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Sometimes I want to bring Morrigan but then I remember I play as a face-tanking rogue and I bring Wynne. Warden Cousland, Morrigan, Wynne / Dragon Age Origins (c) Bioware
#dragon age#dragon age fan art#comic#morrigan#warden cousland#healer#bioware#dao#dragon age origins#hero of ferelden#cousland#wynne#I'm back. I guess.#I did not notice at first but apparently I took a break from tumblr. I've already had several breakdowns over the dashboard.#(turns out I was on the 'for you' tab rather than the 'following' tab. the theme had changed as well. absolutely insufferable.)#I've felt really unconnected for a while but it actually feels better now? as if my tumblr mutuals was the missing link.#very healthy and hot of me ngl#so. I had a two week holiday this year and they were instantly slurped up. it went so fast!#there was this big football thing the week before my holiday - basically teams of teens come from all around the world to play etc.#I heard a girl tell her teammates that 'I'd love to travel on this bus every morning; happy people all around you; just add some music...'#she was also very excited when the bridge opened. the 'happy people' around her sighed bitterly and leaned back for a ten minute wait.#it is thankfully over now. the bus home is no longer stuffed full of football teams. but it's a fun experience for the players etc etc etc#well. in other thrilling news I went to spy on our sister shops during my time off. to see what they do differently. maybe steal some ideas#one store was like an instagram post with fancy teacups and stylish outfits. who knew a second-hand store could be so boring.#the other was like a man-cave with furniture and a passively-aggressive note by the toys stating that 'if u break it u pay. idiot. tnx<3'.#the man-cave was my favourite :)#rant over now! take care and bye etc!
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feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole
#hivemind tv#hmfcu#riley savage#graydon weaver#quadeca#jane remover#eden burke#my art#2023#fanart#doodles#furry#its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online#doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself#and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling#and come back and then the cycle repeats#its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard#so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)'#NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here#and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out#and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave#i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style#idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment#i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one”#or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it”#sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse#whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m#friends for a while i think#woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography
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Ok I was going to wait to post this until the whole lineup was completed but that's never going to happen! These are my (hopefully) final designs for Beetlejuice and Lydia that I'll be using in my cartoon revival project (which I'll gladly accept help on, if anyone wants to)
#beetlejuice#my artwork#beetlejuice fanart#lydia deetz#beetlejuice the musical#beetlejuice the animated series#beetlejuice beetlejuice the cartoon#not ship art#I've noticed a lot more shippers around lately and I think some are following me so...#I don't like beetlebabes it's inherently pedophilic no matter how you twist it#and if you ship it please dni#I already have some people that are helping me write and brainstorm the project but we could use more#and we need artists because right now it's all just me#you won't get paid obviously because this is fanwork and it's for fun#I'll be posting more about it if you're curious but don't be afraid to ask questions
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Capcom hire me right now I literally have an entire hypothetical Klavier Investigations game in my head and it's so cool i promise
#apollo justice#i have entire new characters for it an cameos and an underlying mystery capcom you need to let this man have the SPOTLIGHT#HE HAS SO MUCH POTENTIAL PLEASE#sighs so hard. my funny jokes within the game shall never be appreciated#klavier and ema become better friends. blackquill and klavier bond. klavier gets a snake.#klavier gets a huge family with little menace cousins that follow him around and cause problems on purpose#klavier gets a fun mechanic that's a sort of mix of athena and apollos abilities bc i cant think of anything better but with a musical twist#klavier gets to return the favor to apollo#apollo and klavier finally get accused of murder. bc theyre the only main cast that hasnt#IT WOULD BE SO GOOD CAPCOM LET ME INTO THE WRITERS ROOM RIGHT NOW
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it's insane how one terrible forty five second interaction can ruin the next entire day. anyway. i guess time to consume maximum amount of fluff and scroll through tumblr ad nauseam to try and take my mind of things.
