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theredumbrellatheory · 3 months

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:3 yeah

#dysphoria #ftm #trans ftm #uterus #pmdd #depression and anxiety #vent meme #vent shitpost #my uterus hates me #me vs my uterus: worldstar #pms #menstruation #IM LITERALLY STARTING TESTOSTERONE IN LESS THAN A WEEK CMON #my uterus biting the curb in 4k #hysterectomy when #toxic organ #band name called it #levi's edits

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donttouchtheneednoggle · 3 months

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Was anyone gonna tell me birth control was this powerful???

#i started my period today??#and i haven't been in an abyss of total darkness and emotional pain unable to do anything but lay on the floor and wait for it to be over??#no uncontrollable anger negativity or bitterness????#again no DEPRESSION???#ive just been a regular upbeat guy!!!!#what the fuck!!!!!#ive been on them two weeks!!!!#mine #i was skeptical bc i had to do the progesterone only pill cos the combined one snd migraines aren't a good mix #and i couldn't find anything about that pill treating pmdd #but my doctor said we'd try i to see if it just stabilised things ✨ hormonally ✨#and oh my god #if you're having depression and/or anger issues that resplve within a few days of starting your period #talk to ur doctor #ik birth control isnt for everyone and it affects everyone differently but holy shit #life changing #ive taken more steps forward on the last two weeks than the last four months #and most importantly ive just been stable and on mostly good moods and feeling pretty ok for me #and just not feeling like im either teetering on the edge of an abyss or in it #thank you tiny pill ✊#pmdd #WHY DONT THEY TEACH YOU THIS IN SCHOOL

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merridelicious · 11 months

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everybody gangsta until health anxiety rears its ugly head

#me literally 20 minutes ago #it’s cuz my week’s about to start and that throws my hormones all out of whack #i hate it i hate it i hate it #might get evaluated for pmdd soon #the paranoia is UNREAL.#original post

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recreationalwordsayer · 7 months

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also i know i need stimulation and enrichment esp of the physical sort and i really shld work out but like best i can do is a large cup of iced coffee and slouching on the char

#cloud nonsense #pmdd is not hitting nicely this month #and it's barely started #we kinda have a 'driven' boost #but it's also so easily irritable #and just ahh #sigh #i need to finish my thesis in like 2 weeks #i dont hv time for hormones

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diabolicjoy · 1 year

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god i have just. so much shame and regret and i’m 23 and time is always passing and i’ll be 24 25 26 27 with even more shame and regret it’s building up

#i spent the whole day asleep and now crying #and i have so much to do and i keep ignoring my responsibilities #when you start showing signs of depression at 13 and it never stops now what #it’s my period talking i’m aware that every beginning of every month i want to kill myself &#the rest of the month i’m trying to recover & failing #every thought i have during these weeks just haunts me #thanks pmdd #but i know that in truth that’s just me and the period is intensifying it #i can’t remember a time when i felt truly okay #during all these years #tw depression #tw sucidal ideation #diary

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doublesidedgemini · 2 years

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omg guys the us gobernment just whispered something top secret in my ear they told me not to tell anyone else but im gonna b so bad and share ok are you ready

they told me if you have period cramps you can eat whatever you want and not feel guilty abt it* actually and that if you have cramps/your period you should eat food in fact and you won’t die or blow up 1000 weight units overnight and periods suck so eat what you want

*apparently you aren’t supposed to feel guilty for eating at any point but idk about that one just yet but the above checks out to me I think

#i hate that my period cramps start like sometimes even a whole week before my actual period #stupid stupid stupid stupid periods ruining my life and literally ripping my mental health apart #im always at my lowest on my periods there are times where I literally don’t think I mentally can survive #maybe I have PMDD doctors don’t take me seriously tho and I don’t wanna take BC so here we are #I’m scared an IUD would embed in my Ute bc of the horseback riding also so no thank you on that front

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mutalune · 3 months

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really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state

