#and now im going on an actual holiday
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It's confirmed! I'm going on a holiday, alone, for the first time ever! I just booked the hotel and got a confirmation email so its official now! Really looking forward to it!
#me#personal#holiday#this is a really big step for me#all the other times i went on holiday were with my family#last year i did a one night away alone for the first time#and now im going on an actual holiday#its 4 nights and 5 days#but still#im going to one of the dutch islands#so no language barriers#really wanted to go back#and now i decided to do it alone#i cant keep waiting for someone to want to go with me#and i want to do stuff like this too#so on my own it is#luckily im used to being alone cause i live alone#i think ill be fine#after being diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and going to therapy#and finding out so much about myself and working through it and findin solid ground again#this is a big step but i am ready and looking forward to it#im gonna still be nervous as hell on traveling day#but i can do this!
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ID: References of Noelle, Kris, Susie and Ralsei from Deltarune. They're in softer, less saturated colors, with blue line art. They all smile or grin, looking to the side, except for Kris, who frowns at the viewer. The first drawing is their light world outfits and Ralsei's chapter one outfit. Differences from canon are: Noelle has brown and white freckles, cheek fluff, brown antlers, a longer skirt and her sweater has a diamond pattern. Kris has light brown skin, freckles, acne, and a mole. Their sweater has an extra stripe. They wear green and white sneakers. Susie has freckles and two moles. She wears unlaced fire patterned sneakers. Ralsei has a poncho.
The second drawing is their dark world outfits and Ralsei's chapter two outfit. Differences: Noelle's nose and inner ears are lighter. She has a hooded poncho and her robe hits the floor. Kris's cape is in trans flag colors, their chest plate has the Deltarune symbol, they wear black sleeves and a belt. Their boots have belts and metal sun adornments. Susie's boots have purple straps and gold spikes. Ralsei is fluffier and his claws are pink.
Their heights are labelled. Noelle is 5'8, Kris is 5'2, Susie is 5'10 and Ralsei is 5'3. Dots for their blush colors are beside their heads, along with Ralsei's glasses colors. End ID
design references for me and basically only me
#deltarune#noelle holiday#kris dreemurr#susie deltarune#ralsei deltarune#described#safe utdr#star art#thought it was finally time for me to make actual references for myself#instead of just going back and color picking from 4 different drawings#like a BEAST#im out of the dark ages i can just open one file now
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good morning and happy fridayayayayyyyy !!!! it’s pretty much the weekend and i’m supa excited (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ! i hope everyone has a good day and you find something that makes ya smile ^_^ 🤍
aren’t they sweet ( ྀི o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅ ) . . ෆ
#need someone to convince me not to track down and buy this figure .#gripping the sink right now i need it so bad#look at their smiles#LOOK.#UGHHHHHFHDHDHDHHDHD#ok#well i might be chronically online today as it’s friday & im one of the only schmucks to actually go into the office#so i’m not gonna give it 110% shh…………#but i will get to some asks + shitpost ! so yay#tonight is going to be very interesting bc i’ve been slowly introducing my cats to my moms cat and tonight they might all get to meet#LOL.#i think it’ll be okay … i hope …. as long as they can tolerate each other by the holidays i’m good !!!!#i have a question id like to ponder but this yap is already getting long and i fear ppl may not see it so i shall ask the void later 🙂↕️🙂#ILUUUU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY !! STAY AMAZEEEE ^_^#smooch.#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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clear eyes, full hearts collection of joemarr/bengals fics :)
Chapters: 2/? — my heart is thrilled by the still of your hand - joemarr, mature | 3.9k Tags: Other Assorted Bengals - Character, Pre-Relationship, but like really toeing the line here guys practically dancing on it insolently, Suits and Ties, The Homoeroticism of Tugging On Your Not!Lover's Tie, Banter Summary: joe wears a suit and tie for game day and has a Moment in it with ja’marr. (a very lighthearted fic of the 'nothing hurts' variety, kind of like my nipple piercings fic! featuring heavy flirting and an emotional support tee in the end for like 3 seconds)
also—joemarr pinky shake, to me:
#my writing#joemarr#joe burrow#ja’marr chase#nfl rpf#fic post#i have returned with an actual fic holy shit#merry christmas if you celebrate it 😃🎄 (its the 26th for me lol) happy holidays if you don't!#spent the entire xmas day with family. living. no actually dying sort of.#then the entire night (and morning) slaving away for thing thing im kind of sick of it 😭#got carried away with the cover lmaoooo all patches from pinterest! some linked in the fic notes :)#i will now sleep and watch hard knocks when i wake up <3#wait no after church bc i didn't get to go today nevermind 😭 goodbye all enjoy <3#if somethings wrong with the fic or the links or the post or literally anything else i will deal with it tomorrow Night i fear
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cherik mpreg son onslaught that charles gave birth to
actually appalled how this is a factual sentence and that this is canonical comic book lore
