#and now im crying. thanks for coming to my TED talk

[ccaptain]

night terrors 👀

THANK U FOR SENDING *PREPARES TO HIT U WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER FULL OF FEELS* -- @dvouring

kaeya's worst nightmares are when he dreams about killing crepus.

you know how his fear that it was actually his fault was cemented with time? what kaeya fails to see is that, even if he came to his rescue before ursa the drake was going to maim him, what could he have done realistically?? he was young, and most importantly visionless. ever if he rushed here in time, the best he could have done against ursa was to throw his sword at it. like throwing a fucking toothpick at godzilla. it was 100% going to be a bloodbath with many casualties among the knights. including kaeya himself. it's a mix of survivors guilt tinged with the fact that everything else seems to point the blame at him not arriving sooner, and he adamantly refuses to accept the reality that what happened wasn't his fault.

in fact, this translates into a very brief dream where crepus smiles at him, calls him 'son' with all the affection in the world and hugs him. ''it wasn't your fault,'' his adoptive dad tells him, holding him close.

kaeya relaxes in the hold until it starts feeling too warm. it's a warmth that he doesn't deserve, too familiar, too comfortable, and suddendly that hug seems like a straightjacket threatening to crush him. the whole place is on fire, and his lungs are painfully tight-

that's when he drives his sword right between his adoptive father's ribs. sometimes it's the stomach, sometimes he goes straight for the throat. it doesn't matter where it strikes, it's lethal. he slowly takes some steps back and lets crepus body slump to the floor, crimson blood pooling under him catching fire.

he's crying, stomach churning, but all he can manage to say is an almost spiteful ''it is, now.''

[tianhai03]

oh hey look it's april 1st again. happy trans day of visibility 💙💗🤍

[duskandcobalt]

wip wednesday 💕

i'd like to take a brief interlude from my depressive spiral to present a small excerpt from the slutty elriel fic i'm working on, still hoping to get this out this week but taylor swift put a pin in my plans and i've been wallowing in bed for like 96 straight hours.

no warnings here bc im saving the actual slutty content for the full published piece.

hope everyone's having a good week 💖

Elain blindly wandered down the dark hallways.The echo of her heels on the stone floor was menacing, causing the already frantic beat of her heart to rise to an almost worrisome crescendo. It didn’t help that she could barely see and was relying solely on the occasional flickering fae light and the cool, insistent shadow pressed to the small of her back to guide her towards her mystery destination.

It felt like she’d been walking for hours, turning this way and that in the labyrinth that made up the various chambers of this unfamiliar place but finally, the pressure of the shadow on her back eased as she approached an arched door right at the end of the seemingly never ending hallway. She paused in front of it, unsure what to do until the shadow slid up her arm and along her neck, wrapping itself around her ear. 

Go.

Elain swallowed, her gloved hand reaching out for the doorknob. 

Subconsciously, she knew where that shadow had been guiding her. Knew that the neat, dark interior of this room was the perfect match for what she’d always imagined in those salacious dreams of hers.

She’d been ready to see him. Aching to see him. But to open the door and get her first glimpse of him… she hadn’t quite been ready for that. 

Azriel was reclined in a leather chair behind his desk. The jacket he'd been wearing earlier had been discarded and left to drape on cabinet at the far end of the room. The first few buttons of his crisp white shirt was undone, providing a glimpse of the tantalising tattoos hidden underneath. He had one long leg folded over the over, one ankle resting on his knee. And on that knee, cradled by his large, scarred hand, sat a short glass of amber liquid that perfectly matched his honeyed eyes.

“I’ve been waiting for you.”

[tabletop-nightmare]

Something so miserable about playing a tabletop system that is actively updating. Having something character based you couldn't use for two years, finally finally have it in your grasp only to move to the newest update an actually have the aspect completely deleted from existence. Actually legitimately crying in club like.... you took out the vampires ability to attack... with their fangs.

[prosebushpatch]

Okay, I think the problem is after i read a good fairy tale book, it’s like I just popped a candy in my mouth and there’s a sugar buzz of plot bunnies hopping around my thoughts.

