#l just got upset which ofc doesn’t help anything

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[morganwrites12672]

can you do an eddiexfemale reader where the reader is in love with him and will do anything for him, and he doesn’t love her back and finds her clingy but keeps her around because he loves the attention, and then one day y/n hears eddie talking bad about her and flirting with chrissy so she gets upset and wants to move on from him, which at first eddie’s relieved that she’s finally out of his life but then he sees her with someone else and realizes that he’s messed up

ofc! But damn girl, the ANGST.

Reqs are open!

Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader

You loved him. You really do. Eddie Munson had been your long time crush. He never liked you back though.

You two still hung out, he claimed he wasn't ready for labels, or saying the 'L' word yet. He said he would get there, but after all of the school (and town) treating him like an outcast, a freak, he needed time.

That wasn't the truth, not even close.

Eddie just kept you around for the attention. The girls at school didn't like him, so he used you. Deep down he did feel bad about it.

Not bad enough to stop. He needed the affection. The way you would run soothing circles on his forearm, the way you would always be touching him. Always be loving him.

Eddie was so affection starved he was willing to use a poor girl to do it. He swears he doesn't have feelings for you, he likes Chrissy. He would never tell you any of this.

You and Eddie were sitting in the back of his van, the cafeteria got to be to much and he needed a break from the constant insults. He couldn't handle it.

You run circles on his forearm as he lights a joint. He smiles at your soft touch. You had asked him to go back to his van with you. Most people would assume he was getting lucky, that wasn't the truth, far from it.

You had noticed the way the love of your life had started to get more anxious. He looked fine. His eyes told a whole nother story.

So, you had let Hawkins high think what they wanted. As long as Eddie would be okay. And he was.

He takes a long drag from the joint before offering it to you, you decline. Smoking was something you did when you were younger. Not for you anymore.

As a high schooler, you would have done it. But now, a first year teacher, you knew better. That was what made your crush wrong. A teacher shouldn't date a student.

But what if that student is legally able to buy a pack of cigarettes? Eddie was twenty. You two had been friends since middle school. You had had a crush on him, since middle school.

Since the day of the sixth grade talent show. He played guitar and sang for his band, Corroded Coffin. He was much cuter now, having grown out his buzzcut.

"You okay now?" You ask as Eddie exhales another puff of his joint. He gives you a small smile and stubs out the joint.

He let's out a deep breath, exhaling all the smoke, Yeah, thanks Y/N," he says as he opens the back door of his van for you.

You smile at him and get out.

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

You smile as you walk around the corner. Eddie would be at the table. You stop behind a tree as you hear his voice. that wasn't all, a female voice to.

"Are you sure you don't like her?" The voice asks. You think she is a cheerleader, maybe.

"That crazy chick?" Eddie asks with a laugh and the girl laughs with him. Your throat goes dry as you listen to them flirt and Eddie talk shit about you.

"I swear, I never liked her to begin with. But you, I think I might need you," Eddie says and you storm off with disgust.

He doesn't like you. He never fucking did. You kick some dirt once you get far enough for them to nor hear.

Chrissy Cunningham! That's who that was. You place her voice to the time you had helped her study for an exam. That bitch. Chrissy was sweet, but this wasn't her fault. She didn't know. She could only believe the lies Eddie was telling her.

You were going to do something last you would have thought was beyond insane. You were going to ask out a guy. But, who?

You think back to the guys who had asked you out senior year.

Jason Carver. No way in burning hell.

Tommy Hanagan. You would rather go kiss Eddie then go out with him. He was in the same grade as you, tracking hom down would be difficult.

Steve Harrington. He was a little bit of an asshole at first. You did notice he had changed a lot. You still had his number, why not?

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

Eddies jaw drops. He sees you kissing Steve Harrington when he walks in your classroom to find him.

He has regrets. Why wou- he cuts himself off mid thought. You must know. You must of been looking for him and seen him flirt with Chrissy.

He fucked up. Bad. He realized he liked you. Just a little. He liked you just enough to not want you to date Steve 'the asshole' Harrington.

It didn't get any better. Every time Eddie would go to your classroom, he would see Steve leaving or steve coming in while the class was leaving. Bringing you flowers every Monday. He must know you hate Mondays .

Eddie realizes he needs to tell you he likes you. He doesn't just need to, he has to. But he cant, he realizes he should of loved you the way you loved him.

He walks in your classroom Monday, after lunch. He sees Steve exiting your classroom. Of course. When he walks in he notices the yellow lily's on your desk. Steve must have known your favorite flower to.

He really did mess up. He thinks back to how happy Steve looked when he was leaving. Steve probably loved how clingy you were. Always having to touch him.

How could he have let the best thing that ever happened to him walk away?

He couldn't blame you. He couldn't even try to win you back. It wasn't fair to you. He has his chance and he blew it.

[kittydemon9000]

SO MERLOPIAN KAI PART 2 ELECTRIC BOOGALOO

So, with Kalmaar, he ofc immediately goes to his parents about his feeling, slightly placing his revenge on hold. They are...dubious about it, but Maya raises the point of how there has never been a human/merlopian hybrid before, and from what Ray has told them about having two EM parents it’s possible for Kai to have some water abilities himself, which could be what gave Kalmaar his feeling. So, they agree to look into it.

Moving on..... Uh. Kai doesn’t have a fun time in S6, as briefly as he’s there. You see, Nahdakahn knows exactly what buttons to press and is able to get Kai into a panicked state where he, on the verge of a panic attack and mental breakdown, just says ��I wish that I could just be normal! I wish I could just go home! I wish I could be with dad and mom and father and Kal and Bentho and Nya!!!”

The “normal” comment comes from how they weren’t able to completely hide Kai’s heritage since yeah, there were other people on the boat who saw him. That and he also tried a lot less to keep it hidden. And because some humans are assholes, he has to deal with that.

So ofc, Nahdakahn interprets it in the worst ways and as two wishes. Kai is now a full human yes….but was also sent to where the fish fam currently were……which just so happened to be at the bottom of the ocean.

So yeah, double trauma for both groups. Kai got to experience what drowning felt like, and his fam was essentially forced to watch him die since there was nothing they could do. They were too far under to take him to the surface and too far from the palace to take him there.

But dw, it gets even worse.

You see, the whole reason Nahdakahn is being this malicious about Kai’s wishes is because he learned that Kai was the reason the Preeminent was destroyed, thereby destroying Djinjago.

Nahdakahn is then able to do a “oh? Is this not what you wanted? I thought you wished to be normal.” Which ofc sounds really bad since it’s in front of his family. “But, I understand. You grow tired of the stares in the street, how they whisper behind you back about what you are. Not human, not merlopian, not normal. Just a freak masquerading as one of them.”

This ofc supremely pisses off the fam. Like, weapons drawn ready to commit murder.

But then Nahdakahn stop them with a “ah ah ah, I wouldn’t do that if I were you. After all, I am the only way your son has a chance at living. So go ahead. Make a wish.”

Trimaar ends up being the one to do it, and is smart enough to know this uh will twist it in anyway he can so says. “I wish for Kai to be sent safely to the surface without harm done upon him.”

Blah blah blah, your wish is yours to keep, Trimaar realizing “wait there’s a lot that could be interpreted” but too late BAM now Kai’s kinda stuck on the Misfortune’s Keep.

And he....generally has a pretty bad time. Think Jay but this time it’s personal.

However, Kai’s appearance had Trimaar get the Merlopian army and start heading to the surface. The remaining ninja have a brief moment of “are you kidding me two enemies at once” before learning that this is Kai’s lost family and they’re here to help.

So now the ninja have a whole ass fish army to help them, plus a very protective, very angry fish family.

But for the rest of canon, the only difference is that when they’re leaving Tiger Widow Island, Nya gets snatched along with Jay(who was taken because he hadn’t used his wish yet) and they aren’t stuck on the island, and then later that Kai gets sucked into the sword when the ninja launch their rescue mission.

But yeah, it gets all Un-Happened by Jay’s wish(which at seeing Kai physically hurt and being emotionally torn apart at his baby sister dying, wished that none of this ever happened and that Nahdakahn was never found), only like canon Nya and Jay still remember what happens.

Nya is now firmly on team Kai Is Alive and tells her parents everything about what happened and the wish Jay made, and more importantly where Kai is.

Unfortunately, they need to take some time and prepare. Trimaar and Maya have been doing their best over the years to open the populace possibly making bonds with the humans, but now it’s finally happening. They can’t just go up there out of no where, since from what Nya has told them 1) most humans don’t even know they exist and 2) in the past few years they have been subject of many attacks, mostly from non-humans, so they need to make sure the humans understand they don’t mean any harm.

So DotD happens, then the beginnings of S7 :)

Right out, Kai never liked the museum curator. Up to that point he’d only ever caught fleeting glimpse of him but something about him Kai just despised. As a result, he also visited the museum as scarcely as possible, and thus didn’t notice a very interesting painting containing a two very strange figures.

When he learns his name was Dr.Saunders.....things don’t go well.

It happened when Kai brought the helmet with his dad’s symbol on it. As much as he disliked the curator, he was the most likely to be able to recognize what kind of helmet it was.

Then in his anger he gets himself captured.

He’s taken to a special cell lined with vengestone and has guards around the clock, and Krux takes extra care to make sure Kai doesn’t know where Ray is.

ofc it’s around this time that the Merlopians arrive and express their wishes for a possible alliance between their two races. Unfortunately they showed up at literally the worst time, and double unfortunately the people in charge of diplomacy decide to bring some of the ninja in as an extra precaution because of the villains have been running around.

So the people who join the meeting are Lloyd and Jay from the ninja(they would’ve brought Kai but he hasn’t returned from his missions yet and isn’t answering their calls) as well as some police officers and from the Merlopians is the whole royal family plus a few guards.

Both Jay and Nya have a silent moment of staring at each other since “I know and I’m not sure you know but I think you know but I don’t want to say anything since you might not”

And just as they’re about to start, The Time Twins attack. Because why the hell not.

They’re actually able to hold them off for a while, but unfortunately there are too many Vermillion. Then Kalmaar whips out his Water Powers which causes him to get kidnapped since they need both Fire and Water masters for the blade.

While they’re recovering, Lloyd then gets a panicked call from Zane saying that he checked the museum footage and Kai has been captured. The gets overheard by the royal family, and then Lloyd asks why they looked so upset at which they learn(sans Jay since wish) that Kai is royalty. The eldest son actually, and thus first in line for the throne, as well as being presumed dead for the past five years.

So basically Krux has kidnapped the King and Queen’s husband, the crown prince, and the second in line prince(if anyone knows a more fancy term for this please let me know)

Maya, Trimaar, Nya and Benthomaar are not happy. Not with the Ninjagian people, no they’re fine, but they’re bout ready to murder Krux, and they don’t even know about Ray yet.

So they offer any help they can.

Zap back to how Kai and Kalmaar are doing.

Kalmaar is….kind feral tbh. Like, he’s biting, clawing, trying to strangle them with his tentacles, and before they got vengestone cuffs on him was trying very hard to drown anyone.

Ofc, this does little to the Vermillion and soon Kalmaar finds himself in the cell right next to Kai’s. He’s overjoyed to see his brother again, albeit upset that this is why.

They both reluctantly come to the conclusion that there isn’t much they can do at the moment, and there are many Vermillion guards right outside their cells, so they decide to start catching up.

And for pretty much the rest of the season canon is pretty much the same, just shuffle around the characters a bit and add a protective Fish Fam. 

Though their little trip back in time is quite sight for the Past EMs, especially because of how Kalmaar is using his powers, which leaves Kai mostly stuck in his Fish Form. This time they don’t even bother trying to explain, just give instructions on how to defeat the Vermillion and jumping into the battle. 

And I mean just imagine that from the EMs perspective. An enemy you thought you defeated just returned with a giant metal creature and an army of snake things that don’t look like any kind of Serpentine they’d ever seen. Then a shark person and squid person??? show up and not only do they know how to fight the snake things but they also seem to be Elemental Masters???? Despite the fact Ray is very much alive and they didn’t even know there was a Water EM. Then the two not only summon dragons but they also fuse their dragons into an even bigger one with two heads.

And then all of them disappear into the sky without a trace.

W i l d

But yeah, after that it calms down quite a bit. Kai spends the time skip before S8 reconnecting with his family and his dad, and through some tech courtesy of Borg they're able to bring Ray with them :D

And Kai actually goes to meet the Jade Royal Family since y’know. He’s the crown prince. He’s kinda important and legitimately forgot about it. Luckily Kalmaar is able to help coach Kai through it, but is also a bit smug about how he finally has something to teach to his older brother. Kai was actually the one who suggested asking the ninja for help protecting the mask.....but we know how that inevitably ends.

Bentho, Kal and Nya were actually on the ship for this particular adventure, and then Nya and Bentho were dragged along when they got sent to the First Realm. Bentho, despite being the youngest sibling and to the surprise of literally everyone, was actually really good with kids and spent the most time with Little Wu, right behind Cole.

But yeah S9......Nya and Bentho have a really bad time in the First Realm beause of the heat, but at least they don’t get captured. Kai on the other hand....

Yeah at some point he gets accidentally splashed with water and well.....it definitely doesn’t help with the Oni accusations. The Dragon Hunters decide to burn him along with the Wind Dragon, which moves up their Build Our Own Dragon time table.

After they escape Faith is actually pretty chill about the whole fish thing, but she does ask a lot of questions. 

And then S10..... kinda the same. They end up dropping off as many people as they can with the Merlopians since the smoke can’t reach them.

I might make a Part 3 for the rest of the seasons, but yeah. this is where we’re at.

[arhvste]

❝atsumu, kuroo, tsukishima and bokuto playing acnh ❞

miya atsumu

→ first he called the game dumb but he eventually gave in because everyone and their aunts were playing it and he didn’t wanna be left out

→ mf tries so hard for raymond at first

→ he insists it’s just because he can sell him for a lot

→ he really just wants raymond because he lowkey reminds him of osamu

→ anyways this fool doesn’t get raymond but ya know who he does get?

→ pedro

→ atsumu was ✨disgusted✨

→ “a clown?! a fukn clown?! yer jokin me!”

→ “aw don’t cry he fits in so well on your island 😹”

→ “sHUT YER TRAP 😠😠😠”

→ he hated pedro at first and for what?

→ eventually he starts vibing with him though

→ he decides that perhaps... pedro isn’t a bad guy after all

→ so atsumu develops a soft spot for him and begins to favour him over the rest of his mediocre villagers whose names he can’t be bothered to remember

→ ya know whose name he can remeber though?

→ BELLA 😡😠😡😠😡😡😠

→ the name that sparks rage in him

→ atsumu hits his villagers with his net shouting “nice cut g!” as a joke

→ with bella he’s not joking 😐

→ he hits her repeatedly and grins maliciously when she gets angry eventually

→ LOVES shoving her into pitfalls for absolutely no reason

→ cusses her out under his breath

→ writes hate mail to her only to get fustrated when she sends a nice reply about the flowers she saw the other day that reminded her of him

→ honestly bella girl it ain’t worth it, pack your bags and get outta there sis 😔

→ he wants her to get tf off his island because he doesn’t like her but he also kinda wants her to stay because he loves annoying her and making her angry

→ literally goes out of his way to buy the ugliest clothes for her to wear

→ he also has all his villagers address him as “big dick man”

→ pedro is special though 😳

→ pedro is the chosen one who gets to call him “tsumu”

→ JUST PEDRO 😤😾😡

→ literally thinks it’s the funniest thing when his villagers say “hey big dick man! the weather sure is great today isn’t it!”

→ you can hear his cackling from down the hall

→ thinks it’s the peak of comedy

→ oh and you’re not allowed to visit his island on a saturday

→ saturdays are “for the boys”

→ and by that he means he’s just going to buy a ton of matching clothes for him and pedro and talk to him all day until he eventually annoys pedro by accident to which he genuinely gets upset about

→ he doesn’t really bother with the fishing tourneys or bug offs

→ does catch a few though just to make sure he beats bella earns nook miles

→ pretty average island, not too much effort put into it yet

→ atsumu prefers channeling his energy and game time into bullying bella interacting with his villagers

kuroo tetsurō

→ bangs. it. tf. out.

