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firenati0n · 9 months ago

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and all i can taste is this moment, and all i can breathe is your life

by firenati0n on ao3

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tags: city of angels au, guardian angel henry, lawyer alex, 5+1, dual pov, hurt/comfort, angst with a HAPPY ENDING! NOT THE MOVIE ENDING I PROMISEEEEEEEEEEEEE

“In all the years, across all the universes, in the midst of all these people…you saw me. You felt me somehow. A gossamer fine thread connecting us, yet you grasped and tugged and held on tight. If losing my wings means I gain you, then that is a loss I will bear with gratitude.”

Five times Guardian Angel Henry yearns for a truly human sensory experience, and the one time he feels them all at once. Or, Henry discovers the joys of humanity through Alex’s eyes, finds himself, and falls in love. Or, Henry takes a leap of faith, and Alex catches him.

xoxo roop

also i know i talked about this in literally january so tagging some folks who expressed interest in this in the past pls don't mind me <3 ilysm xoxo

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#rwrb fic #fics #rwrb #roop writes #fic: angel au #fanfiction #another genre unlocked: hurt/comfort and angst #adding to my roopertoire #(thanks for that fun word anchor jasdkfjalsf)#i have been avoiding this wip since january #and it is finally done #and i cried every time i sat down to write it #and it is so deeply personal to me #so i hope you love it as much as i do #felt cathartic to write #i am henry fr #i need my alex expeditiously #the situation is getting rather dire

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chloesimaginationthings · 6 months ago

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Hear me out, Michael would think Roxy is SICK AF

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #michael afton #fnaf vanessa #fnaf vanny #fnaf roxy #roxanne wolf #security breach #fnaf fanart #Guys just walk with me for a moment #MICHAEL would think Roxy is super cool #he’s a foxy liker after all so natural evolution is Roxy #BUT Roxy is an 80s rocker who drives race cars and wears sunglasses etc #it’s like right up Michael’s alley #on top of all that her personality #she’s mean a bully even but is deeply insecure #not only that but she’s actually lowkey very sweet and cares about folks #like Michael would relate to her #It’s not even he finds her attractive or anything like that it’s purely she’s badass and related to her #Michael and Cassie number 1 Roxy fans out here #Also Vanessa might not be as much of a fan #but its because she works with them all the time BAHA #THE Glamrocks are canon divas #the 80s punk kid in Michael just took hold Roxy is simply cool to em

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knivesandteeth · 19 days ago

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I love Garak and Kira because their characters are like... Yeah, trauma doesn't make you a better person. Sometimes trauma just makes you a bitter, caustic individual filled with regret and self loathing. That doesn't make you any less worthy of care or healing or community. It's not the trauma that saves you, it's community and being given the love we were denied. Pain isn't virtue.

#star trek #ds9 #elim garak #kira nerys #it's so healing to me personally as a bitch and deeply fucked up individual

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ciil · 9 months ago

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what makes us any different?

#my art #alien stage #alien stage spoilers #i finally scratched the itch in my brain just a lil #anyways i am fondly thinking abt comic of ivan antagonizing sua and respectfully sir ur a clown (me saying this while crying)#tfw ur both dead eyed dark haired high achievers who love deeply and would risk it all for ur person #i love that they r so similar in the lengths they'll go to but they're also like ewwww at each other #ivan and sua alien stage u'll always be famous to me

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prettyflyshyguy · 3 months ago

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Polle Says

"The Captain always goes down with his ship!"

#Mouthwashing #Mouthwashing Game #Polle Mouthwashing #Polle #Pony Express #my art #when I say a game has never spoken to me so deeply personally #about the negligence of a figure in charge #and the harm they've inadvertendly caused by not taking responsibility for the actions of someone #who has been allowed to cause massive harm because of it #and the ultimate horror of a company that never cared and never will #anyway. Still not over Mouthwashing.

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sunandmoonseisai · 4 months ago

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Canon marcille: I want all human races to live at the same rate so that we'll all be on equal footing and noone has to be oppressed because of their race ever again. And so that I may never revive the trauma of losing my loved ones while I'm still at the dawn of my life. Even if it risk dooming the whole earth, my desire to grow old with the people I love in a world that treat them fairly is stronger than reason.