[campirebitesarchive]

hi besties i just got back from the cardiologist and the good news is that i got answers and im not dying but the bad news is i have mitral valve prolapse and i am relieved and also still scared because it is a valve disease in my heart and it causes a bit of mitral regurgitation which is scary and i am being so brave about it

[sosquaresowhat]

So my mil kinda dug at me for my weight today which I don't mind bc that just kinda happens and I know she did it out of concern but... idk somehow that makes it sting a little more?

I'm just trying to do my best :/

[rose-tinted-kalopsia]

i just need you to know that xavier's event chapter is making me so emotional and i have. i have small tiny thoughts bc (a) MYTH PARALLELS and (b) CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT so i'll leave screenshots under the cut bc spoilers, but. but i'm 😭 my heart 😭😭😭😭 they're so SWEET in this i'm seriously going to cry and this is JUST THE FIRST DAY OF THE EVENT 😭

"i found you."

WHAT IF I STARTED SOBBING!!

LOOK AT HIM :( AND THAT LITTOL SMILE :( THE SIGH OF RELIEF WHEN HE SAYS IT :(

IT MIMICS HIS LIGHTSEEKER MYTH CHAPTER 6 AND MY BELOVED SHINING TRACES CARD SO WELL ??!?????!!!!? THE DARKNESS... THE UNCERTAINTY... AND THEN THERE'S LIGHT AND XAVIER IS THERE TO PULL HER OUT OF THE DARKNESS AND HE'S SO RELIEVED

AND YOU KNOW THAT HE WOULD REPEAT THAT AS MANY TIMES AS HE EVER NEEDS TO

BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT THAT DARKNESS TO BE FINAL FOR HER AGAIN.

BECAUSE "NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IT TAKES, NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE... I WILL FIND YOU."

AND THEN. "I thought you were the treasure I needed to find" AND "we won't be lonely. we'll have each other as company." 😭😭😭😭

BEC HE DOESN'T CARE 😭 HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE HE JUST WANTS HER HE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH HER AND 😭😭😭 AND ULURU AND HIS AND HER LITTLE PLANET AND HOW HE JUST WANTS A QUIET LITTLE LIFE WITH MC AND AND AND AND

AND THIS SCENE WAS SO SOFT. THEY WERE HAVING A MOMENT AND THE MUSIC PLAYING WAS SO ROMANTIC AND I JUSJTJSJFBSNGBSHGJSJJGD

"my magic hat! i forgot—" "i didn't."

(A), ACTS OF SERVICE CORE HELLO

but alSO DO YOU GUYS REALIZE THAT HE'S BEING SO FORWARD NOW? THAT THIS INTERRUPTION OF MC'S WORDS SAYS SO MUCH?

THAT HE'S SAYING THAT SHE'S ALWAYS AY THE FOREFRONT OF HIS MIND. THAT HE'S ALWAYS THINKING OF HER. THAT HE'S ALWAYS LOOKING AT HER. THAT HE KNOWS. SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO SPEAK OR DO ANYTHING, HE HAS THAT MUCH LOVE FOR HER.

AND MC CUPS HIS CHEEK.

SHE'S RECIPROCATING THE AFFECTION AND THE LOVE AND SHE'S. SHE WANTS TO DO SOMETHING FOR HIM TOO. SHE'S NOT HIDING IT NOR SHYING AWAY FROM IT AND

FOR ONCE. IT ALL FEELS SO. NATURAL. 😭😭😭😭 COMPARED TO ALL THEIR PREV EVENTS WHERE THE SOFT MOMENTS HAD SOME TENSION WITH THEM BECAUSE OF ALL THE UNSPOKEN WORDS BUT THIS TIME MC RECIPROCATES

SHE'S SAYING SHE KNOWS, TOO; SHE'S SAYING SHE NOTICES, TOO; SHE'S SAYING SHE LOOKS AT HIM. SHE SEES HIM. SHE THINKS OF HIM. SHE CARES AND SHE LOVES.