→ literally acts like he doesn’t care about the game but has 395+ hours game time

→ uses the excuse it’s to play with kenma but kuroo actually got into it before kenma had the chance to look at it properly

→ fishing tourney KING

→ has multiple gold trophy’s and built a whole extension just to show them off

→ also treats all his villagers equally

→ he was a bit picky and only wanted cats and dogs on his island though

→ if you’re anything but a cat or a dog, i’m sorry but kuroo will timeskip you tf off of his island

→ has a soft spot for lucky but doesn’t admit it

→ he likes to come across as a “fair dictator of the island”

→ just admit luckys your fav and go oh my god

→ his house is really nice too

→ pretty much paid off all his debt and is financially responsible 😼

→ he will send you money over a few times a week because he claims he’s a good boyfie virtually and realistically

→ LOVES opening the letters from ‘mom’

→ it’s a small detail in the game but it brings kuroo comfort when he opens the letters and sometimes receives gifts from his virtual ‘mom’ 🥺

→ keeps all the letters from her because that’s what he would do if his real mom ever wrote to him

→ he’s a shameless timeskipper

→ “tetsu?? where tf did you get all this the games only been out a week??”

→ “👁👁 idk what you’re talking about baby”

→ the thing that annoys him the most are the fossils

→ HATES the stupid little marks in the ground that appear every day

→ also HATES talking to blathers

→ “spit it out already! i have places to be and villagers to see!”

→ completely ignores blathers’ real name and refers to him as ‘bokuto’

→ because he’s an owl duh

→ and bokuto also talks a lot

→ you thought it was a cute friendship thing at first but took it back when you heard him muttering under his breath

→ “oh my god just analyse the fossils already you himbo bird!”

→ “did you just call blathers a himbo? 😳”

→ “...no? 😳👀”

→ all in all, kuroo’s pretty good at the game

→ you like visiting his island because he has a ton of extra stuff he just gives you

→ “i never want to hear you call me a bad boyfriend again 😐”

→ “okay fine...but oNLY if you give me an ironwood dresser 😏”

tsukishima kei

→ another one who bangs it out

→ doesn’t really care when you point it out though

→ “you’re just jealous your islands a dumping ground compared to mine 🥱”

→ “k-kei 😔”

→ also sprints near where you’re fishing to scare the fish off and be spiteful 💀

→ little shit KNOWS you only need oranges to complete all the fruits on your island

→ he also knows you’re out of nook miles tickets

→ “aw that’s a shame, maybe if you were a bit better at the game you’d find them quicker but good luck! 😀”

→ oranges are his native fruit 😐😑😐

→ eventually he gives you them because you’re relentless and his patience runs thin after a while

→ good at the bug offs

→ pretty good at scorpion/tarantula hunting too

→ convinced spike is in love with him after the amount of scorpions and tarantulas he’s donated to him

→ his fossil exhibition in the museum is completed already

→ when blathers tells him the facts about the dinosaurs he just rolls his eyes

→ “i knew that already you stupid bird 🙄”

→ why’s everyone bullying blathers damn 😿

→ now, he likes henry

→ one of the few villagers he doesn’t bully

→ tsukki doesnt particularly care for majority of his villagers

→ henry has a special place in his heart though

→ maybe it’s because henry isn’t overly perky or he isn’t rude like the cranky villagers which tsukishima doesn’t like

→ henry is just??? so??? nice????

→ he can’t hate him

→ all his villagers have catchphrases that are dumb af

→ tsukki thought he was being clever when he made them but he just looks mean when other people talk to his villagers

→ “good morning i am useless! i love your outfit!”

→ henry gets to call him tsukki though

→ only because he figured out that henry reminds him of yamaguchi

→ that’s the only reason henry’s the exception to his bullying

→ i feel like tsukki has a pretty nice house too

→ he makes a lot of bells from selling scorpions and tarantulas and spare fossils he’s dug up

→ doesn’t really care about the size but has very detailed rooms

→ like all the furniture in his rooms follow a scheme

→ mf never opens his mailbox

→ doesn’t care for what the other “peasants have to say for themselves”

→ terraforming isn’t really his thing tbh

→ doesn’t like how slow the process and be and kinda likes the natural flat land

→ he likes laying down paths though

→ cusses villagers out when they get in the way though

→ full on shoves them and will keep shoving them until they get annoyed just because they’ve annoyed him

→ tsukki doesnt put as much time into the game as kuroo but his island is still pretty good and aesthetically pleasing

→ he just won’t help you make yours look like that 💀

bokuto koutarō

→ weeds. everywhere.

→ get so confused when he’s told he has to pick them all

→ “really? why can’t i just let them grow though i kinda like them 🤩”

→ mf ✨struggles✨ at the first stages

→ “y/n, you know i love you, please give me 30 iron nuggets 🥺💖💞💗”

→ ofc you give them to him because you’re well ahead in the game and don’t need them as much as he does

→ praises you like royalty but then he’s back to begging for materials from you 💀

→ doesn’t pay his debts

→ you’re gonna have to help him out here

→ doesn’t like the idea of having to constantly pay them off

→ like?? he doesn’t want a bigger house so why is this damn raccoon always bothering him to upgrade like leave him and his 2 room house alone 😠

→ has a the same camp bed and lamp from when he first moved out the tent 💀

→ insists he doesn’t need another one because the furniture all functions the same

→ he has a point tbf but his house just isn’t aesthetically pleasing

→ he also hoards stuff

→ common butterfly? yeah bokuto has 37 sitting in his storage

→ doesn’t like letting the bugs go because he “caught them fair and square”

→ you show him how to pay his debts back and then he dedicates a whole room to his stupid bugs 💀

→ loves blathers and celeste just because they’re owls

→ doesn’t care about what they’re wittering on about he loves interacting with them just because they’re the only owls in the game 😐

→ his favourite villager is kid cat

→ literally follows him around and sprints circles around him

→ l o v e s the chaos outside the town hall

→ 2 of his villagers are singing, 3 are running around and 1 is just watching like 🧍🏻‍♀️

→ HYPES his singing villagers tf up

→ “yeah get it bianca! turn it up!!! 🥳🥳”

→ has to match his villagers clothes at least once a week

→ also makes them all refer to him as “the best ace”

→ it boosts his ego a little more each time they say it

→ bokuto actually got raymond out of luck but had no idea who tf he was and just how popular he was

→ lets that mf go without advertising that raymond’s in boxes

→ atsumu screeches when he finds this out eventually

→ bokuto doesn’t care what his villagers look like everyone’s welcome

→ bella should move to bokuto’s island and move from atsumu’s because bokuto will accept her with open arms rather than a net to the head everytime he sees her 😿

→ ALWAYS remembers birthdays for his villagers

→ and always shows up to their birthday parties insisting he’s the life of the party and they’d be bored without him 😹

→ which is true to a certain degree cause the party only really starts when the player arrives

→ bokuto is actually okay at terraforming

→ quickly changes his mind after an hour of building and digging and restarts it all over again

→ he can make his island look pretty good

→ theres just weeds and buried fossils everywhere though 👁👁

→ also forgets his turnips go bad

→ literally the least financially responsible out of them all

→ it’s okay though because you help him and he eventually gets the hang of it

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[writingfortoomanyfandoms]

Being younger than Seb and dating him (hc)

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Younger!Reader (18+ ofc)

Requested: Yep! A BLM-donation (as organised by @marvelsswansong​ ) of $20 was made by @myfandomchangesalot​ with the request of doing some Sebastian x younger!Reader stuff, the amout donated caused it to be a long headcannon 

Warnings: Age gap, probably swearing knowing me

okay but first of all

he would literally like 300000000000% be the softest dude

he’s probs be kinda wary going into the relationship

we all know he can be fairly insecure (though don’t really see why the sweet little angel) and that would probably show during the kinda ‘hatching’ period of the relationship

Maybe you’re in your uni years? Nearing the end of your course? Or just graduated? 

And it’s a pretty standard meeting story - probably just like a coffee shop run-in, maybe he gets lost and you offer him directions, just something simple and casual like that

Nothing particularly ‘showbiz’ about it y’know?

Nevertheless y’all become friends - it’s an easy relationship, a lot of casual back-and-forth and just loving spending time together

And with the amount of time you end up spending together, he figures out fairly quickly that he’s got some kind of crush on you - which sounds so weird to admit, seems strangely childish to call it a crush but what else could it be called?

And he quickly becomes aware that you return those feelings to some degree

But those fucking insecurities are what prevent him from making  move

He’s certain you can do better - find someone closer to your age, someone who’s not in a different country over half the year, someone with less baggage

You, on the other hand, can’t figure out why he won’t ask you out bc he’s not exactly being subtle about having feelings for you

So after a while you realise that there’s no chance of him making the first move for whatever reason

So you take the initiative to ask him out on a date instead

He rejects you

Though it’s fairly clear that he doesn’t really want to

And he tries to avoid you for a while after that, not wanting to have to admit his reasons behind turning you down despite it going against what everything in him was screaming

You’re nothing if not persistent, however, and keep finding him, imploring him to give you the reason behind his rejection

Finally Sebastian just gets tired of trying to brush you off and just tells you

You fairly quickly disregard Sebastian’s insecurities, doing your best to reassure him as much as you can

Again your persistence pays off and he agrees to go on a date with you

Though he does keep some doubt in his mind over whether or not it would go anywhere, certain that you’ll get bored and decide to find someone younger than him

But anyway, moving on

He’d want to keep your relationship on the down-low for a W H I L E 

He knows what Hollywood’s like, he knows how it can affect relationships and he likes you too much to be okay with putting you through that when you’re likely at risk of it tearing you apart

So the relationship remains very much under the radar for at least a few months

He doesn’t even really tell his friends about it - just his close ones and his mum

But naturally you get a bit iffy about how secretive he’s being - worried that he’s ashamed of you and that’s why he doesn’t want anyone to know about the two of you

Queue the first fight

You avoid him for a while after the blow-up, not wanting to hear his excuses and just wanting to be mad and upset with him

He doesn’t let you do that, though, and tries to corner you every chance he gets, overwhelming you with endless apologies and attempting to explain the best he can whenever he sees you

Eventually you stop and listen to him, hear him out

And it hurts to hear him putting himself down so much, to actually hear all of his insecurities laid out for you

It ends with an emotional make-up filled with tears and whispered apologies, both of you promising to be better - him by attempting to be more open with the relationship, telling more people and not hiding it as much, you by swearing to listen to his side and talking it through properly with him before getting too upset

After that he does become more open about it - more people know that the two of you are together, most of his Marvel costars especially just because he spends so much time with them and the paps start to speculate about it more

But the PDA is still minimal because Sebastian is still a very private guy so I think that in any relationship he wouldn’t exactly be a fan of too much PDA

The confirmation of the relationship comes with his next film premier in which he invites you to be his date

And you’re like.... for real???????

And ofc he is

“I want you by my side, I don’t want anyone else there with me”

What a soft boy

And naturally the paps go wild

The fans go wild

People aren’t sure what to think about it

And ofc some people are dicks about it because of the age gap but honestly

Neither of you care all that much

Because you’re together officially in the public eye - there’s no going back from that and more than anything it’s a relief that it’s finally out there y’know

But in terms of what he’s like dating you

It’s a lot of softness

A lot of movie nights

Teasing him about some of his previous *cough* facial hair choices (man look at me making facial hair jokes years after it happened wow)

He makes a lot of teasing jokes about your age

“though you probably don’t remember that - what were you when it happened? A foetus?”

So ofc you would retaliate with jokes of the same calliper

A lot of pet names

including some Romanian ones but that hc always makes me SOFT as FUCK

Going to every premier with him bc we STAN SUPPORTIVE COUPLES

He comes to your work events as well, despite the likely star-struck responses of coworkers for the SAME REASONS

When he’s away filming he sometimes writes you letters

Not to post them but bc when he’s away he often can’t sleep but doesn’t want to wake you up bc timezones are a bitch and so he writes to you instead

He doesn’t tell you about them but you find them accidentally when he gets home and you’re helping him unpack

But yeah basically you’re the softest couple, despite how dick-ish the public sometimes are about the age difference and just support each other no matter what

[all-things-mlqc]

The five boys react to an overweight MC that works as a nutritionist but struggles a lot to lose weight? It might be strange but it happens sometimes. PLEASE!!! Btw, I love your work❤️

This was really fun to write about. Knowing that these guys are so supportive of MC and want to help her in any way possible with whatever she’s struggling with is just so sweet. 

Thank you for the love and support as well! 😭 I’m usually just memeing it up out here so writing HCs is very new for me but your support helps so much! I did meme a lot while writing this as well because what’s life without memes, so you can find all of my inner thoughts crossed out~ Hope you enjoy!

HC below the cut~

Gavin:

Gavin loves and supports MC through everything. He’s constantly watching and confronts her whenever he believes something is wrong.

After noticing her sulking at herself in the mirror, he asks what’s troubling her.

“Nothing really! You don’t need to worry about me.”

She gives him a small smile and turns away from the mirror.

He figured it had something to do with her figure given the way she was looking at herself.

He remembered her mentioning how even though she’s a nutritionist, she still struggled with her own weight.

She didn’t seem all that down back when mentioning it, but the expression she had in the mirror said otherwise.

He stood up from the sofa and asked if she wanted to go with him during his morning jog.

“Why would you want me to do that? I’d only slow you down.”

Gavin: I don’t mind. If it’ll help, then I’ll do anything I can.

This man isn’t one for small talk. He gets straight to the point. He observes, finds the problem and seeks out a solution. There was no need for MC to confirm his suspicions about wanting to lose weight; It was all in her expression.

“I don’t really want you to go out of your way for me... Besides, it’s important you don’t slack off with your training.”

Gavin: I wouldn’t be slacking off. Training with you would only make me work harder.

A NATURAL ROMANTIC BUT ALSO A FUCKING MORON WHO GAVE HER A BLOOD SOAKED LETTER. IM GONNA BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU YA DUMBASS

MC takes up on Gavin’s offer considering how adamant he was. He also didn’t seem concerned in the slightest about MC being a burden BECAUSE SHES LITERALLY THE LIGHT IN HIS LIFE AND WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER

After they go jogging, they stop for a healthy meal of MCs choice because Gavin doesn’t know what food is. Have you seen his kitchen? INSTA NOODLES EVERYWHERE. Boy is literally the type to throw a lunchables on the dinner table and give thanks for his beloved meal. Omg nononono I’m thinking of all these sad things now about how Gavin was literally homeless for a while as a kid so he probably just got used to eating something small and simple every day. BYE IMMA GO CRY NOW

While eating, Gavin comes up with a few more ideas to help and offers to take her to his gym every other day.

They come up with a plausible schedule that could seem efficient to MC’s wish of losing weight.

This also gives MC the chance to make sure Gavin is taking care of himself as well.

Kiro:

Kiro and MC meet up when he finally has free time and manages to escape from Savin.

Like their normal days together, they end up walking around Loveland City, going to some sightseeing locations. They just enjoy each other’s company.

When stopping to buy a snack, Kiro grabs two bags of chips and beams up at MC only to see her forced smile. He immediately gets concerned given how positive she always is.

Kiro: Are you ok? What’s on your mind?

“No, it’s nothing. I’m just trying to narrow down on the amount of junk food I eat.”

Kiro: Why is that? You’ve always told me to live to the fullest.

“Well... I’m trying to lose some weight but it seems more problematic than I had originally thought.”

With MC looking ashamed of how little progress she has made thus far, Kiro places both bags back on the shelf with a bright smile.

Kiro: Well if we both work together then there’s no chance we could lose this fight! Besides, Savin has been at my throat lately considering the mount of junk food I’ve been eating recently too.

“Kiro...”

MC stared at Kiro, dumbfounded, who seemed so positive. This gave MC a boost of confidence, herself.

She quietly thanked him while giving him a genuine smile.

They spent the whole day doing fun activities. In a way, this was part of Kiro’s plan to help MC. He knew how much this mattered to her so he wanted to keep a smile on her face while secretly help her from the shadows.

It’s honestly what he does best. It’s hard to tell in the game since we don’t get to see every expression he makes or how he reacts to things, but take a good look at his reactions in the anime. You can see how serious he really is behind his happy facade.

He continues to silently help her every time they spend time together as well as send her encouraging texts and reminders.

Nobody is more positive and encouraging than Kiro~

Lucien:

Lucien knows everything nutritionists know, let’s be real. This man was a child prodigy who skipped half of his school life, going straight to college.

He knows EXACTLY what MC needs. The one problem is, so does MC.

She knows what she needs to do but doesn’t have the kind of support she needs. She easily becomes discouraged when things don’t work out after trying so hard.

