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Wild Life Mechanics
Hey guys, I was thinking about the Mechanics of Wild Life and the theory that the previous winners create the next game. The first thing I want to say is that while Cleo is a winner and we should respect the queen, it's clear that Wild Life wasn't created by her. While she is chaotic and loves to burn things, Wild Life is not a game she would make. She's pretty level-headed and only burns people's bases if they make her mad. She would not choose the next game to have random effects each session. Scar, on the other hand, is completely crazy and would have the games be so chaotic. Sure, Grian and the other Watchers are the ones who decide the game and how it functions, its clear that the winner has some input on how the game is created. Scar even mentioned in his first episode that he and others suggested ideas to implement into the game. He just wasn't sure if Grian put those ideas into use. It's just funny that the mechanics that Grian decided to use directly relate to Scar and the struggles he goes through. And I will be analyzing each Wild Card that we know of for now. (This will be outdated tomorrow since a new episode will come out. But I don't want the idea to disappear from my head, so I'm writing this now.)
The first session had the Shrink and Grow Wildcard and it relates to Scar's sensation of scale. While Scar is 6 ft tall and has known the feeling of being tall, for most of his time, he's in a wheelchair at around 4 ft tall and thus, he is also small. We saw that immediately with small Scar during Real life. Scar is both a tall man, and also small, just like session one's Wildcard where you can be both big or small. And for most of Scar's session, he tries to be in the middle. Just be his regular, Minecraft self, since he doesn't want to be reminded of relatity.
The second session was about having your food randomized and having to eat things like dirt and rocks. This relates to the fact that... well... Scar can't eat like a normal person anymore. Scar can only 'eat' through a tube and has to constantly make sure the food is mush. He also fantasizes about eating people. c!Scar is a cannibal and so when the watchers changed what he and the other lifers could eat, his brain couldn't handle that truth and just assumed they just couldn't eat. It was only thanks to Grian that he and his team managed to survive.
The third session was the snail and it was pretty simple what was happening. Scar had been tormented by the Snails in Hermitcraft and now they transferred over to the life series. The watchers made them into one-shotters because it would hurt Scar more since he's already not great at staying alive.
The fourth Session relates to the fact that Scar is pretty slow when making videos because of his illness. Scar starts off slow, but once he gets going, it's hard for him to stop. He mentioned tons of times that he tends to forget how long he should be on the computer and thus ends up being on a project for hours. Usually ending some episodes while it's like 1 in the morning for him.
And finally, session 5's gimmick was the Quizmaster, which relates to the fact that Scar is constantly reminiscing on the past. Mostly third life, double life, limited life, and secret life. Scar has been haunting people's posts and remembering the past. He got a good chunk of questions right. It was only the Last Life questions he didn't know completely since he was so sick during Last Life that he had to miss a session because of his real-world illness. Like he knew the horn Jimmy used in Double Life, but he couldn't remember the name because he's bad at remembering names.
Now, none of these gimmicks were meant to relate to Scar. After all, Grian created all the gimmicks. Its just funny how all of these gimmicks able to be connected to Scar. Grian truly is Scar's soulmate. Also, the fact that yellow and red names can kill dark green lives to get health back and has been compared to cannibalism is funny because I can connect this to Scar since c!Scar is a cannibal. He would totally implement the idea of adding some kind of cannibalism into the games. It is my headcannon that Scar was the one who had the random lives and life trade mechanic in Last Life while Grian put in the Boogeyman mechanic since Grian AND Scar both won Third Life. It's just a shame most people, including Scar, don't remember that Third Life was a double victory. So yeah. Scar is the only winner who won two games. Scott doesn't count because he didn't win Double life. He gave up the game to Pearl and she is the sole winner of Double life while Scott got second. Just wanted put idea up.
#winner's theory#goodtimeswithscar#wild life smp#wild life#grian#life series#gtwscar#gtws#desert duo
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Hurry Home
Husband Joel Miller x pregnant f!reader
Summary: Your due date is fast approaching and the last thing you expect is to go into labour when Joel isn't home, meaning you have to call him out of work. Even more so, you don't expect that Joel will end up delivering your daughter in the truck on the way to the hospital. Content/warnings: TW-Childbirth. Joel being the cutest most supportive husband. Accidentally giving birth in Tommy's truck on the way to the hospital. So much fluff. No outbreak/ no use of y/n. Word count: 3.4K A/N: Another cute pregnancy fic because I am obsessed with making them! Hope you enjoy!
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It’s 6am and you’re not usually awake but in the final stages, final days of pregnancy you’re finding yourself restless so you’re awake usually before Joel’s alarm is anywhere near ready to go off.
This morning is no different.
He’s only just got up himself when you walk into the kitchen. “Mornin’ baby” he utters sat at the table sipping at his coffee. He observes how sunken in on yourself you are, and you only give him a small smile in response. “S’wrong?” He sits straighter immediately noticing something’s amiss.