#snap chats#charles xavier never beating the pregnant allegations thats why they had to make him say it outright recently vjalkjaeklaj#dude no charles better than me tho if i had my intrusive thoughts running around after it fused with my evil ex i wouldve ended it all#wait on that note did i ever tell you guys i liked way of x. i think i did i liked how they actually. Evaluated their laws#deceased at how onslaught inherits charles twink body now but i fw the meaning for it. ok thats onslaught revelation but same arc#still funny as hell from going to a whole ass UNIT to being. Twig#not so disimilar to charles himself really.... ok 'unit' is a strong word but he was a lil heaftier back then but anyways#i should draw onslaught sometime. at the very least him and david#my favorite bit from that whole run was onslaught calling david his step brother#like girl youre right but im crying laughing at the fact it is true#oh no ive reminded myself i still want to get legion of x. it makes me emo i love the bits i skimmed i must have the full story#but the holidays are coming so no time for that#anyways. im done rambling JLFKAERJLAJ
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Merry crisis
#deltarune#noelle deltarune#kris deltarune#susie deltarune#dess deltarune#december deltarune#gaster#my art#i missed watercolors :]#noelle holiday deltarune i wish you the happiest of days#im actually of the opinion that noelle doesn't enjoy Christmas- or can't enjoy it as much anymore#i mean it is literally the holiday dess was named after#i love all the noelle going batshit over Christmas getting closer posts but.. i don't think she enjoys this time of year anymore#but i needed to put her in a cute sweater as her number one fan seeing her happy and comfy adds 9999 years to my life span#susie is eating sans branded fried snow from the outside sidewalk next to the supermarket (now for only 0#dess ate the donut but she wasn't that hungry#if you're reading this i hope you're doing well :] goodnight ❤️
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i've been having an absolutely Hateful time lately but there are still some good things in life namely !!!!!!
-> my housemates in general but specifically them on the balcony with one of them cutting the other's hair which i can both hear a little bit (like in the background) but am also getting picture updates of on whatsapp -> having good interactions with people in stores. LOVE that shit. when u & the cashier r both in a good mood and you feel that connection 10/10 -> new pair of second hand jeans that i love. WITH an absolute slay belt. -> planning on making pancakes tonight (roommate birthday). slay.
#i dont have class tomorrow which im SO bummed out about bc i didnt have class last week bc of the holiday#but now the prof's got some family issues to attend to so obviously good for him that class is canceled#but i only have 2 classes a week and im quite dying to be honest like ok it doesnt matter its all fine#but its all adding up to my Hateful Time Lately. the strugglerrrrrrrr#i Need to do more things in mylife. somebody give me a job PLEAK#actually i will also go work on firday this week so slay at least theres that#ive got a tiny shift at the most well paying job ive ever had that is also fun to do (its at a theatre)#so im happy about that. i hope they tell me to come work for them the entire season#idec about the money i just need stuff to do (i AM also doing volunteer work btw its just not entirely what i want to be doing)#(i need to go to the oxfam bookstore on thursday and see if they need help bc i feel like that will be more fun that what im doing now)
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Aaah. So it's neverending huh.
#my dad had been bugging me about getting a raise for months#it took me a while to actually find who to email to ask and how to go about it too.#but i did it! and i went from 19$ to 20.72$#and i was happy with that#and originally i wasnt going to tell my dad but he wasnt letting up about it and when i told him the numbers#he was dissappointed.he told me he spoke to people working from another company and they make 25#this was while i was stuck out on the supposed to be a hike but was actually hunting trip#now i just feel bad about it again. and i cant get my good feeling back goddamnit#i know its out of love/concern because hes very financially very successful and its tough seeing your kids work so hard and still be poor#but hey im now technically making 40 cents less than your daughter whos a doctor.#you graduated during a time where universities had skip days and they were less focused on proper essay formats#you also had living accommodations where apparently you could make your whole rent in a week of work#you also didnt need to pay for internet the way we do#you also had rrsp matching and Christmas bonuses and health insurance and company retirement funds#you had days off. you ask if i get a certain holiday off. like i havent worked full days christmas eve and boxing day the previous 5 years#also gas probably wasnt 80$/week just to go to and from work#and thats if you work and live in town#we had a phone call and he brought up my wage again this morning
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Related to your anon: Tim didn't want to be Robin forever early on! He expected to be Robin for a little bit and quit. He even said that to Dick, that this wasn't his life plan, he was just doing this to set Bruce straight. He also reiterated this point during the time he quit being Robin because of his dad, though there's an argument to be made that it was a lie by then. Over time the "I won't be doing this forever" morphed into "I'll stop when I'm not needed" to "I'll stop when the world doesn't need Robin" to "??? Quitting? No?"
