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I made a post saying "We're all gonna go feral when the new life series releases" I was wrong- kinda. We already are, we already have been going feral+insane. When third life dropped we were all like "Oh cool, silly life game, aw that's a sad ending" and now at the smallest hints for the new one we're like "JAHDHSHSGGFHAHSHSGSHAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH NEW LIFE SERIESSSSS!!!!!!!!" Am I right? T^T XD
#life series#life series smp#3rd life#3rd life smp#the life series#traffic life#traffic life smp#traffic life series#trafficblr#we're insane#but that's okay#āsilly life gameā š#it's evolved into smth so much more#then a āsilly life gameā#and now we be sobbing over the ending#not just āawwwwā#we be sobbing crying throwing up#anygays#WHO'S READY FOR THE NEXT LIFE SERIES#everyone lmao#can't wait to see what the twist is this time#i've seen ppl say maybe āwild lifeā cuz grian said āit's gonna be wildā#i do love to ramble#welp#that's all#byyyyye
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Pardon me while I go weep for three hours
#this ENDING MAN#LIKE THE MOST DRAMATIC ANIME ENDING EVER WITH THE M U S I C I AM SOBBING#NOT OK NOT OK NOT OK#SHADOW CHILD I WILL TAKE YOU IN MY ARMS#this is what we always imagine shadowās experience to be like!!???!?#the excruciating grief over what might have been#AND NOW ITS CANON#*screaming*#shadow focusing on the very next thing he has to do has always been his instinct but he especially does it now as a coping mechanism#because otherwise if he lets himself think it becomes this#*sobbing*#shadow the hedgehog#dark beginnings#shadow the hedgehog dark beginnings#sxs generations#sxsg dark beginnings
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Kafka Hibino
Kafka Hibino.... with visible salt and pepper side burns.
Kafka Hibino.... wearing glasses and has salt and pepper side burns.
Kafka HIbino.... in that black turtleneck and a dark brown leather jacket and also wearing glasses and has salt and pepper side burns.
Kafka Hibino.... wearing that outfit and is an Animal Biology Professor in an College Au.
Kafka Hibino..... asking out Hoshina who is an Advanced Mathematics Professor working at the same college, to have an after-work drink with him.
Slightly DRUNK Kafka Hibino... becoming very forward with an also slightly drunk Hoshina
Slightly Drunk Hoshina... immediately matching Kafka's freak tenfold and Kafka is very much fine with this.
#My Brain: Ohhh! What if we also make it a Yakuza AU and Kafka has tattoos and is an-#Me: *Slaps my brain and watches it jiggle like a domed jello cake* NO! No no no no no NO!!!#Me: *To my brain* YOU HAVE SIX FANFICS TO FINISH!#THREE Kn8 FICS : TWO OF WHICH ARE NOW MULTI-CHAPTERED!#TWO RONTOTO FICS: ONE OF WHICH YOU HAVE STARTED!#AND A MDUD FIC THAT YOU STARTED AND HAVE HAD THE ENDING PLANNED OUT FOR OVER TWO MONTHS NOW#THAT YOU HAVEN'T WRITTEN IT BECAUSE YOU CAN'T BE PATIENT ENOUGH TO FIGURE OUT THE MIDDLE!#My Brain: *sobs* Bu-But *Sniffs* I wanna write about Isao being a Yakuza Director General...#Me: . . .#Me: *Puts Brain in an industrial juicer in an attempt to make it behave*#with that out of the way#Professor Kafka (Trying) to act like a sorta beast-like dom Seme archetype toward Hoshina ( it kinda works)#Only for Hoshina to Unleash The Crazy#And Kafka just switches gears and (happily) accepts his new position as the bottom.#If I make it through the ones above#I MIGHT; MIGHT! make a short story about Ex-yakuza Professor Kafka and his budding relationship with fellow professor Hoshina#really just the idea of Suped Up Kafka and some of his Kaiju feats-#being translated to a more normal version of Kafka and just chalking up some insane shit to Yakuza training and adrenaline#like he' still goofy and shit- just recontextualized into a crouching dumbass/ hidden BADASS.#is what's fueling the desire to keep this in my backlogs for a later date#LEGIT: I ALREADY have a scene (In my head) where he flips a VAN onto its side#But then BRUSHES OFF A HEAD WOUND THREE MINUTES LATER#AND LATER GETS STABBED AND IS MORE OR LESS FINE#TWO WHOLE SCENES WHERE HES SURROUNDED BY- LIKE- TEN GUYS! KNOCKS ALL ASSES FLAT!!!!#WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??!?!?!?!?!!?#kaiju no. 8#kafka hibino#soshiro hoshina#kafhoshi#kn8
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#mp100#mob psycho 100#mp100 season 3#mp100 spoilers#featuring a meme once used for the manga ending but now revived so we can cry all over again#*sobs violently*#smolās stuff#smolās weird ass shit
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literally where is my next to normal movie. it's been fifteen years. who is keeping this from me.