#mattie gets personal#fucked up real bad last night#wasn't paying attention while walking#ended up walking by a bunch of harassers and for the entire time it took to walk by they were just being terrible#and now my anxiety is off the fucking charts#un fucking real#and i actually feel so bad because my friend followed me thru it#and the only reason we were going that way was because she was letting me lead#but i was just running on autopilot and NOT paying attention to our surroundings#and i should not have been responsible for that#by the time i realized what was happening like turning around would've been the same distance as just powering thru so i tanked it#but still#fucking terrible#i apologized to her so many times but i just feel like such an idiot#i'm just like#i never usually have to deal with that#because i'm typically paranoid as fuck and also look like teenage boy usually#but yesterday i was NOT paying attention to anything and also was in a very revealing outfit because it was a music festival#some dude followed me earlier in the day too#he only stopped when a guy friend i was with shouted at him to leave me alone#cuz obviously me telling him to fucking leave me alone didn't work#anyway. this is one of the reasons i dress like a teenage boy#not just the gender thing#this is the worst i abused the tags but no one reads these and i need to like put this into the world but not have it be consumed ukw i mea#cuz it's so normal i just like haven't had to deal with it before
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random sleep deprived 2 am thought: what if watt mini netflix series that features pma's other songs from his other musicals. what if watt mini netflix series that also explores what happened to the surviving girls after the sleepover aka how they further process their grief and how the relationships they share with each other develop. basically what if "alone now" in a post-sleepover kateva development context-
#look i know jrb said in the the watt reunion livestream (not the concert - the one last 2021 i think?) that alone now can be a checkate song#esp since both her and celeste performed that song#and tbh i am partial to checkate so i support that thinking#however within the constraints of canon we will be trying to fit the song to kateva#i dunno just the verse 'to all the ghosts that follow you around' in the chorus#got me thinking about how eva helped kate cope with chess' death#which tHEN GOT ME THINKING ABOUT A WATT NETFLIX MINI SERIES WITH ALL THE SONGS AND EVERYTHING#and also explores what happened after the sleepover#look i know that pma sold the watt movie rights to a streaming service and that whole thing didnt work sadly#so dont mind me and my potential loopholes ghdhfh#anyways to other watt fans i do suggest looking up preston's other works believe me they are GOOD#we are the tigers#kateva#preston max allen#also disclaimer alone now isnt a cut watt song - its a song from one of preston's other musical drafts
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Just got back from watching a production of Les Mis and yeah man to love another person really is to see the face of God 😭😭😭
#my favourite musical. last time i saw it was in..... 2015? around there#i have... some criticisms for this production but it made me cry a lot and left me dehydrated so it's still a win!#les mis#ramblings of a bystander#ok but seriously who decided to cast what looked like two south east asian sisters as child cosette and child eponine#and then adult eponine was also south east asian but cosette was NOT and was a full white woman#bizarre choice. we have so many characters to keep track of you should not be confusing my ability to follow them#a bit TOO many extras and too much activity on stage during sort of ensemble scenes#that made it a bit difficult to locate who was actually speaking/singing a couple times#javert was just a touch too stiff in his body language. actually a few missed body language opportunities#that would have helped clarify what was happening I'm just lucky to really know it all already#REALLY didn't like fantine's characterisation and delivery on a few lines but otherwise she was fine#also i can't believe enjolras first appeared on stage NOT wearing red and then had a costume change for the les amis cafe meetup#just put him in red straight away? why did grantaire also have a costume change to completely different color scheme at one point.#...it WAS a good production I'm just nitpicking. because it's my fave so i have OPINIONS#jean valjean was fantastic!#anyway. I'm gonna make myself some dinner now. and then see what I've missed
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is there literally anyone left in this godforsaken place who understands that bisexuality is not a pitstop on the way to being gay. it is not halfway to gay. "at least bi." no. "bi at minimum" n.o. bisexuality is a queerness unto itself.
"it's not bisexual erasure" listen to me, if you have to put as much effort into explaining away his attraction to women to prove that he's gay as other people have to put into explaining away his attraction to men to prove that he's straight it's because he is BISEXUAL.
