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didnt think id cry over a fanfiction in which eddie munson has BPD, and steve knows this, and literally outright says that he knows eddie could split over him and say or do or feel very hurtful things, but it doesn’t matter to him and he loves him anyway. fucking God damn
because as much as people have claimed to “not care” that i have BPD, they also make it clear that any symptoms are too much and they can’t handle it. and like, i get that. i do. i know. most people just can’t handle someone like me. i’m probably doomed to be mostly-alone and only have surface-level friendships, barring stitch, for the rest of my life if i don’t get better at hiding it. i’m so fucking lucky to even have stitch. like, even my own parents can’t handle me. i am so grateful for my best friend.
the idea that someone could know exactly what BPD entails, could know what splitting is, could know what it could mean, and instead of running for the hills because im toxic they would actually stay, and love me anyway, the knowledge that it’s possible, that i’m not abusive and evil in the eyes of every person ever on this earth and someone on this planet is capable of loving me anyway even if i never meet them, it’s. oh my God. so many fucking feelings. i wasnt expecting that.
#bobbi babbling#warning i vented in the tags you can ignore em#i have lost so many friends becauuse of my BPD#and i know it’s ny fault#as much as i wanna pretend it isnt it is my fault#its all always been my fault#and i try and i try to be a good person and act better and hide it better and get better at hiding instead of facing people#but its so hard#i hate being alone#but i hate hurting people more#i scare myself and i scare people who get close to me#and the only ways i know how to cope with really bad episodes without hurting others#is eith vigorous self harm; breaking shit; doing stupid things; screaming…#locking nyself up in closets until i hyperventilate so bad i faint#and tire myself out#and its fucking scary#i dont wanna live likr this anymore#i wish people could love me#but they cant#god this turned into a vent.#sorry.
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soon it'll be dawn again
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page 01
Fig: no way? - you're still up?
Riz: Wh– yes?
Riz: Why'd I not be.
page 02
Fig: I me~~ean - that took.
Fig: whole day.
Riz: Yeah?
Fig: 'm beat.
Riz: you should sleep.
page 03
Fig: nah. my guy's still up
Fig: I wanna hang out.
page 04
Riz: That's really nice.
Fig: Hah! - Nobody ever expects an Archdevil rockstar to be nice.
Riz: … yeah. - 's just budget work tho. (the stuff I'm working on) - I've heard it's boring.
page 05
Fig: yeah, but you do it…
Riz: It keeps things going, right? - Nothing happens if nobody sits down and - does the thing.
Fig: That's right… - though. Yeah.
page 06
Fig: sometimes it's someone else who - doesn't want the same thing to happen.
Riz: … - mm.
page 07
Riz (off screen): …It took me a long time to get that not everyone likes doing what I do. - 's probably because you guys are so nice– - or. - kind.
Riz (off screen): to anyone too, not just. - the people you /love/.
page 08
Riz: that's not how it is elsewhere. - The world's– not. hostile. - but 's not like it's kind.
Riz: So I'm doing as much as I can now…
page 09
Fig: Hey.
Riz: ?
Fig: Go dig some dirt with me.
page 10
Riz: [blank speech bubble] - oh you meant like - actual dirt. (not incriminating information)
Fig: o yea.
Fig: there's clay in the backyard soil. - sometimes when I'm sun deficient or something I go touch dirt for a bit.
page 11
Fig: here u go
page 12
Riz: uh
Fig: now we make a thing! - 'm pretty good at freehanding a bowl.
Fig: I'll show u
page 13
Fig: just– yep, flatten that out as evenly as u can, then–! - actually ur nails'd be so good at cutting out the strip. [larger than usual space] wait. - wait. wait u can carve patterns with them! we HAVE to try
Riz: uh - What. do I carve?
Fig: anything!!!
page 14
Fig: and– yep just seal the inside uh. seam?
Fig: yep that works - okay time's up! all contestant hands up
Riz: [blank speech bubble] - okay - wh. what's next?
Fig: haha - watch this.
(sound effect text): FWOO—MP
page 15
Riz: WH– DON'T JUST DO THAT???
Fig: Now it's fired!