AND THEN HE SIMPLY TURNS IT BACK TO HER BECAUSE HER HAPPINESS HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO IMPORTANT TO HIM WHAT IF I CRIED GUYS WHAT IF I. CRIED.

which also "humph, some people just have no taste"? ITS THE WAY THIS IS PHRASED THAT DISPLAYS CONFIDENCE, SURENESS— she's not just looking at him in a state of wonder and " waaaah he's so pretty 🥺" SHE'S ESSENTIALLY GOING "that's my man and it's a shame that you can't see how handsome he is, but that's your loss!"

IM GOING TO SCREAM SHE'S SO. SURE OF HER FEELINGS FOR HER IN THIS AND SHE'S JUST AS FORWARD ABOUT IT AS HE IS AND AND

THE PROGRESS IN THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SO FUCKINGGGGGGG CLEAR IM YELLING SO HARD

+bonus 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 he really just 😭 all he thinks about is her 😭😭😭😭 a mage plushie 😭😭😭

this has all been incoherent but the conclusion is: i love xavier ✋ that is all ✋

thank u for coming to my ted talk

[claritys-silly-things]

It’s that time again yall

Headcanons! It’s a long one this time

Emetophobia tw

- (I think I can classify this as modern) Rip sodapop curtis you would’ve loved saying “I’m just a girl 🎀”

- Soda never liked haircuts. When he was a small feral child his long hair would get tangled a lot, but he’s tender headed as FUCK so he would scream and cry when his momma brought the brush out. Darry put sodas hair into braids sometimes just for fun and soda didn’t mind bc it kept his hair from getting tangled, and then it didn’t hurt to brush. He’s always had really soft hair and it grows super fast.

- Jealous little soda asksjks (this was about soda being jealous over pony getting attention as a baby but I don’t wanna edit the original ramble I wrote down)

- When ponyboy was born he just kind of STARED. No crying or anything just 👁️👁️. Even Darry cried when he was born. Soda cried a lot.

- Adding on, Darry and pony were pretty quiet babies. They still cried for food and stuff sometimes but not a lot. Soda was a LOUDDD crier, and a frequent one too. It was the type of crying that sounds like it hurts the baby’s throat cause they’re shrieking their head off. Also soda would cry for, like, the first year of his life if he was ever handed to his dad.

- If Johnny survived the fire and got a wheelchair, he’d be running over people’s feet. Constantly. Just because. Or bc they asked for it. Either way, the moment he gets a hang of that wheelchair it is OVER for yall. And probably before that too.

- Ponyboy gets the same. Goddamn. Thing. At EVERY restaurant. Partly because it scares him to order anything else, partly because he’s picky asf. He makes sure it’s there on the menu and has his order memorized by now. “Chicken tenders, fries, and a Pepsi please.” He’s tried to ask for other things in the past like eggs, cuz he likes those, but the moment they asked him “how would you like them done” he just stared at Darry because he didn’t know what all the different types of eggs were, and now he’s scared bc he’s taking longer, and the server is still there, so he just got sunny side up eggs and they were slimy and he wanted to go home and cry (based on a true story sadly)

- Basically pony has anxiety and probably autism (so me)

- Ponyboy likes avocado. That’s it that’s the headcanon. It’s like one of the only healthy-ish things he’ll eat.

- Soda gets suuuper nauseous really easily, and pony gets carsick on occasion. So the first time pony went to a theme park, his family was scared that he would throw up like soda. They go on a ride and he’s like “yall im fine dawg.” Soda is jealous bc pony can go on rides unaffected (soda will still go on rides anyways, he just throws up afterwards)

- Pony is the most PALE ASS BITCH you’ve ever seen. He burns soo easily. His face gets red really quickly, no matter what’s going on. The only time he gets the slightest bit darker is when he burns and tans. Two-bit has been like “you ain’t white you translucent” multiple times because in the right lighting you can see pony’s veins. It’s even worse because soda and Darry tan so wonderfully, and pony looks like he had an allergic reaction if he doesn’t reapply his sunscreen when he’s supposed to. I feel like Mrs Curtis is the reason for this, she didn’t tan. Mr Curtis did tho.