Luckily, Lucien is also a wonderful supporter minus when he just “what’s a magic? Don’t know em. No thoughts. Head empty. Only science and death”. Uhu then what do you call that flying cop outside the window? Where’s your science behind that? Lucien: “Well you see, there is a certain DNA mutation that—“ DO NOT ANSWER THAT YOU FOOL I KNOW ITS SCIENCE BUT MAGIC IS EASIER TO ACCEPT RN BECAUSE MY BRAIN GO BRRR

But considering it’s MCs health, he is very supportive and even explains that many people struggle with the same problem. There’s not exactly any problem with how someone looks unless it is overall affecting their health for the worse but he will gladly help MC if she wishes to lose weight.

Knowing that Lucien views it this way immediately gives MC more confidence.

An enormous amount of stress has been lifted off her shoulders which will ultimately help her reach her goal.

Lucien comes up with a solid workout plan and diet that is easy for MC to follow and even offers to make her some special meals to help with weight loss because Bill Nye over here has the solution to everything

I also highkey imagined him whispering in her ear like the first day they met that if she follows his plan without any casualties, he would give her special rewards and yes I do mean THOSE kind of rewards because this man is K I N K Y. I don’t even like him, I blame my friend who’s constantly giving me these ideas about him. You’re lucky you’re a bitch or I’d probably be on the floor for you too.

Victor:

Victor’s biggest struggle is vulnerability. He is very blunt and says what comes to his mind without always thinking it through.

Because of this, he upsets MC when talking about her weight.

He meant no harm from whatever he may have said but notices MC’s sorrowful expression after lifting his eyes from the papers on his desk to meet her gaze.

He immediately acknowledges what he had done and puts everything away for the day, offering to take her to Souvenir.

“What..?”

Victor: I’m done for the day. If you don’t have anything else to do, you can come with me.

“But why?”

Victor: You’re still you regardless of your weight, but if it’s something you want to change, I’ll help.

The man wanted to tell her she’s beautiful and amazing no matter what, but hahaha we all know this man can’t compliment for the life of him. Jkjk he can but like I said before, v u l n e r a b i l i t y. He struggles with expressing his true feelings.

MC responds with pure shock on her face,

“Really?? You’d help me?”

Victor: Only an idiot would ask a question like that. You should count on me more when you’re struggling with something like this.

Baka this baka that. If I don’t add it somewhere, than this whole HC isn’t accurate at all. All you thirsty Victor hoes go watch his baka clip if you want more *spray bottles*

He tidies up his desk and grabs his coat, heading towards the door while MC stumbles over her thoughts.

He only stops halfway out the door to look back over his shoulder at MC.

Victor: Well?

“I— I’m coming!”

She rushes over and follows him out the door.

Victor ends up making MC a delicious and healthy meal, one he knows is a special meal for a weight loss diet.

Cooking was never that important to him. He only learned because of the little girl he once knew. But now... Now he has a new reason to continue cooking.

That girl had come back to him and he would do anything in his power to make her happy.

Shaw:

He watches MC intently as she talks about how difficult it is for her.

Right before MC finishes, he places her on his skateboard and takes off without giving her time to protest.

She shouts in fear ofc. Why wouldn’t she. I’m terrified every time the game says he puts mc on his skateboard just—

Shaw chuckles with amusement in her ear and then tells her to push off with her own feet.

“ARE YOU INSANE?” yes, yes he is

Shaw: I won’t let you fall but I won’t stop until you push.

“Fine fine!”

With the help of Shaw keeping her steady, she’s able to smoothly push off the skateboard a few times.

After getting the hang of it, there’s a slight smile taking place of her feared expression from before.

Shaw’s expression, however, doesn’t change in the slightest. That teasing smirk rests on his face as she continues to push them down the park sidewalk.

As they reach the main road, she yells back to Shaw when the skateboard doesn’t slow down.

“Shaw—!”

It’s all she managed to get out as the fear she once had returned again.

MC shut her eyes with panic as the street grew closer and closer, only to feel an arm wrap around her as the cold wind hitting her face dissipated.

When her eyes opened, she saw Shaw giving her the same mocking smirk he always wears. However, his eyes showed signs of gentleness he doesn’t often express.

He offers her one of his skateboards for workout purposes as well as being her workout partner.

MCs chuckles out of amusement from the idea of HER riding a skateboard by herself. totally a reason why Shaw made this offer. He feeds off of entertainment.

She politely declines his offer of skateboarding but hesitantly asks if he would help her in other ways.

The question needs no thought from Shaw but he doesn’t want her to know he made up his mind to help long ago. ah yes, his one weakness as well, vulnerability

Shaw: I suppose being of assistance to you may turn out entertaining.

MC: Is that all I am to you? A source of entertainment?

She pouts at him half jokingly but he pays no mind to it as he kicks up his skateboard and continues walking ahead while suggesting a few things they can do to help with weight loss. Daring but not enough to scare her away. He actually wants to help but needs her to comply with his suggestions

Shaw is the type to help those he cares for without making it obvious. He believes personal relationships is a weakness for someone like him so he always keeps people at arms length; He always wants a possible way out for when he has to push people away.

While this is true, he’s also struggled with vulnerability his whole life. Considering the type of person his father was, growing up with a man like that not only puts pressure on Shaw, but also forms this broken and terrified personality under his overconfident facade.

Someone please just hold this man, he’s trying his best and needs healing

Their solution for MC is to try some fun activities together. Fun enough for MC to believe that Shaw isn’t going out of his way for her but also not as extreme to the point where MC won’t participate.

[kvngjoong]

jisung + nsfw a-z

next is felix!! i forgot about my dissertation so need to work on that, but i’ll try to post it tomorrow, and if not next monday!

A: Aftercare

because han jisung is not only a sub, but a brat, he needs taking care of. he will demand all of your attention on him, so good luck if you wanted to do something else, because jisung is expecting you to take care of him, run him a bath, sit with him, play with his hair (and braid it, hmm?), then help him get to sleep. if you don’t, he will definitely complain about it

B: Body part

although there is a joke he literally loves your chest, he loves your hands more. he likes the way you stroke his skin so softly, he likes how you run your fingers through his hair when he’s in sub space, he especially loves the way that you so perfectly jack him off. for him, he loves his lips the most. he knows the effect he has on you because of them

C: Cum

he cums a lot. like a surprising amount. he enjoys making a show of it and having it all over your sheets, or your hands, so that he can lick it off. also likes having his cum on ur tiddies cause he thinks it looks pretty

D: Dirty Secret

jisung mentioned more than enough times that he wants to video you guys doing something sometime, and he does with your permission this one time. he first off doesn’t admit that he enjoys being a bit of a slut on camera, but it’s pretty easy to see it the next time you watch it and he’s practically got his tongue out and begging for more. second, he doesn't admit how many times he actually got off to that video, and each time you bring it up he’ll get all shy because.. did he just pop a boner?

E: Experience

he knows a damn lot about what he’s doing, but he doesn’t actually have any real experience. probably because he was too busy fantasizing about what could be happening or just he was generally busy. but yeah, he knows what he’s doing and he knows what he wants

F: Favourite Position

literally anything which gives him a chance to touch your tiddies. no joke, he loves it when you ride him, no matter what part of him you’re actually riding. face, cock, thigh… he’s into it (if you’re not wearing a shirt or you’re wearing one of his and it’s kinda see through.. you understand)

G: Goofy

jisung is a brat. do you know what that means? he will make jokes, he will tease you by acting like you’re not affecting him. he generally has a more relaxed approach to nsfw stuff, but he uses it to his advantage too. he’ll get what he wants from you by keeping his happy charm as though he’s completely oblivious to the fact that you're trying to turn him on, or something like that

H: Hair

he’s still pretty young and probably didn’t get the memo to shave anything. but when he gets closer to you he wants to take pride in his appearance and will probably start shaving. not that he has much of it to begin with, he probs doesn’t have much hair altogether anyway

I: Intimacy

he acts like he doesn’t care all that much, but jisung is a sensitive baby and everything means so much to him. especially when he’s laying in your arms afterwards and he looks up to you like you’re his entire world. it’s kinda obvious as well when your sex is a little less kinky and you just wanna show him how much he cares, he will respond the exact same way. but he’s definitely more intimate outside of nsfw stuff

J: Jack Off

He can go all the time, any time. So he jacks off a lot. It may be something that’s hard to control when you first get together because he will be pretty demanding that you help him out each time, but eventually he resorts to just recording it each time so you get to see him jacking off on his own instead

K: Kink

oh hey did someone say the worst power bottom of them all? yeah. he’s a brat, but he knows what he’s doing. he knows what to say to get you riled up, he knows how to move and how to push your buttons. but he likes annoying you because when you get a bit rougher that just takes him to another level. so he’s a masochist too. there’s a whole list of them. he’s a sub. praise kink, teasing, shower sex, practically anywhere sex, he literally is a book of kinks - some of which you might not even know

L: Location

uh.. anywhere. literally. he doesn’t have many boundaries. it doesnt matter that he’s an introvert, all his inhibitions are lost when he’s needy. unless it’s somewhere super public. that isn’t to say he isn’t one to join the mile high club, cause he thinks that would be pretty hot. jisung thinks a lot of things are pretty hot, actually

M: Motivation

he doesn’t need anything other than you. he’ll be talking to you one time and remember when you stuck a butt plug in him and outright say to you what he’s thinking about. he’ll be working on a song and remember when you bit his collar bone a bit harder than usual, then he’ll run out to call you for a little phone conversation whilst he’s in the disabled bathroom (privacy ofc). so his own creeping thoughts

N: NO

he’s not very much into you calling him degrading names. as much as he likes you spanking him, edging him, etc, he gets a bit upset at the sound of you calling him a slut or whore (you get it). he doesn't seem himself that way, because even is he’s practically begging for you to make him cum over and over, he doesn’t do that for anyone else. he does it for you and only you

O: Oral

he gives and he receives. he loves both, no matter what mood he’s in. he loves how you feel when you suck him off and he also loves to show you how much he’s into you and also impress you with his skills. he’ll do it all just to hear you say how good he is. praise kink, anyone?

P: Pace

definitely on the quicker side no matter what he does. no need to ask him to go faster at all

Q: Quickie

a must have with someone like jisung. he’s frequent to a pout and pulling you into a side room because he really wants to show you just how hard he is for you. he doesn’t prefer them, but he definitely likes them

R: Risk

he thrives on the idea of getting caught. jisung is loud, and he most definitely could moan a bit loud so everyone else knows what he’s doing. it doesn’t embarrass him that much, depending on who might actually catch him doing something, but if someone caught him he would definitely get all cocky because hell yeah, you’re dating him

S: Stamina

usually sticks to a maximum of like 2 rounds, but they’re long. he can endure a lot, especially the longer you’ve been together

T: Toy

loves them all, lives for them, will actively look for them to be used on him. doesn’t really use them on you, but is one to sit back and watch you get off with one as he gets himself off, too. mutual masturbation is a good thing for him, providing that you use that toy on him afterwards, too

U: Unfair

as a brat, he is of course unfair. even with you as the dom, no matter what you do, he still has control somewhere because he’s the worst damn tease around. he’ll listen to your rules, he’ll nod as you tell him he can’t cum until you say, and he’ll do it anyway to get punished, but also because he knows it sends you one step closer to hell anyway. so he’s a tease and it’s completely intentional, especially when he says stuff around other people and smiles widely at you because he just kinda hinted at that one time you let him fuck your mouth… okay jisung

V: Volume

jisung is loud. not kind of loud, not a little bit loud, he is the very definition of loud. cover his mouth loud. have to gag him loud (which he likes). you’re gonna find it hard to keep anything a secret from others because jisung literally does not have a filter and if he likes something you’re doing, he’s gonna tell you and everyone within twenty metres. he talks, he whines, he moans, he whimpers… he is loud

W: Wild Card

it’s not often you were his shirts, and jisung has been begging you to just wear one bc he thinks it will be cute. eventually you give into him and you decide to wear one when you get out of the shower one evening, and jisung was really not expecting you to just have his shirt and a thong on, and he practically fell to his knees at the sight. needless to say you were back in the shower twenty minutes later with jisung following close behind

X: X-Ray

he’s a tiny boy, so probably on the smaller side. it would be a bit weird if he was unexpectedly big, but hey, he has other stuff to work with

Y: Yearning

oh, jisung yearns for you a lot. the amount of pictures he sends when he’s meant to be working, the times he’s pulled you into the bathroom and begged you to do something to help him out, it’s easy to see that jisung has an insatiable need that only you can fulfill. have fun!

Z: ZZZ

he has a lot of energy, so he can’t really just sleep afterwards. he’ll not wanna do stuff with you, like go out and explore or something like that, but he’s happy to watch a movie. he loves just being with you, especially when he loses his bratty tones, so honestly after sex he’s so cuddly and cute that you’ll probably stay up for a bit and both fall asleep by accident

[mindofharry]

Ok a bit unusual but hear me out H is a sergeant or whatever and confesses his love to a cadet (y/n 😏 ofc) and she loves him back but is afraid so she declines. H gets mad and makes her work more than the others and even gives her less time to eat. One day she collapses bc of dehydration malnourishment and bc she is underweight and h just breaks down and cares for her until she is healthy again and she confesses that she loves him too. I understand it might be a bit too much ❤️

omg :( pls forgive me, lmaooo i know nothing about the military or police or anything!!! feedback is welcome as always 🥺🥺🥺 it’s short and not edited !!

harry loves y/n.

he loved y/n l/n. with all of his heart. he loves the way you make everyone laugh when they’re upset or always find away to help around campus when she’s free. he loves how hard she works and how smart she is. harry loves her black shiny hair and dark brown skin. he loves her blue eyes and painted nails.

he also loves the way she tastes. she tastes like strawberries, always so sweet. he loves how her brown skin glistens in the sun or when they sneak out side and the moon hits her face just right. he loves how she would cuddle him every night to help him sleep.

harry couldn’t help but love y/n. she was everything he wanted. he most definitely didn’t deserve her - but maybe, if he counted all his stars write, she would be his and he would be hers. there was only one problem. he was her sergeant and she was his cadet. and although it wasn’t uncommon for people in the same work to get together, harry could never convince her. harry could tell how much y/n loved him. but she was so scared, and harry couldn’t understand why. it wasn’t like it wasn’t allowed. they just couldn’t go around kissing all the time - and it might be a bit complicated for the first couple of weeks but they would work through it. it would be worth it. well at least to harry.

they both lay on harry’s bed. harry’s head in her chest, y/n weaving her fingers through his curley hair. y/n was content. laying there, just the two of them. she knew it wouldn’t be like this forever. but she hoped they could hold onto this peace for a little while longer.

“i love you” harry whispered into y/n’s chest. her hands froze in his hair. her eyes widened and mouth opened to speak but nothing came out. “i love you, y/n l/n. tell me you love me too. say it” he whispered looking up at a gobsmacked y/n.

y/n felt like her world was coming down on her. of course she loved harry. she loved everything about that man. his hair. his eyes. his kindness. but she just couldn’t say it - she wanted to so bad. but she couldn’t. she worked so hard to get where she was. and as selfish as that sounds - she isn’t going to let a relationship ruin it. no matter how much she loves harry styles.

“i.... i harry” she whimpered sitting up. she could see harry frowing sitting up infront of her. “do you not love me?” he asked and y/n say there quiet messing with her fingers. harry let a sigh racking his fingers through his messy hair. “of course i do haz. but i can’t. we can’t” she paused pointing her finger to him and then back to her “do this. we can’t” she finished and he closed his eyes breathing in. “so whatever this is, is over?” he asked and she reluctantly nodded. “because i said i love you?” he asked angrily and y/n groaned standing up putting her shoes on. “if we start dating and say the l word everything i have done and achieved will go to shit!” she exclaimed and harry’s eyebrows furrowed “so i’m not worth it? is that what your saying” he yelled and y/n closed her eyes tears threatening to spill out. “i don’t want to lose my job. i will NOT lose my job” she replied walking to his door and opening it. “i’ll see you tomorrow morning sergeant”

that night y/n cried herself to sleep, instantly regretting her choice. of course he was worth it. she just needed away to explain where she was coming from. she wanted to be with him, but she needed this job. she would have to compromise - and she was ok with that. she got up that morning feeling a little sick after last night, but she pulled through getting into her gear and pulling her curly hair back. y/n absolutely loves her hair, but training and an afro is not a good mix.

she arrived at training with all of the other cadets getting ready and preparing themselves for the work out - harry tends to push them, but y/n doesn’t mind. she likes the adrenaline and the rush.

harry arrived 2 minutes later and everyone stood in silence. “today training will be a bit different” he paused walking down infront of them. “you will be put into pairs. and the person i pick will be your sergeant. they will coach you, and help you with your training. you will do as they say. tomorrow we will swap around and do the same” he said looking directly at y/n. “there is equipment beside me you can use. please have mercy on your partner” he added everyone laughing a bit. he put people into groups and told the groups which was the sergeant and the basic rules of the day.