“Just real tired and achy” you moan as you move over to grab yourself some coffee “please don’t lecture me about coffee today I need it” you speak over your shoulder before turning back to pour.
“Baby m’not gonna lecture you.” He chuckles ��you know I only do that as a joke about you sendin’ the baby crazy, you know I don’t mean it. S’goin on? I can tell somethin’s up.”
“Like I say I’m just really tired but no matter what I can’t sleep. And my backs absolutely killing” you utter back still to him as you add sugar. With your coffee made you turn to face him leaning on your elbows against the kitchen island.
He can see just how tired you are so doesn’t want to push anymore. Changing the subject seems the right port of call. “Shall I pick up some takeout for dinner on my way back?”
You could really go for eating your body weight in spring rolls right about now…
After taking a sip of your coffee which perks you up instantly you reply “yeah sounds like a plan. Chinese?”
“Whatever y’want baby.”
“I’ll let you know if baby changes her mind but right now it’s Chinese for the win.” You laugh taking another sip of your flawless coffee. Joel always makes it so perfect and it’s one of the very first things you bonded over when you met. Strong black coffee. You know after a few more sips you’ll have had enough and you know that your midwife advised against it, but being as exhausted as you are you rely on that morning coffee boost.
“Which job are you working on again today I keep forgetting?” You chuckle cursing your baby brain for making you forget literally every single thing of importance. The only things you remember now are which shops supply your favourite snacks, most of which you feel bad for eating but then say fuck it and eat them anyways because the baby wants them, and calories most definitely don’t count when you’re pregnant.
He takes a big swig of coffee, and you watch the way his throat moves as he swallows it. Fuck… it should be illegal how sexy he is. As he toys with the mug he replies “workin’ at the Stevenson’s again. We’re behind schedule ain’t we and I don’t think the weathers gonna hold out on us again today so that’s probably gonna fuck it all up.” Great which most likely means he’s gonna be late back tonight. You huff as he continues. “N’Tommy hurt his back yesterday so that’s gonna slow us down, plus I still haven’t heard back from the suppliers and without them I can’t fin- baby?” He stands and instantly runs over to your side.
Whilst he’d started droning on about his day which you are genuinely interested in no matter how boring a pain had begun washing over your body and from that point on you weren’t able to hear what he was saying. You just leant against the island as you held the underside of your bump groaning softly. The second he noticed he jumped into action.
“Baby what’s wrong?” He rubs at your back waiting on a response.
You take a deep breath as you stand up straight “I don’t know, that wasn’t nice.”
He keeps rubbing at your lower back as he stares at you. He knew something was wrong he could sense it the moment you entered the room.
“Do I need t’have the day off? You know I will baby just say the word.”
“No I’m sure I’ll be okay, just a bit crampy today. Maybe it’s them Braxton hicks the midwife was telling us about?”
Joel’s eyes keep flicking between your bump and your face, nerves evident. You chuckle softly as you stare at him “look I promise I’ll call you if I need you, but you’ve got a busy day you said it yourself you’re behind.”
“Yeah, but you’re more important than work you know that clients will understand if-”
You smile up at him jumping in placing a hand to his chest. “Joel, I promise I’ll be okay.”
He nods definitely reluctant to leave placing his hand over yours and stroking it “Fine, but I want you restin’ up today, okay?”
“Promise.”
“Good girl.” He kisses your forehead as he moves his hand to stroke over your bump.
—-
It’s a few hours later whilst he’s at work that his phone begins vibrating in his pocket. With the noise going on it’s impossible to hear anything so with the worrying morning you had he made sure vibrate was switched on. When he takes it out and sees your name lighting up on the screen, it’s like he knows instantly that something’s wrong. You’d never just call unless you know it’s his lunch break so it’s serious. And he’s sure he knows what’s going on before he’s even hit accept.
He quickly removes himself from the house to a quiet place and rips off his gloves.
“Baby you, okay?”
“She’s coming, this is for real.”
“Shit baby really?”
“Yeah, they’re getting worse. I thought I’d be able to get through it till you got back. I thought it was just Braxton hicks, but I just had a really bad one a few minutes ago, it’s happening I’m sure of it.” You pant heavily down the receiver.
“Okay baby, it’s okay you’re okay, you’re okay.” He repeats and isn’t in hundred percent on if the words are actually for you or for himself. And he’s pretty sure if you tell him your waters have gone that he’s going to have an aneurysm. “Have your waters broke?”
“No” you pant “not yet.”
He can’t help the slight sigh of relief that leaves him. “Okay baby m’comin’ just gonna tell Tommy n’I’ll be on my way, okay?”
“Oh god I’m having another one!” You begin moaning down the phone, it’s agonising and it’s even harder having to do it alone.
“Just breathe. Just breathe that’s it, I’m on my way baby I won’t be long.” He reassures as he runs through the house to find where Tommy is.
“It really hurts Joel!”
“I know baby I know, m’comin’ I promise, sorry m’not there but m’comin’.”
Having found Tommy outside on a what he’s calling a ‘cigarette recharge break’ he runs over to him.