Fanon marcille: fuck everyone I just want my gf back

#in before “fanon marcille is based actually”#farcille is growing on me #their fanbase doesn't #marcille love falin deeply #but she isn't the only person she care about #marcille is so full of love for everyone around her #dungeon meshi #marcille donato #dungeon lord marcille #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #dunmesh spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers

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inkskinned · 7 months ago

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today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.

when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.

i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.

#and yet i NEVER DO REMEMBER IT #spilled ink #writeblr #i feel like due to tiktok ppl think >#deeply depressed & not having an emotional reaction to things MUST mean #you are cruel or uncaring #like girlie that is STILL a lack of mental illness awareness. it doesn't make us mean #it just means im like. ohhhh im not well. i don't really react to puppies. that's bad #Im still gonna be super nice to the puppy. like it just doesn't bring me joy.#bc the problem i have is CLINICAL. the dopamine ISNT being made.#but PLENTY of us are still kind #considerate.#GENTLE people. even if we're like '..........' all the time.#i actually think this is why i'm harsh on people who are so mean - you don't need to be emotionally attached to someone/thing #in order to be kind.... you just choose to be kind bc it's the right thing to do #not bc it's easy....... like it's extra effort sure. but it's worth it. bc ppl deserve kindness.#it's hard to describe this bc it's the ugly side of depression. the part that's like #not in netflix - the part where it's like ''i love this person. i just don't feel anything''

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twinstxrs · 10 months ago

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idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.

#riz gukgak #gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #these kids are all so self-sacrificing but i do think riz gorgug are the most clear (& juxtaposed) self-sacrificers #riz will mentally tear himself to pieces and get lost in cases and take on ungodly levels of stress for those he loves #gorgug will use himself as a human shield. he will take hit after hit if it means his friends are okay.#and they’d both do the other thing too. riz would let himself get hit for gorgug. gorgug would pull all nighters & take stress for riz.#even if mechanically they can’t or it wouldn’t make sense. they would if they could.#also #the starstruck barry mechanic of being a guard is so gorgug. it’s soooo gorgug like that’s literally him #anyways love this tall green guy & this short green guy so much #especially because gorgug is tall & considered intimidating but protective in a deeply kind way #while riz is short & underestimated but protective in a deeply vicious way (affectionate)#i hope this makes sense but i think riz is primarily ‘i would kill for you’ & gorgug is primarily ‘i would die for you’ maybe #this does not mean gorgug would not kill for riz or riz would not die for gorgug. they both would.#but those are the primary ways their love manifests due to the nature of their strengths/personalities. To Me #idk this is all just me saying stuff when i should be sleeping 😭#sorry if i missed a riz gorgug moment in the main post btw i’m tired

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marciaillust · 20 days ago

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bro fuck it im workposting. i did illustrations, i storyboarded, i directed. I did many cool things in 2024 and millions of people all over the world saw em. that has to count for something

#brawl stars #marcia #i dont workpost because i am deeply aware nobody here is here for brawl stars but on god i #i work and i create and its real #and there is a part of me thats ashamed because i know that brawls is not. like its not league of legends you know?#league of legends is something you post about #about the skin you helped create or sculpted #or the splash art you painted #its has that... value that is obvious even in the eyes of a person who has never played league #its a very mature visual language that historically calls for respect #meanwhile presenting brawl stars art feels like showing my anime girl oc to an art teacher #even mentioning an illust i created for a skin announcement for brawl stars feels so #so dollar store #so laughable #like noone would take me seriously #it feels like when you say you're an artist and then a person asks to see your art #and you show them and they get that soft soft look in their eyes that informs you that they had an image of who an “artist” is in their hea #and that you did not live up to it but all they'll say is 'oh thats nice'#bro help me im doing art elitism to myself #how can i simultaneously believe that art can be anything and yet only neoclassical realism has real value #i want to be creatively free yet all i do is fear the unimpressed looks of strangers

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toomanyrats · 2 years ago

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on shame and yearning (pt.1)

#web weaving #shame #yearning #this is deeply personal for me #tumblr has a 10 pictures limit so i will be making this into three parts

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briankang · 6 months ago

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VancityReynolds: As they say in Seoul: Chk Chk Boom!