#i would kill for a proshot obviously#but I DO think this would adapt well actually!!!#lauren feels things#next to normal#there was a time when my greatest dream was to play the daughter in the movie version of this show#i'm now too old#but I still want the movie to exist!!!#i also feel like i made this exact post on twitter - like - six years ago#which just goes to show!! we are overdue!!#i've been watching jack wolfe sing i'm alive over and over and over again#and I want him to play the son because LORD his clarity of tone and his runs#anyway top 10 broadway productions that my whole family sobbed at#others include:#hamilton#journey's end#sunday in the park with george (more of an astonished cry for most of us)#merrily we roll along#(I was the one sobbing the hardest I'll admit)
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watching the last of us is just thinking "thats the saddest episode of tv i've ever seen" until the next week's episode when you "thats the actual saddest episode of tv i've ever seen" until the next week's episode when you think-
#every time i think the worst is over. jumpscare!#like i actually cried watching sarah die in ep 1#and i thought āok so the emotions r done nowā its apocalypse time#and then. AND THEN.#we get tess die#then bill and frank die#then HENRY AND SAM#i WAS SOBBING FOR HENRY AND SAM#guys i have not played the game if it keeps going like this#i will not make it to the end#tlou#the last of us#tv: the last of us#joel miller#ellie the last of us#ch: joel miller#ch: ellie (tlou)
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can i can i kiss the palm of your hand sir
#I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS OFFICIAL SGWNWHWJWUWJIOQOWOJESJWUQKWJEJEH#the first thing i saw when i opened twitter today.... i need him to marry me#i can't believe they let men have tiny waists#this will be the end of me#like why does he give me the urge to take care of him šššš i need to kiss him softly and hug him and make him feel the most precious#oh aventurine we're really in it now#i didn't think i'd go insane over seeing morning aventurine grasping the sun while laying down but here we are#lucky is the person that wakes up everyday and sees such beauty#which is no one because he isn't real which is like unfair and at the same time understandable no physical man could ever reach his heels#his skin must be so soft#weweeieiueeieowiwpoe crying sobbing
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watched some of the available scenes on youtube but honestly forgot how often people commented to ku.ro about how 'normal' mahi.ru was for an eve which, at the beginning is rather easy to relate to mahi.ru's simple outlook of life but also equivalates to how, before this, ku.ros life has always been alongside other supernatural beings.
#ā Ā Ā ā” Ā Ā āŗ Ā Ā jupiter Ā : Ā šØšØš.#the main scenes on there that arent chara compilations are ku.ro and mahi.ru meeting when hes in human mode and#meeting lawl.ess and lich.t#and hearing lawle.ss say ' but your so normal ' as opposed to simple is so ....#damn the more you know everyone!! he really DID nail the nail in ku.ros coffin#deserved. i admit- man was already raging over the reminder of that day and now is forcibly reminded of the other person he left ... 5#stages of grief here.#but tbh early series kur.o is such an avoidant he just stays silent. and unresponsive and when the rage seeps out still looks dead inside#i forgot how powerful lich.t was tbh guys :(#me after seeing him slam ku.ro 5 times: yeah there was a REASON you got taken out early king you would have had them all crushed in no time#anyway happy wednesday i am fueling myself for the penultimate sv chapter that comes out this friday#( but will probs arrive for our records like next week )#the ending is. most likely going to be rushed but with this chapter being 40 pages and them getting that extra volume. i hope theyre able t#tell all they need.#if this is the end of the battle. im gonna sob ... if theyre all back with their loved ones ... im also gonna sob.#we will. ultimately see though!#were getting two more colour page spreads and an update TOMORROW on a drama cd#which might mean more canon voices for some of the cast????#EXCITED EXCITED.#i will probs finish up gaming and then message some people tonight#we've started hitting the xmas rush ( ppl want their teeth before christmas ... )#so its been busier and busier !
