#and my depression i guess

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

save me mid-century pulp romance illustrations...save me... I liked the pose on Walter Skor's illustration for The Dear Friends and i thought that a composition with "friends" right there was fitting for buddie

[sunwukxng]

My cheque I've been waiting a few months for and was supposedly delivered one week ago is now beyond a doubt either stolen or missing. (:

[maliciousalice]

Blood on your hands.

Idea was made by @baylardo. She provided a little scribble and I messed with it.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

[slavhew]

4h lecture every day

[traumasurvivors]

Honestly, it’s exhausting running a positivity blog. There is so much negativity on my posts. Sometimes aggressive, or people saying “this doesn’t apply to me” or “this doesn’t apply in this situation though”. And it’s tiring. It’s tiring to read through my activity feed. Sometimes I’m trying so hard to be positive and offer supportive words and the negativity hits me a lot harder when I’m in a depressive episode. I genuinely feel exhausted by a lot of the comments people leave.

I’m not saying this for sympathy or even to whine but I kind of want to talk about it because I don’t think most people do this intentionally and maybe there’s a chance that when they realize the negative effects their comments can have might think twice? It’s not just me that finds this draining. I see it everywhere.

Someone posts a video of their popular dog and there are comments “oh my god, I’m going to be so sad when the dog dies” and I’ve seen owners politely asking people not to leave comments like that because it’s upsetting to think about. But they’re endless. I get so heartbroken thinking about the day my dog dies, and I know it’s inevitable but if I had people reminding me on all my posts about my dog, I’d be so upset.

I’ll see someone share a video of a happy moment with their family and the comments are full of people talking about how “it must be nice. My family isn’t like that”. And your feelings are so valid. You deserve to be able to talk about it. I’m just asking that maybe you think about where you’re talking about it.

I make a post that says something like “be gentle with your past self” and there will be dozens of comments and asks I receive that say “no fuck that bitch.” Like you’re so allowed to feel that way, but it’s tiring to get asks about it.

I know there will be people who go on about “it’s a public platform. You sign up for this”. But whether that’s true or not, I still think it’s worth saying because it might open someone’s eyes.

There will also be people who say “if you can’t handle it, stay off the internet”. Me venting about it, or saying that it’s frustrating doesn’t mean I can’t handle it. It just means I’m coping by talking about my feelings. That’s all.

[solargeist]

get hose down idiot

[haggz-is-here]

“The moment for paying your debt has not yet come, but it will come. As a man falls sideways into deep water and finds no foothold, so will you fall from the desire of your heart, and forfeit your life. There is a debt to justice, and a debt to the gods; where these two coincide the payment is final and complete” (Hecabe, Euripides).

@greedykrab ‘s snow lamb‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[oceanwithouthermoon]

kusuo whenever his friends are around: why wont these guys leave so i can do nothing with my day

kusuo whenever his friends arent around: where are my friends im so bored right now

[surreal-duck]

@midoyuzuweek day 7 | christmas / wedding / free day

mdyz christmases you will always mean everything to me. decided to give lineless art a shot again after how many years and it was pretty fun!! also i lied when i said the ghostic piece was my favorite actually cause this was extremely fun to draw

ideally this wouldve been the last day but because i am sick and twisted theres one more tomorrow 👍 beware

[yo-yo-yoshiko]

Icarus but not at all, you know what i'm saying? Does that make any sense? Do you see him? Take my hand, we're watching him fall.

Also a bonus little alternate that I drew first but wasn't satisfied with the emotional choices at ALL. and an alt color of that lol cause you know i'm gonna abuse the hell outta that green color as much as possible lol

[v88sy]

Being told to "just give it up" when hoping for Buck and Tommy to get back together is so funny to me because like.

It's been like 4 months real time and probably only a couple months in weewoo time.

Y'all are still hoping for something after 7 damn seasons/years.

It's completely feasible that they might get back together. Both characters are alive (and more importantly, actually queer) and clearly want to be with each other still.

But sure. We're the ones that need to "give it up."

Thanks for the laugh, though. I needed it.

[romanticize-until-you-drop]

2024-10-27

Sorry for not being more active on here recently. I’ve really fallen into a bit of a depressive slump unfortunately, and studying became more unattractive than ever. Making a post felt insincere, so I kinda just dropped off.

Good news is, I think I’m crawling out of it a bit now. My friends have been a lot of help. I wanted to make this post just to say that it will get better. No matter how desolate everything might feel. People love you, and it will be ok.

I promise.

[nenoname]

you'll never see them again

in which this stangst makes no sense without prior knowledge of my convoluted au

[r3tr0raven]

On this day of last year (Dec. 14, 2023), I finally completed a several months long project for my dearest sister. (Permission was granted to show this.)

☆Traditional scrapbook art of Sun!☆

This was not only a sweet Christmas gift of the silly daycare attendant; but more of a silent milestone for me to prove that I can complete something through heavy depression.

It took far too long than originally planned- but she loves it all the same.. and that makes it all worth it! And honestly, I'm happy I made this.

Half-Documented process under the cut!

---☆Welcome to UnderTheCut!☆---

So glad you stopped by! Apologies if quality is off, my adhd kept forgetting, so the photos were half-rushed. *cOuGh* OKAY! Here we go!

^First sketch with blue pencil and detailed redraw with classic pencil.

^Pencil cleanup as well as line art with 1mm (main) and 1.5mm (fingers and inner detail) black pen.

^Sunny fully coloured with Ohuhu's (main colouring) highlighters (special hue shading, painted child hands & selected stickers) and colour pencil (stickers & markings). Golden Poska for bells, ruffle swirls, and under eye-lashes. Light shiny stickers here and there too.

^Background card brainstorm loose fitting and after proper cut an' placement. (Aka: Before & After.)

And that's that!

Till this day, it is one of my most prized projects. And to know it's in the hands of someone I deeply care for makes my heart whole.♡

Now all of you can see it! I hope it can help inspire to explore a little more into traditional arts; the process can be lengthy, but in the end it'll all be worth it to make someone smile. :)

As always; Thank You for reading and checking out this artistic little corner- wish you all a wondrous day/evening dca (& fnaf) community!

~R3tr0. ☆*○.

[candyheartedchy]

It’s been 4 days since I drew any of my self ships.