

So here I am, to rant about pretty (not so) little twinks to my favorite writer

Everyone headcannons Hanma to be sadistic, and while I can definitely see that based on the way he acts and fights, I personally headcannon him to be a hardcore masochist who just tries to hide it by saying he's a sadist. Like this man doesn't dodge powerful punches and kicks from Mikey or Draken, no, no, he blocks them with his own body instead. His whole thing is always getting back up after tanking heavy hits like a monster. But he also very regularly eggs people on. He taunts and maims people to get them to fight him. He does this, every. Single. Fight.

So how does this translate into the bedroom? Well of course, his lanky ass wants nothing more than to get on your nerves. He wants to see how far he can push you, if he can make you genuinely mad. He wants to be the biggest little shit he possibly can until you have no choice but to punish him for it. And this boy can take a lot. Spanking? No problem. Choking? Yes please. Cbt? Why the hell not? Putting him into a borderline painful full nelson while relentless pounding into his prostate at mach jesus? He'd love every second, even if it renders him damn near bedridden for the next three days. Hell, we've seen how Hanma fights, you could probably beat the shit out of him or try to kill him and he'd pop a stiffy.

I feel like he might have a humiliation kink too. Like- shame this man for being so kinky and mock him for being pathetic. You could call him your little bitch and spit in his mouth and he'd just grin in response. And he's not really the type to break easily either. Even as you have him clutching the sheets, trembling, tears rolling down his cheeks, barely even able to stay conscious, he'd still talk shit and try to aggravate you. That carries into every day couple life too, just in a more minor way. He likes to play pranks on you, poke and prod you both literally and metaphorically. He's also almost definitely smart, I mean- Kisaki hates dumb people, and he hangs out with Hanma. That just means that Hanma will start the dumbest, prettiest arguments, and win purely by technicality. He's a total smartass. Of course, Hanma wouldn't say or do anything to actually hurt you, he's just be annoying and a nusience on purpose because he finds it entertaining to piss people off. It's alright, there's an easy fix. Just fuck hin so dumb he can't talk, so hard that he just passed out in your arms straight after.

Moral of the story, Hanma is a freaky little masochist, and the world's most annoying little asshole (affectionate)

~Neon

(Ajdksj no need to worry! I accept lurkers of all sorts — including lurkers who don't interact at all, and instead silently read my works <3

I do appreciate things like this too though, thank you! I love hearing y'all's thoughts and ideas!)

—

THIS is canon, as far as I'm concerned. He's such a painslut, it's not even funny. I definitely agree that Shuji will do his best to annoy you, that's just his favorite past time :P

I recently learned that getting punched in the gut (or just, in general) is a kink/fetish, so I think we can safely assume that Shuji would be into that too. I know that wrestling is also a sexual thing for some people. Just tossing that out there. Pin that tall boy in a painful position and hammer your cock into him, he'll love it!

Forget play fighting, he's the kind of guy who'd want to actually fight you until he's spitting up blood. Rasping a snarky remark even as his knuckles are busted, and his ribs ache from your heavy hits. Just normal couple things~

I also just thought about a "softer" moment: Cuddling with Shuji and pressing on the bruises you left on him. He winces as your thumb presses down on the large purple area on his arm, your other hand combing through his hair. This kind of pain is the kind that makes his whole body tremble, and he easily becomes addicted to it <3

[nosferatuix]

I would actually be interested in you talking more about Geto and Atsushi Sakurai!

FINALLLYYYY i thought nobody was going to ask me about this, thank you so much. buckle up for the incoming yap sesh

(edit: i posted the draft accidentally but it should be okay now that it's complete! sorry i'm sleep deprived idk what i'm doing)

so, picture this. eleven year old geto suguru, who has had enough of being tormented by oily black mass dripping down street lamps that talks to him whenever he has to walk home from school by himself. everywhere he goes, those things are also there. he sees them clinging onto the backs of the people he's known all his life as neighbors and family friends in the small town he lives in with his parents. he watches them suck the life out of people like leeches that hang off of their bodies. he hears them speak in these distorted voices, always repeating the same couple of phrases that they do but somehow always know suguru is the person they should be talking to, almost like they know no one else but him can see them. his parents have already told him countless times that there was nothing under his bed, in the closet or hanging from the ceiling, that the disappearances that have been happening lately have nothing to do with the monsters he claims to see and that he would need to see the doctor again if this talk about these creatures continues. it's a dark time for him because nobody seems to get it and if he gets fed another round of antipsychotics that don't even make them disappear like the doctor seems to have convinced his parents it would, he's going to lose his shit. he has to do something about the thing under his bed and it, like all the other ones, literally tells him what he has to do if he wants to get rid of it – so he does what the things tell him to do and eats it.

the talk about the things under his bed, in the backyard, dripping down the street lamps, hanging down from the ceiling, ends as abruptly as it started. he's always been a child that kept to himself, but he's completely quiet now. and it worries her. his mother, who had only been chalking this monsters talk up to her baby boy's imaginative mind before he started to attend school. his mother, who only realized the direness of the situation after suguru started bawling his eyes out every single evening he came home running, out of breath as if he'd been chased after, as he begged her to believe him when he said that those things are real and they want him to eat them. his mother, who finally convinced her husband that she was fearing for his health and that this wasn't just about a highly imaginative mind, and who did everything she could to ease her child's pain even if it meant taking the train with him to regular doctor appointments in the city just to get him that medicine.

and now, after months of the medicine not working even one bit, like a switch being flipped off, the talk ends and suguru stops talking. the same boy who had the biggest appetite out of all of her friends' kids, whose energy ran so high that they had to let him attend martial arts classes with the older kids down the block, suddenly starts wanting to excuse himself from the dinner table after two bites and goes straight to bed, wrapped up in blankets despite the summer heat. and she's worried sick because she knows she doesn't get him and they're drifting apart and she doesn't know how to make him feel better.

so she tries to introduce him so some stuff she thinks they could bond over. some stuff she used to like, still does, that she thinks could resonate with him as well. so she brings some of her old stuff out. her favorite band and her favorite musician. vhs tapes of their music videos, interviews, all the stuff she had collected in the 90s.

she puts it on and watches her boy's eyes light up like the sky again. she watches him admire the makeup and the long hair and the velvety voice and the perfect balance between femininity and masculinity from the prickling tv screen. she watches him grow a pale pink flush on his cheeks, watches him rewatching the tapes over and over again as he memorizes the interviews and the lyrics to the songs. and just like that, they have something in common again. appreciation for the art. something that seems to bring them together as much as it brings suguru a distraction from whatever he's been battling with inside himself.

is this a queer analogy? sure. suguru's entire character screams queer analogy in all-uppercase letters. atsushi sakurai was known to be advocating for lgbt topics back in the 90s. he's talked openly about loving whoever he wants to love. he's someone who i can see a preteen suguru idolize and want to be like. from the androgenous vkei style choice down to the soft-spoken nature and the beautiful long black hair, i just think he was someone suguru based some aspects of himself off of.

