#and im broken inside

[katyakurae]

Just finished In Stars and Time and now I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do with my life

[shkika]

And so leviathan became one body shorter.

Soft VV1 ramblings under the river surface. This would happen right after 5-3.

[brokenobstacless]

I'm sorry, I just didn't think you could hurt me that much.

[tumbly-s]

Trigun body horror week day 3 — LUNGS

[riickgrimes]

Yeah, I feel like people are gonna be like, “why isn’t it me?” You know? Sure. I mean, it could have been you, Rome. It could easily have been you. It’s just marginal presentation shit. [...] It’s just, you know, the optics. It’s dumb, but the stitches, they’re good stitches. They’re good.

[cconfusedkat]

H-💥💥💥💥💥🛬🛬🛬🛬

Sorry my brain is like. About to Explode if i work Another minute on this and its only at 46 seconds so im gonna continue on it (probably up to 1m56s???) Tomorrow x_x

[evangelistofmurder]

Chapter 4 Musing + Bonus thoughts in tags

I've been thinking about this recently and realized: Yakou did have a chance of surviving the gas but made the deliberate choice not to:

[Solution Key - Toxic Gas Properties]

Yakou could have asked Desuhiko for a space suit; I don't even think the latter would question it either, this hammers more of the fact that the plan was a murder-suicide from the start. Though, this is the same man who takes dying over and over again in considering and still went through with it.

He really only needed Desuhiko's and Fubuki's fortes to enact the murder, but he brings Halara and Vivia to the lab as well. Yakou knows damn well the peacekeepers, especially Yomi will look for any excuse to arrest/execute the NDA. He brings Halara and Vivia to protect Fubuki, Desuhiko and Yuma; Yomi accuses the remaining NDA detectives for Yakou's 'murder' anyways. It was somewhat fruitless but the fact of the matter is to say even when lying to the others he did still care about them. Just as much as Yakou cared about the NDA the latter cared about Yakou just as much too. Yakou was really the heart of the NDA; Yakou just never took into account that everyone else would try desperately to save his life instead of just leaving him. (Going on a whim, to say he probably thought they'd just leave like how his former detectives left to join the peackeepers).

Yuma trying to beg Yomi to get Yakou medical attention, Fubuki using all her energy to rewind time in order save him, Halara administrating first aid after fighting the peackeepers, Desuhiko having to tell Fubuki to not to turn back time any further so the Chief can rest because it is too late and Vivia just standing there walking away since he doesn't know how to deal with it and express it directly. Hell, Halara was potentially giving CPR to his corpse in hopes that he'd stay alive after Yuma and Vivia checked Huesca's logs.

Finally, there's everyone's collective survivors guilt. It's safe to assume everyone knew what happened before Number One called in whether Yuma or Vivia said something; There's also Kurumi who wasn't even at the lab asking if they made a mistake by going.

In closing, it's a tragedy in every single way and I don't even think I hit everything in this musing; To me this is more focused on the NDA's perception of events

[I'd appreciate if people made responses to this by the way!!]

[pygmalimoon]

-They say pain fades with time, but not for me.-

I'II see you in there.

We'll find out, won't we?

commission done by @/damaotizi

[starjasmines]

i was going to make a post about math but the door just slammed open as i opened tumblr and there was no one there at all . i looked down and there was the cat. i said hi! you just opened my door through sheer force of running and jumping at it! and she said mreoww and left...

[hyunpic]

press photos of hyunjin at tma 2023

[brokenobstacless]

[irradiatedsnakes]

also in terms of pkmn cartridge collecting... wrt cartridges i do and do not have. if i want 1 cart of each set (ie rby, gsc, dppt, one of each of those) i do still need: red blue or yellow (since i only have a virtual version of red and a bootleg yellow cart. i used to have a blue cart but i gave it to my sister years ago), firered or leafgreen (coulda sworn i had leafgreen ... a long time ago,...), andddd let's go pikachu or eevee (shared a cart with my sister).

i made my little spreadsheet for save files but in terms of carts ive got: crystal, sapphire (though it's old and barely works), soulsilver (also on its last legs, my very first pokemon game that has seen a LOT of use), heartgold (japanese), pearl (english and japanese), diamond (japanese), platinum (english and japanese), black, white 2, alpha sapphire, y, moon, ultra moon, sword, legends arceus, scarlet, and shining pearl (cart is japanese but language is console-specific). which is pretty good i think

[canis-dies]

01. Housofpsychoticwomn - Ethel Cain. // 02. Housofpsychoticwomn - Ethel Cain. // 03. Ciencias Naturales - Juan Gatti. // 04. Manual of surgical bandages, devices and dressings - J. M Goffres, // 05. rabbittutor. // 06. Unknown. // 07. Rick Berry. // 08. Uncarné_10 - A.Na. // 09. Deathless - Catherynne M. Valente. // 10. Unknown. // 11. Unknown. // 12. Suren Manvelyan. // 13. Suren Manvelyan. // 14. Suren Manvelyan. // 15. Etienne - Ethel Cain. // 16. Atlas and Epitome of Operative Surgery - Otto Zuckerkandl. // 17. сердце, рука - Tverdaya. // 18. Venus De Medici - Francesco Calenzuoli. // 19. Peripety (1) - Jen Mazza. // 20. Peripety (6) - Jen Mazza. // 21. Peripety (Artist Statement) - Jen Mazza. // 22. Unknown. // 23. Reclining Nude - James Jebusa Shannon.

[spookythesillyfella]

y'know that sinking feeling in your stomach that continues to worsen no matter what you do ? the sort of empty void that keeps expanding . incapacitating you and making you lose your mind while you stare at the ceiling for the rest of the day because you cannot accomplish anything ?

[cent-scratchnsniff]

[horrorknife]

i had my alarm set for 3:55 this morning (i had to be at work an hour early today) and ended up waking up at. 2:55. because my body hates me. and then just laid there until 3:52 when i decided to get up. anyway i’m extremely tired and my back is Killing Meeeee