#starlight personal #the good news is that I finally have another ketamine appt scheduled and it’s sooner than I thought they’d have an opening #the bad news is that the appointment is not tomorrow and we’re kinda at the end of my mental-emotional rope #now kids this is what we call: an inherent flaw in my treatment plan that cannot be removed #because pretty much in an ideal world I’d have ketamine appointments every 6 weeks but 1) expensive and probs can’t afford that #2) they don’t have enough availability for that to be realistic 3) can’t take off of work THAT frequently without consequences #4) I would probably start to doubt reality if I was tripping that frequently 5) I don’t think docs would allow it #treatment resistant depression and anxiety my beloathed if we could just chill that’d be great #treatment resistant PMDD my other beloathed someday I will do my damnedest to cut you out of my body #idk not to be too selfpitying on main but god it fucking sucks that I appear to be doomed to another cycle based mood thing #PMDD means I get two good weeks two bad weeks #ketamine being the only effective treatment for whatever my brain’s got going on means two good months followed by x bad months #until my next appointment #which like! two good months is better than no good months I am grateful that something helps #I just wish it was a more convenient help and it could be applied more consistently than my psych office provides #also wish I didn’t have to call them 3 times to get it scheduled but it is what it is #also also wish that I had fewer of the physical side effects of my anxiety and wouldn’t wake up puking the min things are rough #this is all to say: I want silly SW headcanons and droid headcanons and silly fic ideas and not Everyone is Always Suffering #but I’m also too lazy (I.e brain cannot make decisions rn) to search for new tags that may give me more silly #which means time to browse my bookmarks for good good comfort fics I have saved I suppose #(this is lowkey why i want to physically fight everyone i know who’s like ‘yeah meds would help but idk :/‘ like!!!!!!!!#bro it’s a privilege to have access to meds and it’s a privilege to have a body that doesn’t turn on you the min you take one!!!!#just try 10mg of zoloft I would kill for 10mg of zoloft to not make me entirely incapable of functioning!!!)#I don’t mean that - you have a right to take or not take medication and everyone’s reasons may be their own #I just had my body and have some rough feelings around treating my issues being so expensive and inconvenient #and then feeling guilty b/c I know I’m lucky that I can afford it and can take off of work for it when I need to #like I am pretty lucky to have something that works and to have a care team that helped me get here #so I don’t wanna be ungrateful or unappreciative of my own luck in this and the work that went into getting here #I’d just also like it if I could change the circumstances slightly #make treatment on the weekends an option - get my psych office to have more than 2 trip sitters so scheduling isn’t so bad

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the-mechanisms-system · 3 months

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LMAO me when I

*feels horrible*

*feels like the world is against me*

*decides apropos of nothing that I hate my friends and they hate me*

*feels lonely and unlovable*

*is convinced all of the future is bleak and hopeless*

*feels horrible*

*period starts*

Oh maybe life is beautiful and the world loves me actually :))

#pmdd #actually pmdd #premenstrual dysphoric disorder #the good part of this though is that i can always tell when the past week has been entirely a Brain Chemicals problem #because i start bleeding and im like OH SHIT!! none of my feelings for at least a week have been grounded in reality lol :))

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pupkou · 3 months

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i’m literally going to **** ******