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Iāve finally finished P3R!
So now of course I must write paragraphs abt how much I loved it. Spoilers below the cut!
I can say without any hesitation or doubt that P3R is by far the best game Iāve ever played in my life.
They truly did such a wonderful job with remaking this game, so much so that it really makes me look forward to the possibility of more persona-remakes in the future. Iām so thankful that they stayed true to the original story, but improved where it was necessary. Iām blown away by every detail they put into this game, and how they managed to make even the menu screens absolutely beautiful.
Iāve always tended to get a bit sappy/emotional about games I really like, but I genuinely do believe that the persona franchise, specifically p3 and p4, have changed me as a person. Theyāve effected me emotionally, and helped me navigate the meaning of my own life. I got invested within the persona franchise at a very young age (I think I was in the 5th grade lmfao š), and it was the first game series I really fell in love with ā and that was only through watching playthroughs on YouTube at the time. Looking back on it, I think that itās what really sparked my passion for video games, and also game development in general.
I started getting back into the persona franchise about 1 and a half, maybeeee 2 years ago, and being able to reconnect with the games and fall in love with them all over again has been such a crazy cool experience. Playing P3R after playing the original p3 was such a joy, and I can confidently say it emotionally impacted me just as much as the original did, if not more.
Itās not often I feel the urge to replay a game right after I finish it, usually I have to give it a break for a bit, but Iāve already started my New Game+ run of P3R and Iām not feeling even remotely burnt out, which I think is another example of how much I absolutely adore this game.
AAANYWAYS if youāve read this far hi!! Rambling and getting overly emotional about video games is my one and only talent fr so thanks for listening š«¶
#please tell me Iām not the only one who cried and sobbed at the ending lmfaoo š#literally like. full on sobbing. tears streaming down my face and everything š#actually felt exhausted afterward fr. crying should be considered a workout idc#anyways WOOO I love this game sm yayyy#I still get teary eyed every time I watch the opening animation š LISTENNN#When I say this game raised me I really mean it bc 5th grade me was OBSESSED#5th grade me also should have had more internet restrictions clearlyā¦..#persona 3#persona 3 reload#p3#I do wish we couldāve had a Strega fight w all three of them though#but Iām letting it slide bc the whole takaya & jin shifting and coordinating attacks thing was cool as hell#love them#strega my dearest#stregaā¦save me stregaā¦strega save meā¦#this is about to become a strega fanblog Iām being so fr#ALSOOO tell me why Junpei is one of the most relatable characters ever bc my god some of his lines hit me like a truck#now that Iām reading over this thereās really not even spoilers#but the tags certainly do!#so Iām leaving it as a precaution#anyways. as someone who constantly thinks about morality and the balance between life and death in general#itās really no surprise this game has had such a big impact on me haha
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the sinus headaches are already not great but Extra Shit has been added to the pile and im just sat on that right now trying to figure out what the fuck to do
#ive uh not processed it yet and it also wont really shake out for a little while now i guess but .. yeah#long story short my friends who ive been A Trio with since we were 11 might be done with each other#theres a LOT of additional factors but theyre splitting a house share so one can go live with a boyfriend#and in the process it sounds like theyve made a lot of selfish choices for some unknown reason#ngl theyve pissed me off a little bit for being so weird and reclusive since theyve had the boyfriend as well but only with us#its ... yeah i dont know what alls happened because i dont live with them#but i just cant fathom how they got to this point quibbling over the contents of their shared house of 5 years#over a boyfriend whos been around for 2 or 3 years ..... to ruin a friendship of 18 years ????