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I'm really struggling with communication right now, so I'm gonna be a bit distant for a bit. I really appreciate the patience n kindness 💗
#i feel like ive been struggling to get back to people all month#ty especially to the anon who sent a kind message irt my post about processing familial death / alienation when#everyone related to you has passed with society valuing blood relation etc#im gonna try and find a therapist soon (again) bc. Just a lot going on internally.#like. today i realized that I have only seen a message of 'i love you' from my mom written for someone else.#bc she didnt get to ever write one for me. or if she ever had it was kept from me#and it really messed with me today#idk I just always get messed up in the period between birthday and holidays n overthink. but i hope everyone else is well#and im sorry if i havent been able to be there for you if youre reading this and have been waiting for my response.#I really wish that as I got older I got more well / stronger mentally.
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"The first inkling Kakashi had that something might be wrong with his kids was when he arrived at the academy 3 hours late to find the pink-haired civilian girl systematically dipping senbon in various liquids that he assumed had to be poison, chatting amicably with the two boys, and the loner-revenger-flight-risk was leaning against Naruto’s legs, head practically in the blond boy’s lap while Naruto deftly braided and unbraided the Uchiha’s hair."
Here's the colored version of the fanart sketch I did based on @themidnightguardian 's fanfic called "Teenagers scare the living shit out of me" (chapter 1, first scene specifically). It's a short, funny and slightly unhinged time travel AU I love to read again and again, it always cheers me up.
I honestly wasn't planning on ever rendering the sketch any further, and really thought that I might get out of my yearly Naruto phase soon, but 10 hours on Clip Studio Paint later and here I am. And to be fair, despite everything that still makes me sigh (a desk went missing at some point I think?), I have to admit I'm quite happy with the general feeling & even managed to fix Sakura's face which had been bugging me. Apparently my idea of "poison container" is very much stuck in the cartoon/DnD corner. The text on the posters is absolute gibberish of course.
#fanart#digital painting#digital art#naruto#team 7#naruto uzumaki#sasuke uchiha#sakura haruno#kakashi hatake#narusasu#fanfic#themidnightguardian#somecallmegin#I really messed up big time on something today and doing this made me feel better#my cat is telling me it's time for bed#Naruto Nostalgia
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The things Anakin would do for this man. Nothing was too depraved. Nothing too base. The older man had no idea what power he held. Anakin would raze this city if he asked. Reshape the stars. He would give him anything––anything, if his Master would only carve out a piece of himself and let Anakin rest there.
Some scattered laughter sounded in the distance, and for the second time that night, Obi-Wan was pulling away from him.
“No, Anakin,” he said, his tone final. “No.” And with that, he walked off, leaving Anakin panting in the dark.
from ch 4 of That’s My Type by @teaandjumpers
this fic has me gnashing my teeth and barking. the entire work has been rotating in my mind like a gas station hot dog for weeks. i love it so much. i couldn’t rest until i threw a little smthn together for this scene
no-background ver under the cut
#i wasn’t sure about the sloppy background but i do not have it i. me to fully render anything of substance rn#but i got multiple thumbs up from my household so i am posting it :o)#no background ver because i do really enjoy it#seriously this fic is. chefs kiss. i’m crazyyyyy#anakin is so. and there’s a dope OC that i love#and obi-wan?????????#this fic is manipulate mansplain manwhore#sorry these tags are a mess i just took an edible bc i can’t have any more ibuprofen today#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi#obikin#star wars#obikin fanart#fic rec#aniobi#scout.png
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no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)
#detective conan#case closed#amv#my amvs#eye strain#heiji hattori#harley hartwell#conan edogawa#shinichi kudo#funimation english dub script#video#happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'!#while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?)#it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real#it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺#and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up'#but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project#it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster!#which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results!#to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio#video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds#but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now#but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!)#i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten#and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it!#thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333#like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3#but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522#and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol#the song is 'you're stupid aren't you' by toshio masuda (from jubei-chan 2)
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i’ve done another silly little doodle :3
#this one is of aj#because fine#he’s barely shown at all#like two episodes#maybe three if you’re being generous#however#we can’t pretend like his character design isn’t sick as hell????#ok for the most part i was just doing this to mess around with procreate’s animation tool some more#but i got some really good requests today!!!#(thank you to everyone who sent me doodle ideas!!!! much much appreciated <3)#i’m gonna start working on those soon B)#anywho!!!!#the umbrella academy#tua#umbrella academy#hargreeves siblings#five hargreeves#klaus hargreeves#allison hargreeves#number five#luther hargreeves#ben hargreeves#aj carmicheal#tua s2#tua season 2
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Okay this misconception keeps coming across my dash and it drives me nuts because it means people are lumping two very different versions of the DC universe under one disparaging banner. So let me just say this to get it off my chest because I'm this close to shaking somebody:
The New 52 ended seven years ago in 2016.
