#and im HYPERVENTALATING
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I need Jaskier to tell me I'm pretty alright right now and that I'm doing just fine and that he's proud of me I think that would heal all of my mental illness actually
#hes so SOFT#and im HYPERVENTALATING#And i need joey batey to tell me those things while hes looking at me like THAT#for my SOUL#jaskier#the witcher#the witcher season 3#the witcher spoilers
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Not Ed being all “you torture like a bitch” chill until Stede starts to get tortured and then he’s ready to fuck him up
#im totally not hyperventalating#ofmd stede#ofmd blackbeard#ofmd s2#ofmd season 2#gentlebeard#our flag means death season 2#our flag means death#ofmd spoilers#ofmd 2
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hmmm... am i about to change my pfp for the first time in like 10+ years probably...?
#*hyperventalating* change is ok. change is ok. change is ok. change is ok. change is ok. change is—#(it'll be tomura. btw. but im trying to figure out what picture i even want.)#the thing that has me so appreensive is that i dont have the original picture it is right now#so like. i cant change it back if i change my mind.#literally its not even that deep but at the same time why does this stress me out so much???#ive been wanting to make it tomura for like forever cuz hes my fav buuuuuuuut...#alas.... the fear of change....
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Stupid period vent
If youre a cis man; kiss a uterous haver on the forehead today
Cus fuck this feels like a mental parasite
#:(#i hate getting my period :(#im so emotional#fuck a stupid tiktok has me hyperventalating over hpw i miss my mom and i was 4 again#my dad doesnt come home for another 3 hrs......#i need a hug so badly i wanna call him and ask him to come home but i shouldnt#.....fuck i think i might need to#i hate that i was literally fine until that stupid tiktok....#have you guys seen the cat Mao cartoons on tiktok? i always get sucked and forget theyre always emotional#this one was about a mom cat and a kitten and the mom cat died#i hate my mom and think she did horrendous things to me i shouldnt be screaming how much i miss her#fuck.#i dont wanna keep growing up and watching everyone die or leave#fuck im spiraling so bad#the safe thing might be to call my dad but i really really shouldnt make him leave work#i can never do the right thing im so fucking broken#i really need a hug and a joint#if i dont message you back im ok: i just feel very uncontrollable rn#going back n forth between anger and heartbreak#ALL OF THIS OVER A FUCKING TIKTOK#im so fucking stupid..#ill be okay i just hate being alone when im thinking about my mom/dark stuff#im not even sewerslidal im just extreamly emotional and its scaring me#if im not ok by 3pm ill call my dad#i feel nothing one minute and then i feel everything and rinse repeat#i just hate that i get triggered so easily#i already feel a lil calmer im just tired n need a hug#i know that im safe my body just physically does not feel safe#so im like trapped in my head#but if my dad was here hed be able to pull me out
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I CANT DO THSI
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Listening to the backstory mini episodes like
#IM HYPERVENTALATING#THAT WAS TOO MUCH IMPORTANT CHARACTER STUFF IN TOO SHORT A TIME#AHHHHHHHHH#WOLF 359#SOBBING WILDLY
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school doodles
i return once more with art from my suffering in the american educational system. here are the products.
here are the things i drew in my adobe illustrator class this morning
and heres the shit from the rest of the day
#mutant mayhem#donatello#mutant mayhem donnie#melon mikey#digital art#traditional art#i love these lil goobers#istg#i will die for them#my school computer sounded like it was hyperventallating while i was drawing#totally not conserning lmao#i dont have a phone right now so im taking photos on my laptop#no reference art#only pain and memory
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im too autistic for human life i want to become a lizard under a rock or perhaps a little critter scampering around the woods
#i almost just had a meltdown bc i broke a plate#literally almost started crying and hyperventalating and screaming and banging#im ok tho i took my meds......
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waking up and seeing that ur fav writer liked your post
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I haven't felt
This bad
In a long time
#ive cried myself to sleep 2 nights in a row#and now im awake at 6am on a saturday#for no other reason than hyperventalating in my sleep#had a lovely dream and by lovely i mean my character had brain damage and nearly died like twice#so that was fun#im supposed to meet up with my mom today#but i really dont want to#mostly cuz i probably shouldnt be driving when i feel like this#but if i cancel on her#shes gonna be so mad#and think i just dont want to help her#but i do#i just cant right now#i dont get it#i was doing so well#fucking situational depression#i can adapt and handle a lot of change just fine#but for some reason#this one set me off#and it set me off bad#but in reality i dont have a reason to cry#my problems are so small compared to other friends/coworkers#god damn im pathetic
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I feel like Jordan and Matt would have an argument about how often he gets into fights
Idk im just a sucker for angst lol
you asked for this nonny...
