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m--bloop · 4 months ago

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#my sister keeps getting mad at me #and today it culminated with her basically listing all the ways I’m making her life shit #and the things she listed I know I’m a fuck up like not being able to drive #being stuck in a part time job not having many friends crying when in a confrontation #and not paying rent on time to her #but she was so mad and I was mad and crying #but she wasn’t saying it cause she cared she was like you are making my life bad and it’s unfair #I’m sorry it’s unfair I’m trying but I know it’s not enough #and I couldn’t articulate myself #actually I know she’s right that I’m not trying enough #l just got upset which ofc doesn’t help anything #and now I ruined her day #i can’t even move out cause then she’ll get mad at me for that too #I agree with her that I’m a fuck up and don’t have my shit together and it’s a terrible quality I have #of having trouble catching up on everything I just feel overwhelmed all the time #and thinking about the future makes me so depressed I feel like there’s no point to anything #and even when I try to do something I fuck it up and don’t do it right #I tried getting my driving license before but now it’s expired and I’m back at square one #and my job rn I don’t think they’ll ever give me a full time gig #I can’t even explain myself now it doesn’t make sense why I’m so fucked #and it’s so hard to make friends all my old friends have moved #and behind and shit at everything #and now I know I’m dragging everyone else with me #she was like the one person I’m closest to and could trust but now I know I’m just a burden to her #the thing is i know she's right about everything #I fucking hate myself so much #update: she apologized I think we’re ok now #but I’m just wondering if it is

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captainbobbin · 5 months ago

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happy birthday, saix

#happy 7/7 day yeehaw #saix #isa #xion #kh #kingdom hearts #captainbobbin #this is absolutely 100% NOT ship art to me Isa is Xions dad pls dont be weird #this is kh3 era exhausted saix trying so damn hard to keeo everything together #xion is all hes got anymore and he will kill himself trying to make her live again. he must #he has to write his wrongs and make sure this child gets the life he never had. he ruined everything. he needs to make amends.#xion is his charge. his responsibility. his pup. the kid he didnt know he wanted.#he would and will die for her. but to be alive now in this haunting cursed half-life is so exhausting #i would add more but. my general vibe is sad dad isa please check out my fics for more

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everytaylorswiftsongisaboutcats · 1 month ago

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#Taylor Swift #Don’t Blame Me #Reputation #The Eras Tour #Reputation Era #Reputation Stadium Tour #Rep TV #Taylor Nation #Swifties #Miami TS The Eras Tour #Miami Night 1 #Getty images #take us to church mother #when she hits the high note #you look like Taylor Swift in this light we’re loving it #I think I’ve seen this film before #I will never change. But I’ll never stay the same either.#Your on your own kid. Yeah you can face this. Your on your own kid. You always have been.#Say you’ll remember me standing in a nice dress.#I once was poison ivy but now I’m your daisy.#Flashback when you met me.#There goes the loudest woman this town has ever seen I had a marvelous time ruining everything.#I can feel the flames on my skin. Crimson red paint on my lips.#So they filled my cell with snakes I regret to say Do you believe me now? I was onto something they all said nothing.#And in the death of her Reputation she felt truly alive.#Who’s afraid of little old me? You should be.#I said remember this moment in the back of my mind the time we stood with our shaking hands the crowds in stands went wild.#I was screaming long live all the magic we made and bring on all the pretenders I’m not afraid. One day we will be remembered.#I said remember this feeling I passed the pictures around of all the years we stood there on the sidelines wishing for right now.#What if I told you I’m the Mastermind?

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pocketramblr · 8 months ago

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I would do anything to save her.

This was supposed to just be drawing the Taoden siblings hugging a bunch but ah guess that Falin as the tower/princess/dragon post got into my head too much

#chapter sixty seven ruins me every day #but yeah i. have many thoughts #Laios feeding his hungry sister. playing with her hair. and then putting her down. Marcille compares it to sleeping #but his reaction and the fact that he spared Marcille from doing it.... it must have felt very much like tucking her in to sleep #and like what it was: suffocating her. keeping her from saying his name again. killing her.#both at once.#also just. Falin being covered with blood when she's resurrected. but when Laios kills her the only blood is his #and there's not a drop of it on her #something about Laios telling her the red in her cheeks was weird when they were kids. and keeping any of that spilling now.#yeah. when he said he'd do anything to get her back he meant ANYTHING!!!#Alt text #my art #for real tho. please send me the post if you know it so i can link it i can't find it anywhere love you tumblr search dysfunction #and if anyone else wants to go crazy with me about chapter sixty seven well!!! you know where i am!!!#dunmeshi spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon spoilers