“l/n you’re with me”

two hours past and the training was done. the people in charge didn’t really go hard on the other people - just some drills and what have you, they were definitely taking advantage of not having to do any hard work.

but for y/n it was completely different. she was drenched in sweat and pushed to her limits. harry had made her stay behind letting the others leave early.

y/n felt sick. she felt like she would puke all over harry if she didn’t sit down. “i need to sit” she said stopping her running. harry shook his head “no. i didn’t say you could. keep going” he asked and y/n swallowed closing her eyes. she felt dizzy. she hadn’t eaten any breakfast as she was hoping to have a big lunch, but harry had other thoughts.

“i don’t feel so good” she said and harry rolled his eyes “come on, l/n. another lap” he said sternly and y/n looked around sighing before continuing her run.

before she knew it she was on the ground and everything went dark.

y/n woke up a few hours later in the nurses room, harry holding her hand. she still felt sick. she hadn’t eaten all day - and she was thirsty.

“baby, lay back i’ll get you some water” harry said putting a hand on her cheek. she nodded not wanting to speak much. after he got her a drink of water she sighed feeling a bit better. “i’m sorry, sweetheart” harry started but y/n shook her head “it was petty, but i understand why you did it” she said waving it off. “i’m sorry too.” she said looking over at harry. “you know i love you” she whispered and he smiled.

“yeah. i do”

[wongiemei]

Roommate!Jeno

a/n: maybe i should just turn this blog into an nct dream one

okay

letsgetit!

first of all,

story time!

your uni is fucking expensive and it’s more expensive if you live in the grounds

so you being the wise human,

you went to get an apartment near the campus

it was great and all since roommate!jaemin was paying for his stuff

you were both living respectively until he had to leave

the dumbass didnt even bother to tell you

one morning you just woke up and found his note

‘hey bitch! figured you were too much of a rock to wake up but i moved out! the family wants me to go back home and tend the restaurant’

the whole day yesterday, you were working

bc,,, yknow

broke college life

and you just walked in half asleep towards your room and fell asleep

so you didnt really see or notice

but were you freaking out bc your roommate suddenly moved out?

ofc you were freaking out

not only was your roommate gone,

how were you going to find a new one?!

jaemin expected your phone call that afternoon and he endured through all your screaming

‘babe, i’m just going to be gone for a year-or two’

‘oR tWO?!’

‘hun, my dad’s injured and his back can only let him do so much. ma’s working too much and i dont have any siblings to help. i figured i could just hold off college until my parents are ready’

ugh, jaemin is such a family boy

‘but jaems! you couldnt have at least told me that yOu wERe mOvING OuT?! and! rent is due soon! i can’t pay for that myself!’

jaemin couldve easily told you to warn yoy

but he didn’t want to tell you bc he couldnt handle you sad and didnt want to upset you

however, now jaemin really understands how shitty that move was

‘tell you what. i’ll pay for this month and make a few phone calls and i’ll get you set up with a new roommate, deal?’

knowing how much of a social butterfly he was, you agreed

ofc you trusted jaemin but part of you feared that he might pair you up with a freak

but he’s not that mean, is he?

you can definitely see renjun doing that but not jaemin

so there you are,,

sitting on your couch alone

without jaemin, your apartment felt really empty

its been a few days since he moved and you were miserable

jaemin hasn’t even texted you about that potential roommate

just as you were about to call him,,

your doorbell rang

you froze and you looked at the time

it was nearing 11 at night and you don’t remember ordering delivery

see,,

if jaemin was here,

he would answer it for you since you would be too scared to do it

but you mustered up your courage and peeped through the peep hole

the man was dressed in all black with a black mask and a black cap with his hood over it with a black hoodie and black pants

ngl, you were terrified and trembling

he rang it again and you jumped

typing out a quick text to jaemin saying ‘hey bub, if i don’t text you in an hour, that means ive been kidnapped so call the police’

you grabbed a pan from the cupboard and gulped before you opened the door

thinking he would just walk forward and grab you, you closed your eyes and raised your pan over your head and swung

a shriek from in front of you made your eyes snap open and found the guy on the floor with a fetal position

you both just froze for like a phat minute

snapping back to reality, you held the pan in front of you

‘if youre going to kidnap me, i got a pan and im not afraid to hit you with it!’

you tried to sound intimidating but your voice was shaking so much

the guy stood up and he took off his hat and the mask to reveal a blonde haired kid

okay, so you were sHOokETh

damn! this boy is fine!

he gave you a shaky smile and held out his hand

‘hi! i’m lee jeno! you must be y/n? jaemin told me you had an opening for a roommate?’

now you noticed the two duffle bags at the side

the embaressment and the shame settled in slowly and you found yourself burning up

nodding, you motioned him to come in

jeno awkwardly walked in and was amazed at how big the layout was with the low rent

‘yea, its kinda hard to believe that we only pay that much. at first i thought there was a ghost in here and that’s why its so cheap’

you tried to make small conversation but laughed weirdly at jeno’s slightly terrified face

‘no! there really is not ghost here! ive lived here for a year and there hasnt been anything so please dont understand! please be my roommate!’

you begged and jeno thought you were weird

but jaemin was right, you were weirdly adorable in a way

so that’s how you and jeno became apartment buddies!

now onto the good stuff!

so, jeno is a vv clean guy

like he’s the type to just pick up a wrapper in the street and throw it in the garbage

so naturally, he likes to keep the apartment as tidy and neat as possible

but you being a mess you are,

you usually leave a lot of things everywhere

lets just say you have a short memory

‘oh? how did that get there?’

eventually, jeno gets sick of it and he confronts you with it

ofc you understand and you actually try to be better

since jeno is literally the most perfect roommate

maybe even better than jaemin

(but don’t tell him that)

jeno is the type to re-stock the pantry with snacks and the fridge with ice cream

since youre both college students, ramen is practically always available in the house 24/7

he also makes the coffee every morning since he works early and wakes up first

even though he doesn’t like the drink and prefers milk, he still notices how you survive off of coffee

babie likes to pick you up some iced americano while he gets a frappe

you on the other hand,,

you’re very surprised

when you got to bed after showing jeno around,

you messaged jaemin

ofc he was worried af and was blowing up your phone

‘WHAT?!’

‘bitch answer the damn phone!’

‘whatthe fuck is happening?!’

‘i need to know if you’re still alive!’

‘oh fuck i shouldnt have moved out’

smiling softly at how worried he was, you responded to him

‘you hoe, it hasnt been an hour yet so chillax. i’m alive, unfortunately, and i just met my new roommate. again, thanks for the heads-up. youre so bad at those. i literally thought he was a burgular or a kidnapper. but he seems chill and emo. just my type.’

but jeno is F A R from C H I L L

oh my goodness,,

hes a crackhead

theres this sound he makes when he’s confused and you couldnt figure out if its cute or weird or if he’s doing this on purpose or thats just how he is

you and him basically communicate with memes

sometimes, at the weird hours at night, he sends you a dumbass meme

you cant help but snort 

also, you promised to take jaemin out to dinner to repay him for the great roommate

‘hes literally one of the best people youll ever meet. it just so happen he needed a place to sleep. now you owe me’

hes a science major while you were a computer major

he basically brings home weird stuff to analyze and it just hella stinks

but hes considerate enough to actually put it outside

whenever he’s focused, he talks to himself or the thing he’s analyzing

‘okay mr. fishy. your scales are really big and its bigger than average’

its so cute

oof also!

jeno doesnt have a job yet he always makes rent on time with extra money to spare

he even sometimes buys you stuff saying, ‘they reminded me of you’

for your birthday, he bought you a pearl necklace that mustve costed thousands

at first, you thought he was a chaebol or smth

which you wouldve been vv jealous of bc youre a struggling college student who works at the coffee shop

but, you were answered when you caught him walking in half-dazed and half-asleep with cuts all over his face

it was like 2 in the morning and you were pulling an all-nighter for some project and wanted to get a glass of water

but here he is, hood up, lip busted, black eye, cheek cut

you shrieked and ushered him to sit on the dining chair

thinking he got mugged or something, you start drilling him questions

‘hun, if you were beat up, we need to call the police! this is illegal!’

but jeno chuckles and brushes the stray hairs out of your face as you tend to his lip

‘pls dont. if you do, ill be broke and i wont have money to pay rent then i cant be your roommate anymore’

cue confused y/n

‘wUT?’

‘if i dont make money, youll kick me out and youll have to find another roommate. i dont want you to go through that hassle again’

ofc you were flattered that even during this situation, hes still thinking about you

‘how is this making money?!’

‘i cant believe youre oblivious to so many things. i thought for sure youve caught on.’

more confusion

‘eXCUse mE, lEE JEno? since when have you started coming home with all these things in your face?’

you were worried that this wasnt the first time this happened

but if you think hard about it, thats why he always wears his mouth masks and he always has his blonde fringe down and sometimes wears sunglasses even though its cloudy outside

‘ohmygod lee jeno are you in a gang?!’

jeno was shocked that you came to that conclusion but laughed at how adorable you were rn

with your wide eyes and mouth open

‘nah, bro. i box. its the only way i can make easy money.’

‘but,,, why did you hide this from me? if you needed money i couldve helped you’

he looked at you skeptically

‘sis, you could barely afford that muffin the other day’

lee jeno now looked different from the jeno you met the first day

What you thought to be an innocent little squish was a fighter at night

‘yah, can-um-you need to take this off’

you mumbled while tugging on his sweatshirt

he nodded and slipped it off

he explained why he came late when he first moved

‘i had a late night match and yknow,, school and all, i barely had enough time to come'

as you dab the wound, you try to make small talk to distract yourself

 ‘so,, youve been boxing this whole time?’

you asked, trying not to get distracted to the way his tight shirt clung to him, showing his defined body

there were bruises up and down his arms and his knuckles were busted

‘yea. i have been since senior high. gotta make money, yknow?’

‘but jen, you can work in coffee shops or at local bookstores. its not worth seeing you busted up like this’

your lips trembled at the thought of him being beaten up too hard to the point he gets into a coma

jenos eyes widened at your wobbling lips and he softly cupped your face

‘hey, im okay and ill be fine. you dont have to worry about me. i usually win, anyways’

his confidence made you chuckle

‘i trust you, lee jeno. just make sure to make it home to me every night.’

‘i know you do and i will. always.”

ever since then,

youve become his little caretaker

youve informed jaemin of what hes been doing and he knew but didnt want you to judge him immediately

smh, jaemin really sucks at informing people

but jeno tries to help you keep up

he even sends you texts that hes fighting that night and your little ‘fighting!’ always makes him smile

his manager and friend, chenle, noticed that hes starting to smile more

chenle likes boxing and wants to be a part of it but doesnt want to be hurt

so,, what better to be the manager of his friend

‘yah, hyung. what’s got you giggly today?’

jeno pointed to the screen and giggled at the little good luck gif you sent

his eyes turned to crescents and chenle smirked

‘wah, you like her, don’t you?’

at the mention of ‘like’, his smile dropped and he shook his head

‘no. of course not. shes just a friend.’

chenle being chenle,,

he continues to prod

‘okay. so every night, you make it your priority to make sure you’re home by 2 in the morning for your friend’

smh, chenle youre so annoying

but hes so right

ever since you caught him,

hes been making sure he gets home at the same time 

he sends you a text that hes on his way and you set your ringtone at a very high volume so you wake up and take care of him

during fights, he makes it his sole mission to make out of this alive and a winner for you

but that never crossed his mind as his feelings for you

he just thought of it as making you not worry for him

but then, he starts to think about your stupid little habits

the way you make this face whenever you dont understand

or when you still leave little post-it notes everywhere with ideas you come up with

he noticed it all and he loves them

‘hOLy ShIT!’

that night was when he realized his feelings for you and he was so dedicated on finishing it that he quickly won and he dashed home with his money

bursting through the door, you looked at him with wide and startled eyes

‘what’s wrong?’

you came running but he scooped you up to a hug

ok you were confused but relieved that he was home and alright

jeno looked at your face and wanted to confess but chickened out at the sight of you

you were so good to him and honestly, he doesnt deserve you

(his thoughts, not mine)

‘i-i’

he stuttered and you motioned him to continue

‘i won!’

he shouted and you congratulated him, even though he literally won all the time

guiding him to the chair, you began to dab his cuts

(dab that bitch)

‘im starting to think that your opponents either really suck or youre like the god of boxing’

he didnt know how to take that but blushed red at the mention of him being a ‘god of boxing’

‘nah, im just good’

you eyed him and smiled

he continued to watch you heal him and inspected your face

heavy eyebags and sunken cheeks, it mustve been a long night

he felt a pang in his chest thinking that you push your stuff away just to help him

‘you dont have to keep doing this for me, yknow’

you halt and look at him seriously

‘i know i dont. but i cant sleep at night thinking youre in pain and alone when i can be there for you’

even though he just realized it, jeno was pretty sure he fell in love with you a long time ago

but if it was possible, he fell in love with you even more

‘thank you’

his soft voice filled the silence and you vowed that you will always be there for him whenever he needs help

a few days later, jeno hasnt been to a fight

sure you were worried at what was going on in his head but partly relieved that you dont have to see him so battered anymore

but this was so un-jeno

just as you were about to talk to him about it, he announces he got a job at the bookstore down the street

‘huh? i thought you didnt want to work’

you question while he looked sheepish

‘i realized that i was starting to become a burden since you take care of me every time. so i thought i should quit and get a regular job. besides, it doesnt hurt as much’

he laughed but you didnt react

‘lee jeno, you gave up boxing and the money,,, for me?’

he nervously looked up at you and you noticed the redness of his cheeks

‘i-well-if you put it that way’

‘listen to me, im flattered and i truly love that you dont want to get beaten up anymore. but i dont want you to quit something you like because of me'

‘but you always take care of me and push your priorities away to clean me up. i dont do anything in return and i dont think its fair!’

he argued and a soft smile crept up your face

‘yah, lee jeno'

your voice became a whisper

‘it doesnt matter to me if you dont do anything in return bc i dont see this as a favor. you are mine to take care of and i will do anything for you, you understand that?’

he looked at you in shock after hearing your response

he also turned red at the mention of him being yours

‘so-but-i dont think-'

he stutters but you place your hands on his arms making him stop

‘all i ask is you to come back home, to come back to me'

by now, yall were blushing

even though it might not sound like it,

but yall just indirectly confessed to each other

yall stared at the ground and jeno looks up, biting his lip

‘hey, y/n, can i make it up to you with some coffee?’

your head darted up and looked at him with wide eyes

‘like-like a date?’

it came out suddenly and you stepped back in surprise, cursing yourself

but jeno chuckled, eyes scrunching cutely

‘it'll be one of many'

lmao i didnt really like this but i made it at 2 in the morning and i kinda like boxer!jeno

[askmyboys]

Arvish

Here’s giant goat god, husband to Osmund!

| Name: Arvish

| Nicknames: Arv (only his husband is allowed to call him Arvy) or Vis

| Gender: He/Him, They/Them, or It/It’s (mostly mortals and the books used they/them or it/its and he loved both pronouns so he decided to use them as well)

| Age: Also old like Osmund really, centuries old essentially

| Height: 140ft

| Species/Race: Giant God God (he can also size shift)

| Hair Color: Dark Brown (Quiff Hairstyle)

| Eye Color: His eyes used to be Pitch Black (the colors of the eyes in this regard are KINDA lowkey symbolic? His eye color now Forest Green (you know he has them rectangular pupils) he has one scar over his right eye but he can still see out of it thankfully.

| Appearance: Let’s start off like we did with Osmund- Alrighty, his ears are the same p much as Osmund’s except the top is a brown color with white fur on the bottom, he’s got a brown goat tail with white fur on the bottom as well, his feet are hooves and he actually just has hands, his fingers for some reason have something that look like black ink smeared on them- it doesn’t come off either it just seems to be apart of his skin, he does have sharp black claws as well, he’s got horns but they are more like ram horns (got them BIGEM curly horns babey) he wears his wedding ring on his right horn actually (he isn’t afraid of it coming off, it’s not STUCK on there but it’s not just going to,, slip off or anything) BUT when he’s out and about for long periods of time he has a heart shaped rose quartz locket that he keeps it in and wears it around his neck (last I checked rose quartz symbolizes love, trust, and emotional healing)

His skin color? Well he’s honestly just tan- its from staying outside like 90% of the time lmao but given the nature of his world who WOULDN’T wanna stay outside in it (also bc i almost forgot, his beard is actually pretty fluffy looking and he also has sideburns- despite being a fluffy beard he manages to keep it looking well groomed as best he can ...never let the fluffy looks deceive you either, c o a r s e, coarse as hell) (also he’s got razor sharp teeth too, ...i-is he still a goat?)