#this post brought to you by every time Dean Winchester gets flustered over women#just like he gets flustered over men#“his attraction to women is performative” yes!#it is!#the same way his love of Baby and rock music and pie is performative!#not all performances are without truth#“he stopped sleeping around once he had Cas”#this may come as a surprise to you but#bisexuals don't stop being bisexual when they become committed to one person#“he treats women respectfully when he's not putting on a show” it is possible to treat women respectfully even you're attracted to them#“he's not attracted to every woman on the show” he's not attracted to every man on the show either#fuck sake.#/rant over#i am tired#and i keep trying to bring new folk onto my dash so i can enjoy more of this show they i love#but like 9/10 times now i have to unfollow because it seems like everyone is jumping on this bandwagon#don't get me wrong i too love a good gay!Dean headcanon#but Dean is canonically bisexual#anyway probably zero people will see this which would be honestly for the best#but just in case if you 1 post destiel 2 know dean is bi 3 didnt love finale 4 believe ship and let ship PLZ shout out so i can follow you
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i'm the worst kind of bts elitist, i insist dark & wild is their best album, i brag about liking the prologue mix of butterfly better, i'm the bitch crying about how shit butter is and how "i miss when they were hip hop"
#dark & wild is so good#... man#what am i to you-- rm's vocal delivery in the latter half of the song is so goooood#danger-- she's a classic. the mv is so funny watching a bunch of teenagers in egregious eyeliner jump around but she has banger qualities#war of hormone-- this track is a crime against humanity and she's a banger while she's at it. jhope's part 😍#hip hop phile-- trust a bts song to start with an appalling beat 😭😭 i confess however i love this track#let me know-- kinda nasally i know the fandom really likes this one but eehhh . rapline is good as always tho#rain-- the spiritual successor to 13430 but more groovy. she bangs so hard. suga always whispering 'suga' before his verse 😭#cypher 3-- i like the other cypher's better this one suffers from having supreme boi on it. this has the suga bisexual line tho so W's ther#what are you doing now-- 40 seconds of groovy sounds what more do you want#could you turn off your cellphone-- A BANGER what can i say??#embarrassed/blanket kick-- this song gave us chaotic fake making out choreography#24/7=heaven-- jungkook gets a bad rep these days but boy can sing#look here-- this song is STRANGE it does not sound like a bts song at all but i still really like it#2nd grade/sophomore-- underrateedddd ass banger. the year after debut was so frustrating for them and you can really feel it in this album#do you think that makes sense?-- explain it guurrlll man i love this album#i remember when the persona album dropped i got hopeful it'd be a return to form with the intros/outros/interludes#uhmm kinda was but it was immediately followed up with butter. BUTTER. dude. BUTTER. i can't#i just have to accept at some point 2014 bts is long gone and they'll never make music like that again cry
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internet brainrot by tdstr is part really cool interesting hardcore techno and part memefest. and as someone who, i feel, has really engaged with meme-heavy musical compositions that still take themselves seriously, i kind of prefer the memeless side of music. i think the point of dariacore is to heavily use obnoxiously memetic samples on top of the general intense hardcore sound. i seriously like the high tempo, varied melodies, heavy bass & intense percussion- all the hardcore side of it. i like hardcore edm that uses lots of samples. and i like music that is just memetic samples into music (see neil cicierega's mouth albums). but with this album i kind of think that the hardcore edm side would stand better on its own or with less of the meme Culture bogging it down. it's when it starts leaning into irony stylings or reveling in some subculture/fandom's iconography that i think it loses me. another station was a really great track but then when damn right came on and i heard familiar sample after familiar sample bring me into something with no hablo americano as its leading sample i got pulled out. and damn right is a pretty good track, i like it a lot! it's just the swing of the focus kind of prevents me from getting into the right mindset to enjoy self-serious hardcore edm or bite-sized high-effort melodic shitpost-inspired music. in short, this album lives up to its title, and it's almost disappointing for that. it's like i went to someone's house and in order to make me feel comfortable they had their computer open to tumblr with my account logged in. like oh i wasn't aware that's how you decided to do things around here
