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who would you rather meet in hell: the devil himself or two bugs
#ultrakill#v1#v2#they're like if a bug was a velociraptor. to me#im sorry i was gone for so long from art....and asks....oughhh...#depression was hitting hard but i think im bouncing back!!#i have lots of ideas at least lol#hopefully now school doesn't eat every second i have#doodle tag#gore tw#I GUESS i never know since my art is like this. the blood is all pink.
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I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.
It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.
#mental health#mental health advocacy#like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage...#...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them...#...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent...#...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us...#...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long...#...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL#the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate#be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough#recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage'#i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself#and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was#i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want#don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please#and just... give yourself space
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And I said, “Hello, Satan
I believe it’s time to go.”
#my art#southern gothic#been too depressed to create anything but I’ve made this today#the little rhyme has been in my head for a few weeks#spilled ink#I guess do people still use that tag for poetry or am I old lol#I’ve been writing in my journal pretty much daily and sometimes spitting out little poems like this#not much energy for art#so I’m not gonna pressure myself to keep it up#I’m just gonna enjoy the fact that I made this#I hope ur all well <33#the devil#by the way this isn’t meant to be fan art of Robert Johnson#but it’s inspired by him and the stories of musicians who sell their souls to the devil#I am still thinking very hard and have mostly drafted a cornstalk fiddle comic#god knows how long it’ll stay in a notebook haha#my comic#comics
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Blood on your hands.
Idea was made by @baylardo. She provided a little scribble and I messed with it.
#the spiral in the episode night I guess#there arent many characters out there that show true reclusion and depression feedback loops#she cant control people's fates :(#kathryn janeway#im not too happy with this but its just a quick little bit of practice lol#a mashup of my style with baylardo's#burple skivvy my beloved#startrek voyager#st:voy#captain janeway#janeway#art#my art#when ur on ur period (promised i would put that in the tags)#ummm yeah funny cos i feel a little neg about my art and stuff in my life right now IRONIC#i resent that i have to keep up art inbetween other art otherwise my skill rapidly degenerates sad!!!!#star trek voyager
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Honestly, it’s exhausting running a positivity blog. There is so much negativity on my posts. Sometimes aggressive, or people saying “this doesn’t apply to me” or “this doesn’t apply in this situation though”. And it’s tiring. It’s tiring to read through my activity feed. Sometimes I’m trying so hard to be positive and offer supportive words and the negativity hits me a lot harder when I’m in a depressive episode. I genuinely feel exhausted by a lot of the comments people leave.
I’m not saying this for sympathy or even to whine but I kind of want to talk about it because I don’t think most people do this intentionally and maybe there’s a chance that when they realize the negative effects their comments can have might think twice? It’s not just me that finds this draining. I see it everywhere.
Someone posts a video of their popular dog and there are comments “oh my god, I’m going to be so sad when the dog dies” and I’ve seen owners politely asking people not to leave comments like that because it’s upsetting to think about. But they’re endless. I get so heartbroken thinking about the day my dog dies, and I know it’s inevitable but if I had people reminding me on all my posts about my dog, I’d be so upset.
I’ll see someone share a video of a happy moment with their family and the comments are full of people talking about how “it must be nice. My family isn’t like that”. And your feelings are so valid. You deserve to be able to talk about it. I’m just asking that maybe you think about where you’re talking about it.
I make a post that says something like “be gentle with your past self” and there will be dozens of comments and asks I receive that say “no fuck that bitch.” Like you’re so allowed to feel that way, but it’s tiring to get asks about it.
I know there will be people who go on about “it’s a public platform. You sign up for this”. But whether that’s true or not, I still think it’s worth saying because it might open someone’s eyes.
There will also be people who say “if you can’t handle it, stay off the internet”. Me venting about it, or saying that it’s frustrating doesn’t mean I can’t handle it. It just means I’m coping by talking about my feelings. That’s all.
