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fayehartz · 1 year ago

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thinking about opening art commisions bc i want moneeyyy,, but i dont even knwo how the heck payments work rggrrggr

#and like idk how to tell this to my grandparents #<<they tell me i can like sell my art n stuff but they arent telling me how‼️‼️😭#idk wgar a paypal is....... im too scared to even do anythin abt it #mjght ask my grandparents abt it soon!! for now im just going to think ways to earn moneeeyyyy (i have no other ideas how)#cus like i saw a really cool plush i want.. is liek huge and i love huge plushies (its a pokemon plushie :3)#i keep on taking a bit too much whoopsies!!!! jus wanted to let this out there bc ive been thinking abt this for years now

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rapidhighway · 3 months ago

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Hnngg

#im so stressed ughhhhh #this divorce is gonna end me man though im probably stressing out over nothing AGAIN #like tomorrow my dad's bringing some expert to the house to put a price on the house #and i literally have no idea whatever that's gonna be how we are gonna pay that shit lmaoo #also i just really don't wanna be there or be with them in the same house god i hate it when they're near each other #i am..... going through it more than i probably should since I'm an adult now n stuff but whatever #it's not like i can just stop feeling all this distress and grief n shit especially since he's already found a girlfriend #with kids and stuff and they've already been going to my grandparents ughhh i feel thrown away you know #it hasn't even been a year it's pissing me off so badly #i feel like killing myself every time i think about tomorrow and then I feel even worse when i think about later ughhh #i shouldn't be so distressed i really shouldn't #especially since I've been living my life on an incredible streak of luck so.#whateverrrrr #uhh like comment and subscribe #vent #i just gotta. cause there isn't anyone here i can really talk to since #everyone sees this so much more differently and sis is just always telling me im making it into something bigger than it is #but it's really stressing me out #idk i fear this is not gonna end nicely I don't even see him anymore #and it literally hasn't even been a year but he's not really talking to me but at the same time i don't really #feel like talking to him either so who knows uhh..

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enden-k · 1 year ago

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im so tired of being a sleepy boy

#i napped for 2 hours bc i was so sleepy and still am. why.#i hydrated enough im not having an episode im not sick and no meds are causing it (i think) and the sun is not out so why!!!!#what am i supposed to do aaaaa!!!!!!! sleep for an entire day until i had sm sleep im sick of it?? 😭#i dozed off in the middle of sketching like cmon!!!#looking it up will tell me i have some rare kind of deadly disease and i dont wanna go to my doc and tell him im a sleepy googoogaga #this man is funnily enough my childhood doctor i went to before my adoption so he knows well enough how sleepy i am #considering my grandparents always tell i was fhe quietest baby ever and never screamed or cried they thought i just passed away or #was sick bc i just slept all day #so yss hes well aware of youn and his chronic sleepy sleepiness since baby times #actually thats over 20 years ago and my doc still looks the same #meaning super hot #which is confusing #this man did check ups on me when i was like 6 and 20 years later he kneads my popped out vertebrae back into place like im an old man #and he just looks exactly the same #this messes wifh my brain i think i need to nap on this #personal #tbd #idk why i rambled so hard while in the process of waking up my condolences if anyone read this far #im not even sleepy anymore bc i thought so hard about my doctor and his secret immortality my brain is actually working #🤔 ah

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basil-enthusiast · 8 months ago

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reblog for a bigger sample size and please feel welcome to talk about your culture in the tags !!