- Pony has mild (severe) ocd

- Marcia’s last name is smith she is white-Hispanic on one side and Native American on the other thank you for coming to my TED talk

- Marcia is Cuban and Native American

- Marcia’s full name is Marcia smith that’s it that’s the end

It’s funny cuz I listed these things like three times and just forgot about the other two

- Twobit is Brazilian end headcanon

- Mr Curtis had autism and Mrs Curtis had inattentive adhd

- Mr Curtis was half Mexican on his mom’s side and half Irish on his dad’s side. Mrs Curtis was full Italian-American.

- Darrys the typa guy to make pony and soda turn off a show or movie if it talks about possession or like demonic stuff/soul stealing stuff

- (Modern au) Darry will get a text from ponyboy about something, like “can I go in your room rq” and he sees it but doesn’t actually open the text message until later and like, two hours later he’ll just respond “no” and thinks it’s the funniest shit ever

[persesphonestears]

Incorrect Task Force 141 + Y/N quotes

A/N: My Y/N's are intended to be read as if the reader/Y/N is male (If you continue to read it'll make more sense) Also Bold is actions and Italics is thoughts

Warnings: Swearing, Slight talk of suicide, slight drug usage

Y/N: Feels like I should be worried about something.

Gaz: What? Why? What is it?

Y/N: I dunno •_•

Price, Ghost, Soap, Gaz, Y/N: .....

Price: What's that beeping sound..?

Y/N: OH THE BOMB *speeds out of room*

Gaz: Oh oka- WAIT THE FUCKING WHAT-?!

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Y/N: recording AHH

Gaz: Ahh stop I coulda dropped my food

Y/N: wheezing

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Ghost when he's high: We all die. You either kill your self or get killed.

Ghost: screaming at Soap WHAT YOU GONNA DO

Soap: crying

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Soap: Hey you feeling a'ight?

Y/N: Yeah just haven't been able to think straight. Balls. Two guys holding hands. Dick. Dudes butts. Captain Price. Wiener.

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Ghost: I love you bitch.

Y/N: Omg

Ghost: I ain't ever stop loving you

Y/N: kicking their legs giggling

Ghost: Biiiiiitch

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Ghost: ‪So you just gonna bring me a birthday gift on my birthday to my birthday party on my birthday with a birthday gift‬...?

Soap: ...Happy birthday?

Ghost: smashes his beer over Soaps head

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Soap: So no head?

Soap: Smashes his phone and walks away

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Gaz: So basically, what's I was thinking of was um

Soap: punches Gaz

Gaz: Aw fuck I can't believe you've done this.

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Y/N: Looking at deers excitedly

Price: Dad sneeze

deers get scared and run away

Y/N: Really?

Price: Oh what I'm not allowed to sneeze??

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🦝Y/N😈: *sent one video attachment*

🪖Price🎣: What is this?

Opens video

Gaz: I saw you hanging out with Caitlin yesterday

Soap: R-Rebecca it's not what you think!

Gaz: I won't hesitate bitch pulls out his gun

closes video

💀Ghost👻: tf

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Soap: Hey how much money you have?

Y/N: Idk like 69 cents?

Soap: Oh you know what that means!

Y/N: tearing up I don't have enough money for chicken nugget

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Price: Y/N, I want you to take the lead for this mission.

Y/N: Running away FUCK THIS SHIT IM OUT!

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Y/N: Price look it's the good cush!

Price: This is the dollar store how good can it be

Soap and Gaz: giggling

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Gaz: Even though I look like a burnt chicken nugget, I still love myself

Y/N: Kisses his cheek

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Ghost: Stop the games stop the games.

Everyone turns to look at him

Ghost: Someone left an ice cube on the floor and now my sock is wet.

Ghost: Pulling out one of his knives Who the fuck wants to die?