#this is maybe not my most coherent review. trust me it's not the fault of this album#i feel like i'm seriously well qualified to review dariacore considering i take music seriously and i have such experience with#the sort of musical memespace that's come out of siivagunner + soundclown#i'm going to have to look into more albums in this genre. by the way i had no idea this is what dariacore was#i'd heard the name tossed around a fair amount before without knowing what it sounded like#music reviewssic#i haven't reviewed it but i've listened to because maybe as well as other releases by renard/lapfox tracks#and i was reminded of it by this album. with the sample-heavy hardcore edm that seems sooorta like#speedcore? not breakcore. i'm saying ''hardcore edm'' a lot because i don't know what subgenre to refer to#bet if i listened to enough camellia i'd get an idea#the difference being that. i think in the time of because maybe internet subcultures did not go as deep as they do now#or if they did go as deep as they do now they didn't also have the scope of today's#there are siiva-derived communities that are kind of ''deep'' into internet subcultures that still have a following#rivaling that of more average internet communities circa 2010. that's how it feels at least#when i listen to because maybe &c i'm like ah i recognize these samples because they're pop culture#not fully pop culture but definitely pop culture to ''the internet''- sonic 2/retro games & mcr & maximum the hormone#when i listen to internet brainrot. well now. the title speaks for itself like i said#also sprach#i think im just made uncomfortable for being met so squarely at my own level of internet familiarity by something as impersonal as an album#like this album isn't just in an adjacent level of internet depths resided in it's kind of slotted into the exact same section that i'm in#...again. i need to listen to more dariacore#c u thru the q#my final word is that i prefer an album that i don't have to adjust the volume on between songs. god this got loud
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ohhhhh the new argenti trailer. nevermind. i MUST have her
#i do not care abt meta at all i only use characters i like so it means nothing to me that her kit apparently sucks lol#also everyone says erudition is the weakest path but its by far my favorite so again idc abt that im pulling argenti#honestly i dont really see the point of following meta for a completely single player game without a single leaderboard for anything#like it literally means nothing if u can do the most possible damage in the game#and black swan's design is not nearly as pretty as i hoped which is why i dont really care if i dont end up getting her lol#it sucks so bad tho bc i look at leaks and aside from her... i dont care or want any upcoming characters LOL#most of them look very boring to me#genshin has that problem now too for me#the designs are just so mehhhhh#anyways thats fine tho bc i can just pull for argenti and then go back into saving for when an eventual character i like does come around#surely i wont hate EVERY design. surely#also im sorry but shes a girl no one will ever be able to make me use he/him for argenti#that is my new girlprince idc idc#ruan mei is very pretty and i like her music theme a lot but i dont care about harmony characters bc i dont like using them. so#also i have too many support characters so i do not need or want more#hanya i think is technically support tecccchhhhnicaaally but i love her so i dont care#sorry guys dont play star rail look at what it does to the human mind... this is sick this is sad
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Hahahaa he's so "bright talented young man alters himself to attain greatness and escape a life he was unhappy with but despite warnings (he ignored them) fails in the end and dies while his father lives on without him"
Secondly though I also HAD to throw on some Mother Mother. Notably, Body (tbh a disabled bitch anthem imo) and Arms Tonight (y'know. Bc the end of the game). Stg I'll send you the playlists for the Arakawa's when I'm done with them. I take my sweet ass time tho v sorry hahaha 😂
Litcherallyyyyyy thats what im sayin bro..... esp when in the story of icarus his father helps him escape the island/helps him succeed and when icarus does fail his father is left imprisoned.... does that not happen to our icarus too.... does that not happen to his father also..... wild....