#for me i think it might be social dynamics #im italian and slavic and theres like. nothing better than when i get together with family #and my grandparents (both the italian and slavic ones!) are like. overbearing. and tell me stories and make food #and my cousins and i are close. ajd we laugh a lot and !!! idk i just think its great #and i love that all of the other options are part of the social dynamics.#like. food brings us together. i cook with my grandparents #we can listen to music together!! if i we wear certain clothes we can all feel closer to our culture and therefore closer to one another!!#eurmm ueah! just wantwd to see how tumblr dot com felt :3 #polls #my poll

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forgetbeam · 7 months ago

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i’m gonna be real if my grandmother can understand “the people of israel aren’t at fault for what their government/military is doing, in fact many of them are actively against it, and both israeli and palestinian people deserve to live in peace in their own homes” then idk why so many online leftists can’t grasp that same concept

#.txt #visited my grandparents today and we got into talking about this #way too much shit treating israeli people as inherently suspicious #but then like i’ve seen the same shit against russians so idk why i’m surprised #idk how to tell u this but someone being from a country whose government/military does bad things #does not mean they support those bad things #if this understanding can be extended to usamericans why can’t it be extended anywhere else

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abandoned-as-mustard · 3 months ago

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i honestly love having arguments that escalate to the point where the sensitive parent yells something incredibly disturbing and it's not even the first time this has happened but when it does happen you know shit's bad

#:-)#the nature of my autistic adhd is for some reason i attract fights like a magnet #if i'm too honest i cause fights if i'm not honest enough i cause fights if i don't say anything then why-didn't-you-tell-me oh idk.#maybe because you were busy telling me how i'm wrong #audhd #demand avoidance sucks ass. i can't tell if i don't want to do the thing because you're asking me or because i genuinely #don't have the capacity #it's probably both #it takes me such a fucken . long time to do anything. my processing speed is ass #i have to work slowly on anything to avoid missing details and #i don't know what counts as an average acceptible quality before moving on #im the only grandchild who has helped with rennovations on the late grandparents' place and yet #im a disappointment when i dont want to help #i just. i detest when i get given a false choice. then the choice i make is the wrong one.

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pears-trinkets · 3 months ago

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#really randomly fell down a weird rabbit hole today #i was watching the X-Files and finally felt like reading up on david duchovny #like i see u fellow slav what kind of slav are you #so i opened up his wikipedia article and saw that his dad was jewish and from ukraine and went like AHA WE ARE THE SAME #and just out of curiosity looked up the place he's from because im curious about jewish shtetls in the ukraine #because my whole family except my biological father is from several of them and i thought hey maybe they were neighbors #which they fucking are omg theyre just 20km apart #my greatgreatgrandma is from makhnivka which i even found articles and history about and how the jewish population grew & declined #even though i did not find any steinbergs in the archives #anyway when i read up on Berdychiv where duchovnys family is from it said #early settlement by the Chernyakhov Culture #which was an archeological culture between 200 and 500 CE existing at the same time as the roman empire #....... is this how i finally find out where my name is from??????? like?????????#i wish i knew so much more than i do #like i only found out that im not russian i was just born in russia like 7 years ago or so??? because my mom never tells me anything #all the information about my great great grandparents and where theyre from is from my grandma #and her dementia is really bad now and shes just angry and screams and calls people names #my russian is too bad to properly read up on stuff like that and theres barely anything in english or german #i just want to know idk #but genetic testing is too expensive and also very america centric and the only family i have in the us is super conservative #i had to block them on facebook when my grandma made me write to them once over 10 years agl #and i know a huge chunk of my grandmas family moved to israel too so i dont want anything to do with that either #although id be curious if it would actually find my half siblings i found out about also like 8 years ago #i just wish there were more archives and more people i could talk to about this #on my grandfathers side theres nothing really left #my grandfather passed suddenly and apparently before he did he took ALL THE FAMILY PHOTOS AND DOCUMENTS somewhere to maybe digitalise them #but we dont know where so theyre literally gone for ever #but his whole family was from kiev and is apparently named after this culture era #his dad was a higher up at a sugar factory and i still cant find anything #my grandma had so many cousins and they were so interconnected and knew so much and i literally just have my mom and no one else

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ryuseitai · 4 months ago

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so nervuos for tmrw bc im seeing my cousin

