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i have no one to talk to irl about this race right now (everyone in the house has gone to sleep it’s 3am here) so im sorry in advance for dumping this on here but this is a warning for the tag vent(that i will definitely be deleting soon) because i love u all and care about your dash experience so if you don’t want to witness a disjointed minor breakdown look away lmao
#i’m pretty keyed up and#i’m pretty devastated#my only two good things from this race: max and lando absolutely bossing this race#and im v happy about them#but im so upset about carlos#personal opinion incoming#but carlos’ race was as sexy as his quali and the fia and the stewards and whoever the fuck else can eat a brick#my brown eyed boy deserves the world after that race he put his whole pussy into this weekend#like he was having such a good race despite ferrari doing their best to fuck it up there for a second#and the handling of this race by the governing body was such a clusterfuck#im so frustrated that he has come away with nothing#max lando carlos and seb are the drivers that are close to my heart and with seb gone i am holding on hard the the others and i am just#upset about carlos lmao idk what else to say#i just need to vent it#i try and usually succeed in never letting what people say about my boys (especially max lando and carlos) get to me#they are drivers people just love to hate#but i was just so happy with how this race was going for my three faves on the grid#especially carlos cause i have to constantly filter and block the shit that gets thrown at him by the fans of his own team and teammate#and i love charles too he’s the only other driver on the grid right now that comes close to my ride or dies#but i hate the way a chunk of his fans treated seb like seb was a shit teammate and shit driver and they do the same to carlos#and i just don’t see how carlos is any more of a shittier teammate than charles could be considered to be#and i know hypocrisy is kinda the name of the game as a sports fan lmao i am as guilty of it as anyone else at times#u kno the whole it’s okay of my fave does it but not yours#and i do support my boys rights and wrongs and i understand it’s the same for others#i try to approach things with nuance and not hold resentment but sometimes i fail lol#and this is probably getting disorganized and#i guess i am just upset and i want to feel better#the sleep deprivation probably doesn’t help lmao#anyways i am so sorry about this if u r actually reading it and got here so#<3 KISSES and i hope your day/night is going good
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Million Ways
Short animatic of Heinz and Perry dancing one of the many songs they dance at their wedding on the fic "Forever and a Day" by @inators
It was such a experience to be working on this while Inators was working on the Forever and a Day fic. I'm so happy that we got to collaborate on this perryshmirtz wedding project ❤️. It took me a while, but I am so happy and excited to finally being able to share this with everyone. I worked very very hard on it 🤓. Enjoy!
Special thanks to @inators for supporting me during the making process 💕
Credits:
Song -> Million ways - HRVY Choreography -> Million ways oficial video
#perryshmirtz#human perry#heinz doofenshmirtz#reblog if you like it :v#perry the platypus#phineas and ferb#fanart#perryshmirtz wedding#perryshmirtz wedding fanfic#perryshmirtz fanfiction art#Forever and a Day#prtz animatic#perryshmirtz duo collaboration#perryshmirtz wedding animatic#human!perry#animatic#fan animatic#fan animation#pnf#2d animation#story time:#I remember suggesting inators to add this song the perryshmirtz playlist#it ended up being one of the songs we wanted for them to dance at their wedding#i cant believe I finally finish it#im super happy#the only thing I own about this video are the drawing and the video editing xD#disney series#million ways
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🎃-HAPPY HOWDYWEEN-🤠 From the daring, fun-loving Rodeo Clown: Red Velvet 🤡 And their poultry sidekicks: Ginger-SNAPS and Sass-parilla 🐔
#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077#nonbinary v#oc: Devan#*insert hilarious joke about dressing up as themself for halloween*#there were like 2 different iterations of halloween themed vp i tried doing and NONE of them were workin out for me#but visiting World Famous Clown Motel Nevada finally SPARKED something for me#and like it's not suuuuper rodeo clown but honestly its fine im rly happy with the result anyhow!#DEVAN MY FAVORITE COAT (CLOWN OF ALL TIME)
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Oh, I must be seein' blind Oh, no, you're too good to be all mine
#oc: corisande ymir#y'shtola rhul#ffxiv#gpose#corishtola#poses by me styling by azia lol ty for finding them outfits fren <3#they both look so good. i need to use these again#i'm feeling v emotional about them rn and decided they needed a warm happy gpose 🥺#sorry if this posts twice...i scheduled it but tumblr seems to have sent it to the ether#so im scheduling it again
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ive gotta say ive gotten rly rly tired of the genre of post by trans men that goes "someone directed virulent transmisogyny at me today under the belief that i was a trans woman! but lol im a trans man! accidental ally!" like i dont actually think its funny that someone insisted you were a man in a way meant to be demeaning and threatening because they mistook you for a trans woman. im not sure why youre laughing.