Yeah but that's kinda why I say that Tim wouldn't of become a hero until way later on if it weren't for Jason dying since he wasn't gun ho to become a hero at 13 he just wanted to be apart of his fav heroes story but he grew to love it and I definitely am one of those people who thinks he was lying since he had the opportunity to stop being Robin and he didn't
#ask#Amaraudermind#also theres things you say and things you mean#ive pointed out before#how little effort tim actually made to find a new robin for bruce#i think subconsciously at least he did want to be the one to be robin#to save batman#ohh but now im thinking#what if tims still robin#bc he became robin to help bruce#and once he stops being robin#he'll no longer have a reason to be a hero#onbu#ive been drinking guys i hope this makes swnsw#im ahhhhhh#im on holidays rn so not that active#going home tomorrow
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If you want to, feel free to share some Eddie and Latter ideas
I love them, they’re so lovely :3
Oh,, I have So Many,,, This is gonna be Long
Met at Howdy's birthday party (his parents, Latter, and Seeya came to visit)
They hit it off great and became pen pals! I've mentioned it before but Latter sends Eddie poems and Eddie send him paper crafts <3
They boost each other's self-esteem! They're both underappreciated and ignored and they cheer each other up
Eddie does genuinely enjoy Latter's poetry. Does he get it? Not completely, but he knows Latter is proud of his work!
Big literature and theatre nerds. I specifically believe they've had at least one Long Indepth conversation about Frankenstein.
Similarly! Theatre kids. Eddie was mostly in the costume and set/prop department while Latter thrived in the Drama on stage
Latter tells Eddie family gossip, and Eddie brings it up when he delivers to Howdy. "How's So and so? Latter said-" You get it. Howdy Is upset lol but cant do anything bc he tells Barnaby the same gossip.
Ship Stuff <3
Latter fell first, Eddie is irresistible <3 He writes not so subtle love poems
Oh man the cuddles. I've also mentioned this before but I'm bringing it up again. Eddie's usually the one Holding in a cuddle, ya know? He's the big spoon. But Latter is like twice his size, with 3x the arms and Wings.
Eddie gets to little spoon and be held/carried and he is flabbergasted but loving every second. Latter can lift him quite easily and That's Definitely New to Eddie. He doesn't know what to do with himself when Latter carries him.
Latter adores holding Eddie, and is greatly amused when he gets flustered.
Side hc to go w/ above! I hc Latter is pathetic in public but is actually very chill when not seeking the approval the others. Like at home he's just vibing! He's still not the most confident butterfly, but he has his moments! He's a Pillar after all and one of many family traits is Confidence.
#OUGH THEM 💕💕💕✨✨✨✨#purple coded characters my beloveds#they're so CUTEEEEE#i drove way more than i thought i was going to today! so im a bit fried!#this is actually my second attempt answering this lol#the last one turned into a ramble about who knows what#Eddie being Held <3#i haven't stopped thinking about it.#i am unwell#they make me insane#I listened to the holiday hulabuloo again <3#Latter's little “hey” when Howdy says Beeya is his fav brother in law. oh man that hurt#i have so many thoughts about the three Pillar siblings#Screams!!#ok ok im going to devour mini cinnamon rolls now!#Have a lovely timezone! Thank you for letting me talk about my purple blorbos <3#welcome home#eddie dear#latter pillar#latter pillar my beloved <3#eddie dear my beloved <3#neon child#dizztalkstoomuch#plz ignore typos :) im hungy
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i fear the 'surely someone's gonna save me' in sunshine baby has an incredible chokehold on me
#this Can't be the energy going into 2025 sighs#sabs speaks#lowkey had like four different meltdowns today over plans being changed and its like. can we be normal#and then my brain had the audacity to be like ur lying.#like girl what the fuck?? in what world are we doing this for fun#and then do u guys know the horror story of like vampire slumbering just have my headphones on genuinely vampire like and out of NOWHERE my#sister is just above me like Hi.#can u fix this dress for me#like in what world do u wake me up like that girl#i fixed the dress but still like. let me live#times like these im considering dropping out truly having that moment over u need to chill out before the stress kills you before the thing#that's supposed to has a chance#if this all seems disconjointed its because it is and is not hope this helps <3#i also want nothing more than to write about my blorbos but i saw people being wrong about them and now im like shit. maybe im wrong about#them#so i cant do it without feeling insane for that reason and for the second reason that i have other obligations#i think it should be illegal for education to give u things to do over the holidays they dont understand how much guilt i will feel not#getting things done and instead feeling horrific and not resting#i also think learning too much about my health has caused me to spiral a lot like the dr's being so chill about it whilst im in debilitatin#pain is not good for me actually. and has triggered the disability grief all over again#having my pmdd and my menstruation at the same time genuinely i felt like female hysteria and im scared for the next one#its a wonder i did Not do It#a little morbid i guess but i have Morbid hormone disorder shrugs#anyways. 2025 be better i hope#so scared to pull my cards for the year#less actually scared and more like. i dont knowww how much i have it in me to be brave anymore#congrats if u made it this far but mostly sorry to my scorpio rising
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man going for a 30 minute walk out in the fresh air really can do things for your mental health for real.