the short answer is 11 year old suguru experiencing what is called a gay awakening the moment he sets his sights on a pretty guy wearing makeup and deciding "I Am Going To Become Him"

bonus: he's a big fan of the band. during their first year, when shoko first made fun of him for obviously trying his hardest to look like sakurai, he was actually very flattered and took that as a compliment even though shoko was calling him a wannabe, basically. they introduced satoru to the music itself since he didn't know much and he liked it enough to get three tickets for them for the december 2005 tokyo concert. cue the three kids in a trenchcoat scene in the pink lighter. i was thinking of including a scene of them telling riko the story of how they were invited backstage and that suguru almost had a heart attack when the band members talked to him. (suguru deserves nice things and i think having people from the real world interact with fictional characters is so fun.) and i was also thinking of writing down a one-shot after sakurai's death in the final universe from the pink lighter, something that would take place post-epilogue and would involve shoko finding out about his death from the news and immediately facetiming satoru to discuss how they were going to handle suguru's devastation when he eventually finds out about it as well. (suguru would be with yuki at this point so they would call her to tell her to never ever ever let him watch the news if she wants to get any work done in the next week or so lol)

[purpledemonlillyposting]

Can't blame anyone for making alts or being on anon. I've sent a few asks your way but there's no way I'm ever showing up in the notes for any posts around this mess. I want to attend the circus, but I don't want any of the clowns following me home. And Sai has kind of made an environment where she encourages her clowns to do just that. (and they also conspire that every single detractor is the same 3 people in a trench coat when it's in all likelihood just... random bystanders throwing their hats in)

I'm willing to bet there's quite a few people hovering around and not interacting on all sides, since there's just. So many people showing up in everyone's inboxes to fling shit. I'm tempted to say people are encouraging that behavior. Really can't blame anyone who sees that and doesn't want that themselves. And I imagine it's quite easy to get swept up in it too, mob mentality and all that.

It is a little funny whenever someone tries to pull a gatcha and say whatever blog owner is sending self asks/gets no notes/whatever because it feels like they just... Ran out of arguments? And if they try to bait out any particular anon, well. There's no reason for the anon to respond. To use my circus analogy again, if one of the clowns starts yelling for me to show myself but they don't know who I am I'm going to keep my mouth shut, they may as well be yelling at ghosts.

Anyways, away from that topic, I do appreciate that for things I send your way you tend to break character for them. I get that it's an easy way to strike nerves (and boy do people show off that it got to them in some way by responding. To anyone who types a "who cares" kind of thing in a comment section you just showed that you do. You cared enough to comment. Now everyone knows you got mad) But I almost wish you did the more thoughtful ones more instead of the in character ones since a lot of people probably blocked your account on grounds of it being a troll (heck, I almost did at first too when you first cropped up) But... Well I get the feeling most those people probably wouldn't have been swayed if you did, anyways.

I will say, for other anons, please provide a source for any claims you make! Evidence is very important, especially so people can see it for themselves and make their own opinions instead of taking word of mouth. Seeing where something came from is also important for keeping the story of what happened clear, and so people don't repeat any half remembered or bad faith and reworded accounts. Full context is also important, though for the other side, sometimes the full context is still not enough to excuse weirdo behavior.

100%. Stay out of the notes and reblogs and keep anon on, don't invite any unhinged crazies from any side over to you. That's the smart thing to do, is keep some personal distance from all the wacko clown show.

and she SURE DOES all you gotta do is breathe her name and her die-hard simps are breathing down your neck while you just get the fire-hose to spray at them down

lmao oh yeah they been tossing out like only two or three names about me and like fucking dumbasses there are more than that who find you all the most piss-shit annoying and stupid hypocritical fucks grow some originality 😂😂😂

it's 100% encouraged, beta-sigh herself has gone on record on stream AND in her simp discord encouraging the witch hunts. they're literally all desperate for drama and mobbing others

tbh whether im in character or not depends. and idrc that people blocked me first, they were never gonna listen to any sort of reason anyways. they're too lost in the sauce. and thats just the thing, aint no one here actually wants to change their mind. nothing anyone says on a shitty blog will actually make them read and self-reflect. sometimes all you can to is honk a horn directly into their clownish faces. 🤣🤣

I dont debate anyone here. there is no point. the pissbaby crying "debate me!" doesnt want a debate. they want a platform to whinge about what they want to believe is right.

so I say fuck 'em, OOGABOOGABOOGA YOUR MOM IS A DEBATE!!!1!!!11! 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

[knightfalling]

alright i’m gonna wax poetic on main for a minute. i need to talk about my wife, my life, the john to my lucy, the amazing writer otherwise known as odette aka @storytelers aka @nursc aka @peer---reviewed. 

we have known each other a long time. i am talking november 2016 a long time. it started with a hamilton quote. the fact that you’re alive is a miracle. i still remember it to this day. odette slid into my inbox and told me i was her favourite person because of my choice of quote. then i made her block me. multiple times. i caused her too much pain reminding her that katie was not in fact the girl that flew off on a plane in torchwood but owen’s former girlfriend who had died in very different circumstances. we’ve been through a lot. odette was the person who showed up in my life right when i needed her as i was entering the hardest year of my life. there has been plenty of shit posting, blocking, teasing, pain, but so much love. sometimes we haven’t talked for months on end but we have always come back to each other. different fandoms, different characters, we always come back.  then in january i decided to watch this silly little old show called er. i didn’t pick it up because of noah or the pitt like so many others have lately but because anthony edwards was in it lol. but that’s beside the point. the point is it then introduced me to the pitt. i then fell in love with mel and decided to bring back my barely started multi to write her. then someone (@revcric, you get the blame for bringing me back to tumblr and for this) posted a gif set of lucy and the idea was born. i wanted to write lucy knight. then came what has to be absolutely the magnum opus of anything i have written with odette ever. lucy and john. we’ve written many characters over the years, in the same fandoms and different, but lucy and john? the best god damn thing that has happened for me in a long time. they have taken over my mind and my senses and odette is one of the biggest reasons for it. if you ever have a thread with me and lucy mentions john? i absolutely mean odette’s john. her version of john is so ingrained in my lucy that it’s impossible to separate the two. the most ridiculous part of it all though? neither of us knew we were simping for lucy and john at the exact same time. i didn’t even know that she even wrote john when i decided to pick up lucy on a whim. our little shared brain cell was clearly working on the same wavelength that day. just to add to it her icon on discord was literally of lucy and john and i hadn’t even realised. one day i am going to get my hands on her for real. literally the world is against us by putting us half a world a hour. our timezones are literally 11.5 hours apart. she is most definitely (or should be sleeping) right now when i’m posting this because the world really hates us like that. it’s extremely rude and might i one day take my first international flight be to see her?? it’s a definite possibility (either that or hot girl euro summer). she is also the person i will willing fuck up my sleep cycle for every single time and i’ve already done it too many times just for her. i’ve completely lost track of what i even intended to say by this point and i’ll be absolutely shocked if anyone has even read this far. 

odette, thank you for always being there for me. thank you for every thread and message and letting me cause you angst and pain over and over again. there’s no one else who i love to traumatise more than you. thank you for being the person i’ve always needed right when i needed it. i’ll owe you til the end of my days and beyond. 

your wife, dana 

[nkn0va]

Ok I'm going to...attempt to start posting regularly again. The job grind is going to put some holes in that plan (very evidently) so let's cross our fingers.