Anyway- He wears one of those golden egyptian collars around his neck (mostly for Osmund who a d o r e s it), he doesn’t really wear a shirt or pants either, he has a long loincloth (it goes down his legs even, so it's kinda like a loincloth-dress esque thing?) he just didn’t feel comfortable with the short loincloths… He cut a little hole out in it so his tail could stick through as well, he has a bit of chest fluff, no its not hair its like ACTUAL fluff- He also has like a fuck TON of scars, there’s SO many scars all over his body, they don’t seem to be any fresh or new wounds they look like they happened a VERY long time ago…

He also has a few golden bracelets going up his wrists and some near his biceps as well.

| Personality: Well, let’s start with how he was in the past bc everyone loves remembering their past right? ...ahaaaa… Anyways- Arvish was a greedy power hungry god who’d do and say anything to get what he’d want, he’d manipulate a few other gods/goddesses here and there but the mortals? O h they were ALWAYS the easiest to manipulate, he was also hungry for wars, it didn’t matter what kind of war it was, when it came to war, he loved choosing the mortals over the other gods and goddesses because of them being easy to trick essentially, it was SO easy to start a war with them! Humans fight over the s m a l l e s t of things it would seem! And because of how much he loved war you know he was absolutely the leader in a few of his own, feuding with other gods/goddesses and mortals all the same, he l o v e d money as well, money was the key to power and succession it seemed, especially in the mortal world, money made it easier to control them.

He was definitely an EXTREME control freak, you either bowed to him or you defied him and defying him would definitely end in a painful death more than likely, he was p much evil, cruel, sadistic, and a very stinky bastard man essentially- He was downright awful ...And then some time later on in his life, he met Osmund, a peaceful warrior who’d only fight if he had to, it was definitely a cliche love at first sight type of thing but even then, Arvish tried to deny his feelings, he didn’t feel love or anything like that, love was NOT an option for a god like him, and love was a weakness, having feelings for something or someone had been considered a weakness! So naturally at first Arvish and Osmundus were into it, the two fought greatly against each other- The first battle Osmundus won and usually, he’d finish the job but when it came to Arvish…

Unlike most that crossed him and pushed him, he slowly lifted his sword away from the other god’s neck and told him to simply get out, don’t come back… Of course Arvish only mocked Osmund for showing m e r c y to one of his enemies, he should have finished the job bc this was definitely not the last he saw of Arvish, the two had MANY great fights and when Arvish finally won a fight, after he had beaten Osmundus finally, now it was time to finish him off so he couldn’t get in the way! (Cause Osmundus was one to stop him from his evil deeds, he was a divine protector after all) but… Arvish just… Couldn’t, the more the two interacted, albeit after fights, Osmundus even went as far as to offer him some tea and a sit down to read a book, after they JUST fought?! Osmundus always spared Arvish, he taught the god things even HE didn’t know…

...And that had all strengthened Arvish’s love for Osmundus, such a wise god… Arvish couldn’t bring himself to finish Osmund off, especially after the god had said “Well, you’ve finally won…! I’m impressed, you’ve grown stronger Arvish… ...Well, if you want to finish me off, I won’t stop you” which confused him greatly “I… What are you playing at you old fool…?” Os only chuckled “Nothing, I’m completely serious, if you wish to finally get me out of the picture, I’m not going to stop you… In fact…” He would have then took his sword and stuck it into the ground (not the black obsidian sword) and stuck it deep so even he probs couldn’t have even pulled it back up (its a landmark now p much) really, it was all the kind acts from Osmund that he had provided after every fight, the knowledge from books, the offerings of tea, and the kind words he spoke even after fighting so harshly that just eventually broke the power hungry god, he only offered a hand to Os “...Get up… I… I just can’t do it…”

Arvish even admitted as he helped Osmund to his feet, half on guard just in case this was still all a ruse to attack him unexpectedly “...You have shown me kindness even when we are the greatest of enemies, even the very first time when you had the chance to take my head, you didn’t… You spared me, you knew I would come back, you knew I would never have given up, so why…? Why didn’t you just take the opportunity to finish me off?” Osmund would only laugh at that “...Well, why didn’t YOU just take YOUR opportunity to finish me off? I even offered you to do so…” (damn, this turning into a fanfic isn’t it?) Arvish couldn’t deny, okay Os got him there and for the first time he laughed genuinely at that “...I don’t understand you at all you old fool… Such a strange soul…” after a bit though, Arvish was going to leave actually but Osmundus stopped him, placing a hand on his shoulder “Why don’t you come inside, Arvish? We can settle down for the night and talk with some tea…” Arvish was shocked by this, shocked that the other god would even offer this after the BIGGEST fight they had ever had just transpired but Arvish for whatever reason took it.

Alright this is going to be waay too long if I keep up fanfic format, so basically after the biggest fight, Arvish and Osmundus has called a truce at first, Arvish would eventually start coming over but not to start a fight, no… He was just visiting Osmundus, that feeling in his chest never left from day one, but it only got stronger as time passed, same for Os it seemed, Arvish got taught the beauty of nature, how peace could be a much stronger asset than wars, how greed and power would only leave you feeling empty in the end and it had been true, even despite how much treasures he had stolen at first, he never did feel truly happy or anything, it was just wanting more and more and nothing satisfied him, and even the mortals had… Such intriguing ways of living life, Osmundus taught him s o much… After all this, Arvish became a MUCH more peaceful, kind, gentle, caring, and sweet soul… Even though the books and things speak ill of him at first (some books had been twisted to keep him labelled as the bad guy) most books tell the WHOLE tale. Now of course after all this, Arvish had admitted eventually that he had fallen in love with Osmundus and this was the first time he was actually nervous… He figured the other god would take offense, laugh at, or even reject him entirely.

Of course that’s when Osmund let him in on a little secret, he’s felt that way the entire time as well, and that it only grew stronger as time passed, same ofc with Arv obvs- but ahem- anyways- Os accepted the confession and the two had went on dates, strengthening their bonds the more time they spent together, and eventually when the time was right, Arvish was the one to propose first actually, and that was the MOST nerve wracking moment of his entire existence, even though he had knew Osmund loved him v e r y much so and of course he loved him back immensely as much, there was still a secret fear of rejection… However, this led to the first time Osmundus ever cried, at first Arvish was nervous that he had offended the other god or upset him so he quickly apologized but before he could even say anything more, Osmundus pulled him into a tight bear hug “...Yes, Arvy, I’ll marry you…” 

...And now it was Arv’s turn to cry, this also being the very first time HE ever shed a tear, and thus the two became husbands, and p much lived in peace and happiness.

I know that’s long and wordy but I had to describe this almost fully for anyone to TRULY understand Arvish, its basically literally the enemies to lovers trope, Arvish gave up his war, power, and greedy ways for Osmundus in the end, he could have taken the chance to end Osmundus so no one else could stand in his way then, not in those regards anyways but he just couldn’t do it, so yeye y’all get the basic point

| Side Facts: Arvish’s world used to be barren essentially, there used to be no signs of life there aside from him and whatever subjects he had, whatever minions he had, etc- But those were just there to serve him, there was no forests or any beautiful scenery… BUT since Arvish changed his ways, his world grew brighter, various plants, trees, flowers had began growing, wildlife had started appearing even! Many things happened to his world and it was no longer barren, now he has almost infinite forests and meadows spreading ALL across his world, one of the forests even have a LARGE lake (when I say barren, his world previously was literally just, d e a d looking, it was nothing but sand n sandstorms mostly, no sounds of life or anything could be heard and the silence would be enough to drive a human crazy excluding sand storm sounds n the sounds of a literal god and his minions BUT shhh! And despite not being any living creatures there WERE skulls of ones)

Arvish has a flower crown that had been made specifically for him, it seemed to have been designed by the other gods/goddesses and even some demigods, it was designed specifically for him, celebrating his change and growth into a better person, however… His sins and atrocities of the past still haunt and plague his mind to this day, everything he’s ever done and said still haunts him, and sometimes he wonders w h y… Why was he ever like that in the first place? Osmundus usually knows exactly what to say and do when he notices Arvish spiraling, which Arv is very thankful for… Arvish never expects forgiveness either from anyone he’s done wrong, and to the ones he has even killed, he regrets that d e e p l y, he wishes he had never been… t h a t kind of being… But, to the ones he’s done wrong to, like I was saying, he doesn’t ever expect forgiveness from them bc even though he’s changed, he really doesn’t feel he deserves it, he’s caused so much harm, so much pain, so many bad things and he’ll take those to the grave one day.

(catch that god of death character I made waaay back when fuckin cackling at this man lmao, i dont even know where I put those gods’ descriptions and now I really wanna find em again bc im makin’ gods/goddesses/demigods and a whole ass world for them all) Also one more thing, this is in reference to appearance back up there but im too lazy to have to fix the text movin down a page n shit, basically- he wears a silver nose ring AND his nose is also black like the his fingers (he does have a bit of darker brown going up it, its kinda another goat-like nose, it seems like it should be painted on, you’d think but in fact it’s genuinely just something on ‘im)

[smoljamswrites]

BTS as your best friends:

I’m kind of proud of this and it’s my first one so yeah. If you like it please like or reblog, it’d mean the world to me. Thank you! x

KIM SEOKJIN

okay hands down Jin would be such a good best friend

He’s very protective of you

10/10 would get triggered if someone hurt/upset you

comforts you by putting on a funny movie and chills with you on the sofa or tells you an endless supply of his dad jokes

If you go shopping with him, it’d be like a father and child moment

he keeps telling you to stop messing with stuff on the shelves

continuously jokes around and tells you to put things back

and will definitely ask you what you think he should eat next on EatJin

actually, when he does EatJin you’re usually behind the camera just lying around on his bed or whatever, keeping quiet and playing games on your phone

because I get the impression that Jin loves it when he’s got company and he’s in someone else’s presence

asjskjskjsjs does that even make sense

like he just wants you to be there

even if you ain’t doing anything together

you’re just doing your own thing while he does his

he loves that

also because he’s a Mario fan, and he can be extra af, I think if you guys couldn’t decide who got to choose, between the two of you, something like which takeaway you should order

then you are playing Mario Kart and the winner gets to choose

and boi boy does he get competitive at Mario Kart

if you do win though, expect to witness a spluttery loud-ass Jin

not that he genuinely cares that you get to choose the food

I mean, he loves food so whatever you choose he will eat anyway

but he gets chaotic because he knows you find it funny

he’ll do anything to make you laugh

believe me when I say Jin lives to see you happy

being your best friend, he’s seen you upset and at your worse

which upset him in return

so he makes it his mission to make you smile and laugh when you’re with him

MIN YOONGI

Lets you chill in his studio whenever you want

you even have the password

you just walk in most evenings, pass him some food and drinks, and try your best to help him with whatever he’s working on this time

he appreciates this so much

you still annoy him a lot but lets be honest he wouldn’t want it any other way

the other guys often say that you and Yoongi are like a couple

surprisingly Yoongi doesn’t really care that they call you guys a couple

matter of fact, it probably doesn’t help the situation that you and Yoongi are  a l w a y s  cuddling

Like if you are on the sofa watching a film with the guys, you best expect his head to be on your shoulder, face nuzzled into your neck, arms draped over your stomach, by the end of the night

he just finds you comfy

similarly, if you are with him in his studio and its really late

and you refuse to leave without him because you know he’s tired too

he’ll be all huffy for a bit, but neither of you end up leaving because you’re both so stubborn

instead you’ll end up on his lap, your face on his chest, while he continues to work

and when he’s finally done, if you look too exhausted he’ll just take you back to his place and let you stop there for the night

you always beg him to teach you the piano

“but Yoongi you’re the piano god”  “go away y/n”

he insults you everyday but only because he loves you and he knows you can handle it because you insult him right back

you balance each other out perfectly

he’s calm and collected

you’re more bubbly and giggly enthusiastic

both of you are equally savage though

normally all you do is either hang out at his place or his studio

if you do go out then it’ll be at night, where it is typically quieter

you’ll go get a coffee or some food and just drive around, talking for ages and listening to music, time running away with you

so much sass omg

JUNG HOSEOK

Takes you shopping and judges your fashion choices

when he comes back from tour, he’ll have lots of gifts for you even though you always tell him not to bring you anything back

also if you used to be scared of loud noises well,, lets just say you’re not anymore

you’re used to his happy outbursts and sound effects

but you also know the other side to him that the public doesn’t see

ofc he’s not always going to be the happy, bubbly jhope you see through the cameras

he can truly be himself when he’s around you and he can relax

but when he is acting loud and chirpy he sort of rubs off on you

like your enthusiasm is fed by his enthusiasm

so good luck to those around you because they basically have to handle jhope x2

you get on so well with his family, especially his sister

with his sister being into clothes and fashion too, when you visit her with hoseok, she always compliments your outfits

and hobi will be smirking in the corner because (like i said above) he takes you shopping

and trust me, he would not let you leave that shop with ugly clothes

have you seen that man

he’s the fashion icon

so he takes full credit for every one of your outfits

always gets you to dance with him

he enjoys teaching you new BTS choreography

you’re both easily scared so if there’s a bug for example, the situation would go down like this

“Hobi you get rid of it!”

“No why should it be me? I think you should do it”

“No, i’m scared! You do it!”

“Y/N you’re closer to it, just do it!”

This arguing back and forth lasts for a few minutes until the bug flies/crawls away and you both run off screaming that its gonna attack you

so yeah, literally never a dull moment when Hoseok is your best friend!

KIM NAMJOON

Lowkey wants you both to match outfits but he would never ask you

could either be goofy with you or he’ll go completely psychological on your ass

there’s no in-between with Joon

You sometimes have to remind him that hes only human and reassure him he’s a great leader because I feel like he’d sometimes get in his own head and let the haters get to him, yknow?

You just gotta keep telling him he’s doing a great job and help him not let the stress get the better of him

You’re always there for him, supporting him

and he’s always there for you too

listens to all your problems

he gives the best advice

he’s also very protective of you

yknow when he clenches his jaw? or he raises one of his eyebrows? omg please tell me you know what i’m talking about well he’d do that if some one hurt you and he’d get hella mad

your family love him

they say he’s a very positive influence on you

he gets you to help him write lyrics because you’re his “muse”

he always convinces bighit to let you come on tour

even if he has to pay for you himself, you are coming

always leaves his broken stuff in your room

recommends you books to read (regardless of whether you actually like to read or not)

he is also the reason why you’re dirty minded

like forget expensive girl, have you ever heard ‘trouble’??

you’ll be with the other guys and you two just accidentally end up speaking English and the other guys are like..um hELLO?