#97#transmisogyny#like your reaction being limited to 'i was mistaken for having been amab which is my goal therefore this is good'#yet not extending to 'this is what trans women have to deal with all the time. holy shit.'#hm.#the times im happy about being mistaken as a trans woman is the time people were being v nice to me under that assumption#bc it shows that that was a situation where an actual trans woman wouldve been safe#one example is when my sister introduced me to some of her friends and one of them made it a point to interact w me as a woman#despite me looking Extremely Like A Guy and it made me rather uncomfortable#(bc i thought he mightve clocked me as transmasc and was being transphobic)#until it turned out that my sister HAD mentioned i was trans but the guy misunderstood and thought i was a pre-transition trans girl#and under that light its like. its funny but also im glad he did that even if it was out of a misunderstanding#that showed i was in a situation where a pre-transition trans girl who did not pass in any way wouldve been correctly gendered#okkk the transandro truthers are finding this one too and still managing to take issue w it#gonna just lock it down as well
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Is Renzo X Liya X Ghary real
Oh yeah, totally, look at how real this is
But of course all three of them have to go through like 4 separate angst arcs in the shape of an extremely melodramatic spanish soap opera and THEN they decided "fuck it we poly"
/jk ... @cruisie and @anniekinsart for Renzo and Ghary
#this is a joke#...unless?#i am very ashamed to tag you both#but im doing it anyways#look at how happy the three of them look!#totally real relationship they have going on#as someone i cant remember who on discord said#it will be a V with Liya as the hinge#im still not sure if i understood that#but oh fucking well#my art#gator boys#the bug army#the frog army#btw just in case—#if annie and cruzzie are uncomfy with this#just let me know and i will be stopping immediately#i am NOT about to ruin someone's safe space for a joke
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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .
#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH#jay screams into the void#(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions#suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for#(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions#and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good#but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it#like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That#and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits#but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell#and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that#ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart#but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck#anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch#i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it#i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally#That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks#Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service
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Feli scketches,,,, ft a 30dys challenge I never shared whooopz (very normal voice) I’m normal about thee
#chia draws#one piece#chia’s ocs#red fist emi#one piece oc#op oc#my little meow meow (wanted for many crimes)#one piece original character#I HAVE MORE ONE PIECE OCS IM JUST OBSESSED WITH FELI AT#AT THE MOMENT#shit I need the dopamine so I’m gonna share them (sharing my daughter makes me v happy)#actually a few days ago I dreamt I was in a romcom with Feli and we went on a date and it was somehow very nice so now she’s bisexual ig#diversity win??? amoral living weapon who’s killing u swings both ways!!1!#also I hc she has scales on her thighs bc fish and why not so it has a diff texture#should i make a text post with random facts about her#maybe some other day#also i went insane and wrote a ‘reader insert meets Feli for the first time?!’ and. why#i love women#sorry guys i just love ocs
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[ID copied from alt text: A digital drawing of Vax and Keyleth from Critical Role, both seen from the chest up in side profile, set against a fiery gradient background with a heart surrounding the two. Vax, on the left, is a young, thin, tan complexion Half-Elf man with long black hair and a brand scar on his shoulder. Keyleth, on the right, is a young, thin, pale complexion Half-Elf woman with shoulder length red hair, a matching brand scar on her shoulder, and a crown of antlers. The pair are close to each other, with Keyleth holding Vax's face, the pair smiling as they are close to kissing. End description.]