"I CANT KEEP COMING TO GAMES IF YOU'RE GOING TO KEEP DOING THAT SHIT MATT!" jordan yells at her boyfriend, "IT NOT GOOD FOR ME!" matt scoffs,
"WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO JORDAN? ITS HOW I PLAY! DO YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE MY STYLE? THATS WHAT'S GOTTEN ME THIS FAR!"
"YAH WELL ITS GOING TO KILL YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND WHO FINDS HERSELF HYPERVENTALATING EVERY GAME CAUSE YOU'RE SO RECKLESS,"
"THEN STOP FUCKING COMING!" matt yells back,
"FINE!" jordan screams back, tears in her eyes, "NOW GET THE HELL OUT OF MY APARTMENT!"
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You know that ugly, dry heaving ass cry you do after a whoopin when you're tryna talk but you can't catch your breath but you're still tryna say full sentences but it just sounds like sniffling & baby gibberish?
Yeah, that's me right now.
My plate of wings is soggy and my Henny is watered down from my fistful of tears... Happy tears of course. CIIINNNNNNN 😩
No love
#I'm speechless#but in a im too busy crying and fanning my face kinda way#mouth open and all#this whole post is giving my heart the biggest hug#from the soon to be newlyweds#to baby red being a CHIIILLLLDDDD#to Indya making her entrance#to Darren in that damn cowboy hat#*bites knuckle*#to the damn puff of dust that OG stirred up whippin that damn Bentley like he stole somethin#CIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNN#IT'S TOO EARLY FOR THIS#i mean it's 1:30..but stlll#*hyperventalates*#BABYYYYY RED IS A CHIIIIIILLLLLLDDDDDD#thee cutest snaggletoothed child...and I CANT TAKE IT#😩
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Also, in light of the new pmmm movie coming out soon (I am also in love with madoka magicia), which magical girls would you assign to each GF character? It can also be characters from Magia Record! I haven’t caught up to the storylines of all those magical girls yet though.
dude. dude. madomagi is my life blood. the new movie trailers made me hyperventalate. ive been waiting for this since 2016 ..... middle school me is crying rn .............
OOOOO THIS SOUNDS FUN OKAY OKAY so.......
favorite character syndrome makes me want to put madoka and stan in the same category. AND THEY KINDA ARE. they both give up themselves to save the world and the people they love (esp because theyve struggled with self worth issues their entire life). BUT ALSO. god stan's whole thing was chaining himself to gravity falls to try and get ford back for 30 years and ... if that aint homura-core ... i dont know what else is...
going off that fanart you rbed from fillerfarts, ford and homura are. very similar esp personality wise. and also being huge criminals with large arsenals of weaponry. ford's quantom distabilizer and homura's nukes are like. the same to me. same energy
the other characters i feel are kinda hard to associate characters with? no one really slots up neatly from the GF cast to the madomagi cast. kyoko and wendy have surface level similarities, but even then kyoko's a hot head while wendy's whole thing is that she's always chill. i think maybe dipper and mabel come close to the sayaka & kyoko relationship? one trying so hard to live up to the idea of a hero and isolating themself while the other reminds them its okay to not be alone. but even then i think maybe its a stretch from me? kyosaya is so good and so specific. if i twist my brain i could see dipper being like sayaka and mabel being the kyoko to that? if youre pickin up what im puttin down? but also i sound like this
mami is such a funny outlier. only girl to not be cursed with yuri instead shes cursed with Insta Death LOLOLOL. god maybe at most i could associate fiddleford with mami? maybe? but thats me also stretching like an olympian
RAAAGHHGHH i just feel like we got lucky with the stans because theyre the only ones with a weirdo fucked up THING going on. the rest of the gravity falls cast are relatively normal, its just the stans are the crazy people. meanwhile everyone in madomagi has something crazy going on
AS FOR THE MAGIA RECORD GIRLS!!!! HONESTLY ??? i uh. erm. i dont really care for magia record (gets boo'd off the stage). ITS A CUTE MOBILE GAME FOR SURE some of the designs are fun but i feel like its just a jank add on to the madomagi story. like im glad its not canon, its just one of the Many Timelines homura goes through that branches off to a happy ending of defeating walpurgisnacht (in the game. the anime is different). i watched the anime and tried to get into the mobile game but it just didnt have the same punch. nothing will ever grab me the way homura and madokas freak situationship did, especially cus everyone in magia record is so Normal by comparison LOLOL
but also this girls design screams candy to me
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Hi my name is sav. I am currently between bouts of in-and-out-of-hyperventalation because nothing is getting better, i have credit debt and loan payments and owe people money i never wanted to owe, my car needs repairs i cant even afford to go get diagnosed, im almost certainly going to have to move in another 10 fucking months, i never have enough hours at work and i cant do anything without at the very least starting to quietly fucking panic and my migraines are getting worse and worse and my teeth fucking worse and worse and worse and i already have to wake up in 7 hours for a night shift but im clearly not getting any damn sleep and I just don't want to be here any more.
