#and now I am in bed at 5am

[toastspirit]

ao3 down but I still managed to stay up until 5am. oops

[iturmom]

i've had a rough day. i made a new kitty friend just a few days ago. he's so sweet and friendly. he's talkative. but this morning he was being playful and he bit me a little too hard. he did break skin but it's the tiniest little nibble, only even one of his fangs broke skin and it was barely to the point that i wasn't even sure he did. but he's a stray, i'm sure of it bc his ear fungus and the sores on his body.

so i spent the whole day making phone calls trying to figure out what to do so i finally got through to the rabies nurse at the city health department and he told me of course to either get a rabies vaccine or call animal control so they could monitor him for 10 days. i can't afford to go to the er when i'm pretty sure he doesn't have rabies cause he doesn't seem at all rabid and i don't know if i can monitor him myself for 10 days bc i don't know when i'm moving but it seems like less than 10 days and he's a stray how would i know if he just didn't show up one day? i'm moving soon so i can't spend all day outside looking for him i'll need to pack and clean. and i've got other stuff going on too. i wanted to spend today preparing for halloween and cleaning and cooking food so that i didn't eat too much of the food for tomorrow and i wanted to make more food for tomorrow. and i wanted to hang out and watch spoooy stuff. but i couldn't think about anything else until i found a solution, so spent all day googling and making calls.

so i ended up calling animal control and that was a mess. the guy had me try to put the cat in a cage instead of trapping him with bait. he scratched me up good and i was so scared that he wouldn't trust me anymore but he came right back to me and he was all over me and it killed me when he nibbled me not once but twice bc he was so gentle when he nibbled so so gentle feather light nibbles barely there. and i was sobbing bc if he had just bit me that gently in the first place then today would have gone so much better for both of us! so then the guy finally brought out the live trap and the wet food. the poor kitty freaked out in the trap poor thing poor little guy.

the whole ordeal took an hour and a half of agony. i sobbed on the phone to my partner scared they might put him down and just about the trauma it caused him and how if he had just been so gentle the first time! i probably drove him crazy saying that over and over. but the animal control guy told me they won't put him down, and he even said he would request that they trap and release him without me even asking! so hopefully he'll just bounce back from the trauma. my partner made me get off the phone cause we have a big day tomorrow of going to the clinic (i can still go to the one at the homeless shelter for free for another year) since the rabies nurse at the health department said i should get antibiotics they can do that much at the clinic and maybe they might even have some resources for a rabies vaccine surely not at the clinic but maybe they can help me somehow wishful thinking. and then after the clinic we're going to celebrate halloween at my place so big day he forced me off the phone cause i was still hysterical. but he actually texted me back for a while which he never does when we get off the phone for the night. but i was still texting after he finished responding and i finally gave him the good news which i'm not sure that he was totally aware of cause he only heard my side of the conversation when i was on the phone with him while talking to the animal control guy, so i put into plain words how he said he'd request tnr and the hopeful declaration that maybe he'll just bounce back from the trauma before too long. and then i realized. i told my partner i was going to take him to meet the kitty tomorrow morning when he came over for halloween. but now he won't get to meet the kitty bc i'll certainly be moved before the kitty gets released.

and then i smoked a cigarette that i found on the ground recently. i haven't smoked a cigarette in over a year and at that point it was already rare that i smoked. that realization really made an already brutal day even worse. it like punched me in the face.

[designernishiki]

when i started following you i was a firm bisexual kiryu believer and now with every post about this man im more and more leaning into “oh so hes just a gay man heavy in denial. okay”

all according to keikaku

[rainingincale]

love knocking down my Metal water bottle onto the hard wood floor at 6am

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

[zoekrystall]

Hate how I didn't even think until now abt how zelda was alone as a dragon for so many years until the present. I wonder way too much abt how everything was for her and esp now as a dragon like mineru did say you lose yourself completely iirc but reg the tears shed do I believe it's not fully true. Maybe depends how strong your spirit is. Like yeah she can't really communicate well anymore but she recognizes us and her eyes. Her eyes I still can't get over them they're so full of emotion that's absolutely her eyes. Like. You're still inside that dragon when you become one if you try your best to remember is what I think (or want to believe). It's 5am I am not going to try to explain my already barely coherent thoughts better. Too much possibilities where I think some border on denial. I am a fluff not angst person. Anyways I wonder how long all those years felt what do you do as a dragon did the sages try talking to her dragon form or like anything-

[b0ngwater69]

When the social battery hit 0% 3 hours ago and 4 people walk into the apartment (':

[fragglerockopinions]

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[syn4k]

i think these poll fics might be a new favorite genre

"Joe, get up," said Cleo, bapping him with a pillow.

"Cleo, it's 5am," said Joe sleepily. "What do you need?"

"You've got to get ready," said Cleo. "The polls end in 4 hours."

"It's warm in my bed and cold out there," yawned Joe, snuggling deeper into the blankets. "It's Sunday. I don't care. I'll sleep through it. Can you just let a man sleep, Cleo?"

"No."

"Well then good luck," said Joe, turning back over.

[louiswilliamtomlinsons]

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[c3p-mo]

I already know this book is gonna make me cry and I will not be normal about it when I finish

[figgyblossom]

☠️☕️🌄

[fluffypotatey]

you ever wonder how skewed your perception of health has to be to realize that you had always had a healthy body, but for most of your life, you have been judged, tsked at, prodded at, and talked down to for being too fat, making you believe that your physical self was always ugly and unhealthy?

and do you ever wonder how much that realization shakes up your whole worldview to the point that you’re battling between what you were told and what you have learned?

[bluewaterhigh2005]

had such a humiliating experience tonight i drank SO MUCH but was fine like not sick at all except i had a headache so i took some panadol to keep partying while too drunk to realise it had a powder outside which i just cannot under any circumstances handle so it immediately made me throw up and no one will ever believe me that i wasn't just blotto i was BETRAYED BY THE MEDICINE

[wabblebees]

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