Me drawing Vaxleth art in 2024? More likely than you think.
#Eli's Art#Fan Art#CR 1#Critical Role#Vaxleth#Vax'ildan#Keyleth#idk i just wanted to draw some cute ship art#and i was thinking about while talking to a friend whos obsessed with Them#so I came up with this!#im v happy with how it came out#esp Kiki I was so in love with the line art I did for her#I got into a nice groove drawing this#maybe I'll draw some more cute CR art 🥰#(i was thinking of doing Imodna next 👀👀)
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ot7 enlistment reality is starting to sink in
#im so sad like#what the fuck do you mean two years without them#we’ll have our jinnie back soon tho 🥹#that scene in twilight where this bitch just looks out the window for five months bc her emo boyfie left#is literally going to be me like#what am i (adhder) to do without my hyperfixation ??#and highkey worry about their mental health a lot#especially joon and jungkook#bc i feel like since hiatus they’ve been v concerning on live yk?#like being really sad#talking about feeling lonely and whatnot#sigh#i just want them to be happy#im going to miss them a lot#IM SO SAD RN
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hi ian i come bearing angst fuel for the yuusha as twsted elsa (maybe an idea for her possible overblot idk she kinda reads to me as someone whod preemptively isolate in the case she feels...blotty)
(also seeing that art of her playing violin totally didnt fuck me up im still nursing my bruised heart 🥴🥴💕💕)
https://youtu.be/NDldNaEZTt8?si=Wm71pgTltuJLjFvk
^^this is from the frozen musical where they gave a song to elsa to explore her emotional turmoil and it just fleshed out her character so much more than the orig movie (ok i havent seen frozen 2 oops) but just this section here:
Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive?
Was I a monster from the start?
How did I end up with this frozen heart?
Bringing destruction to the stage
Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage
anyways lmao i jus think the song is neat i think yuushas neat (i wanna see more of her ahehehe i love seeing infodumps abt ur yuus)
-diodellet
(throwback to this “what if yuu had magic” ask where i had a ✨realization✨ and this more recent yuusha lore drop that i gave zero elaboration on 🙃)
very rough ob yuu design??? idk i came up with it on the spot ;;; and it’s kinda based on disney’s concept art of elsa when she was supposed to be the villain.
evil ice queen vibes :3
also i know the ob monster is supposed to be based on the villain— which is elsa in this case— but lowkey. an ice monster is way cooler.
also also i just realized after i drew this i couldve done a grim/yuu tandem overblot ough 🤧🤧 (next time I'll do that instead if i ever go back to this concept)
(read more below because it got SO long)
AAH anyways hi hi dio!!! when i saw your ask i went —
— with this entire post
AAGH HOW MANY MORE UNINTENTIONAL CONNECTIONS ARE GOING TO BE BETWEEN FROZEN AND YUUSHA
i guess watching the movie everyday when it came out when you’re like 9 does something to your brain chemistry (and still haunts you at least a decade later) ���
but anyways the angst ;;; overblot yuu ;;;;; my brain is rotting and the worms have taken over
also i didn’t even know that there was a frozen broadway musical so im gonna have to check it out later 🏃💨💨💨
(also dont worry frozen 2 is a nice watch for the most part but the way they concluded the characters did not feel 100% satisfying to me 😭 BUT i love some of the songs tho ;;; kristoff’s goofy 80s ballad song is one of them specifically, i need everyone to listen to it)
hfgnnfhfgv anyways thank you so much i’m chugging that angst fuel as i expand more on a possible ob yuusha with another infodump 💪💪💪
⚠️⚠️⚠️ ALSO IM SORRY BUT mentions of taking one’s own life so please proceed with caution ⚠️⚠️⚠️
i had to reread what my initial thoughts about it bc it was months ago??? and after rereading im just like, huh what was i on— (just that feeling when you just cringe at your old posts ;; but idk i think the insanity/cringe sometimes can loop back into being a genius and the cycle just continues)
anyways i’ve been on and off writing yuusha’s bio and overblot yuu was just at the back of my mind chilling but i didn’t really do anything with it.
