#and it pains me every day
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me when I think about how jude and cardan could've been together if it wasn't for lady asha interfering and destroying the letters to jude from cardan, meaning jude could never see them even if she tried and so could never truly acknowledge how much cardan lay himself bare for her emotionally:
#it's a cruel world#holly black#i am COMING for you#ily tho#ITS JUST MY GIRL JUDE WILL NEVER KNOW#and it pains me every day#books#bookish#the cruel prince#booklr#cardan greenbriar#jude duarte#tfota#cardan#jude#the folk of the air#jude x cardan#jurdan#judecardan#cardan x jude#the folk of air#incorrect tfota#memes#source: pinterest#adventure time#the wicked king#the queen of nothing#lady asha hate club#high king of elfhame#high queen of elfhame
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Just had a friend show me a conversation in a fan discord about Suvi as a Black American woman in the context of the fallout from the election. And honestly? Yeah. The blueprint is simple: Black women are expected to put their own priorities and emotions on hold to show up for everyone else's battles and hold endless space for everyone's feelings while simultaneously weathering attacks on our character (oh she's so angry/aggressive/violent/rude) and authority (she's a woke hire/affirmative action quota/nepobaby) without complaint. We're expected to save the day under nigh-impossible circumstance, and with fewer resources and support that is AT BEST, conditional.
So yeah, relistening to Suvi's speech in The Witness hurts now. Because that's exactly the feeling I'm wrestling with, and what I see mirrored in the Black women around me. We are exhausted and angry and sad. Those voter percentages are a betrayal of "we" that was promised by other marginalized groups when speaking of the interconnectedness of our liberation. And the unexamined expectation that we immediately rise from the depths of our despair to prepare for the next fight is a cruelty. Suvi isn't real, but if this helps lend empathy toward actual Black women in the world, then I'm glad.
#worlds beyond number#the wizard the witch and the wild one#there's a reason I spent so much time scrapping with fans misremembering plot#always with the aim of painting Suvi as 'the bad/mean one' universally responsible for any party friction#i've clocked dozens upon dozens of threads maligning her and nitpicking every choice she makes#and holding her alone to a ridiculous standard of behavior#while rooting for her to experience enough pain/loss to bend her to their preferred trajectory#and dismissing her emotions as Citadel programming unworthy of consideration#it's just more fucking misogynoir at the end of the day#i saw a post calling her an abuser for not being *nice* enough to Ame when she arrived at the conclave#and all i can think is 'why do you need her to mask her VALID emotions for others' sakes?'#and then i remember she's a black woman#and i get really tired for her (and me)#don't worry#i'll return to funky lil shitposts and art reblogs soon
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a glass sun 1/2
#my art#my stuff#this is really fucking long so im gonna have to break it up into multiple reblogs#(howling) WAUGHHHHHHH#i love aishang by xiaoshiguniang#i love to implicate my alma mater in my art about being gay in the shittiest most conservative corner of singaporean society#by some terrible trick of fate i ended up in the conservative chinese christian cishet circuit from primary school to end of hs#obviously i am not most of these things but there i was. Depressed#and there i was after that at Liberal Arts College. the 4 years i spent there were a clusterfuck#but like a good and outrageous and lively clusterfuck#and i graduated in may this year and when i came back it was for the first time in 10 months. it was like. what da hell#like i love being here in specific ways but there is also the pain of being seen as something you're not constantly#can i blame them? i ask myself this every day. for most of my ex classmates and relatives i Am the only not cis person they know#idk my lottery number was bad this corner of society really is that bad#and so its like. idk dawg anyway i aint offering solutions but u get it like it fucks with your head to be misgendered either which way 24/#but to leave them behind would be to leave the only people who knew me for the first 19 years behind. and thats a lot of my life#i am 23!!!!!! ough#anyway. whatever. if u liked it i have a ko-fi#reblogos appreciated
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The Girl Who Died // Hell Bent
#dwedit#doctor who#usertennant#userveronika#userteri#twelfth doctor#clara oswald#doctor x clara#twelveclara#*#I'M SICK OF LOSING PEOPLE. LOOK AT YOU WITH YOUR EYES AND YOUR NEVER GIVING UP AND YOUR ANGER AND YOUR KINDNESS.#ONE DAY THE MEMORY OF THAT WILL HURT SO MUCH THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO BREATHE AND I'LL DO WHAT I ALWAYS DO.#I'LL GET IN MY BOX AND I'LL RUN AND I'LL RUN IN CASE ALL THE PAIN EVER CATCHES UP. AND EVERY PLACE I GO IT WILL BE THERE.#anyway idk if this makes sense outside of my head but the journey between like#she might meet someone she can't bear to lose -> gives her a second repair kit so she can make someone else immortal too ->#he can't bear to lose clara -> he brings her back from the dead which makes her functionally immortal ->#look how far i went for fear of losing you#ok actually i need to make a full parallel set. someone remind me to do that
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#kon el#kon-el#conner kent#reworked on older painting from my acrylic class#halloween is every day if you’re sick and twisted like me#god take all his pain and give it to rex leech#bart (as in bug art)#superboy#dc#dc comics#young justice#superman
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someone should have stopped me from putting these side by side but here we are. i can't do this anymore what the fuck.
