#and now I will chill before passing out

[hydroglia]

A painful groan was forced through clenched teeth as the harbinger carried himself along the path, towards Liyue harbor. The edges of his vision were blurry, while the remainder of his sight shook as sweat ran down the fair skin, that was unusually pale, sickly so. A gloved hand lifted, to take a hold of his head, where an intense pain could be felt, a pain that made the male pant and groan. Something that would be highly concerning, besides the pain obviously being displayed, would be the dark veins, running along the harbinger's throat, that were dark blue in color and defined as they bulged and stood out strongly against the pale skin. If anyone looked closely, then it was clear that they were expanding, crawling along the scarred body, some smaller ones could already be seen around the harbinger's eyes, eyes that were slowly taking on the same color, with intense crimson mixing in.

The groaning turned to growling before Childe snapped himself out of it as he dragged himself towards the incoming harbor - towards familiarity, towards what his brain told him was safety. Had the male been in his right mind, then he would have known how bad of an idea that was, but being nothing near that, Childe pushed himself towards it until he reached the bridge, that was the only thing between him and the city.

g̸̪͉̦̮̅̊͝͝ȅ̴̝͚͙̮͜t̵͖̀͑͜ ̸̨̟͔̎ẗ̶͚̹́̇͐̚h̴̜͕͇͘ë̸̪́̈́̇͒̆m̷̢̰̖̀̆͜

f̷̗͓̝̦͔̊͋̊͂i̵̦͔̗̓̋g̵̼̀͋̕h̵͇̣̖́̂̆̕͜t̵̬͎͐

t̷̺͒h̷̛̖e̴̥͗y̶̔͜ ̵̻̄ǎ̵̝r̷̻̀ḛ̸͂ ̵͓͝g̸͈̈́o̵̰͘i̵͖͝n̷̤̓g̷͍̍ ̷̡̾ţ̶͘ò̴͓ ̶̜̽k̵̫͝i̴͜͝l̶̘̕l̴̢͐ ̵̜̄y̸͎̔ȍ̴̞ù̴͓

The voices in his head made hands reach up, once more, to dig into ginger locks as, sharper than normal, teeth came on display with a sound, a monster rather than a human would make.

Without a warning, Childe ran towards the presence that had suddenly appeared, a few meters away from him, with eyes now completely overtaken by corruption, something that the harbinger had no knowledge of. It was spreading like the plague along the unusually pale's skin. Lashing out, the spear that had been called forth, almost hit the individual that had appeared, only for it to connect with the ground instead, where lighting cracked along the surface.

❛ M-make it.. stop... D-Dying.. ❜ It felt like dying, that was all the harbinger could think as sounds from the Abyss filled his head and shadows appeared, followed by intense pain which erupted throughout his chest.

I̸t̷ ̸w̸i̷l̷l̷ ̴s̴t̶o̴p̵,̶ ̸w̷e̶ ̶p̶r̴o̷m̴i̷s̵e̴.̴.̸ ̷j̵u̶s̶t̷ ̴k̶i̷l̴l̴

❛ Kill.. It will.. stop.. if I just.. kill.. ❜

/ @goldenpeng

[ratatatastic]

Vanha Kauppahalli date: en full, a 2 minute 50 second masterpiece...

Primetime Panthers | 11.6.24 (x)

[paimonial-rage]

DILUC AND 8 (their pet peeves) -- @milkstore

[Character Analysis Ask Meme]

What are Diluc’s pet peeves?

Lack of respect for service workers - Some may find it surprising seeing how rude Diluc is to the Knights of Favonius, but it’s true. Growing up on the winery, Diluc has seen firsthand the amount of work that goes into making wine and caring for the mansion. He understands the pride his workers put into their jobs. Not to mention his father raised him, not only to respect those under him, but to protect them as well. Is it really surprising then that he does not stand for those who harass his workers? To him, they’re the scum of the earth.