And take your time with your playlists, no rush ! A dude knows what its like tryin to make it Just Right
#snap chats#the icarus comparison is more ironic considering in the story icarus plummets to the ocean and drowns...#And If We Say Irony. Since Arakawa Was Dumped In The Ocean. lol....#but noo i gotta be so guilty since growin up i always took Body as a trans allegory. or at least adjacent#and ik i havent breathed about it in Months but aoki did evoke trans energy... to me... to my delulu-ass brain...#but then i feel bad cause aspects of him that Yell trans to me are actually about his disability so i feel like im disregarding it#even tho thats not my intent i was just too silly playin y7 the first time around 😭☠️☠️ its generally why i dont talk bout it tbh..#too delulu.. and i feel awkward talkin bout hcs like that BUT MOVING ON THIS IS NOT ABOUT THAT#either way body Does fit. esp with the whole Take My Lungs Take Them And Run bit ☠️#Take My Tongue And Go Have Some Fun can also be representative of aoki’s influence and- apparently- the publics inclination to follow him#I.E. with His Tongue anything can be passed or anything that has his backing can be validated#BUT IM NOT HERE TO DO AN ANALYSIS ON MUSIC AND AOKI even if i really want to.........#i will say tho... im 90% sure theres a line about Taking Eyes but i cant look it up rn lest my tumblr app reser and i have to type all this#but anyway That Refers To This Bitch’s Eyesight Getting Worse#im gonna go listen to that song now its stuck in my head.. uh oh...#everyone always say Mother Mother is Basic and that may be true but so am i so let me listen while i be sad THANK YOU.#ok bye <3 ive prattled too long and my phone will surely die soon and i want One (1) listen in <3
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Go and hide and run away
Run away, run and find something better
Go and ride the sun away
Run away like it's simple
Like it's right
Jamie is over, and where can I turn?
Covered with scars, I did nothing to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm
Still hurting
#music#musicals#still hurting#the last five years#tl5y#going through and trying to get rid of things when I’m ridiculously sentimental#but I have to downsize and half the things have tainted memories attached now#and I still can’t rationalize who I thought he was with who he turned out to be#thanks dad for making everything so fucking hard#finding cards full of lies and lanyards from the comedian we saw that I’ve never been able to watch again#after you did what you did that day that made it a horrible time without mom who should have been able to go with us but you exploded#having to part with other relics of my childhood that feels so far away now that I’d been holding onto#trying to rationalize hanging onto the ones that I am even though there will be no space for them now#do you know how many times I’ve had a breakdown over you since you did what you did?#because I see now. I see that that was always you and I didn’t realize how much more guarded I should’ve been.#but part of me misses my innocent ignorance. misses thinking you could love and be loved despite it. not knowing why you were how you were.#why couldn’t you be the person I thought you were. the one I looked up to as a kid and followed around with my plastic tools#until I got old enough and sick enough of you yelling at me that I got so self conscious of every fucking mistake I made#and figured it wasn’t worth trying anymore. why I’m so anxious. why I say sorry too much.#do you know you gave your attitude to your son too? I hope you didn’t give him your inclinations and lies too.#I know you gave me your attitude. I’m trying to be better than that. but it’s hard when that’s what you know.#how does it feel? getting that right back at you now? finally facing the consequences?#but then we are all facing the consequences of your decisions. while you’re sitting pretty having your cake and eating theirs too.#you probably don’t even care. Jamie is probably feeling just fine. and I’m still hurting.#Spotify#(I should clarify. bc reading it back sounds sketch. when I said about his son I meant my brother. my brother has his attitude and more.)
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Imagine Gojo setting a condition to his Clan for him to give them an heir. "It's HER or no one." The elders aren't happy that he chose a non-sorcerer, but they reluctantly agree... that is, if Gojo manages to convince you.
“Come here-...I’m far from done, kitten.”
God, Gojo still makes you nervous, with his mouth buried between your legs for longer than you can even imagine. Why are you still so nervous? Is it the proximity? Is it the way he leans in to make eye contact while he licks you? Is it those blue piercing eyes? Or that immensely amused smirk that twists his lips just enough so he can keep eating you out?
"Mmmmm... stop moving so much, (Y/N). We are making a mess of my desk..." he purrs, all too pleased to watch your eyes roll to the back of your skull. "That’s my good girl..." the man between your legs, praises, "my future bride to be...-"
"T-...that's still u-...under discussion, S-Satoru." Your quivering protests are sweet chords of music for him, "I already t-.... told you that I d-don't want to be part of the jujutsu world.... nor b-belong to a-.... any clan."
"Not any clan, pretty. MY clan."