#im a leaving my house hater so i always roll my eyes at that particular piece of advice#but BOY#it sure can be a good idea actually#felt like SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT when i woke up and just fucking. put my spikes on my boots and went out#now i feel almost normal#and my friend said hes gonna come hang out with me after dinner which is nice because i always feel shitty lonely on xmas#GOING TO HAVE A HAPPY FUCKING HOLIDAY WHETHER GOD WANTS ME TO OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I still wanna hear your voice btw :3
I’m very nasal right now though, so a call will have to wait T~T
I wanna hear yours as well :3 daww sickness still striking 😔
#i have an ask tag now and this is it#c the b loved#oooo can your sickness go away before Thursday cause im free that day other than packing and then we can yap without my family having a good#chance of coming into my room lol. and also I have family holiday stuff next week that i don’t actually know the specifics of heh
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I bought a pair of pleasers and ????
Have nowhere to wear them lmfao
There will never be a face reveal on this blog but perhaps ???? A Shoe Reveal???
#i cant show them on my other socials#but I wanna show them offfffffffff#Im prepared for any holiday events where I can get away with wearing thee#and/or my brother’s wedding because they’re all haunt people who like theatrics and want people in outlandish costumes#OR if ever make my debute into the kink community#but ✨for now✨ I just get to bask in the knowledge that I know I look hot af in these?????#there’s a pole class I wanna take but idk at what point the heels actually come into play#im sure they dont just turn you loose in 6-8 in heels on day 1 and say go get em tiger
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tfw u finally go to make urself a dinner plate and some nasty ass man walks into the kitchen, picks up the entire serving bowl of creamed corn and puts his filthy mouth on the bowl like it’s a giant cup and tilts it straight in. multiple times. 🙃
#could you not wait long enough to get a fucking spoon and your own bowl like a civilized human respectful of other people#Seven’s Public Diary#vent#vent post#food mention#yeah no it’s cool it’s fine it’s not like i wanted to eat some too or anything#it’s not like that’s one of the only vegan dishes here that i can therefore eat haha no it’s fine#i guess a normal person wouldn’t let it bother them but my OCD is having none of it. that corn is Tainted with your Mouth Germs now#oh what you want one of the last rolls that i was gonna eat? yeah no that’s cool man that’s fine eat as much as you want! :)#i hate the holidays more and more every year. nothing but stress and for what. i don’t even like these people#but whatever i guess i shouldn’t bitch about it when i choose to remain here#as if everyone with a shitty family has the power and ability to just Leave. i don’t think you realize the extent of my disability#but fucking whatever#someone put dirty plates in the cabinet with the clean ones#someone put the turkey in with a sink full of dishes#someone put the mashed potatoes in the bread box#i’m not even exaggerating#ahhh the joys of being the only sober person here. man what the actual hell. what level of intoxication must one reach to do this shit#whatever it’s fine i just have to learn to stop giving a fuck. let them be stupid and live with the consequences.#it’s late and i’m getting a stress headache. time to go brave the kitchen once more and actually get food this time#then i can be miserable in bed. but with food :) and eat myself sick as a shitty form of self-soothing#but it’s fine today bc it’s literally Eat Too Much day in the US so for once it’s kinda normal#then be too tired and depressed to make myself brush my teeth. and therefore contribute to my dental issues. two birds and all that#am i even making sense anymore. im so tired. of being a person. and like. existing#but im grateful to have food and running water and electricity and a place to sleep and everything else i take for granted#so i should just focus on that and try to ignore all the bad#ough i feel sick. okay Food Time fr this time. let’s hope no one’s in the kitchen now
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