[crossbackpoke-check]

the deweys photos are from this video: https://youtu.be/5xTwJho44ao?si=bPw8MZZ327lCogVZ aren’t they just everything

kissing you and the minnesota wild official media team (with consent) full on the mouth, THANK YOU THIS VIDEO IS EVERYTHING 🥰🥰 i have seen pieces of it before i think (connor petting a shark 🥹) but the entire video start to finish is such a delight, 10/10 would recommend

[ryuseitai]

i was trying to figure out what date the trip album ids go by, and i think i did it hink it just counts all of the season that stella maris took place in But it was frustrating me at first bc. it has shinobu and tetora as 17 and midori as 16 and chiaki and kanata as 18 So itd be before chiaki kanata midori bday but after shinobu tetora so like, late june through late august But i was like wtf bc i felt like i rmbred stella maris being in earlier spring WELL ACTUALLY NO IM CONFUSED AGAIN BC STELLA MARIS Is spring of second year of es. so shouldnt they all be 1yr older than that Or am i stupid Or is it not going by date of stella maris.

[saturdaymournings]

ohoho boy tomorrow is gonna be so bad but yanno what I’m gonna be a brave little guy and I’m gonna treat myself to back to back bath days so it’s all gonna be good in the end. Today was so bad today was fucking dreadful but there will be a way !!!!! I have to remember the small joys I have to stay strong

[rosicheeks]

😬

[coridallasmultipass]

It took me, ugh, MONTHS (2), to get to cleaning the two shrimp tanks I have... I had IRL issues going on that would have made it extremely difficult to do a water change especially while injured, and I just had to keep putting it off. It's just shrimp, so it wasn't like, the worst situation, especially since I have established plants and the tanks are a couple years old. There was just a lot of algae build-up on the glass, and, well... Let me just say it was not contributing to my mental health and well-being while the tanks were in that state.

I tested the water before I started cleaning and the parameters were fine (like, I could have left the tanks even longer if I would be okay with selling my soul to the Algae Collective), and the plants and shrimp look fine, too (I mean, I've obviously been keeping an eye on the tanks bc I sit right next to them). Actually, I'd wager to say that the plants are looking really great (the lilies haven't died off [yet? This is the longest period of time I've seen them stay... foliage... fol... foliated? Idk.] and the cryptocoryne in the 10gal is fucking huge and needs to be rearranged, just not right now). That fucking algae was a motherfucker to get off the 10gal (it's a plastic tank and I think that makes the algae grip harder than the glass 5gal).

[Also, fyi, depending on the tank's needs and stability, recommended water changes are a small one every week or every other week. My parameters don't seem to do anything dramatic, so I usually aim for a 20-30% water change every third week (just depends on how much vacuuming needs to be done and how cooperative the shrimp are with moving aside). So 2 months is still a lot. I still did the normal 30% ish amount, since doing more will risk the shrimp's well-being if there's a sudden change in everything, and my water parameters indicated a change was unnecessary - but I don't test for more than the minimum freshwater tests, so there could be a buildup of some mineral I'm not testing for, which is why the change IS actually necessary regardless of what my test kit says - because these tanks were evaporating a lot in summer, it condenses the minerals added with each water addition, even tho I usually top up with R.O. water.]

My back is fucking killing me lol. It has been killing me since spring when it 'went out' for the first time, and I'm not getting any relief, it sucks. But this had to be done.

The 5gal is looking pretty cloudy still, since the filter was super gunked up and I accidentally spilled gunk back in, so I may need to retest the 5gal parameters tomorrow just to make sure I don't have to do another water change, but it'll probably be fine, right? Shrimp love mulm and detritus. I did give both tanks a big ole algae tab for their trouble, tho. (I need a fuckening dish for the big tank. I really wanna clean off that white quartz rock again, but being white means it's an algae magnet, and it's just gonna go green again after a month or two.)

Anyway, shrimp tax:

I lov thees widdle oange bebies.