#again i dont know the whole story but i trust what the friend whos still good at talking to us to not lie about them being screwed around#i just dont get it at all how to reconcile what ive been told with who ive known over half my life#theyve felt off .. or wrong for a while now tbh ... i miss them#i havent seen the other one since before may ...#the thought that mightve been the last time we all hang out is kind of killling me inside lol#and it was also pretty weird and stilted again because it was very boyfriend-centric#this always happens to me lol ive lost count of all my school friend groups who end up basically fighting over me after they fall out#its a MAJOR trauma point for me and i thought we kind of grew past that but i guess i was wrong#ive been catching myself with a weepy eye or a single sob all day#i dont know what to do i wanna know what the fuck happened and what was worth doing this for#i wanna confront everyone and ask for a fucking explanation as to why my single life solid bedrock is falling apart#i mostly wanna dig a hole and die in it ... im fine im safe but im bothered by like ...#what a total fool ill look like if i just melt down at work ... i might find the mental health first aiders list and write an email lol#im like not okay cksbdkssj fucking hell#i have some hope but its ... its hard out here#i need to go to bed fuck#id dont neeeeed thiiiiisss im gonna choke on life agaaaiiinnn#the battle to keep my shit together enough to at least not self-sabotage ??? its testing my patience#rory's ramblings
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i dont wanna eat anything or do anything and i just wanna lay around but i also dont wanna do that and i dont wanna watch anything or read anything and idk what i wanna do
#i was supposed to have someone review my resume and i was banking on the fact that maybe talking to someone instead of being alone in my roo#would help me out but the whole appointment system maker thing was messed up so we couldnt even meet#so i literally hvae nothing better to do than wait the next few days to get back to campus#and i was soooo excited to go back to school and i still am cuz i know itll make me feel better being around people#but im just a lot less excited than i was#cuz i just really really hate the idea of having to spend another fall semester getting over someone#like i couldve probably handled spring semester. but fall semester???? when theres already enough desolateness as it is???#like i just hate hate htae the idea of being on buses and starting to cry again and its midnight at 4pm when im crying#and theres people everywhere and the wrost part is shes literally on the same campus as me!!! so now i might actually see her!!!#and i dont want to!!!#i want to be friends but right now i know if i see her again ill just start sobbing on the spot#i was so excited for thsi fall sem but now im just notttt#and i know ill be busier (hopefully) this sem so im sure ill be better off than last year#but still like. idfk i dont know what to do. i think i just need to hear someone elses voice#im supposed to talk to my friend later today so maybe thatll help#cuz im kinda ready to tell someone about it but what if she telsl me she cant call what am i suppsoed to doooo#cuz last year the person iw as getting over lived a bajillion miles from me so it was easier!!! but she and I live 5 mins from each other#AND SHES FREINDS WITH LIKE ALL MY ROOMMATES#THEYRE ALL HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS !!!!#GODDDD.#i mean there are def upsides to this . for example its good we broke up now#cuz imagine if we broke up cuz of a fight and then thered be a big issue in the friend group#but it ended well and i dont think our friends / roommates will be 'picking sides'#as long as i just dont do anything drastic lol#adn who knows maybe our friendship will bounce back and i really hope it does!!#but she and i didnt start off as friends we kinda went into this knowing we were into each other to begin with#so like how do i be friends with her you know???#and friendship is soo important to me so its not like i dont want to be friends with her. i really really do. i just dont know how itll wor#like i value friendship over romantic relationships any day but also our relationship felt so deep to me#which is why im scared that we wont be friends even though i know we both want to be
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just watched the ahsoka finale. oh my god. OH MY GOD.