#i love her so much But #Its my dads side of the family and i dont see them often at all and everything is always so awkward and #they dont know i dropped out of school and everytime my grandpa sees me he asks about school #and i havent seen him since before i Would have graduated this past may #like i would be graduated hs right now but #im not SO IF AYNYNE ASKS ABOUT IT IM GONNA LOSE ITTTT #god #hopefully my grandparents just wont be there Idk why they would bc im just going to hang w my cousin #but they tend to jumpscare me sometimes when i go out to see her #Gahhhgaaahhhhhahhaooouuoououou #i could just tell the truth bc idec about them knowing i dropped out its just embarrassing bc i lied for so long #buti just did bc when i first stopped going to school my mom told me not to tell anyone on that side of the fmaily..so..#i dont think shed care anymore either but its just been so long and ive never told them Augh #and my grandpa really wants me to go to college which i straight up just dont wanna do. not rn at least #and id need to get my ged first which ive been procrastinating on the entiire year Oopsies #my aunt always tells me not to listen to him thoughand that i dont have to go to college if i dont want to i am grateful for her..#shes always protective of me from him LOL i love my grandpa and he means well and stuff but #he will just say anything #and he always makes me cry in public or at family gatherings bc he starts talking to me about my dad #i knowppl just aska bout like school and plans for the future and stuff bc they care but i wish they wouldnt bc i do not know anything #i dont know a single thing about how my future is going to go or what i even want it to be or how im going to live and its stressful enough #already when im not being interrogated about it #Like lets just talk about something else. Lets talk about enstars #Isnt it crazy that shinobu has gone going on 15 months without a new 5*?..i think its a little crazy and i miss him

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angered-box · 10 months ago

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yknow realizing my family was super fucking mean to me for no reason before i turned 18

#no cause. why did my parents threaten to beat me for having a low C almost D/ any missing assignments. but now whenever my mother finds out #about it she like. actually asks if i'm doing alright and not yelling at me to turn them in (she still wants me to do good but like. there'#no more threats?) i mean my bio dad might still do that but i don't tell him anything about my classes anymore #AND ALSO HOW I USED TO BE PICKED ON BY MY BIO DAD AND MY GRANDPARENTS WHEN IWAS YOUNGER FOR HAVING TEXTURE ISSUES BUT NOW THEY'RE LIKE #“oh yea i can't eat this food because i just don't like it” AND UNDERSTAND ME WHEN I SAY I CAN'T EAT CERTAIN THINGS.#i just GAHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK #i still remember when my mom and bio dad thought i was lying to them about losing my glasses when i was FUCKING 9-10. they thought i #hid/threw them out!!! and when i found them like a few years later because they were in a spot in my bag young me never really used #MY MOTHER STILL THOUGHT I PUT THEM THERE ON PURPOSE. THIS WAS YEARS AGO BUT I'M STILL MAD ABOUT IT #I HAVE BEEN TREATED LIKE A LIAR ABOUT THINGS FOR SO LONG TO THE POINT THAT I CAN'T HANDLE JOKES ABOUT LYING AND ALSO GET SCARED THAT #I'M NOT BEING TRUTHFUL EVEN IF I AM!!!#anyways :D #i'll probably delete this later idk i feel bad right now

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comfycozycrossfox · 1 year ago

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new challenge: how close can i get to getting a hysterectomy before my mother catches on that im trying to get a hysterectomy

#bc i asked her about gynecologists and insurance #i can’t imagine she’ll be like thrilled or even remotely okay with the idea #idk how to tell those two that they aren’t getting bio grandkids lol #they’re old enough to be my grandparents that’s just what they get

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nururu · 1 year ago

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my grandparents have never ever left their dog with anyone or left him alone at all and he's soooooo sad that they're gone. so I took him to the lake today to cheer him up and we splashed in the water (he cannot swim).. what I noticed about him tho is that everyone will stare at him but no one will ask to pet him. they'll just be like "cool dog" and nod their head at me like they respect us or something.... and I'm like... okay..... he's literally a gremlin......