Riz: THAT WAS NOT SAFE
Fig: (actually it's just dry. if u add water rn it'll dissolve)
Fig: ok catch!
Riz: [blank speech bubble] - careful!!
Fig: dw no need haha
page 16
Riz (thought bubble): oh - it's warm…
Fig: now I want you to throw this.
page 17
Fig: u gotta do it - c'mon
page 18
Riz: wh– - It's like 3AM right now
Fig: oh it's not /fired/ fired it's not gonna make a loud noise
Riz: And then just? leave a pile out here?
Fig: pour water over it & it'll be gone I told u
Riz: but
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Fig (off screen): RIz.
page 20
Fig: I've done all this before.
Fig: Can you trust that at least?
page 21
Riz: no, I– - I do. - I trust you.
page 23
Riz: okay what happens now
(sound effect text): glob
page 24
Fig: we do it again!
page 25
Riz: wh. [larger than usual space] What do you mean. (this clay's too wet also)
Fig: see! you're already learning
Fig: [blank speech bubble] - there are flows that are futile to fight. - The world changes.
Fig: Things change.
page 26
Fig: I've learned my lessons with "forevers". - But - as an artist
Fig: I can give you one thing: - You can always do it again.
page 27
Fig: most of everything depends on the rest of the world, - but this. - making new. - that's yours as long as you want it.
page 28
Fig: So?
page 29
Riz: Yeah. - Yeah! - let's make another one.
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#riz gukgak#figueroth faeth#technically no spoilers in this comic but listen. I Will be gloating in tags. I will Never Shut Up#for the record!! this was fully conceptualized and sketched Before the finales. I started sketching this after the boat fight#and when murph closed riz's arc this season with ''maybe it's okay to change and welcome new things'' I pogged irl#I am simply the best at reading comprehension what can I say! (<- grown ass man with roughly the same perspective on teenhood as the player#fucked up that this became so long (almost 30 squares lol) that it took me this long to finish#lmao I say all that but. genuinely I am delirious and my feelings abt riz's arc this season are so big... I was getting psychic backlash#for a While lol. it was scary!!#had to sit down and do therapy on my own ass for a bit. the teenage apocalyticisation is real. that word isnt tho Im pretty sure#truly anything you do at that age feels like that's it that's all you've got going on forever. and its not true! its simply not true#you'll be okay my guy. you love your friends so so much but also there will be more to love out there#this one goes out to fellow aroaces and also folks leaving somewhere theyve called home for a long time#nothing lasts forever but that means new things come by too! ur ability to make new is infinite!!#there's no magnum opus people leave but new people come by too etc. I am too sleepy to remember what I wanted to say uhhh#well. thank u for looking at my art. I think thats the one pack it n ship it boys
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You know what would be fun, Edwin using a little bit of physical violence to defend Crystal or Niko, like "accidentally" dropping something heavy on the bad guy's foot while he's yapping aggressively and coming closer to the girls or tripping him over with a quick pull on the rug the dude is standing on, Edwin turning and "accidentally" hitting him on the head with something Edwin's holding etc
And obviously, the bad guy gets mad and goes to attack Edwin, but Charles swiftly swoops in between them
So bad guy is like "Oh so you started shit, knowing your little boyfriend will come and defend you, you coward?!"
And Edwin just smiles at them as Charles throws the dude out and says, "Yes, I did."
Brought to by a scene from gig officially gigged
#lovely fic go read it if you like a band au#edwin has scary guard dog privileges and he knows it#someone said edwin pillow princesses his way out of fights and its so fucking funny#dead boy detectives#payneland#my posts#edwin payne#charles rowland#dbda#dead boy detective agency#dbd
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ppl who overemphasize the andreil height difference make no sense to me like. it’s 3 inches and andrew prolly wears his fuck ass platform boots while neil prances around in sneakers so worn out he might as well just be wearing socks. be fr they’re practically eye to eye neil’s just got a complex and points out andrew’s height every other sentence
#coming from someone who’s 5’0 and wears fuck ass platform boots. he’s 5’2#post-its#aftg#all for the game#andreil#andrew minyard#neil josten#in a yapping mood tonight#EW WHY IS AFTG TRENDINF THATS SO SCARY
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i think i'm hilarious -- aka i made blood blossom danny au memes
all of these come from my DpxDC prompt "i am pushing the batdad agenda--" and it's corresponding additions in the reblogs ksdjlf.