“You best not be comin’ here t’scold me again I told you they help with stress.”
“Tommy I couldn’t give a flyin’ fuck about you smokin’ right now. I gotta go babies comin’” he utters quickly moving the phone to press against his shoulder as he speaks to him.
“Really?” His shocked expression making Joel chuckle as he freezes cigarette millimetres from his mouth.
“Yeah, m’serious I gotta go.”
“Shit.” He takes a quick puff before throwing it to the floor putting it out with his boot. Puffing out the smoke. “I’ll drive you. I’ll tell Bob t’hold the fort, I’ll leave and come back.”
“Sure?”
“Definitely.”
He nods moving the phone back to his ear. “Baby y’still there?”
“Yeah m’here, shit they’re getting close Joel. I can’t talk through them anymore that’s when the midwife said it’s getting serious!”
“S’okay, Tommy’s gonna drop me to yah okay, is the bag still ready?” He’s out of breath as he questions running to Tommy’s truck.
“Yeah, it’s by the door and the- ugh- the car seat. I’m so glad we planned ahead.” You’re breathing heavily still recovering from the pain.
“Okay, good that’s good.” You can hear the truck door slamming in the background “we’re in the truck we’re comin’, okay? Did y’call the midwife?”
“Yeah, I called earlier. When I called, she said they were still too far apart to go yet either wait till they’re closer together and lasting longer or if my waters break and they’re getting closer so I don’t think it’s gonna be long till we can go.”
“Okay, okay baby m’comin, I’ll be there soon baby I love you. You get yourself ready and call me again if y’need me.”
—-
When Joel makes it home, you’re trying to put your shoes on but are instead struggling through a pain. He rushes to you rubbing at your back as you pant through it. “You’re okay baby I’m here I’m here.”
“We need to go! They’re so close now they’re basically on top of one another, I called triage again the midwife said to go now.”
“Okay baby. Tommy offered t’take us save me drivin.’ You get ya shoes on I’ll get all this in the truck.”
You nod watching as his flustered figure leaves with the bag and car seat. When you’re able to move again you slip on your slippers and he’s back to help you walk towards the truck.
You’re leaning on him as you walk and when he gets to the truck, he releases you to open the door. That’s when you feel something major change below and you gasp as you hold onto the underside of your bump.
“What? What is it?” He looks back at you.
You look down at the floor the puddle now growing surrounding your feet. “My waters Joel!”
“Okay it’s okay it’s fine means it’s definitely happenin’, but we are gonna go now, okay?”
“Oh fuck Joel!” Your body keels over as another pain rips through you. “Fuck holy fuck…” Joel’s quick to be rubbing at your back, hoping to help if only a tiny bit.
He’s so beautiful when it comes to helping you through the pain, he’s exactly what you need. “You’ve got this baby.” He whispers as he holds you close whilst still pushing on your back. It’s agonising, but slightly more bearable now he’s at your side.
Once you straighten, he looks into your eyes with a smile brushing shine hair out of your face. “Okay?”
You nod, and with the all clear he helps you climb into the truck. You can’t help the way you groan uncomfortably at the movement.
“Hey sugar.” Tommy looks back to you.
“Hi” you groan as Joel shuts the door when you’re in. “I’m sorry you had to come out of work.”
“I’m glad of the break don’t worry yourself sugar, you’re more important than work. This niece o’mine is so much more important.”
Joel climbs in the other side groaning as he pulls the door to.
“I’m not strapping myself in I’m too uncomfortable” you groan as you move to sit leaning against the door, kick off your sodden slippers and put your legs over Joel’s lap. He rubs your shins gently with his hand as he studies you. “That’s fine baby.”
The journey is agony every pothole and bump in the road moving you in ways they shouldn’t. Causing extra spasms in your back.
After ten minutes of driving your pains still getting worse with hardly any space between them anymore you can’t help but work yourself up. “Fuck it wasn’t supposed to be like this.” You groan as you squeeze onto the hand Joel’s given you.
“Baby, you know that this baby don’t ever do anythin’ by the book how long did it take f’us to find out she was a girl cus of the way she was dancin’! And how many times has she scared the shit outa us by goin’ quiet. She likes to do her own thing that’s all.”
You just huff struggling as another pain begins to take over. “But I need everything to be okay, what if it’s not okay!”
“Hey, no no do not start doin’ that, calm down and just breathe take it easy, she’s comin’ in her own time and she’s gonna be just fine.”
It’s when you’ve been going another fifteen minutes or so and the hospitals another ten minutes away that you suddenly feel like you need to push. When you think on how fast that seems to be you don’t believe it, but the pressure tells you it’s time.
You reach the hand that isn’t squeezing Joel’s into your leggings and that’s when you realise what’s going on “oh god.”
“What baby?” He turns to look at you worried as your eyes bug. He notices where you’ve put your hand, and it sends his heart racing.
“I can feel her head. I need to push!”
His body jolts. “Shit really? We ain’t too far from the hospital now.”