but now that i have the opportunity,,,, im gonna go on the magicless route this time bc i feel like I've said all what i thought if it was an overblot due to her own magic.
so uh from what i gather overblots are a mix of overuse of magic + intense negative emotion.
since it’s magicless yuu, i guess the one of the general headcanons around the fandom is that they’ve been too exposed to overblots and then intense negative emotions suddenly just triggered their overblot.
uh anyways onto the elsa parts
Is everyone in danger as long as I'm alive? Was I a monster from the start? How did I end up with this frozen heart? Bringing destruction to the stage Caught in a war that I was never meant to wage
THE LYRICS ARE SO GOOD ;;; i really love how some broadway interpretations expand on the source material
and yeah you're right 🤧🤧🤧— yuusha would try to hide and escape, especially as she overblots bc she would try to avoid hurting people (and like elsa, it'd only hurt others more trying to escape bc of probably how she leaves destruction in her wake trying to make others stay away from her 😔)
(this is a small tangent but i remember thinking about an overblot kalim and i imagine him to be similar, like he would not hurt anyone intentionally in his overblot.)
anyways so the way it would go is that i imagine her friends got fatally injured either because a) she feels that she’s too “useless” without magic to help and wasn’t able to do anything OR b) her attempts at helping to try and prove that she can help without magic made everything worse.
and then she just goes into a guilty spiral then boom — overblot.
ALSO in the song, the way elsa briefly contemplated taking her own life but then realizing there’s no guarantee that would solve anything hnghgh (<- another unintentional parallel to my yuusha lore because that’s actually how she ended up in twst except she did NOT have the latter realization)
there’s this “yuu is dead” theory i’m just using and that the black carriage actually just caught yuusha’s soul after she took her own life from all the burden.
also some bonus angst context for that violin post :3
yuusha back in her homeworld is raised and known to be a gifted musician. people can feel the life and soul in her music but when people interact with her, they are usually met with an ice-cold (heh) personality.
the dead family member was the one who taught her music and the only one who was kind to her.
there’s always an expectation from her family to perform well and to keep up appearances as to not be a humiliation since anything she does can reflect on her entire family. (also hi, slight yuusha/jamil parallels maybe???)
the way she presents herself also stemmed from an incident as a child when she went apeshit on another kid bc she was defending a friend.
so from then on she was taught taught to conceal don’t feel those emotions — which just unfortunately extended to any positive ones, not just negative ones like rage.
so when she is brought to twst, there’s no memory of her being forced to hold back her emotions so she’s just unapologetically affectionate and open with everyone bc that’s how she really is.
but every now and then, memories of her breaking down haunt her in her dreams or as subtle reminders in the waking world.
then yuusha just goes on her day like she just wasn't reminded of her past.
(unnecessarily tragic lore my beloved, but anyway—)
another extremely brief tangent and bonus -> the two songs i had on loop while drawing pre-twst yuusha
lindsey stirling my beloved i love her music
the songs are such a vibe
her instrumentals in “lose you now” especially makes me feel some sort of way 😖
#AHH THIS IS /SO/ LONG#THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN IM GIVEN THE CHANCE TO RAMBLE#but thank you for the ask dio!! 🤧🤧#it makes me so happy to hear you like yuusha 😭💕💕#this also took a bit because i needed to like#actually turn all these thoughts into actual coherent words#and for them to actually. make sense together.#idk im proofreading this myself during the gamer hours of midnight hfdjslkf#i sure /hope/ they do make sense for the most part because this is pure massive brain vomit#[—✦ chatting#-✧ my art#-✧ oc rambles#(💜) yuusha#pretwst💜#-✦—]#at this point too i’m sticking to the twst elsa concept#it just felt weird admitting it bc i have a history with this movie and its fandom in general#kids would ask you “whos your favorite disney princess it cant be elsa” bc everyone would pick her so i'd have to pick another </3#she was too famous and therefore too obvious and basic#not to mention “let it go” was EVERYWHERE and it did become annoying at one point 😭#the fandom around frozen back then was v questionable too ngl and i was also in that hole for a bit so it's just /ack/#but rewatching the movie i realize how elsa kinda speaks to me hgjkdsjfaljsd#i could lowkey highkey rant more about her but anyways#imma be an elsa defender and apologist for as long as i am able
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aftermare week final day and bonus(ses…. boni???)