While we're at it, I'm staking my claim on a particular issue that's been happening to me more and more throughout the past month. I'll probably add this to my pinned post to later.

THESE FUCKING ACCOUNTS OF GAZANS TRYING TO LINK ME TO THEIR FUCKING FUNDRAISERS

I HAVE BEEN GETTING AT LEAST 2 MESSAGES FROM THESE ACCOUNTS FOR THE LAST MONTH NOW EVERY SINGLE DAY AND IT IS DRIVING ME WILD

You know the kind. If you have any semblance of a following on Tumblr, you know exactly what I'm talking about. People supposedly displaced by the Israeli-Palestinian conflict asking for help/money via gofundmes and mass tagging literal thousands of people.

I will start blocking these accounts from now on if they show up in my inbox, my comments, or god forbid they start trying to slide into my DMs. My patience is great, but it is not infinite. It has just about run it's course by now.

It's not that I'm a heartless monster who doesn't care about the suffering of innocents, however if I wanted to talk about/bring attention to real life issues, I would make a blog for that. That is not the aim of my blog here and that's not what people follow me for. Politics on Tumblr is a literal stain upon this Earth, even for the liberal-leaning majority on this site. As expected of terminally online people who do not go outside on all sides of the political spectrum. Of course, this is assuming that these accounts are even legit to begin with which I have a hard time believing, but that could be just me. I really do not care if the account is vetted.

So here's my message: if you're an actual Gazan looking for help, I feel for your plight but do not show up asking for donations or promotions, you come off as incredibly tone deaf to what other people's blogs are for. That might be seen as pretty harsh to say but that's my own personal take on the issue.

If you're a scammer taking advantage of a real world conflict where real lives are being lost to play on people's emotions for money, go fuck off and die, you morally bankrupt, low-life little shit stains.

[hiddenwashington]

** the yearly disclaimer that everything is fine this is just going to be so long because maig is a sap over hidden !!! **

hi friends !!!!! just ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! cause like literally how am i here, seven years later, still being a damn sap over this place. i am genuinely in shock at how i am so fucking lucky to still be able to keep this place going for all of you, to have such a community to always turn to, and to share it with all of you so you have the same. i, once again, must spin the tale of how hidden came to be, which is in a spite fueled rage at 2 am where i vowed to make a group where people felt welcome no matter who they were, that they were valued and loved as dearly as they deserved to be, and when we hit the tags at 5 am that same morning, never once did i look at my group and think i would be sitting here seven years later, still enjoying and loving every single minute. i never thought that hidden would grow this big, to become bigger than me, than the team, than what we ever could have imagined hidden to be. it has grown into the home i always imagined, but never wanted to jinx, it is home, for so many of you, because of you!! i could never have made it here without all of you making this place your own, growing this community filled with love. it’s all because of you, guys. 

to our members ; those who have been here for a week, seven months, or all seven years, for those who have poured their hearts and souls out on the dash, bared everything out in the chats to grow together, those who have come and gone, the ones who take up characters because you just have such a deep love for them, or those who take up someone as a bit and end up playing them for years.. hidden is only here because of you, because you have given your effort to showing every person who has come and gone, or stayed, the love that i always hoped would be here. this community would not exist without the work you all have put in. the way you all have rallied together to help one another, the red carpet welcome you all make sure each new member gets, the chaos and the laughs.. i sincerely sit here and just stare sometimes, because damn how the fuck did i get so lucky to call this place mine? and we haven’t even touched on the talent and the plots that hit the dash, like holy shit??? i could probably go on for another whole post just about how much fun i have reading all the threads on the dash, how much i love seeing everyone’s skills with edits or whatever ideas you all come up with!! i am seriously in shock that we got this lucky. the magic in hidden has and always will be you. the heart and soul of this place is the love that exists here, the friendship and community that has grown because of all of you. hidden is and always will be special because of you all. and i just love you all so much, i don’t know if i could ever say thank you enough to each person who has been here. you do not go unnoticed, no matter who you are. everything you do is appreciated. just know i am giving each and every one of you a little kiss on the forehead right now. just.. thank you. seriously, more than anything, thank you. 

but while i have everyone captive, i do have to give a shoutout to the team that makes this all possible. i know it’s their favorite time of the year, where i get to be proud mom and appreciate my admins for all that they do, day in and day out, all that is seen and unseen. these people are the only reason i have survived this long, i want them to know how grateful i am for all of them, and i only get to do it once a year or else i think they’d block me.

sunny; gotta start with my day one, always. you have been at my side for everything, when you sent your app a week into this place being open, i know you never expected us to be sitting here seven years later, experiencing so much of life together as a team. we have only gotten stronger because of all we have gone through. i don’t know where i would be without you on my team, but i know hidden wouldn’t be here without you. you have been my rock, my grounding presence, in everything. you are always the voice of reason i need when i am going off the rails and panicked, and i know that us finding each other wasn’t an accident. the universe knew we needed each other. there is no one else i would rather have as the holder of the braincell. i can never thank you enough, really and truly, for everything.

aria ; sincerely, i don’t think anything would get done on the main without your input. somehow, some way, you always find a solution to a problem. i swear, you are magic, when it comes to fc suggestions and complicated ethnicities, you somehow always come through. i know when you’re typing, we’re gonna be saved cause man, i don’t know how we ever function without you. on top of just being a powerhouse on the main, and being literally one of my most valued people, one of my dearest friends, you are sincerely one of the funniest people i have ever met, and when i see little guys, they always make me think of you. there is so much i could sit here and thank you for, but i hope you know when i say thank you in the chat, or that i love you, that it is meant with every ounce of sincerity i have. 

jodie ; the heart of the team for real, like truly just the most fiercely loving person i have ever met. when someone is in need of help, you are the first person there, even if your offer is chaotic, you are there to pick people up when they need it. thank you for always making me laugh, for always being at my side for some chaotic idea and cackling with me over it. you carry the team with knowing about fandoms some of us don’t even want to research, and i am forever grateful for that. and despite how much i hate the time difference, i do love that we have you for those times we cannot be around. thank you for always being there as the support and heart, i don’t know what i would do without you at my side to laugh with. 