You nod eyes wide. “Joel she’s coming!” You scream as another agonising pain takes over.
He unbuckles his seatbelt as he turns to face you fully. “Hey shhhh, It’s okay baby don’t panic we’re here to help. If y’need t’push an’ get her out just do it okay? Tommy’s gonna keep drivin’ we ain’t too far away now, but if y’gotta get her out just push darlin’.”
“But I don’t want you to look at me down there like this you’ll think I’m gross. You’ll hate me!” You groan tears welling everything feeling way too much right now.
Fuck… You’re about to have your baby in Tommy’s fucking truck…
He chuckles softly “I’d never think that ever when it comes to you darlin’, you’re brinin’ my baby into this world I could never think that’s gross.”
You’re not a hundred percent on if you trust him, but you don’t have time to dwell on it as that wave begins taking over again. Rendering you unable to focus on anything but that feeling, it consumes you as it rips through you. Like absolute fucking torture. “Oh god there’s another one coming I need to push!”
“S’okay baby just do it, lemme get your leggin’s off you just push if you feel like y’need to okay?”
You nod before taking a deep breath and begin pushing before your leggings are even down. Making the most of pushing with the pain whilst it’s there. Joel quickly takes off your leggings and panties. He then spreads your legs so he can watch what goes on.
Whilst the thought of it has you more embarrassed than you’ve ever been. You don’t even bat an eyelid on him looking down there now. You’re in too much pain to care, are too determined to bring your child into this world to focus entirely on the fact that your husband is watching you basically split into two.
You push for what seems like eternity trying your best to put as much energy into it as possible before taking a deep breath.
“I can see her head” he looks from between your legs to your red sweaty face. “She’s really comin’ baby; you were right she’s right there!” He explains in praise as you pant. You don’t miss the way his eyes go misty; he’s really trying to hold himself back from getting emotional.
“I don’t wana wreck Tommy’s truck!” You utter through pants, your chest heaving like never before as you cry softly.
Joel’s lips part and he places his hands to your knees as he’s obviously about to scold you for even thinking that, but Tommy beats him to it.
“No problem sugar I wana meet this niece o’mine I don’t care. My truck should not be a concern o’yours right now honey.” He utters through a chuckle eyes still focused on the road.
Joel nods, “let’s just get her out okay, no one’s gonna be mad if y’ruin the seats in his truck, they can be cleaned, heck replaced if necessary. Just go with what your body is tellin’ yah and push if y’need to.”
You nod. Okay it’s time to do this.
You continue pushing with the next few pains that hit you which at this point with them practically on top of one another it’s a case of push, breath, pant repeat.
“Okay her heads gonna be out on this next one baby, I got a feelin’, keep goin’!” He exclaims and that’s all you need to hear to push again screaming the truck down as you do, you grab your thighs pulling them towards you as you put all your energy into pushing down, and with that her head pops out. You gasp releasing your thighs throwing your head back as you swallow and pant.
“God baby she’s so beautiful, almost there now come on let’s get her out.” He chokes.
“Wait, I just, I wana…” you struggle to get the words out so instead just move your hand so you can feel her. You chuckle wetly as your hand makes contact with her head. You look down between your legs mesmerised by what you’re seeing. You can’t see her face, but her tiny head is covered in brown hair identical to that of her fathers. “Oh my god she’s got you hair.” You cry looking to Joel who is very clearly still fighting back tears of his own.
“Yeah, she does baby. Now come on push and get her out, okay?”
You nod psyching yourself up ready to push with the next pain. It isn’t long till you’re pushing with all you might, grasping your thighs to help you push, having full understanding getting the shoulders out is even harder. You feel her slowly making an appearance and after a final push she’s here!
You cry out as she leaves your body crying instantly and when Joel picks her up to hand her over to you, you sit up slightly and take her against your chest. Crying uncontrollably in cries that match your newborn tiny daughters.
“She’s here, she’s finally here!” You weep as Joel moves closer to you brushing a hand over her tiny head.
“You did it baby m’so proud of you.” He chuckles through cries as he leans over to kiss your forehead. The second she was here he couldn’t keep the tears in any longer. So here the three of you are in Tommy’s truck crying your eyes out.
“Oh my god I did it!”
The shock is so real. It’s all official now…
Parents for life.
“Shit did I ruin the truck?” You quiz trying to look down at the seats.
“Fuck the truck sugar you just had my niece I couldn’t care less.” You can hear the wetness in Tommy’s voice as both you and Joel look in his direction. You meet his eyes in the centre mirror, and you can see they’re red.
“Tommy miller, are you crying?” You chuckle wetly.
“You know I am sugar. How could I not be she’s here!”
“She’s here!” You exclaim again looking down at her kissing the top of her head as you wrap your jacket around her to keep her warm till you make it to the hospital.
“She’s so beautiful baby m’so proud of you.” Joel sobs with a smile.
“Look how tiny she is” you chuckle moving one of your fingers to brush over her forehead to her nose and then over one of her tiny ears. “She’s absolutely beautiful.”