geno - crayonqueen / nm - jokublog / aftermare week - @bluepallilworld
these were made for the final day (i didnt get ideas for the clouds part)
(i have this saved for day 4 but idk) yeah girls .
also hi hello it‘s Pipsi (one letter variation from Pepsi as to not cause suspicion from Night) 🥰🥰🥰🥰
#my artsies#sorry that im This late school knocked me out but its summer vacation now Yippeeeeee#HAHAHA PIPSI I LOVE PIPSI 😂😂😂😂#aftermare#aftermare week#aftermare week 2024#belated…. but yeahs#aftermare ship kid#pipsi#pipsi ship kid#no official ref (yet) im dead#geno sans#nightmare sans#nightmare x geno#geno x nightmare#I do feel a bit bad even if I know I was v tired…. i hope u bluey feel better now as well cos you deserve to feel happy and joyful!!!!!!!!!#i love aftermare……. ill think about them again
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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afterthoughts
#pokemon rejuvenation#oc bracket#mona#mona's first run#art#this has been sitting in my files since may and ive slowly chipped at it till now. my god.#im like. half happy with it. i enjoyed making it and put a lot of thought. however.#the passage of time. i loathed not finishing this sooner.#god its hard writing mona's dialogue. the main takeaway relies on how they face the After when paragon is complete. this is given that#everyone lives including Ren.#and the general unanswered question if they remain as the interceptor after xenpurgis. or if they're left to live. is the world still#dictated by Karma? who knows! i don't know shit! so their dialogue was made with that in question.#i want to give mona an eventual talking style. i have it in my head but writing it doesn't come out right.#this dialogue was a while ago but somewhat still accurate so i kept it for the most part.#a lot of internal thinking in them. thats smth huge i put down for them. rabbit heart rabbit brain#goes a mile a minute. craves the day where they don't have to worry about running. etc.#i hope to get dialogue down. someday.#anyways. i love the shenanigans i put down here.#the lost camp kids are not the same ones in canon i added new ones for funsies.#and mona's crush is not. rlly shown. but it is present. i like to think the obvious point for them crushing isn't rlly nervousness#but loosening up a lot more. especially facial expressions.#and renmona goes out on a shopping trip. i hope i added character to make mona unique... im v worried about that. enough of that though#anyways. had many breakdowns. suffered many art blocks. bon appetite.
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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i hate my face it needs to be softer and i hate my body it needs to be sharper
#there is nothing in the world i wished i had more than a smaller/rounder nose#why is that thang genuinely V#<#>#^#every direction sniffin#i want to bury my face in things and not impale them#i hate the way it looks when i smile#somehow it gets even bigger#and more downturned#and my body well . at least thats easier 2 change#im so hyper aware of how much i weigh i hate the number being known it makes me want to cry i feel too exposed#its like it being a secret keeps me safe#even though everyone can see my body anyway#if i just have that then im safe no one can hurt me#what if the number makes them see me differently#what if it changes the way i look in their eyes like it does in mine#what if the dysmorphia streaks out past just me#i know its stupid n realistically it doesnt matter at all but i am so Scared i am terrified#i hate my ed i hate everything it holds over me all the time everyday#every time i look at myself im different#n im worse#and no matter how much i suffer its never happy#im so sick rn im in pain but all i can think about is at least im not eating at least its stopping me from eating#i just want to be different i want to be anything else#i feel like im always going 2 be stuck as the grossest thing in the world#ill never get the chance to look at myself n see anything but that#i want to be better. i do. i want to just move on#im so tired. but im So awful looking. & everyone has always made sure i know it. made sure im lesser and i am#ive never had a real friend. theyve always hated me n kept be barely around because they feel bad for me. n just told me how bad i looked
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