PARK JIMIN

okay so I can imagine Jimin buying him and his best friend matching necklaces or something?

hear me out

its christmas day and Jimin passes you a small black box

inside is a necklace with a small key on it and engraved onto the key is “PJM 1995″ 

and you’re like “why have you gotten me a necklace with YOUR initials and birth year”

and then he shows you his necklace and it has your initials and your birth year

like this idea is so cute it makes me so soft sjweufbewjfn

will flirt with you just to make you laugh or maybe because he loves you or wHaTeVeR

he gives the best hugs

like BTS have already confirmed this in an interview

if you’re feeling down and need a hug, Jimin is your man 

he is always with you

and if he isn’t, then he is texting you

you guys are inseparable

if he gets drunk around you then you’re gonna have this clingy, sappy, emotional, koala of a man wrapped around you for the night because he will not leave your side even for a second

its cute tho

but that also means he has a hard time during tour because you are usually not there with him

always drags you to his family parties and such 

you love to go, and he knows you do, but you always whine when he asks you just to make him laugh 

his mom loves you!!

not gonna lie she ships you both and when you go see her, Jimin has to beg her not to say anything about it to you

he loves to rest his head on your shoulder and you like to do the same

G I G G L E S

If you mention how short he is then good luck because he’s gonna chase you down and tickle you until he hears an apology

not that he really cares though

he just jumps at any chance to see a smile on your face

KIM TAEHYUNG

personal hype man

his camera roll is full of pictures of you

hates it when you’re sad

if you’re sad then just letting you know you’re in for a treat

he would organise a sleepover and would aim to cheer you up for the entire night

you always laugh at his pingu impression 

you’re like Yeontan’s mom 

yeontan l o v e s you

you’ll go to Tae’s house and as soon as you open the door, yeontan will run straight to you 

you walk yeontan together at night whilst you share headphones listening to whatever’s on tae’s playlist

recommends you music because hands down this boy has the best taste in music FITE ME

He’s a big fan of skinship so people actually mistake you guys for a couple sometimes

plays with your hair all the time

your parents love him and treat him like he’s part of the family

your parents would genuinely love it if you two dated 

Tae doesn’t mind it when they ask you questions like

“so are you two together yet?”

but you get annoyed purely because you find it so embarrassing

Tae just laughs it off and makes a joke out of it

“no i could never date y/n because her feet smell”

if you need a hug, he’s there

and he’ll sway you side to side and by the end of it you’re laughing so much because he’s hella goofy and you love it

JEON JUNGKOOK

Bullies you all day everyday (but you know he’s only joking)

sends you memes when you both should be asleep

he definitely has a crush on you or at least he has had one at some point in time

doesn’t stop teasing you

he’s so competitive and has to prove he’s better than you in everything

likes to hug you from behind

eats steals your food

you constantly steal his hoodies and he gets annoyed

but he can’t stay mad at you for too long though

he lives for your compliments

though it normally ends up with you playfully hitting his chest when his ego grows a little too big

he is never serious with you

always has his arm around you, it’s like a habit

always stares at you 

always bursts into your room to hang out and then ends up sleeping in your bed

when he’s feeling cocky, he takes his shirt off and tries to make you feel his muscles

when he’s all sweaty from either going to the gym or dance practice, he makes it his mission to find you and get you to hug him while you’re screaming that he’s all sweaty and “gross”

the guys are convinced you two are dating

and Guk lowkey wishes you were but you didn’t hear that from me ;)

he wants you to play with his hair 24/7

being best friends with him means that, if you weren’t already into video games, then you definitely are now

[theoceanswaves0]

SPOILERS AHOY (ISH)

It’s been like four years since I did a post like this, so here’s me dumping my thoughts on various, random things I’ve been into/thinking about lately.

I’ll be covering Miraculous Ladybug S3, Fire Emblem Three Houses, My Hero Academia, The MCU, Chocolate/Zen: Warrior Within, Pokemon SwSh, Victorious, BtVS/Angel, and Star Wars: RoS so just a warning for potential spoilers. Also, there will be salt and gushing, so proceed with caution.

Victorious

--> Ok, so this show came out when I was already in high school, so I think some of my opinions and takes on the show are going to contrast with the general consensus.

--> But I’m firmly in the pro-Tori Vega camp. Do I agree with her kissing Beck in the pilot? No. But considering that Jade humiliated her in front of her class for a small misunderstanding that could have been easily cleared up if Jade took five seconds to hear Tori out, I find it difficult to feel bad for Jade. Plus, Tori gets called out for this a couple of times in later episodes anyway. 

--> As for Cat’s BF, yeah, that was shitty too but A. He was originally Tori’s BF and they only broke up a year prior to the episode and B. Not only does Tori feel immediate remorse for what she does (spraying Cat with cheese and then kissing her bf in front of her), but she apologizes and never does anything like it again for the rest of the show. BTW, these are both season one incidents, so clearly Tori grows out of this.

--> Plus, I can relate to some of Tori’s awkward traits, like being kind of annoying, not having the best verbal comebacks and feeling pretty average.

--> On the other hand, I can’t stand Jade. Her attitude reminds me of a girl I used to be on and off friends with in middle school. She ended up embarrassing me in front of the cast of our fall play in eighth grade and never apologized for it. Plus she would say or do things that, in hindsight, made it clear she didn’t want me around.

--> But I mean, at least that girl didn’t steal a pint of my blood meant to be used in a mutual friend’s operation, so...

--> Although clearly, Rex the Puppet is the worst character on this show. Jade at least does stuff, why do we need to have Rex around...?

--> My ships are Tandre (Tori/Andre) and Catrina (Cat/Trina)! Tori and Andre always look like they have fun performing together or just hanging out, and their friendship is just so precious. I wish Cat and Trina had more scenes together, because I loved their road trip in “Tori the Zombie” and they’re both dysfunctional in their own ways, but trying their best!! 

BtVS/Angel

--> Nothing new really. But my Tandre feels reminded me how much I also loved Gunn/Fred and wished that they stayed together. Even their ship name, Funn, is precious and gahhhhhhh breaking them up was a mistake!

My Hero Academia

--> It took me like 3-4 years after watching the first episode, but I finally watched it.

--> I’m surprised by how much I really like Izuku. Like, I normally like the protagonist fine, but Izuku just really stood out to me. He’s socially awkward, but in a pretty understandable way, intelligent and passionate without using any of it to put other people down, and ofc he cares about his friends and saving other people because what shonen protagonist doesn’t? The only thing I don’t like about him is his hero worship of Bakugo, but that’s just my bias.

--> Oh, yeah, I don’t like Bakugo. 

--> Relating to Aizawa the most, and realizing that it’s because I’m getting older hukjdshfaskdnfj 

--> I don’t have a ship I’m the most invested in, but I like Izuku with both Todoroki and Uraraka, and I also like Uraraka with Tsuyu. Erasermic is also really good.

--> Not a fan of Eraserjoke. I don’t like the way she continues to ask Aizawa out and then plays it off as a joke when he rejects her like. Like, it’s such a high school thing to do, it’s so weird seeing two grown adults do it. Just take the L and move on, Ms. Joke. Not only is it creepy to continue asking someone out when they say no, it’s annoying to pretend that you didn’t really mean it because it makes it difficult to read you in future scenarios. 

Fire Emblem Three Houses

--> Love it love it love it.

--> Like Fire Emblem has always been more of my brother’s thing, but with Awakening, Fates and Three Houses introducing easier difficulty options, I’ve found it much easier to get into the series. Like, I’m a pretty casual gamer so I’m not looking for anything too challenging most of the time.

--> Ofc I knew going in I was picking Golden Deer, and I was not disappointed. I love everyone every single student in there. The atmosphere was so chaotic, that I just knew recruiting everyone that I could to make it more so just had to be done.

--> Claude and Hilda are the best lord and “retainer” respectively, don’t @ me.

MCU

--> Uh, I haven’t really kept up with MCU stuff since Endgame (which I didn’t care for tbh). I just wanted to remind everyone that I hate Tony Stark :)

Miraculous Ladybug S3

(me @ this entire season tbh)

--> I don’t really post much about ML on this blog anymore because I ended up making a side blog (for salt mostly tbh). But in case anyone doesn’t keep up with what happens over there, I basically hated this entire season lol.

--> Ok, I loved Silencer. Best episode in the season period, no questions asked. I also really liked Kwamibuster and Startrain. Desperada grew on me over time, while Bakerix was... okay, I guess. And Felix was entertaining, even if I felt that the message that they were trying to get across was forced and meant to shut the fandom up. Oblivio was good until that ending, and once Silencer came along, I quickly learned I had no use for it anyway. It being an amnesia episode did it no favors, either.

--> Just as I feared, the season revolved more around humiliating or putting Marinette in really embarrassing situations for the same of “drama”. The Puppeteer 2 is a really good example of this. And it’s upsetting, because none of this actually does anything for Marinette’s character. She’s not even allowed to breakdown or be upset about anything that goes wrong for her until the end of “Heart Hunter” and even that only lasts, like, ten seconds.

--> Also, I don’t ship the Love Square anymore. Lukanette all the way, baby.

--> Let’s be real, Marinette/Happiness should be the real OTP of the show.

--> The fact that every episode of season 4 is supposed to be as dramatic as Chat Blanc does not leave me hopeful for the future. Like, really, you’re going to use an episode in which an entire timeline’s worth of events gets erased and leaves everyone with no memories of it as the basis of your emotional impact going forward? Um, thank you, next.

Rise of Skywalker

--> Haven’t seen it and after seeing the spoilers, I don’t plan to. I really liked TFA, and was excited to see what they did with the Rey-Poe-Finn dynamic. I was not here for Kylo Ren or Reylo. I guess Finn/Rey is joining Tandre and Funn in my “missed opportunity OTPs” corner. D:

Chocolate/Zen: Warrior Within

--> OMG one of my fave movies of all time. Like I appreciate it more and more with age. It’s basically everything I want in a movie.

--> The scene where Zen discovers that her mom’s hair is falling out and she blames herself for it always gets me. Like I always forget about it, so when I see it again, I can’t help but nearly breakdown myself, because I know exactly what Zen’s thought process is without her even having to say anything. I feel just as overwhelmed as she does in the moment and nearly cry every time watching it.

--> One of the few movies that I wish actually got a sequel. Like I have so many questions that could be answered. How do Zen and Moom adjust to living in Japan? How does Zen’s father try to relate to her and Moom? Do they make any other friends? Will Zen get access to resources that will help her? Will they be further ostracized because of their status as outsiders? As someone who already struggles verbally, how will Zen adapt to living in a country that primarily speaks another language? 

Pokemon SwSh

--> Multiplayer is so much fun and wayyyy more accessible than in the past imo. A bunch of people at my martial arts school would do raid battles before classes, so I would always leave to get there early and play with them. 10/10 experience, and it makes me excited to get Animal Crosssing to do the same thing.

--> But on the other hand, I feel like this game has a lot less going for it than SuMo. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but it feels like too much is missing. Like I still enjoy it, but it’s more for the gameplay and less for the story. I’m also not nearly as invested in my team like I was last time (I loved my Sun team so much, I basically kept it the same for US, minus one or two changes). I’m trying to change it fits a “Psychedelic Ocean” vibe (Water/Psychic), and then do an “Earth” themed team for my Shield run but I just haven’t picked it back up since beating the game.

--> The characters were alright. I wasn’t as attached to any of the rivals like I was in SuMo. Leon is my bro though.

[yaz-the-spaz]

Thoughts on the snl joke? Regardless of how harmless the joke itself was, snide shit like that only encourages the overwhelming amount of hate Z gets daily. U know damn well if the situation was reverse Z would be getting CRUCIFIED. It wouldnt be a harmless joke then, it would be Zayn being washed up and bitter. Truth is H and L get away with murder and that's undoubtedly white privilege. For once I'd like to see so called ot5/zarries/etc call out the bullshit. Just say you dgaf about Z and go.

hey nonnie, so my thoughts on it are probably an unpopular opinion but i have to say i mostly agree with rodger on this. and that’s not to say that i don’t understand where the fandom is coming from, people have every right to their feelings and i do think that, regardless of anything else, harry should have been at least mildly aware of how the fandom would take it and how upset people would be by it. but at the the end of the day he knows better than any of us how zayn or any of the other boys would feel about it and given that they’re the ones that are affected the most by this (and not us) and he still made the decision to go through with the joke (not to mention the way liam publicly reacted to it in the way he did) i think shows how little of a deal it probably is to them. look at this way, if he REALLY wanted to hurt zayn, i mean like TRULY, he could’ve done/said something a lot more hurtful, like making a terrorist joke or drug addict-related joke or mental illness joke or saying any number of things wayyyy more snide and cruel about him leaving the band than just pretending to forget zayn’s name and replacing him with a beatles member. i recognize that people have different senses of humor but imo as far as petty jokes go in particular, this one was fairly tame (though you’re free to disagree ofc)

that said, i WHOLEHEARTEDLY agree with you that things would be VERY VERY different if it came from zayn, and that h and l do get away with an OBSCENE amount of things that zayn has been, or would be, vilified for were it him in their shoes. the biggest examples i can think of off the top of my head rn is 1) the fandom’s general reaction when they first found out that zayn smoked weed vs the news of harry doing fucking shrooms/damn near hardcore psychedelic drugs and biting part of his own tongue off - zayn got absolutely decimated for a little fucking weed to help with his anxiety and creativity/music-writing but harry gets what? a shrug of the shoulder? a bat of an eyelash? and even worse for me is 2) the notorious weed vid - not only was zayn the main one vilified for smoking weed and labeled a druggie and an addict despite the fact LOUIS was also clearly getting high right beside him, LOUIS was the one to mention the coke reference (‘chicken in chile’ or whatever tf) not zayn, and LOUIS was the one to use a motherfucking abbreviated form of the n-word - where was the outrage over louis’ racist ass, entitled rich white boy ass behavior? absent. yet how many people unstanned zayn a couple years later when they only thought (THOUGHT!) he said the n-word in some random snapchat/ig vid even when it was confirmed that he didn’t and it was just the black guys with him that said it? and that’s not even the end of it, like people hold up things zayn or liam have said or done from forever ago as evidence that they’re homophobic or hated the band or whatever the fuck but harry or louis say or do almost the same damn things and it’s either dismissed or they’re praised for speaking out like what the actual fuck? i honestly can’t fucking stand the way this fandom acts with their racist ass double standards. if you’re gonna excuse one, then excuse them all and if you’re gonna dismiss one, then dismiss them all. life’s not a fucking burger king, you can’t just pick and choose which problematic behavior you’re gonna ignore and which you’re gonna accept only when it suits your own personal agenda and that’s on top of the fact that holding onto shit from ages ago ignores the fact that at the end of the day these boys are still regular people and regular people might’ve said dumb things when they were younger (or even now still) or phrase something wrong but that doesn’t mean they’re not allowed to learn and grow and mature or to get more informed and change their opinion or behavior

anyway enough of me ranting, and sorry this got so long but i just have a lot of feelings when it comes to the racism and double standards that run rampant in this godforsaken fandom

[waywardnerd67]

A Balanced Life: Chap. 3 - Parent Teacher Conference

Summary: Working a case with Sam goes longer than expected making Dean miss conferences with Sammi’s teachers. One teacher insists on meeting with him no matter the location or time. Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Castiel, Sammi Winchester (OFC), Reader Pairing: Dean x Reader Warnings: Fluff/Slight Angst/AU Word Count: 2054 A/N: As always this is unbeta so all mistakes are mine. Likes, comments and reblogs are splendid and I will love you doubly for them! Enjoy!

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“Dad, you’re going to be back in time for parent, teacher conferences tonight, right?” Sammi asked over the phone as he was driving towards the haunted inn.

“Yes kiddo, we are going to salt and burn some bones then we will be back. Have a good day at school and please don’t punch anyone.” He said hearing her sigh.

“Love you dad.” She said.

Dean’s lips curled up into a wide smile, “Love you too, kiddo.” He hung up the phone just as they pulled up in front of the inn.

Eight hours, a few broken ribs and six spirits put to rest the Winchester brothers were on their way back to the Bunker. It was well past midnight when they arrived back and Sammi was asleep among her homework at one of the tables in the library. Castiel was also there with a scowl on his face.

“Cas, why didn’t you take her to her room?” Dean asked as he gathered his daughter into his arms as Sam cleaned up her homework.

“She wouldn’t let me because she was upset that you were not back for conferences.” Castiel’s voice was stern as Dean sighed deeply.

He carried Sammi to her room and as he was laying her down she stirred awake, “Dad?” she mumbled.

“Hey kiddo, go back to sleep.” He whispered pulling her blanket over her.

She pushed herself up rubbing her eyes, “You didn’t make it to conferences.” She said as he sat down on the edge of her bed.

“I’m so sorry Sammi. The ghost we were hunting turned out to be six. I really wanted to go and hear about how awesome my kid is.” He earned a small smile for her then her.

“Did you save a lot of people?” Dean nodded as she laid back down yawning, “Then that’s all that matters. See you in the morning, love you.”

Dean leaned over kissing her forehead, “Love you too, goodnight.”

The next morning was kind of a whirlwind getting Sammi up and ready for school. She was only a few minutes late which the school secretary assured him would be no big deal. He had just pulled into the Bunker’s garage when his cell started ringing.

“Hello?” he answered not recognizing the local number.

“Mr. Winchester, my name is (Y/N) (Y/L/N) and I’m Sammi’s language arts teacher. Do you have a moment?” Sammi’s teacher said.

Dean got out of Baby and started walking towards the library, “Sure Mrs. (Y/L/N), what can I do for you?”

“It’s Miss and you can start by explaining why you missed parent, teacher conferences.” Dean was taken back by her tone.

“Well, unfortunately I had something come up at work that needed my attention. I know Sammi is a good student with good grades, so I didn’t think it was such a big deal.” He explained walking into the library where Sam and Castiel were sitting.

They both looked up at him with curious expressions. He sat down next to Sam and put his finger to his lips as he put his cell on speaker.

“You’re right, Sammi is a bright student who performs well in all of her subjects, but that is only part of being a successful student. I would like to reschedule a conference with you in order to discuss some concerns I have. Just email me a date, time and location that you will be able to keep even if I have to meet you at work.” Sam was snickering quietly as Dean narrowed his eyes at him.