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miguxadraws · 8 months ago

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more rat

i will try to control myself now i swear

sillies belong to @spitinsideme

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graveyarrdshift · 9 months ago

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tell me why (2020)

#this game. this fucking game #it's been ruining my mental health for a few days now ❤️ i think I'll have to make an appointment with my psychiatrist ❤️#i haven't even finished it yet but I'm truly in love with this game #it's so pretty and the soundtrack is so good ☹️#but the story is so sad #also i think i can relate to their mother when it comes to her mental health #playing it wants me to sit outside and smoke a hundred cigs because man.... 🚬#ngl im not into men but tyler makes me question my sexuality a lil bit because he's soooooo #but im also in love with alyson.... uggghhh #tell me why game #tyler ronan #alyson ronan #tell me why #game screencaps #gaming #video games #*mine

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caitlynmeow · 1 year ago

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I always assumed lady Dimitrescu sat at the head of the table because. But look at this she’s sitting right across from her daughters like this is so much closer and she wants to look at all three of them and give them her undivided attention.

I’m sorry but this is the sort of mom who’d sit at the dinner table and have her kids talk none stop about their day with her nodding and giving appropriate remarks of praise and approval like no wonder those girls adore their mother like this she truly loves them and it shows

#house dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu #cassandra dimitrescu #bela dimitrescu #re8 #resident evil village #daniela dimitrescu #getting hit with house dimitrescu feels early in the morning #DO YOU see this?????#mama loves her babies so much she wants to sit there and listen to them tell her about their day #like she’s close enough to reach a hand to pet a head when she’s praising them #i didn’t pay attention to the seats before but i noticed them this playthrough #MY HEART #it hurts #house dimitrescu will be the end of me #so much family fluff here and Ethan ruined it all #but now mama and her babies are together in the afterlife 🥲

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thefishdeath · 7 months ago

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Just. finished fallout. normal.

#what the fuck #what the fuvck what the fuck what the fuck #im so normal about this guys very so normal #(shaking and gripping the edge of the sink hunched over like im playing silent hill)#so normal so normal #what do i even do with my life now #how am i just supposed to go about my day #FUCK that last scene fucking insane though #oh my god the ghoul is so cool #like holy SHIT #the relization that the ghoul could of killed maximus in that first meeting but just like. chose not to? insane.#fallout is ruining my life i have to play every game now #fallout #i need a season 2 NOW #8 hours is not enough #i need to see Lucy kill her father #its like 5am where i am #im going to impulsively dye my fuckass mullet about this #fallout show #fallout series #just fishdeath-ing #fallout tv series #if anyone wants to talk abt fallout with me i dont know how to start a conversation but im clawing at my walls & willing to try please plea

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koko2unite · 3 months ago

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#mom asked me to cook breakfast so I made the usual but for some reason it's too salty apparently #(it doesnt)#so now she's telling me that I'm a failure followed by a bunch of sermon on why I should leave my job and get married to a girl and #shave my beard and don't eat anymore so I can actually be happy and not useless #(apparently I'm not happy now) and also says thank you mockingly. Great mom #what a fun trip #also ive been telling them can we go to this specific shop i wanna see if i can find cheaper steam deck there and they all start getting #angry on me on how selfish i am for just asking that #and how i dont care about my mom because my mom isnt interested on used game stores #like what the fuck #i paid all of the tickets for her here why the fuck am i not allowed to go to where i want #pissing me off #i wanna go homeeeeee #honestly im not excited about this trip no more i just wanna go home and just go back to work and then at night i draw and play ffxiv #the only one excited i have is disneyland on the last day but i can think of several ways they ruin it too #my mom definitely will be like im tiredd go find a chair and so i have to wait for her #i hate this trip

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sciderman · 1 year ago

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How do you feel about the increase in really weird NSFW ads on here (advertising panels that look like sexual encounters, and AI art apps that pride themselves on porn) but will take down NSFW posts from their users, even if it isn't technically sexual.

i hate all social media and it's consistent prioritising the advertisers over the users and the internet simply was a better place before capitalism sunk its hooks into it