and kasey ; saved my bluetooth twin bitch for last, because i know you hate being perceived and loved like this, but you gotta deal with it for one day :)) our braincell needs to be together to work, or not work.. depending on your view. thank you for being my platonic life partner, for being the person i know i can turn to when i gotta vent and then be told to chill the fuck out. you always know how to stop me from bugging out, no matter what the situation is. you always allow me to be unapologetically me, and i cannot thank you enough for that. i am so glad we get to be friends, to be each other together, and that i can always count on you to be there when i need you. thank you for always being ready to deal with whatever comes our way, for always being down for whatever insanity i wanna do, and for bringing in your own insanity. i am forever grateful for everything you have done for me and for hidden. 

alright, i am forcing myself to stfu, i promise. i just feel so beyond blessed, that hidden is so lucky to have these four supporting it, supporting me. i couldn’t do this without all of them, they have given so much for hidden and it does not go unnoticed. i love you guys so fucking much. and hidden, members past and present, anyone who just sees us in the tags : THANK YOU. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. seven fucking years guys, i am just !!!!!!!!!!!! i love you all so much. it has been the greatest joy and blessing in my life to call myself your head admin. thank you for making hidden your home. here’s to SEVEN FUCKING YEARS and all the ones after it! i cannot wait to see what this year brings for us!!!

all the love, always – admin maig ♥♥

[the-lonelybarricade]

Hi MB. How are you? Please I have a question.

How do you write without getting affected by the fandoms take on things and even canon. I really love elucien, and writing them gives me so much joy but sometimes writing them can feel strained because of the fandom, even after I block it out. I might see a post I don’t want to see mistakenly, and then it affects me when I am writing .

My mind will immediately go, oh but this will never happen because this person said this, so don’t write it. But I want toooo. With all the drama and antis for feysand or elucien or whoever how do you do it?? I try to tell myself it’s fiction so it doesn’t matter but it’s still hard.

Haha I have a feeling you wrote MB because of my ask box label 😅 sorry for tricking you!!

My advice is to curate your experience as much as possible. In my opinion the most crucial way of doing that is by blocking people who make posts that you don’t like seeing. And I’m serious, be brutal about it because your mental health comes first.

I’ve blocked loads of “antis” for ships/characters that I like, but I’ve blocked just as many, if not more, people who like the same things that I do but don’t engage in fandom in a way that I find fulfilling (starting drama, policing characterisation, shitting on other ships for no reason, etc.). They’re the people you’ll end up having the most crossover with and so it’s important to weed your own garden so that it’s only filled with content that will make YOU happy

I would also suggest only following blogs that create an environment you want to surround yourself in! And if you haven’t, try making use of tumblr’s tag filters as well. I personally have every single anti tag filtered for every acotar ship/character because I’m just here for a silly goofy time. I also use Xkit as a browser extension to literally hide posts from my dash if they include content I have filtered

It also helps if you can find a positive community of people to support you and cheer you on! So many fic writers in this fandom are lovely, lovely people who are super supportive of new writers, all you have to do is come say hi! My dms are always open if you want to chat 💕

[multifandumbmeg]

Personal vent post into the void but like

Bro, the past two years have been so hard. I seemingly (not quite but it's complicated) developed a series of chronic health issues out of nowhere and it's like my body just finally gave up. Granted, a lot of bad shit happened to me and I abused the fuck out of it growing up and in my early 20s because I was taught the only limits I had were mental weaknesses which could be simply overpowered with willpower, but even so.

Apart from developing crippling chronic pain (from a few bad migraines a year to daily to occasionally getting one or two days off here and there now that I'm heavily medicated), I'm a medical mystery, my fatigue is unbelievable (for someone who has suffered with debilitating chronic insomnia from childhood, it's different), and now my mom is having serious health issues as well, and she's the only person in my family I get along with.

Today I went out with one of my best friends, who had me sleep over at her house and bought me food because she knows I'm running out of cash and borderline suicidal again. We had an awesome time, but I slept in VERY late because we were up til a whopping 11pm, then we walkes a grand total of maybe 1 1/2 blocks downtown between a diner and a single shop. I came home and showered for the first time this week, probably longer than that, and I've been bedridden since then. Migraine aside, that's just the tiredness. On non-migraine days, I'm guarenteed to get one if I leave the house. Being outside is instant pain, and it's only going to get worse as the weather heats up.

I've been unemployed 5 months, coming off 8 months of working only twice a week. After years of not getting so much as a job interview (I worked temp jobs arranged by my mom, who works for a temp agency) I had to turn down the Peace Corps because by the time I was accepted, my health had deteriorated so much I knew I couldn't go. I had two degrees, including a masters from an elite university, know five languages, have copious experience in various fields and I can't get a job doing literally anything, even if I ignore my illness and pretend it'll be possible for me to attend. I feel like a complete loser. I worked my absolute ass off and have got absolute nothing to show for it. I finally got some interviews recently, which went really well, and I got rejected from both. The temp agency called to offer me a job and when I called them back they said actually the client cancelled it. I have a migraine as I write this and have to contemplate what medication I can take, because I may have a worse one later and I can't take too many in one week.

A few days ago, hitting an emotional low, I decided to finally pick up a huge project I started last year again because I was having a fair run of good days (read: some migraineless days, mostly mild pain days). I almost announced it on here. Then a new string came up. Every time I start to make progress on something or it seems like FINALLY things are looking up! I get ground into the dust and kicked again.

So all that to say, times fucking suck, that's why I've not been responsive or consistently around, and if anyone has any tips for chronic pain/chronic illness coping I need it. Because Lord, I was mentally ill before all this. ANYWAY just needed to vent and stop complaining to my poor two friends for once because they're also getting murdered by life.

[sapwine-and-starcharts]

2, 10, 12, 17, 19, and 28 for the ask game ^_^

So 2 and 10 were answered HERE but they weren’t actually like Outer Wilds fandom specific so I’ll re answer them <3

2 - Which of your fics is your pride and joy?

Out of all of my outer wilds fics i think that either Berry-Jam kisses (Time Buddies) or Sapwine and Starcharts (Startners before they were Startners :’}) have to be up there in terms of my favourite fics I’ve written.

I talked about BJK in the other post but SaS is a whole other story.

It wasn’t my FIRST outer wilds fic, that was Time to Go but it was the first time i thought about Chert and Mylo meaning something to eachother. It was the beginning of Startners, my blorbos, and hell!! I named my OW blog after it!!!!!! I don’t think its my best written fic by a long shot, i was still figuring out 2POV perspective and how to characterize both Chert and Mylo but I’ll be damned if it doesn’t live in my heart forever and ever.

10 - Is there a character or ship you'd love to write for, but haven't yet?

I mean probably Gosslate? I keep meaning to write for them but never getting around to it lmaoooo.