That started a section of DC's history called "Rebirth" in which they started bringing elements of the pre-Flashpoint continuity back into the timeline. The first changes came in a big burst called Convergence -- which is how Jon Kent effectively manifested fully formed at 10 years old -- while other reintroductions like Kon-El, Bart Allen, Cass Cain, etc. were more gradual.
The original plan, being forced through by King of Bad Decisions Dan Didio, was that after ~4-5 Rebirth would give way to another full reboot known as 5G. I could go into detail about the plans but they're honestly not important to this post because Didio was (thankfully, finally) ousted from his role as publisher early in 2020, along with something like 80% of the higher-level editorial staff. DC had a complete creative turn-over at the start of the pandemic and completely changed directions as a result. The material being developed for 5G was retooled into the hypothetical future event "Future State" to buy the new staff time to pull together their new direction.
That new direction is called INFINITE FRONTIER. It started in 2021 and THAT is the era of DC comics we're in now. Infinite Frontier is an active push to bring back the pre-Flashpoint characters, as well as some pre-Crisis ideas and characters, while also keeping the few elements of the New 52 that people actually liked (like Jason Todd's more heroic characterization) and actively pursuing diversity initiatives both in creative staff and in creations. And outside of the big events, they're making a real effort to keep these comics short and self contained in the hopes that that'll make them more accessible. So it's actually really easy, if you read comics pre-Flashpoint and dropped off, to just pick up a series and go with the flow. Anything confusing is just a Google away.
Please, please don't make the mistake of thinking modern comics are as bad as the New 52 just because some people are butthurt their ship isn't getting canonized. There have been some really good comics made in the last few years that you should totally try! Spirit World, Monkey Prince and the entire We Are Legends line has been genuinely fantastic. The new Birds of Prey is shaping up to be a ton of fun. Dark Knights of Steel is an entertaining Elseworld. Urban Legends and Brave & the Bold have done some really fun things with shorter anthology books. One Minute War was a really fun Flash family event and everything Stargirl's done recently is liable to make you cry.
I'm begging people to give these comics a chance. It's just really sad to see them being dismissed out of hand.
#dc comics#batman#bat family#superman#wonder woman#superheroes#idk man#the way people talk about comics sometimes just makes me sad#i love comics#i usually want to talk about how good they are#and I only talk about the ones that are bad because I want them to be better#i just hate so much to see the really good comics getting published today#being lumped in with the mean spirited mess that was the New 52
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genuinely devastating that it's been four years since hlvrai came out and i still haven't seen ANY art of dr. coomer and dexter jettster together 😢 come on bro hes dr. coomers FAVORITE star wars character. they can hang out in the diner (from star wars: the clone wars)!!!! i think he would love that shit. we have the freedom to draw whatever we want and yet.........!!! 💔 world is a fuck
#genuinely tho if someone did actually draw that at some point (past or future) send me the link please 😭😭😭😭😭😭#hlvrai#sw#muffin mumbles#also u might be saying ''well why dont you draw it yourself?'' the answer is i cant do either of them justice separately#so as much as i really really want to. It would look like dogshit 😭😭😭 one day i will be able to do this idea justice#not today though 💔#also . sighs deeply. 🤓 the diner was actually in attack of the clones (the second prequel) NOT the clone wars!!!#attack of the clones is a live action movie!!! clone wars is an animated tv show!!!#people mess this up all the time and it drives me CRAZY. and by crazy i mean barely even mildly annoyed LOL
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fast sketch for today💓💓
#god these two are so cute will I ever stop drawing them ????#NO😤😤#anyways I am so tired today😭🙏#woke up at 5am & I’ve drank so much coffee!!#I have a lot of work this afternoon so I wanted to take advantage of my morning#deep cleaned/ran errands/walked the goblins#I’m about to exercise and idk why but I decided I’ve been too lazy about things lately#and I’m pushing myself so much with lifting these days I am SO SORE#(but like the good type of sore)#I just want my thighs to be more muscular 😭😭😭😭😭 lots of squats deadlift bulgarians hip thrust etc etc etc#at least I know by next week I will already see the results 🙏🙏 then I’ll be lazy again until they fade 😭#I have never managed to be obsessive about exercise or really enjoy it I just do the bare minimum to stay healthy#and hopefully my body will thank me as I get older#bc my job is so physical that I really need to take care of things or I could really mess things up for the future#tbh I’ve always noticed that tattoo artists always lift a lot🤝🤝#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#imelda reyes#poppy sweeting#imelda reyes x poppy sweeting