Y/N: Booking it out of the room

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A/N - Thank you for coming to my ted talk :)

[st4rv3rr1]

so uh the last post if you don't understand it

The first line that said "Im bored" is the reader in every sagau fic being the imposter

Then the second line that said "Im not" is the fake one but they're nice?

So reader was put into a guillotine while the fake was being put in the throne to watch the reader getting killed

The fake was crying for reader but the reader was not

Tbh the "Blood of pure" Indicates that the first line was their "god" because they're pure

Then the "Blood of sin" is the fake one

Then at the end "are you laughing now" because the archons are laughing at them its like they are mocking the archons for killing them while the

Fake was still crying saying "Im not" I just repeated their first line and because they're not laughing and ye

Thank you for coming to my ted talk, I really appreciate it (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

[artsyannierose]

Nene’s Dead Corpse and her ghost bf

randomly made a crap ton more sense to me

why?

fricking school (screw school I hate you (no not rly I’m just stressed))

Anyway I’m a biomed class where unit 1 is studying medical investigations forensic science style

and one of the things is like, what happens to a person after the body has been dead for a while (post mortem or sum, see im learning :D)

Things like algor mortis, livor mortis, I’ve heard of. In fact I’ve even studied the clouding of the corneas before, but it never got to me till today

maybe it’s cause I cannot for the life of me study forensics without my wild imagination giving me nightmares or just panicking when I’m alone but aNyWays

I tend to imagine characters associated with death in these scenarios so I don’t lose it in class💀

*cough* Nene *cough cough*

So as I was taking notes on the slideshow, some of the images of clouded corneas reminded me strangely of something familiar, but at that point I couldn’t tell. There’s something haunting about the eyes (or maybe it’s just my over-analytical brain loving small details like this) they’re GORGEOUS

LIKE

IDK THEYRE PRETTY

Maybe it’s ‘cause the true color of the iris is completely visible in all its glory, without the pupil obscuring it

(something like this?? A little vivid tho lol)

but like

there’s no

life

no reflection, no emotion…nothing (which is so hauntingly beautiful leave me alone I’m a sucker for this now)

it’s literally just an eye with nothing but color

and then it hit me…it’s exactly the look Nene had when Mirai fast-forwarded her time

you can see in the image it’s just her plain magenta eyes with a fuzzy de-saturated blob in the center…aka clouded corneas

And that honestly made me realize that in this scene she’s not—she’s not even unconscious

No she’s literally, physiologically dead

THAT IS A CORPSE HE IS HOLDING

she is literally a dead body this hits me so hard😭😭

and I can imagine algor mortis kicked in by then, her body was probably cold to the touch

so imagine how he felt, and I’m aware people have analyzed his emotions but just think about it

he’s always seen her so full of life and hope, and now all he has left is an empty shell of her, cold and dead with no life left inside

…just like him

the more I think about it Hanako is just an animated corpse

he has no reflection in his eyes most of the time because he is ✨dead✨

I mean Mei, Mitsuba, and Hanako don’t have a little white reflection dot like Nene and Kou

Or maybe I’m overthinking it and Nene’s eyes are just super reflective

even for someone who presumably took his own life, he probably never saw tsukasa’s body start postmortem and actually feel dead bc it looked extremely bloody ngl (I’m guessing he killed himself right after 💔)

and now he’s holding someone he cares about like this for the first time and I’ll bet that scarred him

and he figured out that never, never ever did he ever want to see his sweet assistant like this again, lifeless in his arms

and so after that, cue Hanako in his villain era who basically became a yandere the entire picture perfect lmao

and he was unbelievably adamant about it too

I mean honestly if I held anybody I knew lifeless like that I’d be scarred for life and crying for days

seeing the light drained from someone’s eyes is so interestingly sad to me

Look at the difference:

Happy

vs Sad/Determined

vs Depressed (ig??)

vs Dead

She still has so much emotion in her eyes

and then d e a d

literally looks like a porcelain doll

wait she looks so pale in the last image compared to the others now that I think about it

I love aidairo’s eye for detail it’s so fun to figure out

Well anyways thanks for coming to my Ted Talk essay atp-

IT’S PAST 1 AM AND I SHOULD BE STUDYING FOR SAID BIOMED CLASS AND HERE I AN GOING ON A TANGENT ABOUT A FICTIONAL CHARACTER’S EYES

send help

anyways excuse me while I grab a box of strawberries to munch on and cry my eyes out all over my homework before I sleep-

[crippling-pages]

Watched the two new Lego Friends episodes on YouTube today and...