“How about this afternoon? I can have my brother take Sammi home and I can meet with you in your classroom. Would that work for you Miss (Y/L/N)?” he heard shuffling of papers in the background.

“That will work great Mr. Winchester. I will see you then.” The call ended, and he sat back in his seat with a sigh.

Sam chuckled, “I like that teacher. I wish I could be there to see her put you in your place.”

Dean punched him in the arm, “I thought parent, teacher conferences were only for the bad students. Could you imagine dad going to one those for us?”

“Dean, we never stayed at one school long enough to have conferences. Look, it sounds like Sammi’s teacher really cares about her so hear her out. She has a unique point of view into Sammi’s life that none of us will have.” Dean sat back knowing Sam was right.

The rest of the day, he spent thinking about what Miss (Y/L/N) meant by concerns she had about Sammi. He thought she was growing up just fine especially for everything she had been through. He tried to give her as much normalcy as possible. When it came time to pick up Sammi up, Sam followed him in the pick-up to take her home.

“Hey dad, why is Uncle Sam here?” she asked as she walked up to him.

“Sam is going to take you home while I have a conference with Miss (Y/L/N). She called me this morning to reschedule it. Is there anything I need to know before I go in there?” He asked giving her a chance to come clean about anything.

Sammi seemed genuinely surprised and shook her head, “No, there’s nothing I can think of. I guess I’ll see you at home then. Dad, please be nice and don’t be awkward.”

Dean chuckled hugging her, “I’ll try my best kiddo.” He watched her climb into Sam’s truck and waved as they pulled away.

He stopped by the office to ask for directions to Miss (Y/L/N)’s room. Walking through the halls of the school brought back horrible memories of Truman High the last school he ever attended. He found room 301 and walked in not seeing anyone inside. Looking around, he found some essays posted to a wall with a banner saying, ‘Hall of Fame’. He found Sammi’s easy on werewolves there bring a proud smile to his face.

“Mr. Winchester?” Dean turned hearing a familiar voice and his eyes went wide for a moment. Miss (Y/N) (Y/L/N) was a gorgeous lady with (Y/C/H) hair and bright (Y/C/E) eyes. She was dressed in black slacks and olive blouse.

Dean quickly shook his head clearing his thoughts, “Yes, please call me Dean.” He stuck out his hand and the moment her hand was in his it felt like an electric current was running up his arm.

“Nice to finally meet you Dean. Please have a seat.” She said pointing to a chair next to her desk.

He sat down as she pulled out a file from her desk. “Miss (Y/L/N), I’m not entirely sure what your concerns are about Sammi, but I can assure you that she is a great kid who is can do anything she puts her mind too.”

She nodded smiling, “I know she can. Sammi is advance in most of her subjects specifically in history and language arts. We are having to give her special assignments in order to keep her challenged in class. She’s incredibly bright and lovely young lady.”

“I feel there is a but coming here.” Dean said as she looked down at her file.

“Sammi is entering a critical transiting phase of her life. She’s growing into being a young woman and there are certain things that she will need guidance on.” He could tell she was carefully choosing her words.

Dean chuckled, “If you’re talking about the whole becoming a woman, birds and bees talk we had that a few years ago.”

Miss (Y/L/N) laughed was like music to his ears. Dean could not help to notice how her eyes lit up when she laughed. Something deep within him wanted to see more of that and his mind was buzzing with a mixture of fear along with excitement.

“There’s a difference between giving her facts and teaching her how to survive middle and high school with the ever-growing validation of social media for teens. Did you know she has been hanging out with an eighth-grade boy?” Dean’s eyes snapped up to hers panic filling them.

“No, his name doesn’t happen to be Josh?” he asked his through gritted teeth.

Miss (Y/L/N) reached over placing her hand over his, “Don’t worry Mr. Winchester, they are just friends. However, I do believe Josh is developing some feelings for her. Sammi has been tutoring him in history during their study hall period in my classroom.” She paused for a moment looking down at their hands together.

She withdrew her hand from atop of his as she continued, “I know Sammi’s mother passed away. She’s written about it a few times.” She handed him some papers with Sammi’s handwriting on them. “I want to propose something to you and if you’re okay with it then I will ask Sammi about it.”

Dean looked down at the papers skimming over the pages. Reading his daughter’s thoughts and coming from a one parent home was eye opening. He looked up to Miss (Y/L/N), “I’m listening.”

“I would like to mentor Sammi. We would hang out for a few hours at my house on Saturday or Sunday. Just a little one on one time with a female who knows what she is going through. It’s a little unorthodox but there is nothing in the school bylaws that prohibits it. However, if you are uncomfortable with the idea then I won’t push it any further.” He looked up at her uneasily.

He knew Sammi needed a female role model to help her, but he did not know how to have that with someone who was outside of their world. A civilian getting dangerously close to a world of monsters and mayhem. Looking back down at Sammi’s papers seeing how much she missed her mom was the final nail in the coffin.

“I think that would be a great idea Miss (Y/L/N). You’re by far her favorite teacher and I think it would help Sammi a lot. I just ask that if any major happens that you loop me in as well.” He said as she gave him a breathtaking smile.

“Great! I will talk to Sammi about it this week and send home details with her. It was great meeting you Dean.” She said as they both stood up.

He shook her hand not wanting to let go, “Nice to meet you as well Miss (Y/L/N).”

She walked him to her classroom door, “Please, call me (Y/N).” he nodded.

“Have a good day, (Y/N).” he said smiling his heart thumping in his chest as a light blush crept over her cheeks.

When he arrived back at the Bunker, Sammi was in the library anxiously waiting for him. “How’d it go? What did Miss (Y/L/N) say? What did you say?” she asked him rapidly.

“Whoa, slow your roll kiddo. It went fine. We discussed how you’re killing it in history and language arts which I’m pretty sure we have Sam to thank for that.” He said as she nodded sitting down with him at one of the large tables.

“True, he does let me help out a lot when he’s researching. What else?” she asked

He smiled at her deciding it was best to just be honest, “She told me you’re tutoring an eighth-grader in history.” She looked up at him wide eyed.

“Dad, I was…” she started to say but he stopped her.

“Kiddo, it’s fine. You’re a smart kid and I know you’re going to start making more of your own decisions. Don’t ever think I don’t trust you, because I do. I don’t trust other people because you’re the most important person in my life and if anything, ever happened to you I don’t know what I would do. Understand?” He asked hoping he did not make her mad.

When a small smile appeared on her face Dean let out a sigh of relief, “I get it dad and I appreciate you always being there to protect me. I’m going to go work on some homework in my room. I’m glad your conference went well with Miss (Y/L/N).”

Sammi got up kissing his cheek before heading down the hallway. Dean slumped back into his chair closing his eyes and immediately seeing (Y/N)’s smile. Open his eyes he muttered, “Aw hell.”

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Fate, the series (c.e.) (4/6)

Chapter Four- Destiny

Pairing: Professor!Chris Evans x Student!OFC

Word count: 4.4k

Summary: fate (noun): the development of events beyond a person’s control, regarded as determined by a supernatural power. (verb): be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way.

Amara is about to start her senior year of college with her newly single best friend, Elizabeth. She goes out one night and meets a handsome stranger, Chris. Sparks fly. Fast forward a week and she finds out Chris is her professor. What happens when she also meets Sebastian, a cute guy from another one of her classes?

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I sit against the wall outside of the stairwell, having lost the energy to go any further. My knees buckle and my feet feel like they turned to jelly. The air in my lungs struggles to be let in and out. My heart races at the very thought of what just happened. My mind whirls at the knowledge I had just learned. Tears spill from my eyes before I could try and compose myself.

He has a fiancée. He has promised himself to marry someone else; to love them until the end of time. And he had said person and had already made that commitment when he had met me; when he kissed me.

Why? Why did he kiss me that night? Was he getting cold feet when it came to marrying her so he thought he could have one last little fling before truly committing? Did he think kissing a stranger didn’t count as cheating because he figured he would never see me again? Well that sure bit him in the ass, now didn’t it?

I knew something like this was coming. Life was going far too easily for a curveball not to be thrown in there. I assumed it would have to do with Sebastian, not Chris. But karma doesn’t discriminate. She will eff up any situation she possibly can just to stir things up a bit. I knew things were too good to be true.

After taking a few breaths and wiping all traces of tears from my face, I muster up all the strength I had left to get up. I don’t know what I’m going to tell Sebastian when he sees me. He hasn’t seen me cry yet, but with me it’s pretty obvious when I have. My eyes get red and puffy which makes the green of my irises stand out. I can’t tell him the real reason, but I also don’t want to lie to him. If we’re going to start a relationship, I can’t start it off with lying to him. That’d be wrong… But if he knew what had transpired between my professor and me, he might run for the hills. I wouldn’t blame him though.

I also don’t want to walk through the entire school looking like this. I hate when people stare, and you know they will even if they don’t want to. Instead I find the nearest door to the outside and put my sunglasses on. That would be my camouflage. I’d rather take the long way around and hide, possibly giving my eyes some time to return to normal. I plug my headphones into my phone and start on my journey, first texting Sebastian letting him know I was done with my meeting and that I was on my way. He was confused at how short it was, but said he’d meet me outside.

By the time I got there, he was standing outside, just like he said. He greets me with a hug, which I happily returned. I needed it. He asked if something was wrong, but I just said it was because I missed him. Deep down, I did, but that wasn’t the whole reason obviously. He returned my sentiment and we walked back to where his car was. He asked me what happened in my meeting. I still had no idea what I was gonna tell him so I said that I didn’t want to talk about it at that moment. He understood and didn’t bother me about it again. Instead of bringing me right home, we went to get some dinner. I texted Lizzie letting her know I wouldn’t be home for dinner and I would tell her about the meeting when I got home. After dinner, we got frozen yogurt to try and cheer me up. Just spending time with him helped. The sweets are just a bonus.

He dropped me off at about 9. He didn’t come up to my door this time, something about him having to hurry home to finish a test he didn’t study for that’s due at midnight. I told him I would scold him later for that, but for now I just wanted to get inside and crawl into bed. I watched him drive away before getting my keys out.

“Amara.”

“Jesus!” I cry, dropping my keys. Hearing someone’s voice gave me a heart attack. I didn’t hear or see anyone else out here. I look in the direction that I heard my name, only to find the last person I ever wanted to see.

Chris.

“What the hell are you doing here?- No, more importantly, how did you find out where I live?” Because I know I sure as hell didn’t tell him. I pick up my keys and fumble to find the key to my apartment. I was not going to have this conversation.

“Does it even matter?” He steps closer, much to my dismay. I keep my eyes on my keys, not wanting to look at him for fear that I might start crying again.

“Yes, it matters. I need to know so I can report them for giving out personal information.” I finally get the right key into the door and yank it open.

“We need to talk about this afternoon.” He stops the door from opening, stepping in front of it. This effectively locks me outside with him.

“We have nothing to talk about, Professor.” I put emphasis on what he’s supposed to be to me. He shouldn’t be here. He should be at home, with his soon-to-be wife, not stalking a student of his.

“Please don’t call me that...”

“What am I supposed to call you, Mr. Evans? I’m your student. It’s only the respectful thing to do between a student and her teacher.” I’m amazed how well I’m holding myself together right now. I’m not upset anymore. Now I’m angry.

“Amara, please. I can explain everything.” He continues to beg. I still refuse to look at him. Maybe that’s how I’m holding myself together. Because I know that I wouldn’t be able to if I was to look at him.

“There’s no way you can explain your way out of kissing me when you have a fiancée!” I yell feeling myself slip just thinking about him being with someone else. I try to look at anything but him, but I still somehow end up finding his eyes. They look just as pained as I imagine mine look. I hate seeing him like this. I hate that I hate seeing him like this. Why did he have to come into my life and screw it all up? I had been perfectly happy. I was going into my last year of college with my newly-single best friend. We were going to be single girls together with no boy drama. That all went out the window when I met him…

“I had broken it off with her before I moved here. When I got the job offer, I wanted her to come with me, but she didn’t want to move halfway across the country. So, instead of doing the long distance thing, I broke it off. So, no, I technically didn’t have a fiancée when I met you. I was completely unattached.”

I scoff, “You sure about that? Because you looked pretty ‘attached’ in every way possible in your office.” I wanted to erase that image from my mind. Her arms wrapped around his neck. Their bodies pressed up against each other. They looked like a happily engaged couple…

“I had no idea she would be coming here. She surprised me in my office just before you got there. I haven’t seen or heard from her in weeks.” I roll my eyes, not believing a word he’s saying. “I told her I had a meeting with a student, but she wouldn’t leave. She kept saying how badly she made a mistake, how she quit her job to be here, how she missed me, and then she kissed me. I was sucked into the nostalgia of being with her again. It may sound cheesy but I got caught up in the moment. That is, until you came in.”

“Oh, so I was your rebound.” I don’t phrase it as a question, because I knew there was no question about it. I was his rebound. He had broken up with his fiancée and found some poor sucker to try to move on with in a brand new city. That “poor sucker” just happened to be me.

“You are not a rebound.” He steps closer, running his hands down my arms. He leveled himself with me so I would look him in the eyes. “You are the biggest and best surprise I could have ever asked for.” My heart starts to ache at his seemingly sincere words. 

I shake my head, breaking eye contact with him. I don’t want to be sucked into him again. He basically trapped me on the swing last time and I was not about to let that happen a second time.

He sighs seemingly giving up a fight he knows he won’t win. “Before you completely write me off, can I tell you what happened after you left?”

“Knock yourself out.”

“After you walked away, I sat in that stairwell, thinking. Thinking about you and her.” Great, he’s comparing the two of us. Guess who’s going to win that battle? Miss Perfect who is a thin as a pin or me… “And then I thought about kissing her.”

“Please spare me the details.” I beg feeling nauseous at the mere mention of the two of them.

“I wasn’t going to go into detail. I wouldn’t do that to you.” He runs his thumb gently down my cheek, sending every nerve ending into a frenzy. “What I was going to say was: I thought about that kiss and I realized something.” I meet his eyes again, waiting for him to go on. Unfortunately, he had my attention. “I felt nothing. No sparks. No chemistry. Nothing.” He gets within a few inches of me this time, taking my face in both of his hands. “It was nothing compared to what I felt with you,” He whispers. “I felt more with you in one night than I had with her in 4 years. That’s gotta count for something, right?”

And just like that, he sucked me back in. Damn him.

“Why are you telling me this?”

“Because I want you to know…” He gently brushes his thumb across my cheek again. I subconsciously lean into his hand, loving his touch. “If I had the choice between being with her again and being with you, there would be no doubt in my mind that I would choose you.”

I gaze into his eyes, memorizing the gray and green flecks in his eyes before snapping out of the moment. I take his hands off me, stepping back. “No, I can’t do this.” I shake my head, trying to get his words out of my head. “I can’t listen to this. Not from you.”

“Amara-”

“No! You are my professor.” I keep thinking that if I say it out-loud enough times, I might actually start to believe it. “We should have a normal student-teacher relationship where I see you in class for four hours a week and not outside of class at all unless we unfortunately bump into each other at the grocery store, and our conversations should only pertain to what’s going on in class and how I can improve my writing because there’s always room to improve, not talking about feelings and other personal things. Why can’t we have that kind of relationship?”

“Because as destiny would have it, we weren’t meant to have that kind of relationship. We were meant to meet at that bar a week before classes started. We were meant to see each other outside of the classroom environment to see who we really are.” He proclaims passionately.

I spit back, “You know I don’t believe in that kind of thing.” I cross my arms defiantly, no matter how badly I didn’t want to be. I admire his passion. His passion in his words, in the kiss we shared… and the flashbacks of that night were in my head at his aforementioned phenomenon.

“Despite what you told me that night, yes, I do know. That’s what I read in your paper, disobeying my original assignment. If it were any other professor teaching this course, they would have failed you.”

“Then why didn’t you?!” I snap, “Why don’t you be like a normal professor?”

“Because a normal professor wouldn’t have these feelings for one of their students!” He yells back, throwing his arms up in the air in exasperation.

“What feelings?! You are my professor! That is all you can be to me!” I share his feelings of exasperation, trying not to yell so loudly. I didn’t want to bring any unwanted attention to us. It was then that I became aware that we were still in front of my apartment building.

“I am not just your professor! I can’t be! Whenever I know I’m going to see you, I get excited. When I don’t, I look forward to the next time I do. When I see you smile, I want you to smile at me like that. When I see you writing, I immediately want to read it because then I get a glimpse of your beautiful mind. When I see you with him, I want to beat the hell out of him because you were with me first.” His jaw clenched at the mention of Sebastian for a second. “I want to hold your hand, pull you into my arms and never let you go,” He sighs, “I just want you.”