#April vents#this got so long#I’m having big feelings today#I have had 6 hours sleep in three days#and I’m in a depressive#so rip to me I guess#but my venting tag#is a great tag to block if you’ don’t want to see my complaining lol
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kusuo whenever his friends are around: why wont these guys leave so i can do nothing with my day
kusuo whenever his friends arent around: where are my friends im so bored right now
#'wow i finally escaped my friends... guess the only thing to do now is check on my friends'#guy who cant admit hes happy around his friends#guy who also probably has depression cuz why are you incapable of thinking positively 😭#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post
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Horrific Necktie
#oh yeah sometimes I just want to draw super depressing shit I guess#disco elysium#cw suicide#getting fast at this kind of stuff#wooosh#comic#Kim Kitsuragi#harry du bois#harrier du bois#my art
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Oh, Hazel, look! The field! It’s covered with blood!’
Fiver is my favorite character in Watership Down, he's just like me fr. I was afraid this wouldn't read especifically as Fiver, but alas... i liked my initial sketch a lot so i kept it as it was.
#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#watership down#so just to make this absolutely clear.. this is fiver XD not an attempt of a book cover#even tho it looks so much like many watership down covers tbh#i didnt even realize until i was actually googling images for reference that i found a lot of wd covers have a rabbits profile and the fiel#what a bummer#but i still like this a lot#everyone and their moms thought about the same thing i guess#me included#anyway FIVER MY BOY#I LOVE HIM HES JUST LIKE ME#IDK WHY EXACTLY BUT I RELATE TO HIM SO MUCH#its like 'yeah i also have visions of chaos and death and despair its called having anxiety and depression'#ok no forget that
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☆ Happy 2nd anniversary to Trapped ☆
(In case someone would want to play this :D)
#zu art#zu music#trapped#error!sans#blueberror#underswap!sans#swap!sans#us!sans#undertale#undertale au#utmv#sheet music#MUSIC?? Music! :D#it's been sO LoNg heheh#and then coming up with this in just two days??#my brain wanted to compose something depressing for these two heh#but my heart said otherwise <3#there's something calm in this tragedy#there's something tragic in this calm#guess when I realized I need a cover... XD#enjoy! <3
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hot take but you all NEED to stop telling people to kill themselves.
yes, even *those* people. i don't care if you're talking to some monster who puts live puppies into a wood chipper for fun, don't say that shit.
because mx. puppychipper isn't gonna be affected by your words.
but you know who might be affected? some innocent third party reading the words you said on a public website.
because telling people to kill themselves says "suicide is a punishment for being a bad person. bad people, upon realizing they're bad, should simply commit suicide instead of working to atone for their actions."
and that is NOT a message you wanna be normalizing to anyone, but ESPECIALLY people with depression (who, let's be real, make up a higher than average chunk of this site's userbase). whose mental illness is already telling them that 1: they're an inherently terrible worthless person no matter what they do 2: death is an appealing option.
is reading "kill yourself" once or twice gonna make them do it? nah, probably not. but reading it multiple times a day every day is gonna make their mental health worse. it's probably not good for your mental health to be saying that kind of thing, either.
just knock that shit off. the world is already so hostile to people with mental illness, and managing mental illness and unlearning unhealthy thought patterns is already so difficult. you don't need to be out here making it worse.
#eliot posts#suicide mention#animal abuse mention#i guess#ive said similar before and i just said this in the tags of another post but it deserves its own post#i am fucking TIRED of reading this shit so often#i frequently block people for saying it#sometimes i report ppl over it too if they're shitty in other ways too#i luckily don't have the ''i'm a worthless piece of shit and deserve the death penalty'' flavour of depression#but i do have the ''life is endless suffering and i want to euthanize myself'' variety of depression (or. technically bipolar.)#and reading the phrase kys Feels Bad Man w my mental illness#and i have froends w the first type and i worry about them#and one of em has told me it does affect them quite negatively to read kys#so yeah! fucking stop it!