EMOTIONS OUCH

anyways spoilers undercut as i cry and rant

For the Fright Night ep, honestly im glad that we got an episode with no Ley-La drama. It felt nice to have a break and just see the group have fun XD

also LIANN AND NOVAAAAAA HJMMMMM

"We're her friends!"

"*GASP* SHE SENT ME HEARTS~"

guys. guysguysguysguysGUYS they're lesbians <3

The ending was hilarious with Autumn XDD She's so cool omg and Olly actually fainting was smth i found myself finding funny lol

And for Olly's Quest for Fame... i feel like one things clear;

He definitely has some childhood trauma going on.

Him being sensitive about the hate comments, causing him to believe what they're saying about him, and doing what they say and getting and causing him to be more obsessed with everything.

I think he might've been bullied as a kid. I said this before but in this world if your a guy who's passion is clothing and fashion or something un-man like, you get called things (cough looking at you insta comments cough). I also feel like he might've not had as much money growing up; like his family was lower middle class at best, so that might be why Olly was so... controlling? Obsessive? About money and fame.

For his craving for fame, money, being recognized; him being bullied (troll comments), money (not having a lot growing up, his parents having trouble with money), and him wanting to be seen. He wants people to know what he's doing, that's he's doing something important something that people love and admire him for. Something I doubt he got as a child.

And for the way he's treating Paisley... it's obvious that he doesn't mean too. He never, ever, EVER will hurt Paisley on purpose, and we all know that. He's just blinded by the thought of finally being seen to realize that Paisley doesnt want to do any of it...

Another thing I was to talk about what he said; "My outfits are my identity!" That's not just something you just say, without any meaning. Designing outfits is his passion, one of the things he's loved all his life, and something thats always been there for him. And if what I said about his childhood is true, he's probably feeling very provoked and insecure about himself now, and he feels like he needs to be better.

Not saying this excuses how he's treating Paisley; Heck, I love love Paisley but she herself has to try and speak up to Olly but she's afraid she's going to lose him. And Olly thinks he's helping Paisley do what she loves, but he's gotten caught up in it with himself and now he can't see what's right in front of him.

On a different note; ZAC. This dude has come a long way from the first episode. He's literally AMAZING. His character development>>>>>>>>>>>> He's being such a good friend to Paisley, and they're friendship is so pure and kind <3 (but it better stay platonic, lego. gimme some friendship that stay friendships!!)

Also Aliya and Liann now know who Ley-La is!! I dunno if this is good or bad-

Olly's talk with Zac and then Aliya, I feel like this proves that he has something internal monsters to deal with but instead is projecting them onto the whole Ley-La thing.

But thats it. I NEEEEEEED Olly to apologize to Paisley and for him to see his mistakes; it better be REALLY good Lego, and it better be one of the BEST character arcs of all time.

thank you for listening to my ted talk.

[dragon-of-the-dungeon]

DOCTOR WHO HAS HAD ME F*CKING CRYING FOR THE LAST HOUR

⚠️DOCTOR WHO SPOILERS ⚠️

HOW DARE THEY DO THIS TO ME 😭😭😭

I remember when I put it on to watch I saw the name Rogue as the title and though 'haha what if its abt DnD' you know coz, rogues a class in dnd and then I was like oh they should totally make one abt dnd some time (im a hard-core dnd fan - it's what got me into the stranger things fandom) but... ANYGAYS! I saw rogues ship and i was like omg he listened kylie AND THEN I SAW F*CKING DND DICE!!!!!!!! AND THEY HAD THIS WHOLE CONVO ABT IT AND I WAS JUST AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