Before I could get sucked up in his words again, I focus on my keys and open the door again. “I’m sorry, Chris. I can’t do this.” Without waiting for him to answer, I finally get into my building and basically drag myself up the stairs to my apartment.

“Ooh Sebastian kept you out late to-night!” Lizzie purposely turned “tonight” into two syllables putting emphasis on what she thought might have happened this evening. If I wasn’t so upset, I would have rolled my eyes at her. She was in the kitchen when she spoke, but when she didn’t get a response, she came out with a serious look. “Oh my God, what happened?”

“Chris happened!”

“Chris? I thought you were with Sebastian?” Confusion was written all over her face.

“I was! But right after he dropped me off, Chris basically ambushed me out front.”

She motioned for me to sit on the couch. “So, what did he say?”

“All of the right and wrong things.” I basically gave her a play-by-play of our conversation. Reliving every emotion once again, wanting nothing more than to believe every word he said, wanting to feel his touch and gaze into his eyes for as long as I can. But wanting to forget everything that happened, everything he said, everything he made me feel. Sebastian makes me happy and can give me everything I want right now. I have no questions or doubts about him. He cares about me and makes me giddy just by looking at me. He’s a prince who wants a pauper like me. I can’t screw that up.

“Wow.” She sits back, taking everything in. “You were right to walk away before anything happened. I like Sebastian. He’s been really good for you. I haven’t seen you smile that much in a long time.” I know she’s right. It’s been years since my last relationship. After it ended, I went into a rut. I didn’t date or even look at another guy. I watched Lizzie and Robbie go out on dates, have casual nights in, be happy with each other no matter what they were doing. I would watch the best relationships on TV blossom over and over with no semblance of jealousy. I didn’t feel the need to have another relationship. Until now. Chris helped me realize that I can have those kinds of feelings again when I thought it might not happen. He opened the door for my heart to accept Sebastian.

Then why can’t I get Chris out of my head?

“I like Sebastian, too. A lot. So why does this guy affect me so much?” The million dollar question.

“Maybe if you met Sebastian first, things might have been different.” She shrugs.

I slump over at her statement. That might be true. If I had met Sebastian at the bar that night instead of Chris, things would have been way different. Then I might just see Chris as my hot professor and admire him from afar like any normal student would. Why can’t my life be that easy?

No. I refuse to be this sap. Life can be that easy. I’m making a promise right now. I will not think about Chris in any way. Not as a friend. Not as anything more than my professor. Sebastian deserves my full attention and that’s what I’m going to give him. I promise.

By the time Sebastian showed up for our dinner and a movie date, I had erased all thoughts of Mr. Evans. That night never happened. The first day I met him was in class. Our first interaction was when I handed in my paper. We haven’t had any contact since then. He is, and always will be, my professor. Nothing more.

After dinner, we stopped at the gas station before heading to the movie theater to stock up on candy and stuff to drink. We stashed it in my oversized purse and snuck it in to the theater. We cuddled throughout the whole movie, thanks to the new loungers the theater has. We’d make some side comments about things that happened in the movie, making the other laugh.

“So…” He starts when we walked out of the theater. “We’ve had our afternoon hangout session and dinner and a movie.”

It was then that I got nervous. I know what he was about to ask. That’s what I said would have to be done before he made the “girlfriend request.” After what happened with the other guy, I didn’t know if I could go through with it. Would I feel that passion with Sebastian? Would I get the same feeling with him as I did before? I know he can make me happy. He already has. He’s made me happier than any guy ever has. So why am I hesitant?

Maybe I should tell him. Maybe I should let him know what he was to me before I met him. I don’t want to start a relationship with him with that kind of secret.

“Does that mean I can make the request now?” He slips his hand through mine bringing us to a stop by his car.

“You can,” I state, “but I want to let you know something before you do so, which might change your decision.” I shift to lean up against the car, staring at my feet.

“Okay. What is it?” I hear the slight nervousness mixed with curiosity in his voice as he also leaned against the car.

“Um…” I had to collect my thoughts and think about how I was going to say this without completely freaking him out. “You remember my Advanced Writing of Fiction professor?”

“Yeah, the one you’re trying to make fall in love with you by defying him.” He chuckles at his joke. I however did not. He’s about to find out that he shouldn’t make that joke again.

“Well, I actually met him before school started and we…”

“Dated?” He interjects showing no signs of a freak-out session about to happen.

“No! Not even close. I wouldn’t necessarily call it a ‘fling’ either. It was a one night thing, and all we did was kiss. That’s it. We didn’t even exchange numbers afterwards. I didn’t find out he was my professor until like a week later.”

“And then what happened?”

“Nothing. Nothing has happened since that one night. I would be lying if I said there haven’t been moments where something almost happened, but it was because of you that they didn’t.” He seems to perk up a little at that.

“Is that right?” He steps forward, wrapping his arms around my waist.

“Yes. You’re who I want to be with. I care about you, you ridiculously adorable dork.” I know I’m making the right decision. Sebastian is who I need. He is who I can and want to be with.

“Can I ask you now?” He tightens his grip around my waist, eager to finally ask the question I’ve been wanting him to ask since I met him. I nod. “Will you, please, be my girlfriend?”

I smile at the word. Girlfriend. A title I haven’t had for a very long time; a title I never thought would sound so good coming from someone’s mouth. Being someone’s- no, Sebastian’s girlfriend is exactly what I want to be. “I would love nothing more than to be your girlfriend.”

His heart-stopping smile takes my breath away as he leans in. I’ve been waiting for this moment ever since I met him. I’ve wanted to know what his lips against mine would feel like. Would there be any sparks like I feel when I’m around him? Would they be soft? Would he be more dominant? I had so many questions that were about to get answered.

But when his lips met mine, there was nothing. It was enjoyable. His lips are soft and he’s tender in his movements. However, there were no sparks. My toes didn’t want to curl. My heart didn’t smile. Disappointment filled my entire being instead of excitement.

How can you get butterflies around someone; literally get giddy even thinking about seeing him, but feel nothing? Are my expectations too high? Have romance movies and novels totally skewed my idea of what should happen during first kisses?

Or is it something else entirely?

I steer my mind away from where I know it wants to go. I cannot allow myself to go there. Sebastian doesn’t deserve to get compared to anyone else. It’s not fair to either of us if I did so…

I’ve been good this past week at not thinking about him as anything more than the man who leads my class. I’ve come prepared with a submission for him so I can take my leave early, avoiding any possible contact (physical or visual) while doing so. Whenever my mind starts, I text Sebastian to distract myself. He always brings a smile to my face no matter the situation. He makes me happy. So what if there is no spark there? I don’t need it to be happy with someone. He is who I need in my life.

I lie in my bed that night thinking about today. I finally have a boyfriend again. I have someone I can confide in; someone I can do new things with; someone. I have someone. So why aren’t I as happy as I should be right now? This is supposed to be the “honeymoon” stage. I’m supposed to walk on water and worship the ground he walks on. I should want to be with him 24/7, but my first instinct was to go home after I said yes. I wanted to be alone. Who the hell does that?

Of course as soon as I got home, Lizzie wanted to know how it went. I wanted to lie and not tell her, but I figured she’d find out either way. She freaked, telling me how excited she was for me and how much she likes him for me. I tried to match her excitement, but I failed miserably. Never in a million years did I think I would feel like this when I got a boyfriend again.

I was broken out of my thoughts by Lizzie barging into my room. “Okay, what is it? I feel like I was more excited than you were.” She plops down on my bed, sitting Indian-style. “You did not sound as excited as I thought you would be.”

I groan at how well she knows me. “I literally have no idea.” I sit up, sulking. “I like this guy, a lot. He’s everything I wished for. He’s smart, funny, family-oriented, kind, adorable-”

“He’s literally the entire package.” She sums up.

“He really is! So what the hell is wrong with me?” I throw myself back, exasperated at how quickly things changed. My hands flew up to my face, hoping to hide the shame I feel.

“I don’t know if this question is allowed…” she pauses as if second guessing her decision, “do you think it has anything to do with Chris?”

I knew that’s what she was going to ask before she even finished her sentence. She knew I would be thinking it but would never voice it. So, as my best friend it was her job to do it for me. Damn her.

I groan again not liking the answer I want to give. In my heart I know it is. I know he is the reason as much as I want to deny it. Everything I felt with him was…. all I hoped for when finding someone. The way he touched me and how it created goosebumps to form over my entire body… the way my toes curled when he kissed me, my heart smiled… The way I wanted to be with him after that but forced myself away before anything else could ensue… the way my thoughts were captivated by him the days that followed even after I knew who he was… my heart wants him and apparently my body agrees with it. Everything except my head.

My head knows I could never be with Chris. With him being my professor, that’s forever what he will be known for. Even if it’s perfectly legal, just frowned upon, it can’t happen. Especially not now that I have a boyfriend. A boyfriend who adores me and makes me happy.

However my heart knows I could never be truly happy with Sebastian. As hard as I would try to be, I would always wonder where Chris was, how he was, and what it would be like to be with him instead.

“Of course it does,” I grunt. “It has everything to do with him. He has quite literally wrecked every other guy for me.” I sit back up. “But, I refuse to let that perfect bastard ruin the first relationship I’ve had in years. Sebastian is a wonderful guy who deserves the world. I’m going to try to give it to him.” I’m determined.

Chapter Five- Chance

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|| elle fanning, cisfemale, she/her || ( henrietta ‘henri’ prophet ) is a ( twenty ) year old ( sophomore ) at rockport university studying ( english + communications ). people say they are ( ritzy ) but also ( intractable ), and remind others of ( diamond-encrusted lighters, puppy dog pouts, baby pink stiletto nails ). bet they sure didn’t expect anyone to know about ( her hit-and-run accident in a stolen getaway car ) but someone does, and ( henrietta ) better cooperate if they plan to keep their lives. || james, 20, EST ||

hello! i am james (she/they) and first up is my lil troublemaker, henri !!!! pls love her and me thank u bye

henri’s pinterest is HERE ! it explains her sm better than i can

tw: hit and run

general info:

full name: henrietta eloise prophet

nickname(s): henri, etta, hen

b.o.d.: april 19th

label(s): the baby doll, the hellion, the icarcian, the minx, the prevaricator, etc.

height: 5′7″

hometown: syracuse, new york

sexuality: chaotically bisexual

biography:

awfully middle class, born and raised in new york

her dad’s a salesman for car parts with a small empire and her mother’s an accountant

an only child, minus her childhood cat (r i p socks); raised in a classic american suburban home with a white picket fence and two whole stories

and henri’s never been satisfied with it

she’s pretty much been a manipulative troublemaker since birth

it didn’t help that her parents spoil her; what henri wants, henri gets. no questions asked.

has left claw marks on her fellow students whenever somebody else wanted to be the queen during play time, or when somebody tried to take her favorite toys, or well...whenever henri got upset, really

like...man, could henri throw tantrums like no other. i mean hours of her screaming and crying until somebody gives into her

her parents are either blind to her antics or just straight up scared of henri, because homegirl has aggression like no other

anYWAYs she grew up in a normal home in a normal neighborhood with a normal day-to-day life

god, did it bore her

even when she created drama for her own amusement; i.e. spread a rumor that the head cheerleader in her high school had gotten chlamydia and the poor lass was bullied so badly she transferred (leaving the captain position to good ol’ henri, of course) or accidentally tripped the lead actress in her school musical off the stage and left her in a neck brace so her understudy (cough, henry, cough) had to take over

it just was never enough, because all henri ever had to do was bat her eyelashes and flaunt her pink lil skirts around and they’d hop right off her dick

wanted to be famous, or at the very least rich; to live in the lap of luxury in her furs and diamonds

but without any of the actual effort, ofc.

started stealing shit in high school; from her ‘friends’ houses at first, just small shit that henri wanted for herself

once that thrill wore down she evolved into shoplifting, which was...much more dangerous, and made henri love it all the more so.

often got her friends involved, usually as bait or distractions from lil’ old henri as she swiped objects

like to keep a long story short, henri’s been stealing for...a good amount of years now, from various places

has probably stolen her parent’s credit cards (and her teacher’s....and her coworker’s....etc. etc.) a few times to buy real expensive shit online

she’s only gotten arrested like, a handful of times okay

one spring break, her senior year of high school, henri and her pals had flown to california to do some...shopping, and celebrity stalking, and other normal teenage girl shenanigans

to keep another long story short; they had broken into a celebrity’s home, stolen a buncha designer shit; and when they heard sirens? they stole one of the cars and took off

henri was driving, ofc. she wouldn’t let anybody else drive her getaway car, especially not that real nice sports car...

in the adrenaline of it all, henri ran into a biker full-on and almost skirted off the road.

luckily, for henri, she regained control of the car and...kept driving, without even looking back and despite her friends screaming in her ear

god only knows how they abandoned the car and made it back to their hotel, unscathed, only to hear about a nasty hit and run resulting in a death on the news.

they went back to new york the next day; none of them have spoken up about it. especially not henri. perhaps she’s why none of them spoke up?

anyways, she went to rockport to escape the small amount of guilt in her conscious

decided to lie about her childhood too, says her dad’s the ceo of a car parts company instead of just a salesman, her mother’s a dead broadway starlight, etc. etc. whatever made henri look richer than she was. 

also, partially, so people didn’t question where she got all her designer shit. 

went abroad because that’s what she mcfuckin’ deserves. probably stole her daddy’s credit card too.

also is fucking trash at school, is probably sleeping with people to do her assignments for her.

her goal in life is to acquire a sugar daddy, or multiple, and to marry an especially old one so that they die and leave her with all of his money. <3

personality:

her favorite color is pink and u will not forget it. she appreciates sparkles, furs, jewels, etc. etc. just everything cute and designer and expensive.

anyways she’s the kinda gal where you could be in an intense argument with her and next thing y’know, y’all are fucking. OR, alternately, she’s got a knife pressed against your neck. OR, alternately AGAIN; both. probably both

that being said; henri can come off as pretty..bubbly, ditzy, cute and innocent, with all the hair-twirling and fake laughter. her voice has a permanent innocent tone to it

but ultimately, she’s a bitch. incredibly stubborn, if you cross her once she’ll hate you for life and there’s nothing you could do about it

she may still act like she likes you, but, nah.

still expects to get what she wants and she will still throw a tantrum if she doesn’t get it. doesn’t really take no as an answer?

her mood shifts often, maybe too often, it doesn’t take much to tick her off.

pretty manipulative, often uses people for what she wants

she isn’t...book smart, but she’s pretty damn intelligent in other aspects

a selfish lil brat tbh

only looks out for herself, will betray u the moment she sees an opportunity that benefits herself, and is over all pretty remorseless

she feels intensely but she also refuses to believe that she’s ever in the wrong. represses any emotions related to sadness, or anything that’ll just dampen her mood.

doesn’t bother to hide that part of her, either. let it be known that she’ll use you

she always has a knife on her, and a lighter, and a credit card that likely isn’t hers. those are her three essentials.

suuuper destructive, will not hesitate to ruin your life or her own tbh

will do anything at least once, or twice, maybe even three times

morals? what r morals?

a day drinker; constantly high off of god know’s what, and really...any vice? she’s got it.

is a l w a y s partying, even if it’s just her

i wouldn’t call her hypersexual but like...homegirl’s got a very high sex drive and is probably out here fuckin’ multiple times a day

but yeah no she’s not a very empathetic person like...if you’re going thru some shit? henri doesn’t give a fuck

she’ll probably use it against you to guilt u into doing something for her, honestly

considers herself untouchable, and is pretty willing to do anything to keep herself free from death or arrest or anything, y’know ??

has a very big ego, too. like. god. she think she’s the shit. acts like it.

erratic, irrational, can get VERY POSSESSIVE and JEALOUS of pals, people she’s fucking. etc. etc. if she doesn’t like the person your talking to you will Know

a big ol’ fuckin’ liar

wanted connections:

literally.....anything.....just hmu

like alriGHT

gimme FUCK BUDDIES of VARIOUS SORTS.

really MANIPULATIVE relationships on either end, probably henrietta’s

maybe a few friends w/ similar interests of glam n glitz n beauty

e n e m i e s - let henri try and fucking strangle u, b/c i s2g she’ll try if she hates you

like just people to get into cat fights turned knife fights with

maybe a ride or die ?? a best friend of sorts ??

let her use people

but really i am down for anything.

EXES ? maybe ??

pleathe. let’s brain storm...together