You hear him slurp greedily at your folds and feel a warm trick of saliva run down your ass, and when your mouth is about to throw another protest-... Satoru Gojo makes a vacuum on your quivering clit with that annoying mouth of his. Your thighs tense and the muscles of your stomach follow, a quake that rakes your entire form, making you a pathetic mock of a human.
Both your hands fly to cover your mouth and Satoru chuckles deep, amused rumble that cracks the rest of your self-control. Your cheeks grow in the most adorable shade of pink, and your breathing hastens.
"So CUTE~"
Satoru whimpers, dumb founded, his broad chest puffing with so much fervor, so much blinding endearment that he feels like about to explode. He can see the doubt in your beautifully contorted features, and he dips his tongue inside you, fucking you with that fat tongue to try to make you agree to his terms, to be HIS.
Dammit! You feel… amaaaaaazing. Why? It’s like a flip inside you only he can switch at will—... even so, he’s dangerous, you remember. He’s a special grade sorcerer, you remember. He’s a mystery, he’s unpredictable—he’s invincible, unreadable, impenetrable and lethal with a playful smile, and you really know absolutely nothing about him.
Yet, he insists that you belong together. He insists on putting his child inside you, he insists that he will take care of you and his life will be yours. He insists that you belong in his world and if you're not there, he won't be there either. He insists on fucking you stupid every chance he gets, bending you over surfaces, of course! Always putting his coat or his shirt or any piece of his clothing, just so your skin never comes into contact with any unworthy surface. He insists, he insists and insists and insists...
“Fuck—” he growls, grabbing your hips, “—why are you... h-how do you manage to always have me wrapped around your little finger—?”
“I want you, Satoru-u... but I can't-”
He stops you with a soft but firm, squeeze to your waist.
“Not like this,” he pants, tipping his head to slowly lick a strip down your sweet cunt, a farewell caress, the whisper of a kiss to his last effort before lunch time is over and he can try again, later. “Let me pretend just for a little longer that you said yes—"
Your gaze drops to his trembling thighs and the warmth that settles in the pit of your tummy is intensified by the clear drop of precum shining at the tip of his gloriously thick and long cock, now achingly swollen and a mouthwatering shade darker in color than the rest of him.
“I'm yours, Satoru-” you offer in a quiet whisper and can feel him shake his head. “You aren't.... but I’ll make you change your mind. You, just watch me, kitten."
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y'know that one tumblr post that's like. 'there's characters that even if I don't talk about them often are still stored somewhere in my head on a back burner somewhere, still going'. I've got like that but evil now for cwilbur fuck man I care about that character a lot
#wilbur soot#cwilbur#I've like. I had a fic planned to process grief through if certain people I care about Died that used Him as the vessel#level fucked up about him#I listened to playlists themed around a ship he was in as most of my music taste for a solid year and so much music reminds me of him#I processed a huge thing that'd been wrecking my mental health for years through the lens of crime boys#I have an ongoing crisis about how communities and such keep collapsing and guess who I'd handed that emotion to in a fic! guess who's part#of that very same crisis now!#I realized I was trans by daydreaming pogtopia era self insert fanfic! he wasn't Directly involved in that scene but Fuck!#he has claws in my brain!! Shaking him and it's meant to be angry but it's too blorboish a behavior and I stop and stare at him in my hands#I still care! FUCK!#. so yeah thats how im doin#I've mostly kept this constrained to discord I think but fuck it we ball my 95ish tumblr followers get to hear it too#so. yeah. still fucked up about this 5 months later. at least im not crying Daily anymore that was getting old#it's still a good thing it all came to light but people do underestimate like. how much fiction helps people
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my weirdest hang up is that whenever I hear a hard G sound followed by an I I get a little unpleasant jolt
#rue rants#As far as I can tell it’s from that time I got followed around in the hallways by three kids calling me “gyp” over and over again#I am. Not romani? I have no idea what they meant and I have no idea why it affected me like this#Anyway. Yeah can’t stand the sound now it’s kinda funny actually#Shame because a song I really like has the sound in the chorus so listening to music is randomly taking -1 hp sometimes
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