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lady amber my beloved
#mine#rote#fitz and the fool#amber i would die for u#this was going to be a fools quest beloved but unfortunately the short hair was rlly bad so shdhsdbd#au in which everything is the same but beloved kept their beautiful long locks#honestly fools quest is simultaneously the hardest and funniest rote book to read#like on the one hand everything is awful. on the other hand people hve told fitz hes cringe for being depressed like 5 times its so funny#also when fool said ash made a convincing girl and fitz said 'you would know' FITZ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i screamed girl ur so funny#anyway . this drawing gave me so much grief i drew it last week and only this evening had time 2 colour it ooooaug#moving tomorrow good lord !!! im not convinced i can get everything in the car but my mum says we can so.....i believe her i guess#im so stresed. also i think my printer is just going to be like. raw dogging it in th car bc we dont hve a box big enough so KJBKSDJBK#anyway hve a nice evening!
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What people have done to the am Yisrael chai (and also עם ישראל חי but a little less so cause these guys don’t know the first thing about Hebrew) is beyond disgusting and shows exactly how ‘just anti Zionist!’ they really are. Am Yisrael chai is a centuries old Jewish saying that celebrates us not just surviving, but living in a world that will kill us every time the opportunity presents itself. Am Yisrael chai is the best defiance to the world of still being here when everyone wants us gone, it is a pure joy of being on this world and being a Jew, it is that the Jewish people are alive. We are alive
You know, I wanted to talk about how horrible it is that that’s been twisted, how non Jews ar e determined to snuff out our life, but like… actually I don’t want to. I’m so tired of all of that. I just want to be happy, and I want to celebrate with my people. We’re still here. We’re alive! !עם ישראל חי! עם ישראל חי
וגם זה יעבור
#this was going to be depressing#but Purim was rough this year so I’m trying to make up for it with some more positivity#jewish stuff#עם ישראל חי#am yisrael chai#antisemitism#I guess#I’m just so sick of tagging all of my posts with that
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pspspsps;; got some crumbs for you
decided to finally update the design plus I was thinking of making a reference for so long,, i am happy with it :3
also is it just me or did I actually improve
#lethal company#lethal company oc#lethal company nutcracker#soda art#my guys#crawls back from my cave#i wanted to finish this for art fight but whoops guess who got sidetracked#aka depression
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I took this "which NPC are you" quiz, explicitly trying to get Rogier as a result just to see his description, but got Count Ymir. So I took it again for the hell of it, but with what my own answers would've been and
#depressed bisexual millenial#i guess thats why his result is one of the most common for quiz takers lol#my friend took it and got darian which made me wanna see Rogier#bc the quiz maker was nice and thoughtful about darians character instead of just being like#“lol ur a stubborn asshole probably”
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zavala's gonna kick his butt until he gives the guardians real glimmer instead
#i think im at my low point#in terms of drawing and creativity i mean#i don't really wanna draw stuff but if i don't draw something i'll forget how to draw#so here's something i guess#maybe i should learn how to draw big men again im drawing too little shaxx and titans recently#...if i actually wanna draw when i open csp#it's not depressed i'm just somehow not wanting to draw and it's annoying me#weird but that kind of thing just happens i guess#destiny 2#destiny hunter#cayde 6#destiny 2 art#my art
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2024-10-27
Sorry for not being more active on here recently. I’ve really fallen into a bit of a depressive slump unfortunately, and studying became more unattractive than ever. Making a post felt insincere, so I kinda just dropped off.
Good news is, I think I’m crawling out of it a bit now. My friends have been a lot of help. I wanted to make this post just to say that it will get better. No matter how desolate everything might feel. People love you, and it will be ok.
I promise.
#depression aside#I love fall#it’s so charming#studying with a nice spot of tea is just#mmmmm#so good#studyblr#i guess it’s#studyspo#?#idk#study aesthetic#dark academia#aesthetic#student#my posts#chaotic academia#study#I might still not be as active cuz well#mental health go brrrr#but I’ll try
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