I dont have the energy or the will power or the time to draw a pretty pretty banner or write a comprehensive set of goals this time.
If you have free Anything to spare I am past the point of not begging for it. Anything, at all, helps. Patreon. GoFundMe. If the size of that goal on GoFundMe has you balking, yeah. Me fucking too.
#i have been trying so hard#i cant do orlando much longer#but i cnt fucking get out of here until the debts are fucking paid#i dont know what to fucking do this point#if i could just get all of this fucking handled then i could get out of here#i just#im not keeping it together anymore cause its just getting worse and worse and worse#urgent
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my contribution for Mutuals Powerpoint Night!!!!!! @wherearetheplants @astralrunic @multi-lefaiye @cnnamonrolls @abouttogetshellshocked @approximately20eggs (this is @/nicola-writes' TMA sideblog btw for those confused).
anyway. one more thing under the cut :))) you should click i promise
hello jon apologies for the deception but i wanted to make sure you started reading, so i thought it best not to announce myself. now:
JURGEN LEITNER? STUPID IDIOT MOTHERFUCKING JURGIEN LEITNER? GOD DAMN FOOL BOOK COLLECTING DUST EATING RAT OLD BASTARD SHITHEAD IDIOT AVATAR OF THE WHORE BIGGEST CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS LAUGHED OUT OF TOWN COWBOY MOTHERFUCKING JURGEN LEITNER
STOP PINNING ME WHEN I TALK ABOUT JURGEIN LEITNER I HATE HIM SO MUCH WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MANY FUCKED UP BOOKS WHY DID HE DECIDE TO FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT JUST SET THEM LOOSE IS HE DEAD IS HE A BASTARD MAN HAS SUCH A VISCERAL AFFECT ON ME NOT EVEN IN THE ROOM NEVER SEEN HIS FACE AND I KNOW HE HAS THE WORLDS SHITTIEST BEARD GET AWAY FROM ME
if i wanted to get into heaven and god said jurgein leitners waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the sole purpose of getting sent back down
if i have to deal with jurgen leitner speaking one word in person on voice in podcast not only will i close the tab i will delete my bookmark out of spite and have to rewatch the entire series again for the experience of being able to skip all the times when he is mentioned or alive
i dont even know why i hate him so much. he collects books but i am just mad because i am angy
he better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if hes just some rich shithead whose just a fan of creepypasta and wanted the irl version ill go ham
BETTER have had a book make him kill a man cuz if he didnt im going to make him
paypal.com/IFuckingHateJurgeinLeitner
episodes not even about him. vaguely mentioned what is supposed to maybe be his library and i lost it
where the fuck is jurgen leitner if hes still alive im going to so deeply wish he wasnt
crusty old man
ill punch leitner and his sad frail old man twig bones will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and he will desintegrate until all thats left of him is one final book he kept on him at all times simply titled Now You Fucked Up in ancient yiddish
im not breathing im hyperventalating at this point
i hope theres a date given for when jurgen died or will die so i can make it a reminder on my phone
everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the man who had so many fucked up if true books
(congrats on experiencing both HELLO JON and the leitner rant now <3 youre in the fandom already)
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IM HYPERVENTALATING. SHE ASKED ME TO READ OVER HER ESSAY AND WHILE I WAS READING IT SHE BENT DOWN NEXT TO ME AND WAS LIKE
“Is it good?”
#her face was literally so close to mine#i almost fell out of my chair#cannot breathe#cyberslvts talks
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