When she stops wailing and is content wrapped in your jacket you pull her away from your body holding her cradled in your arms so you can study her.
“Babe, she looks just like you.” You chuckle as he moves nearer to admire the other most important woman in his life.
It hurts how much you love her already.
When she scrunches her face obviously not happy and wanting food you can’t help laughing. The way her eyebrows furrow, her face goes red, it’s miniature Joel. “Look it’s angry Joel! She’s your twin!”
He sniggers wetly watching the way she wails softly and hating seeing her that way he brings a hand to brush over her head as you bring her back to your chest. The way he shushes her is beautiful to listen to, how attentive he is with her already is something to be admired. As you both try to soothe her Tommy pulls into the hospital.
Thank god you finally made it.
#the last of us#no outbreak!joel miller#joel miller#tommy miller#pregnancy#fluff#family#so much family fluff#domestic fluff#pregnancy fic#pregnant#tw childbirth#childbirth
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you stole my heart (but i don't want it back again)
Pairing: Alastor/Charlie
Rating: G
Tags: Fluff, Established Relationship, Marriage Proposals, Demiromantic Asexual Alastor
A/N: Had the idea of "What if Alastor invokes his deal with Charlie when he's ready to propose?" and it was just too cute not to run off with! I feel like he'd be super nervous about the whole thing, so it's kind of "If you have to go on this date, so do I" kinda deal so he can't back out at the last minute. Anyways, time for some stupid cute Radiobelle! Title is from Evergreen by Dirt Poor Robins (which, ironically enough, is the song I want to be the first dance at my own wedding)!
Perfect. Everything has to be perfect. Alastor’s been planning this out for a while now, and he'll just about double-die if anything goes wrong. And he's pretty sure double-Hell wouldn't have Charlie, so he's not too keen on that idea. He’s spent the last few days going over his plan in detail, running things over a hundred times with Rosie because Charlie has to say yes, and generally killing himself with worry over the whole ordeal. Rosie keeps assuring him everything’s going to be fine, but fine isn’t good enough.
Today is supposed to be the day. It’ll take him all day to get everything ready while also dealing with the hotel, but he’s planned everything in such detail, he knows he can get it all done. He’ll be handling all the cooking, Niffty already said she’d handle setup for everything else if he wanted. Really, he’s surprised she hasn’t spilled the beans to Charlie yet with how excited she is alone. He wishes he could feel excited, but all he feels is nervous.
The hardest part will be actually going through with it. He’s been thinking of proposing for a while, but always managed to talk himself out of it. He’s never seen himself as the marrying type before, and it’s only since getting into this relationship with Charlie that he’s realized it’s because he doesn’t really think he’s marriage material. There’s plenty of men and women out there better than him, and even now, he’s certain she’ll realize that one day and it’ll all be over.
He idly considers calling the whole plan off again. And then, Charlie comes over to talk to him, bright-eyed and ready to start the day, immediately standing on tiptoe to give him a kiss. She has a habit of doing things that just wipe his entire brain clean, and this is definitely one of those things.
“Good morning, darling,” he says, pulling her against him in a warm embrace.
“Morning,” she replies, looping her arms around his neck. “You looked like you needed a bit of a mental reset. Everything all right?”
This is it. He’s supposed to ask her to come out with him tonight. That’s all he has to do right now, not even the hardest part. So why does he suddenly feel like his heart’s beating a mile a minute? They’ve had hundreds of date nights at this point. She won’t suspect a thing. There’s nothing to be so anxious about. Yet.
“Actually, I did have a small favor to ask…”
“Oh, anything you need! What is it?”
He still can’t bring himself to do it. One step closer to proposing is also one step closer to her potentially saying no. He’s going to back out, like he always does. There’s no way he can go through with this. Unless…
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#hazbin hotel#radiobelle#charlastor#hazbin alastor#hazbin charlie#charlie morningstar#alastor x charlie#charlie x alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#hellaverse#x#my writing
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Am I the only one who is disappointed with Caitvi in season two? When I watched the first season I had the biggest caitvi brain rot because they actually gave me SUCH a fun dynamic with them. Buddy cop Caitvi was hilarious, I loved that so so much!
And season 2 started of strong imo but then it rushed through everything. I loved the scene in the cell, obviously, but it was misplaced. Your sister is about to kill herself girl what are you doing this is not the time!! And other than romantic and sexual tension there wasn't all that much left of their previous dynamic aside from the brief scene in episode six...
Idk, I think I'm just annoyed. Usually when I see a non canon gay ship get more traction than the Canon lesbian couple, I just assume it's misogyny or lesbophobia, and move on with my life. But I can't even do that here because Caitvi was WAY more popular in season 1 (as they should).
Jayvik isn't getting somewhat more popular in season 2 because people don't like lesbians, but because their arcs are connected so strongly to each other. (Also I'm not saying that Jayvik is now more popular than Caitvi, but it's like a graph where the super high stocks caitvi are still even while Jayvik is skyrocketing rn)
Wanna know why Jayvik wasn't all that popular in season 1? Because (after act 1) their arcs were mostly separate, safe for a couple of moments. Viktor worked on his body and Jayce was doing politics.