i am. rotating them in my head. forever and always. personally i think there should be more batdad aus in dpxdc, their dynamic could be neat. :)
#THAT FIRST ONE TOOK ME A HOT MINUTE TO MAKE. i have never been more careful with a trackpad. imgflip doesnt have an undo button#i think its fucking hilarious#its a batdad au#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc#dc x dp#mmm i need to come up with a name for this au#found family ftw WHOOOO. i could just do a generic 'blood blossom au' tag but i want a specific one because i like being unique#eldest batkid danny au#chronically ill danny au#danny: im grateful he's helping me but im still kinda apprehensive...#battinson: vaults over a car to escape reporters. likes rock music. isn't fucking evil. punched a cop. actively looking for a cure#danny: ...huh. okay.#furiously pushing the batdad agenda for my own gain. just look at them guys. they're funny little guys.#unofficial witness protection to adoption pipeline.#bruce wayne accidental teen acquisition. save a teenager gain a son#its about the adventure of them going from strangers to friends to family :)#im bored of the bruce slander guys in the words of hermes from hadestown:#“[its] about someone who *tries”*#danny saw a funny man in a funny costume eat the side of a dumpster and has never related more with someone on a spiritual level#“brother eugh i feel that. oh heY WAIT HERO BUDDY?? SAME HAT??? SAME HAT?”#danny's been the only hero he's known since he was 13. on god he is leaping at this opportunity. like YES. PLEASE BE ANOTHER HERO#HELP ME GET AWAY FROM CERTIFIED CRAZY MAN. HELP. YOU'RE SCARY AND HIDING IN THE DARK. EVEN BETTER. HELP A BROTHER OUT HERE#blood blossom au#for the time being thats the name
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Dragon King
#fate stay night#fsn#fgo#fate grand order#saber#arturia pendragon#read the non h version of the mana transfer scene for the first time and holy fuck its cool#shes scary!!! shes a scary lady!!! shes a star!! a nuclear reactor!! the dragon of britain!!! AA A A A A A#fan art#digital art
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Thinking about his brain
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#fanart#doodle#He spends like all of his time irrationally terrified of going back to poverty#this was inspired by a panel change I had to make to the next comic im working on teehee teehee#originally I was going to have a funny gag of him describing how awful he felt#but I decided to change it because like. He would never admit that he felt bad#feeling bad is a sign of weakness. a sign of failure. a sign that he needs to try harder#like its not just Devs problems he's ignoring. he treats his own body pretty awfully too#not to write that entire thing off as a trauma response tho hes still objectively awful for not listening to his sons wishes#and he wouldn't have done the same if his own leg got as severely injured.#Having a leg amputated is scary he would have tried to salvage it#then again that is still arguably his fucked up version of love#I have thoughts ok!!!#he is so traumatized
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huevember #2, mercury and some fish for today 💥
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#oh my fucking god i was so stupid for doing this#like#i thought itd be easy cause slop suit and salmon both orange#WRONG#it looked off if i used accurate colours for only those two things.. obviously. sigh#butttt#i figured it out#splatoon#art#my art#splatoon oc#splatoon art#maw oc#mercury#agent 3#i dont like the alt as much really its just there for context#fish so scary
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Terry I love you. You are so weird. WHY do you have a sword????
#vampire sword that literally sucks the elements from elemental attacks. giving terry the cool fucking dnd sword he deserves#btw the scar on his eyebrow is where the bullet came out. the hair there Isn’t gone but its gray forever#it’ll blend in with the rest of his hair thats already going SUUUper gray. god save this man get him antidepressants#changed his design after some feedback. this is the one ill be using from now on#I’m sorry for any discomfort i might have caused with my past design.#terry jr stampler#dndads#dungeons and daddies#dndads s2#digital art#digital drawing#my artwork#fanart#dungeons & daddies#dndaddies#btw if its not clear. the elemental versions of the swords in order are fire lighting cold thunder and acid#lark oak#sparrow oak#scary marlowe#dont go and Learn more about bullying at your local library its a trap#terry jr#terry junior#my art
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playing dredge. sailing around at night. see another ship on the water blaring its horn and beelining at me. think wtf and start heading back to the dock bc im not prepared for whatever this interaction is gonna be. the ship is much faster than me but thats ok, im pretty close to shore.