#ahsoka spoilers#ahsoka series#ahsoka#dave filoni you absolute madman#you brilliant fucking genius#he has singehandedly provided context for everything that ever has and ever will happen in star wars#AND I AM EATING IT UP#BUT ITS SO TRAGIC SO IāM ALSO CRYING#THRAWN IS BACK AND AT THE HELM OF THE EMPIRE???? OH JUST ANOTHER CASUAL GALACTIC WIDE CIVIL WAR THAT'S FINE#MORTIS ARC REFERENCE????? NOT EVEN A REFERENCE LIKE THAT ARC NOW HAS EVEN MORE SIGNIFICANCE AND IS SO IMPORTANT TO SW AS A WHOLE#THE GALAXY BEING CAUGHT IN AN ENDLESS LOOP OF GOOD AND EVIL AND EVERYTHING IS FUCKED BECAUSE OF WHAT WENT DOWN ON MORTIS#DEATH TROOPERS?!?!?!?!?!??! IN MY CANON STAR WARS!!?!?!?!? IT'S MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK#AHSOKA'S CHARACTER ARC OVER THIS SEASON WAS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE HEEERRRR#ANAKIN WATCHING OVER HER AT THE END???? JUST LIKE HE DID IN ROTJ I'M SOBBING#WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE??????#NO IDEA BUT I'M SURE IT WILL INCLUDE PAAIINNN#I BETTER SEE MORE OF HAYDEN AS ANAKIN I REFUSE TO BELIVE THAT THIS WAS IT#this episode and this series as a whole was so much more heavy than i expected#but i don't know why i didn't see it coming because it's DAVE FUCKING FILONI#also the title of this masterpiece being a narnia reference is killing me#I NEED SEASON TWO. NOW.#give it to me hat man i am in your walls
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yeah, so i just finished cataclysm
#spoilers in tags#do not read unless you've already gone thru phase 2#the high republic liveblogging#the high republic spoilers#cataclysm#i am....... in agony#i spent pretty much the entire last 20 pages crying#I THOUGHT I WAS HEARTBROKEN WHEN AIDA ACTUALLY DIED. SO IMAGINE MY PAIN WHEN THE LAST LINE TO REFERENCE HER SAYS#''[ENYA ZIRI AND PHAN-TU'S LAUGHTER] ECHOED THROUGH THE TEMPLE HALLS AND MADE THE OTHER JEDI SMILE BECAUSE IT SOUNDED LIKE AIDA'S LAUGHTER'#SHUT THE FUCK UP#SHUT UP#WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME#THE FIRST THING CREIGHTON DID WHEN HE WOKE UP WAS TRY TO FIND HER#I'M DISINTEGRATING AS WE SPEAK#WHAT THE FUCK#CREIGHTON TAKES ON ENYA???? THEY'RE GONNA HELP EACH OTHER THRU THEIR GRIEF??? HE BEFRIENDED THE MED DROID?????????#the entire funeral for the 3 fallen jedi had me fucking sobbing btw i was a mess#also. wasn't expecting this but axel's redemption did end up winning me over. i was so sure i would continue to hate him#he's very much in love w/ gella and that means i love him very much as well#cataclysm also keeps up a 2/2 record that it shares w/ convergence by way of:#gella nattai says a deeply profound and spiritually moving/comforting line in each book and it hits me right in my religious trauma#the whole 2nd half of the book was incredible. i quite literally spent about 7 hours reading it as fast as i possibly could#i'm not the biggest fan of certain parts of kang's writing but her strength ABSOLUTELY lies in describing battle scenes#those were the easiest to read battle sequences i've ever read in my life and that's out of the entire phase 2 + other prequel books#i think the only other book whose combat didn't confuse me was the 1st republic commando but it's been long enough that i'm not sure#chancellor greylark is so interesting i'm obsessed and also the end scenes w/ her and axel had me weeping like a babe#anyways. that's all for now#my posts
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#ok. this is the fucking bullshit thing abt grad school. u go to fucking grad school bc u r a fucking tryhard nerd freak#who is either naturally very smart or ur so fucking anxious u r incapable of allowing urself to get a bad grad#and then u go to fucking grad school and everyone's like: man fuck ur classes. if youre getting streight As then u aren't focusing on ur#research. and theyre right. but u still cant fucking let go of the idea that if u get a bad grad the world is gonna fucking end and u r a#bad person. u didnt try hard enough. all this to say i have a final project that i put way too much energy into and not even in a good way#i would just open the document. start sobbing. and then close it and spiral abt how i didn't want to work on it. so its bullshit#i mean. its a good project idea ans i probably sound like i kno wtf im talking abt bc i do. i worked on that topic for 4 years but like#i could make it wayyyyy better. its bullshit. i didnt even number the citations to give more page space. i made section headers. i didnt#wrap text. i could add like 4 more lines of text if i wanted but i think im not gotta bc fuck it. ugh. i dont even. i fucking avoide#stochastic stuff altogether which i kno im gonna have to fight abt but like fuck it who cares abt randomness. i just wanna focus on the#predictably aspect of community composition. fuck u. i shouldnt have picked this topic. i mean. i had to bc its like the one microbe thing#i could do but its also like the exact topic that makes me wanna rip my hair out and start screaming. like jesus christ who tf cares? ugh.#i think id give myself a B if it was an undergrad class. but the standard is higher in an all grad class. ugh. i hate this. i should just#send it abd be done. i dont even kno when its due tomorrow. before class i guess. idk i felt like garbage today. fucking vertigo bby. i feel#ok now tho. so maybe the allergic reacting is over???? fingers r still arthritisy tho. jesus. im falling apart#ive got a pretty good sounding excuse for being lazy tho: owo i had an allergic reaction to my antidepressants š„³ but nah no excuses we run#this body into the ground. like the good old days.#unrelated