If not Gosslate then Cherro. Mostly because i already write for ChertMylo and now that I’ve officially included Gabbro in the startnership i really should write for the two of them huh??

(I actually have some drafts of something i was working on for them but its uh… lets just say its not suitable for this blog…)

12 - What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Written? Gravity Falls.

An INCREDIBLY old piece from back in HIGH SCHOOL about what if Stanley died in the portal explosion that brought back his brother. It’s VERY bad and i never ever posted it anywhere and i never will!

POSTED though? Stanley Parable.

Tethered-Together was the first ever fic i actually posted something for and got that sweet sweet taste of authorship. It’s definitely not my best work, the formatting is all over the place and i couldn’t figure out how to get from the last chapter i posted to the idea in my head for where i wanted to take the ending but people liked it! People really REALLY liked it!

Plus it inspired me to make You Can’t See Me Behind the Screen, a 432 centered fic that is, while again incredibly rough, one of my favourite works i did for TSP. Shout out to that one commentor who commented on nearly every chapter and the commentor who, when i came back to post a chapter after nearly a year of hiatus commented ‘HOLY SHIT YOUR BACK?????!!!!!’ Which skyrocketed my confidence to the moon. They’re probably one of the reasons i continued to write honestly.

17 - What is something you recently felt proud of in your writing?

I have a hard time picking out stuff I’m proud of. I’m incredibly critical of my work and i always think i can improve or find something wrong with it. But if i had to pick SOMETHING I’d have to go with the way i write romance. Usually i stuff a bunch of angst in there and call it a day but recently I’ve been writing some softer stuff. Like my Eskerfels fics and Berry Jam Kisses, people have praised me for the warmth and comfort they exude and i gotta agree with them on that one!!!

Outside of my writing tho, the idea that so many people can enjoy my writing and even say that I inspire them to create (You know who you are <3) is just??? Thats another thing i feel so baffled yet proud of. If i can inspire even one person to get outside their comfort zone and try to create their own art, i think I’ve done my job as an artist :}

19 - How do you get over writer's block?

I don’t LMAO. Literally, i don’t actively try to shake it. The writers block consumes me until i jolt up in the middle of the night with a single cool line i want to write down and then the writing juice starts to flow again. Hyperfixations do help a lot tho. If a character can worm their way into my brain enough they usually free me of what ever blocks I’m going through.

28 - What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

SO theres a few?

One is from YCSMBtS (the Stanley Parable fic i mentioned above) where lines of code literally tear 432 apart and unravel them like yarn until they merge into the game itself and becomes the Time Keeper.

The Horrors That Lie Beneath ft. Mylo discovering what’s under the surface of the Interloper, the very thing that was their main driving force. It’s not shown afterwards but they really struggle to come to terms with the fact that the thing they looked up to wiped out an entire race… Like they have an identity crisis about it and everything

Grieving for a World Lost to Time is a Final Campfire fic based around the 5 stages of grief. Each of the travellers gets their own stage of grief they help Mylo through or make Mylo feel, and then Hornfels was gonna be the secret 6th stage ‘Finding Meaning’. I never got around to actually WRITING more than the prologue but oughh i want to…

I could actually keep going, my favourite genre is angst and like SO many of my personal OCs i put through the wringer over and over. Literally if you put in ‘angst’ into the search bar for my works I’m pretty sure most of my fics will show up lmao.

Anyways!! TYSM for asking!!!! <3

[xb0rder-7inex]

I just want to address something because it's really irritating me and it's not personal it's just something I have a really low tolerance for right now.

Please do not send me asks that are essentially an invitation to vent to you. I won't talk to you about my situation and this isn't some kind of romanticized relationship. I'm 30 years old. I am a full adult and I am in an abusive relationship. It isn't like I can talk about it and everything is fine. There is a legal barrier here that we are literally going to trial for. This isn't a light problem it's a very private subject and the only reason I post about it is to keep myself accountable for which actions are my own and to pick up on patterns to make note of in the case that I start to feel like I'm being gaslit. It's more to cover my own ass than anything and it also helps me cope (like journalling) when he blocks me.

The harsh reality is that I don't know what lengths he will go to and while I don't believe him to be violent I truly have no idea what he would do to me and sometimes I am really scared of him. But he psychs me out mentally a lot and he is more emotionally and mentally abusive than he is physically abusive. It's all just here for documentation.

My life has literally fallen apart because of him. It is so fucking likely that none of you can relate to losing literally every single thing you had in your life. Your dog, your job, your home, your relationship, all of your friends, your family, your car, and practically a foot as well. When you're supposed to be the fucking victim. To be victim blamed by law enforcement when you're trying to go back because you know how much worse it gets when you try to move on. To be placed in a shelter surrounded by true drug addicts (I'm talking meth, crack, fentanyl, etc) having never gone near any of that shit in your life with all the staff telling you that you don't belong here and not knowing when you'll be able to get out of this unfamiliar territory. Having to rebuild literally your entire life from the ground up. Playing roulette with thousands of other people in the city let alone the province who are just trying to pick up their broken pieces too.

Absolutely nothing anyone says can make that better and I've made peace with where I am. I'm a grown ass woman dealing with some really serious shit that I can't just walk away from. It's an abuse cycle that leaves you walking on eggshells so frequently that it's so much easier to take it than it is to try and leave. There has to be a right time and there has to be a plan. It can take years.

I have a leg up for housing because I'm not an addict and I'm in a DV situation and I qualify for some extra benefits and my main goal right now is to manifest housing. I need to get out of the shelter. I need to get into a space that's my own. Something that is mine. A place that he can't take away from me.

That kind of shit takes time. It takes a lot of resources and it's a lot of waiting. Im in Canada so it may be a little different everywhere but I encourage you to look at statistics and maybe something will make sense to you about why you can't just leave a toxic relationship, and why it's triggering to victims to tell them they deserve better and to leave.

[sheprd]

aaand this is why i dont talk about my dog in public

^people will literally say this stuff unprompted the second they learn where my dog is from. its extremely alienating

i know most of my followers arent Dog People so this shit probably makes no sense but the internet dog community at large is so teeming with drama and gossip in particular about anyone who deliberately mix-breeds dogs and will reverse engineer any reason to hate anyone and everyone involved with as much

it drives me crazy. i briefly had plans to make a sideblog for dog stuff and posting about my dog but encountering this attitude multiple times when even so much as mentioning my support for this breeding program quickly changed my mind. ironically i had reconsidered recently and had started setting up a dog blog for myself the other day but this reminded me that i actually dont want to do that at all

ive already been blocked and shit talked by people just for expressing neutral-positive opinions about this program in replies. i just dont think its worth it 99% of the time.