a difference from at least six thousand years—and they are completely different people, crowley is absolutely right about that. the starmaker was lost in the fall, and crowley has been trying to find himself again ever since.
the final fifteen robbed him of anything light that was still persevering, because crowley's don't bother is him giving up. he's done. he can't do this anymore and then he still waits.
he still waits.
and he will keep waiting.
#alex talks good omens#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#good omens season 2#go2#aziracrow#crowley x aziraphale#ineffable husbands#ineffable wives#ineffable spouses#ineffable divorce#the final fifteen#what if i took apart a wall brick by brick with my bare hands#jesus christ i cant do this anymore#every day i find new ways of inflicting pain who gave me this curse#also david tennant genuinely fucking blew my mind with the starmaker#i dont know how he does it but goddamn
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people always talk about edwin being an older ghost, and he technically is, but he doesn’t have any more experience being a ghost than charles. he was in hell from the moment he died to the night he met charles. he died at 16 and then did not get a chance to go through any growth or learn anything in hell other than torture—he lost those 70+ years. functionally, neither of their afterlives start until they meet, and they have to (get to) learn how to be ghosts and how to exist in this form on earth together every step of the way. anyway, what are you procrastinating right now? i’m procrastinating an essay that was due 4 days ago AND an essay that’s due tomorrow 🤠
#dbd has been bad for my procrastination from the day i first watched it#i have some spins that are worse for my productivity than others and this is a baaaaad one#but it’s the fucking rush from the hyperfixation that only nd people could possibly get#every time i engage with a post or a fic or anything related to the show i get 10 straight shots of dopamine through me#i’m literally in school to become a therapist and i’m like or i can be mentally ill instead of doing my work#good for me (bad for me)#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#payneland#painland#paineland#paynland#hate that there are so many spellings of their ship name it’s exhausting all#chedwin#charles x edwin#charles rowland#edwin payne#edwin paine#yeet my deet#yeet my deebd#dbd4ratch#dbda#dbdshow
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Found each other in the dark
#dead boy detectives#edwin x charles#charles rowland#edwin paine#edwin payne#mywork2024#listen to me LISTEN#they really found each other in the dark#they are each others guiding light in every single way#city and colour’s we found each other in the dark has been on repeat for two days#GO LISTEN TO IT AND THINK OF THEM#then keep watching dead boy detectives for joy and happiness!!
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well. this Did just make me burst into tears. (which is probably good since i've needed to cry for days.)
yeah. yeah That's how it feels....
#every time i talk to a friend or a casual acquaintance with The Bad Kind of autoimmune disease#you know like. the kind that progresses. or has already killed your kidneys. or whatever#and i wonder if theyre gonna hate me for not being dying anymore. yeah#i'm still crying. like embarrassingly hard.#thank god though bc my shoulder has been tearing all day and i havent been able to cry about it at all. Leave Me Pain....#chronic illness#cancer#autoimmune tag#hank green#dropout#pissing out cancer
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are we ever gonna talk about this
#my posts#my aftg posts#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#the sunshine court#if you haven't read the extra content you are in a lot less pain than me#because there's so much. just so much#and this. he kills himself to draw attention to the raven's abuse#AND TO SHOW HIS SUPPORT FOR KEVIN WHAT DO YOU MEAN?????#it happens on the day/night of graduation!!!! which means 2 years post-tkm??? unless the timeline is different in other drafts#just imagine kevin in every draft. but especially in that one#oh my god ohhhhhhhhh my god im so glad we did not have to see that#and at one point nora says jean has complicated feelings about neil and kevin but he was always willing to die for them#???????????? literally wtf
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world's most normal blond women
#tlt#the locked tomb#coronabeth tridentarius#ianthe tridentarius#coronabeth the third#ianthe the third#ianthe the first#tlt fanart#htn#harrow the ninth#finieldraws#this series is doing something to me. i spent DAYS on this piece. i NEVER do that. god#the flowers are purple hyacinths btw!#they were a huge pain in the ass every step of the way <3#also. i have 3 hrs left of the htn audiobook. AOUGH
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thinking about how Endeavour, which has always been a tragedy and was always going to be a tragedy, left us at the end not with a tragedy of uncontrollable circumstance, but the tragedy of making the right choice.