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it went fine yesterday btw :}
#Robin processes emotions on main#sometimes I freak out like a chihuahua and then actually have a good time. these things are typical in the life of ur local robin#we talked about our lives instead of our Interests and it was fine ! I think I did good. we commiserated about the post-college woes#I got re-reminded how rough my life is right now and cried a little but like in a good way. and I'll make it. we'll both make it#today I made a bucket list of churches to try (By Myself) and places to visit around town#(clutching my head staggering upright) did you guys know th.that childhood parentification can majorly mess you up#man do I need therapy. like. soon I think#also a steady job and my own apartment but let's not get ahead of ourselves. haha. sorry let me rephrase:#I'm GOING to get a job and move out eventually and it will be GOOD. and in the meantime I will make living here good too dangit#anyway so yeah I just forgot that this particular friend is good for Processing Life with instead of Enjoying Stories with#that was my issue last time.#although last time wasn't a Failure on my part. I was just exhausted and I Couldn't process life last time. no energy for that#I didn't feel safe enough to do that so all I had to fall back on was my interests and it just didn't click. such things happen#anyway I'm logging back out now but thank you everyone for the encouragement :') it really helped and I'm gonna keep on truckin'
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I'm so obsessed with the way Isgarren and Mabon work together as characters.
Isgarren is a guy that only ever wanted to do the right thing and help people, but it usually led to disastrous consequences, and that made him reclusive and (with other factors) start to shut away from directly trying to help anyone. He's secretive and even his closest friends, etc, don't seem to really understand the extent of his thoughts or feelings because he's been so private about himself.
And Mabon is a guy that has done such terrible things and spent the entire rest of his life trying to atone for things he can no longer even remember doing. That desperation to 'make things right' is why he is constantly getting very directly involved in a lot of people's problems in attempts to help them, even being far more open than he should be considering it risks the secrecy of the Ward/Court.
Along with their designs being buff and warm colours vs slender and cool colours, them being Seer and Mursaat... They were like the perfect embodiment of opposites attract y'know.
#text#isgarren#mabon#soto spoilers#today is a very isgarren-centric brain wavelength for me#im so obsessed with isgarren 'seems like a callous bad guy but is actually soft and gentle inside'#and mabon 'comes across like your best friend and he is genuinely nice but he is hiding some really messed up shit deep down'
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Is it missing III hours for anyone else? Jic it is, here's some photos of him wearing nifty honeycomb socks.
#sleep token#iii sleep token#iii#photography#idk why its hitting me super hard right now#the germany rituals are over#wembley is in 2 days#but my brain right now is like#“you know what i'm gonna be sad about today? iii.”#thanks brain#also i'm still working on asks and dms i promise#the presale for red rocks really messed me up lol#again i have no clue why#i have tickets why am i sad
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thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up
#really long Tag rant down there#one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything#and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it#because hes so weak he cant handle it#them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives#morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally#just likes him thats it. and he never knew it#also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time#stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but#then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af#er day#and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and#how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad#and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene#n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime#did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die#Breathes in#im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard#odiespeak
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hey bean, I think it would be cool if you drew lavender and chamomile kissing for pride month ^_^ just a suggestion ofc, only if u wanna!!