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan xichen #jin guangyao #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #qin su #EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts.#Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation.#qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her.#Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared.#I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly.#MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot.#That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory!#To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible.#Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot #and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD).#MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white #JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character.#What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image)#and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard.#but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug.#There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#silna my beloved #shes so lovely. i love her when she's shouting at Francis and when shes being quietly extremely kind #she protects crozier and appreciates goodsir on a personal level despite what they brought to her life #she makes me so deeply sad #the terror #amc the terror #silna #lady silence #tuunbaq #tw blood

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essektheylyss · 8 months ago

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I'm also still laughing that he really showed up, introduced himself as an Archivist of the Cobalt Soul, and then insinuated that they were going to go extrajudicially hunt down, capture, and "interrogate" a Cerberus Assembly Archmage. Sir, archivists do not do that kind of thing, least of all on their own, LEAST OF ALL with a bunch of random hooligans they were just sent to collect for an unrelated excursion. Quite honestly, that was the thing I kept going back to in evidence of, there is absolutely no way this is a legit archivist.

#sir you kNOW how the cobalt soul works #why didn't you use 'expositor'#'trained sorcerer' THE COBALT SOUL IS NOT TRAINING SORCERERS #SORCERERS DON'T GET TRAINED #you lying idiot. you absolute dumbass. you beautiful fugitive who has miraculously stayed alive for seven years.#I love him SO much #but actually his bit about his mother being a barmaid was actually deeply charming and that was the one moment I had a sliver of doubt #the way he delivered that bit was great and I do joke but he is a very good liar when he really needs to be #he's charming! he's got high charisma! he's a delight! he can spin a tale!#also honestly very funny for me personally. for tiefling fic reasons.#cr spoilers #essek thelyss #critical role

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space-sheep08 · 4 months ago

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Actually so tired that people mainly focus on the bdsm when they talk about La Pianiste when we literally have this dynamic right here. Like, that's insane.

What if you were a little girl in her 40's who couldn't grow up because of your mother-wife who made you sleep in her bed and forced you to repress every sexual desires and thoughts of becoming your own person just to keep you close to her ? What if you fought back and yearned for dangerous things out of her reach ? But also, what if you let her because it's all you've ever known and been taught to want ?

#these two are so entangled with each other and in the roles they play #(mother and daughter. husband and wife. prodigal or ungrateful daughter. adoring or mocking mother)#that they cannot handle it when something else is thrown into the mix #There's no space left because they fill all the roles in each other's lives.#but at the same time they never give the other exactly what she wants #The fights never last. Erika will never live up to her mother's ambitions. And her mother will never give her any form of affection which #might satiate her hunger for love. And so on.#They are deeply imperfect- Love and Despise each other but they could never bear the thought of being separated #When I read the part in the book where Erika talks to Walter for the first time and all she wants is to go back into her mother's womb...#you can't make that shi up #when people talk about toxic yuri that's what they could mean but unfortunately we live in a society #gradually learning to accept the person I'm becoming who would've been burned at the stake by my younger self <3 #been having so much thoughts about this film once again. And I know that nothing written here is new but I'm a little sad no one really #talks about this relationship online since it's really the heart of the story for me #Of course everything happening with Walter is important. But none of that would be there without the mother-daughter situation #la pianiste #the piano teacher #haneke #sheep stuffs #isabelle huppert #also I'd kinda get it if it was another film and it made people too uncomfortable to talk about it. but I mean this is literally La Pianist

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clonerightsagenda · 2 months ago

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This week one of my coworkers said to me "you have a really strong sense of morals and want everything to be done the right way which sucks for you personally but is a net benefit for everyone else around you" and I think I should put that on my resume

#living up to my keladry of mindelan/tiffany aching ideals I guess #an acquaintance asked me what I was doing this weekend and i said going to costco to make care packages for my neighbors #and she said 'oh you're so nice' and I said no I'm not. I don't even like those people #then she laughed at me #life's hard when you want to fix stuff not because you're a particularly nice person #but because injustice and things being Wrong makes you angry #while I had my quibbles this bit of the scholomance series was deeply relatable #unfortunately this trait is also why I am in charge of everything at work now

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