Morse lived. Joan lived. the event that tore Morse away from those he loved most was not a death, beyond a death to himself. at the end he was forced to reckon with a reality that had been brought about in part by his own choices and by circumstances outside of his control; the reality that the woman he loves and has loved so desperately will now forever be beyond his reach.
and at the end of it all, the tragedy (beauty) was that he chose it.
#i can't with this story#the tragedy of making the right choice#UGH#every day endeavour forces me to confront the most painful and unspoken realities of being human#oh morse#i've shed more tears over than man than any real one#endeavour morse#endeavour#endeavour itv#itv endeavour#morse and joan#morse x joan
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Unexpected but fair.
How long were we disconnected?
#uhmm if it looks weird or ugly thats a you issue. Sorry not sorry im trying not to burn out by doing overcomplicated animation every time!!!#teehee#hes a pain in the ass dude gooooodddddd this took longer than i'd hope itd take...#but the background looks pretty fuckin cool i think it was worth it#theres so much to do in this environment#also lmfao i had to change the palette bc of damn color theory. so. he may be sickly green. maybe.#hngrfthhhhh its done thank god now we can move on#i have an 11 day deadline to get where i need to be LETS GO LETS GO#he doesn’t usually keep track of time btw :-)#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#uhhh if he looks weird blame.. uhm.. blame him because his ass was believe it or not TOO TALL for the canvas#youre telling me this short little shithead was too tall???#fgrtrggffghhhhhh
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Talking about endometriosis symptoms at work: Yeah, I’m in a bit of pain so I might be a bit spacey every now and then, haha. But you know, I’m still fine to be at work! 😊����
Talking about endometriosis symptoms with friends: I know God is not merciful because if he was, he would have sent one of his angels to kill me with a shovel
#endometriosis#I TRY not to be pain posting on every app#but unfortunately it IS now my main and only hobby#I did the maths today and I have only spent 30 days this winter NOT bleeding. and this week is the last week of winter. I’m Not Pleased#writing essays on tumblr dot com#me vs my probable endometriosis (‘:
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@alittlesliceofcucumber got the great idea for tgaa x disco elysium and I couldn't resist not to draw it. I didn't get far in the de yet, so I didn't want to put characters in other roles, but Gina is a kid who would call pigs fa**ots, that's basically canon. Anyway, love my two fave detectives interacting
#my art#digital drawing#tgaa#the great ace attorney#dgs#dai gyakuten saiban#disco elysium#satoru hosonaga#herlock sholmes#barok van zieks#gina lestrade#they are here too#sorry for any grammatik errors I've done these at night#I love them I really really do#maybe I've put too much effort into these but i don't care#electrochemistry is pain in every way shape and form NO I DON'T WANT TO DO DRUGS AND DRINK LEAVE ME ALONE NOOOO#anyway now going back to reading the demons and watching iwtv
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I literally cannot stop watching House MD right now please send help
#episodes of house be like#house: *drops cane on patient’s groin*#patient yelps in pain#house: hurts doesn’t it. maybe if you didn’t sleep with Em#you wouldn’t need an MRI!#*door slams open*#a woman enters - followed closely by cuddy#mystery woman: dr house? you’ve been served#house: served? as if id let anyone serve me at this hospital. the food here sucks#cuddy: not food - papers!#house: paper? the only paper I see is your paper thin SHIRT#Cuddy: *makes Cuddy face*#no but really why is this every episode#and WHY can’t I stop watching#House MD#house m.d.#Allison Cameron#my art#doodle of the day
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