Either way I hope you're having a good pride month >ᴗ< stay safe and joyful!!
^Silly
Silly aside; I'll consider it! I am still a little apprehensive to post clones being outwardly romantic, but if I stop being a weenie about it, then it'll probably be after I finish these refs
Also, not great at drawing kisses, especially with characters with big noses - like where does that thang go???
#bean talks too much#sona tag#oc: bean#I mean I have no reason to be anxious about posting my unrelated adult ocs having a smooch but I am#that whole peppifake thing messed me up even if I wasn't directly targeted or anything like that#some people were just SO nasty about it - it hurt to watch#also jeez that was a year ago now? wow#but yeah we'll see! I really wanna finish these refs today#also also thank you I hope you're having a good pride month too!
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HEY YOU SHOULD WATCH THE BRAVE LITTLE TOASTER
Oh nooooo if only there were an easy way to find it tho... if only... oh man... if only- oh oops sorry I tripped-
youtube
Oh man if only it were easy to watch... oh man...................
#tblt#the brave little toaster#nothing makes me want to make a youtube video essay than me autistically infodumping about every detail in this movie#i am not exaggerating: this is my favorite movie of all time#am i nostalgia biased? YES.#OKAY BUT SERIOUSLY#THE ANIMATION HOLDS UP REALLY WELL BY TODAYS STANDARDS#THE WRITING IS REALLY GOOD LIKE THE BANTER IS S-TIER AND SOME LINES STILL GET A LAUGH OUT OF ME#ITS SHOCKINGLY DARK FOR THOSE WHO ENJOY A FAMILY-FRIENDLY BUT-STILL-MESSED-UP MOVIE#also i had a WHOLE rant about how lampy isnt stupid hes autistic#also Cutting Edge gets funnier every year#like any time you talk about 'cutting edge' tech its great because this movie came out in 1987#ALSO yes the PAL version is also on youtube but but but#the PAL version plays EVER so slightly faster- like 0.4x faster or something#which probably wont make a difference for any of youse#but when youre me and you regularly listen to the OST it dips into uncanny valley a lil#... also if youre me and watch it so much you have like the whole movie memorized#im actually trying to commit every line in this movie to memory- im good at getting the general chunks but im trying to get EVERY line EXAC#Youtube
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but can you IMAGINE what it would have been like ONSCREEN before our EYES to get to watch GERRI KELLMAN being TENDER AND KIND to ROMAN ROY in the face of a HUGE ROOM OF PEOPLE SHUNNING HIM after EVERY SEASON FOUR SCENE THAT HAD COME BEFORE???
the intricate facial expressions we will never get to know ............ gerri deliberately touching roman for the second time ever (!!! agony!) and we did not get to see it ............ i thought i had pre-grieved but i hadn't pre-grieved y'all .........
#the footage is out there somewhere ........ and we just have to LIVE WITH THAT?#oh i'm grumpy today. i'm gonna be grumpy about it!#dollsome's deep thoughts#roman x gerri#romangerri#this was always gonna be a very emo and melodramatic day for me lololol#(i'm not really laughing. i'm crying inside.)#you messed up j. armstrong. thx for the lasting issues.#i'm just so pressed because it was the emotional payoff that was always supposed to exist in this arc and then it didn't happen#something about that is just so .............. frustrating#i can see the argument that on this particular show and in this particular situation having no payoff is its own payoff#but also. AGONY!
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today is just one of those days where i wanna scream and cry because everything just seems to be piling up.
#its em again ₊˚ෆ#wow did i bake for you all today and then at 3 fucking pm i wanna make lunch for myself but nooo i made a mess#WHICH I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF CLEANING UP BEFORE YOU DECIDED TO BARGE IN#ugh and then you decide that apparently i should know what ingredients we need for dinner even though i dont know even how to make it#and on top of all that shit#you give me a decision abt staying with a girl i dont really like for a week#because she's coming up to visit and our parents are sorta friends (they're not even that good of friends??)#and i cant actually cry because#“emma why are you crying?”#and i do not have the energy to try and explain that i just#fuck
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