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i think taking a break from writing smut for like almost a year has been rly refreshing bc i think it made me stop questioning if my writing is interesting without sex and just write it how i want. and then tbh a part of me has realized i like writing without the sex half the time. it’s nice. it’s fun to explore intimacy in as many non sexual ways as you can
#not that i don’t like writing smut#bc tbh sometimes u just have to write gojo cumming#to feel fulfilled#but#yeah idk#dipping my toes back into sm.ut has been a journey#bc on one hand i actually didn’t like it at all when i started writing it again#i was like bro how did i write this so often#this sucks ass i will go back to sfw fluff cuteness#but then i slowly got back into the swing of things#and now it’s like#ok yeah i did miss this a bit#but i think if anything#the break was good for me it made me#overall more confident in my writing and it’s ability to compel / draw in an audience without sex appeal#but also just have more plot based development#which is why i’m so happy w that post canon geto fic#bc me of a year ago#could never fathom writing 10k words of no smut#yeah anyway ramble over#but that being said#ima till write pure filth for october LMAO
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The only problem with getting a girlfriend (besides the Doubt™) is the fact that as least 75% of my music is now a billion times less relatable
like. Yeah it’s still good. But music is just so much better when I can connect to it imo
#My music was like “oh no I’m unlovable” and “all my friends will abandon me” and Angry™ and Sad™#And now it’s like#I have a much more positive outlook on life now that I’m 90% sure there’s hope for me yet in terms of dating#If I had any songs in my playlist about the Doubts™ then I’m sure this would be a bit less of an issue#But alas#I doubt once again that I’d be able to make a song that describes how I feel#It’s too specific#And it’s not like I can ask for help in finding songs about it#Because that would require talking about the Doubt™#girlfriend tag
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Elijah is just full vampire nazi atp because wdym ‘protecting Roman’ is enough of a reason to kill Hayley and Hope, one of which is an ACTUAL child by the way (unlike Roman) 🧍 He’s literally saying they can just die. He does not give a single fuck about those dog whistles, much less Greta murdering a child and her mother. All because Antoinette is afraid Roman will get something he deserves for trying to help kill someone’s daughter. Roman is by all intents and purposes (and rules of the TVDU universe) a grown ass man/vampire like give me a fucking break man
#I hate Elijah idc#I hate this man#Insufferable#He was on extremely thin ice even before he killed Marcel and then the ice broke#And now it’s like#Nope#anti elijah mikaelson#texts#tvdu
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Ok so I became an adult and suddenly men are attractive. I thought it was just that one guy but now it’s like three. Like yeah you’re pretty and muscley and nice I’d go in a date if you asked.
I mean what.
#I’m so used to not caring about guys at all#and now it’s like#ooo pretty boy…and he’s super sweet??#actually maybe it’s just the super sweetness I’m attracted to#because there are other guys I know my friends all think are hot#but they’re kinda assholes even though I like them as friends#so I don’t like them romantically#(I also may just be majorly mentally rebounding because of boy circumstances)#(being in love sucks guys 2/10 would not recommend)#(I’ll go back to enjoying it next week bet)#softbobamilktae txt#zee is in love tag
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blaming dead plate on my sudden interest in cannibalism and gore and dismemberment. very silly times
#obviously i mean just in fiction#like guys i did not like gore before i joined this community#like heavy gore and vivisections freaked me out and i didn’t like reading about them#and now it’s like#THATS KINDA COOL ACTUALLY!!#it’s fun#like soo fun i love it#i love silas#i’m so normal about all of this#wyrms says stuff#and yeahh if it wasn’t obvious i mean silas and aspen are kiiinda inspired by vince and rody#but not really#anyway i recommend all of u play dead plate it’s seriously amazing and i guarantee you’ll like it#wyrms lore#cannibalism
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#Barricade Day was so fun when I was in high school and young and innocent#and now it’s like#oh god this book is still disturbingly relevant and i’m so tired
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#i HAVE developed the inability to live with people and idk when it happened#i used to be so different ! my cousin used to stay over for like a week straight and i would enjoy every day!!#and now it’s like#if i have to spend 4+ days in a row with ANYONE outside of my immediate family i start crying in the shower#i need to!!!#get a grip#god i think i just get overstimulated#and i think ‘doing nothing by myself’ time has gotten more and more important for my brain#like tbh i used to dread being alone but now i can kind of make myself enjoy my own company#i don’t mind the routine 5 hour drives i have to make to and from my parents anymore#like they used to bother me but now it’s just some nice chill time to vibe with myself#which is cool!!!!#i’m glad i like me#it is still really hard to self initiate things though#like when i’m alone for too many days in a row i can SO EASILY fall into inaction#it’s 1 day i sleep too late and then the next 3 days i can’t self regulate or self motivate myself to start a task#i AM still working on that one#though i will say it’s gotten better#i know this is a stupid thing to brag about but i started watching abbott elementary (on my own) and now i am actually#almost done with season 1#i have NEVER been able to start or finish a show on my own#i lack the executive function to make myself start things#even things i like and want to do#but!!!!!#i am beginning to do things on my own#ANYWAYS this got lost on me but back to the main point jesus fucking christ i need some time to myself