but anyway yes i love my dog and so does every wolven owner i know. i literally dont know of any owner who doesnt sing praises about the dogs they have from this program. there arent even that many dogs, a few dozen in total. im sure they exist but theres kind of no reason for it since the breeder takes back dogs anyway. if these dogs arent right for you she will personally drive out and pick them up. none of them have any horrible health issues. none of them have died tragically. none of them have been involved in bite incidents to the best of my knowledge (obviously most owners wouldnt publicly disclose this) these are good dogs. the program speaks for itself if you dont fill your ears with unsubstantiated gossip you read on facebook first

if you have verifiable information about this breeder that paints them negatively then i would genuinely like to be made aware. i dont think theyre perfect, and i myself have approached her directly with criticism and scrutiny and asked her to answer for some of the rumors id heard. im not blindly supportive. but every single time i ask people to source any of their claims i just get blocked, no matter how polite or good faith or earnest i am about it. asking for proof is itself seen as "supporting an unethical breeder" and it drives me nuts

hopefully someday people shut up about it

[crow-in-gotham]

BLOG POST NO. 9 - RED HOOD IN MY APARTMENT, HOPE THIS DOESN’T KEEP HAPPENING

Are the Gotham vigilantes okay? Specifically Red Hood? And I don’t mean that in a physical way (although I do wonder how most of them are still alive despite the concerning amount of bodily harm they apparently go through) but in more of a mental way—

I know that the obvious answer is no (wearing spandex and hidden body armor and going around jumping on rooftops to fight villains isn’t exactly something a sane person would do, and plus there’s not a single actual sane person in Gotham anyway) but I still gotta ask.

Now, I live— like— basically in Crime Alley, right? Not really smack-dab in the middle of it (thank fuck) but on the outskirts (do I count that was a win?). So basically, I am still within what people say is Red Hood’s territory (which, you know— thank fuck again). Essentially, what this means is that I get to encounter the vigilantes every once in a while. Not like a whole lot (I don’t see them everyday— or, well, everynight I guess?) but definitely more times than I have ever encountered a hero back when I lived in the Pearl of the Orient Seas (Philippines. I’m talking about the Philippines—).

So, story time: I was walking home, as you do, after my shift at the Gotham City Public Library (for context to those reading this without it, I work there in my spare time). Mr. Gordon (he keeps telling me to call him Jim but my Filipino ancestors would incinerate me so no) was busy with a case so he couldn’t drive me home this time— which, you know, not to worry, it isn’t the first time this has happened anyway, so it’s cool.

So there I am, just going “lalala” to my humble abode. I had managed to get all the way to my block with no incidents. So the walk was going great.

Well, up until I was about 3 buildings away from my apartment and I suddenly got dragged into a dark alleyway by some nutjob wearing a ski mask. Honestly I thought that kind of get-up only appeared in movies or TV shows, but I digress. The dude pulled a gun on me and threatened to shoot if I didn’t give him all my money. So basically your average mugging experience, right?

So I did what any normal human being (read: insane) would do and gave him my wallet. I mean what else was I supposed to do, just beg for my life and cry? I’m way too self-deprecating for that shit, and also I stopped giving a fuck by the third time something like this happened.

Plus, if a mugger or deranged serial killer or one of the fucked up villains of Gotham don’t kill me first, then my degree will finish the job :) (I think I need therapy. But do I really? Nahh)

Any-fucking-way, unfortunately for ski-mask-mcgee over here, he decided to mug one of the types of people that he shouldn’t mug: a broke college student. Like bro, there’s literally nothing in my wallet other than a measly $3 and a lollipop. What the fuck did you expect?

So he takes my $3 (rude) then fucking points the gun at me again and threatens to shoot (that threat’s getting old) if I don’t hand him everything I have. And I’m like— dude wtf? That’s literally everything I have, right there in your hand?? What do I look like, the fucking city bank?

I was starting to get annoyed (and cold because god it was freezing) when suddenly, a shadow just swoops down and lands next to us. Dude in the ski mask panicked and shot at the general direction of whatever the fuck decided to drop by (literally) but then quickly got incapacitated after getting punched in the face by said shadow person.

Then they stepped into the light to zip tie the mugger’s hands together (because handcuffs are so last season) and lo and behold, can you guess who it is? That’s right, it’s the Red Hood! Claps and cheers all around (I was so dead tired that I just deadpanned when I saw who it was).

He asked me if I was alright, yada yada, you know, basic “I just saved you, I hope you’re okay” 101, with a dash of barely managed anger issues. You know, for flavor.

I was about to just turn around and speedwalk to my apartment (because fuck I really wanted a nap) when suddenly I notice something that was marginally concerning.

This guy (Red Hood) was bleeding.

And it was not one of those little trickles— this man had a bullet wound in his abdomen that looked like it was a mini rendition of the fucking Niagra Falls.

So obviously I’m concerned (or I hope I at least looked concerned— I was too tired to know what facial expression to actually make) and I asked him, like, “hey dude, you good?” And this idiot just looks at me, follows my gaze towards his abdomen (how did he not fucking notice) and just shrugged— fucking shrugged— and said, “ ‘Tis but a flesh wound”.

Whether or not I laughed is none of your business.

While I appreciate the Monty Python and the Holy Grail reference (great movie by the way, 100/10), it was definitely not a flesh wound.

So I did what any sane, normal, totally not crazy human being would do and dragged this personification of a wall of muscle towards my apartment. (After calling the police to take the very much knocked out mugger laying on the ground, of course)

I don’t even know how the hell I managed to drag this guy into my apartment because, for 1, he could literally bench press me, and 2, he could snap me in half like a twig, and 3, I am about as muscular as a sea sponge. Meaning to say, I am not muscular or strong whatsoever.

I’m pretty sure Red Hood just let me drag him into his apartment because it looked like I would cry otherwise (and I would have).

Anyway, so that’s the story of how I got the Red Hood into my home, I guess—

It uh, took me about 5 seconds after sitting him down on the couch and grabbing my first aid kit before I realized that I’m a fucking idiot because I don’t have any medical training, and I obviously don’t know how to fucking remove a bullet.

Is this why my mother said that I should take Nursing instead? Well fuck.

I think Red Hood also realized that I am a fucking dumbass because he just stared at me staring at him and fucking laughed.

He laughed.

Fuck I wanna bury myself in a hole and die—

Thankfully though (and also concerningly) Red Hood knows how to remove bullets from himself (wtf dude) and I just helped him disinfect and bandage up his wound (with him instructing me, because again, I am a dumbass).

So that’s the story of how I ended up with the Red Hood on my sofa.

Fucking great. Wonderful. Apparently he decided to take the rest of the night off and just crashed there instead (I definitely did not bribe him to stay by giving him some of my snacks from home— nope, no sir-ie, I have no idea what you’re talking about).

I’m writing this from the comfort of my bedroom while he just sleeps on the sofa outside, in the living room.

Holy fuck I have the Red Hood in my house.

He ate the snacks I gave him and fell asleep while listening to Legally Blonde play on the TV.

What the ever loving fuck is happening in my life.