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#rough day today with an emotional mess at the end#rough as in it wasnāt BAD justā¦ I had low energy the entire time and lost the day really#I donāt know how my mom does it. she has it worse than me and she expects me to be more bounding and alive and USING my energy#buddy. pal. I got rude and angry because I was LOW and I DO NOT HAVE YOUR PAIN TOLERANCE THRESHOLD#on MULTIPLE levels. physical and emotional#you went to dental school in Otago in the 90ās. I did animation school 2019-2023.#you escaped communism and were a stranger in a strange land and married my father who became a bat from hell and you had to escape him#AND keep the kids in good schools and in God.#I didnāt. I was the child who had it worst on the spectrum and had the PTSD to crawl out of during high school.#of course THAT put a dampener on me growing up in several ways (and uh. being on this hellsite in 2014 didnāt help either)#mom I love you and you love me. we are clearly NOT the same ever#Iām a little over the age dad married you at first now. I do not have the same threshold nor tolerance as you. I AM more sensitive yeah#and Iām trying to work through it but damn it it is hard trying to stay soft in a world getting crueller.#and yet! I have my fatherās face and eyes in anger! I wish I could be more kind and loving on low energy and Iām sorry!#I am genuinely an ass when Iām tired and ticked off and want none of your help and I wish I wasnāt! alas!#I do not! have! your threshold nor tolerance!#when I finally get myself together and have a full place to call my own. with bills and all to pay.#I will finally allow myself the relief of lying down onto the kitchen floor and sobbing.#in the knowledge and safety of solitude.#Chris rambles#AUGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#vent
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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl
17.11.2012 ā 14.04.2019
#my art#artists on tumblr#I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already#I know covid messed with everyoneās sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that#exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together#not the best movie to watch when youāve just lost your first ever pet you know#and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again#I know itās because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly#instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her#feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time#well anyway. enough of that. Iāve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system#and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her#and I can count the number of times Iāve drawn animals on one hand so.. Iām not too sure about the result#but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind#which I didnāt always appreciate bc of how young I was. when youāre a kid it feels like pets will live forever#never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor#but Iām grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself#she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but Iāve been down the road of guilt and regret#there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end#even if I didnāt know how to show it properly. and great. now Iām tearing up again#I suppose itās unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe thatās not such a bad thing#itās good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. itās healthy. itās better than crying every day#she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. thatās the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much#when I move apartments and get a dog of my own Iām getting a spaniel. just like she was#well. maybe a different colour so I donāt end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed#I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. thatās just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home#and while I donāt necessarily believe in the afterlifeā¦ I do hope that Fannyās watching over me#spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. itās a nice thought for sure#and hopefully she wonāt mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes
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