Caitlyn and Vis arcs intertwined more, they actually did shit together and it was beautiful, funny, romantic, EVERYTHING!
Also a fun opposites attract buddy cop dynamic is also just more fun than men who do science together (in my personal opinion)
Now let's look at Caitlyn and Vis relationship in season two.
It starts of strong. I momentarily thought that Caitlyn was uncharacteristically mean to Vi when she refused to become an enforcer, but she apologized for it later and I recognized the fact that Caitlyn was grieving. Then once we get to episode two and three I could already feel their relationship being a bit more odd. The kiss (though I cheered) didn't feel right. I felt like something was missing, and that was their chemistry from season one. Also I feel like we glossed over too many decisions that Caitlyn made, and I think Vi should've put a stop to it sooner. But overall I was okay with them in act 1.
Then we had a timeskip and the two were fully separated. Act 2 literally started with Caitlyn in bed with another woman, like we can see they're not together anymore. Caitlyn has obviously changed, there is not much of the sweet cupcake left that we had come to love in season 1, and Vi is boxing and getting drunk.
Then they meet and like... Vi calls Cait cupcake, and Cait switches sides IMMEDIATELY? GIRL WTF?!
I get that Caitlyn wasn't entirely on Ambessas side the entire time, but I had hoped for more drama first. So you're telling me the very next interaction the two have after their heart wrenching falling out is them making up again? Come on.
Then we had act 3 and overall it was better I think but the timing of their hot scene in the cell was just odd, like what about your sister about to kill herself? I was very happy and hyped in the moment but then I realized how rushed this was. Why? Why make em fuck right here? And in the final act, the two weren't together because again, their arcs were not as connected. And that's actually pretty cool to have a couple who do their own things! But it doesn't help their relationship when they, in turn, aren't given enough time to develop as a pair!
I feel like season 1 did this incredible job of setting these characters up, showing us why they work so well together and why they would fall for one another. And season 2 gave us pay off for it but with very little set up, which was needed because of how Cait changed throughout the season. I don't mention Vi here because she did not change. She had her drunk boxing phase, which we got nothing but a montage off, but everything else is basically season 1 Vi aside from very few things here and there. Like her becoming an enforcer wasn't a character change for Vi, her finally letting go of powder and calling her sister Jinx, wasn't a big character moment for Vi, they were pay off for a set up we didn't get enough of.
SO TO GET TO MY POINT:
S2 was rushed. We should've AT LEAST gotten 3 seasons, like minimum, because there was a whole lot of plot and very little moments in between for characterization. Especially for Caitlyn and Vi and their relationship to each other.
I still generally prefer Caitvi to Jayvik, but only because of season 1. Season 2 gave me the two things I wanted most (a sexy scene and a kiss) but forgot to give me the things that made me fall in love with this ship in the first place.
Which was the hilarious buddy cop dynamic of rich girl cop Cait, and broke butch prisoner Vi.
#arcane#arcane s2#caitvi#jayvik#caitlyn kiramman#arcane vi#It's not that I dislike Caitvi now. I just think they could've given us more#Season 2 was very entertaining and artistically beautiful#But it wasn't the masterpiece that season 1 was#arcane critical#arcane criticism
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am I the most disgusting and unappealing woman on earth or is my period just coming this week
#I think I’ve gained some weight#granted I think it’s happy weight but#now every time I eat a meal I’m like#I deserve to die#I ate lunch at noon and I just now had an apple and some shit for dinner#and immediately my brain was like kill her.#tw eating disorder#tw food#tw body image#idk I’ve been okay enough to avoid a scale for a long time#so I don’t actually know if I have or not but I think I have
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she turns, makes direct eye contact with you, smiles,
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#kristen applebees#kipperlilly copperkettle#buddy dawn#cw: blood#cw: gore#cw: violence#hello this is the first post on this blog. welcome. I need to offload my art somewhere outside of my usual sphere#anyways yeah. yeah#I just think making direct eye contact with the person your murder victim is supposed to mirror before murdering them is kinda vibe#thinking abt kipperlily and kristen and how kipperlily was meant to be riz's foil but#genuinely kristen works so much better as foil for her instead. like how would beardsley ever not have swooped in to steal this off of#murph's plate. order vs chaos. embracing the rules vs rejecting them for having always fallen through the crack by your nature#so my busted ass brain saw this moment of kipperlily KILLING kristen's foil and I went insane like she took him out of the equation#HE is no longer kristen's foil. KIPPERLILY is now. deranged I need to draw this Immediately#kristen seeing kipperlily with true sight... smiling at her..... the interference that now narratively connects them do you see#can anyone hear me. hello
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Get in loser, we're going shopping
#ai's random art#caprikon#hirogaru sky oc#precure oc#pretty cure oc#Spin said she should get a car like Grave and now it lives rent free in my brain#can't believe she's the one that knows how to drive in the gay friend group#family trip except it's the (now ex-) toxic workplace environment gang#she tries to flirt with a cute passerby and then the other clowns exit the car too and immediately kill her vibe#between this and the Battamonda I made for Spin's b-day I'm gonna start a collection djjdjdj#giving her a different jacket than her usual bc it's post-finale and she's living her best life
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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist#I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed#it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead#it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me#not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together#I’ll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up#nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient
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dust should have one of those mini zen gardens with all the sand and the little rake you use to make patterns but instead of sand its monster dust. specifically dust of people he doesnt like. how calming and tranquil this is as he puts a mini bridge and rocks and tiny tree into the garden filled with what's basically the human equivalent of blood!