#i’ve been without T for a month or so because my doctor forgot to prescribe it again when my last prescription period was over bc she could #only prescribe it a year at a time. so i went in to do bloodwork because ive been having health problems like getting a light period and #PMDD a year and a half into being on T and it happened to be when she was supposed to represcribe which iwas like ok nice!#but she forgot to represcribe it so I was 2 weeks without it before I realized that hmm something probably happened #so I called her and she fixed it. then the pharmacy told me that they're out of stock. so I called them to find out when it'd be in stock.#then they said it's in stock but she prescribed me the 10mL bottle when my insurance doesn't cover that. so I called her again to fix that.#and she said that she didn't prescribe me that because why would she when my shots aren't even close to 1 mL? so I called the pharmacy #and they said yeah idk who said that it's wrong. your T will be ready later today. I go to pick it up and quite literally the moment I pull #up to the window the pharmacists pull down the shade that says they're closed on lunch. so ive had horrible mental health and physical symp #oms for the past month because I've been without t right? so I thought okay when I come back home from moving out of my apt #because my pharmacy is in my hometown; then ill get my T. and then once I get my T I can start my new medication because I want my levels t #stabilize before we introduce something new into the ecosystem. and im cleaning my apartment today and going through bags and shit and lo a #behold? there are four fucking boxes of T sitting in a bag in my closet JUST LIKE I THOUGHT! I JUST COULD NOT FIND THEM so ive been going #through hell for fucking nothing. for literally nothing. and I was like oh my god okay I have my T I should go and pick up my new medicatio #and I go to get my shoes on and look at the clock and it's 5:01. they close at 5.#and I have my appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday where shes going to ask me how it's been starting my medication and im going to #have to tell her I havent started and im not better at all and im so new to her im nervous what she will say. sorry for being crazy. im not #good at this or medication. sorry. do you want me to kill myself ill do it in front of you if that would help. AUGHHHHGHHGHGHHHHHHHHHHGGHGH #NONE OF THIS HAD TO HAPPEN. I JUST HAVE SO MUCH SHIT IN MY APARTMENT BECAUSE ITS SO SMALL THAT I COULD NOT FIND PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION #I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME OUTTTTTT (in my brain)

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themoonunderstoodmydadjokes · 4 months

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Me: starts having not so fun thoughts about myself and hating my body

Also me: realizes I’m about to start my period

#🫠🫠🫠#never fails that anytime I start to really hate myself that I’m a week from starting #pmdd goes hard #woke up this morning in a bad mood and checked my tracker #yup a week away #sorry in advance if I get too mentally ill on here this next two weeks #you’ve been warned #mine #text post #pmdd

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aromantyczno-liryczna · 5 months

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Pmdd is actively fucking ruining my life fuck fuck this shittt

Why do I have to live with the consequences of things I do when I'm like this and why do i only get one good week a month if I'm lucky

#ive messed up really bad bc now my teacher just thinks im making excuses when i want to explain everything and why its not so easy for me #well i didnt say anything but i said i will send her an email and i left in a hurry so now shes worried abojt what it is im going to say #its related to when i was posting about how i tried to be truthful about the situation but again it was only half #and i dont have an official diagnosis i havent beem abck for a checkup yet fuck this #i left in a hurry and now im in bed i didnt mean to but my default is reaction is flight and i had to get out #this whole day i thought i was going to die the anxiety got so bad i almost cried at lunch arghhhh #tldr i deleted a bunch of work when i got too overwhelmed and just wanted to see it again and now deadline is wednesday #i dont have time for this my exams start in 2 weeks #and i got my period this morning #i need to kill someone why do people not understand the difference between an excuse and an explanation when im literally trying my best to #be honest here #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #pmdd posting #lasar being incoherent

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#guess whos back in therapy bby 😎#the lady i saw was nice. 1st appointments r always a lotta blah blah blah so much to cover #and im always like bleh whatever im not that bad but when u put it all down on paper it is sorta a lot lol #i got the comment. hm u seem to kno a lot abt the dsm. and like listen. i have been meticulously categorizing my problems for the last 4 #years. and i like to learn so ya kno. also said yea it sounds like u r having hypomanic episodes.#and asked if bipolar was a possibility and like if i was bipolar that would absolutely blow my god damn mind. im pretty sure its just pmdd #but whatever. im open to the possibility. mostly i wanna hear someone else perspective on this #i feel like im collaborating on a project. like gimmie ur notes i wanna see if were on the same track. bc im insane like that #i always feel bad when they apologize for asking invasive questions. like neh its fine. i got nothin to hide and i dont give a fuck #also i told a class of my peers that my distraction from research is drawing narut0 fan art. again bc i do not #give a single fuck. Professors response: hopefully we get to see it some day. bro. if u ask me i will show u. i do not care #i mean. probably nothing too weird but i feel like most of my stuff is safe to share. i just come off looking like a weeb i guess #but yea back in therapy bc my mum reminded me bc the ppl around me irl r also worried for my well-being based on my behavior lol #i mean its just bc i complain that im in like psychological pain a lot. so lots and lots of bitching abt my brain ^^#the lady i saw did fall a lil bit into my trap. like what woulf ur life look like if u had everything under control? bc it seems like ur #here and ur starting a phd what more do u want? and im like mwahaha but u see i can do school #i can do school so good. i am the best at school and thats it. i am otherwise barely functional #so i can be successful on paper and dysfunctional when it comes to having a life :-]#but whatever. well see what she wants to follow up on next week bc i threw a lot at her #also went to my office for the 1st time. it is really nice to sit in a working lab and watch ppl interact. but also i do feel like im #dying if i try to sit in that room with 2 other ppl lol. so well see how it goes. i may find somewhere else to hide #unrelated