ship gets within viewing distance. the horn sounds kinda off. the lights in the windows don't look much like windows any more. there's a weird and distinctly un-ship-like shape under the water.
it's not a fucking boat. it's a fish pretending to be a boat. a big fucking fish chasing after me trying to trick me into thinking it's a fellow fisherman. when i get into range of the dock it shies away from the light and darts back underwater so fast it's like it was never there. i close the fucking game and never open it again.
#I CANT STAND THIS SHIT I HATE SCARY GAME THAT CHASES ME IN THE DARK#I THOUGHT IT WAS ANOHTER SHIP I THOUHGHT IT WAS A CHARACTER WHO WANTED TO TRADE OR SOMETHIN#BUT NO ITS A FUCKING. BIG BEAST. PRETENDING TO BE SOMETHING ITS NOT#dredge#god.#its time for bed i cant take this any more
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hold the line + respect your elders
#AI KISS SO SCARY TO ME.#kora.txt#ry literally steve yockey is dead voice What the fuck.#IM NOT IMMUNE BUT ITS ALSO KINDA SCARY UNCANNY TO ME…!
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The Dan in the Shrek shirt and hat is giving “we were being silly and soft still in our pjs in the hotel room” vibes like he looks like he just woke up 😭🥺
lightly tousled for sure. a lil squinty a little flirty a little ruffled. definitely part of how they recovered from jet lag
#picture it. theyre staying up late to make sure they fall asleep at the 'right' time so it doesnt fuck them up#so theyre playing silly nonsense games with each other in the hotel room#so tired theyre almost drunk on it#and its cowboy hats and getting married and the future isn't so scary anymore#but its just them and no one knows theyre on this side of the planet yet#its like their little secret#one on top of so many that they share#and theyre both laughing and snorting and neither of them can breathe#that feeling when youre so tired your legs stop working. but they cant sleep! not allowed. & dan also isnt supposed to crush the cowboy hat#and dans in colour so phils happy. and phils wearing his glasses so dans happy. and they get to just. be.#- damn i am *sappy* tonight huh#dnp#c.text#dan and phil#phan#answered#dnptit
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Oh okay, so Doc and Kevin want me dead huh!
#i fucking hate them im sick im gonna throw up /pos#this scene brings me so close to tears its scary#theyre so tiny and EYFBSHFEHRIGBR 😭😭😭 THEY MAKE ME SO ... IM INSANE IM GONNA CRY OVER A LEGO SHOW#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#raine's rambles#ninjago spoilers#ninjago dragons rising spoilers#ninjago dragons rising season 2#dragons rising spoilers#ninjago dragons rising season 2 spoilers#ignacia how i missed seeing u ... also nya w her old qipao ...#kinda#its missing some of the phoenixes. her sash . and one of the buckles ...#but Whtavrer im gonna be sick bye guys . throws up
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Alright gang what do we think about The Decepticule
#moths art#transformers#humanformers#decepticule#← not sure if its actually Called something but im using that for my own tagging system for now because its funny#starscream#megatron#soundwave#shockwave#this can also be tagged as any variation of ships idc#ALSO sorry for putting that fat fucking banner on all my tf posts but they immediately swarmed my first tf post that didn't have it. scary
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How so-called "Died and came back wrong" fans look when real zombie horror comes at them:
if more zombie horror focused more on the "died and came back wrong" aspect and less on jumpscares and guys in halloween makeup screaming and biting people and jerking the camera around i would enjoy them more
#like there are good zombie horror films. but most popular interpretations of them are boring.#when they focus on stuff like the fact that its easy to be caught off guard by zombies because they used to be living people#or the act of having to execute an infected loved one. theyre good!#but in my experience most zombie horror is just augh fuck the scary creature is at. the fridge#honestly its disappointing how often zombie horror drops the ball on considering the humanity of the zombies#and how that would affect the survivors fighting them
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