#i know a lot of ppl love frenchies #and he IS rlly cute #but my grandparents got his whole akc badges and shit #and idk like... i get it... i feel like i should respect them when i see them in public too #like... this buff little guy can be appreciated from afar but i shant disturb him #hes got more important things to attend to rn #this is jarring though #because I used to have a teacup Pomeranian #and no one respected him or his space #they would just run up to me on public and start touching him and telling me how cute he was #it was terrible for the both of us

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thanonymousotp · 1 year ago

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im ... speepy :(

#thanon.txt #visiting family. grandparents and parents #but like i expressed frustration in how i didnt get a new job yet #and while the advice they gave me was like valid #and actually relatively useful #i got rly stressed out and frustrated over a couple of $100k job having bitches telling me #that i need to Get My Priorities Straight and all this other jazz.#WELL janet you see i am LITERALLY always busy.#because i work TWO jobs in this fucking economy #and im disabled (phys and ment)#but noooo i just dont have my priorities straight #maybe self care is my highest priority fuck you?#like i get it . i get it . in some cases ive been given alternatives to make things easier n stuff #but i straight up cried yesterday and have a headache today #ive definitely learned some things. like im gonna research keywords for different jobs and yada yada #but idk. the way i felt like i was being talked down to hurt #they arent dealing with the shitty job economy + living below poverty wage in this economy #i dont discount they did yada yada to get to where they are now but #fuck off? lol?

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ilostyou · 2 years ago

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anyway to focus on the positives rn the event i had was actually pleasantly good and i felt pretty and i got a lot of unexpected congrats on getting into that one program and <3 it was a pretty good distraction tbh

#my parents and grandparents told just about every person they know which is sweet bc. they’re proud but i was not expecting it lol #for half of everyone to be like omg!!!! hello!!!!! but it was sweet my mom was so excited telling everyone and that made me smile #and yes i’m stressed abt school again and Will inevitably be sad in just a minute but. such is life ig idk #and i met some SUCH sweet people like who work in the field already finished their doctorates and came to congratulate me bc they know how #rough the whole process is which made me 🥹 bc i think i’m struggling w that a lot now that. no one close to me really gets gets it?#but it was genuinely so nice someone came over to me and was like. i heard and i just wanted to congrats bc i know how awful it is and #i know not everyone gets it but i do get it so i wanted to say congrats and etc etc etc #and i also loved LOVED how my makeup came out and i felt very pretty and like i don’t wanna take it off now lol but i’ll leave the eyes #anyway yeah that’s tonight’s roundup #rambling

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realbacchus · 20 days ago

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I loooove my family because they are the reason I want to drink but the reason can't (alcoholism is on both sides and these people are messsay) : )

#my mom told the whole table that i have issues because i grew up with only one set of grandparents meanwhile the table had dead parents and #grandparents that abandoned them. so like idk man maybe this isnt the best venue #then my dad helpfully (not a lie) tells my cousin he really wants to punch my coisins dad and that my cousin should punch that old man #jesus fuck dude simultaneously im so lucky to have them and be in this place on the other the addiction is really bad so its not good #and like its not as bad as other people so im like omg I'm complaining. no these are real issues no matter how vanilla they may seem to some #anyway oh my gos

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bibleofficial · 2 months ago

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walked up to my cousin’s step son after the wedding to see if he was doing ok & i was like ‘what u up to :D’ & he said ‘i got a new pet !’ & we looked at the table to see a yellow jacket he caught under the cup, which he described as a bee …. APPALACHIA