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sunlightfeeling · 1 year

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gonna maybe be away for a lil bit (I say maybe because it really depends on my brain’s temperment)

currently fighting some darkness atm that won’t fucking stop (I’m okay, though, I swear, but its been all fucking day and I need to sleep and I can’t because thoughts)

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#i might stop in to like and reblog random things here and there #but ill probably stick to dash rather than digging through blogs like i usually do #anyway #autism adhd and c-ptsd is such a fucking shit hand like cash me tf out ON FUCKING-#like already have emotion regulation problems that gets worsened by it #(it being ptsd)#adhd already brings an endless monologue so ptsd goes ‘oh hey..gimme da aux for a bit’ and plays THE MOST VILE SHIT #ON REPEAT #also the impulsivity omfg #im already terrible and use it to distract whenever i can #but its like im also telling myself i need to because i need to get away from this #but instead of buying things i feel like i want to do something ‘worse’ and i…like actually don’t wanna #anyway idk im really sorry for all the negative posting lately #ibut also this is my home so :(#i started a side blog to actually scream in a void but its kind of odd still tbh and that’s a tangent anyways #im still holding myself to shipping things tho! so I will be reaching out to y’all when i get material wooo #(hopefully next week or the following~)#im hoping that this is just pmdd flaring my ptsd #because then its temporary #BUT OMG WHY WONT MY MEDICINE WORK I HATE YOU PMDD 😭#oh…yeah…sorry #beeeeep

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somethingcounterfeit · 6 months

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#after two weeks of stress / debilitating symptoms / a negative pregnancy test / and yelling at my abdomen #my period finally started LMAO #just a casual 2.5 weeks of PMDD #fucking **** ** please

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introvert-celeste · 1 year

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Oh boy, it's time for my monthly bout of existential dread! 😃

#vent #tmi #pmdd rant incoming bc I'm positive this is what it is #(my period is a couple days late and the pms is pmsing)#but i think my anxiety has been a bit of a capitalist lately #saying shit like 'if you aren't productive you deserve to suffer'#and 'you have no aspirations and nothing of value to offer the world so why are you still alive?'#oh my god please shut the fuck up #i mean it's kind of true but you don't have to say it like that #i have no career I'm gunning for #I'm not interested in marriage or kids or any sort of partnership #i have no meaningful talents #I'm not involved in the community and i don't do any charitable deeds #my social anxiety makes me kind of a shitty and boring friend which is why i only have one #it feels like if I'm not constantly working to better everything and everyone around me then I'm a leech who shouldn't exist #in other news i asked for a week off from work for my birthday and while it's been mostly good the idleness is starting to get to me #(and the pmdd)#someday i will get a proper diagnosis with better medication and then it'll all be over just wait #(it will never happen because my people pleasing attitude makes it seem like I'm fine ☺️)#(it's a miracle they even prescribed me antidepressants)#god i feel like I'm spiraling a bit right now i low-key wish i could just die right now

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hotflashtimemachine · 2 years

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ever since the surgery all i've wanted to do is play the sims but i can't sit at the computer until i'm cleared for desk work

#pmdd #bye bye ovaries 2023 #1 week post-op #my gyno took the ute and cervix while she was in there so if i do too much i literally start leaking #by the time i beat the character creation boss it's like “better take a break before you pop a stitch IDIOT”#i've had no energy the last three years and now i'm ready to kool-aid man out of this apartment

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