… I need to go to bed.

Good fucking night.

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Okay I don't do this normally but out of curiosity, I looked at that guys' posts and yeah they're going around sealioning anyone who likes Dimitri being all like "how can you say Dimitri/AM is your favorite when you didn't play all the routes". Buddy it's called having preferences, subjectivity and opinion. I'm sure if we twist their behavior around back at them, they'll be like stop bothering us for liking Edel cause double standards is their bread and butter.

Yeah, I had taken a brief scroll through their blog the first time I saw them argue with Random about Claude because I had a pretty strong feeling that they were just another stan running around around against Rhea and Dimitri fans because I knew that person didn't follow Random when they started pulling the bad faith Claude takes.

I scrolled through a few posts before I was like yeah I'm not even gonna bother looking further because I could see all they were doing was arguing with people whose names I recognized, and the only people who ever do that are the stans. They also have absolutely nothing else but discourse on their blog.

It's crazy to me too, because I've seen those same Dimitri fans try to talk about anything else FE related and yet they still get pulled back into discourse. Like, I'm at the point where I believe everyone in that immediate group is just actively being stalked by the stans (and I recall one of them mentioning they are being stalked by them, but my guess is if one of them is, all of them are).

Also, the stans tend to pull the "you didn't play xyz route" when I'm quite certain most if not all of the Dimitri fans on Tumblr have at the very bare minimum watched the full route on YouTube of anything they didn't play. All these people have the information they need to know where they stand opinion-wise, and like you said, it's just... having an opinion. The stans have their opinions, we don't agree with them, and we don't engage with them unless they engage with us first.

Something I've noticed about the group of Dimitri fans that gets stans going after them is that it's always the stans who start it. They always respond to asks sent to those people. In other words they go onto those people's blogs, look at their posts/their replies to their anons, and start arguing at them over literally anything they say in thsoe ask responses.

Every single time I see a post reach my dashboard from any of those people (you might know the Faerghus/Dimitri group I'm talking about), it's always a stan going after them when they were just answering one of their own anons and posting something on their own blog. I'm sure there are people who think they engage in discourse too much, but they don't even start it. They get harassed and can't just blog in peace.

Unfortunately those same stans have been targeting Random as of late (and I've noticed it's more and more different ones so they're probably going after someone as soon as they notice their buddies are doing so) so it's not that surprising that they've taken notice of me since she and I interact regularly. They basically go through the chain of who interacts with who and try to start shit.

Oh nonnie honey, you better believe if even a single Dimitri fan did to them what they do to us, they'd be all over that and whining about it and posting callouts and shit.

I just want to be able to post whatever my feelings are about Dimitri without worrying that people will try to tear it down because "it's not about Edel-chan and it portrays Dimitri in a good light".

I've blocked every Edelstan I've come across but more of them keep popping up, so... I guess the blocking never ends. My block list is basically just Edelstans and bots at this point with few exceptions.

Funny how the stans don't block Dimitri fans who hate Edelgard to avoid seeing them (it's because they don't actually want to, because they want to argue), even though we're all over here trying to block them, but some of them block evade to keep going. Literally like Dimitri fans have tried to block them and move on, but they persistently find ways to keep harassing. And like I said, they go down the line, so eventually they'll just find every active Dimitri lover who posts about him and whine at them.

[ssquicyramen-dooblez]

huii welcome to my alt account !! 🍜

my main account is @ssquicyramenz btw if u wonna watch me in my other enclosure and throw me peanuts like a feral creature. all art on this account is drawn by me (unless i reblog DUH) but erm do NOT heavily reference, take or steal my work. tho since most if not all art here is going to be fan art uh.. if u want to use anything for pfps just provide credit for "ssquicyramenz on tumblr" somewhere idc lol more info abt me and this blog below the cut [abt me, byi, dni, pls int, tags n interests] this account is my little indulgence corner where everything is catered to me because YAY this is MY part of the internet (or sumthing like that idk) so im sorry if my dni list looks weird i just rlly hate most fandoms of the medias i come across (even if some of those medias are ones i love personally).

ABT ME 🍜

... samm/barnaby . he/it . +18 enby asf and doing my best to be cringe (and free). i struggle with self img issues so being somewhat ominous abt my identity is the only thing allowing me to post online lmao

BYI.

im an ADULT lmao if ur a minor pls dont try to befriend me

there will be SOME religious themes and references in my art (whether it be "subtle" like in the art above or more direct otherwise) and i refuse to speak about my religion online and i never will even if asked to lol

art requests r cool jus dont get mad if i dont do em ill find u and block you otherwise :3

the block button is my bestie lol; i block as i wish n liberally

this acc will not have anything suggestive or nsfw since i know for a fact my current or passing fixations can have a large audience of minors. if i see nsfw of my fixations on this account i absolutely will block you, especially if i find out you're a minor no matter what age

also some of my art will probably come off as unsettling? if you're uncomfortable with allat just block me idc ur personal concern comes first bro

DNI.

ppl under 16.

proshitters and anti antis

basic dni criteria

endo systems lol iykyk

if you're in these fandoms (UNLESS UR OOMF OR I FOLLOW U) .dandy's world (bc most of you are fucking children, figuratively or literally) .roblox pressure (this game got ruined for me by a freak i used to know so i dont want anything to do w it sorry chat) (not) .hazbin hotel (esp radioapple shippers lol not sorry) .helluva boss (the helluverse is written so much better in my head and i hate ppl who "like" vivziepop in any way) (plus stolas was also ruined for me by a freak so yeah im sad abt that loss) .the owl house (idk im sorry idk how i feel about this show AND its fanbase half the time) .star vs the forces of evil (idek how i come across media of this show as often as i do but every single time it happens i die more inside) .miraculous ladybug (same with this show like omfg pls get away from me) .arcane (especially javik shippers lol stop feminizing viktor) .heathers the movie (or maybe heathers in general idk sum of yall r gross) .dsmp (this does not mean i hate mcyt i just heavily dislike shit associated w dream) .bnha (ogs of the fandom absolutely know why) .the mandela catalog (twas ruined for me but by another person) (not rlly a freak but not the best person either its just one of those things) .inanimate insanity (never had a good vibe with whatever this was) .cookie run kingdom (again same thing w the one above) .MORE TBA (PROLLY)

ppl who like to start or engage in drama. i hate the lot of yous....

mfkers who sexualize religion (mostly referring to the sexualization of priests and nuns ngl i always hated ts)

those who self diagnose themselves w DID/OSDD i lowkey dont trust yall (nothing against ppl who simply lack the privilege to get properly diagnosed btw)

PLS INT.