#stream #ALSJALSKLAKSLAKSALSKALSJALS #i fell in love w him then & there like ok …. ME AS FUCK #he’s 8 #loveeee my 2 new cousins ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ the child & his father !!!!!! 😭😭😭😭#hicks & animal enthusiasts !!!!#also so my new cousin’s brother (my cousins new husband’s) died like 10 years ago (i’m not sure how maybe it was an overdose ? i didn’t ask #it’s not my business at the moment i’ll let the new cousin tell us when he’s ready to talk abt him which he does talk abt idk we just didn’t #know him so it’s not like ‘relatable’) BUT the mother at the wedding saw a dragon fly & took the stepson over said ‘look it’s xxx ! he’s at #the wedding’ like u know how u continue to see the spirit in animals after they pass - or pennies that’s another major one - or 2p coins too #bc it’s both our grandparents or maybe it’s just one w us then u know but our grandfather shows up in hummingbirds & i find my grandmother #in frogs so it’s like especially nice bc idk if the new cousins family knows that abt us but my auntie was telling us at lunch the other day #like it just means a lot like i found a 2 cent euro in the airport & i found a pair of pennies on the way to the airport i found a 2p a #few days prior & then i found a pair of pennies together when i was moving in so like im ON THE RIGHT TRACK I KNOW I AM #also my new cousin gave me a dollar & i’ve kept it next time i see them i’ll show them the dollar i think it’s funny #idk im sentimental like my bestie from highschool gave me 2 1$s saying ‘im poor i love u this is all i have & i want to show u how much i #love u’ we were probably drunk like also when she touched my bare foot bc she HATES feet like i’ve taken these DOLLARS EVERYWHERE #& now i’ve one of the lil like u know wallet photos that kp had for one of his visas so he goes w me too lol #i flat stanley him #anyway #I BELIEVE IN CHARMS IDK SUE ME FUCK U #IM SUPERSTITIOUS NO I DONT OPEN UMBRELLAS INSIDE NO I DONT WALK UNDER LADDERS NO I DONT WEAR A HAT INSIDE (UNLESS ITS A PUBLIC BUILDING LIKE #A SCHOOL OR WHATEVER IF ITS AN OFFICE ITS COMING OFF) ALSO I DONT WALK UNDER THOSE ROADS SIGNS ON 2 POLES IF UR IN THE UK U KNOW WHAT I MEAN #BC THATS LIKE BASICALLY A LADDER W 1 RUNG but i do make exceptions & it only took me 8 months to make them #see a magpie u salute

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aliosne · 5 months ago

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My mother tells a lot of stories and admittedly my memory is undependable but every now and then she’ll start an anecdote like “as I’m sure you’re tired of me saying” as tho it’s going to be the most boring fact ever conceived and then drop “i met Tommy Douglas multiple times as a child”

#for those who aren’t Canadian or who were asleep during that social studies class #he was the guy who spearheaded our whole free healthcare Thing #after being on the ground for how brutal the 30s were for rural folks in the prairies #and apparently he was just a very kind man #he moved out west towards the end of his life and my grandparents were Politically Active so that’s how they crossed paths #Mum wouldve been just a little kid at the time #but apparently he would talk to her like he took her seriously #like this weird little kid living in poverty could have opinions and ideas that mattered #some people are capital-P Politicians in the sense that they’re slimy all the way to the tips of their toes #and some people are capital-P Politicians in that they’re genuinely interested in the people of their city/province/country #and want to find ways to make those people’s lives better #and you know chaboy is a staunch leftist but I truly believe that transcends ideology #anyway idk. it was like my equivalent of someone dropping that they hung out with an Olympian or whatever #which tbf my mum also does #also i keep telling her: i love hearing stories over and over again #BECAUSE my memory is not great and also bc im adhd and I literally!! don’t mind having the same conversations #also there’s always some new angle to it #it was fascinating years ago to do an assignment where I interviewed her about my (and my siblings’) births #and compare my recollected Tale with one particular telling from her #some of that’s telephone. some of that’s that the way she tells the story when trying to Provide A Factual Account #might be different from when she’s trying to emphasize the magicalness of it #or her frustration with my father #or what a comedy of errors it was #tell me stories fifty times. then tell me them again. i love you.

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