#i could write essays about how capitalism ruined the internet.#i was actually talking to someone earlier today about how youtube was kind of effectively ruined by monetisation.#and they were raised in the soviet union and we had a bit of a talk about how art was better because it wasn't for profit.#the people who made art made it because they wanted to do it and because they loved it.#she said that communism was terrible for every aspect of life for her. people's lives under communism wasn't pretty.#but the art was better. and i feel like it's true for the internet – it was better when it was a free-for-all.#the companies didn't know how to exploit it yet and turn it into a neverending profit-driven hellscape.#people created content because they wanted to. because they wanted to make something silly to make people laugh.#not for profit. not for gain. not for numbers. not to further their career.#i miss the days of newgrounds and youtube before monetisation.#capitalism has soiled everything that's joyful and good in this world.#people should be able to share whatever they want.#people should be able to tell any story they want without the fear of being silenced by advertisers.#that's what made the internet so beautiful before. anyone could do anything and we all had equal footing.#but now we're victims of the algorithm. and it makes me sick.#i'm quitting my job in social media. i'm quitting it. it makes me too depressed. i have an existential crisis every freaking day.#every day i wake up and say "ah. this is the fucking hell we live in #i'm so sorry i feel so passionate about this.#social media is a black hole and it is actively destroying humanity. forget ai. social media is what's doing it.#i miss how beautiful the internet used to be. it should've been a tool for good. but it's corrupt and evil now.#sci speaks

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wexhappyxfew · 5 months ago

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annie telling brady (in the stalag) how she wants to be a mother one day and he tells her that whoever that guy is will be one lucky son-of-a-bitch (not knowing it’ll be him) because they could die anyday (with sad soundtracks playing in the background) and i-

#coming up soon in the next few days !!!!!!#uh yeah hi i did NOT expect the prompt to go this way but i’m lowkey sobbing #bc annie has a NOT GREAT relationship with her mother at all #and annie saw exactly what she DIDNT want #and now …. brady is. RIGHT. HERE.#and all she ever wanted was to give her kids a better life with a good man #and he’s RIGHT HERE #but they could die anyday of the week #and she just wants something SO BAD FOR ONCE #AND SHES ALLOWING HERSELF TO WANT THAT #AND JUST I-#i cant do this someone help im emotionally just (insert the pic above)#annie x brady #honestly they’ll ruin me #(they’d be such adorable parents)#but genuinely i’m so emotional over them 😭🤲✨#silver bullets #mota writings #annie bradshaw

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ef-1 · 10 months ago

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girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

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perilegs · 4 hours ago

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mixed feelings on this day bc i haven't spoken with my mom in over a year but she sent me money. i am grateful but also knowing her this is probably either so i'll feel bad about not talking to her. though she doesn't talk to me either. OR bc she thinks she can buy my forgiveness.

#also since this was bday money does it mean i have to congratulate her on her bday tomorrow or #i dont want to but i guess i will #or ill feel guilty #which is exactly what she wants #ok she sent it through mobilepay which i think its either a finland or nordic countries thing but anyways u can also send messages there #so i replied to her with a thank you and happy early birthday #so i dont have to think about it tomorrow #man this sucks i was having such a good time and getting ready to shower and get cozy #with a drink and snacks ti watch a movie and i was in such a good mood bc of a succesful social interaction at a store #but now im kinda. mh. actually yknow what? im not letting her ruin my day #i will shower and then watch a movie and then play some monhuntr bc the autumn event is on again iirc #leevi talks

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syrenki · 3 months ago

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post depressive episode clarity like what the fuck do you mean they'll never disappear, just fade.

#mine #tw: sh #i'll be a 30yo woman a 40yo woman a 50yo woman a 60yo woman and someday an old woman with SCARS ON MY ENTIRE LEGS?? like forever????#and i KNOW i broke through enough skin layers for these to never heal entirely like catscratches do #forever? for real? like the rest of my days? i'm never gonna have a healthy clean body like everyone else ever again?#it's THAT easy to just throw it away forever in a second?#i'm gonna be sick #what the fuck man #like both shoulders both thighs both calves entirely ruined #what the actual. fuck.#FUCK.#the awful part of the last year is over thank god #it was an episode lasting from like idk january until #august maybe #i think i'm finally feeling better #but i was really looking into legal psychiatric euthanasia there. drafting my fucking mail to the Dying With Dignity type companies #cause i went to a shrink who told me that i have bpd and while i didn't believe him #fact of the matter is that in some eu countries you're allowed to get euthanized for that. so .#but that doesn't matter i'm a bit better now i'm not thinking about it as much anymore #but it sickens me that #not only do i have to fucking take it alone #but i also have to deal with a lifetime of ridicule disgust “turn off” and pity afterwards #my own best friend told me to make sure to cover up when we slept at a relative's #and i felt it was ridiculous that anyone could even judge me negatively based on the scars when it's me who had to deal with this shit #not them!! and clearly it wasn't fucking easy!!! like if anyone it's not you who's getting hurt from this!!!!!!#i asked her whether she would ever be thrown off by seeing healed scars #and in the coldest tone she replied 'No but I would not know how to explain that to my kids.'#the relatives did not. in fact. have kids.