Wish I could take better pictures rn, but I am. Like. Dying. My recommendation: never live in an A-frame style room if you have the option. The wall above my tanks is slanted, and NOT fun for my back to bend underneath the wall for maintenance. (My only flat wall in the room is for my TV/PC.) Also, treat your back nicely, in general. I unfortunately have not had the option to treat my back nicely since spring (fall now), because 'when it rains it pours,' and heavy shit that needs to be moved will not move itself. Once I get a few more things in my room in order, I will hopefully be done with the IRL chaos, bc I have Halloween socks to knit, and I'm not putting that off for another year. (I'm still mad that I couldn't make the ones I planned last year. And I found more Halloween yarn I forgot I bought, so I'm gonna try to make multiple socks.) And I just really need to fucking chill and knit and stop having panic attacks and meltdowns.

[ambersky0319]

also untelated but still work related

today was

interesting

[izzy-b-hands]

I have my shot drawn up (managed to stab my fuckin' finger with the back of the lid of the sharps container trying to open it in preparation, which is just stupid funny to me after being initially extremely irritating lmao. Ain't got the damn shot done yet, but still made myself bleed. What a talent I am lol)

I have about half of the cjizzy smut fic written (and my god im. i just love writing smut for these two so much. They're so much fucking fun, bc they both always find rest and safety and stability with each other in these moments, in between the cutest lil silly things and jokes and. These two!!!! also. also. trans izzy for this one bc I can)

It's gonna be three AM soon. I should sleep once shot and fic are done.

HOwever. However. I just remembered the idea I had for a smut fic involving modern au Ed and Izzy, the application of T gel (Ed applying it for Izzy), and then the dorks purposefully taking the drying/waiting period post gel application to start teasing each other until they can fuck (technically it isn't a super long period, but I remember when I was using it it was like. pls do try and not get it on other stuff/ppl/let it dry if possible before covering that area w/clothes, and try not to sweat a whole lot right away if you can help it. So like, in this fic, they've specifically carved out this time to do the application like this so that they can do this little routine: apply, tease, maybe cockwarm a little, then finally fuck once gel is dry and they've given it some time to sit/Izzy should be able to sweat safely lol)

So what if I just keep staying up and write that also. I'm tired, but every time I try to stop, my brain throws Additional Thoughts About Everything at me and uhhhh. That will prevent me from sleeping so like. What if I just do this and sleep later.

[shrews-things]

There's one cashier at the local store who knows about my transition stuff and he wished me luck today and always asks how I am and it made me tear up a little and I can't phrase things well rn but there's something about strangers genuinely wanting things to go well for you that makes me incredibly emotional about humanity

[ruvviks]

two nosebleeds in one morning. god gives his bloodiest battles to his sexiest soldiers

[syncrovoid-presents]

YOU CAN HIT A TAG LIMIT??? My ramblings in the tags have been conquered and squashed by the 30 tag limit. How silly!

[medicinemane]

Like I've said, I try not to talk about it too much because it is a heavy topic, and I don't want people overwhelmed and burnt out to the point it all feels hopeless and they tune out

But the reason I do sometimes share stories like that last one about Ukraine is... I just... I really want to make sure people understand what this war is about

If russia pulls out... they fail to expand their territory and they have to go back and lick their wounds... that's it

If Ukraine gives up... they die. Towns under russia occupation are bad. Real bad. I don't share most of it because of how horrendous it is. Then people not under occupation can still have a missile hit their house at any time for not reason

It's literally a matter of life and death vs colonial ambitions

So I try to keep from bringing it up too often cause I understand the fatigue we all feel from all the horrible news we get, but this is why I feel so strongly about this, and this is why I hope that you, whoever you are reading this, also at least generally support Ukraine even if you can't keep up with all the details

I just don't want any more kids dying in missile strikes

[squishosaur]

hm. i think i will ignore the last 8 episodes of arc v

[llyfrenfys]

Also this shit infuriates me because some well meaning orgs have latched onto 'women and nonbinary' to mean marginalised genders. But what this does is conveniently forget trans men / transmasculine people are also marginalised for our genders. So a lot of resources which can and should help trans men are barred off from us because of our gender. As a trans man, my gender isn't respected by cis society and I don't reap all the benefits of cis masculinity, because, well, I'm not cis! Result is, trans men and transmasculine people end up left out in the cold because queer organisations assume because we're men / masculine, that we don't need any help (never mind how that plays directly into patriarchal views of gender) and can sort ourselves out. Even when we are as vulnerable as a hyperfeminine queer woman.