#sand pit would also be funny. anything sand related can immediately be twisted#i WAS gonna say killer for this hc instead of dust but like....... idk#i just wanted dust to be a bit silly anyways. its his namesake he should get to play with it#it could also be a guilt thing. or self reflection. dust's time to mourn and judge himself. zen gardens ARE for inner reflection after all.#its like making a baby sensory experience with red paint except the paint is actually blood#horror is in disbelief and disgust once he figures out that shit is monster dust#how quaint! how sweet! how morbid#this is dust's version of an urn#urn sales in the utmv must be proportionally higher than here in our world#my favorite genre of utmv world building is figuring out what dust related products would be more highly valued#urns. dusters. vaccums. lint rollers (could that pick up dust?). what else#papyrus is like that pointing monkey with the rocks for the garden#yes yes brother place that rock right there.... and then the tree goes to the left. and now use the rake#its so silly so funny! the dust could be the dust of a previous killer and horror dust killed#he mustve REALLY not liked them. but also liked them enough to keep their dust. or maybe this is his way of taunting them after death? idk#mtt in a constant cycle of killing eachother/themselves/dying some other way and then replacing the dead with another version#anyways if all the mtt die i think someone (me) should mix their dust together#theyll never be apart now :333 forever trapped together and unable to distinguish what is themself and what is the other 2 :33 so kyute :3#today im gonna get my friend to watch underverse praying that she gets into utmv#i already showed her ink and she likes ink. i need her to like the rest of them. specifically a certain murderous trio#is this a rant of hc???? UGH!!!! i really need to figure out my own head. hc because its short#tricule hc#dust sans#should i tag the rest of the trio. i mention horrorkiller in tags.......... sure! it wouldn't hurt#i say as the bullet shoots through my skull and scrambles my brain#killer sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au
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man-standing l never know what to do w the alfira scene
#I know how it works in my head but like. in actual game#I don’t know if they admit to killing her or not#or if it just. spills out that they were the one who did it#a soft admittance that comes immediately after being asked#the eagerness to claim the death for their own or the admitting the guilt to be absolved#I also like the companions talking about it afterwards#but also it’s in dirge’s nature to lie and not take the responsibility#but I think the whole of. the shock it just happening#idk I gotta think about it more#it’s so funny bc I got this scene first out of all the act 1 long rest scenes#so it’s like. these people have known dirge for a short time and they murder someone#not. like they are aware of the murder. but murder nevertheless#oc: dirge#rotates them in my brain
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chapter 149 of Beastars illustrates my thoughts on that arc pretty well because when you first read it your soul sinks to your asshole, and it genuinely feels heartbreaking and it's such a good exploration of Legosi's feelings towards himself, and how he would act if he were to actually predate Haru....
And then it switches to LOOOL!!! IT WAS TOMATER SAUCE!!! ISNT THAT JUST SOOO SILLY!!!. It's like the manga is allergic to being serious, it makes me so mad. Those last few arcs are basically "beautiful scene that shows you some of the most heartbreaking moments in the manga" and then followed by "stupid out of place humor/resolution that makes the characters seem INSANELY idiotic".