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deus-ex-mona · 26 days ago

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pretty minor thing to think about, but i find it interesting how chapter 7 is the first chapter illustration to show chizuutan as chizuru (instead of chuutan)

like, i get it’s a flashback chapter, but we hardly got to see her as chizuru in the previous few chapters thus far… maybe we’ll get to see more of her as her true self after the hiyori fight/make up? only future chapters may tell, i guess…

#there’s like 5 weeks to go till chapter 6 is released into the rest of the world and i m n o t r e a d y—#man. chapter 5 still manages to ruin my mood no matter how many times i read it… man.#i was having so much fun with renren and concon and the 3 stooges and th e n.#imagine putting on a (somewhat) perfect/cute act to hide your true self because you know you’re unlovable the way you are #but then someone else runs along and screws up every step of the way without putting on any airs and is adored for it anyway…#i imagine chapter 6 will be much worse. especially since the start of the flashback begins there…#i sincerely hope the flashback ends in chapter 7 bc aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #though. considering where we are now in the series. i think there’s a chance that vol 2 will come out at the end of december #ch 8 will prolly start to drop somewhere around the later half of november so it seems about right…#b u t if there’s the preorder bonus manga for vol 2 in dec can we have santa girl chuutan in it p l s—#i think we’ll need an incredibly cute bonus feature to lift the mood from whatever the heck’s going on with vol 2’s chapters #bc. idk. im sensing some self hatred with this one chizuchan… it’s as though she can only love herself if she’s dolled up as chuutan…#like. even in her aizo self-insert delusions she’s thinking of herself as chuutan… maybe im reading too much into this. hm.#but then again she even puts on makeup when she’s at home in her own room…#w a i t a sec what if this wack behaviour only came about bc of what’s about to be revealed in the flashbacks. wait. no. w h a t if—#i hope manga chizuchan will be able to love herself properly soon… we all love you chizuchan~~~~~~~~~~#this. too. is our oshi no—#dammit why is something set in the same universe as the [redacted] anime making me feel things??? i hate itttttttttt #anyways. wh. what if one of the h10w turns out to be an anime adaptation of the chizuchan manga #and they’re just waiting on. like. the final vol to announce it.#it’d make the most sense for an anime series at this point… since chizuchan is marketable and it’s set in the same anime verse #so there’s no inconsistencies to retcon and such…#but!!!! most importantly!!!!!! we’d be able to see animated renren and concon!!!!!!!#…but something like this will only appear in my delusions huh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~#mousou dake no kawaikute gomen anime #ok that’s enough thinking for the day; back to kimikawaii mv g o o d b y e~~~~#chizuutan chizpost

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mercurialskiies · 1 month ago

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ok tumblr, i have the nycc update that i forgot to give you all, however

we managed to get the arc of bury our bones

so for the next few days, i will be letting this book absolutely ruin my life and destroy me in true fashion 🙂‍↕️ i will return in time with incoherent screaming and a spoiler-free ramble session for you all

#ok first of all #i need you guys to know #that this ARC was HELL to come by #tor's publishing booth had run out of copies on thursday in 30 minutes #and as far as i knew #there were no other copies left #until by a stroke of luck #the barnes and noble set up around the corner from the signing line still had some left #so when i tell you i ran #i SPRINTED as fast as i could #to be fair #this is my birthday book #so of course im going to run as if my life depended on it #i also told that to v at the signing that this book comes out literally the day before my birthday #and she looked so happy about it #(and i told her that im expecting this book to ruin my life twice: now and on my birthday)#she's super sweet for the record #but i will return in a few days time #to tell you about this arc with as little detail as i can #ve schwab #bury our bones in the midnight soil

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