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6 week post open heart today <3
#idk how to feel#obviously happy that it’s done and i can sneeze now without feeling like my chest is exploding#but idk. i just feel like. weird.#my life was on hold for a year because of this#and now it’s like#i don’t have that as an ‘excuse’ anymore#like what now#drews drama
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I’m in this post and I don’t like it
i am. so sorry if i have ever used the phrase “i have an au where—” and led you to believe that there is an actual fic out there for you to read rather than, at best, a post where i explain the concept, and at worst it is simply something that lives in my brain
#yeah i have a lot of aus#and even more that aren’t posted#and now it’s like#whelp#hi#I have like 5 aus here’s all the braindumps for them but the fics#yeahhh those don’t exist#or if they do they’re unfinished#reblog
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some of my favorite woven tapestries, by Cecilia Blomberg:
Point Defiance Steps
Mates
Rising Tides
Vashon Steps
#woven tapestry#weaving#fiber art#fiber crafts#textile art#hand woven#art#water#*#*mostnotes#I'm glad people like these as much as I do#I can NOT stop thinking about the first one ever since I saw it#now I'm not the only one hehe
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writing advice for characters with a missing eye: dear God does losing an eyes function fuck up your neck. Ever since mine crapped out I've been slowly and unconsciously shifting towards holding my head at an angle to put the good eye closer to the center. and human necks. are not meant to accommodate that sorta thing.
#like it started with me just holding things more towards my right#but the things started shifting more towards center and my head turns instead#like. when im driving especially i have to keep my head turned so i can see on coming traffic#and when im around people ive noticed i position myself so my body is facing them and then turn my head to get them actually#centered in my now very right biased field of view#so anyways draw blorbo bleebus cheated to that 3/4s angle without guilt#at least one one eyed fucker actually does that
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It’s crazy and fucked up that being yourself is actually the solution.
#veesaysthings#when I was a teen I was like ‘be yourself’?? that’s such a nothing statement!#but now I get it. yeah.
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Hi @spurgie-cousin, thank you for what you wrote. You sent this message to me literal months ago (I think), and I just. Did not respond or read the message. For ages. But now my life has calmed down a bit, and I felt emotionally ready to see what you had responded with, and I really appreciate your care ❤️❤️❤️
I’m not sure what I’m going to do, but it’s wonderful knowing that people like you will be out there when I try to find community with others. And I hope that others will read what you wrote, and know that there is community out there for them too.
Things are always going to be tough, and terrifying and depressing and negative sometimes, but there are a also lot of good things and people out there. You can find a lot of good if you keep on looking for it. I’m going to keep on looking it, and someday I’m going to find myself with a community I can thrive in.
Thank you for the reminder.
This is such a good, succinct way of describing the illusion of choice many fundamentalist women and men have when it comes to life paths.
#honestly I was kinda just shook that someone responded to my tags#which is dumb on the ‘read the tags’ website#but some part of me felt like what I put into the tags goes into the void#so when someone replied#it was like#oh shit#the void has responded#and now it’s like#the void has responded with kind words of encouragement and personal experience#so uh#thank you void?#:)#religious trauma
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i feel strongly about this
#every time i turn on the captions on a big famous youtubers vid and it just uses autogenerated im like grrrrr#but every time i turn on captions on a one person project 4 hr video essay and theyre manually written an angel gets its wings#im not deaf or HoH either. i just fucking lvoe captions#text#1k#2k#uh oh people rightfully so said it was ironic i didnt put alt text on this. there is alt text now!#5k#10k#20k#30k#40k
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I was rambling on the issue of museums and human remains and how certain populations are more likely to have their bodies put on display to be gawked at and then went "well I guess the Pompeii casts were of Europeans. there are bones in there right?" and Googled it to make sure, at which point I confirmed that yes there are bones in there, but more interestingly DNA testing revealed that a cast of an adult holding a child everyone assumed was a mother and child were, in fact, a man and a kid entirely unrelated to him. Honestly that's more moving to me. Maybe they were connected in a way other than blood, but maybe a stranger saw a child when the world was ending and thought the one thing he could do was hold them.
#or maybe he was the babysitter. idk#crack open a pompeii cast like a kinder egg and there's teeth in there#now personally if people wanted to put my bones on display I'd be cool with it#maybe I'll decide to donate myself to science idk. I don't want to be used to practice face lifts though...#writing in my will 'if someone wants to have my skull on their bookshelf that's fine. put a candle inside it'#why this
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