#fugo.txt#beastars#In my brain it was Legosi having a nightmare and then Haru woke him up :) nothing else.#Like it wouldn't have been hard to pull something like that. If it was just Legosi having a bad dream it would be such a good exploration -#- of his psyche if the one time he sleeps next to Haru he stresses so much he dreams that he killed her... aghh#like why the fuck wouldn't he immediately sniff out the tomato. HOW would you confuse the COLOR with BLOOD.#but no yeah sure. let's make these characters permanently stupid. sure. let's put cigarettes out on my dick.#<- jerma reference no one's gonna get#dont get me STARTED ON JUNO.#smarter people have said it before but they took her entire personality away in favor of oooh shes in love with Louis!!! go die girl#aghhghhhgh
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The need is so bad that I can’t go one moment of mind wandering without thinking of that One Lesbian Weed Scene from The Last of Us pt II. Iykyk…. (suffering)
#that moment…….. the…. intimacy and knowingness and teasing and love and touch and comfortability and confrontation#and it was one of the ONLY times they got to truly be free for a moment…..#(also dina crawled on top of her like ‘heh. i could give you bite marks 😼’ AND???? NSBSKXHS ???)#(the way ellie had something serious to say but just rebooted immediately aaagh she was all ‘uh- 😳.. errrh 😟 heheh uhh- WELL’)#AND MEANWHILE….. JOEL……….#their one moment of true peace and privacy for a moment. and that’s a moment ellie will be guilty for for the rest of her life….#because she missed the opportunity to prevent Joel’s DEATH!!!!#SOOOOOOOOBS#IMAGINE THE PRESSURE THAT SHE PUT ON HERSELF WHEN SHE WENT TO GO SAVE HIS BROTHER!!!! LIKE!! SHE CANT LET THEM DOWN AGAIN!!!!!!!!!#THE WAY HE WOULD BE KILLED BY THE SAME PEOPLE AND HE’S JOEL’S BROTHER TOO!! LIKE. NOT ONLY THE REMINISCENCE OF JOEL#BUT SHE KNOWS THAT EVERYONE AND JOEL WOULD BE SO DISAPPOINTED IF SHE FAILS!!!!#in her mind I imagine anyway.#god. god#elliedina#the last of us#tlou pt 2#tlou part ii#tlou 2 spoilers#Ellie#Dina#gummii.txt#not many people will get this one BUT I HAD TO PUT IT OUT THEREEE it’s taken over my brain
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going back to my apartment tmrw. everything just feels kind of incorrect rn i cant describe it
#bella.txt#like ok my parents moved to be 3 hrs away from where they used to live#but my friends + my grandma r still where my parents used to live#so i have to choose btwn being w/ parents and my dogs or being w/ friends and grandma#and it's not like. a SHORT drive at all. 3 hrs on a good day w/ minimal traffic#+ it takes 7hrs to get from my parents to my apartment but only 4ish from my grandmas to my apartment#so i wanted to be.. over here.. before heading back to school#but idk things worked out so weirdly i only saw my one friend once and i missed her bday and i didnt see my other friend at all and i left#y parents and dogs earlier than i wanted and for no reason bc i didnt even go see anyone i just went to my grandma's immediately like#idk this probably sounds like it's not a big deal but i feel so weird i feel like i didnt plan right how to split my time#and now i'm leaving and idk when i'll be back#and i dont have to go tomorrow but i also. do? kind of? i dont know#kill my entire brain why cant i just think normally abt these things
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NEED to reread worm
#not art#i recall first reading it when i was like 14 and immediately latching onto taylor bc i too was a glasses wearing depressed lonely teenager#i also recall my jaw just dropping at certain scenes#its been too long i forgot too much stuff and too much of my canon knowledge has been mixed with fanon#also i want to draw silly self indulgent crossover comics#.. jesus christ i got into worm when i was FOURTEEN#FOUR YEARS? ITS BEEN FOUR YEARS????#four years since my brain chemistry was permanently altered#i just realized that in my childhood/teenhood i had this trend of latching onto various depressed teen girl protagonists...#valkyrie cain taylor hebert that girl from demon road#how could i forget valkyrie cain i fixated on her for yearssssss until i read worm#omg wait both valkyrie and taylor (spoilers) game ended a baby WHAT#demon road girl didnt kill a baby but she DID commit multiple (?) acts of cannibalism#sorry for the ramble literally nobody is going to read this im just thinking about my book tastes
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[ID: 8 gifs from Louis and Armand's fight in IWTV 2.05. Armand says angrily, "And you threw her name around just for cover, but it always circled back to him." Louis, distraught, says, "I loved her..." Armand shouts, "But she didn't love you! Not like he did, not like I have." Louis, starting to cry, says, "I know." then shouts, "I know! Yes! I know." He turns away and says, "Thank you for saying it. It's all creeping back." /end ID]
INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE 2x05 | Don't Be Afraid, Just Start The Tape Can you hear her? She's calling me.
#he made her dependent on him by turning her as a child and as a Black girl specifically. she tries to be independent once and immediately.#and he made himself dependent on HER for his will to live and his ability to see himself as a good person#and despite ALL of that it was never about her he never prioritized her. my daughter was my sister was my throw pillow!#like. he is suicidal his brain frozen at that moment and thus she being his will to live represents something he doesn't rlly want#ofc she didn't love you ofc that reminder almost kills you. i'm gonna frow up claudia i miss you i hope you get some moments of joy next ep#my understanding is that in the book they kill her by forcing her to stand in the sun#she's calling me. and he runs outside.#iwtv#iwtv spoilers
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Justice for Maddie 2024 they made my girl evil for no reason other than to make CaitVi sleeping together be retroactively excusable
#arcane spoilers#arcane s2#there was no foreshadowing I’ve been racking my brain#and it’s not discussed or explained#look they just didn’t want to deal with the fact that it was a jerk move on Caitlin’s part to treat her like that#so hey let’s make her evil then immediately kill her#but yes the finale was stunning and I feel the beauty of the earth burned into my eyeballs
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