My high school had a STEM apprenticeship programme which was geared towards women in STEM. Later on, it became women and nonbinary people in STEM. Last time I checked it was just diversity in STEM. I'm glad my career and life path went a different direction, but I was closeted in high school and pushed to do the 'women in STEM' apprenticeship because I did really well at Design and Technology GCSE (formerly known as wood/metalworking). The dysphoria caused by the gendering of the apprenticeship was too intense and so I didn't do it. But even if I had when it was called 'women and nonbinary STEM' (I identified as nonbinary at that time) I would have likely have faced similar issues as above because my inclination was to present masculinely (eventually leading to the realisation I'm a trans man).

Now it's called what it should have been called in the first place - because all along what they meant was 'women and marginalised genders (inclusive of non-cisgender manhood)' - but because that doesn't come across, it puts off people who would really benefit from the scheme due to either being perceived as 'too masc' for 'women and nonbinary', or identifying too masc for the above.

Basically, amab nonbinary people and transmasculine folks should have more solidarity on this front because we face a similar but slightly different form of exclusion based on unnecessary gendering of resources, leading to us being starved of support and opportunities.

I'm happy I didn't take the apprenticeship in the end. But I sometimes wonder what my life could have been like as a transgender man in that field (which I was good at!). I mentioned I was closeted in high school, but I knew I wasn't cis by that point - however, I was targeted by cis boys who didn't know I wasn't a 'girl' because my success threatened their masculinity. We had final year projects with a written and practical component. I chose to make a portable wooden table which folded in on itself with storage for the legs, a latch and a handle. I got a A in my written coursework and a high B in my practical. But while I was still making the table, some of the cis boys in my class (who were also my bullies) deliberately broke part of my project after school. I came in the next day to find things deliberately broken and I had to make them all over again (my teacher explained that's why I got a high B and not an A - because I had to remake parts and the remade parts were rushed due to time running out - an issue I wouldn't have faced had it not been vandalised).

Anyway, I had the second highest grades of the class - second to a cis boy who was actually very nice and wasn't with the other boys who sabotaged my project. This meant I was perceived as the quoteunquote 'girl' with the highest grades in the class (the person with the third highest grades in the class *was* a girl and so rightly that title goes to her).

Anyway, the cis boys in my class couldn't stand that someone they saw as a 'girl' was beating them (they mostly got Ds and Es in that class) and so they tried to sabotage me at every step. Even going so far as to 'accidentally' bump into me when I was using a machine (like the buffing machine or the bandsaw) so that I'd make mistakes (that could have gone so, so much worse depending on the machines. I could have been hurt). My teacher noticed their behaviour and was actually very supportive and punished the cis boys when he saw it happen.

Point of telling that story is - it would have been horrific if this misogyny-based bullying had happened to a cis woman too. It's the exact kind of thing which those apprenticeships seek to mend. It happened to a trans man instead and my gender disqualified me from getting the help and support I'd need to survive in STEM (I was specifically looking at engineering and design). Yes, cis men have no issues getting into STEM. But trans men, who are men but don't receive the same benefits of cis men in these fields, face major barriers only made worse by the assumption that we don't.

I'm glad I didn't go into STEM in the end - but there's countless trans men, amab nonbinary people, transmasculine folks etc. who are in need of help but denied it due to real or perceived adjacency to masculinity that is confused with having all the privileges of a cis man. And this attitude is so prevalent in a lot of LGBTQ+ orgs at present. Personally, I believe it's a lot of well meaning people not thinking about it for more than 5 minutes. But also that radical feminism which demonises masculinity has an influence here too.

NB 👏 Does 👏 Not 👏 Mean 👏 Woman 👏 Lite