And then the STARTED FLIRTING HXIBYVSVRUSGF E, IT WAS LIKE GHEEPISODE COULDNT GET ANY BETTER, IT HAS DND AND GAYNESS AND HSHSUDUD7DU, AND THEN I WAS LIKE OMG WHAT WOULD THE DOCTORS CLASS BE (Im still trying to work that out) but then they HAD FUCKING COSPLAYERS AND AT THIS POINT I WAS EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO THE EPISODE AND ROGUE AND THEG GAD COXPLAYERS AND I WAS LITERALLY JUMPING EVERYWHERE FLAPPING ANDHSUVHBVUEHRHVEHRUGUHERG BUT THEN,

...

THEY KISSED AND I WAS LITERALLY GOING TO EXPLODE I TELLU NOW

And the they had to kill him (sorta)

They

KiLLED

HIM

NÒÓÕŐØÓŒÕ

And it made it even worse the fact he did it for the doctor

I literally have no words for how heartwarming that was

And then I spent the next hour crying abt it

Like, he'll, if I react like this for a character I have only known for under an hour I don't even want to think about if any stranger things character dies. I am too emotionally attached to rogue and have decided to make a memorial for him...

WHYYYYYYY

Anyways, here are some of my fav bits/idk gifs???

THE DICE! THE NAME! THE SCENE! THE SMILE!!!!

My thoughts exactly- right with u here

THE HAND HOLD!!!!!

and then they almost kissed....

The Amount of tension between these 2 was just 🤌

WE LOVE FLUSTERED DOCTOR

AND THE FACT HES A ROGUE IS SO FITTING, ROGUES ARE PRACTICALLY BOUNTY HUNTERS IN A SENSE

Bro fell so hard the only thing he could think to do in a stressful situation was propose 💀

thank u for coming to my Ted talk

[sleepykichii33]

lately I've been listening to death cup by mom jeans on repeat and I can NOT stop thinking about how it's so oumota coded so I'm gonna explain WHY its oumota coded —

"I think it's 'bout time that I warned you, I might cry in front of you." : there was no way kokichi wasn't horrified to die. yeah, maybe it was easy for him to run away from that dreadful fact, but imagine how he felt lying on the hydraulic press, knowing the inevitable was just moments away? And all kaito could do was watch it happen.

"I didn't want you to feel like it was all your fault." : okay, so we should all know by now that kokichi, deep down, was an empathetic and caring person. yeah, he made kaito kill him, but im sure he felt guilty for making him do that, not wanting to burden him with the fact that he had to murder someone.

"but that doesn't mean that I wanted you to feel nothing at all." : kokichi didn't want anyone to grieve over his death, he wanted everyone to hate him and that was PART of the reason why, he didn't want to be missed and mourned for. but there was probably a part of him that wanted kaito to feel something. to feel loss, grief. to mourn for him.

"please, tell me how the fuck I'm supposed to deal with losing you." : kaito finally started understanding kokichi, something he wanted probably the whole game, just for kaito to have to kill him. this guy has MAJOR white knight syndrome, so knowing he wasn't able to help kokichi and truly get to know him better most likely felt like a literal stab in the heart ☹️

"so what's the point of talking if you're not changing your mind?" : kaito trying his hardest to convince kokichi that there was another way to end the killing game without ending his LIFE, but kokichi being the stubborn idiot he is, shut him up immediately and they continued to go through with the plan, as much as kaito begged him to change his mind.

thank you for coming to my oumota ted talk 💜💜💜

[quodekash]

QUICK, GUYNAWA ARE HAVING A TENDER MOMENT, I NEED TO KEEP GOING

I love their flirting love language <3

the way he looks at him

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HIM

yes, im crying because of them

oh that is so infuriating

they were facing the wrong way

I love these idiots so much but maybe if they'd seen the shooting star, they couldve had a magical moment and then kissed or something, idk

but no, they're such idiots that they didnt think to look in the other direction

I love them, but its infuriating sometimes

OKAY BUT GIVE US THE WHOLE STORY

THERES SO MANY GAPS

literally all we know about this so far:

1. evil boss guy wanted name to do one last thing for him before he could quit (presumably to rob the house)

2. name asked saifah for some help with some things he had to do

3. according to that one news report, a robbery probably happened?