if ur oomf/moot hi guys ily :3

freehoun enjoyers.... hi i too love doomed yaoi ... enby masc leaning gordon and gay cis barney is my truth my brain is the bible AND I AM THE PREIST (despite what my pfp might imply i do NAWT think barney is a bi enby icon i AM the icon) ... precas shenanigans in the brain ooooh i love themm ... "you're in pretty good shape for a man of science." SHUT UP YOURE GAY HE WAS FLIRTING AND WAS SMOOVE WITH IT

literally if you fw rain world yall ur so chill n i love critter art

i WOULD mention to kiribaku shippers to int but idk if i'd get shot on site considering the finale of bnha >_> (btw dni bkdk unless es oomf :3) ... on that note enby masc leaning bakugou n trans kirishima solidarity ... bakugou is FUCKED up (mentally ofc) again doomed yaoi but also maybe domestic? hes trying to be better and he IS getting better me thinks ... the grounder and the grounded kinda thing. i love them i cant explain it in my mind without exploding someone tell me to draw them and i will (enable meeee)

if u want or seek art advice i love helping ppl learn about the process of [my?] art n drawing in general

mother mother, grandson, scratch21, and dreamers listeners you guys get me (i listen to more artists by a LONG SHOT but i feel like those mfkers in particular come far n wide)

FURBY COLLECTORS AND OR ENJOYERS I LOVE YOU ALL <33

ALSO MORE TBA PROLLY

TAGS N INTERESTS 🍜

TAGS.

#ssquicy.says . me speaking my mind and giving an unwarranted yap session <3 normally posts that dont feature an img and isnt just me yapping in the tags lol

#ssquicy.dooblez . my art tag !! again im hoping that MOST of my art here will be fan art :p

#yummy.squicyy . reblog posts of the media im currently fixated on or something that catches my eye that scratches an itch in my brain

#notmy.ssquicy . reblog posts that ofc arent my art lol

#ssquicyz.reply . THE answered asks tag just in case idk lmao

#clusters_in_the_way.sys . original content that doesnt pertain to a specific media but instead covers things oc related. will prolly be rarely used tbh but just in case :p

INTERESTS.

anything bolded and highlighted are my all-time/current favorites ! everything else are basically interests i've put behind me but are still fond over

games. half-life; minecraft; inscryption; roblox, grace ; roblox, doors; mouthwashing; rainworld; how fish is made; madison; cuphead; tattletale; the last one and then another; half-life 2; before your eyes; fnaf; half-life: blue shift; night in the woods; among the sleep; half-life: alyx;

series. boku no hero academia; to be hero x; tensei shitara slime; vita carnis; steven universe; hlvr:ai; freeman's mind; lil pootis; gorgeous freeman; saw;

cc. stampylongnose; markiplier; penguinz0; grian; jacksepticeye; kubz scouts; emkay; 8-bitryan; the click; thecatdaddy; bionicpig; corpse husband; special edd/eddie vr; pewdiepie; macdoesit; talking kitty cat;

music. kevin atwater; joji; blink-182; cody fry; mccafferty; panic! at the disco; scratch21; mother mother; penelope scott; roe kapara; lemon demon; maroon 5; corpse; the front bottoms; dreamers; grandson; mindless self indulgence; neffex; skillet; sleep token; green day; twenty one pilots; lil darkie, rex orange country [and absolutely tons more LOL i wont even bother picking and choosing which artists/bands are my "all-time favorite" because i listen to so many different kinds of songs and ive been listening to these specific artists for years]

artists. ssquicyramenz (me lol); diced_rice; caramelcraze; clockbirds; sketches of shay; katsudon_k; neytirix; tamayka; rosefloofer; spicydoodle; millomoore; greywick; rabiesboi; novembertoons; grubbgobb; treesters_; vultrabbit; crazycomet107; [twas lowkey VERY difficult to pick "a few people" BUT most, if not all, of these artists are people i either grew up with or grew with over the many (5+) years. some of these people are actually mutuals of mine on instagram and im genuinely so happy and grateful i was able to talk to and, in some cases, befriend these wonderful people.]

that would be all ty for reading this far :3 have a bowl of homecooked hearty miso ramen (you can choose whether you want it spicy or savory)

[oyasumi-dove]

‘Afab writers are a problem because I’m afab and I don’t like femininity.’ Isn’t the take you think it is, hon. And don’t give me that “that’s not what I said” bullshit, cause you literally did. From an afab person who loves my femininity and writes *tagged* fem!reader, it brings me joy that my very existence pisses you off. Must take a lost of effort to be that fragile…

Hating anyone who’s afab and a writer just because some ignorant people don’t tag fics is genuinely the worst excuse I’ve ever seen. It’s not that big a deal. What, did the scary fem!reader fics reach through the screen and bite you or something? A lot of afab readers tag their fics, a lot of non afab readers don’t tag their fics, the x reader niche has way bigger problems with tagging than not tagging the gender of the reader. But I guess none of that matters because god forbid you go five seconds without showing your obvious bias.

Honestly, stop pretending you’re doing this in good faith and actually trying to help. You’re doing it to get on people’s nerves. Your spam posts are vague and don’t actually tell people what you want them to tag, you’re a massive hypocrite, and you respond hatefully to anyone who doesn’t suck your dick. I hope your ultimate goal is for the problem you’re complaining about to get worse, because that’s the only thing you’re accomplishing here.

Hhhhmmmm

Well…!

I did say that it was a personal issue for me and I had a bias. I don’t think I tried to hide that fact! However, I stated that the writers who didn’t tag their posts as fem!reader were the problem for me. It’s only some of your guys existence that pisses me off 😍

I can see that my response was worded horribly, though, I don’t know how to explain myself to you. If you think of me as a hypocrite then how exactly am I suppose to change your views on me..? Like ok, I guess im a hypocrite to whoever you are.

I never said I wanted to be the “good” guy in all this LOL. I am open to change my opinions on certain things, but I haven’t exactly always been nice about it. You can tell in my posts. Of course I’m going to start lighting up when people agree with me and actually hear me out. Literally who wouldn’t!??? With all the people who do not agree with me, I’m just arguing back with them?? Am I not allowed to counter their messages when half of them are spewing shit my way 🤦

You aren’t my problem! At least you (proclaim) to tag your work. I don’t think you write for every other fem!writer. Also I don’t know where you got those statistics from with the “a lot of non afab writers don’t tag their fics” yadayada, ok. Try to block every variation of fem reader and scroll down an x reader tag right now!

I really am that fragile though!! Because who the hell doesn’t feel dysphoric when coming upon an untagged posts and get hit with she/her pronouns 💀 Spoiler alert: Not every afab is happy or as comfy as you are with their femininity. YES, it will kill me if I see an untagged fem reader fic. If I see a another one I will actually succumb to the sweet relief that is death :(( Not even my FILTERED TAGS will be able to stop this…!

There’s so many posts about tagging your work correctly, how to actually use your tags and what to do with them. My first fucking post is showing you how to add tags. Unless you WANT me to start adding text on every single one of my posts on how to use tags, because that sounds like a great idea :3

Hhhnmmm