4. saifah shot kong

5. name had "no idea saifah would do something like that"

so much is missing. what's the whole story here? I still believe that saifah is innocent. he might've accidentally shot him or something, I dont know

yeah, okay

but name is involved in the plot somehow

answer my questions bitch

okay, I love you saifah, but telling him to forget about you is really freaking selfish

it may seem self-sacrificing, like "he'll be happier without me on his plate" but it's not. it's downright selfish.

there are things at play here that you're not thinking about, and other things you're not aware of

such as, you dont know that sailom is now kind of hopeless. because of what you supposedly did, kang now hates sailom, so sailom can't tutor him, so sailom can't get the money to pay off yours and his debts.

as for the things you're not thinking off?

you forget, your parents are both dead. you are his only family left. he is your only family left. he wants to understand the situation so that he can get help for you to get out, so that he isn't utterly alone, and so that you can get out of the terrible environment that is jail. he can't just forget about you, because you are all he has.

and this is both not thinking of and not aware of, sailom doesn't like to accept help from people for free. he doesnt have kang's financial support anymore. and his friends are offering help, but he has no way to pay them back for that help, so he wont accept it. but he wants you back, deemed innocent, so that he can get his boyfriend back, his job back, his happiness back. he can't just forget about you. he needs you.

now anSWER MY QUESTIONS BITCH, WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED

HE CAN'T, THAT'S THE THING, THAT'S THE PROBLEM

IM GONNA REITERATE WHAT I SAID IN EPISODE FOUR: THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING A SEX WORKER, AN ESCORT, ANYTHING IN THAT LINE OF WORK

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE FACT THAT SAILOM IS STILL A CHILD IN HIGH SCHOOL, AND THAT'S A FULL-ASS GROWN MAN ABOVE THE AGE OF 40

IT MAKES ME FEEL GROSS AND UNCOMFORTABLE

THAT IS ALL, THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK

AND ONCE AGAIN, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH SEX WORK, BUT THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH A 40+ YEAR OLD MAN HOLDING A DRUGGED UNCONSCIOUS BOY AND SMILING LIKE THAT

thank goodness for that

CRAP THIS IS BAD AH FRICK

IM NOT TAKING SCREENSHOTS OF THIS PART I REFUSE

OH CRAP KANG PLS ARRIVE AND PUNCH HIM

AAAAA FRICK FRICK FRICK PUNCH HIM PUNCH HIM PUNCH HIM

OHTHANKGOODNESS THANK YOU KANG

I had to go through that entire scene without saying anything but man the line "to me you're nothing but money" really hit hard

I sat there for like 2 whole minutes not wanting to press play after that line because it was just validating all of kang's worst fears about how sailom values him

I am not even remotely okay

I hate the writers so much for this

on the bright side, they didnt do a soundwin and give us absolutely zero guynawa in episode 10 so I appreciate that

but uh. now im sad.

THE FREAKING FLASHBACKS THIS EPISODE HAVE BEEN THE WORST THEYVE EVER BEEN

THEY WERE MEANINGFUL FLASHBACKS

SHORT SNIPPETS OF THEIR PROGRESSION AND THE THINGS THEYVE GONE THROUGH

okay well that was. truly something.

this episode took me nearly 4 hours to watch which is a new personal record and im not sure if I should be proud of that or if I should start crying about how exhausted im going to be tomorrow

Im excited for next week and for this mess to be cleared up at least a little bit, but im also not excited for next week because itll be the second last episode and im not ready for this series to be over yet

anyway, have a good week folks. uh. yeah. keep calm and love guynawa way too much